#overall my conclusion is that:

[mewkwota]

We all know that it wouldn't be until 5 years later that Richter would fall into Shaft's control, so that's why I drew that moment after his hair had grown. But out of curiosity, I thought to myself how this may have looked when he was younger-- mainly just the expression.

(How did you even get to this idea...?) Well, I was actually thinking about Richter's headband at first, and how it's quite literally an extension of his person. I don't often draw it so still, or even when it is the ends may gently curl. But here, they're totally drooped.

#yeah this is about the games only. show folks step off. #now because richter's hair doesn't have magic flowing through it constantly like his ancestor (even when it's long) #I'm sure it may be tougher to notice something was wrong with him-- unless you looked closely that is #but how can you do that when he's so busy trying to kill you #anyway dang that comic is so old you could see how different (and hopefully better) I could've done that expression #overall my conclusion is that: #1) it feels weird to not see richter's headband flowing behind him #and 2) he really is attached to it-- please do not remove it carelessly #doodle-daas #castlevania #richter belmont

[harbingersecho]

I don't feel pain I never escape I'm under the bed I'm licking the floor

#mysmes #mystic messenger #mysme #mysme unknown #mysme saeran #saeran choi #mine #*24 #art #unknown #this song is literally called weakling. sooo saeran coded. #half of this was just me trying to get the skin indents from gripping his bicep right. and its still not that good but i tried #whatever i miss this cunt.this fucker was everything to me in 2016-2018 you dont understand. teenage me 🫂 saeran #dont talk to me abt his route i have many conlicting feelings abt it. but i will say his overall portrayal was better in v's route than his #except near the end but even the conclusion to that was like. hm. he just wakes up and is fine. ok. #also why the split personality. bpd saeran was amazing that was even his VA's hc for him in SE. ok i said i wasnt gonna talk abt it IM NOT #... i just think they made him a less interesting ch in his route by splitting him up to a 'good'/'bad' side. like ray WAS manipulative #he's complex! he has a skewed world view + morals and a fucked up sense of self and major black and white thinking #ohh my god im not doing this again im not writing a dissertion in tumblr tags again. its an otome game with a nonsensical timeline

[mydearestblue]

i just finished the first thrawn book and I'M NOT OKAY

#the way you can tell eli looks at thrawn with costant awe #and the fact that eli is the only one who truly cracked a bit of thrawn's façade #and that thrawn trusts him so deeply!!! #gosh i’m so obsessed with them #and so in love with eli like i’m going to jump in front of a train for him #thranto #thrawn/eli #star wars: thrawn #timothy zahn #timothy you are my king i owe you my life #also this is was overall one of my favorite star wars books I’ve ever read #i almost forgot THE JOURNAL??????? #how should i process the fact that thrawn gave eli his own personal journal #or THE CONCLUSION OF SAID JOURNAL???

[good-beansdraws]

Mutual left this tag on one of my Fuuta analyses and yeah...

Part two of "Fuuta’s central theme is invasion of privacy and he has extreme anxiety over being watched, so it's interesting that we get to pick him apart and see all his worst, most private thoughts" :(

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #i didnt want to be annoying with a tag but thank you trinipopkt for the original tag :3 #ive never posted something like this so let me know if i need to tag anything #my writing brain may be struggling rn but you can bet im still over here drawing fuuta 😅👍 #part one was the lil moodboard on main #this also had slight oc connections (my brain was going brrr having a scientist oc) but once again its general to the audience overall #plus i was really proud of the composition/posing/colors i switched to -- i was excited to share!! #it took me like 80 years to pick a composition/pose that worked asdfsadsg #and i had to redo all my coloring and shading because i wanted a more neutral sterile science look than what i originally had #anyway it wasnt my usual type of drawing so it was a lot of fun to see it come together! #i did the first version and my partner said it was mean (and against procedure) to keep him awake #but then the second version felt equally mean :(((( so in conclusion rip fuuta #he is my little bug and i am going to figure out what makes him tick

[realbeefman]

gets romantic dennis being happy to help mac "trap" another man, happy to have mac helping dennis manipulate others vs fvr dennis being genuinely devastated that mac doesn't want to acknowledge that dennis has been manipulating him, that dennis has always been johnny, always been manipulative and cold and a disappointment. and that's the tragedy in it all because dennis can only accept love from a distance, can only accept that somebody could want him if they also hate themselves, but mac sees a version of dennis that dennis can't comprehend, sees a man worth loving obsessively, somebody who wouldn't let him down time and time again. dennis can't trust mac, but mac can't help but trust him

