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Midnight Conversations (. rottmnt .)

SUMMARY: Ashley can’t sleep a wink, so Raph decided to comfort her.

NOTES: I hope you enjoyed reading this! This may not be my best oneshot (or drabble idk) because I’m so fucking tired from schoolwork, so sorry about that. Also, side note, but I absolutely love that icon of Raph because he’s just so fucking adorable 🥰

WARNINGS: mentions of pregnancy, mentions of insomnia, depictions of a disrupted sleeping pattern, mentions of characters dying. If I forgot anything, then I’ll add it later.

𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙘𝙡𝙖𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙧: 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙢𝙚𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙢 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙖𝙣𝙮, 𝙬𝙖𝙮, 𝙨𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙚, 𝙤𝙧 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙢. 𝙢𝙮 𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙠𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙛𝙪𝙣, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙣 𝙘𝙚𝙧𝙩𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙘𝙖𝙨𝙚𝙨, 𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨. 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙩𝙤 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙘𝙚𝙚𝙙, 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙟𝙤𝙮!

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ASHLEY WAS JOLTED AWAKE FROM THEIR SLUMBER.

The ravenette woke up in a sweat, immediately pulling the covers off of them. They were feeling hotter, and they were sweating buckets. Ash wasn’t getting a lot of adequate sleep as of late. Ash was someone who had struggled with insomnia since their early childhood, but now that they were pregnant in their mid-twenties, they really weren’t going to get any more sleep. Ash and her husband, Raph, had three kids together already, so sleeping was something that the young parents had started to treasure more after they began having children.

The raven-haired mother began to breathe heavily. They were scared of what they had seen. Her nightmare had been truly a nightmare. The world was in shambles after the Kraang showed up. Explosions and death had become the norm in this nightmare. Ash wanted to close her eyes and go back to bed, but she just couldn’t. Every time they closed their violet eyes, all they saw were the dead bodies of her friends and family. It was terrifying to think about going back to sleep because Ash would see the awful visions. They knew that they needed to sleep, as sleep was especially important now that they were having another baby, but it was too scary to even consider trying that. To think that was reality for Casey… I can’t even imagine… Ashley thought to themself.

Ashley pushed the covers off of her, getting up from the bed she shared with Raph. The ravenette walked over to the on-suite restroom, their breathing unsteady. They opened the door to the en-suite bathroom, not even bothering to turn on the lights. Turning on the faucet on high, Ashley gathered some water until it puddles in their hands. They splashed the water on their olive-toned face, trying to wake themself up. Their mind wandered to various things — how much more emotional they were during this pregnancy, how awful their insomnia was, and the frequent nightmares that would depict horrendous situations that they and their family were in. Unfortunately for the kunoichi, the frightening nightmares were the thing that they mainly focused on.

Ashley grumbled to herself. She didn’t know what to do in order to get to sleep. Nothing seemed to work. The melatonin wasn’t having any effect on her, the meditation that she and Raph would do also wasn’t doing anything for her, and the various flavors of hot tea weren’t aiding Ash in her troubles when they typically did help her. Ashley felt even more irritated than she had been in a long time, and the pregnancy symptoms that she was experiencing definitely didn’t help her at all. Honestly, Ash felt helpless. All she wanted was to get some sleep for her and her baby’s sake and well-being. It would be a miracle if the raven-haired kunoichi even got 2 hours of slumber.

Ashley buried her head in her hands, leaning forward on the counter. Suddenly, the lights above the sink turned on, which made the woman jump slightly. “Sweetheart? Why are you still up?” Ash's husband's caring and confused voice sounded from their shared restroom entrance. “You do know that it’s two am, right?”

Ashley looked up to see a mildly concerned Raphael without his red mask on. “I do know that it’s two am,” Ash mumbled. She grumbled again afterward.

“Come on, let’s get back to bed, honey,” Raph coaxed sweetly.

