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lunarw0rks · 7 months

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Hi!!! I just wanna start by saying I love your writing so much. I always look forward to seeing what you share next!

Can I request a little something about reader who grew up never really having their birthday celebrated/they always downplay it. Then here comes Soap who loves nothing more than to celebrate his loves ones and reader is touched and basically almost sobs at how he genuinely enjoys making their day special🥺

This is totally not a self-indulgent ask whatsoever. If you can get to this, that'd be sweet but if not that's ok too! Have a great day💗

warning(s); sfw, fluff, hurt/comfort, pining? but still platonic by the end, military!reader, gn!reader, no use of y/n word count: 1.6k // not proofread

TRADITIONS | SOAP MACTAVISH

birthday celebrations were never on your radar, and especially not after choosing such a rugged career.

there often wasn't time for streamers and light conversation; it was anything but those things. throughout your childhood, there weren't momentous parties or cheery wishes thrown your way. it was... not much of a celebration at all.

after you grew out of your innocence, the sting of it disappeared over time. or you learned to ignore it. either way, you never expected parties, gifts, or anything alike.

it was better this way; you'd repeat to yourself.

yet, when passing a park and seeing a child's entire kin gathered to celebrate the milestone—you have that same cramp in your chest as if you hadn't aged at all.

today was akin to any other; exhausting. long hours of PT and drills, paired with new material to study, courtesy of Price. the busier the better, though, because it was less chance of your captain mentioning the big day, even in passing.

thankfully, he hadn't, nor did the rest of them.

it was the peaceful hours before official lights out, when every soldier retreated to their quarters and occupied themselves with something, or simply slept early. you sat down on the thin cot with a beat sigh, unzipping your tight boots and setting them aside—procrastinating shining them by morning.

through all the uncertainty, there's one thing you're sure of—a steamy shower. the hot beads of water cleanse you of the dirt and grime of today and its meaning.

you figure that once you get into bed and tomorrow rolls around, it'll be another birthday stifled and forgotten.

one moment, you're sitting on the edge and applying lotion to your dry and cracked hands, and next, you're startled by a knock at the door. you gazed at the digital clock on your nightstand;

10:38 PM

at this hour, what could it possibly be? with this task force, you'd been conditioned to expect anything, at any time—and that did not inspire confidence at the moment.

"it's open," you replied reluctantly, not wanting to get the doorknob greasy with lotion remnants. with a few struggling grunts, the door finally opened and closed.

his hairstyle, as recognizable as ever. "there ya are." he said with enthusiasm, in the likeness of an over-excited detective that solved a tough case.

"c'mere for a minute," he curled his fingers. despite his cheeky smile, you indulge his request. slipping off the edge, you approach him and supply only a perplexed look.

you were quickly running out of guesses, "Mactavish, what is—"

an explosion; tiny fragments falling like ash all around your body. some landed in your hair, others on your shoulders, and most on the leaden cement floor of the barracks.

you opened your eyes after they squinted from the startle. you grabbed the dainty rain, looking down and seeing rainbow confetti pieces. soap's palm was open, and he was actively chuckling at your shocked expression.

"hello, you in there? happy birthday?" he says, as a question, because you haven't had much of a reaction. to him, it probably looked like you hated the surprise.

a rush of emotions pumped through you; disbelief, gloom, and overbearing all—consolation.

warmth spread over your chest and cheeks, and you're suddenly overcome with all the feelings at once. you fumbled through a sentence, "oh, you didn't have to— really, Soap, it's... wait, how did you do the...?"

"—the confetti?" soap sneers, as if he'd been waiting for you to mention his party trick. "trick o' the palm, i can't tell ye more; it's classified."

for a few moments, you stare at one another. his beam is genuine, but yours is unsure and borderline awkward. when you're literally smacked in the face with surprise, everything feels unrefined and alien. especially birthdays.

"don't be daft, had to help you celebrate. besides, you didn't say anythin' today." lightly, he smacked your shoulder, knocking the silence from your throat.

"I just don't see the point, I guess," you reply, and soften your expression to make it known that you still appreciate the kind gesture. following, you shook off some of the confetti from your shoulders as if ridding your body of the festivities.

soap furrows his brows with genuine confusion, "in what? confetti or my presence?"

"in birthdays." you assert, a stark contrast to his playful nature. "never really celebrated one before."

his shock was authentic and obvious, pulled together with slightly agape lips, "you can't be serious— never?" you nodded, sticking to your story, because it wasn't a story at all. it was your truth. "don't you want gifts? all the attention? what about the cake?"

"it's not from a lack of trying, MacTavish. you can't exactly... want something you've never had." you scoff, looking the eager sergeant up and down.

he does the same, and his heart sinks when he senses no lies. you really aren't lying, and you really are this indifferent about your own birthday.

to him, it's completely unheard of. birthdays were some of his core memories, his own and his family back home. how could you have been deprived of that for so long, and be so... collected?

"doesn't matter where you came from, or why; you deserve a celebration."

his merriment wasn't posed as a question anymore, and you didn't want it to be either. part of you—so deep down you hadn't felt it right away—wanted to be celebrated on your special day.

all of it caught up with you at once, and without any strength to conceal it, tears brimming at the corners of your eyes. a glimpse of your damaged and long-deprived inner child, presented through a grown soldier's body.

he brought you closer, a supportive hand on the nape of your neck as you clung to him tightly. "thank you." you muttered, chin resting on his shoulder.

