#she needs other people in her life too

[theanomily]

A concept I haven't seen enough of is Raven + physical comfort.

Like, in fanfics it's damn near always verbal (and yes that does make complete sense with her character; there is not a single universe in which she's all touchy-feely, especially not with anyone besides who she's close to).

However. I raise the point that we have, to my admittedly faulty recollection, never seen this demonstrated in the books. But something we have seen? Hugs.

After Anastasia's "death" while the Glasshouse is burning, we see Max give her a hug. It's stated it's the first one she's ever had, and it's an emotionally vulnerable teenage Raven we're talking about, so if she were at all opposed to it, he definitely would have gotten a black eye. She not only doesn't hurt him or pull herself away, but she allows herself to cry openly in his embrace, which is the exact opposite reaction than she'd give if she were uncomfortable. Basically, all I'm saying here is that she doesn't hate being hugged by someone she trusts, as a bare minimum.

But, lucky me, there's another example.

After she's been freed from the Animus, what's the first thing Max does? Hug her. By this point, there's been almost 14ish years between the incidents, so if Raven were merely tolerating being held/not outright despising it, he would have known. And he would likely have taken another course of action. But he doesn't. He knows, at least in that setup of Raven breaking down in tears, that it's the most effective thing to do.

Tl;dr- Raven likes hugs, and I want to see it. Because that girl needs a hug.

#sidenote: it is my personal unsupported hc that the colonel also likes hugs #i think its just because the idea of the “terrifying man being basically a human teddy bear” setup is endearing to me #furthermore i am of the firm (again unsupported) belief that the two are friends #just because i love staff shenanigans and as much as we all love nero&raven #she needs other people in her life too #OH AND ALSO #when the gh burns the colonel asks Nero if raven'll be okay SO MY MAN HAS FEELINGS AND EMPATHY #and im tired of people pretending otherwise #basically this is all just me saying long windedly that the colonel and raven have definately hugged before in my mind

[fictionadventurer]

There's something about reading really great writing that's so relaxing. You can just sit back and let the words wash over you, knowing that you can trust the writer.

#random thought of the day #books #part of the reason i'm not getting writing done today was because i spent most of my free time reading from books i've let sit for too long #i haven't been able to sink into good fiction for a while #so elizabeth goudge felt like a spiritual experience #cleansing and uplifting #it always takes me a while to get into her books #there's a learning curve of a couple of chapters to adjust to the style #but once i break through it's bliss #it becomes easy as breathing #there's nothing quite like what she does #i love books that understand that goodness isn't boring or trite #you don't need to have 'darkness' and 'grit' to be complex #like one bit that took my breath away was the talk about sallie and david's marriage struggles #they're both good people who love each other #but they also have their differences because they're human and that causes struggles #not marriage-breaking struggles just nuanced life struggles #and i'm not sure i've seen something like that in a book before #it's a good marriage they married the right people but that doesn't mean life is perfect #goudge uderstands that marriage isn't happily ever after--heaven is #and a good marriage is two people partnering up to help each other reach that goal #it's so much more adult than any 'complex adult' work i've seen

[cluescorner]

Arlecchino's whole deal is unbelievable

Arlecchino: Huh I wonder what's causing my weird powers? I can't really worry about that right now tho, I've gotta become King and then kill my "Mother".

*Kills Clervie and "Mother"*

Arlecchino: Huh I wonder why I was able to defeat a Fatui Harbinger when I'm like 17 or so? I can't really worry about that right now tho, I've gotta be in jail and become a Harbinger.

*Is in jail for a while and becomes a Harbinger*

Arlecchino: Huh I wonder why I am-

Pierro: Hey what's up hello, anyways you're descended from the Crimson Moon Dynasty of Khaenri'ah. I'm sure that this is a lot for you to take in so-

Arlecchino: Ok.

Pierro: ...You're just cool with that?

Arlecchino: IDK maybe? I can't really worry about that at the moment, I'm a father now. This orphanage full of children I love (who also are child soldiers and are not allowed to leave or else I'll execute them except maybe now I'm just gonna wipe their memories IDK I'm morally complex) isn't gonna run itself.

