#so. Interesting end to our night

[what-wait-why]

second round/third (and hopefully last) of the root canals is done!

I'm definitely in pain, but it's a clean kind of pain compared to what i had before. and not as bad.

now to get my wisdom teeth (+ one other beyond saving) out next month

#i might've made a post abt this yesterday? #i honestly don't remember #on the way back from the root canal (the city it was in is like and hour and a half west) we hit a pothole on the edge of a tiny town #and blew the front driver's tire #called roadside and were waiting for like an hour without hearing anything when another driver pulled over to see if he could help #finally got that changed #and were limping the car along to a shop #when the front passenger tire blew #called roadside‚ more waiting‚ trooper stopped to see if he could help us #ended calling the local tow company at about the same time insurance finally reached out to them #i was mostly alseep bc at that point i had been up for 22 hours #but the car got towed to a shop to be dealt with in the morning and a friend gave us a ride to our house #so. Interesting end to our night #now I'm going to go find some painkillers and figure out if i can open my jaw enough to eat #crow.txt #(also re: that first line i had two of them done in the first appointment and made a second for the one in the best condition) #(the first two were my upper left and bottom right‚ this last was my upper right and he didn't want to numb so much of my mouth at once)

[hwaitham]

da hollow feeling in your chest after waking up frm a dream wher it feels like a lifetime spent in another world has passed within it . . . is almost debilitating ₍ᐢ ›̥̥̥ ༝ ‹̥̥̥ ᐢ₎ dat yearning 2 go back n live it through once more is too strong ..

#𓈒 ۫ 𝓹𝓾𝓹𝓹𝓲𝓮 𐂯 𝓹𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮𝓼 ₊⠀ೀ #im rllie happie i get dreams a lot tht r so .. whimsically fantastical n not of this world but sometimes i feel vv sad after waking up … :[ #esp after last nights .. it had haithie in it ;w; .. t’was vewy tolkien middle earthy #i cant remember much but he was an elf n i was a human n we were on a quest to bring salvation #to some evil lord n waaaaah .. it was j so magical n we fell in love n spent da rest of our days sailing to d end of d earth … 🤍 #missing dwis ): missing al haitham shooo mawch 2dai ): #him visiting mi in m dreams was no coincidence i fink ahh #whenever i get da slightest bit of interest in someone else he’s alwys there 2 pull mi back to him ૮꒰ྀི⊃⸝ ⸝ ⸝⊂꒱ྀིა

[painfully-unoriginal]

I have a legal question but idk who to ask so I'm posing it to the general public:

Its illegal to clock out and continue working right? If something like that were to be reported, would the employer or the employees get in trouble for it?

#p #for the record it was because we're so understaffed that there were only 2 ppl here last night doing truck #so they both didnt take a lunch and stayed over an hour past when our shifts are supposed to end #I can see the employees getting in trouble for doing that but our manager really doesn't give us a choice in situations like that #hr knows about it and condones it. hes encouraged it to me before #i havent done this bc im not interested in breaking the law for this place tbh he can just fire me atp #but the guys have practically been forced to multiple times #anf again. manager has encouraged this behavior and forced the guys to work sometimes almost 3 + extra hours #which would make for a 13 hr shift #i thimk the only reason he hasnt done this while I'm present is bc he caught wind that if i can get evidence for some of his behavior #i will report him #lmfao #but ya idk. just wondering.

[alonetogether]

cause im PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT the limits the distance between us, it sharpens me like a KNNNNNNNNNNIIIIIIIIFE

#hold me tight or dont kinda night fellas #IM PRETTY SURE THIS ISNT HOW OUR STORY ENDS!!! SO HOLD ME TIGHT!!! HOLD ME TIGHT OR DONT!!!!!!!!! #also its a hilson song. im special interest dual wielding

[sotogalmo]

