#sounds completely mad…I like it

[thepagesofphia]

“I should have stayed

to watch the volcra tear you apart.

this time I’m not leaving until the fold’s gone”

shadow and bone season 2 episode 7 thoughts and reactions pt. 1

spoilers in the tags

#I believe she would die before allowing that to happen #the flashback scenes oh my goodness #I have nothing to lose. only because you have nothing. #you will die alone and I will die in her arms #cousin #tell nikolai #we can save every child from keramzin except one #was not expecting that line #nikolai looks so concerned #jessie mei li is killing it right now #the nikolai mal hug soothes the soul #DESERVE HER #yay a plan #sounds completely mad…I like it #agreed nikolai agreed #an ordinary life full of ordinary things if love can ever be called that #MATTHIAS #pekka rollins should probably not be encouraging revenge lol #so they’re using bhagra’s bones instead of jurda parem to have ultra powerful grisha?? #volcra munching #INEJ #awwwwee the hugggggggs #TAMAR IS SUCH A BADASS #all the hugs this episode #are we gonna get to see i am ruination? #I want to see I am ruination #david no #shadow and bone #shadow and bone spoilers

[fisheito]

finally listening to the h-scene audio after 1.5 years on mute

yakumo: gasps and whimpers in the whiniest brokenest way me:

#every time i'm on tumblr i imagine myself in a shared cubicle office space with my fellow bloggers #just typing away and creating our gay little posts #sometimes i'm sitting on an exercise ball instead of a regular chair #bc that's the kind of ~hip~ workplace we're in #occasionally i'll encounter something that forces me to take a break from my station #and my coworkers are all very understanding and supportive #this is one of those times #i excuse myself from my desk and my neighbour nods in sympathy #i'm mad. this is a new precedent. i was never into steppable men. what happened #he stifles his moans and i'm like *CLAW GRIP* #i mean i kept the sound on for events and regular storylines so the game wasn't completely on mute #but i always muted for H scenes bc i had no earphones. and this is a shared house. with very thin walls #plus it's not like i'm one of those mega voice-lovers who can pick out a specific VA from 8km away based on a single grunt #but then i got earphones!! so i was like aight let's see what i'm missing here #omniscient external narrator's voice: uh oh #yakumo

[wataeicentric]

I feel as though people (mostly people who aren't insanely wataeipilled, or involved with shipping in general) are misunderstanding what we're upset about. It's not the simple assumption that we want wataei to be "canon" and that we're upset that that can't happen because of Eichi getting married, it's that HappyEle have been on a character assassination spree recently (Izumi in Mad Party & Kohaku in Last Mission) and we're worried that's going to happen to Wataru and/or Eichi. Regardless of shipping, Eichi never told Wataru, who's supposed to be his "best friend" that he's essentially been engaged to Tori's sister for the best part of a year. If Wataru isn't upset about this, then they've done it once again, because Wataru trusts Eichi to take his mask off around him; whilst the mask is "him", the "mask's purpose" (the title of his card in EP:Link) is to hide oneself. Wataru took it off for EICHI and Eichi ALONE. He put himself on display, allowed his facade to begin to fade around him and be his authentic "self" and opened himself up to possibly even be hurt (which he was immediately, by the way, and CRIED over it. HIBIKI WATARU. CRIED. Because Eichi was indifferent to his confession of love) because he trusts Eichi, and Eichi's told Wataru before (Tempest) that he also trusts him. So, is it or is it not blatant character assassination, and possibly even going back on their more recent development of becoming more honest with each other, if Wataru is not upset with this development?