*Runs the orphanage/spy recruitment initiative*

Me, the fucking player: WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU ARE KHAENRI'AN? WHY WASN'T THIS BROUGHT UP IN YOUR FUCKING QUEST?? OR ANYTHING ELSE????

Arlecchino, talking to me through my phone: I honestly don't know why you care, I'm too busy to give a shit. Anyways, I'm gonna go fight fate itself I guess. I'm sure that I don't share any thematic parallels with any other Khaenri'an characters (particularly as it relates to acting and family angst) and that I haven't made the idea of 'curses' on Khaenri'ans and what they entail even more complicated than they already were. See ya.

#arlecchino #genshin impact #pierro #WHY IS THE GAME FUCKING GLOSSING OVER THE FACT THAT SHE IS KHAENRI'AN?! #Not only that but she is the first Khaenri'an we've met (that we know of) who's from the Crimson Moon Dynasty #I'm so fucking confused #Did Celestia place a DIFFERENT curse on members of the Crimson Moon Dynasty?? Or is this stuff all of them can do??? #HELP #She also seems almost...uninterested in the fact that she's descended from Khaenri'ah. Which honestly I think is interesting. #I don't know if I like it yet but when every other Khaenri'ah character has one of their major traits being that they super fucking #care that they are Khaenri'an (whether that be Kaeya with his paranoia/destiny/duty or Dain with his guilt over his failure/desire to #prevent our sibling from fucking with anything too much or whatever the fuck is going on with Pierro) #having a character who is Khaenri'an but doesn't seem to particularly be invested in that part of themself is different #she cares more about the curse and its effects on her then she ever really cares about the Crimson Moon Dynasty or the cataclysm #IDK I think it's neat from a character writing angle. or at least it has the potential to be if the writers do a good job. #But from a 'I like maybe 3 things in this game and one of them is Khaenri'ah' perspective it SUCKSSSSS #That part of the plot is already suffering from chronic live-service storytelling disease where people just straight up don't tell you #shit that they logically SHOULD BE TELLING YOU because the game needs to save plot points to build hype around #so for one of like 4-ish (depending on how much we count Albedo) Khaenri'an major characters to give us literally 1 and 1/2 voicelines #kinda sucks ngl. but again it's also interesting and realistic for Arlecchino and from that angle I like it #she doesn't care about what fate says her place in the world is. she's gonna carve her own and being Khaenri'an isn't relevant to #the life and identity she has built for herself. she isn't the type to look for answers she doesn't need. she's practical and efficient. #at the very least it's better than when Albedo 'I want to find all the world's truths' Kreideprinz doesn't let the audience in on his stuff

[carefulfears]

thinking about "you have a life" / "i don't know what i have" + "what do you want, dana?" / "i want everything that i should want at this time of my life" + the perceived shame in scully's loss of normalcy... "unlike you, mulder, i would like to have a life" + "do you believe in the afterlife?" / "i'd settle for a life in this one" + "don't you ever want to just stop? get out of the damn car? settle down and live something approaching a normal life?"

her friend ellen saying, "well, first you have to get a life." tara, pregnant with their christmas gift, saying that life before one grew inside her was "somehow...less, just a prelude," while barren dana cries in the kitchen. "i know you and dad were...disappointed...that i chose the path that i'm on."

thinking about how mulder said, "this is a normal life," and how she smiled. (he doesn't know any different). how, in the end, he said, "hey, scully? i know it's not your normal life, but thanks for coming out there with me."

(christmas before quantico, "i guess i'm afraid of making a big mistake. dad thinks i am." and missy's response: "it's not his life, dana.")

her application to adopt emily was rejected: "you're a single woman who's never been married or had a long-term relationship. you're in a high stress, time intensive, and dangerous occupation."

bill's reaction: "sounds like something your partner would say. this isn't about any little girl, dana. this is about you. it's about some...void, some emptiness inside you that you're trying to fill."

and mulder to the judge: "the fact that she can adopt this child, her own flesh and blood, is something i don't feel i have the right to question, and i don't believe anyone has the right to stand in the way of."

