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myymi · 1 year

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Ok, OK, OK.

Do you have any personal Unbreakable bond headcanons that you would like to share with the class today? /lh

oh DO i 👀

im assuming you mean sonic and tails, but please correct me if im wrong djsbsjjss i very well could be, im sorry if i am

sonic's a good cook, and tails is actually obsessed with his cooking. there's just something special abt his big bro's food, he can't help but get excited to eat

tails has to take mandatory 20-30min breaks from his work because sonic refuses to let tails work himself to death

tickle/pillow fights were a regular occurrence when tails was 4, and he absolutely loved them (they don't do them so often anymore cause tails thinks he's too old {baby you are literally eight hit your brother with a pillow if you want it's ok})

tails was regularly scruffed in the early days of his and sonic's friendship. he was getting to be a bit TOO much like sonic, constantly running headfirst into danger. sonic had to do what he could to keep his baby bro safe, and that meant scuffing him </3

they make burrows together and that is canon, don't listen to sega im correct

movie night at least once a week, snacks, cuddles, n whatever else they come up with

this is canon, but ive gotta mention it because it's one of my favorite things: THEY WILL LITERALLY DO ANYTHING FOR EACH OTHER !! (throwback to when sonic almost let an entire town of people get enslaved because it was them or tails & tails literally running into a cursed temple alone because sonic was trapped)

sonic sub-consciously pets tails a lot when they're chillin together (he's just so FLUFFY how could sonic not)

tails didn't sleep in a separate room until he was 7 because lil man was attached to his big bro's hip

when they were roughin it out in the wilderness, sonic had to regularly brush tails's fur because so many leaves and twigs got stuck in it

tails has a small area in his workshop that's sonic's designated chill spot for when he wants to hang with tails while he works

sonic'll play the guitar for tails every now and then, tails tries to copy the songs on his violin (avid violin player tails enjoyer <3)

they learned sign language when sonic was mute so they could communicate easier+it was useful for battle

sometimes they'll use sign, simply because they don't feel like talking or one of them goes non-verbal (gotta love when you n your bro are both nd)

tails is vry comforted by sonic's heartbeat, while sonic is comforted by tails's purrs (who wouldn't be tbf)

throughout the day, tails will give sonic a random fun fact about science, planes, or space

that's all i can think of atm, but i can def give more later on if you want :0

i love these boys sm djsbsjsn the best brothers fr

#sonic&tails are such a fun duo to make hcs for #it's so easy because their dynamic flows SO well eishwjend #love these boys #they're the best <3 #go children #save the world or smthn #you're doing great i love you #miles tails prower #tails the fox #sonic the hedgehog #sth #sonic #myyhcs

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spookiestheadcanons · 1 year

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Idea—what if you did more trans ftm and trans mtf headcanons for characters 😳 /lh

Like idk who but maybe Robert or Kevin or something.

sorry for not answering right away, i was at my grandma's house and couldn't use my pc to write hcs (it's way better)

i'll go with kevin because WELL WHY NOT?

maybe i'll do robert? maybe. maybe... transfem robert WAAA

and i'm deeply sorry for not posting so many headcanons like before, my creativity is betraying me

Headcanons: Trans Kevin!

FtM - Trans man Kevin

Sometimes customers still call him "lady" for some fucking reason and his face is exactly the same of the gif

"You're such a beautiful lady!" "...T h a n k s ."

Sometimes he literally forget that he's trans

I have the headcanon that his parents don't care about him that much, and the fact that he's not cis is included

A good thing? Maybe, he's not sure

Kevin don't even have boobs anymore but still keep all of his binders, I can't decide between "it's an emotional thing" and "he's just lazy to throw them away"

Pretty used to it already, isn't so bothered

But he's still kinda insecure to take off his shirt infront of others

Got out of the closet in highschool

He definitely regrets

MtF - Trans woman "Kevin"

I haven't fully decided a name for her yet, but would be something boring as hell

We'll go with Kamila!!

She's already misgendered enough, having to hear a "that name is too hard for me" and then being called her deadname is the LAST thing she wants

TOMBOY!!!

That's... a little problem

When she corrects the clients (indirectly or not) saying that she's actually a girl some of them throw the "but you don't look like one" card

LET THE POOR LADY BE HERSELF, DAMMIT

Skid and Pump accepted it in a blink of an eye

And I also believe it happened in the end of a day where she got more transphobic customers than usual

There's not many hcs here, but I'll end up with the conversation with the context of the last one!!

"Hey Kevin!!" *sighs* "...kids, not now. I'm not in the mood." "Eh? What happened?" "You... it's not something you'll have to deal, I hope. Just buy what you want and leave." "Aw, but we want to help!!" "It's nothing." "Tell us! Tell us! Tell us!" "Ugh, NO! You want to help? Just... just stop calling me Kevin, okay? I'm not Kevin, I'm Kamila, that's all." *Skid and Pump look at each other* "Isn't that a girl's name?" "Yes." "You're a girl?" "Yes." "..." "..." "Oh, okay!" "We want a chocolate bar, please!" "Eh?"

Then Kamila would give them what they want and they would simply leave with a simple "bye, Kamila!!"

Kamila's reaction was exactly like this (dw, she's happy):

#spooky month #spooky month headcanons #sm kevin #trans kevin

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analexthatexists · 1 month

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I can't hold it in anymore.

