#or thought they were too plain

[ineed-to-sleep]

Sometimes I have a man..... living in my brain...... who is so so beautiful................

#vinicio....................... #vtm #vtm oc #vampire the masquerade #oc.vince #sleepyscribble #this was an old sketch I tried to salvage and turn into Something #I have a lot of sketches of him in my folder that never saw the light of day bc I just wasn't happy w how they turned out #or thought they were too plain #but now I'm glad I didn't delete them cnjfkfkf it's fun to go back and rework stuff after some time #I also really wanted to draw him today but I had no idea like. how exactly #so this one old sketch saved me <3

[eleanorfenyx]

I have finished Mysterious Lotus Casebook, and here are some of my thoughts! (Obviously not spoiler free)

The cases are absolutely batshit insane and I loved it every single time they were like 'we totally collected this evidence that incriminates a secret suspect, just believe us and also don't question when the fuck we had the time to do this or when we figured out that we needed to look for it'. 10/10 no notes, that's a hilarious way to have a genius detective. Show us nothing, tell us everything, YES king.

That being said, I could have done with a lot less standing around having the supporting cast repeat whatever Li Lianhua and Fang Duobing announce, maybe in an attempt to make sure their genius is clear for the audience? I get it, but at the same time it felt a little too hand-holdy for me, especially in scenes where LLH and FDB had already discussed their findings between themselves before presenting them to the concerned bystanders. I can read between the lines (or else understand what has just been explicitly stated) without having every conclusion filtered through a slightly different sentence structure to make sure I got it.

Di Feisheng amnesia arc my fuckin beloved

Di Feisheng destroying his 'father' and freeing everyone in Di manor in a vicious act of catharsis that tied nicely into the main Nanyin bug-mind-control-thing narrative my beloved

Di Feisheng my beloved

The amount of times I was like...genuinely surprised he and Li Lianhua didn't kiss is both embarrassing (because I do in fact understand censorship and what I sign up for with these dramas and yet and yet) and numerous enough that I could...possibly...theoretically..write a 5+1 fic of every time I want them to kiss about it. No one hold me to that but it's something I think I'd like to do.

Re: the above point: because what the FUCK was that ending?!!! EXCUSE ME?! I gotta FIX THAT SHIT.

There will come a day when the strength of my hope for an unambiguously happy ending in a queer(-coded? is the source originally bl or is this its own thing?) wuxia drama is rewarded....but it is not this day. I must fix this myself.

Jiao Liqiao's laugh is one of the most annoying things I've ever heard. I was reaaaaally hoping someone would just up and stab her during one of her little evil laughing fits. At one point I was shouting "KILL HER, KILL HER" at my screen because I could NOT take anymore of her (unfortunately, I did in fact have to take more of her).

I still think her insistence on being obsessed with DFS is hysterical when he is so VISIBLY only interested in LLH. Explicitly STATES that his only life purpose is to fuck fight LLH again. Babygirl (derogatory) he is so fucking gay let's get you a nice knife to the gut instead, okay?

I thought the whole Shan Gudao plot was interesting, going from looking desperately for his body -> putting him to rest -> hunting for his murderer -> finding out he's alive/the mastermind behind everything going wrong (which I was proud of myself for realizing before the reveal, I'm normally bad at that) -> thwarting him with sass and superior martial arts at every possible turn -> killing him stone fuckin dead with beginner level skills because he's so up his own hole he can't see that's what's happening - was really fun!

He also has a SUPER annoying laugh he can fuck off

OH OH OH MARTIAL ARTS SKILL OF TRANS YOUR GENDER?! I MARRIED HER SO HER AFFAIRS ARE MY BUSINESS NOT YOURS??? ASKING YOUR WIFE FOR HER FORGIVENESS AND UNDERSTANDING AS YOU LAY DYING AND SHE GIVES IT TO YOU?????? OKAYYYYYYY

The twist at the end that LLH is the one with royal blood was so funny to me. Like it's a good twist and I love that Shan Gudao was just quite literally always a fuckin try-hard loser in ways he didn't even know, but also it was SO funny. Granny coming in clutch at the last fuckin minute with secret knowledge she just literally never shared.