"aye, but it's nothing." soap pulled you back, forcing you to stare at him head on. a thumb reached up and wiped the salty tears, then smoothed over your cheek. "y'know what, I know what we've got t' do." he breathes, voice dropping to a whisper, as if concealing his idea from the world.

your face scrunched in confusion. "we?"

as if ignoring your question, he kept rambling, "you have holiday coming up. request time off, and i'll take you all the way home with me."

"all the way home?" you queried, unsure of what kind of holiday to be picture. with him, it could be anything under the blazing sun.

he slowed down his speech and affirmed, "all the way home." it dawned on you what he meant, but nothing sour arose from that idea.

"Nana, she'll put on one hell of a party for you, trust me." finally, his rambles had calmed, awaiting your reaction. it was near impossible to refuse his puppyish demeanor, the one he shifted into when he wanted something the most.

"cake?" you questioned, surprising him with almost no argument. the nonchalance had to look uncanny, considering your cheeks were still stained with streams.

he grinned with satisfaction. "aye, 'course there's cake. can't forget the streamers, and best of all—the MacTavish rugrats, and brood, in one place."

well, now that sounded more like a nightmare; your mind filled with the image of a hundred little mohawks reaping havoc on your birthday party. but in the middle of the chaos would be you and soap; the only mildly convincing part of this scheme.

"i can't expect your whole family to gather and plan a party for someone they've never met. let alone m—"

"well, actually, that's the kicker," he interjected, unveiling a new layer to his little birthday scheme. one he could've been planning for god knows how long. "Nan is having a get-together around that time, it won't be a fuss f' her."

you would be nearly stunned if it weren't for a few pressing questions. what he'd said early hit you like a ton of bricks, and now it was full-on suspicion. "wait a minute, johnny. how did you know i had holiday time?"

it all seemed too much of a coincidence. and that's because, it wasn't.

for a man trained to endure the worst kinds of torture, he cracked under the pressure almost instantly.

"may have... done some digging in Cap's office. that's how i figured out your birthday." he figured it better to rip off the bandaid preemptively than have deflected now and have you throwing him out the airplane window.

you gasped slightly, "christ, is privacy illegal in this place? actually, that probably is illegal, MacTavish, i could have you—"

"—are ye goin' with me or not?" soap interrupted.

it wasn't like you said no. just like it wasn't the first time he'd mentioned you to his family. but that was a skeleton to uncover on another day, and hopefully not during the plane ride.

you outstretched a hand, "if you're paying? a deal is a deal."

"see? wasn't so hard. besides, i know i'm hard to deny." he ran an arrogant hand through his hair, instead of shaking your hand proper.

instead of complaining, you knew just how to press his buttons. "come to think of it, johnny." you tilted your head, reading to have the last laugh.

"you have any embarrassing juvenile stories? or better yet, does Nana have any baby pictures i might like to see?" you continued, watching his haughtiness fizzle instantly.

he took a few steps back, cheeks rosy, "you know what— in two hours that birthday of yours will be over, and you know what happens then? first dibs on my knuckles, soldier."

that tells you the answer was yes.

on second thought, this was going to be a very fun excursion.

˗ˏˋ divider cred. - cafekitsune ˎˊ˗

#john soap mactavish #soap mactavish #soap x you #soap x reader #soap x y/n #soap x gn!reader #soap mactavish x reader #soap mw2 #soap mwii #mw2 #call of duty #task force 141 #mw2 fanfic

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wigglymantis · 16 days

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ok so (very rambly post incoming)

i've only played pathologic 2 up to like 7 pm of day 3 (took like 3 tries to heal Patches and spent most of the day gathering herbs for that and dealing with paperwork), but can we talk about how *fantastic* the immersion is in this game? because

1) i felt actual *dread* when i just barely missed the deadline for the Patches quest the first time (my brain: oh god oh fuck i was literally next door in my workshop but i was late i couldn't save the child i will never be a menkhu and where is Aspity and why the fuck is the bell tolling this cutscene is creepy af WHAT)

2) i never expected Lara Ravel of all people to hurt me enough to make me cry but here we are

Rubin and Grief making racist remarks about the Kin i wasn't happy about at all, but that's basically how they were from the first dialogues with them so i was like. i guess that's them now. but *LARA*? lovely adorable Lara Ravel who first offered me shelter, trust, and compassion when the whole town thought i mercilessly killed my own father?

i dared casually call her basaghan and she went on a whole thing about how she hates being called that and also this one weird herb bride (i *think* her name is Nara?) asked her where i am and "ugh what's her problem?" :/ i just sat there like "wha.... Lara how could you say that to Artemy? he's had a bad enough day already... pchd Lara would have never..." i felt so weirded out and betrayed, and now a week later it feels ridiculous because this is an npc in a video game Dot you are not Artemy Burakh what the heck was that reaction- (kinda reminded me of the feeling of a high school "friend" randomly making antisemitic comments to me for no reason now that i think about it)

anyway tldr 100/10 immersion, not too mad at you Lara (just very disappointed) and my pulse goes up a little bit when i think about the Patches quest, but that just proves the immersion is absolutely brilliant

and lesson learned, trust no one in this wretched town, anyone and everyone has the potential to suddenly be a prick to you in patho2 XD (and also keep track of the goshdarn time because if i understand the shituation at hand right the timer will start speeding up after this day)

and yes i know it will only get worse because this is

: the Restaging, but i played pchd so i think i'm ready for anything now

...that's a lie, no i'm not ready for what's to come at all. but neither is Artemy so i guess it's fine XD

#i looted lara's kitchen cabinet to retaliate #pathologic #pathologic 2 #lara ravel #hbomberguy #dot rambles #(a lot this time XD)

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toyaslove · 8 months

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Helo heloo I really love your writing so I'm here with a request~

So may I request toya with s/o that kins akito/ena? Like they tend to seek compliment and attention by doing multiple things such as drawing, singing and such but they think they never get good enough as other people?

