#so im taking it as a sign for good things to come!

[st4rgzer]

now playing…FORTNIGHT (spencer reid)

-“ˈfɔːtnaɪt: a period of two weeks”-

summary: in which your unlawful affair with fbi agent spencer reid must come to an end

genre: angst, flashback of fluff

cw!: allusions to cheating, kissing, inappropriate innuendos

a/n: this is acc so long but i promise its worth the read, first of many to come!

you watched as spencer methodically fiddled with his tie, a sign that no matter how loose he’d get it to be, it felt like he was choking. you grinned reminiscent, this had brought back to your mind the memory of your first date with him. except he had shorter, neater hair and a less bitter smile.

“how’s your wife” you said, pettiness laced in your words. your arms crossed over your chest, putting up invisible walls, distancing yourself mentally from him. pretending you weren’t thinking about how pretty he’d look under you.

“she’s…well.” he had given you a short, wary response. his eyes studied your face, landing on your lips, he licks his. most likely, he was trying to memorize everything, as if you were a fleeting moment. but you were. you were uncertain about his intents when his eyes wandered for a few seconds.

“how’s dan?” the word ‘dan’ came out with a petulant smile, and sour tone. flourishing the little likeness he had toward him.

the conversation bored you out of your mind. he was holding back. he could’ve said about a million things by now but he chose to keep silent, neglecting your tortured heart even more.

“i think he’s cheating on me, though im still not sure. but i have strong points on the subject, good reasoning” you say dismissively, looking down at your nails. the issue didn’t seem to faze you. after all, some could say you had committed certain behaviors that could allude as cheating.

spencer tried to bite back the grin that was forming on his face, he looked down to try and conceal it.

“i’m sorry about that…” his tone seemed untruthful. he wasn’t sorry about it, because he knew the things he’d done with you while both of you had a ring on your fingers.

you gnawed on your bottom lip. thinking of an ingenious comment that would make him laugh. a quip to start some friendly fire. something that could break through the crushing tension that lingered between the both of you, like thick vines wrapped around your neck, making you unable to speak.

‘i love you, it’s ruining my life’ was all that your brain could come up with, but of course, this wasn’t exactly the best thing to say given the setting and circumstances. but it was how you felt. you treasured every touch and every word, hanging onto every detail desperately. every fortnight that his wife would be out of town. it was unlawful, but, who were you to neglect an invitation with spencer reid? until then, your mornings are all mondays. stuck in an endless february. unable to move on from what should be yours.

you meet his gaze, regretting it almost immediately. knowing the lethal effects he had on you, like some sort of drunkenness that had turned you into a barely functioning alcoholic. his eyes change, his smile differs. he swallows, clearing his throat.

“we can’t do this anymore.” he speaks, his voice sounds brittle and unsure. you don’t break eye contact. you listen intently to his words.

“my wife…my wife knows that i don’t stay late at the BAU as much as i say i do.”

“im a profiler, i can lie but- it doesn’t take away from the fact that this can’t happen anymore.”

“i mean you know how i feel about you, i just- i just can’t keep up with the ruse. i love you and it’s ruining my life.”

your eyes widen at the last sentence, appalled. you tried to decipher spencer’s words. reading between the lines, seeking for some sort of clue that hinted towards the truth. if he loves you, why can’t he stay?

“okay…can we at least stay friends?” you ask him cautiously. even if it meant no more sneaking around, his eyes would at least stay in your life.

spencer swallowed harshly, your eyes lingering over his adam’s apple as he does so. he looks uncertain. you figure maybe his wife was the one with the real issue, not him. you wanted to kill her.

“sure” his voice was slightly above a whisper. he looked away. almost as if, if he continued to hold your gaze he’d had no choice but to give in. that’s what you wanted him to do, to cave in, like always. you wondered if this would be the last fortnight spent with him, and suddenly, realization hit you like a 10 ton truck. you looked down as well, confidence derailing.