LLH is such a smooth motherfucker. Shame about his insistence on dying when quite literally everyone (bar the people who suck) is begging this man to just live. Just LIVE DAMN IT!!!!! I really liked it when FDB begs him to just consider his own life as important for ONCE and remember that people care about him because YES his self-sacrificing and committment to Chilling Out Farmer Style was not the mercy he thought it was!

LIVE AND GROW OLD WITH DI FEISHENG YOU DAMN IDIOT (the likelihood of me resisting the urge to write at least the one fic for them is zero to none)

Unironically love spitting up blood as a plot device and this show is no different. The Drama. The Panache. The desperation of everyone around you because you have BLOOD coming out of your MOUTH and you are FAINTING. Poison acting up? Spit blood. Someone bitch slap you with their magical palm ability? Spit blood. Get stressed? Spit blood. Get stabbed? Spit blood. It's always good!

Okay I think that might be all I've got for now, if I think of anything else I'll add them in a reblog. I thoroughly enjoyed it, would definitely recommend!

#mysterious lotus casebook #my thoughts #for whatever they're worth #it was nice too because unlike say Word of Honor I didn't mind the overarching plot about the jianghu #and the magical cures/objects that everyone is racing/fighting each other to get to first #WOH was just plain boring outside of the interpersonal relationships in my opinion #but in this there were only a few times I really just did not care about the latest fetch quest and wanted to get back to the relationships

[found--family]

am i the only one who sensed some jilted lover vibes from jensen? 

#burcon #cockles #thoughts #at the start of the panel and through a few particular interactions he seemed very standoffish #he was giving a little bitter and hurt and perhaps even resentful - maybe he only learned of misha's gf #at this con too! maybe it was news to him. on top of not seeing misha for months i can understand #if he was feeling a bit neglected and out of the loop. there's also the matter of misha's gf not being #in a poly thing with jensen and dee like vicki was ie. what she has with misha is seperate so i'm sure #that's another difficult thing to deal with knowing their time together is strictly separate #i've no doubt he wants misha to have a partner and be happy but there's an adjustment period #letting new people into your life and whoever misha's partner is now or in the future is going to #affect jensen on a personal level and moreover his relationship with misha. it's all very intriguing #and while i like what little i've seen and heard about this woman for misha i just think no matter who #she is it's going to take a toll on jensen's relationship w misha. i thought it was plain to see on jensen's face #during their panel: numerous moments where he was giving a poker face that wasn't covering a laugh #but instead like he was trying to smooth out his bitterness. or so my eyes and brain and heart tell me. #just various moments where things looked uncomfortable and jensen making off-colour jokes that didn't land #and which furthermore were barbed and snarky - not in their usual banter way but like he was lashing out #and using the excuse of chaotic panel convo to explain away his comedic pitfalls. but again maybe i'm #looking to much into it? idk. there are some lovely moments! fun and caring moments - but they #mainly came from misha's direction ngl. it seemed like misha was trying hard to keep the peace #while jensen was just running his mouth on comments and jokes that kept not landing - for me #everyone on my dash is loving their dynamic this panel - and i want to feel that love! it is possible that #learning misha has a gf has skewed my perception a little like i'm putting context onto moments #i otherwise wouldn't. but i also think i would've laughed and generally felt better watching their panel #if that was the case. idk. whatever the reason i do think something was OFF between them on stage #and it was coming from jensen from the start. misha picked up on it partway though but things felt #a little strained throughout. like jensen wasn't looking at misha as much as usual or reaching out for him #misha tried to salvage and not react to things. but both their answers to the last Q were passive aggressive af #and when they left the stage together they weren't close or touching or chatting like they usually are...

[milkweedman]

Coincidentally my usable warp is like exactly as long as my dining room. Point is tho, i am finally done thank fuck

#already snipped them #need to wash them still. guess ill just do a load of laundry later #now i just have like 12 hours of cleaning #not sure why i did all of this all at once right at the beginning #i had in fact planned to pretend these were cleaning breaks and interspersed them. and then forgot #oh well #definitely realizing i should have done more weft stripes. only did them in the last two bc i thought changing colors all the time #would be a pain #it wasnt tho and also it looks a lot better #the ones that are just warp stripes (most of them) look very plain and boring #which is a little gutting tbh #couldnt really tell when its just the amount visible on the loom at any given moment but laid out flat its like. hm. ok #idk maybe she'll use them more if theyre boring and ugly ? #altho she's not the kind of practical handmade gift reciever who is like 'oh its too pretty to use i will tuck it out of sight forever' #so i guess its a moot point #idk. its fine. she doesnt have a ton of towels or dish mats anyway #weaving #cats tw #(thats their food board and one of many water dishes) #wow actually i thought i got like 5 or 6 #literally only 4 #and the first one is a mess that i am keeping bc i didnt hemstitch it and im certainly not gonna hem it today #the last one was just supposed to be an ugly washcloth for me but i may give it to her bc otherwise its only 2 ? #or maybe i have 5 ? ive literally already forgotten and i cant tell from the picture

