"there's things i want to say to you, but i'll just let you live. like if you hold me without hurting me, you'll be the first who ever did."
a thoughtspost about lisa reflecting on what it means to love and be loved by you.
lisa minci is the greatest mind of six generations combined.
she is the witch of the purple rose, the revered spantamad prodigy that even, until now, the akademiya still respects. she is an esteemed knight of the favonius order. a humble librarian. a good friend and mentor to anyone willing to ask. and, in the warm circle of your arms while you two lay in the bed you share, yours.
yours, as much as she can give you. as much as she's allowed, with the constant trickle of sand bearing down in the back of her mind. the nagging reminder of time and how little she has of it drags something acrid into her mouth as she wakes, like she always does, in the dead of night for no reason at all. lisa awakens with something sharp and bitter, like the tang of her stronger tea blends, in her chest and fights the urge to hiss at such a tired routine. her only solace now that she's conscious to suffer her insomnia is the vision you make beside her.
she looks down at you, tracing the curve of your face with sleepwarm eyes and quiet, searching hands. lithe fingers ghost over your skin like a crystalfly's kiss — light and airy and so, so delicate, as if she can't bear the thought of disturbing you. it's here in the hushed hour where lisa loathes and loves to wake up every night (to allow herself brief reprieve and a sliver of rage at her unfair fate; to allow herself reminders of softness and love so great it eases the storm in her heart).
when lisa thinks of love, she thinks of warmth. like the afternoon rays that wash over her when she goes to take her naps in the library. like the cups she gingerly holds when she needs something stronger than her usual blend and doesn't want to risk staining her pretty teacups with the tannin in her tea. like the flutter of gossamer wings in her stomach when you look her way and smile at her like you have the rest of forever to love her.
(it's unfair, she laments behind her soft, amiable smiles with a muted fury raging (always raging) in her chest. i can't love you enough, my dear. why is my forever not as long as yours?)
the chill of the night never fails to leave her shivering, and it is in those wicked, bitter moments that she curls herself closer to you. you're a beacon of warmth and peace to the witch that's been fighting against time since the day she got her vision. you're a place of rest, comfort, love. to lisa, you are home.
she wishes she could have your forever too. forever, to love and to hold you, like you promise her to always do. she wants to buy a house together — she doesn't want to live in the small apartment her job came with any longer than she has to. something with those charming redbrick walls you like pointing out to her when you stroll across the city together. a small garden for her herbs and some vegetables, and hanging planters to liven up the outside face. the living room would have two chairs and a sofa, a sturdy little coffee table, and the pretty rug she had bought two years ago in sumeru will finally have a use. a lived-in bedroom with too many pillows and blankets piled up like a nest in the center of your bed. a warm kitchen with something always cooking, baking, or brewing, and the scent of your life together would seep into every crack and crevice of the home you share. there would be all sorts of knick knacks in your home, and frames detailing some of the most precious moments of your relationship would line the walls. your first anniversary, for example. a particularly sentimental date. your first windblume festival as a couple, and (and, if she can dare to dream it) your kiss on your wedding day.
you'd be married, in her dream of forever. you're radiant in the glow of domestic life, and her heart no longer aches with the weight of an everpresent deadline behind her. instead, lisa's deadlines are gentle and pleasant things. don't be late to our anniversary, lisa! you'd call as you leave your house in the morning. don't slack off today, alright? i'm making your favorite! you'd smile. finish your work soon. be safe in your travels. tell me all about your adventures with the traveler.
come home soon, safe and sound, ok?
it really is unfair, she thinks, that she's fallen in love with you. it really is cruel, she weeps, that you've fallen in love with her.
the feel of your arms around her is a pain she clings onto with her entire being — the grand prodigy that she is is nothing compared to being yours. with her fate as doomed as it is, pride is inconsequential. if she only knew where and to who, she'd beg until her knees and throat were raw for more time, for an answer, for a chance at the forever you'd never know she can't walk with you.
her hourglass leaves her perpetually one, two, three steps behind you in the endless march of time. she can try all she likes (and by celestia she has tried) to catch up and walk with you step-for-step, but she's only mortal. there's only so much she can do. she's clever, but not clever enough. one, two, three steps behind you and everyone else she has ever loved — all lisa minci, the greatest mind of six generations, can do is watch.
loving and being loved. what a wicked, terrible, beautiful thing.
"lisa...? what's wrong? can't sleep again?"
"it's nothing, darling. go back to sleep. i'll follow right after."
