#that whole episode was so insane and i loved it

[thespoonisvictory]

on my knees and begging for brennan to give me something to latch onto with mazey bc she seems conceptually so sweet but I can't get behind a date that is like two sentences of actual chatting and then brennan being like "you SEE she is very sweet and calm" rather than the organic development of scenes, like I wish she was better incorporated into the plot man

#fhjy #d20 #compelling romance arcs are hard!! #but brennan and lou have played so many I've enjoyed and have felt so organic #it's not even the fact that she was a deliberate love interest from the start #again ricky and esther are one of my fav couples and esther was absolutely designed as ricky's love interest #if we had ANY significant scenes where we just see on our own that mazey is great without being explicitly told it yk #like brennan having her check in on fabian even after his whole shitting episode lmao #even the date which lou deliberate makes fabian overplan is then described as chill and relaxing #and mazey could have clocked that fabian was freaking out!! #idk I love almost every npc we've gotten and fabian's arc this season I am just chomping at the bit for more substance from mazey #I feel like i'm going insane I want to root for them

[one-of-tankhuns-neurons]

I cannot let this show go without writing my goodbyes... Deep Night Final EP

Deep night was everything and more. It was a show that was made with insane love, thought and care and it fucking shows. That loves shines through the screen and it is GUARANTEED to warm your cold dead heart. Cheewin has always made his shows a bit more grounded, a bit more queer, a bit more real. Since YYY you can just tell there's someone in the crew that understands queer experience and this was it again. The good parts, the sad parts, the struggle without exploting it for pity. It showcased confusion and acceptance and love and love and love. So many different kinds of love.

Wela and Khemtid

These two developed so beautifully, from people who misunderstood eachother, to people who felt attracted to each other but still didn't get it, to people who listened, apologized, leaned on, supported, loved, cared for eachother. Khemtid's enchantment with wela blossomed after they fought about Wela's job, he realized that acceptance was the better route to take and he just worked hard to get it right, to make up for it, to help. Wela at the same time tried so hard as well to understand Khem's feelings, making it easier for them to reach the middle ground. He worked so hard with Khem to keep the club afloat, he was never mean to his coworkers, he carried the whole world on his back and still stood proud. They went from strangers to these two adorable dorks who hold hands and smile while kissing. I'm sorry but Khemtid smiling like he just won the world while giving his injured bboyfriend a handjob at the back of the club made my heart burn. That's complicity and partnership and mischief and intimacy. They stand on equal ground and that's so meaningful to me.

Then we have these three dorks

The true rivals to lovers. I talked about this in my previous Deep Night post but it was brilliant. Their storyline developed so subtly and naturally I cried last week. The way Japan and Ken's love bloomed out of love for Seiji... like it's not that they're just dating Seiji, they're dating eachother and that comes from a trust that developed from and understanding, that grew from care into desire. Last week's episode showing Japan as the center of his fantasy showed that, Japan is also attracted to Ken, and Ken's heart has melted for Japan as well, unknowingly. The talk they had was so necessary, so respectful and rooted on concern and an actual attempt to build something that left no one out. Seriously the way they're sitting in the end, with Ken brushing Japans hand, the way Japan held Ken's hand and brought him into the hug to welcome him, to shelter him. I love that it wasn't fetishized. (Because we've tackeled threesomes before in other shows but not romantic love) I love them, they love each other, this is healing.

Freya and Meiji

They are EVERYTHING. Honestly the role of women, specifically queer women in queer spaces has been overlooked for way too long. They take on the role of caring, protecting and supporting the whole club, the boys themselves and themselves. The fact that Freya's character was divorced and was constantly under attack from her ex-husbands family now existing with a same-sex partner was so complex yet beautifuly handled. Meiji was not just some random chic they threw in to gay it up, she was important to Freya, she helped at the club, she wasn't much around but when she was on screen she was Freya's rock. The talk on age... bro that shook me to the bone. Media is so focused on youth their questioning was so valid and so painful to watch... but it healed. Fuck I'm crying watching this. Everyone deserves to be loved by THEMSELVES.