[titan5blood]

Laid down yesterday and immediately went "I need to draw baby titan" so here's fast and bad traditional sketches

#when y. when you c. when you cant press ctrl z on paper #so it looks so weird #my art #fan oc #titan oc #toh titan oc #thought up some new lore as well that ties well into his whole 'able to hide in plain sight' thing #basically his friends and family were taken by the archivists #but he hid too well #and was left behind

[airawisteria]

[ID: 2 drawings of Naminé from Kingdom Hearts in a field of purple and orange flowers. She is wearing a white dress with frills and a flower crown with a flower crown in her hand. Her body is facing towards the left, but her head is turned to look forward. She has a smile on her face. Her shoes are covered as the grass seems to be quite tall.

The drawing on the left is set at night with balls of light representing fireflies while the drawing on the right is set at day with a camera flare giving the impression that someone is taking Naminé's photo in that image, unlike the one on the left.]

#kh #naminé #my art #digital art #fanart #(i think my sketches for this drawing were the most detailed with like the entire lighting planned out and shit) #(as cute as naminé looks with her usual plain white dress) #(i just found it a bit too simple for my tastes so i gave her some sleeves and frills) #(and also mainly just cause i like drawing frills) #(i thought naminé would look cute with a flower crown sooooo) #(id think the second flower crown was for whoevers with her right now) #(which kh character is with her? who knows) #(i think i still need to work on my lighting but for now i think its pretty good!!!)

[anotherpapercut]

I love when I'm talking to someone and someone else who I don't know like that butts in to ask a really personal question that informs the conversation they are not a part of

#joked to a coworker that shes gonna get in trouble for breaking dress code and ahe asked abt my shirt #and i said i have a special exception and was gonna leave it at that and tell her abt it later when ppl werent around #and my fucking old supervisor who was literally demoted for being bad at their job goes 'whats your special exception' #first of all who was talking to you. not me #so i said i am disabled and constricting clothes cause discomfort and they said 'why don't you just buy plain shirts' #BITCH WHO ASKEDDDD. first of all they do not pay me enough for that second of all they should just comply with the fucking ada #so why are they interrupting my fucking conversation to ask about my clothes #im just too tired and frustrated and stressed for this. theyre lucky there were people around or i would've lost it probably #lol when an ex coworker decides its ok to share what you post on your personal blog with people you still work with #if any of you are looking at this post again stop. leave my blog. its incredibly inappropriate to share a private blog without permission #i don't tell anyone at work about my blog for a reason. this has been my blog/diary since i was 12 years old #i say things on here I wouldn't say irl because this is where i vent thoughts that are harsh. please respect my privacy #and stop fucking snooping on me. thanks. #and please do no not mention anything you saw here to anyone ever. including me.

[gouinisme]

last 2 journals + next 1

#they're all pretty different styles i like that #been trying to have more fun with my journals #wait nvm i did have a journal between the eye one and the sticker one but it was completely uncustomized and didn't last long #so we'll ignore that #i also fully didn't journal for like 2 weeks bc i had done the sketch for my new journal but didn't feel like painting it #and i didnt wanna write in a black plain journal again #that feels too functional and not.. like.. it doesnt encourage me to get creative with it #anyways #turns out i had some metallic pens hiding somewhere so i used that #been feeling in a wolfy mood #i'm sad with how scuffed the stickers on my previous journal #which extra sucks cuz the letters are from bumper stickers what do you mean they're the least durable stickers i had #but oh well they were free anyways. and it kinda looks cool gives it a more well worn feel #makes the three ish months i spent carrying it around with me everywhere visible so that's nice #i really like my journals i like journaling so much #like my journals are not aesthetic whatsoever they're very practical and chaotic but i like that about them #i feel like journaling like. placebo relieves the pressure in my brain #i do not have an internal monologue i have an internal cacophony it's like a fucking assemblée générale in there #so writing it all down is very soothing to my brain and painful to my wrists #it just feels like writing is the only time my thoughts can be interpreted and even if they're going in a thousand directions they're still #easier to follow than just. thinking #and then i can surround my thoughts with doodles and receipts and shit #or a strand of my own hair #that is something that is actually in one of the journals pictured abov #anyways why am i ranting down here i've got a new journal to fill #you know what i'm tagging this #journaling #cuz i think my journals are cute and ppl should see them i'm really proud of them #even though a lot of this is stickers i still feel like it looks real cute #doodles