That's all~ hope you have a good day/night<33

(Also do you have any tips to get out of writers block? Cause i have it rn)

- 🌸

A/N: Hello! Ty for requesting! I'm happy that you like my writing style, hehe~ And about the blocking... bro, I was blocked it's been 2 months, so I'm the worst person to give you a tip 😭😭😭 but I get my creativity I think because I didn't have nothing to do, so, I feel like doing it... try to get bored, and then your creativity goes back!

Tags: @kuzui5201314 , @sentientsoil , @miya-akane

Tw: light angst, comfort, self depreciation(?)

Toya Aoyagi x Akito and Ena kin gn!Reader

Am I good enough..?

Writing style: scenario! (I thought in a really good idea, so, I did just a scenario, I hope you don't mind)

Well... as you can imagine, Toya usually doesn't demonstrate so much physical affection, and with that, you were getting crazy for it. He complimented you so much, and he supported you, but... Please, just a hug! You guys were still at the beginning of your relationship, so Toya still was a little shy to do physical touch, mainly because... He has no experience! Bear with him... he just wants your good! He's scared of making you uncomfortable...

Then, you started... kind of avoiding him, not because you get tired of him, but you started thinking you aren't a good partner to him, and he doesn't want you close to him anymore. And guess what? Toya, full of worries and insecurities, thought that he wasn't being a good boyfriend and started thinking of what he could do to make you happy...

While you avoided him, he was thinking of what he could do to make you get closer to him again, well then... that day arrives! He came to your home, at a Saturday at 15 pm, with some casual but tidy clothes. He had a rose in his hand, accompanied to your favorite sweet... It was so cute to see him like this. He was with that ownerless puppy face.

– [Y/N]... I... I don't know if I did something wrong to you, but... I... I'm kind of worried about you... and I don't want to lose you, so... please... could you please stop avoiding me a little..? I ask with all my heart... I... my love... I love you so much... – Toya says, with a serious and sad face, he looks in the deep of your eyes...

The both of you guys were thinking at the same thing, that each other doesn't like you as before... When Toya came, your eyes widened, you were really surprised... at this point, you're almost in tears... You were feeling so important! The opposite as always, that you think about yourself being inferior to the other people... it was really a stake in your heart, in a good way.

– T-Toya... I thought you were sick of me... I... I'm speechless... – You say, now, you start tearing. Toya comes and gives you a tight and warm hug, and he gives you a soothing smile.

– I would never be sick of my love... and... why did you... kept avoiding me like that..? – Toya says, with pure kindness, he holds your shoulders with his two hands.

– It's... you weren't, you know... giving me so much physical touch, and I thought you got sick of me or you didn't feel comfortable anymore to stay with me... then... I get away from you to make you feel better. – You say avoiding eye contact with Toya.

– Oh... it was that? Really... just that? This is a relief... oh my love... I promise, I'll give as much physical touch as you need and deserve... I love you, ok? I would never get sick of you... I promise, my [Y/N], I love you, you're worthy to me! – Toya says with the kindest smile and voice in this world, he presses a little sweet kiss on your lips after that...

Well... after that, you and Toya get clingier than never! It was cute to see you two like that. It was even weird because you two didn't touch yourselves like... nothing!

(P.s.: vbs kept making fun of you two because of that LMAOOO)

On this same day, you two stayed cuddling the whole entire day, you two shared that chocolate Toya gave you before, drank some coffee together, talked to each other, played games, made jokes, it was really one of the best days you two had since the day you started dating~!

A/N: I'm sorry if that wasn't what you expected, this was more to an idea that came in my mind. If you want to, I can remake this fic! Be free to ask it again after my requests get open!

#project sekai #project sekai colorful stage #toya aoyagi #project sekai x reader #aoyagi toya #akito shinonome #toya aoyagi x reader #aoyagi touya x reader #aoyagi toya x reader #toya x reader #vbs toya #touya aoyagi x reader #touya aoyagi #project sekai writing

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wybienova · 2 months

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ok but genuinely im feeling a lot of emotions and feelings tonight. forgotten land is one of the few games that i can confidently say has literally changed my life for the better.

because of it i got into kirby, which has been so fun in so many ways but most importantly ive met so many people!!! here on tumblr especially!!! hell i made this account because i wanted to post my kirby art somewhere! more than that though it directly led to me meeting my best friend ivory who i love very very very much . and if this game hadn’t existed i think my life would be very different right now

on another level too (the part im more scared to talk about) like. elfilin! it gave me elfilin!!! a character who was instantly endeared to me so hard that i went through a brief identity crisis before coming out the other side realizing that i kin him ^.^” and im always scared to talk about it because i don’t want to be cringe or whatever but. yeah ! and im glad that this game and character exist because they mean so so so much to me

so yeah .! sorry about my ramblings at 1030 pm but im. just genuinely really emotional rn !!

#wybie moment #aaahhhh emotional vulnerability aaaaahhhh #kirby

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znitsamluv · 2 years

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Hi hi! Can I get a matchup?

for hobbies I like to draw but I’m sorta shy to show people my drawings since it’s like all anime fanart lol but I do have a relatively successful art insta. I also play volleyball at school and I’m a libero! I also like listening to music and I can play the drums and xylophone too! The music I listen too is mostly love songs and 2000s stuff like old Justin Bieber and Britney spears.