Khem and Freya

gET TF OUT I WANT TO BE ALONE this mother-son relationship was amazing. Both characters grew so much out of love for each other I want to swallow a shotgun. The was it was alway Freya trying to gain Khemtids approval was so heartbreaking, and watching Khemtid LEARN to accept and love his mom, accept and love the club, accept and love the role they play... fuck. FUCK FUCK FUCK

Also we cannot forget Dai

I don't even have words to explain how great this character was. Outfits on point, personality strong and unmoving, loud and authentic and accepted and part of everything and capable and necessary and just EVERYTHING. And the fact that Dai was perceived as a potential love interest for Freya without it being a joke or mockery was gold. Apart from that, all of these characters and storylines are interwoven in a net of complexity, social norms, real struggles but also real coping mechanisms. I also want to LOUDLY RECOGNIZE the work put into it, as they all worked hard to actually get on stage and perform acrobatics like their characters. There was just so much attention to detail and to making things right I want to cry just thinking about it. Please please please if you havent... Watch it. It may not be revolutionary but it's perfect to me. Deep night is a very queer show that decided to open a lot of wounds just to let them heal properly. THANK YOU DEEP NIGHT. I expected nothing from you and you're now part of me.

#deep night final ep #deep night the series #nah but i cried like 18 times writing this #and theres so much stuff I didn't mention #the whole discourse on recognizing this line of work #i love them #khemwela #kenseijipan #bl drama #deep night bl #thai bl #im crying again #wela and his moooooom #freyameiji #ql #thai ql #queer

[marcygoo]

okazyyyy here we go. parts from murder drones eps 6-7 that really tickle my brain that i never see people mention like ever (if you come into the reblogs or comments of this post being like "why didnt you include (x part that everyone talks about)!!!" then that is why. and also i am going. to Eat You.) this isnt really going to be organized or anything. basically just me being abnormal about sounds and movements and other minuscule details that im really fond of for however many words

okay, first thing is gonna be a sound thing. i absolutely LOVE the beeping sound uzi's visor makes in this part. i really like sounds.

cant get a good screenshot of the movement cus.. yknow. duh. movement. but the way alice moves from there to the ground to where v is so. idk. fluid. its so fun to look at i really like it

the finger snap here. i love this finger snap. the noise. the movement. its so good. its so crisp. i love it

the lighting on uzi's face. forgive me for using the word crisp twice in a row but its crisp. its really good. okay

and the lighting on n's face here??? the colors are so harsh. i really like looking at it. okay. i feel like im not writing enough to just describe how much i like the lighting here. i really like it. its cool. okay i think its cool. i dunno

i really like this hallway. thats it. thats the section. the way the camera slowly tilts just a little bit while it zooms in? the way the slowed down music in the background almost sounds like alarm sirens? like okay

another thing i cant capture properly because, duh, movement! but the way the red sentinel kind of dips down here? i dont know why it did that but it slayed. and id like you all to ignore the fact that my nyan cat youtube bar got caught in the screenshot

the sound effect that plays here when "tessa" cuts herself with the sword. i dunno. its just a really satisfying sound to me thats all

another thing about sound effects really close to the last one but. the sorta crunching noises that uzis hand being contorted here make. im normal about sounds i promise. ok on to episode 7

the lighting here. on nori. insane. im not normal. as mentioned before with n i love this kind of harsh lighting especially with the drones it just looks so visually appealing

okay ANOTHER part i cant properly capture. this bit where it zooms in on the screen and shows the elevator. im. not normal about it. i really really like it alright.