(that last christmas with missy before everything: "there is no right or wrong. life is just a path...just don't mistake the path for what is really important in life. the people you're going to meet along the way. you don't know who you're going to meet when you join the FBI. you don't know how your life is going to change, or how you're going to change the life of others.")

and ultimately, it all leads to a leather couch. and after contemplating that sacrifice of normalcy, what she should want, the decisions she could have made, she says, "i once considered spending my whole life with this man...what i would have missed."

she could've been a doctor, like her father wanted. she could've settled down, married waterston, had a normal life, like her friends and brother wanted. but what would she have missed?

"what if there was only one choice and all the other ones were wrong?" / "and all the...choices would then lead to this very moment. one wrong turn, and...we wouldn't be sitting here together."

#i truly believe that what's made this show so lasting and rich to so many generations #is how completely in touch with raw human experience it always was. there was always this kind of bleak undertone of...this is how it is... #and very rarely was it ever overcome or accepted or boldly subverted. it just was. #the pressures and the grief and the traps of abuse and trauma and power structures. this is how it is. this is how it feels. #'people thought the storyline and characters for x-files made it a 'dark' show but i never saw it that way. #i always thought mulder and scully were the light in dark places.' #my favorite quote about the show and why i think it's so comforting. it's the harsh reality of the world #of which mulder and scully are not exempt #but it's also mulder and scully going wherever they are needed with their unending kindness and their perseverance and their passion #and they bring all of those things to each other too. that's why she chose THIS life. despite it NOT being normal. #despite it NOT being what her father wanted for her. despite it NOT being easy. she chooses it over and again #because he is bringing light to dark places and she wants to be where he is and she wants to be doing important work. she wants to be #'on the side of the victim' #and that's rarely supported by societal structures and it's hard. but like she says #what would she have missed?? #txf.txt #you people make me crazy when you dismiss her decisions and act like she Ruined Her Life or mulder Ruined Her Life #congratulations! you've missed the point! #all things #emily #dreamland

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

the thing with yaz&14 is that like,,, the best thing thats ever happened to you in your life happens to you, and you learn some things about yourself, and you grow up in the process, and find the thing you love to do, and youre really good at it, and you get a taste of a life that you can see yourself doing until you die (even if it might make that death come a little sooner than expected), and you fall in love with the person who kind of embodies that life,

and then that person is like actually im 10 times happier not doing that

#and it's not 'not doing that With You' #but With Her is very much part of the life for yaz i think #like clara can get her own tardis and become her own gay doctor #but i think for yaz like yes she loves travelling but it's not just that. it's specifically what she did with 13 #it's specifically 'i see something need fixing i do what i can' #it's specifically that #i think 14 still like would LOVE to have yaz in their life #as im writing it currently 14 is very much like please come hang out any time #14 can make yaz fit in this life #but i think yaz doesnt know how she fits here #with All these other people who love and surround the doctor too right? and without travelling #and it's so rough bc it's like #for yaz it's like she sort of wants the old life back but at the same time thats wishing for the doctor to be so much more miserable

[fromtheseventhhell]

Our first introduction to a revived Catelyn is learning that she can't speak but she remembers, inquiries about Arya, and accurately pointing out someone involved in that red wedding. It's been obvious from the start that she's still Catelyn, even though her being resurrected affected her. Considering fandom's trend of labeling female characters "too far gone" for not being perfect, pure, and passive it's obvious why people talk about her like they do. Yes she's angry and wants revenge but literally who wouldn't if they were in her situation? It's annoying how little empathy people have for her character. Personally, I hope there's more to her story than getting demonized for rightfully wanting revenge and having to get "put down" like she's a wild animal.