11:44

Kinda ,, small reminder ,,,

I'm a Schmidt = Emily thruther till the day i die. So uh. 👍 yeahsg

Garrett Schmidt is the Charlie Emily to me

#time diary(?) #audrey/kellie's time diary #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf movie #fnaf movie 2 #fnaf 2 movie #schmidt = emily theory #mike emily theory #henry schmidt theory #garrett emily theory #abby emily #just thought id say this ... #letting the brain talk #yeah it would be nice to have charlie. but tbh?? kinda. need to give her a break tbh #Garrett Schmidt is the Charlie Emily to me #charlie has done sm in so lil time and i. i feel the need to let her have her happy ending. let them all rest #the movie is a new chapter of fnaf as a whole. its going to be its own thing. we do want the old. but whats the fun in that? #its more interesting if they do something new!! we can always change the canon to our liking #either way. we make our own AUs for ourselves yeah? so we can just do whatever we want when the movie lore gets more complicated

[heniareth]

It's interesting to note how the Tabris Origin, which involves a wedding, kidnapping and attempted sexual harassment, and fighting your way through an estate full of guards, is the Origin where gender plays a huge role in what story you experience. M!Tabris will always storm the castle coming to the rescue of his cousin and his betrothed, while F!Tabris will always have to fight her way out because the men in her life can't fully protect her (Nelaros dies, Soris literally hands her the sword, Cyrion is powerless to stop the abduction. Okay, this may be a little unfair to Soris who does fight side by side with Tabris and counsels caution the same way regardless of Tabris's gender). I'd go so far as to say that Tabris is the only Origin where the gender of your PC has a definite impact on the story.

TLDR to the rant in the tags: Tabris is constrained on all sides by being an elf, by their gender, in part by their family, and by society at large (both the Alienage and the wider city).

#bumble our guys are occupying my mind again. the origin defines their roles and experiences so #a lot has been said about the superficial equality of men and women in dragon age: they are equal from a legal point of view #both can become soldiers inherit or assume a position of political and social authority #but that's pretty much it #that experiment aside i think for the tabris story it's interesting. tabris is so contrained #don't go out of the alienage at night. don't anger the shem #don't carry weapons. don't insult them. live in squalor & misery with no hopes of social mobility. get married to a person you don't know #this happens to you because you are an elf. and this happens to you because you are playing as a man or a woman #the other origin where gendered violence might crop up is brosca and idk to what extent bc i haven't had much contact with f!brosca's story #but it would be just like beraht to make weird comments. aeducan gets a weird comment by trian too but that's it #but the alienage is a pressure cooker and the violence dealt unto its inhabitants has a perverse amount of nuance #unlike the circle which is another pressure cooker but a different one the alienage has a better life and more opportunities paraded in #*front of its inhabitants at every waking hour. the mages don't have that jarring contrast (they are reminded of how bad they have it in #*other ways but violence is much easier to normalize in closed communities. there is a reason uldred was able to stoke a rebellion after #*having been at ostagar. one taste of fresh air and that stuffy tower must've been hell awaiting. even wynne takes ger first chance to gtfo #the alienage however knows with striking clarity what it doesn't have. and that hurts. that stings. this ramble went way off track #but my main point is that tabris is constrained on all sides while at the same time having a better life dangled in front of their nose #*every single waking hour. no wonder their origin ends in massacre at their hands #the dam has broken loose. the water is finally cooking over and the pressure cooker explodes #tabris has a body count comparable to that of a seasoned criminal (brosca) and of a knight defending their invaded home (cousland) #which is freaking impressive if you ask me #dragon age #dao #dragon age origins #tabris #warden tabris #f!tabris #m!tabris #astala tabris

[pepprs]

my mom isn’t letting my dad go back to his office bc him being out of the house stresses her out and makes her have a flare up and it’s like kind of insane. like i understand why the idea of him doing that would make her panicky and angry as someone who also struggles w separation anxiety and abandonment shit / has physical symptoms from that kind of stress (though not to the same degree ofc) but also he is a grown man. he should be allowed to go to his office and not have to shape his entire life around her needs. and she keeps guilt tripping him out of it and it’s impacting his quality of life a lot and the whole thing is kind of… hm

