#so international break is over..

[mishy-mashy]

Something I made in a post that I think'll be lost in the texts + expanded a bit more

These panels are chronological events following AFO's pursuit of Yoichi's Factor.

AFO could tell if people were related through a Quirk. AFO and OFA also are connected to each other. In Kamino, AFO could confidently tell All Might that OFA had been passed on, so all that All Might had left were leftover embers.

When AFO killed Kudo, he asked where Yoichi was. He knew Kudo wasn't the holder of Yoichi's Factor at that time. He also realized when looking at Yoichi's hand that Yoichi's natural Factor was so weak he hadn't registered its existence. This implies AFO could sense Factors since he was young, and Yoichi's natural Factor never stood out to him.

Below are three panels of Bruce (right to left). Bruce fought, AFO killed him, and looked away in disinterest.

When he beat down Bruce, he already had a sense that Bruce didn't hold the Factor anymore. That's why, rather than yell in his face to figure out where it is and interrogate for a long time, he pulled up his corpse to inspect him better.

Bruce's corpse isn't resisting anything. Look at his feet; AFO literally dragged him. Bruce is already dead. Yet he's looking for something from him.

Bruce doesn't have anything for him. Nothing AFO wants.

When he looks away, he's dismissing Bruce, because Bruce doesn't hold Yoichi. AFO is wondering where Yoichi is, because he knows now that he's out there somewhere. Thus the pensive look to the wind.

After Bruce is killed, AFO and Garaki meet for the first time. Shinomori has Yoichi at this time, and AFO never comes close to him, so AFO is lost. He doesn't have any leads, and Yoichi has vanished.

Now that he knows Yoichi can transfer, it's possible for Yoichi to be kept out of his reach for the rest of his life. So meeting Garaki and having access to Life Force gives AFO more time to search.

Yoichi is still missing for 18 years though, because Shinomori is in hiding. AFO couldn't find him during the Fourth's turn.

This is why, when he encounters Banjo, the Fifth and active wielder of OFA [Yoichi], AFO is smiling.

It's been a long time, but Yoichi's in reach again. He knows where he is now. And this is the first time he's encountered the current holder.

Thus his shock.

[Yet... you never behave as I wish.]

It was the first time a Quirk wouldn't let itself be stolen. This was AFO's first encounter with this wall: it doesn't transfer without the holder's consent, and requires willpower stronger than all the holders combined to override that.

The holder is never going to give him that consent. To override the collective willpower, he's going to need something greater.

Meanwhile, look at Banjo's arms. Shinomori is the catalyst to tip OFA over the edge, that an unprepared vessel will be destroyed by how strong the Quirk is.

Banjo's arms are both messed up below the shoulder, just like Midoriya used to be. And like Midoriya uses Blackwhip to reinforce himself and stay standing, Banjo uses Blackwhip to hold his fist / arm together. His hand is being wrapped to stay in a fist.

(What I think is) The reason the limbs turn red, and then purple, from breakage, is a matter of blood vessels. Small, itty bitty, fragile things.

Using OFA breaks the whole area, from bones to blood vessels, causing internal bleeding. Thus the redness. But breaking those vessels again in a second go turns the area purple, because it causes instantaneous internal bruising.

But En wasn't ripped apart by using OFA. There's a cut on his thumb that lines up with the path of destruction; AFO sliced him in half. Otherwise, he wouldn't have that cut if it were just OFA.

It's hidden by the text in [... you never behave as I wish], but depending on where you see this chapter, you can see he got cut on the thumb. It's clearer where we see Nana take his hair from him, in [I only want... to make you mine!]

I have a post in drafts about En being cut in half rather than it being because of OFA, but I also hit an image limit, so I'm gonna end here. Ta.