#catelyn stark #catelyn tully #lady stoneheart #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #I need people to stop talking about female character like their wild animals just cause they feel /negative/ emotions #Oh the woman who watched her son killed before getting murdered herself and then brought back to life isn't nice and sweet and gentle ohhhh #that means she absolutely has to be put down I mean what other option is there??? / srs #Show me some actual proof that she's too far gone and not just you're assumptions about someone who gets brought back to #life like we don't already have Beric walking around...I hate when fandom just decides things instead of looking at the story #like she currently has nothing not even a guarantee that any of her children are alive #reuniting with Arya is going to be big for her and you know what? I doubt she'll want to be put down like fandom assumes #she's def going to want to stay around as long as she can to protect her children especially if she's learns Bran and Rickon are alive #catelyn get behind me! I'm rooting for you!

[wow-an-unfunny-joke]

Group Counseling for previous Dungeon Lords-

Mithrun and Thistle get caretakers and do fucking hobbies or smth

Laios gets a dietitian

And Marcille is just kinda there

#I haven’t thought this through #but atp there are four people who have been dungeon lords #they deserve therapy #esp since they’re all fucked yo #at least three of them were a little not okay pre lord #anyways #we know for a fact that Laios can no longer tell when he’s full #and Mithrun has no desires #so Mithrun doesn’t get any singles from his body and barely has the will to live #and you can assume Thistle is in the same boat #and if Marcille doesn’t have the desire to do her hair #(something important to her as a magic user and also a pain in the ass if you let it go for too long) #then imagine what other small tasks she can no longer do easily? #all of them need some kind of help with day-to-day life #is what I’m getting at #dungeon meshi spoilers #delicious in dungeon spoilers #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #dungeon meshi manga #mithrun #delicious in dungeon manga #Mithrun dm #lots of spoilers #and idk how to tag #dungeon meshi thistle #is it thistle or sissel????

[vulturevanity]

I feel like SV girlies haven't seriously considered "codependent mutually obsessive JuliNemo" yet and that's a shame, really. I've seen a lot of wholesome ChampionRank (really cute but a rehash of every wholesome yuri I've ever seen, not much original content here and that's okay) and one-sided obsessive yandere!Nemona ChampionRank (REALLY do not like the villainization of Nemona's neurodivergence but eh, you can do whatever you want forever) but not as much "these two get on like a house on fire. and boy, it's dry season" ChampionRank.

Where is "battle-hungry socially starved trainwrecks who have no one but each other" JuliNemo. Where is "oh god these two exacerbate each others issues into the stratosphere and this can only end in disaster but I can't look away" JuliNemo. Where is "bringing out the worst in each other and scaring the hoes" JuliNemo. Where is "you two are perfect for each other. Never change, just never involve anyone else in any of this" JuliNemo. There's so much potential here. Toxic codependent yuri save me

#pokémon #pokemon sv #championrankshipping #julinemo #babbles #my juliana is such a mess #she does not make friends easily and can't keep relationships for long at all #whenever someone enters her life she aants to make the best impression so she lovebombs them incessantly #and that either comes across as too much too fast or causes people to get too attached. #but she's young. she is very young. and the people who bothered to match her energy had ulterior motives #so now she's too afraid of getting too close to someone #she'll act the part but never show her true self #and at the slightest hint of genuine connection she'll RUN. #this of course clashes horribly with Nemona's own overbearing personality and loneliness #you know how she wants you to be her ideal rival. and you end up becoming exactly that. #yeah to my Juliana this was kind of a nightmare because. as much as this toed her boundaries #she isn't so inept as to not recognize a bit of herself in Nemona. so she decided to ride this out and appease her #and UH OH! she got attached. fear and need for control and validation from feeling wanted mixed in her head #and she started matching Nemona's energy and the two jumped into dating too fast and oops. they're codependent now #they literally can't handle being away from each other for more than two days or they start going feral #i wish i had the energy to write this one because i'm fascinated by this horrible dynamic. i want to study them in a rat maze #edit: i feel like i should clarify that this interpretation relies on Florian existing and being the one to help Penny and Arven #Florian isn't without his issues. he's a huge people pleaser too. but he's more of a doormat who can't say no

[thebigqueer]

unrelated to that rb but im thinking about it and i dont think piper liking jason was ever a forced heteronormativity thing i think she genuinely liked him