I need to rant about Ink Sans. (Or at least, how I see him and a few headcanons based on how I played him)

Blame @franxerk for this. /lh

This all started after a VR Chat roleplay with a friend (franxerk) where I had to play Ink in a protagonist role. This made me realize just how interesting of a concept it is for a character to be totally empathetic and soulless. It's not just "Oh, they suck at understanding emotions and empathy", No, it's "They literally CAN'T feel or comprehend those things". This combined with Ink's morals focused more on protecting the Multiverse and stability of the AUs over the inhabitants makes him very unlikable and annoying from the perspective of others. However, he has justifications for why he's like this. Even if he wanted people to take his side, he'd probably never try doing so due to his higher status and belief that nobody could comprehend how important this job is. He NEEDS to make sure there's balance or else the Multiverse could risk collapsing, overfilling or other bad things. Disturbing things that need to happen risk messing up the AU/Timeline, which is why he refuses to do certain things for people. He barley cares about the residents unless they serve importance to the universe, seeing them as fodder for the storyline. Again, this makes him seem like a really bad person. This also damages his reputation as "Guardian/Protector of the Multiverse" since he doesn't even protect the people who live in it unless they have value, but Ink himself doesn't even like this title. While he plays along, deep down he wishes people realized that he cares more about establishing balance and not being their hero. Technically, he IS helping them, just not in the way THEY want. It upsets him to be called out for being such a terrible person, and he's well aware of being such, but would these people rather suck it up or risk everything they know and love, their universe and the lives of billions, vanishing in an instant? Ink doesn't know for sure what will happen if balance isn't kept; He just knows it won't end well. Besides, what else would he do with himself? Keeping the Multiverse safe and intact was the only reason he existed. It was his main goal and the only way he could feel emotion. Pulling from the Fandom Wiki because looking back at this is leaving me in fricking awe:

"It doesn't take long for him to discover their true purpose; to imprint the Creators' Emotions in the forms of Undertale Fan work (AUs, Fan arts, etc.). Seeing this he concluded that, for him to remain in this fulfilling emotional state, He have to encourage the creators to keep making and maintaining their creations so that the paint keeps flowing through the doodle-sphere itself. Thus, to keep a steady supply of emotions for him to harness, he dedicates himself to being the Muse of the Undertale Creative Community, while he protects their creations from those who wish to harm them; be it vandals or any other off-scripted out!codes."

Going a little offtopic (as if I hadn't already), but he needs the Multiverse as much as it needs him. He needs to keep it stable and inspire its further creation (while also making sure everything is staying on script) in order to feel basic emotional needs. In order to EXPRESS AND FEEL ANY MEANS OF EMOTION, he needs to MAINTAIN THE BALANCE OF THE MULTIVERSE ITSELF in order to please US, THE CREATORS AND BASICALLY HIS GODS, and ensure he can live a meer DECENT life where he isn't a soulless HUSK. So many people are angered by his actions, but most of them have no idea how much it means to him. To do his job has become basic survival instinct. This job is literally everything to him. And he's bashed for it. Day after day. Because he can't interfere with the script. Well, I doubt it affects him too much, since;

"Ink does not appear as a perfectly well-behaved character. He can be inconsiderate, or even downright mocking and cruel, with his opinions, and deep down he sees other characters as fake story characters and not as creatures like him."

These people, no matter how much they shout or talk him down, really don't matter to him in the end, do they? They're all just characters tied to a story or script, fates established and laid out from the moment they were made. He even sees himself as higher than them, for better or worse seeing just how he became to be so (his backstory is wild). It doesn't matter how much one throws at him, even if it's personal. He doesn't care. Not about what these people have to say or throw at him, and not even about the people themselves. Sure, he can get angry or sad about what they have to say, but does it really matter to him in the end? If not for a bit of reconsidering and reflection, no, it probably wouldn't linger in his mind for all that long, him being scatterbrained and all. It's such an interesting character type, at least to me it is. It doesn't matter how emotional or upbeat he appears or displays; there is nothing but an apathetic husk underneath it all, even if he tried his hardest not to seem so. He is both very careful and careless about the inhabitants of the AUs he was believed to protect, mostly boiling down to their importance to their worlds. He's both higher than his own kind and just as stringed up and chained as they are. In the end, he still depends on US to feel and function as everyone else does.

No matter what, he's still our plaything. Isn't that sad?

It doesn't matter what he does. He's still, like everything else he swears to protect, under our command and fist. A starving artist forced to play said role by gods. And we could always get bored and leave him to starve. It really depends on whenever we'll keep this fandom alive or not.

And with our choice,

Both Ink and all else will cease to exist.

(Wow, that got pretty dark pretty fast. Anyways uh...Here's my reference and where I got those quotes.)

#ink sans #utmv #utmv headcanons #ink sans headcanons #sans headcanons #my headcanons #character rant #long rant

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justastrugglinghotchocolate · 11 months

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this is just a heads up for everyone. though I will post here again, you likely won't see anything else from me besides that. So I won't be reblogging nearly as often as I did before, I probably won't respond as fast as I used tom though I will still do ask games and tag games, they likely won't be in a timely fashion. Please don't take that as a sign I dislike what you're doing or that I've decided to snub you. This is entirely a result of my own emotional distress.

(personal thing under cut that i am saying because I have nowhere else to express this lol, but the top is the main important part)

Basically, I tend to compare myself to others to the point it is actually harmful for my mental state. Unfortunately, this tendency is so strong that I can't even really enjoy other people's works without thinking myself less in comparison. It is something I am working on, but which got amplified from my earlier approach to tumblr.

The feelings of envy and inadequacy got so bad, that last month, I genuinely thought about quitting art. However, I refuse to do that, but I also refuse to let myself stew in envious misery in the name of "inner-strength" or whatever. A side-effect of social media is that everyone looks to be at there best at all times and I am someone who is hyperaware of how shitty my life can be. And that is something I will be learning to better cope with as time goes on.