#purrs #delete later #also she’s guilt tripping me into coming to the stupid fucking potluck on sunday bc she needs the extra help and it’s like… what are you #gonna do when i move out. like i am a grown woman and i should be able to choose how i spend my two precious weekend days. and my dad is a #grown man and he should be able to choose where he works. like is that not a little bit insane. i get it but also….. i do think it s kind of #fucked ip that it’s her way or the highway and her needs take priority over all of ours and she’s asking us to bend to what she wants when #she wants it. like i get it bc she’s sick but it’s not fair for her to expect that from my dad especially. particularly when me and my #brother are back at work / school in more high risk environments than my dad who would be in a private office alll day. and the thing is no #one is brave enough to all her on it bc if we did it would be the END of the world. she even threw a fit on my dads bday and complained bc #the things he wanted to do were things she didn’t want to do like all the man wanted to do was go mini golfing and when that wasn’t good #enough he just wanted to go on a walk and my mom complained the whole time and also scoffed the movie he wanted to watch and said it was #boring and it’s like… wtf it’s HIS birthday??? but what do you expect from the woman who (and in fairness her friends got her these as gifts #but still) has TWO kitchen items that say some variation of ‘a marriage is when one is always right and the other is always the husband’ 💀 #i look at that little plaque every night bc it’s in front of the sink when im doing dishes and it makes me so fucking angry. like my dad is #a whole fucking person and he can be right too and he deserves to make choices and be happy and not have his wife put him down all the time. #idk. and she puts down his family all the time too and complains when he wants to do the most reasonable things for his own enjoyment that #don’t align with hers and criticizes his interests all the time and it just sucks to see. he never shows hurt or anything so idk how he #feels about it but it makes me so angry and sad and when i tell her to stop she just lashes out at me so. 🤪. like how do we get her to stop #making her needs more important than everyone else’s bc… she may be our mom / his wife / whateger but that doesn’t make her queen. no one is #(andalso this has only gotten worse bc of covid / her being sick. like this has been a lifelong thing it’s just it’s a lot worse now bc the #circumstances gave her room / forced her to have to take up more space. and it’s just so frustrating. i get it. but none of us are pawns or #dolls or subordinates or anything. there’s 5 adults here and we should all be able to make choices and not be guilt tripped by her. lol #)

[hella1975]

Oh Hella your DM sounds like a good one! Hope you have fun and that coin is amazing should we add practice the coin trick to your schedule? /gen

ACTUALLY YEAH PLEASE

#my dm is such an angel i was a bit worried at first bc he's the one that was flirting with me #but he's cooled off and even so i can tell it's more the harmless kind than anything i'll actually have to set boundaries on #and we had our first session last night and it was genuinely insane like he's SUCH a good dm #i was so so immersed the entire time like he had this one NPC and he puts so much LIFE into his ocs like accents and mannerisms #not just backstory/set-up and this npc stayed with us the ENTIRE 4+ hour session #and at the very end he KILLED HIM and it was done so well that one of the players literally teared up #and the rest of us were just sat there in gobsmacked silence #and it's a SUPER wild group too like it's hard for the dm to wrangle them all at times bc jokes tend to domino and get rowdy #so to have us all like that and on the first session no less was INSANE #he also introduced a dragon and i said to him afterwards 'im getting that dragon' bc i mentioned another time that im DESPERATE #to get a pet dragon or even just a dragon i have some dodgy deal with ill take ANYTHING #and he just very casually went 'oh you'll get a dragon' HELLO??? FUCK YEAH #like he listens to his players and he keeps us on track without being too strict and gets super enthusiastic about our ideas #and the rest of the group are all so cool like they're all either queer or neurodivergent or both #i just feel for the first time in maybe my entire life that im in a completely non-judgemental place for my interests #like in the nicest way possible they're all just a bit weird and it would be very hard for me to be the weirdest one there #and there's something SO cathartic about that like literally go ham bc they're not gonna be scared off yk? #like even if i had an interest totally out of left field that none of them shared i just know they'd be so welcoming of it regardless #idk. they're neat. i think this campaign is gonna be really fucking cool #ask #hella goes to uni

[unproduciblesmackdown]

eddie bracken as orville wingait in summer stock (1950)