#like i relate to her so much cuz like i also like guys and even though at this point in my life im more attracted to girls ive never #considered my guy crushes as 'not knowing i was queer' i think i genuinely liked them #but also the concept of piper not dealing with her internalized amatonormativity hits sooooo hard like i didnt even think of it like that #the fact she moved on from jason so quick too. not that she needs to always feel sad for him but it had to have been like at max 4 months #which isnt to say people cant move on its just for your ex bf dying that seems so quick to me #her turning to romance again to help her problems because its just what shes always been led to believe #especially as a daughter of aphrodite.... wow many thoughts. want to put her in the microwave #in other news i totally admit as cute as her and shel are it was definitely forced as a way to 'show' she was queer #but she didnt need a girl to show she was queer she could hvae just told it honestly. not everyone who finds out theyre queer is immediatel #in a relationship and you dont always need a relationship to realize youre queer #sorry that post got me thinking about other things lol #piper mclean #riordanverse

[my-beloved-lakes]

I see a lot of people I knew from school posting pictures on their social medias with all their friends doing various fun things together. Meanwhile, I'm sitting at home wishing I could take a group photo with all my Tumblr mutuals to post so I can brag about having the best friends.

#too much of my social life is based on Tumblr but i really don't get out much since I don't have a job and i made like 1 friend in school #so i don't really know anyone to hangout with other than my siblings and my one friend #and i don't go out much exept for occasionally to the library or the store so i don't get the chance to meet new people #i used to have all 5 of my sisters at home and that was all the company i needed #but now they've all moved out except for my younger sister and im realizing that im very deeply lonely #i need to get a social life! but how! #Also i think this is part of the reason I jumped into things too quickly with my ex gf now my best friend #like I was so excited that i had found someone who was just as interested in being friends with me as i was with her #that i misstook my feelings for her as romantic ones cuz i was so lonely and she was such a good friend #and i was so scared to tell her cuz I didn't want to ruin our relationship. it didn't. we're still besties. #but i think im so lonely idk if I'll be able to know the difference between platonic and romantic feelings #and part of that definitely comes from being ace as well #anyways there's my tangent for the night about why I need a better social life and maybe a bit of therapy too #haha that got super personal oops 😬 #might delete these tags later

[bumblingbabooshka]

-Remembers how T’Pring looked as she watched Spock & Chapel vanish into the bathroom together after seeing them kiss on the bridge (which she knew was for a mission and didn’t hold against them but perhaps she could sense something there since they do have feelings for one another), maybe attempting to calm herself and her suspicions as she’s left alone again (and later finds she’s been left out entirely this whole time) and how she doesn’t know that Spock almost told Chapel he loved her then and there, with T’Pring in the other room waiting, and how Amanda and Sevet both think she could have more confidence in herself and how T’Pring thought that she and Spock were in this together (her holding his hand, subtly letting him know to pour slower so the tea flowers would bloom correctly, a whispered ‘well done’, the ritual is over mother) and how mere hours after she expresses to Spock how she feels: Like he doesn’t trust her, like he doesn’t care to include her in his life, how she’s trying her best to show him that she will accept him wholly, how she wants to be his partner instead of an adversary or an obstacle, after all this he’s found Chapel within the hour and is kissing her.-