UGHHHH THE WAY UZIS HAND MOVES HERE. THE MOVEMENT. THE FLUIDITY OF IT. IM ACTUALLY OBSESSED. AAUUGHHHHHHHHHHGGGGHHHHHH

LETS EAT!!!! DUDE. UGHHHH. AUGH. i LOVE this part SO MUCH you guys have no idea. im obsessed with it. the line delivery. the pose. the shot. the implications. the way that its just such a simple and commonly used phrase. do you get it. do you understand. genuinely one of my favorite little parts in the whole series im not kidding. let's eat

o-o-o-o-ow! ! !!! i always love the glitched voice effects alright. and that combined with the movement of nori's body being forced back by the crucifix. idk. i dunno man. i just like it

and UGH. LITERALLY right after that. the lighting flash just as she pulls it out of her face????? i hate this show so much guys. aughhhhhUGHHHHHHHHH AUGHJJ

grrrr this part. i literally NEVER see people mention it but. the way uzi.. the solver.... uh. whagever. the way their eyes sorta wobble when they turn to look up at n and nori. its a really cool movement to me i dunno

THE CRUNCHING NOISE WITH THE MOUTH GETTING PULLED SO FAST FROM A TINY FROWN TO A HUGE SMILE LIKE THAT??? EWWW????? INSANE. CRAZY. I LOVVE ITTT AUGH

no comment needed. the 😁

ok im kinda putting a lot of stuff from this fight on here. forgive me. its got a lot of really cool stuff. this part like. like. the way all the sound gets kinda muffled and crunchy.. aughh.... i love it. hurts me in my bones. 10/10

ok bit of an unusual thing to point out here but. the solvers flapping here. its so strange. it looks so weird and mechanical to me. in a good way i love it

the hand twitch. no further comment.

eugh. this part. the way the coagulated blood (???) almost jiggles like jelly. eughhh ewwwwwww. why are you like thattttt. (positive! i love blood.)

drone sound: much, crunch (i REALLY like the sound effect that plays when uh... flesha. bends down and Crunches dolls core. the sorta glass breaking sound. sorry doll.)

the fucking frog blink. why are you like that. i hate this thing so much.

the music that starts up right as j lands.. eughjghgjhhhh. augh. dies. also side note that i wasnt able to fit really anywhere. but i love the sound that the ship makes. dont know how to describe it but yknow what im talking about right

the fucking. sound effect. of uzi stabbing her own hand with the protruding bone. crunch. i really really love crunchy crunching sounds. theyre so good. one of my favorites honestly

uh. okay. well thats it thats the post. thanks for coming to my Autism. walks away

#soup says stuff #murder drones #FUCK IT WE BALL!!! MAIN TAGS IDGAF. look at my fucking poast

[nie7027]

Hot take here but...

Like I know this is Tumblr. This is the autism site.

So of course I knew everyone would side with Laios on this and empathize more with him but its driving me insane how everybodys saying Toshiro was completely on the wrong here and he should have communicated better and talked about his grievances with Laios WHEN THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS IS THEY WERE BOTH ON WRONG HERE.

LIKE THERES A REASON CHILCHUCK BRINGS UP HOW LAIOS SHOULD WORK ON HIS SOCIAL SKILLS A COUPLE OF EPISODES AGO/JUST BEFORE THIS HAPPENS?

like I know most of you don't like it but social cues ARE a part of society culture. Social cues ARE a form of communication.

In fact they were made to facilitate communication.

They were made so everytime Alice and Bob annoy each other they don't have to go and have a heart to heart when a simple gesture can have the same effect.

In fact sometimes better because sometimes addressing something with words makes it come out stronger/ruder than it is.

And sometimes just like you have problems understanding social cues some people have problems speaking, finding the way to words their thoughts/feelings correctly.

Specially among strangers where you don't know the others personality or how they could react to your words.

That's where social cues, that are general rules the majority of people have agreed on, work. To facilitate convivence.

And yeah there's an argument to be said about how you are supposed to know them if they are unspoken rules and the thing is YOU LEARN THEM THROUGH SOCIAL INTERACTION, through living in a society.

Just like gender norms and the like you don't learn them in school during a boring lecture where a professor lists them on the board. You learn them through interaction and repetition, throught observing your peers. Just like learning to talk and walk and other stuff. Heck, your parents and other adults around are supposed to ease you into it.

And yes, it's not a perfect system. But nothing is.

The saying 'communication is the key' doesn't refer to just talking.

Social cues and other non spoken gestures are also another form of communicating. Equally as valid as all the others

There's beauty in talking and openly expressing your love to someone. Or your grievances.