#Question isn't rhetoric btw I'm open to people disagreeing with me #wataei #eichi tenshouin #tenshouin eichi #wataru hibiki #hibiki wataru #enstars #I hope I don't sound absolutely insane here #i constantly doubt what I'm talking about whenever i talk about them because i'm terrified of being wrong #i personally think that akira will take the story in a preferable direction but we're not wrong for expecting the worst #considering how completely bastardised Izumi's character was in mad party #and how little Kohaku's emotions were payed attention in Last Mission #It's not completely out of nowhere to say 'wataei in atlantis' could possibly be the next on the list #however i sincerely hope they're not #i'd also like to mention how most of us just wanted the story to be about fine reflecting on their development as a unit and as friends #much like crazy:b's and ra*bits' climax events #and some may also be upset that that's not the case #not me personally but something i've heard #valentine's rambles

[spacedlexi]

Hi Lexi

What do you think of partially blinded Vi? You never seem to draw her that way, and I kind of just wanted to know what do you think of it as a certified Vi lover.

I personally think that while something like this can be "cool" (as in, being beneficial to the character design), it's handled quite poor for Vi and it just looks a bit... ungrateful. Simply doesn't look good, doesn't fit her personality or character (am I missing something?) and it doesn't seem to fit or suit her...unlike Kenny's iconic eyepatch. To me, it has become a pivotal thing in his design to a degree in which Kenny with both eyes seems a bit odd looking. I see it as a symbol which stands for Ken being a martyr and all he's lost and sacrificed. He is all about family and helping those he loved, his loved ones truly were the "apple of his eye". It all makes sense, doesn't it?

But for Vi, it's excatly the opposite. I'm just so sorry to see her like this. 😭😭😭 I don't think it makes sense in any way. Louis losing his tongue because he's so talkative and "won't shut up" does kind of make sense, but I cant help but see Violet losing sight as kind of lazy writing. "We need something bad happening to her!!! suffer the children!!!'- the writers exclaimed.

i think vi losing her eyesight is incredibly impactful on her character and i honestly dont understand why some people say its lazy writing. especially since it was foreshadowed multiple times. vi losing her eyesight i think is even more impactful on her character than louis losing his tongue because at least louis still has his music to express himself and uplift spirits through (and its not like he cant communicate At All. his note still makes clem laugh). the reason i dont draw blind vi very often is because of how sad it is to me. for multiple reasons

violets whole thing is wanting to be able to protect the people she cares about, and feels immense grief and guilt about the times she feels shes failed them (thinks if she had been there with the twins that day that she couldve done something to save them. feels she failed everyone taken by the raiders. is scared of failing clem too "if something happened to you because of me? i cant lose you too. i wont". its why she cant leave minnie after shooting her. and a kidnapped vi attacks clem because she doesnt want anyone else to get hurt. hell it even ties back to her grandma and feeling guilty about not doing anything for her)

so for her to lose her eyesight? she took pride in her ability to fight and now she cant do that anymore. cant protect the people she loves. and as someone who started the season as an isolated loner, it forces her to rely on those around her for help, stripping her of her independence (and her independence is what allowed her to stand up against the group for clem when it came to the marlon situation in ep2). a blinded vi is forced into accepting community, whereas a saved violet accepts it on her own. her and clem turn ericsons into the home violet could never see it as

the other reason blind vi makes me so sad is that it is Directly a result of clems actions. kidnapped vi had nothing and wanted nothing to do with the bomb, and yet shes the ONLY ONE who gets hurt by it. clem choosing to let vi be taken means clem both breaks her heart, and then burns out her eyes. louis and his tongue is between him and lilly and was a choice THEY each made outside of clems direct influence (even if it was clem who inspired him to speak up, it is ultimately his choice to keep talking, and lilly hurts him for it. its sad he gets punished for a character moment, but clem had no direct hand in him losing his tongue. its why hes not angry to see her in the cell. he doesnt blame clem for what happened), but the way vi is feeling in that cell is DIRECTLY due to clems actions. vi feels like clem abandoned her after she had put herself on the line for her multiple times. she always had clems back but clem didnt have hers. clem is the one who planted the bomb and vi gets caught in the blast. clem hurts her emotionally And physically. and vi apologizes for getting upset (she tries to apologize on the beach too before theyre forced out in the cart, so she felt wrong for those actions immediately even tho they were understandable. lilly and minnie used her moment of weakness to get in her head. she just wanted everyone to be safe)