#I've seen people say 'it's not technically cheating because-' and once you've hit 'technically' in MY opinion it's pretty much cheating #'taking a break' isn't synonymous with being able to kiss/have sex with other people - that's something that needs to be discussed #in my opinion...BUT ALSO. Even STILL. Not even a goddamn DAY went by. #T'PRING!!!!!! SAVE MY GIRL T'PRING!!! #Can you imagine hearing your fiancee who you ostensibly like tell you (very vulnerably - especially for a Vulcan: I didn't mind this bc I #personally assume that Vulcan partners WOULD discuss and talk through feelings though probably with a different goal than humans) #that she feels hurt that you seem to not want to include her in your life and that she feels you should take a break #and then IMMEDIATELY going to find the girl you have a crush on to tell her that you and your fiancee are taking a break and that you feel #bad about it and then IMMEDIATELY after that you're KISSING her?????? #didn't feel TOO bad about it then huh! #Anyway I'm not earnestly like incensed I'm tv angry on T'Pring's behalf - love the drama bc I'm experiencing SNW from a very particular POV #I will only be angry if they make T'Pring into the bad guy somehow (like if the NARRATIVE says this is correct) #also off topic but I personally think star trek has had enough 'Vulcan culture is bad and restrictive' episodes/talking points - Enough. #Find some joy and peace through connection to an alien culture PLEASE. #I get it humans are great humans are so much freer and happier than Vulcans humans rule - Enough. #-turns to camera with a smile- anywaaaay I watched the episode once and I couldn't rewatch it for this post so <3 #if any of this is wrong just chalk it up to bad memory <3 #snw spoilers #idk how long an ep has to be out for that to apply #also just so everyone knows - I /do/ think it's stupid that Spock forgets how to act Vulcan when he turns fully human #but I also just expected it since star trek writers LOVE bioessentialism #I have NO doubt that if Spock turned Klingon he'd suddenly start talking about honor and being rowdy despite those things being #learned and cultural v_v #I SAY ALL THIS...and I DID like the episode! I'm complicated <3 #<- just likes episodes with fun hijinks as their thesis and also T'Pring is there

[majoringinsarcasm]

People hating on a literal child because she doesn’t physically look like a character in a book who we only ever saw in concept art and fanart vs me who was kinda sad when I realized book Percy wasn’t black because the description of a young boy living in New York who’s close with his single mother parent who is constantly seen as stupid troublemaker by both peers and teachers and his moms awful boyfriend and who’s only friend is the only other Outcast (non white) classmate who’s only ally is the literature teacher who then he finds also has doubts about him felt very if not fully black then at least mixed coded.

But then I moved on and enjoyed the story for what it gave me, can some of these people say the same 🤔

#I have not yet watched the show I’ll probably wait for more episodes bc I canceled D+ like two months ago #but idk many of yall are not 12 anymore and saying Leah won’t do a good job or it won’t be as good #we only saw any of these characters in our minds eye #or concept art #im not saying you can’t be disappointed when things aren’t 100% a match bc you want to see a good adaptation of the Book #and I need to do a reread but I would think Annabeth’s whole other shit aka running away cross country at 7 always being nosy and wanting #a quest being ready for battle but learning to have fun too #is more integral to her character ESPECIALLY IN MARK OF ATHENA #the blond hair in the books is a trait from Athena so it’s not a unique hurdle other girls in the cabin wouldn’t also face #it mattered bc she was a main character #But taking the core struggle of not being taken seriously works pretty damn well for any girl but especially black girls AT ALL TIMES #and not to be funny but saying the other characters are already diverse feels like a side step #like look Hazel in her eyes and say not being taken seriously BECAUSE of your HAIR COLOR is on the same level #as not being taken seriously because you’re a black girl #and if this breaches containment #yes the show would have been fine even if a picture perfect accurate cast had been hired #but if we want to move past people being cast bc of how they look vs how they act #you can’t hold the gospel of a book series against literal children who are probably having the time of their life #or would be if grown ass adults were attacking them bc SOMEONE ELSE HITED THEM #if the show is bad it’s not bc Annabeth is black or Percy is blonde #hell in good omens both leads are older in the book they’re described as looking 25 and 30 #can you imagine good omens as it is now with book accurate casting bc I can’t

[merevide]

thinking about killing eve again. thinking about eve. and her inhabitions and how she was so repressed and unfulfilled and her only true escape from that was her extensive research into female assassins and through that and getting fired and then rehired she meets villanelle and they basically bring out the worst in each other obvi but that’s also kinda their best selves because all villanelle wants is to be understood and that’s also what eve wants but she denies and denies and denies and she basically keeps denying everything until it’s too late and she’s left alone, again, screaming out in the water.