But enabling all of the detrimental emotion will not help me, so I won't do that anymore/lh.

Btw, just to be clear, this is not a sign of distress or anything, just a heads up.

#personal #i appreaciate all of you but my brain is kinda dumb and turns everything to a competition ;-;

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transpoettryinghisbest · 2 years

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My first transfem Sebastian fic and my first yumimei fic! This is set like 10-15 years after aai2. Shout out to @le-penis obvs for inspiring the angst but not too much angst (u need to chill, cronch/lh). Trigger warnings are in the tags.

“Darling, it's getting late. Are you coming to bed?”

I peek around the door and Sebastian gestures at me to lower my voice. Veronica is in her lap, fast asleep.

“Please don't be mad,” Sebastian whispers. “I know she should be in her bed, but I didn't want to move her.”

“How long have you been here?” I whisper back.

“I'm not sure. I didn't want to risk waking her. I'll put her to bed in a moment, I promise.”

“It's alright. I'm not upset, sweet pea.”

We stay there in silence for a moment. Veronica is nuzzled against Sebastian, clinging gently to her clothes. She's our youngest daughter, almost five years old. I can't believe how much the time has flown by.

Sebastian's crying. Just a little bit, not sobbing like she used to, I think maybe because she doesn't want to wake Veronica. I touch her hand.

“Sorry,” she wipes her eyes.

“Is everything alright?”

“She's so small,” she whimpers. “I love her so much. I love all of them so much. And you.”

Sebastian has always been an emotional one, so this doesn't surprise me. I stroke her back and she leans into me. We just stay there, enjoying being together for the moment.

“I get scared sometimes,” she says, eventually.

“Scared?”

“That something bad will happen to them. Or that I'll do something bad.”

“What do you mean?”

She won't look at me. “My…my father. He's been dead for so many years. I thought I'd be able to get away from him by now. He can't hurt me anymore, but I still think about him all of the time. I'm… I'm scared that I'm going to turn into him.”

She cries harder.

“Sweet pea, you're nothing like him.”

“I am.”

“You're not, you're kind and gentle-”

“I'm still related to him. I can't take back everything he did to me. Everything I learned from him and everything he told me and made me feel. I can't remember my Mom, everything I ever knew was from him.”

Veronica stirs, but Sebastian instinctively strokes her hair until she falls back asleep.

“I don't want to be like him. I don't want to hurt our children, that thought scares me more than anything. But what if I can't help it? What if I'm premeditated to be just like him?”

“You mean predisposed.”

“What if it's already too late? I might have said something without thinking and scared them and now they'll be afraid of me for life and I can never take that back.”

“Sebastian. Angel. Look at Veronica. Look at her.”

She does.

“Does she look afraid of you?”

“No.”

“Would you ever do that to your father when you were younger? Cuddle up and sleep in his lap like that?”

She shakes her head. “I tried to hug him once, but he pushed me off.”

“Darling, the children adore you. I've seen it.”

She still seems unsure.

“You've been in and out of therapy for years, you've gained so much self awareness of destructive behaviours, you've come so far. And you have so many people on your side. If you really feel like you're a danger, then we can talk to someone, but I think you're letting your fears cloud all of the progress you've made.”

“I know. I always do that. The fear just takes over sometimes.”

“But who you fear you might become isn't who you are. And thinking something doesn't mean it'll happen.”

She glances back at Veronica. “I just want them to be safe.”

“They will be.” I kiss her forehead. “Because we'll keep them safe.”

#ace attorney #fanfiction #aai2 #ace attorney fanfiction #transgender #ace attorney investigations 2 #sebastian debeste #franziska von karma #yumimei #tw abuse implied #tw abuse #tw child abuse #tw childhood abuse #tw intrusive thoughts

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hymn-of-muse · 6 months

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H-Hello, new follower here! S-sorry ro bother. If the matchup are still open, can I ask for one..?

• Fandom: Honkai Star Rail

• Name: Yume

• Pronouns+gender+sexuality+age: She/Her, female, hetero, adult

• Preference for match up: Male!

• Appearance: dark brown hair that reach mid/lowerback, dark brown eyes, I'm 5'4" I think (165cm), and has a big chest (and I hate it!)

• Personality: I'm a shy and introverted person, that doesn't talk if not asked to, both due to shyness and also because I fear disturbing/saying something wrong. I keep to myself alot, but I like helping others. I can get aggressive if anyone attacks my friends or loved ones, as I'm loyal to a fault, defending my friends and loved ones no matter what. I'm usually very calm and patient, reeeeeally patient. And it means I take alot of time to actually snap and act rude, as I just add more salt to my injuries until I can't take anymore and vomit all on the person who made me snap. I also can be quite the opposite, and be as cold as ice with my words when deeply hurt. Other says I'm kind and caring, I'm also very anxious person.. (I could write more but I don't want to bother you.....)

• Likes and Dislikes:

• I like stars, the sea, books (any really), flowers, astrology and astronomy, crystals and gems (or shiny things in general, help....), arts, music (as a really young child I really wanted to be a singer), voice acting/dubbing (this one especially, as I dreamed to be one, before my dreams were crushed by my own father and aunt who believed it's not a worthy work...), daydream, writing, playing videogames, helping others, dragons, listening to others, and, of course, animals (I have a cat, and cats in general tend to like me alot, can't have a dog even if I wanted one due to my father's fear of dogs). Also the colors: green, blue and orange. • My... type of man, is complicated. As a general rule, I'm mostly always attracted to angst, some of my favorites being XIAO, Wanderer, Dan Heng. But it varies, I'm also easily attracted by characters with dragon motif or that are dragons.