I always think of myself as a pretty bubbly and extroverted person! I’m an Entp too. I’m pretty popular at school and most people know who I am (and I’m PRETTY SURE most people like me but idrk 😭). I always order for my shy friends since they don’t want to and I work as a waitress at a little cafe and most people seem to like me since I’m bubbly and talkative. I also enjoy being the center of attention (but I’d never steal any spotlight away from anyone! That’s super rude!) like for my birthday I carried around chocolates (my birthday is on Valentine’s Day so I get a lot of those) and I wore a birthday sash and a princess crown for the whole day.

I also care about how I look a lot and ngl I kinda have an ego about it 😭. I like wearing a lot of pink and I LOVE hello kitty. I like wearing accessories a lot too so I always have cute dangling earrings when I go out and I wear a lot of lipgloss too. If you’ve ever seen mean girls that’s how I dress haha! I love wearing crop tops and short skirts a lot and I have a lot of shoes. So basically I always look really girly haha.

For just general info: I’m 16, 5’4, I’m Asian so I have black eyes and hair, I’m pretty pale (I just don’t really like being outside too much) I’m really skinny but my thighs are sorta thick for some reason(if that matters lol). And I have a few moles on my face like one right above my like (kinda like marylyn Monroe’s lol). My pronouns are She/He/They and I identify as Girlflux! I’m also Bi (irl I like girls much much more but I really like the Tokyo revengers boys haha!)

For a partner I’m bisexual so I’ll take just about anyone! But if it helps my irl partners are usually someone that can tolerate me lol! Like I’m very talkative and I like people that I can have conversations with and never run out of things to talk about. It also helps cause sometimes I’m scared that I might be annoying to people because of how much I talk :P, and I text like all my friends at least once everyday. Also it’s probably a given but someone who is ok with the way I like to dress/look! Cause Ik theres ppl who don’t like dating girls who show too much or are too flashy T-T but I’m a flashy girl at heart and I liked being looked at and complimented so I don’t think I could ever change that haha!

Idk if you’re really into kinning but some characters I relate to are, Bokuto (haikyuu), Aoi (Tbhk), Mitsuba (Tbhk), tamaki suoh (Ohshc), and Oikawa (Haikyuu)

This might be too much info but too much is always better than too little!

Your match is ready !

your match is

izana kurokawa!

• How you met .

°You were doing your job at the cashier like you normally do everyday but this time a certain unfamiliar boy walked in .

° He looked so mighty and full of himself and held eye contact with you so confidently while ordering but that act all went to the drain when you simply said " you have pretty eyes "

° Izana forgot to function for a second before He scoffed and left the cashier area to get his drink without saying anything.

° But from that day on he would come and get his usual drink and usually doesn't talk but there was this one time where you had got a new haircut he said " nice haircut " then you both talked for a few minutes before you had to get back to work .

° Izana has big ego so he is afraid of rejection so he doesn't ask you out directly he just got information from kakucho that you finish your shift at 6 pm so he waited outside and tried so hard to act surprised to see you .

° Then he insisted on walking you home because it was ' late ' and that was his way of getting to talk to you for a few minutes without seeming suspicious.

° iT Became normal that he walk you home every day after your shift while stopping In the middle of the journey to get you ice cream or some candy .

° Izana is harsh and blunt sometimes without any filter so kakucho was shocked to see how gentle Izana was treating you .

° At the end of one day he finally asked you out to go to the beach together because it is going to be 'hot tomorrow 'as he said .

•How is your dating life.

° POWER COUPLE ALERT !

° you both fit with each other so much and you both have the same level of confidence and just makes the relationship 100% better.

° Izana loves your style and how you always wear cute outfit like there is not a single day where you didn't slay with your outfit.

° izana has the " Wear whatever you want I can fight" vibe.

° Wouldn't hesitate to snap someone's neck for staring at you but don't worry you always pull him away before he commits murder.

° izana would 100 % show you off like and would brag about you .

° During your shifts he usually comes and acts like a normal customer while flirting here and there and you play along as well .

° you both normally text each other so be ready for morning texts when you wake up .

° Izana would teach you to fight so he doesn't have to be worried about you all the time but it always ends with you cuddling instead.

° POOL AND BEACH DATES WITH IZANA IS A MUST . ( Be careful he is the type to pull your leg underwater) .

° izana knows you are bubbly and popular at school but he didn't know that you are THAT POPULAR!

° At valentine's day he wanted to be romantic and give you some chocolate because it is your favorite and also because it is your birthday but he was horrified when he saw the amount of chocolate you had been gifted and sulked all day saying people have no respect to people in relationships and he was jealous but you had to explain they got you chocolate because it is your favorite gift .

° You both would get matching dangling earrings.

° Izana just loves you with whole heart and you filled his empty cold heart so he feels grateful and would do anything to keep you around .

° His favorite moments is usually in winter where you both make snow angels and snowmen he loves seeing your childish grin after you put a carrot as a nose for the snow man .

° He would take a picture of you while you make a snowman and have it as his lockscreen and no matter what you tell him he won't change it .