“but you’re still my best friend, spence” your voice was nearly a whimper, sounding like a wounded dog. you look up at him with glassy eyes. tilting you head to the side slightly, eyebrows furrowed as you try to control your emotions. you look down, hands fidgeting nervously.

“yes, of course…we just can’t have those benefits anymore” he wants to do nothing more than to grab you and hold you in his arms. to say sorry for everything he had put your through. instead he looks to the waiter.

“check, please” he clears his throat and hopes the sound of his tearing heart isn’t too loud as you look up to look at him with tear rimmed eyes. you bite your bottom lip to stop it from trembling. spencer pays the tab, leaving a generous tip. you get up from your seat, incapable to look at spencer in the eye.

you don’t notice him stepping towards you. your breath hitches as you stare up at him, the closest you’ve been to him all night. his calloused hand cups your cheek, fingers tracing your face, to your under eye. you blink, cursing yourself internally as a tear slips. you look away. he sighs, wiping the tears carefully with his thumb.

“im sorry, you know what i’d do if i could…if things were different” his words are just more salt to fresh cuts. even if he sounded regretful, even if he was sorry, you still had the right to be sad.

“it’s fine, you aren’t mine, i shouldn’t be this sad” you harshly take a step back, wiping your eyes with the back of your hand. his mouth stays slightly agape at your sudden movement. he bites down at his lip, sighing, admitting defeat. you were right, he was never yours and you were never his. two parallel lines who never got the chance to see what could’ve been if the circumstances were different.

he had corrupted you, nights that belonged to only you would fade into a memory. the touches that lasted a fortnight. the feeling of his hands in your hair, your clothes on his bedroom floor.

you loved him, and it was ruining your life.

“goodbye, reid” you tone was purposefully cruel, and the choice of using his last name. you looked at him for a second, fighting the instinct of kissing him as a goodbye. he stared with pitiful eyes as you walked away, bell chiming as you opened and closed the door. for a moment he regretted everything said, wishing to just run away and live in the mountains, to follow through on that quiet life you had both talked about when the night passed 3am. tangled in bedsheets. he curses his eidetic memory for remembering your tearful expression, comparing it to the soft, sweet smile you had on every time you left him. can he erase every curve, every dimple he knew you had, every tiny change in your expression he could read like a book, over and over? no, he will be cursed with the gift of knowing, just like you’ll be cursed with the sound of his voice. soft and tender, the sound of his whispers of foreign words against your ear.

“Я тебя обожаю.” his voice is quiet, nose brushing against your neck as he places soft kisses against it. you giggle at the ticklish feeling, grabbing his face delicately to stop him.

“what does that mean?” you ask with a smile, pressing gentle kisses to the bridge of his nose, his face heating up in your hands.

“i adore you” he grins, leaning against your hand and kissing it.

“i know that but what does the sentence mean?” he rolls his eyes as you break out laughing, throwing your head over his shoulder, giggling as if it was the funniest joke you had ever told. you look up at him, both of you grinning widely as he places a proper kiss against your lips.

he loved you, it was ruining his life.

#spencer reid x you #spencer reid #spencer reid x reader #criminal minds #spencer reid fluff #spencer reid angst #spencer reid imagine #spencer reid fic #criminal minds imagine #criminal minds fic

[restlesschilled]

TMagP 013

Note: As Always, I am a backer so this was written 23 April, 2024 and scheduled to be posted on 25 April, 2024

oh god its another episodes written by Alex

awww thanks odin <3

Im dreading this

PRE STATEMENT/ CASE

OHHH DATE TIME

THE FLIRTING

This is so cute but i cant trust it because alex wrote it

"that you dont know how cute you are" adshfjagdhflakshdf

WERE STARTING WITH THE BIG STUFF

"hi im from an alternate universe"

CELIA IS A MOM

JACK IS HER BABY

"i had a while few years when I first moved here"

IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO CELIA OR JACK I WILL RIOT

HOW DARE

SHES A SINGLE MOM

"that depends on your baggage. DISH"

"they were the first ones that didnt want me" oooooooo\

Alice's Parents are dead good to know

"most pathetic vague post shes ever scene"

"more wine" "please"

LENA OFFICE

GWEN MY POOR BABY

"is it my fault?"