kidnapped blinded vi is just so incredibly sad to me, especially when you compare her to a fully realized violet. a violet who has come into herself, has confidence, has opened up, has stopped pushing people away out of fear and lets herself love again. shes a leader. a fighter. a protector. and those are all things a blinded violet loses

neither vi losing her eyes or louis losing his tongue is supposed to add anything to their characters. its about what theyve lost. both of them have important parts of their identity stripped away from them after being taken by the delta. its supposed to be sad. heartbreaking. regrettable. unfortunate. they have not gained anything by their time at the delta, only lost important parts of themselves to it

#twdg #like idk to me kennys eyepatch symbolizes his descent into madness. its the impact carver had on him #hes 'lost his sight' hes losing his way. becoming a danger to the people he says he cares about #kenny gets waaaay too much forgiveness in the fandom and i cant take it honestly. his motivations dont justify his actions #i dont hate him but god do i hate the way the fandom talks about him #esp when certain kenny stans ignore all the protagonists and hate all the women/anyone who opposes a protagonists views/actions #EXCEPT for kenny for some reason???? like when he opposes lee its fine but no one else can do it #you cannot deny hes a scary man by the end of s2 regardless of his motivations and people loooooove to handwave it away #i hate that 'family is family' crap #have none of you ever had a family member do something so horrible that you cut them out of your life completely? #HES NOT EVEN BLOOD FAMILY like that idea doesnt even apply here!! #the whole point of that phrase is that you cant choose who youre related to. twdg is LITERALLY about choosing your family #s3 is the one that makes a point to address blood relations and what worth they have #ok unexpected kenny rant over sorry but boy does the overwhelming kenny love get to me sometimes. there are other characters #sorry i hope this doesnt sound directed at you personally its just the overwhelming fan opinion i see and it drives me mad #where is the NUANCE?? #replies with lexi #plamglam

[perilegs]

ok i might need to force myself to not romance astarion bc i don't want to know what it says about me to turn down karlach, the woman of my dreams, the character made to cater me personally, like, if she was real i'd bring the moon and stars down for the chance to see her smile, she's everything i've hoped for in a rpg companion, what does it say about me if i turn that down for someone like astarion

#ngl karlach would be too good for me and i wouldnt deserve it #shed probably ask me stuff like 'what do you want?' upon which i would be paralyzed with fear my mind completely blank unable #to process why i can't answer a simple question #and she's so up front with her emotions which i absolutely adore but i could not reciprocate that #wait am i actually for real avoiding the karlach romance bc i feel like this fictional character from a video game is too good for me #a real human being. like. i think i would feel guilty about romancing her #which makes no sense bc i romance characters too good for anyone all of the time. but idk #in those cases ive always had like a strong character i play as who is very divorced from who i am #but playing as durge there is no past so idk who my tav is yet so all i can do is project so he feels very. personal #im v sleepy and also ive had brain fog all day so yea idk #i mean i do genuinely like astarion and his character but in his case i dont feel guilty bc i feel like i #i have no idea how to finish that sentence without it sounding like 'i can fix him' #bc i dont want to fix him i want to show him compassion and respect him and his boundaries so he'll be able to reclaim tje feeling of #being in control of his life #so he'll stop putting people down to feel like hes on a pedestal #like i get him and why he is like that but i just feel like being kind and caring towards him would feel so good #it wouldnt fix him and thats a good thing bc i dont want him to change who he is but i do think he needs support #also hes hot im so mad at myself for being so atteacted to him #we wouldnt b here if i didnt have a thing for voices #besides thag back to the main point of astarion its like. ugh! im so frustrated rn bc i dont have the words #to express my emotions toward him bc everything ive said lacks the nuance that im feelikg but idk how to put it in words #i guess i want to protect him? that such a terrible sentence and still not what om going for

[billford-dump]

I’d love to hear your thoughts on Spiral avatar Ford! I’m kinda obsessed with the idea lol

Hm... I haven't given it much thought, tbh.