• I dislike insects (I have a phobia..) not all though as I like butterflies, bee and bumblebees, bullies, loud sounds (especially screams or thunders), being alone, my anxiety, calling with the phone (I get anxious...), betrayals, feeling useless, some vegetables, not being able to talk with my friends, my sensitive self who cries with anything, hurting others.

Sorry I bothered you, thank you for this. I hope I didn't wrote too much, please tell me I'll try to write less ;;;;

hi this is a little much for me to read and i'd appreciate if you didnt stutter in text /lh

if youre okay with resubmitting this in a bit shorter of a format i'd be happy to take on your request! /np

#i also encourage everyone looking for matchups to please read the form in my pinned post #link replies

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commic-jester · 2 years

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"You can't keep running from your fucking problems!" Billy booms from outside Jonathan's door. Jonathan leans against the locked door, head tilted slightly upward.

"I can and I will!" he shouts back. Billy bangs on the door. Jonathan doesn't mean to flinch. He knows Billy wouldn't hurt him, he knows, but he can't help his visceral fear every time Billy gets mad.

Billy knocks on the door. "Open the goddamn door, Jonathan!" He's pounding on the wood now. Jonathan hopes he doesn't intend to break it - Joyce can't afford to get it replaced.

The only sound for a few moments is Billy's harsh breath from the hallway. Jonathan doesn't dare move. There's light chatter in the hall, and Steve's muffled voice is barely audible. Jonathan moves away from the door now. There's knocking again, but it's lighter.

"Jonny? Please open the door," Steve calls softly. Jonathan can make out footsteps fading, but he can still hear Steve inhale sharply when Jonathan accidentally steps on a creaky floorboard. "Please, we just want to talk."

"We can talk like this." Jonathan knows he's being stubborn. He's always been stubborn; whether it's a good thing or not is up for debate.

Steve sighs. "We're not mad at you." Jonathan opens his mouth, but Steve continues. "Billy's just frustrated. I sent him to cool off in the kitchen, but he's not mad."

Silence for a beat. Jonathan hadn't realized how hard it was to breathe until it started getting easier. His heart was no longer caught in his throat.

"We can just bake if you want. I know that helps. We don't- We don't have to talk about it yet if you don't want to, but we have to eventually."

"You don't trust me anymore," Jonathan says firmly.

"No, no, darling; we trust you. We're worried about you." There's a quiet thump on the wall as Steve rests his head against it. "Please just come out."

Jonathan waits in contemplation. He weighs the pros and cons in his head, thinking deeply. Finally, he takes a couple steps towards the door.

He unlocks it with a click and steps into the hallway.

🦋

SOBBING CRYING. ANON THIS IS RUDE. /lh

#🦋 anon ^^

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dimonds456 · 3 years

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*sees your tags about being salty about suf spinel*

YOU CAN'T JUST SAY THAT AND NOT SHARE YOUR SALT /LH

Okay, but I'm warning you, you asked for it.

LONG POST WARNING.

LIKE A REALLY, REALLY LONG POST WARNING.

Dimonds456 Presents: How They Did My Baby Dirty: An SUTM and SUF Analysis on Steven and Spinel (Told by a Progressively More and More Angry Narrator)

THE CONTEXT: There was a post talking about how you think a character will fix everything, but then they wind up making it works. My tags were "#*looks at suf spinel* #I am still salty about that like the bitch I am fghdjskgfa"

Grab some water, guys.

Let's start by talking about Steven for a moment. In the original show, when we were following him as a 12-14-year-old, we watched as he built up trauma and then learned how to hide it expertly well, to the point that most of the audience didn't even realize he was struggling.

You can actually pinpoint the seconds he makes those decisions, too. The best example is in "The Test," when he's storming up to the gems. He's pissed. His fists are clenched, he's got that anime eye shadow overlay on his face, he's frowning, all that. the Crystal Gems are clapping for him and lying to his face, and he KNOWS they are because he overheard them talking about how it was "impossible for him to fail" that test (- Garnet).

And yet... he also overheard them saying that they're just trying their best. They don't know what he needs. They never really have. No one is sure. So, Steven realizes that by picking a fight, he would just be making it worse for them because they would know they messed up, and nothing gets solved, and everyone gets more depressed and Amethyst and Pearl go back to fighting each other and- well, you get the picture. He doesn't have a full understanding of what's going on, so his kid brain went "so I can either be angry at them and cause problems, or I can tell them I did a good job to make them happy."

"I can lie to make them happy."

He storms down there angry, still mulling this decision over. He drops to the floor, frowning and pissed, and says "I can't believe you guys." He is so close to yelling at them, and yet, when he looks up at them...

"That was so... INSANE!"

You never would have been able to tell. It was right there. That moment. And then he never stops. For the ENTIRE REST of the series, he NEVER STOPS. He puts the Crystal Gems above himself every time. Think Rose's Scabbard, The Message, The Return/Jailbreak. The Cluster. Peridot. Dealing with Jasper. The zoo arc (ESPECIALLY the zoo arc). Aquamarine. Then pretty much the entirety of Season 5.

(NOTE: I went back and rewatched that scene for the screenshot. There is a blink-and-you'll-miss-it lip tremble in there too! D,: )

He lives for the people around him, and not for himself. Almost never for himself.

Put a pin in that.

Now, let's look at his maturity. People thought that was just him being mature, right? That he grew up. No. That was not it at all. He was learning from his own behaviors as well as the people around him, and building up this idea that he had to "fight to be everything that everyone wants [him] to be when [he's] grown" (- Steven, the extended intro).

Yes, he matured, but not because of that. He started making various decisions to benefit the group that oftentimes he wasn't fully comfortable with, but something he believed would be better for everyone.