#from the [hood shouldve been shinomori] post #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #spoilers #afo #ofa #all for one #one for all #bruce #banjo daigoro #hikage shinomori #yoichi shigaraki #izuku midoriya #kyudai garaki #please s7 be graphic over the ofa users deaths #dont sugarcoat it let the viewers see what afo did to the vestiges because he wanted yoichi #poor bruce got ignored by afo #en tayutai #analysis #manga #edit: the thing about ofa and blood vessels is based off of when i would play sports #i keep debating on if i should say where i got the idea from so im just gonna put it down here #i break the blood vessels and create little spots of internal bleeding. i keep playing. #the bleeding spots disappear for huge bruises that cover half of the limb instead #look at midoriyas hand. the uneven discoloring. thats bruising #but while i break tiny areas for little blood spots MIDORIYA BREAKS ALL THE VESSELS BONES + EVERYTHING ELSE FOR THAT MESS REPEATEDLY #midoriya RAN with it (you say run)

[naffeclipse]

Finished your latest chapter, and I was at rge ended if my seat from beginning to end. Amazing!

And at the end of the chapter I thought of an inquiry:

What if y/n is a hunter/fisherman instead of a photographer? How would they have met, and what would the dynamics be like? Would they bring each other kills to give to the other to show off? Or in Eclipse's case, courting gifts? Still would figure y/n wouldn't realize what Eclipse is actually doing.

Oh, man, I just flashbacked to Fisher Y/N from Deep Waves but for an AP fisher? They'd be a bit disgruntled and grumpy. Very hard working, set on the task and won't stop until it's done. They've got a shell that rivals crabs. Very gruff but has a heart hidden somewhere under all those brusque layers.

Of course, you're spooked when Eclipse pops his head up (he's a lot more terrifying, not trusting humans on their boats with their harpoons.) Still, once he sees that you're alone and also, well, pretty, he tones it back a bit to actually talk to you while still dangling you halfway off your boat above the icy cold of the sea. You manage to yell at the siren to put you back. While Eclipse does so, he promises to bring you fine fish, the best of the best. You wave him off like "Yeah, yeah, as long as you don't ruin my nets and don't kill me."

The next day, he's got a fat catch. You thought you got rid of him, but like a stray cat that's been fed once, he's back. If he can chat, he can help you push the nets onto your boat so the fish don't flop out and get away. You might pick one cod out (the best one but you would rather die before admitting so) and toss it to Eclipse for his lunch, as thanks, or something like that. Eclipse would beam at the exchange of gifts so soon but you're too busy trying to not slip on the half-frozen, half-wet deck to notice.

You know sirens are bad news, but you have the mindset of 'Eclipse hasn't killed me yet, and there's work to be done, so I better hop to it.' That kind of attitude, however, is what gets you into Eclipse's mandated cuddle sessions as he decides you've been working too long and require a break. Guess who is getting yanked across the deck, forcibly cradled, and persuaded to take a twenty-minute break by a large, touchy siren? You, of course!

It's unusual to endure this kind of attention (and maybe you thought no one would touch you like this, make you feel like you're not just a ghost on the sea.) You put your shoulder to the wheel and get the catch while navigating Eclipse's hands of avarice.

You learn quickly that there's no use trying to get out of his arms once he has you. You also learn that he likes seals, but you try to catch squid and even, once or twice, small sharks for him to snatch on. He returns the favor with a bounty of fish and even guides you to better fishing spots. He's always eager to hand you the fish he catches to you personally. You don't think too much of it when you take it in your gloved hands and his grin widens. (You think he looks infatuated whenever you stumble upon an old seashell or half-plucked feathers or shiny, chipped scales and figure he might think it's pretty, but you don't take it to heart—he probably just likes trinkets.)

One day, when the sea is calm and the fish are nowhere to be found, Eclipse decides you are due for a break. You both lounge on the deck of your smelly boat. You don't even push away Eclipse's hands while precious work minutes slip by, resting your head on his chest to his great pleasure. Eclipse manages to coax a few confesses from your lips with a few slippery musical notes in his voice. You really don't know why you start rambling like this, like a fool. You tell him you don't have anybody, but nobody has you. Sometimes, you don't feel like a person because the only time you talk to another human being is when business over the fish is conducted. You're so used to not having anyone to talk to that when you talk to Eclipse, your voice becomes hoarse and dry, but you don't mind. You don't mind at all, lately.

He tells you in that way of his that is as true as the sun and moon that he has you. You don't believe him, but you pull out a little... gift you've been quietly crafting for the past while you've known him.