But there's also beauty in grabbing someones arm or the you picking up your friend is uncomfortable due to the turnup of their mouth or the way they stand.

One isn't superior to other. They are supposed to complement each other

Laios and Toshiros mistakes were relying completely in one or the other instead a compromising and finding a middle point.

Toshiro should have expressed his annoyance at Laios.

And Laios should have picked better Toshiros signs of discomfort.

(All of this isn't even taking into account how they come from different cultures and shock it comes with it because others have talked better about it and I wanted to focus on this. On how even if they have from the same background Laios should have also been a fault.

Hell not only social cues even talking is affected by ones cultural background. What for me is normal could come out as rude for someone in Japan)

#dungeon meshi #i was going to say more about how non spoken cues are another important form of comunication #and how theres beauty in it and why sometimes its preferred over easier ways like talking (THE JEST THE PLAY THE AMBIGUITY #THE IF YOU KNOW ME... ITS LIKE POETRY IN ACTION JUST LIKE WORDSPLAY) #but i lost the steam #also this hit too close to home and it made me realize why im angry at my friends so thank you laios and shuro for serving #as an external mechanism i could use to analyze the situation clearer #dont even dare try to assume whats going when whta im talking about takes years of context #also dont even dare to say im discriminating against autistic folk #me saying autistic folk should work on their social skills even though is difficult is the same as saying adhd should work on their #organizing skills even if its difficult because the consequences will still be there anyway and one must #hold themselves accountable og their actions even if they were cause by stuff we cant help

[magnusthepuppet]

i cant even say anything about the new episodes because i can barely form coherent thoughts right now. talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, never been done before—

#SPOILERS FOR THE NEW EPISODES IN THE TAGS !!!! DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT WATCHED THEM IM SO SERIOUS !!!! #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #ok so what? what did i just watch? #the most beautiful shit i’ve ever seen? #yeah #i think so #first of all #man anne and mary did not disappoint #murder wives fr #that whole episode was so insane and i loved it #not everyone thinking ed was gonna keep the bunny (stede bunnet) and it getting killed off immediately #gives me the vibes of that one the last of us clip #ed saying you wear fine things well ???? #SHUT UP. THE WAY I CRIED #also the fact that the moon wasn’t full when they kissed representing how they were still healing and taking things slow #stede fr thought he was gonna get some that night i swear #can we talk about how i’m starting to like izzy #THE NOTE??? HELLO???? #i’m so fucking glad they’re healing #let’s appreciate fang/kevin too #he’s been a real one from the beginning of the season #stede bonnet #ed teach #blackbonnet #izzy hands #anne bonny #mary read

[kakarots]

I'll run, run, run, and keep running as far as I have to!

And when things calm down, I'll quietly settle by their side again. Because... I'm Vash the Stampede.

#trigun #trigun stampede #vash #vash the stampede #knives #millions knives #nai #mygifs #The way I watched the episode twice and cried the 2nd time . #God I love Trigun SO much it's insane actually #ALSO THE SOUP GIVING HIM A WHOLE MAKEOVER OMGGG #His spikey hair is back.. his glasses are blue. His jacket is black and red now and even his prosthetic arm is black #At first I thought it was the lighting of the episode but NO HE JUST HAS A WHOLE DIFFERENT COLOR PALETTE #It reminds me of the gunman in black palette where his hair is light grey and his jacket is all black !!

[tenisperfection]

7x04 being from Buck's perspective broke my brain because of the way we saw Eddie through Buck's eyes. Then I realized that Suspicion, where Eddie was shot, was from Eddie's perspective, and all of Surviviors was from Buck's perspective and I want to jump into the ocean.