Put a pin in that.

Then, later in Future, we see it all manifest. He is selfless to a fault, to the point that he can't think of himself in a positive light in the sense that he's good. We see it a couple of times, but especially in "Prickly Pair," when he vents to Cactus Steven about everything that happened. He feels useless, which is taking a toll on his mental health.

"Why do I need to be needed?" He needs to be needed because that's everything he was as a kid. His entire IDENTITY rests on his ability to help other people, no matter what happens to him. He literally sacrificed himself for them countless times (the big one of course being the Aquamarine incident), and now as a teenager, his whole sense of self is wrapped up in this need to get up and do something to make the world better.

And when he can't make the world better, his world falls apart.

Put a pin in that.

Now, let's talk about Spinel, the moment we've all been waiting for.

Spinel, as a gem, was made specifically to be a friend. That is her niche, and her purpose. Her reason for existing. At first, she and Pink Diamond got along very well, as shown in the flashbacks right before Drift Away plays (I headcanon she has illusion powers and was literally projecting her trauma, but that's a completely different post).

She and Pink vibed together for who knows how long, until one day, Pink started to not like being around Spinel anymore, finding her annoying and childish. We don't know what really caused the switch, just that it did happen (but of course, I have headcanons for that, too). Spinel never realized until it was FAR too late.

Steven actually describes his younger self as annoying at one point during the Diamond Days arc, when he decides to throw the ball, so I'm legally allowed to make this comparison.

Steven and Spinel were the SAME. They were both young and dumb, and something that at least a few people found annoying. People put up with their BS though, since they cared about them. But, while Steven realized this and matured because of it (or bottled up his emotions, to each their own), Spinel never did. She never matured. She was never given a chance.

In the movie, we saw her as a child, and watched as she played with Pink and never tried to be or do anything else, to the point that Pink Diamond thought to realize she might be struggling (and maybe Spinel didn't, either!).

She lives for the people around him, and not for herself. Almost never for herself.

And when she can't be friends with this one person, her world falls apart.

Sound familiar? It should. I literally pulled from things I said earlier lol.

Spinel and Steven are mirror reflections of each other. Reset!Spinel is 14-year-old Steven, completely devoting her entire self to one idea. Steven's was helping others no matter what, Spinel's was serving Pink no matter what. Spinel is like a combination of 14 and 12-year-old Steven in this sense, honestly. Goofy, without a care in the world, except one thing: the people around her. She would do anything for Pink, just as Steven would do anything for his family.

Now, Pink Diamond left Spinel. We all know this story. She left Spins there in the garden for 6,000 years because she grew more mature and started a rebellion, effectively forgetting about this one gem she kinda stopped caring about standing there.

Personally, I don't think Pink had any malicious or even intentional intent in that, but this ain't about her. This is about how Spinel continued to sacrifice herself for Pink, even when Pink didn't need her to anymore. She wanted to please Pink 24/7, all day every day, to the point she self-sacrificed and stood perfectly still for her for millenia.

Now, back to Steven. The gems don't need him anymore in Future, right? They've all grown up and matured and headed off towards their own futures, effectively stranding him alone in terms of self-identity and self-worth. But he stays there, ready to assist at the drop of a hat, or- in Future's case- the call of a phone.

Episode 6 anyone? The one everyone says shouldn't be in Future? That it should have been cut to allow more focus on Steven himself? The fusion episode? YEAH. THAT. He is running himself RAGGED to try and help others, to give himself a purpose. He is self-sacrificing. (He's a professional, don't worry. /j)

Steven metaphorically planted his feet down and decided that he was going to devote himself to the people around him.

Spinel's feet were literally tied down soon after she made that very same decision.

Okay, enough with the backstory. Time for the salt.

In Future, Steven is at his lowest low. He is running to the Diamonds for help, to see if there is SOMETHING they can do to help him. And we first see Spinel.

Spinel has been through the ringer on a lot of the same mental problems Steven himself is facing. She self-isolated, watched as everyone grew up and left her, and then began to lash out because of it. She understands what he's going through. We even see her concerned as Steven starts to tell her why he's there.

Spinel takes him from Diamond to Diamond, until he's running out of White's room in a blind panic. Spinel is able to catch up with him, and Steven realizes the same. SHE GETS IT. He turns around and says "Hey, you used to have vengeful thoughts!"

Spinel replies "Ohhhhh yeah, but I don't have 'em anymore."

"How did you make them stop?"

She then goes on to sing Change to him, effectively cutting that conversation short.

On paper, that sounds very in-character for her. She's goofy! And that is what worked for her! But the problem is that they had to dumb her down in order to make that character decision work. In the movie, she was shown to be observant and able to put two and two together, even if she often jumps to conclusions (see her being the one to figure out that the gems needed to remember their "pieces," as she remembers the Garden, her re-realizing what Pink did, and her meltdown later when she reactivates the injector).

Spinel is smart. It should have been in character for her to realize that Steven was panicking just as she had been, and needed to be talked to gently. But no. Instead, she starts belting out Change, which given Steven's situation, would not work for him.

At the very least, she would have started doing little tricks or started trying to get him to join a game, which would have taken his mind off of it (to her anyways, that wouldn't have worked either), which then could have prompted further discussion.

Then, once they finally start talking, Spinel could have been able to share some legitimate advise. She was hurt and lashed out. What worked for her was opening up to others and letting them in, learning to trust again (which Steven also has problems with- he can't trust that the Gems won't break down the second he turns his back. Trust does NOT equal love, there is no doubt he loves them to no end), and allowing other people in.