#like this shit is tragic IF ONLY IT WAS WELL WRITTEN. my god #i haven’t even rewatched this show ever since the last episode aired how do i have all of this just stored away in my brain #eve is such a wasted character because she’s literally so interesting #and then they just kinda fuck it up because they couldn’t really commit to her and her desires #which is also reflected in the show through her character bc she denies and denies and denies until it’s too late #too late being villanelle ending up dead and villanelle was basically the personification of all of eve’s dark desires #like villanelle kinda fucked up her life and killed her best friend and hurt so many of the people eve loved #and eve still was in her orbit because. BECAUSE!!!!! #i’m literally ranting right now and i don’t even know why #like i could go on and on but none of u wanna hear that #like eve is alone in a mental sense in the start and she’s alone in a literal sense in the end #like lol. this isn’t even talking about the romantic aspects of it either #don’t even hit me with that their obsession went deeper than romance sit they wanted to fuck each other let’s get real #i kinda need a reboot of killing eve but with good writing all the way through #i dunno. i dunno why i’m even talking about this #like i’m gonna be 80 and still babbling about killing eve and toxic yuri madness in the nursery home #this show wasted literal years of my life i’m never gonna get back…. #BLEGH. sick sick sick sick sick sick sick SICK #killing eve #my text

[whippetcrimes]

We started the session being comfortable putting our nose in and then immediately pulling back for a treat. We end our session comfortably (loosely) bucked in

#with a little walk around the house and a loooot of treats. then off and done #and she wanted to keep going too #but i know I'd end up pushing too far. better to stop early... especially since im not a very good trainer and undoing issues would be hard #anyways. this because i want to try whippet racing #and i know sometimes its required for coursing so may as well be ready for anything #or like. “a natural relaxed yet alert stance” as the racing rulebook says... im assuming basically stacked? #pretty sure that's how she's arranged for the measurement wicket at roll call #she doesn't like standing on the board and she doesn't like the wicket either so a couple people helped me arrange her #would like to not need that. and that wont be allowed for racing so like. double the reason to improve #idk idk i just want her to have a full enriched life. as much as I'm able to give #fastcat is frequent nearby but seems kinda disappointing for her. since its not really that much running/chasing #lure coursing is infrequent and very satisfying for her #i dont know yet how frequent or nearby racing is but at least it would be another fun thing for her! #getting a rc car is in line with that goal. more frequent fun chase games + conditioning for other things we do #we just dont have any fast friends nearby so she rarely really runs the way i know she wants to #anyways. this has been a rant #whippet #misdemeanor #dogblr #petblr

[supercool-here]

Watching the episode (94th) where the cuartel prompts Berta to get the surgical procedure to have a hot bod and it's Betty and Inesita the only ones having reasonable and smart takes as to why she shouldn't do it (and get the car her husband told her to get instead) but in the end she does get the procedure because insecurities and ego and vanity and coaxing and whatnot. And then they tell Betty how she's ingenuous for believing a man can love you no matter your looks. And then it's BETTY who ends up looking prettier without having undergone any surgeries, but most importantly, Armando, the womanizer who was always surrounded by models and who only chased the most beautiful women, falls in love with her, out of all the ordinary and even undeniably unattractive women he must have met in his lifetime.

#It's giving fairy tale and I love it #Cause you have this marginalized women who for one reason or another don't fit the beauty standards feeling resentment #But not going against the canon belief that to be valuable and loved you gotta be pretty and to win in life you need beauty #The same damning rule they are accepting of! #And then there is other women who do fit the beauty standards like Marcela or Patricia but they're mean and proud and rude and etc #And they are alone (at the end of the telenovela but I do love redemption) #And then there's Betty #The most marginalized and the most hurt of all the “ugly” women and men shown in the soap #And she is not perfect yes #But she is the one that never relied on her beauty or Social stratum for love or self accomplishment #Yes she believed herself ugly and yes she marginalized herself too and yes she believed that those with beauty and money belonged #To a totally different world she could never live in #But she never played by those rules #And she never believed it fair #And for as hard as it was she always believed love should not depend on the looks of people #And when she had the beauty (and the money or at least the social recognition) she did not rely on them #She didn't become proud and didn't start despising her friends #Goodness #Ysblf #yo soy betty la fea

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a little thing for wip wednesday, because i finished up Vren's main backstory scenes! they're just rough sketches to flesh out his character, but I think they're neat~

this scene is where he first sees the tally of debt the Zarahmin have on him. He's around 16 here, and has been in Zhirasea for just over a year.