MY POOR PRECIOUS GIRL

"were managing the bad guys" FUCK

CASE

this hold music is a BOP

i had to stop and have my friend explain public school in England to me because that is not the same thing as American public schools

oh lovely a "fiance guy"

a hedge fund guy what i mean is a hedge fund guy

Why in gods name, would you use experimental setting on a hedge fund/ investing app… when you have no idea what it does and it has a shit tone of disclaimers??? i get being desperate but that's just stupid

also the irony of this guy saying hes a good person when hes betting on people failing with hedge funds

do people even steal phones anymore?

i feel like they are not worth all that much and just have to many ways to tack them for it to be worth anything unless you are targeting someone specifically

yeah i figured they might have targeted him

im pretty sure this would qualify as inside trading somehow

betting against your own company and than tanking the company is very illegal

pretty sure betting you'll have a shit time and then making sure you have a shit time would be the same thing

basically this man is committing insurance fraud... but through a hedge fund

it just occurred to me hes calling from the hospital that's what the beeping is

also vertigo mentioned

he was attack by computer bugs lol

shitty "finance guy" gets whats coming to him asmr

post statement

okay i know sam probably mean "be professional" like stop with the flirting

BUT WHEN YOU SAY IT LIKE THAT I SOUND LIKE YALL HAVE BEEN HOOKING UP AFTER WORK SOMETIMES.

HAVE YALL BEEN HOOKING UP?

this is how i choose to interpret this this is my new head canon( it was already kinda my head canon)

But if you ever ask me to be professional again, I'm going to have to take a shit on your desk." ALICE

"you signed the official secrets act in your onboarding. And I know all your school friends say treason's 'bussin'' and 'fire', but it won't look good on your CV." i love her so much

"its fine when I say it"

this episode really said fuck capitalism didn't it

also do week need to talk about the fact that celia's son is named Jack Ripley like jack the ripper

WAIT A SECOND JACK IS A NICKNAME FOR JOHN/JON

DID SHE NAME HER SON AFTER JON?

#this show has me in a chokehold #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #the magnus protocol spoilers #gwen bouchard #celia ripley #tmapg #tmagp 13 #jack ripley #alice #alice dyer #lena #restless reacts to tmagp #live #liveblog

[lesbianjudasiscariot]

Hey, that's not a question but I hope you'll be fine... Don't hesitate to reach out to people you love and trust, or any person who could help you, if you're not okay... Sending you virtual hugs (along many other people here probably?), if you want them!

Hi!! Thank you for the concern. Sorry, the last freeze before spring really gets here has got me feeling all doom and gloom so my posts have kinda reflected that but it's all good. The future is bright! Hope you are doing good and hope you have a great day!♡♡

#the sun literally started to shine through my window as i read this #so im taking it as a sign for good things to come! #this is so sweet #and a good message to anyone reading this as well #ask #♡

[clits-and-clips]

Since writing the affirmations and starting manifestation again, I've actually been in a much better headspace. It's crazy how things align, and you end up where you need to be, especially through pain

#txt #have been reading the affirmations every day twice a day sometimes #doing my intentions and manifesting what i wsnt #which is mainly independence #also a good relationship with my ex from here #mainly stuff for me tho #and the full moon on Wednesday which is in scorpio which is his sun sign #will be a big release and maybe i can let go a bit or a lot lol #i need to move on and focus on myself and what i want in life and doing it all on my own #with support obviously but ive never been fully independent and im so ready for the blessings and the open doors #i dont know if ill truly ever be over him but i have to try for my own sanity at this point #i dont want to manifest anything selfish like him coming back to me because it probably wont happen anyway lmao #i hope i dont sound crazy lmao but coming back into my spiritual journey is definitely what i need #connecting with myself and my purpose feels like the only thing i can do rn #have a driving lesson tomorrow but in all honesty i could just go do the test and pass cause ive been driving forever and im good at it #just need to practice certain things but im nearly there! so close i can feel it and see it #anyway i hope i can keep this energy up and continue to head in a positive direction because it feels really good #if i need to cry about him and the loss then i will but im not going to dwell on it too much #i just need to take it as a lesson and let it go :) #cause at the end of the day i really did lead myself here whether it was his choice to end it or not #blah

[carpisuns]

theOrEticalLy . if I opened commissions at some point. would there be. a smackerel of interest . ??