That is what Steven needed, too. He needed to let his guard down and just talk to someone. Sure, Spinel was not going to be a fix-all, but she could have at least offered some insight on what to do.

She UNDERSTANDS him. They are a reflection of each other.

But instead of offering help, Spinel made it worse. She was dumbed down to allow the rest of Future to happen, to make Steven feel even worse. Because- and here's the kicker- because the one person who MIGHT understand him doesn't, that means there's no hope for him.

At least, that's how he sees it. And so, the denial- and "Everything's Fine"- begins.

Here's the thing, though; they DIDN'T NEED to make that decision. If the Crew wanted to have Spinel not understand Steven, then draw the line of her being a Gem from Era 1, used to the Diamonds shattering people.

Steven has killed Jasper and revived her at this point, so maybe Spinel offers that at least he's trying to get better, just like the other Diamonds! See, they're doing so great now! And then that makes him feel worse since he IS trying to do better, but is only failing, while the Diamonds- who were MADE to be nasty dictators- are doing better than him.

The Diamonds shattered a lot of people, and they're doing better than Steven, who has only shattered one person, and not even on purpose. How horrible is that?

Then boom. THERE'S your angst, with a much smarter, more helpful Spinel.

Look, I knew going in that Spinel wasn't going to be able to help. The finale had to happen somehow, and we hadn't seen Wormy Boi yet. I have always been a storng believer of the corrupted Steven theory, so I knew it was bound to happen. But I was hoping that Spinel would at least try. But she really didn't. She just brushed him off, offering really loose advise that didn't even fit his situation and thinking that would be enough.

No. It's not.

I can see where the Crew was coming from. I still love that episode, and I love seeing Spins in it (until that exact moment). This is probably the only thing in SU that genuinely gets me mad. Or, well, maybe not mad, but definitely annoyed and- you guessed it- salty.

I have an unfinished fic where I kinda delve into Spinel's head for that episode called "A New Start". If you really want my thoughts on where Spinel's head was at, there's a bit in there that really explains it. In the fic, Steven decides to rejuvenate himself and brings Spinel along with him, and that's all the context you need for this.

I cannot explain that moment in the climax of the episode, though. Maybe she thought it would make him feel better, or that maybe he really did just need to open his eyes and see the error of his ways (which doesn't make sense, he KNOWS what he did). Maybe she thought that being silly would help somehow.

But you'd think she'd learn from her time with Pink as she grew more annoyed with her, but apparently not. Or maybe she would realize for a second that being loud and annoying was bad. Or maybe she doesn't learn.

Either way, it- and she- was dumb. And they did my baby dirty.

*drops mic and walks away*

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Stimmypaw reads Darkest Night! The fourth text post!

Back with these uh live reading comments! Remember those? yeah! I'm on the fourth book of Warrior Cats: A Vision of Shadows :D I read The Apprentice's Quest and Thunder and Shadow and Shattered Sky and now!! I'm here :D and boy did I have a time. Click read more to see it!

NEEDLETAIL?????????

Needletail???????????

What?????

OH???????

Wh THIS GUY IS TALKIN 2 DEAD PEOPLE????

HOW WHO IS THAT

OH MY GOD

These guys are weak and dumb skyclan is epic and sharing the territory with them is good, but of course sparkpelt isn't dealing well with change wink wink nudge wink nudge nudge huh???? (this is a nod to how I project into her and say shes autistic)

I am getting anxious for tinycloud SERIOUSLY how much longer until those kits??? Everyday you show up and its WOW my tummy ssure is HUGE AND BULGING I just Wonder Oh When They'll Be Born, probably pretty soon!!! :) and then they arent!!!! Birth dammit!!!

Cherryfall cut the sick and hurt cats some slack jeez youre Fine, youre not feeding half the forest and you have THREE medicine cats ready to help you if youre not feeling well

Bastard Cherryfall I hate you /lh

Dovewing and Tigerheart have relationship drama again. What is UP with those two I simply do not understand them

Watching Bramblestar trying to control this bizarre situation is actually funny he is so close to screaming "PLEASE dont be mad :c"

SOON WHEN???? JUST KIT THOSE KITTENS DAMMIT

Get her, Alderheart

They LITERALLY said something about sharing the territory, they were like "Stars have five points baby and we need those 5 clans togetherrrr" what else do these cats want??? I know its a big change but its necessary

Wait everyone shut up that cat is named Podlight this is so important to me

Dang these cats are really still struggling :c I wish they didnt blame each other

Harestar is so cool

What the FUCK mistystar????

God what a disaster of a gathering Starclan is gonna be so pissed everyone is doing the opposite of what they should

I was holding my breath oof

I hope thunderclan gives some territory too thats too small a space for Skyclan

Oh boy oh boy oh boy i am Anxious for these Kitties

Violetpaw is me having nightmares every night

Macgyver is a heavily gringue name and I have No Clue how to say it how the hell do you say it

Update its either Mick Guyver or Mac Guyver apparently

Its fun to see how different the sisters are from one another, I love them both

I also love their mom with the name identical to puddleshine wish I got to meet her

IM CRYING BRO........M...MDB.....NFBANN.....VIOLETPAW BELONGS MY DARLING MY DAUGHTER

Sadly Twigpaw is for gender binarism 😔 /j

Twigpaw is often in her thoughts and doesn't pay attention to anything around her and I love her for that

Bad news Finpaw is gonna lose his tail, good news I can draw his tail fin-shaped

Puddleshine surgeon moment!!!

