#tcs.rants

[ven-system]

When will posters on r/fdc and systemscringe ever realize how shitty and ableist they're being 😭😭

Like they police how disorders work for no reason

They even fakeclaim actual diagnosed systems and other disorders/disabilities

They think this is exactly how each single brain will work

When they probably don't even have said disorder/disability

Like bro get over yourself, you're embarrassing and disgusting

Sorry rant over it's just so annoying fjdjdj - Ven 💜

#endo safe #plurality #pro endo #endogenic #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #fdc #fake disorder cringe #systemscringe #systems cringe #tcs.rants #tcs.text

[ven-system]

Do people really have nothing better to do than fakeclaim innocent people online? Some of us are literally minors like ???

Like fakeclaimers please like

Get a hobby or something

We're not hurting anybody by just existing lmao - Amity 💜🐱

#endo safe #endogenic #plurality #pro endo #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #tcs.text #tcs.rants

[ven-system]

I hate being autistic, every day is so exhausting and overwhelming

The bright lights, the loud noises, the screaming

I hate it all

And then when I'm failing my classes I get upset because I want to do better

But then people get upset and say that it's because I just don't do my work, I do nothing

But I want to, I really really do

I want to do my work and be successful but

I'm exhausted to my core

My brain, my body, it all shuts down - Ven 💜

#endo safe #plurality #pro endo #endogenic #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #autism #autistic #autism problems #autistic problems #vent #vent post #tcs.rants #tcs.text

[ven-system]

Relationships and being autistic could not be a worse combo

Friends, family, romantic, it's all the same

I can't read people

I can't figure out what they want

I can't look them in the eyes for long

I make a wrong move and I have to fix it all, I have to be good enough for everyone

That's how my brain learned, I had to be perfect so I wouldn't annoy anybody or irritate them

Sometimes I just wish I wasn't autistic

Everyone knows how to do things so easily when they're neurotypical

They're happy, they have fun with friends, they get to go out without fear of sensory overload or a meltdown

They get to live a nice life

And I'm left behind, teased even, for just being myself - Ven 💜

#endo safe #plurality #pro endo #endogenic #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #autism #autistic #actually autistic #tcs.text #tcs.rants

[ven-system]

I really hate when people say "endogenic systems are just doing this for fun! They're just roleplaying"

Like bish

I didn't want this 😭

I didn't want to be a system, I didn't choose it

Some people might want to and that's okay, that's their choice and honestly nobody else's business - Ven 💜

#endo safe #plurality #pro endo #endogenic #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #tcs.rants #tcs.text

[ven-system]

Why is like every single age regression server anti endo??

Makes me so sad to see people that don't do research of their own, and yes of course people can have their own opinions

But that doesn't mean you can paint us in this negative light

We're not doing anything wrong we're just y'know

Existing

If us existing by itself is hurting you then there's something bigger there

I just want a safe space for when I regress but I can't go anywhere

Sorry rant over just

Bleh - Ven 💜

#endo safe #endogenic #plurality #pro endo #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #tcs.rants #tcs.syscourse #tcs.text

[ven-system]

Some people believe autism/adhd is just this little brain quirk

But they need to understand that it's so much more

I am sitting here, burnt out and tired, and only from just going to school, and attempting to do homework

They don't understand how much it hurts to be so exhausted every day - Ven 💜

#endo safe #endogenic #plural #plurality #pro endo #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #autism #adhd #tcs.text #tcs.rants

[ven-system]

Who even am I anymore

I'm sorry to those that I've hurt

Even though they would say it's not ever my fault

Im broken

Almost beyond repair

My chest feels heavy

I walk in the shadow of who I used to be

#endo safe #plurality #pro endo #endogenic #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #vent #vent post #tcs.rants #tcs.text

[ven-system]

Going to school everyday as someone like me (Probably autistic, with known anxiety and PTSD) fucking sucks

Nobody understands how utterly exhausting it is

Every loud noise is overwhelming, and since it's a bunch of teenagers, yeah, it never ends

Especially when you're going to a different class, those hallways are hell sensory wise

And because of trauma I jump at everything, I get scared of everything

I'm tired all the time, and by the time I get home I'm too exhausted to do anything

Can't even do homework, I just lay there and fall asleep

Not to mention the ableism and homophobia lmao

Its so bad

I can't stim, be with my boyfriend, be myself, without people being horrible

Makes me feel broken

Tldr; school sucks - Ven 💜

#endo safe #plurality #pro endo #endogenic #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #autism #school #ptsd #anxiety #tcs.rants #tcs.text

[ven-system]

I swear if I get one more spam message I am going to explode /silly - Ven 💜

#endo safe #plurality #pro endo #endogenic #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #tcs.text #tcs.rants

[ven-system]

I cleaned the whole house today without being asked

My mom says "you're being oddly nice today"

No its just cuz my brain isn't being nice to me today - Ven 💜

#endo safe #plurality #pro endo #endogenic #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #autism #mental health #mental illness #anxiety #gad #ptsd #actually ptsd #complex ptsd #tcs.text #tcs.rants

[ven-system]

I want to be okay

Sometimes I'm mad at you for hurting me, leaving my childhood and innocence in the dust

I don't know if I can ever fully forgive you

But one day I'll be healed, I'll be able to live my life normally - Ven 💜

#actually ptsd #ptsd recovery #complex ptsd #ptsd #actually traumatized #trauma #my trauma is really hitting me rn i apologize #endo safe #endogenic #plurality #pro endo #plural #system #did #did osdd #osdd #mixed origin system #tcs.rants #tcs.text

[ven-system]

It's a cycle

It's all happening again

How do I tell you that it's my fault

How do I tell you that I wish I didn't do this

How do I tell you that it's never your fault, it's mine

I'm scared of messing this all up

Make the wrong face or move

I feel a need to be perfect

But that's unrealistic I know

But it makes sense to me

I wish I wasn't overwhelmed so easily

#tcs.rants #tcs.text