#sorry watched gets romantic yesterday for valentine's day thiunking thoughts #this is a little incoherent sorry for being so late macdennis missed their Time pilled #anyways. i think my conclusion overall is that macden canonization conspiracy theorists should get more miserable with it #i want canon macden but in a “you never loved me. you never even liked me!” “I USED TOO!” way #macdennis #dennis reynolds #mac mcdonald #iasip #it's always sunny #its always sunny in philadelphia

[squuote]

the way the broom closet and the infinite hole being nearly parallels to the other in that they are both areas of the game that stanley has immense attachment to but the narrator doesn’t understand why and makes an entirely huge fuss about his confusion for the affection towards these areas. I think what makes the infinite hole just as funny is the fact that despite succeeding in making a new game feature that stanley seems to really enjoy, he’s so much more focused on the fact that stanley is enjoying it the “wrong” way. aspects of the game that go hand in hand with the bucket.

#the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #YEAH ILL MAINTAG IT LOL #anyway. I find it interesting that the narrator has a specific way set in his head that stanley/the player- #-is meant to interact with the game. and when they don’t interact in the way that he expects them to #-he gets pretty heated or overal frustrated #which his reactions are the best best but it’s just interesting to think about #how the bucket the broom closet AND the infinite hole have this same issue #but also the general overall stance of the game and how we going about leading stanley around #it’s interesting!! it’s fun to examine!! #play my game right and you’ll be rewarded. play my game wrong and I’ll explode you to pieces #I just think it’s fun that every aspect of the game comes back to this singular conclusion! #no matter what. it’s always about choice. good good shit

[befuddled-calico-whump]

Test Track: Discipline (bonus panel) (T$$ AU Masterlist)

#this is the last panel of a longer comic on my nsfwhump blog so you can draw your own conclusions about the full extent #added it because i imagined you guys would appreciate seeing him break down 🥰 #at this point he's also been stuck like that for 8 or so hours #and hasn't slept in close to 36 hours #so Bad Day Overall #(punching the glass to here has all happened consecutively. mans TIRED) #t$$ test track au #stress position #blood #implied nudity #implied noncon #whump art

[hephaestuscrew]

Thoughts on the patterns of who speaks the episode title phrases in Wolf 359

This analysis is based on the data I gathered in this spreadsheet and summarised with graphs in this post. Basically I've been looking at which character first says the episode title phrase (i.e. the exact words which form the name of that particular episode) in every episode of Wolf 359. Go and look at the spreadsheet if you want more context.

I think we can view the episode title phrases as often expressing the key problem or question of that episode. (I might talk about this in relation to individual examples another time.) Through this lens, the consideration of who speaks the title phrase is about which character gets to frame the key issue of the episode for the listener. This doesn't necessarily mean we are meant to share that character's view of the issue, but it's why I think there is some potentially significant analysis to be done on this topic. (See below the cut...)

The proportion of title phrases said by Eiffel reduces with each season. 69.2% of the Season 1 title phrases are (first) spoken by Eiffel, compared to 46.6% in Season 2, 22.2% in Season 3, and 20% in Season 4.

This is perhaps unsurprising. Eiffel is very much the main perspective character and the primary narrative voice at the start of the series. And, as someone with unusual speech patterns, he is excellent at coining a good memorable title phrase. However, while I'd argue that he never stops being the main protagonist, over the course of the series, the narrative focus broadens away from a singular emphasis on Eiffel's perspective. This perspective shift is reflected in episode titles being spoken by a greater range of characters.

I think the decreasing proportion of Eiffel title phrases also reflects the podcast's shift towards a generally more dramatic rather than comedic tone. While Eiffel is capable of being serious at times, I'd argue that his mode of speech is particularly well suited to generating amusing unusual turns of phrase that work well within a more comedic context (e.g. Succulent Rat-Killing Tar, What's Up Doc?, Bach to the Future). As the stakes become higher and the tone becomes less humorous, characters other than Eiffel, who are more often inclined to take things very seriously, are more likely to speak the title phrases.