I love Graystripe and Millie

And I love that being flirty is a part of Sparkpelt's personality, I don't know what Alderheart is talking about she's always been dandelion-headed

Ok this is epic, I’m glad we’re breaking gender roles in Warrior Cats my heart dropped when the books called Briarlight cr*ppled, that’s the thing they promised not to do anymore recently right? I’m not sure but, I could use some uh less ableism on my Warrior Cats, the series is old but the newer books should be better, so yeah, good modernize these cats babyyy

OH COOL Skyclan journey!!! Fun I hope they find someone :] also fuck Molewhisker and Cherryfall bastards.

Jayfeather is gonna miss Alderheart too much for him to leave hehehe

ALL of Starclan showed up just to call out Riverclan pahahah

oooo is shadowclan haunted?????

FINALLY TINYCLOUD IS KITTING YES GOD YES GO QUEEN GOOOO!!!!

I wonder why Twigpaw wants to stay behind, there has to be more than just the camp stuff

"I wish I were more positive like Twigpaw, but at least I'm just as scarred by the death of my loved ones as my dad :] I like being like him"

Violetpaw witnesses a car crash 😔 that was a bit messy what happened to those cars also why the hell was one of them smaller was it a bike??? Or ???? Idk what's up with it!!!

Needletail just happens to have slow-down turned on for her on the discord chat so she can only say like a few words each hour :/ why the hell is she here tho Violetpaw needs to get OVER your death!!!!

This short exchange has made me love Dewpaw

Also, I love Twigpaw, I still wonder why she stayed behind tho

Ahh, is it cus she feels too estranged from her family :c ? I wish her mom was around maybe that would help

Jee Twigpaw be a tad more empathic, I can see Twigpaw struggles with that sometimes

You can't cheer him up right now he's grieving, just find him on common ground, talk to him, don't try to make him happy just try to keep him company

Oh wow finpaw that's a dangerous thing to say I hope Twigpaw doesn't crumble under the pressure to never be sad because people like her because she's happy and her being sad would be bad

ALSO I JUST REMMEMBRERD UH TWIGPAW MENTIONED BRIARLIGHT BUT BERRYNOSE IS RIGHT THERE???? HE IS RIGHT HE DIDNT DIE OFF SCREEN IM SURE OF IT WAIY

BERRYNOSS IS RIGHT THERE I CHDCKED!!!! HE LOST HIS TAIL TOO AND HES A GREAT WARRIOR, TWIGPAW!!!! YOU SHOULD HAVE MENTIONED IT ITS MORE RELATABLE

Okay I'm glad they're getting along this is nice

Oh look twigpaw you Are like your father :] this is cute

Skyclan begins to fish competitively I'm glad

I like it when medicine cats bicker about their leader's behaviors ehheheh, Jayfeather talking about how weak Shadowclan is, Alderheart being annoyed at his father for wanting to stay silent, the others worried about the tensions this is all cheff the kisser

Jayfeather spitting the truths about how Starclan doesn't know shit, and he is very much one to speak

Puddleshine: Rowanstar stepped up the patrols :c

Leadstar: He has warriors enough for that?? Damn good for him

Dang poor Skyclan I hope they manage stuff better soon

Oooo the girls are fighting!!!

Alderheart starclan anxiety time dang

Sheep :]

Needletail :[

I'm sad Ravenpaw isn't here, this is a lovely reunion scene but knowing Barley will be alone when they all leave breaks my heart

Oh, maybe not, but if they stay I'll be sad also cus Skyclan needs its warriors

Aw man, Twigpaw is struggling :c

OUCH

I WANT SKYCLAN 2 SWIM THO......

Omg crimes

That sounds kinda possessive twigpaw!

DOVEWING?????

WhHAHAGAHAHA WHERE DID THAT COME FROM

omg tigerstar 2 real

Whats he gonna do to rowanstar???

ALRIGHT THATA OVER THEN PAHAHA

Aw, I'm glad they're having fun tho, and that twigpaw sees herself as skyclan

Alderheart, as he meets someone for the first time in a while: ARE YOU OKAY???

Blackstar protagonist moment

The medicine cats: our gods are toying with us again and destiny is uncertain

Leaders: I cannot DO this right now PLEASE leave and let me care for The Real Issues

Alderheart: YOU WILL hang out at my house Willowshine this isn't up for debate

Riverclan suffered enough and it's their turn to throw a tantrum about it, honestly good for them hsghahah

Alderheart asks his father to go on a quest to check people's feet

WHAT THR HELL IS A CANTANKEROUS

Alderheart and Willowpelt sitting there watching Shadowclan fight

This is really funny

HEWWO????

Puddleshine, in his eyes: help help

I love Skyclan

Ok this sounds like it's gonna be very very fun

Mission impossible: Escape From São Paulo

Oh, is Fallowfern deaf? That's so poggers omg I wanna see more of her

Edit: fallowfern is an elder that lost her hearing with age and retired after that happened :/ boring

I love leafstar so much

Juniperclaw: aren't you gonna punish her????

Leafstar: why

Juniperclaw: when I tell rowanstar he's gonna be pissed

Leafstar: don't tell him

Juniperclaw: the fuck is wrong with you and your clan??? Where is everyone???????

Leafstar: busy

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I don't trust abled people specially able-bodied people telling disabled people they just have to train harder and feeling sorry for yourself won't help.

But this is the closest to a positive message to disabled people we have ever had in warriors so I guess I'll take it but I want better

IVYPOOL!!!💖💖💖💖💕

Dang ivypool what a way to show someone you miss them hahaha

Twigpaw: uhhhh how's dovewing?

Ivypool: what do you mean did she do something illegal I'm sure she did

Ivypool is a seriously funny character WHY are you yelling at the young adult about your sisters illegal activities she doesn't know anything about it!!!!

Alderheart goes on an adventure

Feet inspector on the road!!!!