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abcdosaka · 1 month

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had a pretty hard time at work last week. got my period + i got chewed out by that one guy again (probably the fourth or fifth time by now) bc i didn’t communicate something well. the deadline is next week, which i didn't know about, and he wanted to have this completed last week and now its pushed to monday probably. it was my fault and i’ll admit that. but the truth is i just fucking hate talking to him. if he wasn't so completely intolerable to talk to i wouldn't mind it as much but holy shit. what a seriously hateable guy. i was watching a video earlier today and i got a little annoyed because the person in the video had similar features to the guy.

he always talks over me and doesn't let me finish my thought or question. he does this to everyone it seems worst with the women in the office

he definitely thinks i'm stupid. whenever i ask him a question he's like ok clearly i need to dumb this down for you (not exact phrasing of course but that's basically what he's saying). like no wonder i don't fucking like asking him questions

i feel like he regrets choosing to hire me. i know they wanted to hire someone a bit more experienced and i'm not like i just graduated. but to be quite honest in my interview i fucked up bad like i could barely answer the technical questions but i did express a desire to learn. so idk i feel like that's not really on me

our personalities just don't match at all. honestly i used to try hard to be laidback and able to handle anyone but it just kinda made me a pushover. when i assert myself with this guy he just gets mad. this always happens like every single time i try to assert myself bc i'll admit it, i'm a shy chick, i'm on fucking tumblr so no shit, but i hate hate hate the feeling of being steamrolled over.

his management style/expectations just make very little sense to me. like he's always pointing out stuff i should've done when i'm showing him results. or stuff that i didn't even think was my responsibility. he's kinda all over the place when giving me instructions, he's always skipping steps and then making me feel stupid for not being able to keep up. it gives me such imposter syndrome

all of this combined with the fact that he's super smart makes him pretty intimidating. and the fact that i have to mainly work with him bc he's the only other (specialized in my specific field at the office) is seriously like.... tough shit for me.

i'm not the first person to feel this way. two of the other junior employees said they really didn't like working with him. one of them even said she straight up couldn't deal with him bc he was so mean. she also said that the company is def aware of this but they're not great at responding to it.

the pm i'm doing one project with (which he was kinda supervising) was like yeah he's super intimidating and honestly not a fun guy to work with but he's a hard worker and will work to get stuff done. that's great that he's like the backbone of the company or whatever but that actually makes me a bit more mad. it's like when the patriarch of a family is trash but you can't say anything bc "oh he's holding it together he's the breadwinner". it just feels like it's being held over my head a bit. we couldn't have someone nicer in this position?

worst part is i can't just say he's a shit boss bc he's not wrong. like i said (his favourite words btw), he's chewed me out a lot over my communication skills and i get that i need to improve that but he just really gives me anxiety. plus he's told me good work over some stuff a couple times. (always with a caveat of course lmao). and i haven't been as fast as i know i could be bc i try to figure shit out by myself since i hate asking him questions, end up spinning my wheels and having to ask him anyway, and then he tells me i should be faster. which yes i totally could be if you weren't a piece of shit!

like people don't do things for no reason especially not me. maybe dumb reasons yes but not no reason. and i know what kinda things motivate me to actually thrive in a workplace. that is to say, i vibe with the carrot, i don't with the stick. i dunno i'm normally not super affected by it bc i really don't give a shit if he hates me on a personal level unless it affects my job but (this was on thursday evening when work was ending) prob bc of my period it really got to me this time and i cried on the way home and i was on/off crying yesterday. my eyes were soo puffy it was bad.

idk how long i'll last here. i really do kinda like working here (well i like 3 people and the rest i could take or leave) but i basically uprooted my life to be here. not that i'm mad about that bc i had very few friends back home and living at home was genuinely getting intolerable but it was a big decision. i don't want this to be a sunk cost scenario. but yesterday i was genuinely thinking like is this worth the stress? should i stay here for at least 4 years like i planned or stick it out for a year and get tf out?

i'm gonna try to be stronger and have more confidence bc i don't think he's the most unreasonable person ever. maybe i'll be petty and overcommunicate way too much and like tell him what i'm eating for lunch and shit bc at least it's fighting back somehow instead of being scared. (i'm not actually gonna do that. wish i could) but i'm not sticking around for much longer if things don't change. i just have no idea what to say or how to point it out esp if it's already a known issue. i do sorta feel supported by a couple ppl but...that has never been me, i've never felt strong enough to confront men like that. i guess if i do end up trying to leave, key word trying, i need to be really discerning during interviews. at least i have some leverage since i actually have a job now. as long as i don't lose it.

i was probably really upset bc this has been building up inside me for a while and my anxiety has taken over a lot thanks to him but i don't think its the worst situation to be in considering i'm new and i've only been in the office for like a month now. i just hate that i feel so associated with not meeting deadlines.

i also think i was kinda upset bc this dude is a lot like if my dad wasn't my dad but my boss. my dad is an alright father but if he wasn't personally related to me i wouldn't like him. getting yelled at by my dad was always terrifying for me as a kid so when my pm takes on that annoyed loud speaking tone all the fight in me just dies its embarassing. they're both really critical. neither of them can take a joke especially from a woman. plus they both smell bad like i forgot to mention this but holy moly they smell the exact same and it is MUSTY. oh and they're both asian. different parts of asia but whatever.

anyways like i know i can handle this i literally worked for that bitch karen in highschool and i was even less confident back then. plus i know i'm not stupid i graduated with a degree in this field and did 6 internships.