There's also just the fact that as we get more characters involved in the action on the Hephaestus, the opportunity to speak the title phrase is spread between more characters.

Although Eiffel is by far and away the most common speaker of title phrases in Season 1, in the first three episodes of the whole show, we get all the characters of that season represented in the title phrases. Minkowski speaks the title phrase in the second episode and Hera does in the third episode - but probably quoting a phrase from Hilbert. This gives us a good early indication that, while Eiffel may be the focal point particularly in this season, this is going to be an ensemble show and all of these characters are going to be significant.

Hilbert's only title phrase is in Ep12 Deep Breaths, in the first stage of his mutiny, arguably the only point in the show where he appears to clearly have the upper hand while acting alone.

After the SI-5 are introduced at the beginning of Season 3, we get five Kepler or Jacobi title phrases in a row, which solidifies the SI-5's presence in the show. It also highlights the fact that the SI-5 have taken over the Hephaestus and are now (at least ostensibly) the ones determining the aims of the Hephaestus mission.

In addition, these patterns might be seen to reflect the shift in the show towards a more conflict-focused tone (related but not identical to the movement away from comedy). While Wolf 359 has always been a show full of conflict, the balance of this conflict shifts with the arrival of the SI-5. For the first team, our protagonists are facing a unified team of antagonists. The potential for violence feels higher, as do the stakes. This might explain why, while we only had one antagonist-spoken title phrase across Seasons 1 and 2 (Hilbert in Ep12 - Lovelace doesn't get a title phrase while she's serving as an antagonist), 44.4% of our Season 3 title phrases are first spoken by antagonists.

The only title phrase spoken by Maxwell is spoken by her in a recording that we hear after her death. This isn't even the only posthumous title phrase spoken from the past in Season 4 - we've got one from Commander Zhang of the Tiamat as well. It's an interesting kind of legacy, an interesting way to emphasize the questions characters leave behind after death, recalling similar themes to those explored in Ep46 Boléro.

#Wolf 359 #w359 #There's probably more to say but I'll leave it there #Sorry to end it kind of abruptly #I haven't got an overall conclusion #I don't necessarily think these patterns are conscious decisions by the writers btw #but I think they can be significant anyway #I know I said I was going to put these thoughts in a reblog to the original post #but this is too long for that #and I want to be able to put it in the tag again #Please feel free to add on your thoughts on the spreadsheet or anything #The moment when the episode title phrase is said could be thought of as the 'roll credits' moment #Idk if the significance feels different because they don't say the episode title in introducing the episode #but generally you have to see it when pressing play on the episode so most listeners will probably be vaguely aware of the episode title #the empty man posteth #I'm worried that there might be mistakes in my maths but not enough to check it

[demodraws0606]

I don't talk about serious stuff like this usually but I do wanna say something since I primarly watch cc!BBH's POV on the QSMP.

His entire response to the grooming allegations while disappointing and definitely stressful, is not something that will stop me from engaging in his content (of course unless the situation escalates to a certain level).

As much as I wish Dream would just shut his trap and people would just turn his back on him already, it's not fair or realistic to expect people who have been friends with him for years to just stop believing him.

It's just an unfortunate shitty situation but I'd rather target my frustration towards the groomer rather than the potential friends he lied to.

It also is made infinitly worse by the fact that people like BBH and others (Sapnap, Skeppy, etc...) have been hit with actual fake allegations which ends up muddying the waters even more.

#discourse #dream situation #badboyhalo #bbh #i hope this doesn't come off as too inapropriate #i just kinda wanted to vent about this because it's just an overall unpleasant situation #but it also kinda serves as like a post to warn people about my stance on this in case the situation blows up #i wish the best for the victims and for the situation to finally reach a conclusion #also i hope my post doesn't end up being insensitive in some way #i tried to make my thoughts as clear as possible #but yeah this just massively sucks

[crispylilworm]

last i’m posting about this xoxo sorry about the watcher spam recently but i feel the need to put my 2 cents in since my opinion on this doesn’t align with the vocal majority on this site

gotta admit my first youtuber drama experience was a 0/10 not because of what the creators did but solely because of the insanity of the fandom. because…wow. i have never seen a group of people throw around demands and accusations of betrayal in such a dramatic way lol. maybe i’m in the minority here but i felt the majority of responses and criticism just were any lacking basis at all.