Now is as good as ever to give him a simple piece of jewelry you made with a cord and yet another seashell that's so old and pale pink that no one will notice or care for it, but he takes it from you with awe. He ties it around his wrist and shows you how pretty it looks against his black and white markings. He says you need to strengthen your voice. You need to talk to him more. He will listen, and he will listen when you sing, too. The mere thought of you singing of all things jars you enough to finally pull you out of this fancy and get you back on your feet, scouring the sea for fish to catch.

Eclipse is still wearing the seashell when he drops back into the water, and he doesn't let you out of his sights on the sea. You're left to wonder if you're a fool for giving a siren a gift or for feeling pleased that he wears it so proudly.

#y/n: i have to work so don't get in my way #eclipse when he decides it's break time: sorry i can't hear you over me grabbing you for cuddles and rest :) stop fighting #he'd call them fishie instead of birdie #also y/n giving him anything and strictly rationalizing it as junk or needing to repay him but maybe eclipse will find it nice #eclipse getting anything from y/n: oh! our courtship is going swimmingly #apex polarity #amymaleneart #y/n gives him the seashell necklace and internally barfs at their own audacity and expression of feelings #eclipse is swooning because they're now engaged #they are not the same

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

SO. TO KICK OFF THE WEEK OF SPECULATION BEFORE THE UPDATE DROPS.

last night i had a bit of a Revelation. literally. i borderline woke up in a cold sweat with this realization. the way i lunged for my laptop to scream at friends... ough. lets get into it

so. i do believe I've made a couple of theory posts about Barnaby not being quite as receptive to his and Wally's "forced" best friendship as Wally - since the show wrote them to be friends instead of it happening naturally. i thought it might be a point of tension for Barn. i thought a lot.

YES SO I'M TOSSING (almost) ALL OF THAT OUT THE WINDOW!

the bios state Barnaby as Wally's best friend multiple times over. it had to be regularly reinforced. their colors were chosen to mark them as friends.

but Barnaby - presumably - can't see the bios, he wouldn't know the scripts. the friendship would be natural from his perspective. how would he know otherwise? even if the relationship started out synthetic, i don't doubt that it became genuine. in the context of their world and perceptions, realistically speaking Barnaby probably wouldn't sense anything wrong.

the reminders to be best friends weren't for Barnaby.

they were for Wally.

i'm starting to suspect that Wally is Barnaby's best friend, but Barnaby isn't Wally's. i think that Wally's "best friend" is Home - or at least Wally has a closer connection to them / Home is more important to Wally than anyone else is.

i remember reading this livestream trivia (from theneighborhoodwatch's doc, if you haven't their resources yet what are you even doing?):

and i assumed it was for Barnaby's side of the relationship. but it's not, is it? it's Wally's? and it makes too much fucking Sense! it fits! i can see it perfectly! i can feel things slotting together in my mind due to this shift in perspective, and i'm scared

Barnaby probably thinks the relationship is natural, just like how he thinks he's a real person in a real world. Wally probably knows that the relationship is a role, just like how he knows he's a puppet in a false reality.

that leaves me wondering how much of it is genuine on Wally's side. i don't doubt that they really are friends, but how deep does that connection go? in the interview, Wally sounded excited/proud about having a best friend, but how much came from a place of feeling, and how much came from a place of Fulfilling The Role? how much of it is performative? how much of it is a mask?

i've been seeing everything differently. Barnaby poses for Wally the most because he has good balance and is good at staying still, not because of favoritism or because he's Wally's best friend. in the 14 (15 including the hidden halloween) audios, Barnaby consistently seeks out Wally and checks in on him. Wally seems more casual about their relationship than Barnaby is.

i'm worried that Wally values Home & You/Us over Barnaby. that Barnaby is second or third place in Wally's heart. that Wally means more to Barnaby than he means to Wally. after all, only one of them needed their relationship to be reinforced on a seemingly regular basis.

i'm confident that Wally cares about / loves Barnaby, but the question is how much? to what extent?