[man this was a fight and a half to write. lisa is such an interesting character and although im not super confident that i wrote her well, im really proud of how this turned out! for all you lisa lovers out there, i hope you enjoy this <3]
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No u 👫
<3 <3 <3 I also love themmmmmmm *explodes* @misery-lake
Maeve actually really looks forward to when Dez helps her wash her hair. He's the first person outside of her immediate family she's let touch her hair (she's got a lot of trust issues and her hair is vvvv important to her <3). But he's always so sweet and gentle with her and her favourite part is when he does some new hairstyle when they're finished and then they go out to the market to have dinner.
Tehi actually LOOOOVES Dez. Tehi is Maeve's bat friend who usually hates anyone who is close to Maeve because she's a jealous lil freak who is very protective. But Dez won her over surprisingly easily. Maybe him having all sorts of animals helped (even if Baby became Tehi's #1 mortal enemy for a time do to an incident) but she LOVES him lol. She chirps happily and likes to sleep in his hair
To piggyback off Dez picking her up (and vice versa <3 <3 <3) he'll just do it...randomly. She's bent over picking something up? Scoop! Talking with someone (who is likely in on it)? Scoop! They made a game out of it when she started doing it back. She secretly loves being carried around.
Maeve makes all of Dez's animals little clothes. Baby has four sweaters and two pairs of shoes that they put on her when they go for walks on hot days. His ducks all have little flower and strawberry hats. When shes pregnant she's sewing up a storm with baby clothes. Dez proudly wears her embroidery work on his shirt collars.
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In diabolik lovers the anime there's a main love interest for yui does sumire have a main love protagonist in her route? since she doesn't share a route with any of the boys
{ Thanks for the ask anon! She doesn't really have a main ship or really main interest tbh, my blog is a multiship blog she can wit literally anyone. You'll find that in her route she has a lot of different scenes wit everyone n different relationships wit everyone }
{ While your right that she does have her own route with js her, but she will have her own route with the boys in ecstasy. JS ECSTASY THO, but in order to read, play those u need to read her route first so I'm posting hers first. Non of the routes wit the boys are canon routes tho, like it is kinda?? But it's not really the true ending of Sumire but it's the path she can go down }
{ but in her general route aka her canon one, her sorta main interest would TECHINICALLY be Shuu, Ruki, Shin. However Sumire doesn't have any romantic feelings for any of the boys she's attracted to them but she doesn't love them romantically YET }
{ Sumire defo loves them, but like more in a "I wish to protect them" "they are my family." Kinda way, like she loves them because they all give her a purpose, taught her about life n such. Her most popular ship on this blog is Shuu tho so I give him more moments n such wit her through her routes }
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HELLO MY LOVE!! How are you doing? 😚❤️
Also thank you for tagging me in your recent post. So therefore, I think you need to feast your eyes on this 😖
My wife!! How are you pookie?
I’m doing good, today is my Friday so I’m in a pretty good mood, also you’re welcome love🫶🏻 (Literally so excited to get off just so I can submit a request for some NSFW Neteyam🤭)
ALSO OH WOW????👀👀 we love to see it
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💛Monthly Recap💛
Top 5 songs of March 2023
1. Don’t Touch Me - Refund Sisters
2. 2 Be Loved - Lizzo
3. Dirt Cheap - Sion
4. ew - Joji
5. DayDream - J-Hope
Top 5 Artists of March 2023
1. Ateez
2. Stray Kids
3. Sion
4. Joji
5. ADOY
Absolutely have been bias wrecked by San! This man is just kindness personified!🥹💛 Plus the meme of him coming super close to the camera with his eyes and saying moo moo moo moo has been living in my head rent free🥹
💛Overall Recap💛
Girl this month has been so busy and crazy😅 I had midterms and it was my birthday month! Hehehe I share a birthday month with Yunho as well🤭💛 I’ve been off of Tumblr a lot this month as well, and I have yet to read all the fics I saved in my drafts! Girl I have 91 fics I saved!!?🫣 OOoh I also got my back tattoo touched up! I had my tattoo artist put black ink for the line work! My first black ink tattoo!👀👀 I know I wanted all my tattoos to be all in red but I’ve been falling in love with red and black tattoos! Oml just speaking about tattoos is making me want more!! I really want a huge plant piece! That goes from the side of my thigh to my knee and up to my ribcage! But I’d personally have to find a woman artist to do it! As much as I love the one I have now I wouldn't feel comfortable being almost nakey in front of him😬 He is a sweetie but ultimately it is about my comfortability!!👏😌 My birthday was fun I got to hangout with my childhood best friend of like 10 years now!😗💛 Super crazy how long we’ve known each other! OOh I also found out this month that I am allergic to micellar water! My eyes puffed up so bad and I got burns on them too! But I am all good now! My eyes still have some scabs on them but it isn't as bad as it was!😱🫢 No way am I ever touching that again!! Hopefully April will not be as hectic!🙏
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