#so uh. that's where im at in life

[pippuns]

hello liujiu enjoyers have some food

#liujiu #liu qingge #shen qingqiu #shen jiu #brief moment of #shang qinghua #lqg #sj #sqq #svsss #scum villains self saving system #if anyone was wondering why ive barely posted. this is why #originally i was going super slow on this and wasnt sure if i was even gonna finish it but then i thought of a 79 animatic i want to do #and then i went insane and did half of it in three days #so uh. that's where im at in life #pippart #animatics #Youtube

[hecksupremechips]

Come back home when you have some sense

You can throw your life away just not at my expense

You’re not the son I raised

#jhariah #this one just rawrrfrrr #and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’ #nice #im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it #god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like #hnnnghhh #hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot #the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM #sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’ #like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke #but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me #and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards #the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome #the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear #its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe #but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill #and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill #you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit #and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it #and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was #very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me #which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me #yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍

[pasta-pardner]

ok so u know that feeling when u go out to a store and you notice that the cashier is Obviously Gay-- bc their hair/pins/vibe/whatever are a giveaway-- and u wanna let them know that you're Also Gay, but you cant mention it verbally bc that would be Weird, so u just sort of stare at them real hard hoping to telepathically communicate???

thats what this scene is to me.

#mantimer #mancomer #for a few dollars more (1965) #i need every grocery store clerk to know that im gay . cant for the life of me explain why but i need that. #on another note! im rewatching fafdm for the billionth time (but now in 4k uhd bc i finally bought the disc) and uh #wow . good fucking movie. love it so much . i think more movies should have silly scenes where two rivals get into bespectabled stare-offs. #or-be-binoculared? be-telescoped? to be quite frank-- im not sure what the term for this is: they are looking at each other thru Equipment. #no one is doing it like them (this is so sad) #dollars trilogy #tmwnn #manco #douglas mortimer #clint eastwood #lee van cleef #westerns #🤠 #🍝 #videos #pardner posts

[merwynsartblog]

Not me thinking whetehr or not Mercury dies first or Fylass does due to age shenanigans, since I dunno Mercury's life span :(

mercury is around king dededes age and i like to think ages are different. so for example king dededes age for me is 360. which rounds about 36 for our age. (ik its weird and i dont have a damn reason for this) and same thing with everyone else like mercury is probably around...320 so around 32 so it just depends but i hc our ages and their ages are different- they live for wayyyy longer than humans

but since fylass is 12 mercury will probably die first sadly BUT. he would leave alot of stuff to his found family (fylass is a part of it) and make sure everyone he cares for is safe off without him

#yeahhhhhh i have a weird idea with life spans for popstar #but uh yeah *spins* also god damn it you making me wanna do a future mercury design where he is a old man0 #spoiler he actually gets married with king d.d.d. #but uh yeah and i also..sorta hc in my head that ancients live longer than usual people so.....*pats fylass* sorry you gotta see ya #uncle go honk shew forever/silly #but good god that be sad- like. i imagine king d.d.d. dies first and mercury actually lives on a lil longer than king d.d.d. #but he dies due to him being so old- #GOOD GOD NOW IM THINKING OF ALOT OF STUFF- #but uh yeah i hc like. kirby or ig dara (not my oc) takes the throne #.....YOU ARE MAKING ME THINK WAY TO MUCH ON THIS ELP

[ladyofthelake]

Don't think about Merlin still waiting after Arthur didn't come back at Christmas and everyone else is out celebrating New Years with those they love. Don't think about it

#merlin #merthur #I literally just made a post on my other blog about how im going to a footloose showing tonight which should be fun #and I loved that dance off in umbrella academy and how kevin bacon saved everyone according to starlord gotg lmao #but uh Im hit with feels because merlin is still waiting #I thought of that part where they were trying to banter about him having days off #while arthur was literally clinging on for life #and nothing is okay and Im setting myself on fire :) #so yeah Imma be like footlooooose *sobs about merthur* footloooose *laughs at kevin bacons hair and eats too much popcorn*

[harvestmoth]

wwhat if they. had pokemon

pokemon the characters might have idk it is unpolished and also spoilers from the novels kind of

#sorry. i hav e a thing about me where if i like something enough ill start thinking about pokemon they would have. #anyways uh. au where everything is the exact same but they have pokemon also #also sorry i use showdown for everything pokemon team related so its a bit crunchy #the collar on minou’s silvally is a crest btw from pokemon rejuvenation #also play pokemon rejuvenation its fun #also also im very sorry i traced the pokemon. i am not drawing that dog normally #and i was just lazy about celebi #the executioner and her way of life #shokei shoujo no virgin road