#IM SO FUCKING ILL. #and by worried i mean Frothing At The Mouth. that would hurt so good. it would be delicious #i mean. it makes so much fucking sense. it feels Right! #and oh the ways this could hurt barnaby #i already suspect he has some Internal insecurities and shit but. oh man. if this is true it would break his heart wouldnt it #he has his hearts on his palms but wally's hearts are hidden on the soles of his shoes.... #god. no this. this. i cant start ranting and raving about what this means for barnaby and how i think it might affect him #the picture all the pieces of What We Know About Him So Far paint #all i'll say is. comic relief characters are always a tragedy under the mask. #wh speculation #homebogging #wh theory #welcome home speculation #welcome home theory #the way i was losing my absolute shit in discord. Man. #i am continuously in premature mourning over barnaby. #eddie might be doomed by the narrative but barn is Screwed by the narrative #poor guy just can't catch a break #also the idea. the Concept. that wally might consider you/us a closer/dearer friend than barnaby #is. its. well its devastating and juicy as Fuck! #there's. there's so much to unpack here im gonna be honest #for the first time since getting into this project im feeling like im starting to see a cohesive picture #the implications. the connections. the way it ties into themes. man... oh man... And It Makes. Sense. #barnaby knows wally better than the other neighbors - Besides Home - but how much more? #does he think he knows more than he does? i mean absolutely. wally is still hardcore masking around him. #wally doesn't confide in him not really #but man. Man. oh i understand why completely. at least i like to think i do #oh boy this is gonna kill me and im gonna like it #i had this realization and i felt my neurons shift just a little. just Enough. FUCK #barnaby b beagle. baby. i am so sorry but you're gonna have a hell of a fucking time

[gordon-freeman-phd]

It's time to suit up, Gordon.

#gordon freeman #half life 2 #blood tw #idoindeeddraw #ponderingradioactivedecay #please notice that the id tag on his shirt is the same as the sample number of the crystal that he pushed into the ams #and caused the rescas with #pleaseplease please notice #i just #i just think he would have a flashback or an epiaode of sometype when he realizes that he has to put on an hev suit again #internal struggle over the need for survival and the fear of what that suit has come to mean for him #i have an idea for what happens when he first sees the suit as well #i think he freezes so i decided in my lore that kleiner trys to read him the guide before the suit becuz safety obviously #amd barney then says theres no tie for that #that gives gordon a moment of dread the build of anxiety #and then the hev suit is revealed and he freezes #and what breaks him out of it is lamarr and instinct takes over and he tries to kill her and that places him in the protective but #maladaptive mindaet that he needs to put the suit on again #reblog

[t00thpasteface]

yeah yeah boomers don't get M*A*S*H, but gen-Xers watch that show with their third eye wide open

#i miss being home over break and binging it with my mom. she has THOUGHTS about american imperialism and the military-industrial complex #she was born in the mid 60s so she grew up seeing the vietnam war on the tv every night #my brother and i watched bug's life a lot and mom was like ''internalize this. ants outnumber grasshoppers 100 to 1'' #''it's not about food; it's about keeping those ants in line'' is always her favorite line to say to us #shebbz shoutz #mash #m*a*s*h

[mandiemegatron]

Selfshippers with "selfshippers DNI" in their bio make me laugh, but its like... an awkward laugh.

"How dare you love the same character i do. How dare you wish that the guy I SHIP WITH would love and support you 😤😤😤 HOW DARE YOU GET FANART WITH MY F/O!! HES MINE YOU CANT HAVE HIM!!"

Babe... go touch some grass and drink some water. Maybe you'll feel better. 😬

#mandie vents #i sigh. #the internal cringe I feel when a fellow self-shipper tries to rip me a new asshole for shipping with Law #you Law bitches are fucking CRAZY #like i would love to not feel uncomfortable on my own blog thanks. #just block me ? there doesnt need to be an interaction - you can just block me and not see my blog anymore ?? #this is why its so hard to make friends in the self-shipper community. yall get all up in arms over your fictional other and act like #you fuckin own them or something. #actually makes my heart break and makes me sick to my stomach. why cant we just be friends...?