my first thoughts with the announcement were literally “oh good for them new streaming service, i won’t be going for it, but maybe after a few months i’ll consider paying for a 1-time sub to catch up on everything”. sure some disappointment i wouldn’t get regular updates but overall excited for the new content this pay structure would give them the flexibility to create.

maybe because i didn’t get into youtubers until the pandemic when watcher was already it’s own independent thing i don’t have that same (*cough cough* parasocial) level of connection, just really enjoy the videos they put out. maybe because i go through subscription-of-the-month stints of paying for a patreon or twitch or other creator channel and rotate what i watch, this didn’t feel outrageous to me. i hate the subscription world we live in so i go out of my way to never pay more than a strict budget limit per month because that’s my ability and that’s my mentality on this. i thought at best maybe i’d consider rotating this in when they put out more.

don’t like the idea of it? you don’t have to pay for it. can’t afford it? i understand the disappointment from this aspect but creators don’t actually owe you anything for free - even if it was free in the past. overall and for whatever reasoning you have: it wasn’t that deep.

if anything i am in a way thankful that they rescinded on their decision because that means me & others will continue to enjoy videos for free. but overall i’m disappointed that this means they’re sacrificing their own creative wants and financial needs of whatever they had planned. we won’t actually know the extent of what, if anything, this prevents them from creating because y’all wouldn’t even let them attempt to try this next phase out.

fans saying “well we don’t want high-budget content” well maybe they want to explore more than what they’re currently able to do? maybe they want to create more beyond their buzzfeed-format videos they know will rack in views from the nostalgia-obsessed side of the fans? i, too, personally love their humor and would just enjoy them chatting and being silly, but i do also think this holds them back. remember those hilarious self-made commercials from their most recent videos? that's probably just a glimpse of what new flavors of content they’re able to think up.

this whole fan response was just disappointing (and pretty scary ngl) to me, and i know saying that is like kicking a hornets nest but i really think if they continued with the plans from their original announcement it would have been ok. i actually think it would have been more than ok! but the response imploded so hard i’m sure we’ll never see them try something new again lol.

my personal thoughts are that if your opinion in any way revolved around something they “owe” to fans, feelings of “betrayal”, thinking they’re “sell outs” for wanting to transition to paid content - i think you really need to take a step back and reflect, and i mean that with zero malice. watcher is a business, not your friends, not “the boys”, not your guaranteed source of a specific type of content either. ultimately they made a business decision that they thought would help them grow that would have either succeeded or failed, that's it. for better or worse, we wont get to watch that play out.

i will continue my quiet enjoyment of their videos, and happily move on past what i frankly think was the most unnecessary internet drama i’ve seen in a minute lol. the takes overall were dumb but tame, i only blocked a handful of accounts for posting things i thought were totally out of line that i won't get into but i'm sure you've either seen or heard people discussing.

i didn't even get in to my hot takes lol like how this plays into the dangerous trend of the expectation of art to be free....and the overall devaluing of creatives and why AI is thriving in these areas...but ill defend that thesis another day lol. y'all aren't ready for that.

#watcher #my thoughts #long post #putting this in read more so yall dont jump me lmao #overall conclusion is #its not that deep

[ichiners]

Why iro doesnt get along (my thoughts on them)

Ichimatsu at the very beginning was marketed as unpredictable and kind of insane bc he didn’t reveal his thoughts to people and would happily join in to torment someone else. 

But they still kept playing with that concept of him being an unsociable beast. Just bc his brothers know he’s a softie doesn’t mean everyone else does! And just because he’s a softie doesn’t mean he doesn’t have his mean streaks! 

By the second season, Ichimatsu-sama was pretty much gone. Scrubbed clean of his unfriendly persona for whatever reason– but within canon there has to be some kind of explanation.

I like to think Ichimatsu got tired of doing it (pretending is hard when you’re a depressed introvert, even if you’re doing it for the bit).

So now he’s just some guy that likes cats and has social anxiety. He still keeps his thoughts and feelings to himself.

Initially, Karamatsu’s flamboyance was played up extremely. He was too confident for how tacky and loud he was. He legitimately couldn’t read the room. Karamatsu is met with different levels of exasperation (most notably from 110– the most self aware guys of the bunch).

