#or maybe im just tired

[gongedtornado]

what the fuck is my problem

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i think i need a fucking nap

#im going to sleep. good night #this is so stupid #kazzy scribbles #cromdo face #bugsnax #shartposting #i cant be the only one who saw it right??? right???? #or maybe im just tired #elemental #actually a lil bit hyped for the movie #some of the designs are genuinely charming

[shit-people-probably-didnt-say]

Me: *trying to sleep*

My brain: How many teeth do we have? No you gotta count them what if we’re special

Me:

#night shifts are killing me #counting teeth and two different songs playing in the background of my mind #that sounds like an obscure band name #or maybe im just tired #apparently its 32 but that seems like the wrong number to me #we were not *in fact* special #yes i refer to myself as ‘we’ #its me my body and my brain #we are the three of us #brain why #not turtles

[coffees4sleepy]

My art style changed, get ready for a smack in the face, coming soon!

#my art #art #artstyle #it changed so much it’s kinda funny #or maybe im just tired

[fleeting-ideas]

Why do people who do X Reader fic on ao3 not tag it with Reader as a character? It's so rude to be looking at a character tag while having no preference for canon character ships and excluding the "Reader" and "Reader Insert" tags only to have half the fics that appear be X Reader fics.

And it's not even consistent. Sure, I could block Blorbo Of The Search X Reader, but then I find Character B, C D, E, and F being shipped with the Reader.

Its not even beneficial to you as an author to not tag them as a character. You loose potential readers finding fics by going "Reader" + Fandom in their search. This is why tagging helps.

#loki x reader #bucky x reader #x reader #am i being rude by tagging those? #maybe #but so are people who dont tag reader as a character #or maybe im just Tired #So Tired #im like half a search away from commenting on a fic begging the authors to tag okay

[pythiaswine]

tymps (the sick in the head song) is such a john laurens mood

#or maybe im just tired #historical john laurens #john laurens #historical lams #fiona apple #my queen #my goddess #fiona the devine apple

[snickersnek]

I desire... something. I don't know what. It isn't cheese, like I want that, but I can tell it isn't what I now desire.

It might be the desire to be pulled into a strange land and undergo harrowing hardships that in the end better and strengthen me. It feels like it could be that.

Or it might be to snuggle. I'm not sure.

#snek rambling #the masculine urge to #or maybe im just tired

[shoverse]

empty words :(

#or maybe im just tired

[yayimallamaagain]

Charlie's shoes were not there a minute ago 🤔

#heartstopper #heartstopper s2 #or maybe im just tired #lol

[rockman-x]

im feeling so weird today

#i mean not necessarily sad #but pretty.... ehhh #yknow #maybe im still sad abt my cat idk #or maybe im just tired

[birdybellicose]

This week I:

-Helped my crush with her fashion show for her school and had debilitating gay panic for two days straight-- but I learned makeup tips from super models!

-Got sort of....tricked? Into going on a date with a VERY ODD, yet incredibly interesting girl.

-I have a dog now. (The same dog I found last year)

#birdy #personal #I think more has happened to me in this week than all of last year #Ill get into more detail later when I finally have a proper 8 hr sleep #I promise the whole getting tricked into a date thing isnt as malicious as it sounds #she was very upfront about it #in other news I fucking love this dog #I love this dog very much #Im getting emotional over how much I love this dog #or maybe im just tired #But I would still take a bullet for my new dog

[splatloafbud]

IM,, IM COOKING SOMETHING... ahh

#ive been only posting dedf1sh art on this blog so far LOL #im sorry i just love them sm omg.... #acht splatoon #dedf1sh #splatoon #fanart #loafbud #blockbench #3d lowpoly #im tired and hungry as hell.. like legit i need to snack on smth real quick #.....unless...... maybe once im done with this model... i can eat it 👁️👁️ /j #OMNOM NOM NOMFOMONMNOM

[steddieas-shegoes]

It’s been done in every which way but Eddie being in an accident of some kind that leaves him paralyzed, but his doctors believe he could walk again with intense physical therapy

He’s stubborn and absolutely hasn’t dealt with any of the trauma of the accident and takes it out on his physical therapist, Steve, who is used to patients being pretty angry about their situation

He always meets Eddie where he is though, tries to keep a smile on his face and joke when appropriate and even shares his cookies from his lunchbox with him

Eventually, Eddie starts making some progress, but instead of being happy about it, he panics and cancels all his PT appointments for the week

Steve tries calling, texting, emailing, doing everything he can to encourage him to keep going, but it all goes unanswered until Gareth, one of Eddie’s closest friends, calls him on Eddie’s phone

He’s depressed and he won’t get out of bed, he’s given up. He’s tired of being in pain and having to try to so hard just to move his damn legs a little

Steve isn’t usually this personal with clients, and tells Gareth he can’t discuss anything medical with him due to patient confidentiality, but insists he should try to drag him to the office the next day before it opens

And somehow, probably through guilt, Gareth manages to wheel a very sullen and grumpy Eddie into the side door entrance to the office at seven in the morning

Steve tells him to come back in an hour to pick him up and Eddie ignores the goodbye Gareth says to him

And Steve pretends nothing is wrong at all, goes through the usual temperature and blood pressure check, asks how he’s feeling and gets a grunt in response, asks if there’s any pain and gets an eye roll

But Eddie met his match in Steve because Steve then pushes him to the center of the workout room, where a large mat is out and a walker is set to the side

“What’s that?”