[hussyknee]

Thinking about how so much of what we call beautiful and attractive is just proximity to white European features and figures. I think a decolonized understanding of beauty necessarily wouldnt allow for any universal standards. Ideally, there should be no premium put on attractiveness. Failing that, however, it would be real nice if whatever arbitrates the concept of beauty didn't involve simply hating your racial and ethnic origins.

I'm not particularly evolved in that area myself. I still find fair skin, light eyes, slim figures and sharp features much more appealing. However, I do find stick thin white women unattractive as hell. For now, as a proud South Asian woman with child-bearing hips, I call that praxis.

#my nose used to plague me as a girl #it was just a little large for my face and snub #my Dad's nose. I grew into it later in life but tbh I now realize it gave my face character #but because I obsessed so much over it I didn't I was quite attractive until I was in my late 20s #my sister didn't meet any beauty standards whether Western or local #but I wonder if she would of some other culture that valued and normalized broader faces #not that it really mattered. I got looks and she got everything else lol #but it always breaks my heart when a brown girl decides to get a nose job #half of them don't even stand out. They're just standard brown people noses that fit in with the rest of their features #but no gotta make them more European #the beauty and plastic surgery industry preys on our girls so much #decolonization #beauty standards #colonialism #white supremacy #white women #racism #internalized racism #knee of huss

[zvaigzdelasas]

"AI can make art without human interaction because at the end of the day, it does exactly what humans do with art - break each new piece of art down to the quantifiable basis vectors that you've implicitly constructed about 'art in general' and then faithfully reproduce a new observation of that 'art in general' by smoothly interpolating between observed instantiations of those basis vectors.

You know, like how humans do"

#the joke is that it can be argued that if you do art like an ai youre not necessarily doing art youre producing commodities #assumption being that 'art' stands in an internal tension with a society whose subjectivity is shaped by the commodity form #which i think is pretty inarguable - the argument is over how that tension can be reconciled #i think a salient difference to point out that distinguishes human from ai is the countability of the set of basis vectors #i wouldnt disagree that humans do 'break down' art in some capacity - otherwise 'style' would be entirely singular #the point is really 'how many numbers are there between 0 & 1?' #'how many subcategories are these qualia broken down into?' #i think creativity & externality depend on uncountably divisible qualia #some kind of infinity needs to sneak in somewhere to point to the outside #all this to say @ anon lol for thinking ai is like an ontological evil #but also lol @ anyone who treats the form of AI as isomorphic to the form of human activity #taylor series can absolutely objectively represent certain analytical functions - as long as the error is monotonically negative #ie so long as each subsequent member of the series 'gets closer' to a natural representation of the analytic function #mandatory disclaimer for new followers: #human use of ai for artistic purposes is art - ai cannot generate art without human interaction at some point in the sequence #ideology of the blackbox is the same as the ideology of plug-and-chug #(i know theyre the same because they transform similar inputs to similar outputs!) #& im on mobile so cant move this tag back up but i dont necessarily agree w the maximalist take of 'commodified art isnt art' #but i also think there is a qualitative difference between commodified art & non commodified art #& the ai form is actually pretty isomorphic to the value form in general imo #it cant replace all human labor but it couldnt replace any concrete human labor ... #...if that concrete form of labor hadnt become reducible to that which can be reached through gradient descent #also if u argue that the black box of 'ai breaking down art to make new art' is isomorphic to 'human breaking down art to make new art' #then an implication of that is that ai ***can make art without human interaction*** #otherwise if the blackboxes are isomorphic then why have humans in the loop? whats the qualitative difference? #the proper framing is seeing ai as an augmentation of the decision cycle of humans instead of having a 'decision cycle' themselves

[tillman]

Something I find histerical is that the members of The Assassin's Guild are by and large angsty, moody and subdued in personality.

And then their founder turns out to be a looney toons ass fucking vampire who punches you into space while reciting shitty haikus he just made up on the spot.