#don't get it wrong abigail whacking orville upside the head is during their comedy backstage 5 sec to Resolution ending rush #literal last minute conclusion crunch in unsurprising formatting lol; i chose a more peaceful gif to end on. note the prior one's [feet Up] #i hope this illustrates There Is Much Material. more clips than this & truly as good or better a role as any others to choose from here #summer stock #conveniently it's apparently wingait in the movie but via that casting news this (2023) role is wingate #tcm fancam life...we've all been there. akd talking abt meet me in st. louis like maybe i should rewatch lol. have to muddle through someho #anyways there's for sure room to like grab a little thread of plot and enhance it in this story. e.g. orville & abigail could talk Thrice #their B-plot / more idiosyncratic romance there is still >>>>>> the main JUDY & GENE one unsurprisingly even w/o a third convo lol #whoops the main guy is an asshole. judy/jane learns she loves show business so just kinda may as well be in love w/the show guy ig #like girl you don't have to be...but ofc already although her & orville's dynamic is pleasant enough she seems somewhat disinterested #while fascinatingly for our purposes though orville is framed a bit like [this NERD] he can't be too dunked on b/c [romantic B-plot] #meanwhile abigail's Undeserving Of Gene/Joe (she is but she's too good for him) qualities being just that she's been too Indulged so like #in her lack of protestant ethic farm work she's so conceited & sensitive that she wants to rest & not be yelled at??? #smash cut to for real judy/jane on Opening Night like asking tentatively like oh romantic interest you're Not gonna yell at me..?? #but she's been Hard Working so she will tolerate the physical AND emotional demands. but she's also more Talented than abigail #so joe need not be mean to her Anyways like. okay wild maybe we could rework that but congrats abigail for NOT ending up w/him fr #meanwhile orville's arc (joe has none to speak of save realizing he wants to make out w/this other woman now) is as clear as anyone's #extricate himself from otherwise only getting to be an extension of his father who is generally interfering / directing / demeaning him als #another ''well i don't know about that'' element in that when orville Does tell him to cut that out his dad actually just rolls with that #and becomes more amicable lol like well that does work out & it's unsurprisingly like cmon orv you can't LET him treat you like that... #and if you didn't? he'd just be like ''oh haha okay''...like is abigail supposed to be ''right'' abt uhh romance there but yet she's just #too sensitive to handle Tell Don't Ask / No Apologies? maybe; but they both end up getting to Not Stand For It lol. i think that that would #ofc still be fun to develop. whereas w/joe it's like uh maybe make him Not a huge asshole in the end / judy p much in love w/Showbiz.... #abigail & orville out here decidedly Not About Nonsense....but still a bit zany ig such that after the [imagine the foley] hit: it's good #like i'm sure it's ''orville's still enough of a NERD to be chill w/that'' & ''abigail's still DIFFICULT enough to put her foot down'' #['50 gender politics] we all know that couple whose flaws & idiosyncrasies allow them to Apologize & Ask & use their inside voices #and be all upset if someone's trying to demean them. unlike True Romance of the man who won't bully his wife if she earns it :') #joe could instead uhh be a harried director who's actually Wrong for being a dick to his gf (if we even include that) w/the various sources #of pressure to make a show Work but there's all this req'd spontaneity / flexibility anyways & he learns that even if he's clenching throug #it he can Not take it out on other people / Make it succeed by Making ppl do anything. & also jane reminds him of Passion for this.

[insanechayne]

~ ~ ~

#I actually had interesting things from last night I wanted to share with you #but honestly now it just feels like what’s the point #you sent me barely a few sentences and some of that was literally about the weather #you don’t send me anything else through the whole day like I would usually do with you #so why should I even bother sending more than a few sentences back? #why should I bother trying to carry our conversations if you won’t help me with the burden? #friendship is a two way street you have to walk together #but you’re kinda just standing on your own end expecting me to come to you it seems #I didn’t want to start the day angry but I’m already tired and hungry and in pain #I shouldn’t let you effect my mood so much but you mean too much to me and I care too deeply and now I’m stuck #I know I’ll be fine later on once I get to work but right now I’m just annoyed #you couldn’t think of anything else to say to me? the entire day? you couldn’t figure something out? #personal

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 331

Adjective: Old-Fashioned

Noun: Posy

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Old-Fashioned: in or according to styles or types no longer current or common, or not modern; (of a person or their views) favoring traditional and usually restrictive styles, ideas, or customs

Posy: a small bunch of flowers; (archaic) a short motto or line of verse inscribed inside a ring