Jasper is so funny I love him

Omg what's he got against clan cats??? What's his sad backstory????

YEESSSS SPARKPELT MY LOVE 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💕💕💕💕💕💕💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💕💕💕

Sparkpelt your opinion sucks but I love you

I'm really really glad they had this moment this is really sweet, they hadn't talked for a while but this is genuine like, we hadn't had this sort of relationship in so long in the books with just, dialogue yknow??? THEYRE TALKING ABOUT THINGS

And the pause Sparkpelt takes between her speaking to fix what she's saying "I'm sorry for saving you :c no wait uhh not exactly but like" this is so good so natural so fun I love you sparkpelt

I get why she has a diferent opinion on Skyclan it's good for someone close to Alderheart to have a different mindset from him and for him to have someone like uh be opposites from him a lil yknow contrats his characteristics makes both siblings fun round and full of kitty do you get what I'm saying???

I love this

I love Sparkpelt, love her lil anxious moments, love her, love that she just wants to fool around with toms and enjoys Larksong but doesn't want to get serious you go girl

They wanted to write smart-ass they wanted to write smart-ass so bad

They're doing this in the rain?????

I'm quite certain Violetpaw is a young adult by this point its valid for her to go

Wh why did you let your cat out in the rain dude!!! When it comes back it's gonna dirty up the whole place it's wet out there!!!! And the cold is gonna get in the house!!!!!!!

I WAS HOLDING MY BREATH OH LORD

That was SO INTENSE AND SO FUNNY AND SO MUCH, IM SO GLAD SHE MADE IT I GOT SCARED

Oh this is so epic

That moment when your cat nearly dies and then it runs off and you go after it and then a bunch of other cats show up and start running with it

I hope Twigpaw can see the others soon

Glad to see her keeping her medicine cat knowledge ehehehe

???????

Sandynose I hate you you are so abled

Sandynose: I don't want my son to feel distanced from his peers so I'm distancing him from his peers

DOVEWING???

SANDYNOSE SHUT UP IM GOING TO KILL YOU ANS MURDER YOU

I'm so upset with Sandynose WHY isn't leafstar seeing this WHY DOESNG ANYONE SEE THIS SOMSONE PLEASE CONFORT AND LOVE MY CHILD TWIGPAW DOESNT DESERVE THIS

Angry sad upset why

Piscina

Thanks graystripe

Ok who's dying this time

Ok no one just a background cat got hurt he will survive otherwise it would be relevant

This was intense though what will happen now???

YES FINALLY

Oh this is lovely so good they're here!!! The rest of skyclan has arrived and we are all happy together

That dream felt good

NEEDLETAIL??? AGAIN

Where were you at!!!!

What!!!

Check this man's feet how many toes are there this could be good

What

Hegshahwha what the fuck is up with this guy

Okay I like him

Ohhh THATS tree

Change your name if you don't like it you sound trans already

Yeah nothing makes one smarter like dying

This is very fun I'm excited for more of whatever happening

Twigpaw :c

HIS SNIFFLES

Oh no

Hhhhnn I want Twigpaw to be happy so bad, I hate seeing her struggles

Sandynose you are so evil and very detested by me

You can and you SHOULD feel angry at Sandynose he SUCKS and he is being needlessly mean at you!!!!! There are much better ways to bring up the possibility that maybe you'd be happier with thunderclan!!! Fuck off Sandynose

Oh so Snowbush hasn't improved, maybe he will die?

Poor Alderheart

Oh fuck there he goes

Yeah

Aw man, rip to the background cat

That was a heavy death too

Aw, I was hoping the rest of Skyclan would show up before the gathering, maybe just after it???

I wonder what's going on in Shadowclan

TIGERHEARTS MISSING HUH???

The couple was kidnapped

HUH????

Oh my lord oh fuck

Can't anyone step up to lead why do they depend on Tigerheart so much???

Jesus christ

Alderheart kills his gods

This is so chaotic and funny I'm worried as hell for shadowclan but excited a lot is happening

HI TREE AGSGAHAH

Tawnypelt >:(

Puddleshine: WAIT DONT KICK HIM OUT, CHECK OUT HIS FREAKY FEET INSTEAD

Oh dear

Twigpaw :c

TWIGPAW :CCCC Man rememebr when I said I hope Twigpaw doesn't crumble under the pressure of being happy for others? yeah

GET OUT SANDYNOSE I DONT CARE YOURE BEING REASOMABLE FOR ONCE YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN LATER

I'm so heartbroken for them

Uh pdhsgahab okay then

Bye finpaw

Wow that was easy for him

This is fun

I'm still sad as hell

Okay there's a lot going on right now wow

The owl scene was funny as hell to picture, this dramatic prophetic moment and the cats just "uuggh is that a prophecy??? Nooo"

Okay so

There's some shadowclan cats missing, considering the many sleekwhisker maps I'm sure she's up to no good but I have no clue what happened to the others and I hope they're okay

Wow! That was really something

Fantastic ending to a very good book its, definitely a different energy from the third but I'm really enjoying this I'm still excited as hell!!! I got worried things would get kinda bad from here but nope!!!! Very fun stuff for now this is very very good and I am enjoying it

This is definitely one of the most fun arcs I've read so far!!! The drama the stakes the little moments everything is tying together really well into a very fun story I'm enjoying a lot!

I worry for Twigpaw and hope for her happiness, and Violetshine too, hope her and Hawkwing deal well with missing her. Tree is being interesting. Alderheart wasn't much of a focus here but always fun to see him trying to solve the damn prophecy no leaders seem to care about. Mousewhisker was okay??? Lots of very fantastic turns for all events and uh let's see where this all goes next!!!

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