“I can’t sleep,” Ash told him in an irritated and groggy voice. “If I could sleep, I would sleep, but I fucking can’t.”

Raph softened his facial expression. “Is the baby keeping you up?” He asked in a soft tone of voice.

Ash nodded tearfully. “Yeah, that’s part of it.” Ash started pitifully with a sniffle. They hated that they were so easily emotional when, normally, that’s not how they were wired. Being more emotional than usual was just one of many side effects of Ash’s pregnancy.

Raph could sense that something was wrong. “What’s wrong, sweetpea?” Raph inquired with concern written in his features. He reached out and gently put his arm over her shoulders, pulling her closer to him in a side hug.

Ash began to sob quietly, sniffling. “I… I keep having nightmares, Raphie. Horrible nightmares. Combined with the fact that I seemingly have every single goddamn pregnancy symptom under the Sun, I can’t get a good night's sleep!” Ash exclaimed emotionally, wiping tears from her cheeks.

Raph could tell that his significant other was very frustrated. He felt that if Ash talked everything out, then maybe they would feel better. Sleep was important for everyone, but particularly for Ash since they were pregnant. Unluckily for them, Ash hadn’t been getting sufficient enough sleep during this pregnancy, which was a factor that Donnie had stressed about whenever Ash would get checkups by him. “Hey, how about we go sit down and talk this out, alright?” The red-masked ninja turtle suggested to his wife.

Ash nodded. “Sure. It’s not like I can go to bed anyways.” The mother of three told her husband in irritation as she left the bathroom. Raph switched off the light in their bathroom, following his lover to where they sat down on the bed.

“Now, babe, tell me everything that’s been troubling you,” Raphael said in a soothing tone of voice. His voice was still groggy from abruptly being woken up and because of how late it was.

“It’s mainly my nightmares that have been troubling me the most,” Ash answered quietly.

“Okay, okay… what were the nightmares about?” The red-masked ninja turtle inquired softly. Even though he asked about their nightmares, he already had a couple of incidents and villains in his mind.

The ravenette went quiet. They paused for a moment, knowing that the minute they began recounting their nightmare they would lose their composure. “I… had a nightmare about the Kraang… Everything had gone wrong. We had so much hope! In the end, we… all lost. Not only did we lose our home, Raph, but we lost our baby! We lost my fathers!” Ash whispered brokenly. They drew in a sharp breath, running their fingers through their long straight black hair.

With Ash exhaling unsteadily, Raph widened his eyes in alarm. What Ash was recalling was… incredibly intimidating, to say the least. His heart panged when he heard what Ash had said about their children. Raph didn’t even want to know the details on that matter, and it seemed like Ashley didn’t want to elaborate further, which was fine with him. Frowning, Raphael took this chance to grasp his lover’s hand in an attempt to comfort them. “A-Ash,” Raph muttered, his voice shattering as tears of sadness welled up in his abyss-black eyes, “… I’m so sorry… I’m sorry that you see these awful, terrifying things.”

“It’s every time I close my fucking eyes, Raph! Every time!” Ash voiced emotionally, trying their damn hardest not to scream. They squeezed his hand tighter, a single hot tear streaming down their cheek as small hiccups emitted from their mouth.

“I completely understand what you mean. I still have nightmares about the Kraang and the Shredder. Hell, even Draxum, to an extent…” Raph started, admitting things that he’s held to himself for a while. The mutant snapping turtle was abruptly reminded of the time when Draxum threw Leo off of the roof of a building. Even though Leo had joked about it at the moment, that scared Raph shitless. He now had Ash’s attention, as she remained quiet so he could elaborate. With a heavy sigh, Raph continued on with what he was saying. “Among all of my nightmares and dreams that I have, there’s always, always this one particular nightmare that keeps coming back to me. In this nightmare scenario that I’m in, the Kraang still have control of me. They make me do things that I can’t even begin to fathom. I end up hurting Pops, my brothers, A-April, Casey, and your sisters…” Raph trailed off tearfully. His bottom lip quivered as tears cascaded down his cheeks.