#i have never opened them bc it’s intimidating and I don’t know how to price things!! #but mostly bc i work full time w a good salary so I don’t really need side things to make money #like it feels selfish to suggest that people should pay me to make fanart?? When #a) I already do that for free bc i enjoy it lol #and b) there are so many creators out there who are struggling to make ends meet #and I am privileged enough to generally not have to worry about that #this would be just like extra spending money to fund my scented candle habit DHDJDN #and the clothes I just bought while trying to Discover My Vibe and Finally Be Myself (at age 28 lol) #also tbh it would likely be reinvested in other commissions bc I buy commissions fairly often lol #anyway. idk the idea of commissions always sounded cool but also guilt inducing and scary #it feels weird and silly bc it would make me have to take my art seriously if that makes sense?? #like me saying ‘I think I’m good enough at art that people would buy it from me.’ that feels so bold and like. arrogant or something dhjsjd #coming from me I mean. just a silly little guy who still struggles to draw human limbs properly #ok I’m thinking about how I’d have to make a commission sheet and put a dollar sign on my art and I’m aaaaaaa #and I’d have to execute exactly what people want and what if I can’t!!! #omg ok maybe noT help lol #well im not committing to anything rn im simply. asking a question while the dash is asleep and then running off to bed seeya #i think part of me always wanted to try commissions to see if I could be a Real Artist about it ?? #and potentially end up with like. Portfolio pieces ?? #why I would need an art portfolio I don’t know. I am an editor. What do I think I will be doing here #ppl left comments on my animatic that have been giving me crazy what if thoughts. sit down #don’t look at me #ohhh swirly brain thoughts I need to sleep

[savage-rhi]

Magenta...

#I'm in a conundrum #so i have covid again #started showing symptoms last friday and into the weekend it got worse #i have missed a week of work #and i am getting better in some ways but not others #I'm still very much in the thick of it #i already told my boss if I'm still showing symptoms and no signs of getting better I'm going to the docs on Monday #she cool with that and has been very accomodating #but idk wtf im gonna do about bills coming up #and the higher ups at my work place ended covid protections and covid pay ie for the days you'd be out due to covid they'd take care of you #said higher ups also tried to pressure my boss into convincing me to come in on Tuesday at least #i can't in good conscience show up to work even if masked if I'm still having symptoms #I'd feel horrible if i gave it to my colleagues and especially the kids i work with #but also the you're one paycheck away from homelessness thing is digging my head #but i also need to take care of myself #idk man #idk wtf to do i feel trapped and I'm going insane because of it #help? police? murder? advice?

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

went back to dino blanket and got a whole [5] stitches done before calling it quits 👍

#but hey ill do more tomorrow probably this is a good sign it's been literal weeks since i touched it #i hurt my arm doing it improperly the first time and not taking enough breaks so i stopped which was Good except i never picked it up again #lmao and i need it for [redacted] soon!! #im so so so tempted not to secure the stitches on the back with anything because it's really confusing but i also dont want too #and even if they did come loose they're not like structural and i could just redo them and it's for a kid so they probably wont care so #i do want to test how they hold up in the washer/dryer and i was thinking about making some placemats w this too and i can embroider on one #of those to test that in a similar semi quilted thing idk what im doing

[bbeelzemon]

i moved out of my parents house over two and a half years ago and im really only just now realizing that there are people (like my partner!) who might genuinely Actively Prefer when i am happily working away at my art, instead of spending my every waking moment worried that im not doing enough chores first to be 'allowed' to go work on my art.