[tecchous-thicc-buttocks]

blorbos in tha phone

#FIRST EVER DIGITAL DOODLE GUYS I DID IT WOOP WOOP #airbrush my beloved #feels like watercolour and that makes me a lil giddy #anyways this was mostly retraced off of a template (?) i JUST downloaded ibis and wanted to get to know the pens #ill eventually get back to drawing once i figure out layers :sob: #i did this so spontaneously but i realize i have a lot of art moots. maybe too many #i have so many ideas to doodle but no skills no money to commission others no idea where to start no bitches no hoes no life #if time is nice to me i may begin a series of impersonating my fav tumblr artists' styles bc im only good at copying *wiggles brow* #if not be prepared for me to give up on re-learning how to draw people and go back to doodling cars and buildings #hmmmmm perhaps ill draw the bsd street racer au that's been feeding off of my braincells #DIGITAL DRAWING IS A LOT LESS SCARY THAN IT WAS LAST TIME I TRIED IT #maybe because i was like. 12 when i last tried digital. but shh #my brain draws clear images i just wish my hands could follow #*places stylus between eyebrows and squints aggressively then draws with mind* problem solved fr #OMG IM SO SAD THE REFERENCE WAS FOR ONLY 4 PEOPLE most bsd cliques come in 5s #was gonna do doa or hd then my brain went nu uh if someone wants i can do them tho #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd art #art(?) #bsd flags

[voidcoretxt]

co ja robie ze swyim życiem aka clown in a polish folk dress ^-^ !

#IF I SAY THAT THE BG SUCKS ON PURPOSE WOULGDE U BELIEVE ME... #mcyt #clownpierce #lifesteal smp #voidcore.png #ANYWAY welcome to the ramble zone #this is. SO out of my comfort zone #i drew this while in so much pain misery suffering as i am slightly sick with what appears to be the common cold. like i can see the light^ #this is a łowicz dress its from the region around warsaw aka where i was born ^__^ tho i consider the highlander dress to be more. ''mine'' #i guess ? #since i grew up there and thats where my mum is from and stuff #WHATEVER #so tempted to draw him in that one next ^__^ might do a more dynamic pose too ! bc in this hes just. standing there. ominously #hes like those girls from the olej rzepakowy ads LOL #as im typing this im dreading formatting this post bc UH OH my cool mobile formating broke >_< fuck my whole life i guess ! #ALSO YAAAY SOMEONE NOTICED THE SILLY WAY I DRAW SUNS. LIKE YES IT DOES LOOK LIKE AN EGG YOLK I LOVE DOING THAT !!!

[quackurucho]

#anyway im thinking about coming back to qsmp after a certain show that’s consuming my life rn uh. i dont know #it’s one of those things where i just want to keep thinking about it and only doing things related to it 24/7 #but uh ya. i feel like qsmp after that so maybe #the sunny fellow ive heard about interesfs me. also my first thought was Wow they gave qcharlie the egg with glasses. lol #quackity smp #qsmp #qsmp cucurucho #odieart

[queenerdloser]

there's a lot of reasons to hate the way ad-based levels are now the standard starting level for streaming, but beyond just sheer blind hatred for it, it's also fucking annoying because they don't even have the diversity of actual tv ads. at least when you had regular tv channels you got like. usually a decent variety of tv ads coming your way and some local ads thrown in. with streaming services it's literally the same five fucking ads. i've seen the same ad for the same movie 40+ times because it plays at every single ad break. all this is doing is making me so homicidally irritated you're basically guaranteeing i'm never going to go to macy's or watch this stupid fucking horror movie about a pool. they're forcing us to watch ads and then they're making the ad-watching experience - already bad - even fucking worse.

#i finally gave up and decided to download criminal minds instead lmao i couldnt take it anymore #liveblogging life #im not joking about that horror movie ad it was on literally every! single! ad break! #also saw a LOT of amazon happy honda days and macy's #to the point where i now have zero interest in any of these brands. i've been so overexposed im just fucking annoyed about it #like i hate tv ads too but at least it wasn't the same fucking tv ads on every single ad break????????? #idk man i'm keeping netflix purely bc i do like having one (1) streaming option #but uh. i think i'm officially out of streaming outside of that. i already kind of was bc i only really have amazon prime & netflix #tried hulu. hate the ad experience. hate being bullied to the more expensive non-ad option. so bye hulu! #the main reason i like streaming is that i dont always know what i want to watch so i dont always have a whim thing downloaded #and it IS more effort to go and download shit if i dont already have it so it IS easier just to find it on netflix or w/e #but now with everything so spread out like... it takes just as much time to fucking find it anyway lmao #anyway the point is streaming sucks lmao