I don't think the Spiral is something he'd go to on his own, personally. Logic and concrete answers and knowing is too important to him. He was more likely pulled into it, maybe by Bill in an effort to get him to see how fun insanity is.

Spiral Ford is based around the feeling you get when you've been awake too long, when you can't tell the difference between dreams and reality because it blurs together.

Are you in pain? Are you hungry? Thirsty? Tired? You can't tell, every feeling has become its opposite and you don't know what they mean any more. Letters blur in your vision, you can't even remember why it's so important for you to stay awake but the idea of sleeping terrifies you. Time has no meaning, did it ever mean anything in the first place? Of course it didn't. Nothing means anything. It never has.

He steps through the portal and the dazed, irritable confusion of sleep deprivation hits everyone the moment he sees Stan, realizes that his brother reactivated the portal and could have ended the world, and it only leaves when he notices there are kids here. He doesn't want to scare them. Insomnia is a regular thing with him in the house, at least until he starts going out at night. Maybe he's hungry, and that's why hes affecting the people around him. He can't tell. He doesn't know when he last ate, if it was food or fear. He finds someone or something to terrify every time he goes out, just to be safe.

He thrives in Weirdmageddon, the nonsensical nature of reality perfectly understandable to him, and it ends almost disappointingly soon because the ringing bell doesn't make him flinch and miss the shot when he knows it's coming. Why shouldn't a bell be alive? Why would it not ring itself? It doesn't make any sense, of course it would happen!

He latches on to Mabel more than Dipper. She makes less sense, she's less concrete and logical, she's less scared of the world losing its meaning. Easier to be around than someone so vulnerable to his specific brand of madness, someone who reminds him so much of how he was before.

#gravity falls #tma #the magnus archives #crossover #ford pines #spiral avatar ford #mcgucket strikes me as more of a spiral avatar than ford #spiral mcgucket. eye dipper. stranger stan. hunt ford. lonely mabel. #not completely sold on mabel but it feels the least wrong #spiral ford hasnt slept in nearly thirty years btw. he is literally wide awake all the time. #he isnt bothered by how differently his brain works now but it annoys him when people treat him weird for it #YES he sounds like the mad hatter having a stroke sometimes. NO that does not mean theres a problem. #im not sure if this needs to be tagged with any warnings (since its spiral which inherently deals with unreality type stuff) #i guess just send an ask if i need to put anything

[blujayonthewing]

well I just spent an hour digging through my own dnd notes and social media and also almost cried because I mentioned, in passing, something justin had said about one of his NPCs and he, completely lightheartedly, was like '?? I don't remember that at all. [I mean I'm not making it up?] I think you might be making it up 😏'