This really really irritated Ichimatsu. S1e16 revealed he was jealous of him (and that osomatsu is a really good way to break their tension. If you’re ever stuck finishing an iro conversation, osomatsu’s like really annoying social lubricant).

He’s both jealous bc he wants that confidence and appalled because how can someone parade themselves like that? Karamatsu’s confidence is something that can be marveled at, but isn’t something a lot of people would realistically try to copy.

So what’s their deal?

I see a lot of people try to write iro bond over their shared struggles. They’re both easy to bulldoze and they try to hold their tongue until they can’t anymore. Funnily enough, they’ll still use each other when possible. They either haven’t realized how similar they are, or they just don’t care (most likely the latter).

What makes them the most similar is the fact that they’re avoidant of their problems. They’re shy. They’re introverted. They both prefer to be told what to do. They don’t like voicing their true opinion.

So what makes them different and unable to get along with each other? Their levels of self awareness and emotional intelligence. 

Ichimatsu can and will read the room. Karamatsu will choose to do it whenever it’s most convenient for him. He chose to read the room during the Ichimatsu incident, because he wanted to avoid embarrassing both himself and Ichimatsu. He chose not to see what was potentially going on when Choromatsu dyed his hair, because the situation doesn’t affect him at all. He couldn’t have known what was going on, but instead of taking a second to see if something was going on, he bulldozed the conversation and made everything worse. 

 More than anything though, it’s their preferred method of coping with their insecurities. 

So if they’re similar, why are they so awkward with each other?

The main reason why people have such a hard time making them relate to each other ( there are a lot of contrived fic ideas to make them bond) is bc they both would rather die than open up to someone like themselves.

Both of them already have a hard time opening up to others (esp nyanko; pizza) and if they’re going to go through the trouble of opening up to someone they’re not going to do it with someone who can’t or won’t help them.

Ichimatsu’s entirely too awkward to be of help to anyone and Karamatsu doesn’t have the emotional capacity to handle other people’s feelings in a sincere way. He might care, but caring isn’t always enough to make the situation better. People that are emotionally avoidant the way they are can’t help others out very much.

Karamatsu can help out if you’re having a bad day but he can’t help out if you’re depressed. He’s not the kind of person who can treat a root cause. Ichimatsu might give making your bad day better a shot, but he’s easily discouraged. He, too, is not equipped to handle something as permanent and prevalent as mental illness. 

Ichimatsu prefers extroverts (see: jyushimatsu, osomatsu) and karamatsu prefers people who are capable of socializing (see: totty, osomatsu, choromatsu). 

They’re also both passive characters and want to be led. Karamatsu wants to lead under very limited circumstances. He’ll lead when someone is below him on the hierarchy, even if they’re normally higher than him or more socially dominant (ep s1e24; s2 beach episode when they’re looking at girls). He would much rather be told what to do (within reason).

Ichimatsu steps up when there’s an opportunity and when he absolutely has to. Or he has to be fed up with the situation. Or there’s a chance to make fun of someone. He’s not immune to the hivemind and enjoys actively participating in it like everyone else. 

Otherwise he’d rather not be involved.

Tldr; it's very hard for iro to get along. Not impossible, but theyre the type to have fleeting moments of peace more so than a consistently pleasant relationship. Even if they wanted to get along they have 4 other brothers that are substantially easier to get along with.

#also these thoughts arent conclusive and i didnt bother rewatching osomatsu for this post #i think theres moments im missing from them but overall i think their most promiment traits just do not clash well #im not even sure if this makes sense i have been trying to figure out for years why iro is so difficult to write #iromatsu #ichimatsu matsuno #karamatsu matsuno #osomatsu-san #ichimatsu #karamatsu #my post

[narzissenkreuz-ordo]

ah. im gonna leave this link here talking abt aventurine's real life 'inspirations' (link is to the leaks sub on reddit but the comment itself is just abt aventurine's background & its connotations from the 2.0 quest only)

of course this isnt something im overly educated about but its really disappointing and upsetting hyv went with this kind of portrayal when their storytelling isn't suited to be exploring real life cultural commentary with their characters & world building