[shittyastroboydrawings]

according to one small part in the ova lol

#Astro Boy #Dr Tenma #ya it also says hes 35 but i see him as atleast 40 so i pick and choose my info lol #uh #i small confession. bc of recent life stuff i havent been able to draw as much. but the good news is im well enough to try and draw again! #unfortunately i wanted to do something else for his special day but this is the firat time in a few days ive been healthy to draw lol #i also got a new tablet and definitely will be using the last chunk of asks to break it in but theyll look p bad and thats where #the blogs name will shine haha #anyway! #the next special post will be Christmas and then sometime in January I'll get this blog going again!

[waywardsalt]

i made this a few months ago for a discord and i figured i might as well share it here too

#loz #legend of zelda #phantom hourglass #bellum #bellum is kind of a nothing villain but i like him #this image is basically the framework for how i write bellum's relationship with linebeck a lot of the time #the severity and seriousness of 'ruined your life' varies between aus n shit #ironically post-ph is one of the ones where 'ruined your life' is a bit hyperbolic #im in a talkative mood rn so im gonna have a little tag tangent going on #bellum is fun and like with this image you can take him many different ways depending on your own tastes and readings n stuff #recently i pinpointed some character i mightve accidentally based my take of bellum on and it escapes me rn #but i like to have him come off as a sort of brash young god sort of thing whos been very gung-ho about what hes been created to do and #represent and ive def leaned into him acting differently in different aus but backing it up with the idea that. hes immortal and thinks its #fun to try different things hwne he earnestly interacts with and among mortals. like in my crimson king au (the uh. one where he has a #homoerotic relationship with linebeck) his purpose behind masquerading as human and settling for a decidedly slower and more complicated #method of obtaining food and taking control is because he wants to challenge himself after years of just smashing through and taking what h #wants and because hes more interested in the more minute details of mortal interaction and how he could play along for a while #hes a bit more... whimsical? laid-back? something for the most part with linebeck because he's used to being a fuckin demonic god whos #mostly just playing around and not making attachments bc fuck it if he gets bored he can just eat these people and this one guy gets his #mercy and support because he's interesting and useful as a tool (and eventually as a source of genuine friendship. a common theme i seem to #have with bellum [perhaps as an accidental parallel or smth to the spirits n oshus] is him stumbling into finally understanding why #relationships are worth it? like a lot of the time his interactions with linebeck give him a new understanding of humans and he learns to #care about linebeck despite starting off seeing him as just an interested subject to watch or tinker with idk how to describe it #like in post-ph [ig post ph spoilers] as the fourth member of the main cast his main arc is abt kinda being forced to mingle with mortals #and ends up really caring and supporting these people and considering his own role and place in the world after kind of isolating and #surrounding himself with effectively a literal hivemind and loyal monsters and just reacting to outside forces with the intent to consume #and eradicate all danger so ig theres some parallel with linebeck too? bellum is a work in progress he's kinda a weird oc at this point? #when does an existing character stop being that and starts becoming an oc idk. its a weird line here bc bellum has minimal characterization #) anyways. funny meme or whatever. the discord seemed to like it im not used to sharing memes or whatever. #my post

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

I JUST FOUND AN INTERACTIVE MAP OF EARLY 1940s NEW YORK WITH ACTUAL HISTORICAL PICTURES TAKEN FROM LIKE 39 TO 41 I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER IN MY LIFE

#a biscuit's rambles #now just some research on the day to day life back then and i know where to look on the map :) #and then ill be able to write my scene :) #to that anon who sent me an ask for a story about a month back. if you see this. im sorry. im working on it. this is why its taking so damn #long. also the one shot grew legs so uh. its. gonna have A Plot

[bunnyb34r]

I wonder if Formally Good Manager will return from war... wherever the fuck he is.... now that BaldBastard is out of here lmao

My facial blindness will NOT be able to handle it 😭 Bootleg FGM is his doppelganger and I already have trouble remembering that that's NOT FGM

Also we got news that Old BossMan got fired from whatever job he "left" our store for lmaoooo bitch it's only been a year and a half?? and you've been fired TWICE???