#me-- instantly stressed and near tears: I know you're joking and it's not even important but. that isn't funny. to me. #I really wish there was a term for 'gaslighting but they're not doing it on purpose' #this is distinct from simply 'being wrong' because 'that's definitely not what happened 🤨' is a key part of it #the other person trying to convince me that I'm wrong and I must be crazy-- not for manipulation purposes but because THEY forgot #and are MUCH more confident in the possibility that I'm completely full of shit than that they maybe can't remember exactly #this is an extraordinarily specific thing that nonetheless happens to me ASTONISHINGLY OFTEN. #I mean clearly often enough that I'm now hair-trigger sensitive upset about it #AND TO CLARIFY QUICKLY-- that's not what justin even did (this time) but 'well I don't remember that' is still... #OKAY WELL I DO. WHY DOESN'T ANYONE EVER BELIEVE ME. #trembling and crying searching for Receipts while explaining to my husband that it's not even that I don't think he believes me (this time) #I just. I just. I just. I'm not fucking crazy. I know you don't think I'm crazy. but I still feel like I Have to prove it. #my mom sending a package to the wrong address and then saying-- confidently and irritably-- 'you never GAVE me a unit number' #when I can scroll back up through texts to where I sent her our new address when we moved and it was complete and correct #my friend during our big stupid fight saying 'no one actually AGREED to that [dnd] plan except you and justin 😒' #going back into my audio recording to that conversation where everyone BUT him agreed #including his fucking pick-me 'yeah jay's being shitty right now' brother whose character said 'this sounds like a good plan' verbatim #like. I KNOW it's not just 'my memory vs theirs and we both assume we're right' #because SO OFTEN when this happens I have FUCKING RECEIPTS. that I'M NOT WRONG OR CRAZY. #no one ever wants to entertain the notion that I might know what I'm talking about. #I can't stress enough that I'm not mad at justin right now he was very much 'no I believe you! it's weird that I don't remember though' #which is fair! honestly! but I'm a LITTLE. sensitive. of the fact that everyone always ALWAYS automatically assumes I'm incorrect #and very often in a way that's a mark against my competence or character. #'well *I* couldn't *possibly* have gotten the address wrong so YOU must have fucked it up' #you know. it's like that. it's like that a lot. #maybe this only happens to me so much because I happen to be cursed with remembering things better than most people #or maybe I'm uniquely viewed as incompetent. who can say. #about me

[feluka]

me, a huge goomens fan, blacklisting the tags for it both here and on twitter because half the shit i see is 1- people who can't take their shipping glasses off for a minute trashing on character choices because they are literally incapable of seeing characters outside of popular cookie-cutter shipping dynamics and throwing a fit when characters are being 'difficult' and not conforming to their cutesy (or aesthetically angsty) fanon and 2- people being disturbingly horny for dave tenan't and to be completely honest with you my friends. i really don't care for either of those things <3

atp i'm here for the pretty wing art and if the pretty wing art won't make it to my dash on its own i'm doing something wrong

#sorry about the spelling i don't want search to pick this up lmao #i realise 'aesthetically angsty' sounds like complete nonsense so let me explain #example of 'cute' angst: characters sacrificing everything and getting themselves hurt to protect the love of their lives or some such #example of angst people get mad at: character makes a bad choice that makes sense for them at a certain point of their arc

[katyspersonal]

Speaking of "something intimate touched by dirty hands", I'll be real, I kinda do still need someone to "cleanse" image of Mic0lash for me. Ever since the grand fandom rift I've of course fallen onto the better side where fans are trying their best, I just can tell my Mic mutuals are trying their best with the guy. But something so incredibly bad is connected with the character- You guys know how negative experiences with people can ruin a character (and you're in luck if not the whole piece of media)? This character for me is a manifestation that if someone claims to really love and need me, I should keep in mind that it is a lie I should not trust.

I should know by now that when something sounds too good to be true - it IS, but he is like... an "avatar" of that realization. Someone I could just look at at be reminded without the words that yes, I should remember that I'll never be happy or valued like I want to. That my "ability" to see something good even in the darkest people or to listen to the intention of even the most distorted message is reserved for someone else. For something else. I am just not built for things like long friendships, celebrating holidays, exploring the world together, just being loved, just being able to trust, just being cared about, just sharing life with someone. My role in this world is to be a "tutorial enemy". Someone people would have a negative experience with but in exchange, understand who they are and what they really want in life, and let go of their struggles and wishes that tormented them. But I feel like I can only fulfill my purpose in this world for as long as I am ignorant about it. If I stop trusting people and seeking the type of love I need - I won't get attached, so I won't get hurt when people hurt me, so I won't be slain. Because this is what I am in - a videogame enemy that people need to defeat to level up and proceed to their own games. And if I stop respawning - how I can be what I am?

I just should not learn a thing, because people better off after they "murder" me. More cruel and reclused, but better off - more self-sufficient, more confident, more.. secure of how much good they deserve. It would just help them to be more cautious when someone actually toxic appears. Like, someone who is not even self-aware, not struggling and not remorseful. So they won't take chances, to the better.