as opposed to my parents, who would fairly often interrupt my drawing time to ask me to do things and then say "Welll i mean its not like you're doing anything else right now, you're just playing on your computer"

#who cares if im not good at keeping up with chores. like yeah its unfortunate but i cant be so harsh to myself for failing at that #when my commissions take like a month or more to complete #because some part of my brain says worrying over chores is more important than Following Through On Things That Are Actively Making Money #thats. maybe a sign i need to reevaluate things a bit #like i dont want to let the chores Pile Up but i know when i stop Worrying about doing chores im just going to be like. doing them naturall #the chores have already piled up. but that doesnt mean i need to withhold doing art until i 'get caught up' with chores #i dont need to feel guilty for creating. or playing games or ANYTHING #hopefully im a little more on top of things around here by the time bug season comes back. but ueah

[meowmeowmessi]

Honestly, as much as well talk about it, I kinda don't seen City as an option just becauss they've built their team over the last 2 years, including ofc Grealish who also plays as a 10 and is a starter, and it doesn't feel like they'd want to make any big transfers now. But still I guess we will see in the transfer window for sure, both for City's squad and Messi's decision.

appreciate the reality check, anons 🥲 it's all on leo and whether he believes in whatever "sports project" nonsense pissg is feeding him atp. i seriously doubt he's going to stay in the tinpot club for much longer (dear god let this not be a jinx), but considering barça's financial situation rn, not to mention tebas,,, i really don't think it's a feasible option. and i don't want it to be, either :// not at this moment, anyway. so yes, we can only wait and see what happens in the next transfer window. i'm not too worried about his options tbh— it's fucking messi, not just any random player: all it takes is the news "he is wants to leave" to break out just like the burofax in 2020 and he'll have clubs lining up at his doorstep

#also i've heard grealish has been flopping lately? #saw some ppl on city twt saying they wouldn't mind messi in their squad in place of grealish that got me going HMMM fjdkfj #jokes aside tho. if he leaves pissg and barça can't sign him then i don't see him going anywhere other than city #bc messi enjoys familiarity. he has juli and pep over there. not to mention city was an actual option he was considering back in 2020 #i'd love to see him in napoli too but they're broke so 🥲 #but i really really don't want barça for him rn. administrative and political issues with la liga aside #the way true coolers are moving rn #coupled with PLAYERS saying they hope messi comes back and helps them win the ucl #it's not looking good bruv. hate to burst the bubble but the current squad is only good enough to win the league #there's still a long way to go if they want to conquer europe. and this isn't 2018/19 messi anymore #who can singlehandedly drag them to the ucl semis #if messi comes back and they flop he'll be made the scapegoat. and it'll be so much worse #i understand there's the romantic inside all of us that thinks messi can definitely help the club of his life win the ucl #bc he's the main character of football and a real life mary sue #but listen. even cinderella's magic runs out when the clock strikes midnight #some things are just impossible #and im tired of seeing messi taking the blame for everything. i can take french media throwing stones at him bc they're pests anyway #but i don't want him to get hurt by the club of his life. that'd be too much for me to bear #at the end of the day it's his decision but yeah. city or napoli for me. barça can be his pit stop right before he r words #i have a lot of feelings regarding this sorry :// #asks

[freebooter4ever]

You know what the best part about yesterday's adventure was? Even though it absolutely was an exclusive thing not available to the public - and a bunch of people on my insta are coming out of the woodwork like 'how did YOU get a tour with the LEGEND? (disbelief heavily implied)' - the vibe of the entire day was a group of friends chatting and joking and remarking on the history of the place we were visiting. And it wasnt a one time thing, we all volunteer together, im going to see them again on monday. And its just FUN! ^_^ i love it!