#marquilla #work talk #we dont know why he was fired but we know he did which is so so funny like hey... your old job here opened up... too bad you're #blacklisted from working here now lmaoo id die if they somehow rehired him AGGSGSGS Can you imagine?? BossMan 2 Electric Boogaloo #it's not gonna happen bc he got super super fired uh i mean he CHOSE to leave after an incident where his employee threatened another #with a gun at work shdggdgd so yknow... but god that would be so fucking funny #anyway anyways FGM kept signing up for military leave so he wouldnt have to give up his job but wouldnt have to be HERE with BaldBastard #which like ... i get it but also id just quit but thats me sgdggdgdgd we dont know where he is/when he's coming back but he was SUPPOSED #To be back in october and then just signed up right away for another tour 😭 imagine your employee hating you that much #funniest thing is FGM was BaldBastard's favorite lmaooo it was NOT mutual but then his lady friend manager from PA moved here to work #with him and she was legit CRYING at work when he told her he was quitting like again imagine uprooting your life for this and he just #LEAVES less than 6 months of you moving here 😭 i don't think she was into him but idk maybe she's bi i just know she likes women at least #she could do so much better than this white megamind looking fucker sgdgdggdgd #the best part ab having a job is the drama you get to absorb by proxy and the glee of watching shitheads get their just deserts #schlaundefraud or whatever the spelling is of that work sound it out you know which one im trying to say

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#tfw ur life has been so busy that u forgot that with a new school u have a new email to keep track of #and u forgot to hook it up to ur outlook so now u open it up and see emails from abt a month ago #telling u to do TA orientation stuff. uuuuuh oops #so i guess i have some bullshit to figure out tomorrow. also i should finalize my class sign up staff #stuff* bc when i was doing yhat my brain was on fire. also i should email my new boss. oh god. why didnt i check that email???? #i dont even kno if im supposed to b a TA this semester??? i should just email the guy but also i dont wanna roll up like yo #im already damaged goods bc ive suffered a whole year in a state of burnout. also i fucked up my sign up process by not paying attention #but uh hi hello nice to meed u again for the 2nd time in my life. this is definitely not a bad omen for things to come #ugh. why have i done this to myself? i cant even call to try to fix anything until Monday. fuck. #but i mean. i cant b thr only one who's ever done this. so maybe itll b fine? hopefully? #but i wouldn't have this problem if id just fucking looked at my fucking email in the 1st place #i can already feel it. this is where the overlap starts. the overlap between my old lab and my new lab #will it tear me into pieces? perhaps. i have to shift into go mode. i cant b a sad sack anymore #ugh. im usually really good at being on top of stuff like this bc im such an anxious freak but here we r... #unrelated

[fakestage]

I think (as much as I annoyingly complain and whine about not having a partner) being single this long has been good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself and I'm learning why I was a shit person, and through finding the root of the problem I can kind of... start to heal. I can be nicer to myself so I can grow and get better. Because TBH.. being mean and cruel to yourself doesn't make you become a better person. It just makes you believe that thats what you /are,/ and thats what you /always will be,/ as opposed to realizing that you are a product of your circumstances but that does not mean you can't get better and become a better person. Accepting help and trying to get better so you can eventually love yourself – even if no one else does – is the greatest and loveliest thing you can do for yourself. You deserve that love, you exist and you live and you feel and that is a truly beautiful gift.

#uhm well anyway I hope everyone finds people and a place where they feel safe and loved #I'm feeling really emotional sorryy #basically. tldr; found the problem! trying to get better now through loving myself instead of hating myself #its been really hard. its going to be really hard. I feel like ive barely made any progress #I wish I had a therapist to talk about this stuff with. but I dont. #btw the uh root problem: finding out my mother was actually hugely abusive & I already knew my dad was #so basically ive been having to confront the fact that Ive been living a lie and my mother is actually deeply terrible as much as my dad #and my parents should have never had children & ive never had one single decent adult in my life #so basically uhm yea lol. I was born into dysfunction. I was never going to turn oit normal or okay. #so its been hard to like. figure all that out alone. learning I have ptsd and extreme ocd + dissociation because of them hasnt been easy #its made me so deeply miserable because I guess I assumed what my mom was doing to us was normal this whole time? #because I thought no. surely not. surely i cant have TWO terrible parents. I need at least 1 good one right? #but yea no actually every adult has hurt me in some way. and I was never going to turn out alright because #I am the king of obsessing and cycling over everything in my life #Im like. not okay right now but not being im in danger just because I wish I had someone to talk to about all this. #I just need to learn to drive so I can get out of here. I need to get out like #all these realizations have been really really heavy on me and ive been having trouble sleeping #Its been hard to process and I dont really know where to go from here. I guess I cant properly heal and grow until I move out? #idk this has been really long im so sorry. #vent #tw vent #tws -> #abuse ment #parents ment #<- in tags