#the implications...... #we saw eddie's turmoil when carla brought up the follow your heart line #his agony over charlie's abuse #then the shooting and watching his best friend splattered with his blood #that split second where he realized who buck was to him and has been all along #the way he wanted to reach out and touch buck one last time #(do not think about eddie thinking about chris under any circumstances but if you do imagine eddie feeling relieved that buck will be there #and sorrow that he won't be there with chris and won't get to see him grow up and won't get to see buck #and then we have survivors right #we immediately jump to buck's perspective with him getting eddie into the ambulance and eddie asking if buck was hurt *sobs* #and the whole episode is mostly buck's side #but so is the will scene!!!! #because we obviously went nuts over the implications of it #but consider the tone of the scene--there's devotion yes #but most of the tone is that of disbelief #because buck can't believe eddie did this and eddie didn't tell him and eddie is telling him now #and eddie wants buck to carry on for christopher if eddie is gone #and buck absolutely would #but in his mind he can't fathom a world where he has to exist without eddie #and eddie is the one asking him to #hahahahah fuck you don't find it son you make it all over again #buck made this and buck chose this and buck has to live with it #i can't wait for these men to realize/bring to light all the love between them #911 abc #this unraveling on a saturday afternoon is brought to you by insanity

[tardxsblues]

Doctor Who | 8.11 Dark Water

#look someone said in the tags of one of my posts that this clip made them feral or something #i can't find it now #so if that was you then this gifset is dedicated to you #i also love the whole 'i'm exactly what you deserve' #it's another piece of the doctorification of clara #she tried to manipulate him in a way the doctor might do #but he knows her too well #they really do deserve each other with all of their toxicity and insanity #doctor who #dwedit #dwgifs #dw companions #twelve #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #twelveclara #whouffaldi #dws8 #episode: dark water #peter capaldi #jenna coleman #gif warning

[p4nishers]

thinking about her again (1941 flashback)

#im always fucking thinking of her that flashback was a RIDE #like i genuinely cannot fucking believe they dedicated a WHOLE episode to the night aziraphale realized he was in love like that's the most #insane thing ive ever heard and fucking witnessed bc they haven't spoken for over 100 YEARS before that #and the fucking 'Aziraphale is softening. They haven’t spoken in a hundred years: he’s realising they are still friends' LIKE OMG??? U CANT #JUST SAY THAT TO ME AND THEY SPEND YHE WHOLE FUCKING EP PROVING TO EAVH OTHER THAT THEY'RE STILL FRIENDS WHILE NOT TALKING ABOUT SHIT AND I #JUST IM SO FUCKING FERAL FOR THAT EP GENUINELY #good omens s2 #azicrow #crowley #aziraphale #good omens #good omens 1941 #aziracrow #ineffable spouses

[reejindeed]

I love Bigtop Burger

#Bigtop burger #cesare bigtop burger #bigtop burger cesare #worthikids #doodles #this past episode was insane #I love cesare so much #this whole show is a gift to the world

[riverswaltz]

twelveriver is the superior doctorriver ship cause with every other doctor, river very much doubted whether they loved her like she did. but with twelve it was not like that at all. his "hello sweetie" literally cleared all her doubts and conveyed everything the doctor felt for river. and the darillium scene is literally peak doctorriver.

#bickering old married couple #i'm so glad they finished river's storyline with twelve cause pcap and alex kingston have insane chemistry #and they radiated vibes the whole episode #i love tenriver and elevenriver i really do but twelveriver>> #the husbands of river song #river song #tenriver #elevenriver #yowzah #the doctor #tenth doctor #doctor who #eleventh doctor #twelfth doctor #peter capaldi #alex kingston #doctorriver #twelveriver

[andthedaysthatnevercame]

the almost people establishes that the doctor is the person that amy holds in the highest regard and that she will not accept anyone that isn’t him, that she will be outright hostile to anyone who commits the crime of not being him enough. and this episode also tells us that the doctor will take her devotion and he will use it against her. and she’ll forgive him for it.