“Your walker.”

“I don’t need one seeing as I can’t fucking walk.”

“You are today.”

And Steve knows he’s pushing and he hates being pushy

But he knows what his clients are capable of, and he knows without a single doubt in his mind that Eddie is ready to use the walker for five to ten minute increments. He has the leg strength and the stubbornness, he just needs the belief in himself

“Do you want me to hurt myself worse?”

“Of course not. And if you get tired, the seat on the walker is right there. But you can walk and you will walk.”

“And if I call Gareth to come get me right now?”

“Then I don’t believe my services are of value to you anymore and I’ll wish you the best.”

It pained Steve to say it because he knew he was fucking good at what he did, maybe the best in town. His clients often had to wait for his availability to open for weeks or months at a time because of how many people were referred to him

But he said the right thing because Eddie huffed, groaned, and cursed under his breath before wheeling himself to the edge of the mat to hold onto the walker

He pulled himself up

His legs were shaking from not being used for the last few days more than the bare minimum, but his determination was clear

Steve slowly pulled the chair away as Eddie unlocked the brakes of the walker and glared at Steve as he took one step, then two

Sure, he was relying pretty heavily on the walker, maybe more than Steve would’ve liked to see, but he was moving

He made it across the mat and then locked the brakes, sat down on the pad on the walker, and gave a sarcastic grin to Steve

“Happy?”

“Are you?”

And maybe Eddie wasn’t ready to be asked that because he was suddenly sobbing, covering his face as tears flowed down his cheeks

Steve gave him a few seconds before moving to kneel in front of him, pulling his hands away

“You deserve to have your life back, Eddie. You’ve been lucky to have the chance to walk again. Let’s not waste it, okay?”

Eddie spent the rest of the session walking across the mat and taking breaks every two minutes or so

It was better than Steve even expected, but he reminded Eddie not to do too much at once

Eddie didn’t miss any more appointments with Steve, and every appointment, he seemed to be more charming and flirty, more like “the old Eddie” according to Gareth, who drove him most days

Steve never admitted it out loud, but he knew what he felt for Eddie was different from other clients. It felt more personal, and it felt like it could be more someday

When Eddie graduated to a cane, Steve’s services were officially no longer needed

And Eddie decided that he should probably take Steve out on a date

“Since I can walk and hold your hand now,” he winked.

Steve should say no, but he doesn’t

Because holding Eddie’s hand feels even more right as his boyfriend than it did as his physical therapist

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #headcanon #physical therapist Steve #idk going through my notes on things I’ll never have time to actually write #but maybe someone else does #I’m literally ignoring work so hard right now #I’m just tired!!!! #im just a girl who doesn’t wanna work anymore!!!! #cw: injury #cw: mention of accident

[immergladsss]

i miss writing, but i don’t miss the gnawing pressure of needing to update, but i  also miss that pressure because its what got me writing, but I don’t miss posting into the void and wondering does anyone even read this crap, but i absolutely miss those few comments that come once in a blue moon asking for an update, but then again I don’t miss the ahh shit i need to write feeling that comes after the comments cuz I dont want to disappoint the readers, but i do miss the motivation and energy that came from said comments, but i dont miss the exhaustion of trying to squeeze in writing when I’m already so busy...

so now I’m not writing...or posting anything... and my wips are sitting there, untouched, collecting dust. 

#writing #writing problems #fanfic problems #creative writing #and even tho i write for myself #but its not fun posting into the void #and its so much easier to just finish the story in my head rather than write it down #but writing it down leads to some incredible twists and scenarios #especially when the characters take on a life of their own #i want to write #but i think i have a writers block #or maybe im just tired #or maybe its the whole dead ex i'm still crying about #personal #thoughts #vent

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them) #we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op' #reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.

[lollytea]

I don't dislike the name change theory at all because I understand the thought process behind it, with the need to distance yourself from every trace of your abuser and all that. So like I get it. But I very strongly believe in Hunter reclaiming his name. Mostly cuz of scenes like this

It's important to him!! It's the name he uses to distinguish his true self from the persona he's built. It's the name he uses when he wants to be seen as someone other than the Golden Guard. It's the name others use when they want to express that they do see him. The name might have fucked up origins and he's clearly aware of it but being Hunter is the one thing about himself he's certain of right now.

#if i wasnt tired id write a little essay about this #but i dont want to. so i expect you to read my mind #i feel like the screenshots i used demonstrate what im trying to say right #maybe not #idk i just always felt like the narrative has always treated the usage of hunters name as something significant

[nordidia]

vent/comfort art to keep myself present during ptsd flashing

#actually im not gonna queue im just gonna post it now yahoo eat well #no context to what triggered him bc i didnt want to try going into stuff like that today #maybe leo got a bit hurt/lost and raph was in a sensitive spot #u can make up uir own thing #im tireed im gonna go to bed #this is ok to reblog btw #sunset duo #big comfort... snff... #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #my art #nordidia art