#the feelings are just too intense now

[half-bakedboy]

Number 2 from the 50 cliché tropes and prompts

Your shirt/jumper was in the laundry pile and I couldn't help but steal it

Buck never understood why he had lost so many sweatshirts and button-downs to past girlfriends. Nine times out of ten, they didn't even remotely fit their figure and they were only worn in the comfort of Buck's home anyways. 

Then he started staying over Tommy's house more and more. He'd always come prepared–an overnight bag filled with an extra LAFD shirt, a pair of jeans, a pair of chinos, and two shirts, one with a collar and one without–just in case he needed to rush out in the morning. 

This morning, he isn’t quite as prepared as he wishes he had been. Tommy’s in the shower after sleepily kissing Buck good morning and Buck promised he’d run Hercules–Tommy’s ten-year-old retired racing greyhound–outside before Tommy dropped Buck off at work. Thunder crashes outside and rain pounds on the roof, and Buck didn’t even think to bring a jacket. 

He looks around the bedroom closet, careful not to invade the private space too much, but he doesn’t see anything that might help. He knows there’s an umbrella waiting beside the door, but he’s already shivering from the chill sneaking in through the closed windows and Buck knows he’ll need something to protect his skin. 

Out of the corner of his eye, he sees a pullover laid neatly on top of the laundry pile. It’s similar to his LAFD one, but a lighter blue that matches Tommy’s on-duty uniform. It won’t keep him dry, but it’ll keep him warm and keep the water off of his skin which is all he has time to care about. He snatches it up and shouts to Tommy that he’s taking the dog outside even though he’s not sure he’s heard. 

Before he gets too far, Buck pauses to get the pullover on. The first thing he notices is how much bigger it is on him. He’s not a small guy by any means, and he’s not much smaller than Tommy–at least he thinks–but there’s so much extra fabric that he has to bundle it up at his waist. He can also tell that the back doesn’t stretch taut against his shoulder blades and that the neckline slouches a little in the front. 

It’s strange to wear something so unfit for him, but at the same time, Buck can’t help but feel giddy. He glances at himself in the mirror and feels small, but not in the way he usually does. It doesn’t make him feel inconsequential or overlooked, but like he’s protected and well-loved. It stirs inside of his stomach until the joy begins to bubble in his chest. 

He notices that Tommy’s name is embroidered just over his heart, and he brings his fingers there to trace over the lettering. It takes everything in him not to whisper his name combined with Tommy’s last and he wonders if this was how his old girlfriends felt when they stole his LAFD shirts that had his name brazen on the back. 

Where he expected to be a bit embarrassed at the claiming nature of it all, he can’t help but feel… powerful. Yeah, there’s something powerful about wearing someone else's name, like he’s screaming to the world that Tommy is off-limits because he’s Buck’s. 

He’s Buck’s. 

He’s too busy thinking about what exactly that means for him to hear the bathroom door open and a freshly showered and shaved Tommy emerge. Another figure beside Buck’s reflection startles him but Tommy’s reassuring hands slide around his waist. It’s strange how normal it feels to have strong, long arms wrapped around him and a broad chest waiting to hold him up as he leans back against it. 

“You’re wet,” Buck says, feeling the dampness on Tommy’s unclothed chest. He’s in sweatpants like he’s ready to lounge around for the day, but the bare skin of his upper body is clearly on display where Buck’s body isn’t hiding it. He wants to pull away just so he can take another peek. 

Tommy doesn’t seem to notice nor care that Buck is analyzing them because he’s too busy doing the same. There’s something in his eyes, though, that sends an eruption of warmth to Buck’s face. Tommy tugs at the extra fabric at Buck’s waist like he’s having the same realization as Buck did, and then he slides one hand up Buck’s chest to trace his name. He whispers each letter like a secret into Buck’s ear, piercing eyes never leaving Buck’s in the mirror. 

Buck shivers, pressing back against Tommy and leaning his head back so that it plops on Tommy’s shoulder comfortably. Tommy finishes his name before dragging a finger to the neckline of the pullover and letting it hang there like a weight that keeps Buck grounded.

“You’re wearing my jumper,” Tommy points out like he doesn’t already know. Buck suddenly feels anxious, like he’s made a horrible mistake, and stands back up straight. He turns to look at Tommy as he speaks. 

“Is that okay? I didn’t bring a jacket so I figured—” 

Tommy kisses him before he can finish, and Buck can only hope it becomes a pattern. 

It’s just as soft as their first kiss and every kiss they’ve shared since then, but it grows in passion second by second. Tommy is gripping the fabric at Buck’s waist like he’s deciding whether he wants to pull it over Buck’s head or leave it on his forever. Buck holds his naked shoulders, palms sliding down the hard planes of his chest then his abs, before sliding underneath the waistband of his sweatpants. 

When a cold nose hits his hand, Buck jumps back, out of breath and startled. Hercules is staring up at them like he’s let them have their fun and he’s done waiting to go outside. Tommy swipes at his face as he chuckles and Buck leans down to pat Herc’s head. 

“I’m sorry, Buddy. Am I stealing all of your dad’s attention?” Buck coos, and he can almost hear Tommy’s good-natured eye roll. 