#Journal shit #Btw my answer to the asshole from my old company who couldnt believe that someone lowly like me got to talk to this legend? #I didnt bite at the bait i didnt say anything except: 'he's a friend! :)' #One fun story that i dont think the host would mind me sharing #He is almost as popular as jeff - jeff is the easy to approach not intimidating guy #The Legend guy is a little more intimidating #anyway we stopped at a coffee shop on the lot and The Legend got held up taking photos and signing autographs because #Every person working behind the counter at the coffee shop wanted one it was geat :) #And then when he was done with the photos and chatting with them he came back over and actually apologized to us #He was like im sorry you didnt come to this to do nothing but see star*bucks and then complained a little that security is more strict now #So he cant even really get us into the good places #And all of us were like are you kidding we are HERE and talking to you we would be happy with just the star*bucks all day lollll #He's very humble almost too humble one thing i noticed was that there were a lot of stories about other people in history #but not a lot of stories about him and i kept trying to figure out polite ways of working my more personal art questions into conversation

[lonestardust]

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#once I graduate and get my degree and I'm done and free I'm going to come here and reblog every single post and gif set of s4 and ill cry #in the tags until the dash needs a wet floor sign because there will be literal puddles of tears #and the fics I've saved!!! and the stuff i still wanna comment on ughhh so many things and im looking forward to all of them!!! #also sending good vibrations and loads of love to everyone #there has been bad energy lately #and i love you lot so much i hope you only feel joy in our little community #rejoice and take care of yourselves darlings <3 #911ls

[sanstropfremir]

nct infinite expansion being after the debut of nct tokyo? 👁

i assume you meant being scrapped lmao. i'm......not really sure all my thoughts are formulated about it, mostly because SO much is up in the air right now and it's very hard to predict what's going to happen. i do still think that the infinite expansion was never really a good idea and it does a lot of disservice to the original members and it wasn't managed properly at all, so yes i think scrapping it IS a good idea, because that means they should in theory be able to actually focus on managing the existing group better. however, there are two things that this decision makes me concerned about: firstly, does this mean that they're also scrapping nct u? because let's be real here, nct u and the full group albums are the most interesting work that nct creates AND where all the creative potential in their revolving concept is. so if this means that they're only gonna prioritize promoting each of the subunits separately and not do any nct u or full group albums....... that's gonna be pretty disappointing. and the second thing i'm concerned about is the infinite expansion concept is lsm's brainchild baby, that's the one thing he's been after for like, fifteen YEARS. obvs i think he was delusional in chasing after it and frankly i'm fucking furious at him for causing this whole situation in the first place, but you can't deny that he spearheaded a lot of the creative decisions at sm that made the company into what it is. and the fact that the FIRST thing that they're getting rid of while 'under new management' is a creative decision that he was after for so long is a bit of a red flag that the artistic integrity of the company is at risk. so yea. complicated feelings.

#like i agree i think JUST the infinite expansion needs to go but also.....this feels like a harbinger of bad things to come #like obvs its a decision that probably even nct themselves want. but also if you give a company that leverage #to get rid of an 'innocuous' creative choice it opens the door for them to start trying to get rid of MORE creative choices #and i just dont trust hybe to actually respect the core creative decisions that have made sm what they are #despite what their 'statements' say #it ALSO feels like capitulating to fans' ire #which is never a good sign #nct w #kpop questions #text #answers #like i saw that plan they released and idk. idk. that seems like WAY too much for only the first half of the year #and we already know that sm creative teams are very often shared across groups #so either they've been planning a LOT of stuff in advance (very possible) or theyre insanely overworking ppl (very possible) #OR theyve hired entire new teams (seems unlikely) OR the quality is about to drop significantly (seems most probable) #so tbh im not even expecting half of what that schedule says #obvs we're gonna have to wait and see but yea. artmaking takes time and uh. this doesnt look good

[bare1ythere]