But I just need to blind myself to the truth, because I've got nothing better to offer to this world than being that "tutorial enemy". People are better after slaying me. I drop Insight points upon being stabbed, and it happened so many times. I guess this character is just cursed with being associated with a truth so horrible that it is better off not realizing it and just be moved like a pawn.

#/vent #personal #i just really need to forget #i'll never know rest and won't be anything but a tool #like i see patterns and i see my role is not a happy one #even when it is not me doing something - i cause collateral effect of the same nature #like... because of the rift that i was the result of my very very very nice and sweet friend had to learn to stand against the bullies #was this a good and useful skill? yes. was it me who attracted the said bullies? YES. #the punchline is that the person that ruined the character for me was probably the only one able to appreciate a place like this in- #-the grand scheme of things #and not just write it down as mad ravings of depressed/traumatized person #i don't believe that the world functions as well and sound as how religious people paint it #if there is truly the purpose to all this then in the end i'll just be discarded like a tool that completed its purpose and now- #-would just otherwise collect the dust #there is no other meaning in my life than to be a step towards someone else's progress and sometimes even happiness #yet i can't just.... trade my life for a different one you know? it's all i can do #i appear in the right time and place and cause chaos past which people are better for one reason or another #most learn how important they are after ditching me. some become kinder if they realize they were cruel to me #but one thing that is certain is that i am just discarded and forgotten to 'respawn' when the need arises again.

[lovelaceisntdead]

Dad mad because I didn't make dinner yay now I will dissociate forever

#which I'm sure will not make him more mad. #sorry i didn't know you were coming home late so i had not budgeted energy for cooking #i know it's really inconvenient for you thst my illness effects me I'm really sorry about that. #felt good enough to do a bit of work today but because that's just for me it doesn't count #and now i won't be able to do anything for the rest of the evening :) and he will be passive aggressive with me or just not talk to me :) #i hate that he has this power over me to make me feel so small #I've done so much work in therapy this year with how he makes me feel but what's the fucking point if he still behaves like a child #i constantly feel like I'm walking on egg shells around him #and god forbid anything he ever does upsets me that couldn't be possible. #already having a difficult time today but that's just making excuses according to him #had a migrain scare earlier which really threw me off but i managed to get past it and try and do some work #which made me feel a lot better and more in control ahd then he just fucking shatters it #i don't care if this sounds silly to you reading this I'm really dissociating and I'm trying to process what I'm feeling #so i don't completely shut down because that will make everything worse

[thelittleredheadedmusician]

So I need a project or I will go stir crazy & in order to prevent me from hand embroidering most of a large circle skirt again (it turned out amazing I’m so proud of it but my mom feared for my sanity during the process) I was strongly encouraged to pick up the rhinestone by number kit I said looked cute. The first pup is finished & I love him.

#personal #i need to get a glaze to put on & a frame to put him in #but (at the risk of sounding like a mad scientist) HE IS COMPLETE! #also- i named him perry. no reason. just vibes.

[puthyflapps]

Y’all don’t love this song like I love this song. You’re not listening to it the way I’m listening to it. You’re not getting it like I get it 🙄😤😤

#I am mad at her for cross promoting SG new song cuz it’s so bad like it was such a waste of her influence and reach to promote something #that sounds like complete and utter ass and unsurprisingly her vocals are trash bc she couldn’t carry a tune if I double bagged it for her #🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ #miley cyrus #used to be young

[byanyan]

fr though if you ever wanted to playfully chastise byan for being a problem by using their full name, you could be all "byaniel byun!!!" and they'd find it really funny tbh

#i think part of that is just that they find 'byaniel' really funny honestly #like that's p much why they use it as their username on social media it's just funny to them bc there's something so dumb about it #something about making a nickname like byan sound vaguely like a more typical name... idk it's just v silly #outside of playfully giving them shit tho i'd just avoid using any version of their full name... #like just stick to byan. no last name or anything. no part of their legal name whatsoever #there's nothing quite like being angrily called the full name that u hate to make a bad situation worse #they've had enough of that growing up askfhdsk #even foster parents who did call them byan would switch to 'yeong-hwan' when they were mad and that... never sat right w byan #...this is devolving from a shitpost into a completely different and depressing hc in the tags i need to stop #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[welcometogrouchland]