A perfect contrast, no notes.

oh its so cute to me. its also really funny with the knowledge pre death zato was just as loony toons insane just in the Evil way. also insanely funny is none of them giving a fuck about dandyism besides Venom for some reason .. slayer really failed these kids they all came out so autistic in the complete opposite way of him

#its always realy funny the guild is supposed to be this ultra serious thing but then its like #slayer: #zato who pre death probably practiced his evil laugh in the mirror hes so cartoonishly evil #venom who presents as very serious and stoic but who breaks in a single second and gets so over emotional at the drop of a hat #and millia who genuinely IS that serious and stoic but internally is frolicking in fields and giggling and kicking her feet #and like IGNORING venom and millias talks just turning into petty squabbles instantly or any of their dynamics with slayer LOL! #teyre so funny

[mssi]

not gavi getting injured as well………we are so cursed

#barça’s season is so over like we’re not gonna have any players left when international break ends #fc barcelona

[greedbent]

please remember that as calm and composed as kaz appears on the outside

on the inside he is consumed by rage and just barely keeping it together 99% of the time (´◡`)

#〣♚{ headcanon } #kaz externally: :| #kaz internally: aaaAAAAAAAAAAaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #which is why when he's finally set off #he's heckin SET OFF #that scale topples over and the rage must be unleashed #on whatever poor sod happens to be present at the time #him “overreacting” to anything is literally just #an accumulation of so much anger from other things finally hitting a breaking point #it's beautiful tho we love to see it

[martyrbat]

i always get kinda embarrassed or sad about how fucking slow i am when reading something due to memory loss/having to read something again and again to actually process it because of my disabilities/my adhd and wavering attention span but like... i gotta kill the elementary school reading award pressure in my head.... reading isnt something restricted by time. its not a race to finish 50 books in two months. if i read a hundred pages in a day or if i cant even get through one, its okay, because theres always tomorrow or the day after. there's no time restraint or pressure to enjoy art in my own time in a way i actually can and shame is just gonna make my actual enjoyment of the book be tainted or my ability to actually read and retain information get worse.

#being disabled in public school was sooo damaging but its fine we live and we unlearn. #seriously was going ‘how have i read this for THIS long but im only up to this part???’ when!!!! it doesn't matter!!!! #i been reading for that long and am up to that part! im enjoying the story!! #who fucking cares if it takes a longer time than what may be ‘normal’ to get to it!!!! #for me again i gotta reread things SO many times or pause and collect my thoughts #but also just mini breaks. put it down for 5 min to listen to a song and shake up my brain while thinking about the book and how i like it #or to look at something else for a bit so i can concentrate on the words again #like reading is just something super time consuming and for so long i always felt embarrassed i couldn't read something as fast as others #do i just avoided books entirely (plus my ability to focus is lackluster at best) despite LOVING them. #i just gotta keep reminding myself hey... why are you feeling ashamed.. you arent fucking catholic get over it and your internalized ableism #ransom note

[providing-leverage]

Six Sentence Sunday

“He’s worried, isn’t he. Said you were texting him complete gibberish then stopped responding. Someone named Rex tried to ring you too, but couldn’t. So I got sent over to make sure you’re still breathin’. You alright?” “I’m fine.” Michael says around the swelling of his heart. “Just a bit sick.” Isaac gives him a look that screams you’re not fooling anyone. “More than a bit, I’d say. When was the last time you ate?”

Colin/Isaac/Michael fic, which is actually now titled. This is from the sick fic scene of the Fundamentals of Lying and Love!

#I've got to get a good ship name for them #currently accepting suggestions #pls talk to me about them I'm desperate #added 700 words so far tofay #by the end it'll probably be just over 14k I think #colin/isaac/michael #ted lasso #colin hughes #isaac mcadoo #michael ted lasso #s3 ep10 international break

[ranger-kellyn]

oh it's over for y'all i did it. i cracked the code. i FINALLY. after all these years of making them my favorite accessory pairing, i FINALLY>>> have an idea for a full airplaneshipping fic where they are the main focus