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#a B in a bio class isnt the end of the world. a B in a bio class isnt the end of the world. a B in a bio class isnt the end of the world #I have such a complex about doing bad in academics but especially in bio because like. thats supposed to be the one thing im good at #but this class keeps throwing me curve balls and im not doing Bad but not good enough to the point that I feel sick to my stomach #at the thought of studying for the exam #and i dont have enough time i dont have enough time to study for my chem final which is in THREE DAYS. #With everything else also happening #I just feel so overwhelmed. I feel like i felt so much more confident in previous finals seasons #i dont know man academics were so much easier for me in high school #i dont even know if i wanna be a doctor anymore. i dont know if the dread I feel at the thought is because im just lazy and uncompetitive #or that its a sign that im going in the wrong direction #and the only thing im confident in anymore is my love for fandom stuff #but even then i dont feel good about my art half the time #im just tired of being stressed I guess. why do i have to kill myself for 8 months a year only to come out of it for like a week or two #to catch my breath. i feel like im going insane #this cant be right. this cant be right #shut up me #i did way too much this term and it almost killed me. but i feel so weak and lazy for not being able to do it all #Im already taking fewer classes next term and an extra year to graduate. I dont know why i cant handle the pressure the way my siblings can #ugh. whatever #i ha. i dont have time for this #vent

[luxrayz64]

I saw a post a while back responding to criticism of botw as being "a good game but not a good zelda game", and they responded with how the Zelda Formula was getting tired and stale and botw was a response to that, that it was meant to harken back to the original zelda game where it just drops you in and it makes you find everything on yr own. which like is fine and good and all but. you do know that the original zelda had 8 full unique (as unique as they could be on the nes) dungeons right. the original zelda game had dungeon items. they didn't need to take out one of zeldas defining gameplay aspects and replace it with the fundamentally inferior shrines and divine beasts. you can make a game non linear and refresh its gameplay without taking out one of the series' strongest aspects.

#I saw it ages ago and haven't really stopped thinking about it #there's no way you can ever try to tell me that shrines r superior to dungeons no way #shrines are short. dull. all use the same assets and same theming. theres no room to work on and develop concepts #some concepts r developed across multiple shrines but bc the order you find shrines in is different every time it still doesnt work #divine beasts r fucking disappointing. they're the actual dungeons but they're abt as long as a mini dungeon and as boring as the shrines #they at least have the set pieces of taking place on giant moving mechs going for them. but inside they're all the same #the bosses are visually all the same #you can make a good zelda game w only four dungeons majoras mask is RIGHT THERE. but mm also has sidequests and a strong story and #strong characters that aren't already dead that you actually give a shit about #romani ranch and the. I can't remember his name. kafe or whatever the fuck his quest was so interesting #the only quest botw has that comes anywhere near as close to it in quality is tarrey town and the actual GAMEPLAY side of that quest is- #just chop down trees and gather x amount of wood #like multiple people I know who played botw didn't even want to actually fight the final boss/only fought the final boss out of boredom #that's not good!!!! when people aren't invested enough in your story to even fucking beat it that's not a good sign!!!!! #mmmmm don't get me wrong. botw is a good game. it's fun to explore and traverse that world. its physics and chemistry systems r insane #but this is why people say it's a good game but not a good zelda game bro 😭 I want more than 2 types of dungeons #botw is a game im very conflicted on I think it's fascinating. but I've only played it thru fully once #anytime I try to come back to it it can never really regain my attention fully #some of that absolutely has to do with adhd but some of that also has to do with the fact that it's not a rewarding game to play- #for me after a certain point. I've seen everything there is to see and that's really the only compelling thing it offers #ocarina of time and twilight princess and majoras mask all offer me cool boss fights and compelling stories #THAT'S a reason to come back. botw I think I need another 5 years to forget everything about it before I can come back #that last point has more to do with me than an inherent problem with the game #... but it's still the only game in the series (that I've played) that has that problem #again. I like botw. it was phenomenal the first 200 hours. I hope tok is more like what I want from a zelda game though #need to stop putting the entire post in the tags goddamn #espeon cries