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simonmalewifepetrikov · 8 months

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INTRO!!!

hello!!! my name is ollie, but i don’t mind being called jasper or simon, this is my kin blog thats pretty much just for me to. be real.

i only use he/him!! im a bi trans guy, on t over a year, im about to be an adult (in january). i am also autistic and so bad w social stuff so please bare with me

my spintrest is sanrio but i have been an adventure time fan and active in the community since the start, for about a year i have been hyperfixated on it so please talk to me about it i know so much

i haven’t had a kin blog since like middle school, but with the new simon content in fionna and cake im going insane and need a place to be me

i am looking for any sourcemates or friends, pms are OK and so are doubles, just know i probably won’t be very active and im kind of a freak

i think thats all for my intro :3 tldr i am simon petrikov and this is my thought dump blog ≧ω≦

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heleneplays · 3 years

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kept thinking abt helene spillane in an abstract way that i dreamt of her wearing binders and trying to pass off as a genius guy to study medicine but also in like. general??? being a menace and exploring pronouns. fucking it up highkey with fashion and being able to pass with some effort. a fashionable gremlin who wants to do it all.

obv helene is still smol but she GOT a certain je ne sais quoi to not be bothered abt it by ppl....... effervescent

#period-typical bs??? in my dreams??? more likely than u think #ok but lately couldnt stop thinking abt sprinkling in actual genius helene again and giving her a medical background in school...#before she transferred courses as the draw of archaelogy and making use of her linguistic skills prevailed just makes me feel things #idk where im going with it but honestly me sprinkling in genius to my babies like i was before i ultimately got burnt out from the system.#self kinning my beloved #anyways not me spilling the my own feelings abt gender and presentation at like 9 pm in the evening but. *spills the tea*#personal.txt #mod lee speaks stuff #yet another au my beloved #SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP #ok tho am not gonna explore this further but i just wanna say. just thinking abt fashion

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Hello! I'm kin with Toriel and I wanted to drop by and cheer you on! I hope you're having a wonderful day/evening. :)

wow!!!! this is such a nice ask thank u toriel :DDD I hope ur having a good day too!!!!!!

#ok i know i went really lowkey about kin stuff lately but like i dont think a toriel kin has Ever been like.#hey wonder how flowey undertale's doing? hope flowey the flower is having a good day #so u just highkey blew my mind im honored lmao hksdjhfs #howdy friends #anon #oh btw toriel if u dropped by because u wanted to talk abt kin stuff u can feel free to pm me if u like

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lochfolk-lover · 2 years

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taglist [pm or send an ask off anon if you’d like to be added or removed from my taglist]: @togami-mon-amour @void-kissed @iammarriedtotwogamiirl @cxrpsedance @thatslikesometaldude @ava-ships @strawberryshipz @valeskasvalentine @delilajhworms @softskiesahead

So I haven't been doing the best recently, and despite my current IDV fixation, I decided to make a comfort moodboard of me (Mafuyu) & Kanade from Project Sekai,, I haven't made moodboards in a while, so I hope it looks alright!

[ this post is ok to reblog! please don't tag mafuyu as kin/me/id or this post as romantic ship ]

#moodboard #project sekai #platonic f/o #platonic selfship #kanade yoisaki #yoisaki kanade #mafuyu asahina #asahina mafuyu #selfship moodboard #selfship #self ship #/kanade is very friend shaped #cg unlocked ♡ art #/<- bc i don't have a moodboard specific tag bc i don't anticipate making a lot of moodboards

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Wanting to get away from kin labels because of The Discourse is a huge mood, I get hesitant to open up about my experiences because I don't wanna deal with the inevitable nitpicking and "every human does that/feels that way" (even though they really fuckin don't)

Oof I feel that. I guess the important thing to remember is that we don't have to use the labels but at the same time (for me at least) I hesitate to completely pull away because I do still find others that understand me here or at least... Similar enough to not feel alone. I know for sure I've never met anyone exactly the same haha

And I mean, it's good to separate nonhuman from human experiences to help figure oneself out but it's so annoying when that's everyone's fall back for invalidation.

Anyway if you ever wanna talk in ok pm, hmu I promise to listen seriously ^^

#anon

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ISO HI HI HI NOW THAT U ARE DONE WITH BFB TELL ME WHAT U THINK IF U WANNA *sits in a plastic garden chair*

-_-.

]O RE)%$&%$^*97a58967z9&*746()(u0U09E5UYE9RYUJIKLQoh80ipkndrhoilgnrshgorishst9388y8oyfdgy9r8yr9wyg89y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOOOOOOOO so good !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OBjects and chaarcetr sdeveleopment and continuity and ANd so foogd and character relations and dynamikcs so compleex anf communication<33333333333333we LOVE 2 see it and ainddd and 4 and x and dynamics and everyones sooooooooooooooooo polite to each other but like realissticly, WOW! seously the dynamics i smile when any f them talk to each other and the ehowle thing is sooooooooooooo funnny and flike so funny Like whatte who comes up with this

wrong gif but im keeping it because i like it.

they absorp't her! they absorp't her!

OK time 4 sepcific moments in no chronoigicall order

EVERY SPONGY MOMENT EVER i lke ihm a lot esp when he says he likes ping pong and table tennis i forgot if that was bfdia or bfb but that was cool and i likea and kin him. THE ENDING THE ENDING THE ENDING When 4 felt they were all alone :{ and the gelatin speech to cheer them up and the fact that flowers appiest thought was gelatin winnning the bfbfibffib............ 😭.. #girl. this part. THE NEW DREAM ISLAND BIT AT THE VERY END WHERE

also i sent that at 4:44 pm lol. AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ..... SO GOOD.

ohter news the animation style is burned into my brain and i cant think about anuything without the slidy tweening-like lip sync and the dot eyes i drew a quick doodle of spongy look at it:

and i havvee a couple ocs but ill talk abt htme another time whatever. AND THE PART IN THE LAVA EPISODE this thing

funniest moment in cinema. theres moer i have 2 ramble abt but i cant think of any right now thakyou for this opportunity i think i might use @spongyy as a onject show sideblog if this hyperfixation is marinated inside my head for long enough. thankyo and byebye

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the-great-imagines-of-1812 · 4 years

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Through The Years- Part 9

tags: @the-romanian-is-bae @a-girl-who-loves-disney

Summary: knowing that you must act now, you make your way to Germany, to S.H.I.E.L.D’s aid.