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He knew he shouldn’t have looked, but being alone in Zhira’s office was too much temptation. Back in Maziz, he’d never had the slightest chance of seeing his tally—only the Zahin and his closest sons knew where they were kept. Here in Zhirasea, Vren was surrounded by them. The cabinets that lined the walls weren’t even locked. These weren’t the only copies, of course. Zhira had duplicates made and kept updated—at the expense of those named, naturally—and those were kept in some secret place. So it didn’t matter if you tried to destroy the one in his office; your true debt would always find you. Vren yanked open drawer after drawer, quickly realising they were alphabetical. He raced to the far end, glancing constantly at the door, ears straining to hear Zhira’s returning steps. Pages and pages flicked through his fingers, until there it was. He drew the slim file out with hands that refused to stop shaking. There were three sheets of paper inside, each with a neat tally written upon them. On one side, the item. On the other, the cost. Expenses in red, repayments in black. The price of his entire life, spelled out plain for all to see. The sheets were, at present, entirely red. He hadn’t worked yet, not properly. The handful of excursions for the Maziz family had been tagalongs, not jobs. Vren gnawed at his lip as he read over the totals. Two digits. Three. Four. “I wouldn’t worry over that just yet, sha’bhan.”

Vren jumped, dropping the sheets. Khazen Zhira pushed the door closed with his cane, and strolled to his desk. He did not sit behind it, but rather leaned upon it, tapping the tip of his cane against his sandaled foot.

“It cost that much to bring me here?”

“It is neither a short nor safe road from Jamarda to Zhirasea. Rest easy; we split the cost between you and your friend.” Zhira offered a friendly smile, which did not crease his eyes. “It seemed unfair to charge you both, when you rode with the same caravan.”

Vren swallowed, thickly. Aliyne had a tally in here too, the opposite end of the cabinets to him. He should have checked hers too. It had to be nearly as high as his, and climbing every day just the same. All their training, their food, their clothes, their home—none of it was free. They both knew that.

“Let me start working,” he blurted out. Zhira arched an eyebrow. “Red—Redemption will tell you, I can do it. Let me start paying you back.”

“He’s training you for a very specific and dangerous field, thanks to your trinket. Are you certain you’re ready?”

He couldn’t afford not to be. Vren nodded. Zhira eyed him for a long moment, his cane still tap-tap-tapping the side of his foot. Then at last he nodded.

“Very well. I had summoned you today to discuss such a possibility anyway. As you say, Redemption will tell me you are capable. He has been angling to take you along on a job for a while now.”

“Really?” Red hadn’t mentioned that.

“Truly. Tidy up after yourself, sha’bhan, then come sit with me. If you are to start working for this family, there are a few things we must discuss.”

Hands still shaking, Vren hurried to put his tally back in its proper place. He caught sight of the total on the last page again, and his stomach churned. Red made a few hundred gold on big jobs, or so he said. That was before the Zarahmin took their cut.

As he went and sat and discussed his future with Zhira, Vren knew in his heart that he could work for the rest of his life, and never, not ever, pay the family back.

#c: vren #valloroth blogging #writeblr #snippets #wip wednesday #am writing #wipwednesday #original writing #this is only a rough draft thing but it's an important scene for vren #and also helps me with aliyne because she has a tally waiting for her in Zhirasea too #the tallies exist because i needed a reason for vren to be 1) as mercenary as he is and 2) as resigned to his life as he is #he wants money to buy himself free but he also knows he realistically can't ever do it #he's trapped by it but can't see any other way to live #being in the zarahmin is like getting student debt only you learn how to stab people