Ash was immediately alarmed, and with the weight of her own emotions combined with her husband’s heavy feelings, her tears started to flow, as well. The black-haired kunoichi scooted closer to Raph, hugging his arm. “Take your time, love…” Ash whispered softly in a shaky voice.

With the gesture that she did, Raph decided to put his arm around Ash. Ash gently placed her hand on his thigh as she sniffled. “Not only that… every time I have this nightmare, it ends the exact same. In my mind-controlled state, I am always forced by the Kraang to… to k-kill you and the… the…”

“— kids…?” Ash muttered, finishing his sentence for him. She was mortified at the nightmare Raph was telling her about. Her violet eyes were wide and the tears just kept flowing.

Raph paused for a moment, but he nodded in confirmation. “Yeah,” He said in a barely audible voice, “the kids…”

Both of them were very silent for what seemed like the longest moment. The couple was rendered speechless by both of the stories they had told each other. After a second for the both of them to take everything in, Ash spoke up first. “R-Raphael… I’m sorry that you have to experience a horrible nightmare like that. Unfortunately, I have similar nightmares to that, as well.” Ash sighed in an attempt to regain her composure before she continued to speak. “Even though years have passed, we all are still reeling from the Kraang and the Shredder. I try not to think this way, but there are times when I feel as though they still have me trapped, even though they aren’t physically here.”

“Kinda like you haven’t fully escaped from them?” Raph offered Ash something to relate to.

“Exactly…” Ash agreed in a delicate tone of voice. “Shredder and the Kraang… they still have me caught in an iron grip…”

“I feel ya there, sweetheart,” Raph muttered.

Ash looked up at him, smiling sadly as they wiped his tears away. “But that’s not our reality. Our reality is that our entire family is safe from the dangers we have faced in the past.” Ash started, her voice clearing up. Instead of despondency in her tone, there was reassurance replacing it.

The reassurance in his wife’s voice was already lifting Raph’s mood up. “Yeah, you’re right, babe,” Raph said with a grin that showed his tooth, “we’re not alone in this because we have the others and, most importantly, each other. We have support around us.”

“Yeah, that’s correct,” Ashley agreed with a small smile.

Even though the couple was struggling with their demons of the past, they both had a lot to look forward to. Things were looking up for Ash and Raph in life. Despite the fact that they had sleepless nights every so often, the couple tried not to let the past haunt them. Admittedly, that was challenging for both of them. However, something that always helped Ashley and Raphael focuses on the present was their children. Their adorable little children were what kept them grounded.

“Are you feeling better now that we have discussed our troubles?” Ashley questioned their husband, looking at him.

“I was just about to ask you that, but, uh, yeah! I think I am feeling a tad bit better.” Raphael answered his lover. Before Ash could respond, they let out a big yawn. “Let’s get you to bed, Ash. Donnie says that you really need to get more sleep for your and the baby’s health.” The red-masked turtle advised the kunoichi.

Ash stretched as they let out a relaxed sigh. “Okay, let’s go to bed. My sleep deprivation is catching up to me.” Ash mentioned.

Standing up, Raph pulled back the covers of their bed. He got into bed first, while Ash climbed in second. Ash laid down with her back against his plastron, and Raph’s hands remained on her baby bump, which was poking through her pajama attire. Raph’s eyes sparkled and his heart swelled up when he felt their baby kick.

“Holy hell, I was not expecting that,” Ash commented with a lighthearted giggle. “That kicking better not keep me up for the rest of the night…”

Raph kissed their temple. “I love you so much.” The red-masked turtle told them lovingly.

“I love you, too, Raph. Get some rest.” The ravenette woman replied sweetly.

𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 © 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐥𝐞𝐲 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑. 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚. 𝐢 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐞𝐭𝐜. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐥.

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