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MAY 3RD 2012

PARIS, FRANCE

9:00 PM.

You were scared. Scratch that, that’s an understatement. You were petrified.

Dismissing the missed calls notifications from Hill and Coulson, and make your way to a glass the hallway closet. Pushing on the button disguised as a light switch next to it, the door hiss and slide open. The silver suit of armor gleams in the fluorescent light. Over the past 60 something years, it hadn’t changed in the least.

“Hello old friend. Are you ready?” you asked, giving a lighthearted chuckle. As if the suit would answer. Taking it off it’s rack, you put it on. The familiar plates and buckles felt secure around you, and it almost felt like you were on a mission with the Howlies again.

Picking up the ear piece from the hook on the wall, you put it on your ear, making sure it was secure. You spoke into it “JARVIS?”

“Yes, ms. Stark?”

Opening the door to the building hallway, you looked both ways before speeding up the stairs that led to the roof level. “JARVIS, set course for Stuttgart.” specifying the location you saw on the news, too.

“Yes ms. Stark, right away.” The rocket-boots tony had installed on your armor the last time he visited you took off into the Paris night sky, and headed for Germany.

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STUTTGART, GERMANY

10:00 PM.

Landing on the roof of the museum, you tried to keep as quiet as you could, crouching down. From your line of view, you could see Steve, a group of hostages and a tall, reindeer? looking man.

You slid down a ladder off the side of the building quieter than a mouse, partly because you didn’t want to be shot at and partly because you didn’t want to startle the hostages.

“Kneel!” the man booms.

“No. Not today, not ever.” Steve stood his guard, hiding behind his shield. Interrupting the cold, tense night is “Shoot to Thrill” by- what was the band? You remember because Tony made you listen to them for hours upon hours. Oh, that was right. AC/DC.

Tony. Oh my god. It was going to be a shit show. He prepares a blast from his suit’s hand “Your move, reindeer games. Surrender or be terminated.”

Deciding it was time to crawl out form behind the wall, you pulled out not one, but both swords from your side. “Yea me too, Rudolph. You’ve got ten seconds. before I arrest you.” pointing one of the blades to his face while the other was behind your back, ready for any attack.

“Aunty! What’re you doing here?” Tony asked in surprise.

“Tony! Hi! Fury wouldn’t give me a break. So I thought to myself- why not join the party?” you said, inching closer to- Loki.

“You always did, Y/N. Welcome back.” Steve says in relief, with a sort of golden boy smile.

“Shut it, freedom.” Tony almost bursts into laughter. “Now, ‘god of mischief-’”

“The name is Loki and I am your kin-”

“I don’t like you very much. You know, last time I was in Germany, I was fighting a guy just like you.” you had now hooked one arm around his neck, the sword inching closer to his face. “I didn’t like him very much. I don’t like you either. You have 5 seconds.”

“How dare yo-”

It was so easy to distract him. You kick him in the back and handcuff his hands. “By order of the U.S military, you are under arrest. You’re coming with us.”

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THE QUINJET

All was quiet as the quinjet zoomed off from the ground, headed to New York. You and tony were talking on the side while Steve was tying Loki to his seat.

“It’s good to see you, Aunty. Hope you didn’t miss me that much.” Tony said, pulling away from the hug you were both in a second ago.

“Me? miss you? never.” you teased, smirking.

“Hey! you love me and you know it.”

“I guess you’re right.”

Steve finishes the job and walks over to you and greets you with a hug. “Hey, Y/N. It’s good to have you back.”

“It sure feels good to be back. Although I’m not so sure.”

“Understandable. I don’t like this, guys.” he says all in one breath.

“What?” Tony asked, suit whirring. “Rock of Ages giving up so easily?”

“Well Tony, I don’t remember the fight ever being that easy.”

“Say, you’re pretty spry for an older fellow. Do you do Pilates?”

“I’m sorry- What?”

“You might have missed it, spending so much time as a capsicle.” They are now face to face, the tension high.

It was way past time to intervene. “Ok, you two. You might’ve found your ego’s match, but we have way bigger matters at hand.” you said, separating them from one another.

Finally ripping his eyes of Tony, Steve turns to you and asks. “Y/N! So! Fury didn’t tell me he was calling you in.”

“I had no choice. He sort of broke into my apartment-”

“There’s a lot of things Fury doesn’t tell you, Rogers-” Tony began.

“Tony! That’s enoug-”

Thunder is heard, and the blinding white lightning in seen from the Quinjet’s windows. Thunder and Lightning nearly hit the jet, causing it to violently shake.

“Now- where’s all this coming from?” the red haired woman, who you learned her name was Natasha, asked.

The jet shakes again, more violently this time. And you’re afraid it might actually be struck down. Loki looks out the window, as if expecting something.

“You afraid of a little lightning, your highness?” Steve asks in a teasing tone, raising an eyebrow.

Loki looks back at Steve, with a devilish smirk “I’m not overly fond of what follows.”

The jet once again shakes and a blinding light shines through the window. You firmly stand your ground, while helping Tony up, who had fallen down a moment ago. But it’s not a light. It’s a man. A tall, well built man with long hair opens the hatch and grabs Loki by the neck and flies out.

Natasha, Tony, Steve and you stand there in shock, before you approach the hatch where they had both left a second ago.

“And now there’s this guy.” Tony breathed out, absolutely exasperated, putting on his helmet.

“You think he’s friendly?” Natasha asked, eyes darting between the three of you.