#off the charts sacrificial lambism #after she realizes that he’s been lying to her the whole time she only loves him more #and even when he tells her she’s just flesh and he knew the whole time and he cups her face so tenderly as he goes to let the blood‚ #she’s just holding his hands. she’s trying to reassure HIM that she’s okay #also insane that the b-plot to the amy gets sacrificed episode is rory creating an intimate emotional connection with another woman #it’s going to be a long time before i can move on from this episode tbh it’s so interesting narratively #the conflict of the episode itself is kinda just the silurian episodes from s5 again #but the inter character relationships and how it connects to the larger plot has so much depth to it #.txt

[sleepboysummer]

everytime i remember that this poor girl had to witness this scene i go insane and die

#WHO THOUGHT THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA #GET HER OUT OF THERE #starkid #her reactions were the funniest part actually. #team starkid #nightmare time #jane's a car #god i hate this episode god i love this episode #hot take but #this was harder to watch than hey melissa #because that one i was just laughing and dying so hard the whole time #it was so outlandish and insane

[camellcat]

I feel insane I get it now I get it twelveclara IS everything. they make me want to run up the walls and bounce around and grin so hard it hurts and I love them

#I never thought I'd actually find it in myself to be able to ship the doctor with anyone but rose #but they've done it #five minutes of sitting around in that restaurant and I've been won over #god they're hilarious #ohh and I just got to the 55 minute mark #CLARA OSWIN OSWALD I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU FOREVA YOU CLEVER CLEVER GIRL!!!!! #I JUST FINISHED THE EPISODE ELEVEN NOOOO I DIDN'T THINK I'D MISS HIM #I feel so insane I wanted her to take his hand so badly it makes me dizzy #I'm so used to rose just grabbing onto him without hesitation CLARA PLEASE HIS ARM IS JUST HANGING THERE WAITING #sorry you had to read my live reaction to deep breath lmao I didn't want to post until I saw the whole thing and then I just kept on adding #twelveclara #whouffaldi #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #doctor who

[pdfghoul]

#succession #roman roy #shakespeare #logan roy #hbo succession #parallels #kieran culkin #roman my dear boy..the whole sense of the world #hamlet is there a lot but that’s only because i’m autistic peace & love #being a shakespeare nerd means being not only insufferable but also clinically insane and therefore this is the way i am coping after this #episode. by ruining lives! #to all those that understand #but also the julius ceasar one..when i saw that like obviously the context is different but roman? he cannot escape the dog motif . #it fits so perfectly it make me want to scream does anyone here me #succession finale

[thresholdbb]

i have a VOY confession: I skipped Threshold because the rating on imdb was SO so low... is it required viewing???

I was holding off on this question so I didn’t give you the most insane rambling answer, so thank you for your patience. Short answer: I definitely think it’s worth a watch. I, thresholdbb, am obviously biased about this, but imo Star Trek isn’t quite Star Trek without its delightfully campy side.

Threshold is often pointed to as the worst episode of Star Trek, and it has also been voted as such. That said, it really isn’t that bad. The science is iffy at best, but it’s science fiction and that part gets a pass in my book. It only veers into the ridiculous in the last act, otherwise it’s actually not bad. If it didn’t take a hard left at the end, people probably wouldn’t rag on it as much as they do.

Tom Paris has some excellent moments and Robert Duncan McNeill was having a blast being a mutant, chewing up all the scenery. The EMH has a bit that makes me laugh every time. Janeway is delightful as always. Plus, the episode won an Emmy for make-up.

Really though, I love what episodes like Threshold (and the like) represent: a willingness to take risks. Some of that has been lost in the bigger budget productions that have come after (they’re coming back around), but I unabashedly adore that these “bad” episodes exist. Plus now we get to poke fun at and enjoy hyper-evolved salamander babies for eternity. What’s not to celebrate?

#all Star Trek is good Star Trek #even bad Star Trek? #especially bad Star Trek #every day is threshold day #thresholdbb is threshold posting again #my answer might still have been rambling and insane I apologize #is it even star trek if you can’t poke some fun at it? #if you talk to other Star Trek fans often they will have a threshold and Tuvix opinion #I am always staunchly pro threshold and I don’t care #plus it spawned delightful art and a whole celebration day!! #mark your calendars January 29 is threshold day #taking risks means sometimes you fail and that’s perfectly ok #but I don’t think it’s a terribly bad episode I really like it #when I first saw it I was like ??? but then it grew on me and now I love it so much #I adore “bad” Star Trek #I feel the same about move along home and rascals and relics and and and #except for code of honor that one can die ok ilubye #but also like choice exists you don’t have to watch it if you really don’t want to I’m just some dodo on the internet idk