#this really does sour my overall impressions of penacony and for a character that i'm already very attached too #im glad im playing ffxv rn so im not like super fixated on hsr after playing the trailblaze mission #because this does not feel good #im just here to pass on these comments and am in no place to actually talk & educate others on this matter but i can at least pass this on #for people to draw their own conclusions #yappin

[caitlestial]

finished this lil T&T animatic i’ve been working on!

initial storyboard sketches and process rambles under the cut 

neska did nothing wrong and i couldn’t stop thinking about her for these specific mother mother lyrics so that’s where this idea was born :)

illustrated in procreate, animated in opentoonz (free and open source!), and final video editing in davinci resolve (also free!)

here’s the initial story board: 

i played around with some ideas for the shot before the snek reveal but i went with silhouettes bc it's infinitely easier than high angle character shots and it still gets across the general idea of what i was going for (no poji the dream chicken though 💔)

honestly the idea in my head was much cooler but projects like this are fun because they rarely turn out like how i imagine and the end result is a testament to what i'm currently capable of making, which makes me excited for the future

thx 4 reading, hehe :3

and listen to trials and trebs!

#in conclusion i love neska #also i made a custom orchids brush for this #trials and trebuchets #trials and trebs #my art #my animation #2023 #overall v happy with how this turned out

[da-proti-toku-grem]

venting in the tags again bc i'm literally shaking right now wtf

#god i hate it so much #my exams start on monday and i'm not even halfway through everything i need to know for my first exam #i've had all the holidays to study but i just can't concentrate on anything #i've been in my room all day every day (except the days i spent w family like christmas and new year ofc) #and seemingly i'm studying all day #my family thinks i spend all day studying #but the only thing i'm capable of doing most of the time is stare at the things i have to do w/o having any idea of wtf i'm doing #my brain won't shut tf up and telling me stuff that i know are not true #but i just can't #i feel like i've been having an anxiety attack non stop since this monday #not very bad most of the time but it doesn't really stop yk? #and i feel like i have a weight on my chest that i can't really take off #i've been going to therapy and we've come to the conclusion that the cause of my anxiety overall are my studies #(not counting my social anxiety that's been getting worse every day to the point that i don't even want to go out with my best friends) #which doesn't really surprise me but it's just Too Much #i just want to drop everything but since idk what i'd do if i quit this career i chose to do my exams #bc maybe they are useful if i do change my path #but i just can't find it in me to focus and study because my mind is racing all the time #i just want to lie down and cry but i don't even have the strength to do that #i just feel so weak and miserable ever since i started uni and every day it gets worse and worse #my mind just screams at me saying #'stop complaining all the time. no one cares. everyone goes through stuff like that. you're no different. stfu and study like everyone does' #and i know i could do it if i tried but i just can't #why tf is it so difficult to be normal and do what i'm supposed to do for once ffs.... #venting #maca speaks

[love-death-and-desert]

first to die last standing something something

#i always thought that scar winning would be the perfect conclusion to; at the very least; his overall story in the life series #but by god did i never once thought that it would be *this* good #and i love everyone's takes on it but there's just something about death and loneliness that i can't quite put into words #but that feels very [at a loss for words] #anyways #need to uh structure my thoughts and maybe do something about them #traffic smp #sun talk

[amphibianaday]

do you approach your art as pixel art or as low resolution digital art? or something else entirely

a little bit of both, but mostly just regular drawing/painting with some "pixel arting" tiny details like pupils and nostrils. Any really small or thin shape i'll draw in and tweak individual pixel until i'm happy with the shape

i just love the gritty texture you get with a pixel brush :)

#not art #also i think pixel brush has really imrpoved my art unironically #i can go faster because its easy to use just one or two layers since you can perfectly select what area to draw #like selecting everything except outlines to draw inside the lines without having lines as a layer on top #being able to change colors of anything at any time no matter how merged the image is #the sharp edges mean i dont rely on blending brushes for shading and i feel like i pick light and shadow colors a lot more intentionally #and end up with more fun vibrant colors overall imo #and the this is more about the philosophy of pixel art than about the brush but i really like trying to limit my palette to 6-8ish colors #sometimes i go way over sometimes i dont care but the idea really helps keep my colors more cohesive overall #and its really fun going over a piece and figuring out which colors can be combined and eliminated #in conclusion pixel brush my beloved