#THANK U shower after a jog #for YEARS.....YEARS I TELL YOU Y E A R S #WANTED TO WRITE A PROPER AIRPLANE FIC AND NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #it's nothing ground breaking or earth shattering but like #something along the lines of: #elesa is having to take a small break from being a gym leader due to some sort of fashion gig that has her traveling all over the world #away from unova for at least a year or so #elesa and skyla had been tiptoeing a little painfully around their romantic feelings for years at that point #and the separation is putting a strain on that #elesa had internally been hoping skyla would ask her to not go through with it - but she didn't #(bc skyla is never going to let herself be the thing that gets in the way of elesa's career) #and then skyla gets in her head about figuring it's her own fault for not saying anything if elesa finds a real partner while she's away #and then maybe skyla takes a small break of her own from the gym to line up a flight job to one of the cities elesa has a show in #and maybe elesa's manager is cool and skyla works with her to more or less make it a surprise for elesa #and it's just...The Best weekend #and turns into skyla taking more and more time away from the gym to meet with elesa around the regions of the world #i want yearning!!!!!!!!!!! i want longing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i want the tension to build and build and build until it!!!!!!!! snaps!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #writing tag

[wethecelestial]

they should invent a grief thats uncomplicated and purely cathartic to experience. has anyone thought of this before

#cw death #not to be ungrateful that when i get tired of 'feeling guilty abt putting off ur trip to go see family until the summer bc u didn't want to #have to deal w international travel over winter break and now ur grandma who u haven't seen in 8 years is dead' i can distract myself with #'being furious that your family wasn't going to tell u she died until u came home for the summer' or 'giving urself a headache abt whether #you're even allowed to be upset that she died when u grew up hearing stories abt how horrible she was to ur mom' or #'being irrationally and unfairly jealous that your dad has multiple siblings who could all take turns checking in on her and sitting with #her in the hospital bc u definitely will not get that when ur parents die' or 'getting paranoid abt how ur OTHER set of grandparents #might die and/or go fully blind before u get to see them (also for the first time in 8 years) this summer' #like. not to be ungrateful to have so much enrichment to choose from in my enclosure #but have we considered just like.....being sad. and that's it. #lmao literally as i was writing this my mom texted me 'it's already happened just move on' so BACK TO SQUARE ONE! #anyways like it's fine lol. we (obviously) were not close. and also she was a full 98 years old lmao like it was her time. #but also truly. what goes on lol

[samarecharm]

Scheming…

#chattin #taking time to draw and write out a relationship/dynamics chart for the thieves and assorted friends #bc theres. alot. and it would be nice to write it out. it would help establish my thoughts about them #its not poly/thieves but its. kind of adjacent to it. but its less shippy and more focused on how they interact- #-and behave with one another. like theyre kinda bonded together over everything. lines get a little blurred but its what works for them #and i think lumping them all together as poly/thieves is a shortcut for breaking down their character #like obv akira has diff relationships for everyone; but how do THOSE people react to others ?? #like pego/ryu is real and true but also ann is absolutely there. u cannot separate them. #theyre the shujin delinquents to me LOL. they are too tightly bound together to let any external relationship split them at this point #akiras not w goro; its akira AND ryuji w goro. like akira and goro would just not work; but ryuji make its work well yknow? #goro doesnt get third wheeled w ann and vice versa bc ann and goro are good friends; they just hang :) #its like. if u could SEE the fucking string of connections making a mess of my white board in my minds eye…😭 #so im trying to write it down into something that works for me #i dunno. i think its fun :) i did this for ffxv too #only that was way easier bc its just the four of them. but like. how do their internal relationships affect the overall polycule ? #anyway. inspired by that love post; that theres diff kinds of love. and kiss ryuji week LOL #bc i wanted to write a small thing with different thieves for each prompt #and im like how would their relationships differ from one another ? #ryuji and akira but also ryuji with makoto. ryuji w haru. ryuji w yusuke. its like. #u cant use the same thing from most pego/ryu fics bc they DIDNT meet the same way #waugh. #rambling #just know that im insane. i have all these wips and nothing FINISHED. waaa. #this is what that post meant about being obsessed over bad media LMAO. this is just what happens #u stay up thinking about fake polycules from a game that came out seven years ago #i think…. #WHAT. 2016??? #EIGHT years ??? #funny bc i was thinking about how ffxv was eight yesrs old and i am still a mess over it #well. could u imagine if i played p5 when it LAUNCHED instead of in 2020???