#hello yes i am late again #i would have been earlier (not on time but earlier) but i lay down on the couch a bit ago and fell asleep on accident #just like i did last night #(except that was in bed that time) #my day wasnt too busy or anything but i did sort a lot of our new and old magic cards #i also worked on an art piece and looked at some jobs #(im still waiting to hear back about a few but i dont want to risk ending up not getting a job with one of them if i just keep waiting) #my girlfriend and i also watched more orphan black #i suspect we will finish this season within a week (especially since we only have six episodes left atm) #im excited to see what my girlfriend think about the following episodes #anyway this is another rather straightforward prompt #but like (i think) ive said before sometimes those are the most fun to work with #also i had no idea about the archaic definition of 'posy' and i love archaic definitions especially this one #so i think i may look at that one for my poem #however im planning on taking 'old-fashioned' in a antique or heirloom type of direction regardless of how i interpret 'posy' #im interested in and excited about exploring all of that #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least #*thinks

[orcelito]

Yes I am scared of mascots/fursuits. I think I had a traumatic memory at Chuck E Cheese's when I was a little kid. Idk why else I'm so put off by proximity to them lmao

#speculation nation #i have the vaguest of memories of the place. crawling in the tubes and watching the mascot suit band #and i must've hated it or smth lmao. i remember being scared of mascots At Least since middle school #when i always cringed away from our school's mascot #it's generally not a disruptive fear. on the rare occasions i end up in proximity to someone in a mascot suit #theyve never rly bothered me if i telegraph i dont wanna be bothered. usually by me just Inching Away... #school events. sometimes festivals. i dont rly do shit often so it rarely comes up #it also shows up at anime conventions tho. with the fursuits. #full respect to furries. theres just something about the artificial eyes and faces that puts me off. #but again. not hard to avoid. i just leave them be and they leave me be. #looking at pictures online doesnt bother me. it's mostly just the proximity that bothers me. #as u could imagine tho. i have never Once wanted to fuck with fna.f #a video game practically tailored to my niche irrational fear. my will to interact with it is in the negatives. #i dont rly like horror games anyways :p so definitely have never been interested #but yea. i think this is the only truly irrational fear i have. anything else im scared of are pretty rational #.........tho i guess mirrors in the dark would count as irrational. tho it's bc Ghosts #OKAY okay that's another probably irrational fear. i just cant look at mirrors in the dark. i will cover my eyes i cant do it. #avoid being in dark rooms with mirrors anyways. as u could imagine i dont keep mirrors in my bedroom. #and when i get up at night to go to the bathroom i very pointedly dont look at the mirror until ive got the lights on #OK SO THATS 2 IRRATIONAL FEARS i swear thats all of them tho. i think. #this has been Sharing Hour with Fanny. hope you enjoyed lmao

[paeonie-s]

genuinely so emo abt the fact that i have friends who want to do stuff w me now omg

#i was v scared for college bc i have had. such awful luck w finding ppl who want to do things w me #the closest friendship ive ever had was online lol and even that ended w me being ignored and pushed away so its a v foreign experience for #other ppl to v openly. enjoy my company and continously invite me to things just bc they want me to be there #like ik a good part of that is everyone trying to not be lonely as shit these first couple weeks but all of the friends im referring to #were part of a summer program where they got to show up like 6 weeks early and so they already have friends and ppl to hang out w #so its still rly cool that i showed up made friends w like 2 of them and now 3 weeks later im having to actively plan time to do hw and #watch my shows and stuff bc im being invited to eat and walk around and watch movies and do things all the time #shit is surreal !! im so grateful esp when my suggestions for things to do are well recieved like today alone i invited some of them #to go to the barnes and noble opening in a town near us next month + to a open house at our states observatory. and other ppl were actually #excited to learn abt those. its insane im so used to being ignored and treated like the things i care abt dont matter i love life rn omg #ppl are so cool and interesting sometimes i still feel like i am the most boring person in the room bc i never had the time money location #or motivation to explore a ton of my interests but when i tell ppl abt that feeling theyre like bitch me too !!! lets go snowboard and hike #and have observing nights and paint and dress up for halloween together and its makes me so happy. that is all #actually one more thing i was initially thinking abt dressing up as asa csm (which is. already an improvement from younger me feeling so #isolated she avoided dressing up for halloween for a decade bc she never felt close enough to go w anyone) BUT NOW im a part of a 2 month #old plan for like a dozen ppl to dress up as monster high girls AND im gonna be draculaura. literally such a slay i cant #🌸.txt