[greed-the-dorkalicious]

All the #RyouSweep propaganda got me thinking like. Yeah we all criticize Ryou for STILL FUCKING GOING BACK FOR THE DAMN RING in Battle City (and every other time lbr), and rightfully so, but if we’re being honest. In his defense it WAS kind of horrendously irresponsible of the Yugis to just leave two wholeass Millennium Items just sitting on a table and then leave the room. Why did they do that

#LIKE DID THEY NOT JUST SPEND THE ENTIRE ARC TRYING TO GET THOSE SHITS OUT OF THE HANDS OF EVILDOERS OR WHATEVER #YOU KNOW THE IMPORTANT PLOT ITEMS THAT THEY NEED FOR YAMI TO GET HIS MEMORIES BACK AND ALSO THAT ARE VERY DANGEROUS #And I guess they were just like. 'Surely nothing bad will happen if we leave these unsupervised in plain sight of all the former bad guys' #HOW THEY FITTING TWO KIDS IN THERE WHEN THEY CLEARLY DON'T EVEN HAVE ENOUGH BRAIN CELLS FOR ONE #Either one of them could have said hmm we probably should not leave these lying around #Let's put them in our pocket or maybe even idk under the bed or some shit where people can't see them!!! #BUT NOOOOOOO #OF COURSE RYOU TOOK THE DAMN RING AND WHY NOT JUST GIVE HIM YOUR WALLET TOO WHILE YOU'RE AT IT #THEY'RE LUCKY HE DIDN'T TAKE THE MILLENNIUM ROD #THEY'RE LUCKY THE RING GOT STOLEN BY THEIR FRIEND AND NOT SOME RANDOM ASS KAIBACORP EMPLOYEE #Puts my head in my hands. I guess Yami truly is a suitable nemesis to Yami Bakura #Seeing as Yami Bakura is constantly possessing Yugi's classmate/friend and yet at no point has he thought to simply stab Yugi #I love Yugioh no one in this series has ever thought about anything other than games in their fucking life

[shirogane-oushirou]

with everything going on w tumblr, just in case anyone's putting off backing up their blogs: i just used that doc to FINALLY install tumblr utils after putting it off for months... and despite never using python before, it took less than an hour to set up and like. 10mins to back this blog up + 10 more mins to back up my other, smaller sideblogs! and with the settings i used, it should only take a couple of minutes to periodically update the backups.

super easy and super fast, it explains Every Single Step you need to take, and even gives you tips on how to make repeated backups super simple. 🙏🏻

#📌 [ my posts. ] #💭 [ my thoughts. ] #just thought i would say bc like. adhd exec dysfunction is a bitch lol and you might open up that doc and go 'nah too much' #but i s2g it's super simple -- the only thing you have to actually put thought into is deciding what options you want for your backup. #everything else is laid out in plain text and pictures. augh. if i'd had this document earlier i wouldn't have panicked each time the site #has gone down these past couple of months ;;; #but yeah. it says tumblr util is like a 3.5 of 5 on difficulty but if you aren't mobile-brained and know how to browse files #on your computer and copy-paste text you're gucci. it'd only be a 3.5 if you were raised solely on mobile devices and #don't usually use a pc / laptop.