[huntershowl]

this is your reminder that it’s okay – in fact, encouraged in my rules – for muses to hate and/or be scared shitless of hellhound on initial interaction. she is a serial killer. i don’t like being harsh, i don’t like having to enforce things so bluntly, but i was talking to my partner yesterday and he was like “maybe you shouldn’t let people continually disrespect your character” and i was like “yEAH I SHOULDN’T”  like there’s a reason none of hellhound’s actual lore is in her carrd or about page. it’s bc apparently i can’t trust people not to metagame. and i’m so tired. consider it from this angle: what if you were taking an uber and you realized jeff.rey da.hmer was driving? like even if your character isn’t the type to be scared interacting with a serial killer (be it their power level, grey or bad morality, etc) or is the type to try to see the good in everyone, i would imagine most would have An Opinion about someone who’s widely known to literally kill anyone if they piss her off, at any time, outside of just her targets, children and bystanders included. they are known to be volatile, violent, unpredictable. like these are not rumors. the smoky hair, the wolf transformation? those are rumors. the rest, even though it’s included in the whole Legend, is public perception; it’s just Who Hellhound is Known to Be. i am well-prepared for the repercussions of this. if it makes interactions difficult, like if you want to write with hellhound but your character would actively not want to interact with what i described above, we can plot out potential situations for things to become more clear and the dynamic to become more complicated! it’s really not that hard to see her as human or learn which parts of the public perception are false after a few interactions. but i’m so tired of people ignoring the most crucial thing about their character, immediately seeing them as a normal person, just disregarding who they’re known by almost everyone in xyz city to be. 

#>> OUT. #ask to tag / #child death mention #{ i removed the pinned post description for now... and added a big red sign on the notoriety post sdkjfhds hopefully that helps } #{ i'm sure it comes from a good place - like wanting to interact easier or forgetting to read that part of the rules } #{ but like... please. } #{ i just didn't realize the extent to which i'd given up on being respected until roxette respected seph and i was like #holy shit is this what it feels like } #{ for people to actually take my muse seriously } #{ hhhh its so scary to post things like this bc i don't want to make people feel bad. but also } #{ i don't want to be ... quiet about what i'm struggling with } #{ anyway im gonna be on today! lotsa free time between jobs. }

[gibbearish]

"can bi nbs say dyke" "can trans men say tranny" "can this specific identity reclaim this slur" ENOUGH !!! ALL that matters is whats in your heart when you say it. is there love for your community or is there hate for people not like you. are you saying it to hurt someone or to give a hurtful thing new love-filled meaning. theres your answer.

terfs are finding this now so just to head this off at the pass my tranny ass will not be debating you, you are going to be instantaneously blocked so you may as well save us both the trouble of typing out whatever long rant youre planning about how im an evil transsexual betraying the community by daring to call myself a faggot or w/e. also go fuck yourself

edit 2: hey terfies do you think perhaps that the fact you had to block me before purposefully starting fights with randos in my replies says something about the kind of people you are? do you think that's the kind of thing good people do? can you look yourself in the eyes and genuinely tell me that deep down you don't know that if you constantly have to lie and infiltrate and block evade to harass people, that just means youre a shit person? can you with a straight face say that doing these kinds of things actually feels morally sound, that there's no tiny sliver of yourself in there that knows youre acting like a piece of shit all the fucking time which is why everyone leaves you when they find out about your beliefs? could you honestly tell me that a person who acts like that is good, and that behaving like this actually makes you feel like you're adding something positive to the world? or is it just the rush that comes with punching a wall in rage?

you harass trans people for the same reason parents beat their children: it feels good to hurt other people when youre mad. it feels good to take your anger out on someone else. and so you find people you can hurt and you convince yourself youre doing it because theyre stronger than you, that youre fighting back, you punch and you punch and you keep punching on and on forever. because that anger is addicting and trans people have always and WILL always exist, so we will always be available as a target.

look at the way youre behaving and ask yourself if this is what you want to be doing with your life. and google the signs of a high-control group. and if youre going to be a piece of shit in my replies then at least don't be a major fucking coward about it. unless youre literally 12 you should not be arguing like a middle schooler starting fights about steven universe. grow the fuck up and get real problems

#queer #bigger gibbers