[noxtivagus]

hehe what a comfort

#🌙.rambles #i'm at peace rn. i love the nights or #nah apollo n i can talk abt. so much just anytime #it's. really lovely always having someone like that #we'll always have each other no matter what. #yh like other than talking abt stuff like. what we think of our interests lately like artists such as the 1975 & architects #talking abt the stories of arknights n ffxiv #n rlly just life as a whole #there's so much we don't know. there's so much all of us don't know of each other n the world n universe as a whole #but i'm rlly glad i've always had apollo yk? we've always had each other from the start even if we fight n bitch around at times ofc #it's hurt lately w how fast time goes by. but i still hold unto myself n. what that means to me #oh i cld talk on n on abt what life means to me n the #heights i mean to go to with mine. it'll be hard n it is already hard but there's really a lot i want to do #growing up i've really realized how.. different ppl are #i may be. a bit idealistic like alphy i think. like a lot of my fav charas. but. theyre all good ppl at heart #empathizing w some other ppl whether older ppl irl or fictional charas #n while i can empathize actually w nearly abt everyone i #the ones i relate with the most. rlly reminded me of stuff abt myself n #n then i was thinking of charas like amiya n with the way she wanted to end. that cycle of hatred yeah? #reminded me of alphy n in turn myself honestly 😭 #i'm rlly rambling n i don't rlly know how to phrase it bcs there's a lot in my head but. yk <3 #goddamn it's rlly hard managing like all these stuff. in life. n seeing the mistakes of yk other older famous ppl just #those that i relate with w their music for example. rlly reminded me of how we rlly all make mistakes but that doesn't make us a bad person #think i needed that reminder for myself n then i rlly just love thinking of how. yk we're all human. as a whole i think it's a miracle #in the end ik i'll really find me way n learn to live like how. yeah. i'll be kind to myself though #i think.. if i just were to wish then irl. it wld be nice if. i had a friend grp w ppl i cld relate with more #no matter. there's sm more in the future but there's a lot too jn the present n i'll live however i want to. i will do much in my life #i want to be less harsh on myself tho to do so much despite the anxiety w time. i want to write everything down to remember.. but i forget #to live. everything in moderation but i'll do my best to be less systematic w my life but it's rlly a big clash w my emotional self 💀 #i ended up rambling a lot but i think i rlly needed to at least get that off my chest before i start the rest of the day >< 🤍

[proteuus]

holy shit the other starbucks store I've been working at while mine is closed is sooo.....

#oh my god. oh my god #its so crazy. absolute night and day from my home store #genuinely i really like being there and working there bc its interesting and exciting but . wow. our work is never finished #today i worked for 9.5 hours which. is not the end of the world when i was 16 i did 10 hr shifts at jjs habitually #but certainly not what i wanted to do #just to keep the store from falling into absolute shambles

[mochixkisses]

not me losing a friend bc they created this false idea of me and ended up disappointed bc that's not who i am. how is that my fault? 👁👄👁

#mochitalks #and i do understand that it was upsetting to them when i would make plans #and then cancel then #them* #i get that #it's frustrating #but then i ended up explaining why i kept not having energy to go through with things and that i needed a break #and couldnt keep up with a weekly movie thing #we were online friends btw #anyway bc weekly things feel like a chore to me even if i like it so then i lose interest #i dont mean to #and anyway #so we talked about that and they said they understood so we stopped our movie nights #and we were just chilling #just vibing #and then a few months later i see them slowly ghosting me #and so i was like hello i see that you're doing that can u just tell me u dont want to be friends instead lol #and so they did bc they were disappointed that i didnt meet their false idea of me #and im sad but also im just like youve known me for what 2 years? 3 years? #and i think one of their issues too is that i dont play with them or talk to them often #but i dont talk to anyone consistently like that 👁👄👁 #in person sure i have one person im more consistent with but that's easy for me and i dont ever feel pressured by them #idk anyway #long story short im sad and annoyed and wish they would have spoken up to me about this before just ghosting me