[oversizedclothesdemon]

Made some art of Fukase for transgender day of visibility because I headcanon him as being such ^^ (and also I am myself)

#my art #vocaloid #fukase vocaloid #vocaloid fukase #trans #transgender #transgender day of visibility #fan art #trans headcanon #I drew him in a binder and pride shorts but it looks like he's in a swimsuit which is slightly bugging me but it's fine #he still has his arm thing because I thought the outfit looked too plain without adding a little something to it #as seen in my previous posts his hands were giving me a very hard time #someone else had a similar idea and I assure that this was unrelated to that ^^

[tiny-chubby-bird]

why do people always feel the need to stir the soup

#let me just vent here real quick #it's been some time since full release bg3 came out and the vibes were rlly great #but recently I've been seeing more and more drama #like ppl getting mad at other people's opinions and hcs #and while some posts are rlly nicely informative about stuff others are just plain rude and mean like #man it just rlly puts a damper on things u know #like guys it's a game #it's for enjoyment #the characters aren't real #the actors are real people though #it'd just be nice if ppl could stop being shitty and just enjoy a game normally #like normally as in just dont be a fuckin asshat #and like it's cool when people take things from the game and make something bigger out of it #like hey this little thing actually shows this big thing and a lot of thought went into this #but sometimes i feel like some of these are unraveled a little too far and the deal is being made too big #idk im bad with words #i just want everyone to be happy and hold hands #:(

[i-seeaspaceshipinthe-sky]

we will never bring s1 fandom back 

#understandable tho #the FICS of that time tho #iconic #i really thought i FOUND SOMETHING I NEEDED and then haha s2 #luther and diego are literally the same character now #fart jokes fart jokes AND DID I MENTION FART JOKES #the show had potential and they took everything out of it #and filled empty shell of a show with plain dumbness #i loved hate watching s1 too but the characters were CHARACTERS there #and not one character split into 1/45 of a person

[nevertrustablueberry]

so they just cut the band from our show the day before opening wtf

#it’s so shit #we were joking about it last night at rehearsals #but none of us really thought they’d do it #and now here we are #and i know it’s not realistically a part of the discussion but we’re all young female/nb players and that literally NEVER happens music #theatre pits are always male dominated the best split ive had is like maybe 30% not men and so it feels worse because it was such a nice #group and felt like such an important thing happening even though it was just this little small thing i just idk it sucks man #and my first proper gig on kit too and i know it wasn’t cause im bad at playing but i also know in myself that that wasn’t my best work last #night because im still learning but i know that the whole time in the back of my mind there’s been this like someone else deserves this seat #someone else could play it better thing just on loop and like i practiced for hours everyday for almost two months and now we’re cut the #night before and it just plain sucks

[ae-xoshidae]

If you are baffled by Gunwook's position, let me remind you he stayed on top 15 the whole show while being hated by both korean and international fans, being evil edited and his only friends (possible alliances) being his direct competition. That means he wasn't anyone's filler and still kept going up. Some of the other trainees? Fillers, token even. Gunwook was always within the top 9 of every mock korean 1 pick, always on the top of Japanese 1 pick, if you cared for him and saw how his fans were moving, you would know him debuting, specially in top5, was to be expected.

#I decided to not bet his position since it could be biased with him being my 1p but I did assume he'd be P05 if nothing too crazy happened #I got Zhang Hao Hanbin Gunwook Taerae and gyuvin correct #Matthew I was unsure where exactly but I knew jiwoong and Yujin would fall but make it. #Ricky was the one I didn't expect at all #I knew he had a firm fanbase but I guess the people who were voting for G group only had to make a choice between him and Keita #And they chose to vote for him #“we all know Gunwook spot was his” no. Fuck you. You just never bothered to pay attention to Gunwook fanbases #Yes this is about an specific post which I thought was just plain undecuated on the matter #Btw I got p18 right as well the rankings were VERY expected if you actually cared to look for all trainees #But I guess you felt safe with your filler safe always being super high and within the top9 #Anyways! #Stan Gunwook #Stan Zb1 #(no one believed me when I said Zhang Hao was the most likely to be P01 but here we are lol I know my numbers)

[rotzaprachim]

calahan skogman’s brunette era is a joke from 2021 i was not expecting to become incredibly true in 2022

#he looks so much better but also. like a different person #in my interest in d list actors who portray characters i am deeply attached too #i find calahan skogman so fascinating in terms of like #i thought the guy was joe schmoe middle america bro who just could NOT take a good photo #his face is this wierd mix of distinctive and really plain and all we had were these zoom shots that looked terrible #also like.. rip that blonde die making his hairline look sooo high #and now we're getting actual professional photoshoots and they're the sluttiest things ever full on 80's la gigolo vibes #the vibes are... idk the vibes.