After a second watching of across the spider-verse I've concluded that if I were to have a spidersona that accurately reflects me her main trait would have to be that she Does Not Want to be a superhero and save people, but she always does, at every turn, because she has some kind of external edict given to her that she is bound by. Would this make for an extremely unlikeable character? probably but it's what feels most true. She will save you but she will bitch about while she's doing it. I'm calling her Spider-Bitch in my head atm

#ramblings of a lunatic #idk hwo to explain this idea in a way that makes it sound even remotely compelling #she's like. she's obligated to be a hero and tbh she's pretty good at it all things considered. she just puts up a fuss #idk if that's a cover up for secretly being very invested in protecting her city to the point of liability or if it genuinely reflects her #if that reluctance stems from a lack of confidence she'll do it right #or if it's entirely driven by nebulous external circumstances forcing her to play hero #but either way i think she has a very good success rate hero wise and an abysmal reputation for her attitude #it completely overshadows her competence #she's mad about it too she's like I STILL STOPPED THE TRAIN WHY ARE THEY MAD I FLIPPED THEM OFF AFTERWARDS MAN #^ zero self awareness. the tism

[star--anon]

there comes a point in time where you have to wonder if you're a sore loser or if you need to start drawing lines around yourself

#can I just not take a loss very well or is having people shove it in my face that I lost simply not a good environment to be in #this sounds like sarcasm but it's actually kind of not? #I see other people joking around with their friends about their losses all the time so it's like. #it genuinely seems like a good humor thing and a bonding thing too #I wonder why it doesn't work for me then???? I just get mad lol. #I mean to be completely fair it is also 2AM so it could just be the late night emotions talking #who knows

[gloomforrestrunes]

Would there be an au in which Kane and eiya's roles are reversed with Kane being the jealous one and eiya is not?

honestly, i dont think so. on the surface it seems like a fun au, but a LOT would have to be changed in order for that to happen, to the point where im not sure if it can be done in a way that doesnt just boil down to "kane has eiya's personality now" or "eiya has kane's personality now." because the thing is that core aspects of their personalities and stories helped pave the way for what happened to happen. while kane IS impulsive and CAN get irritated and angry quickly he just. fundamentally wouldn't go as far as eiya did.

my main thing is that, assuming laxo would still meet kane in the first volume, it would be extremely fucked up of him to have fallen in love with laxo and discover what is/has happened to him, just to team up with his abuser years later just because hes super pissed off at his sister. that would be genuinely disgusting behavior that is so extremely far removed from kane as a character that it makes me a little sick. this is what i mean when i say a lot would have to be changed, because the thing about eiya is that she doesnt know about nex's connection to laxo when they first meet him, she doenst know about his and the council's ulterior motives and genuinely believes that he has their best interest at heart.

the only way this could kind of work is if kane never finds out about nex and laxo in the first volume. but even then, nex would never want to recruit kane and would refuse to assist in doing so.

basically the bottom line is it would require a lot of plot and character butchering that becomes a little too uncomfortable for me imo!

#i'm not mad btw and im not saying this to sound mean or snappy! like i said it sounds like a fun au. and by itself thats fine!!! #you dont have to look very deeply into it like i do!! it can just be a fun idea and theres nothing wrong with that! #its just that like. as the writer of this story and with how passionate about these characters i am- #-with every au i make (especially swap aus like this) i need to take into account how these decisions will impact how the plot plays out #and because these are my characters i really really dont wanna see aus that completely butcher their og personalities and arcs #ofc switching it up sometimes is fun and great but if its to the point where they're unrecognizable thats when im like. idk abt this!! #ask #fantasiaheart22 #au #kane aera #eiya alev