It suddenly felt as if you were on The Valkyrie just yesterday. A Tesseract was out there and Loki was using it for his own benefit. The situation seemed more similar than it should.

Coming back to reality, you answered Natasha’s question. “It doesn’t matter. If this guy free or kills Loki, it won’t matter; the Tesseract will be lost.” Steve’s eyes dart to you. He knows what you’re thinking about, and gives a silent nod of acknowledgement to the situation.

You get ready to jump as Tony comes up beside you. “You Starks have and will always be reckless. We need a plan, you two.” Steve said.

“I do have a plan, Iced Americano. Attack.” Tony said, looking at you, then proceeding to jump out, you following close behind.

“How do they even know each other? Why haven’t I met her until now, Steve?” Natasha asked, crossing her arms.

“She- She’s Howard’s sister. She went into the ice with me, couple decades back. She’s his aunt.”

“Alright. Be careful, these men come form legend, they’re practically gods.”

“There’s only one god, ma’am. And I’m pretty sure he doesn’t dress like that.” with this, Steve jumps out of the jet.

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Thor, Tony and you have been falling through the air, somewhere in Europe at least for the past 30 seconds or 30 minutes; you wouldn’t exactly know. You weren’t counting.

The three of you make it to the ground with a loud thud. The rustling of trees and leaves ad the crunching of sticks fills the otherwise silent forest. Before you can comprehend what’s going on, this man- Thor had you in a headlock.

“Don’t touch me again, puny human!” Thor boomed, wrapping his arm tighter around your neck.

“Oop yea, that’s gonna leave a mark.” you said as best as you could, obviously tripping over you words and stuttering, given your current situation.

“Shut it, point break. I won’t touch you ever again, but let my aunt go.”

Thor releases his arm from around you, and you fell to the floor with a gasp of breath. Tony helps you up and lets you lean on him until you gain back most of your strength.

“You lot have no idea what you’re dealing with.”

“Really, Shakespeare in the park? Tell me, doth mother know you weareth her drapes?” Tony teased Thor, while helping you stand upright.

“Loki WILL face Asgardian justice.” Thor said, trying to convince the both of you.

“Listen, Thor-” you approach him “If he gives up the Tesseract, he’s all yours.”

“Yea, she’s definitely the smarter one of this pair.” Tony breathed out, putting the helmet back on. “Until then, stay out of our way, Rapunzel.”

This makes Thor angry. He lifts his hand up in the air to catch the his hammer. He then proceeds to throw it at the both of you, knocking Tony and you to the side, harshly.”

I’m saved. Is the only thought in your head as the quinjet makes it’s landing in the forest, and Steve lands in front of it. “Hey, That’s enough!” Steve looks Thor up and down. “Now, calm down. I don’t know what you plan on doing here.”

“I’m here to put and end to Loki’s schemes!”

“Then prove it, if your so tough. Put. The. Hammer. Down.”

“Yeah, capsicle. That might not be the best idea. Dude loves that thing.” Tony said, helping you up from the ground.

“You want me to let go of this hammer?” Thor said, lowering his voice. He then proceeds to bring it high into the air to strike it against Steve’s shield, making a blinding light shine throughout the dark forest.

You and Tony stand there in shock, as the force of the hammer on the shield knocked Steve to the ground. Thor never takes his eyes off the three of you.

“Are we done here?”

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THE BRIEFING ROOM ON THE HELLICARRIER

“Be careful how you speak. Loki is beyond reason, but he is of Asgard. And he’s my brother.”

“Thor- I don’t know if you’re aware, but he killed 80 people in two days.” Natasha informed, raising an eyebrow and crossing her arms.

“He’s adopted.”

“Um- A-Anyway, I’m doctor Bruce Banner it’s good to meet y-you guys.” The poor man was clearly nervous and shaking, if you squinted your eyes enough.

“It’s good to meet you doctor, I’m Y/N.” you shook his hand, although he seemed hesistant.

“Yes, yes, oh my god. How could I forget? I absolutely love your work I’m a big admirer.”

“Thank you, doctor-”

“Hey, Banner. Hands of the Aunt.”

“Tony, leave him alone.”

“Well, I-”

The doors hiss open, to reveal Nick Fury, with Maria Hill behind him. “Doctor Banner is only here to help u track down the cube. I was hoping Pain In the Ass #1 and Pain In the Ass #2 would like to help him.”

“Loving the nicknames, director.” Tony said, in a sassy manner.

“Gee thanks, Fury. I know you missed me.” you said, in the same way Tony did.

“This is why you two have those. Good god.”

“Moving on to the actual issue- Let’s start with that stick of his- Loki’s. But it works an awful lot like a HYDRA weapon.”

“Captain, I don’t know about that. But it is powered by the cube. And I wanna know what is it that it does that turns two of the sharpest men I know into his personal flying monkeys.” Fury said.

“Monkeys?” Thor asked. “I’m afraid I do not understand.”

“I do! I understood that reference!” Steve says excitedly, while Tony rolls his eyes from besides you.

“Steve, shut up! You’re making us look bad!” You whispered-yelled.

“Meeting adjourned, ladies and gentlemen.” Fury states.

Tony then turns to Dr. Banner and you, about to strike up conversation “Well, you two. The professor-”

You crossed your arms, raising an eyebrow at him.

“-and the doctor. Shall we play?”

#the avengers #the avengers x reader #tony stark x aunt reader #marvel #marvel x reader #howard stark #Howard Stark x sister! reader #natasha romanoff x reader #steve rogers #steve rogers x reader #clint barton #bruce banner #loki odinson #thor odinson

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