“Well, if Evan here is done distracting me, I’m sure he’d be more than happy to take you outside, huh?” 

“Oh, if Evan is done distracting you? Like you didn’t just walk out of the shower half-naked and damp and looking like you wanted to drop to your kn–” Buck inhales deeply when Tommy glances down then back up and raises his eyebrows. “Alright, I’m out of here. Be right back,” he promises, pressing one last kiss to Tommy’s reddened lips. 

“Mhm,” Tommy hums, watching him start to walk away. 

“Do you want your pullover back?” Buck asks, because he figures that’s what he would’ve wanted to be asked. 

“As far as I’m concerned, it’s yours now.”

It sounds a lot like I’m yours now, but Buck doesn’t dare ask. Instead, he takes Hercules out, ignoring the storm rumbling above him, and strokes his thumb distractingly against Tommy’s name over his heart. He guesses he’s Tommy’s now, too.

(now on ao3)

#911 on abc #bucktommy #kinley #kinkley #evan buckley #tommy kinard #answered #ficlets #my writing #anonymous #911 spoilers #please im actually dying of how soft this is #also i now headcanon that tommy owns a dog #and his name is hercules #and hes an elderly greyhound who used to be a racing dog #thats just what it is now #thanks so much for sending me this prompt 🥺 #also these keep getting so much longer lmao #the feelings are just too intense now #long post

[twinkodium]

[CAR CRASH] [BUILDINGS FALLING] “GOOD GOD” [EXPLOSION] [BABY CRYING] "WAH" "WAA" [YELLING] “SHUT THAT DAMN BABY UP” [SIRENS] WEEE WOOO WEEE WOO [HELICOPTER AND NEWS TRUCKS] “WE’RE REPORTING LIVE FROM THE SCENE-“ [BANG] [LOUD COMMOTION] "MY LEG…MY LEG!!!"

GIGGLING KICKING MY FEET AND GRINNING LIKE AN IDIOT 😩

#f1 #oscar piastri #I have trouble breathing 😩 #he’s just so perfect…? #like is he even real? doesn’t feel like it 😮‍💨 #just my imagination when I think about the prefect man with good manners and good looks 😍 #HAIIIR MESSIER THAN EVER!! #the arms placement hello??? showing off those beauties bby 🤯🤯 #ONE THIGH… almost out of the frame but I do see it 👀👀 #I wanna **** ** just for good measure 👀👀 #his little frown as he looks up damn 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #slightly intense gaze 🤯 my knees are giving up 😮‍💨😮‍💨 #neck is fine too but not really on the appreciation now as there is so much to look at 😩😩 #also I would like to *** ** *** *** & **** *** & **** *** *** @8@3 #like no tomorrow 😩😩 #there is enough space for that I reckon #not so pg stuff #alsooo the black T-shirt 😩😩😩 that’s my fav 🥹 #being dramatic with the caption sorry 😂

[lollytea]

Huntlow situationship gives me such intense brain termites you don't get it

#no i dont think its because Hunter needs time to heal first #i think if it was up to Hunter they would plunge into a committed romantic relationship immediately after the events of the finale #he would propose to her in like. 3 months probably #i know that sounds intense but i think this is what ''i literally died and came back to life'' mania does to a guy #he is so carpe diem minded hes become a little insane. he wants everything #no more waiting around. no more hesitating. he cant afford to do that anymore #would it have been the wise decision to enter a romantic relationship immediately #who's to say. but Hunter would have done it without thinking about it #its Willow that makes the decision to slow down and wait a while before they make any committments theyre not ready for #i dont think she's entirely learned her lesson about letting herself be emotionally reliant every once in a while #shes made progress but the events of ftf were such heat of the moment responses #once things are semi-stable she still needs to adapt to acknowledging that her feelings for Hunter are like. serious. and scarily intense #so like. yea Willow is slamming her pedals on the breaks for both their sakes. shes thinking about how this would effect Hunter too #but also. she scawwed. #when Willow tells him she wants to talk and she's like ''i think we should just be friends'' oh the face he makes is DEVASTATED #he didnt expect it was going in this direction at all. but like. once Willow explains how this is the most reasonable decision for now #he DOES agree. he understands what shes saying and he agrees that it's the best decision to take a breather before they jump into a romance #anyway even when theyre not officially dating the flirting continues insistently. they are very obsessed with each other and cant stop #Willow keeps trying to insist to herself that its just messing around. nothing serious. they find each other hot. its fine to kiss a little #but Hunter makes it very hard when he looks at her with big brown labrador eyes. looks at her like shes the entire world #i think if it was up to Willow they would have been trapped in that uncertain limbo forever. shes too scared to take the plunge #even if she wants to. she badly wants to #but Hunter just wont let that happen. every so often he says ''im ready whenever you are'' #he makes his intentions very known. he is not the shy boy from Camila's house anymore #Willow cant just playfully flirt with him without worrying that hes gonna reciprocate. he talks now. he expresses himself #shes a little afraid of that. but she adores it too. he makes her feel safe but also he wont let her stay in this comfort zone #hes giving her the push she needs to pursue this relationship. gives her to push to feel like she can go after what she wants #because god knows HE knows what he wants #they make me so insane

[saltpepperbeard]

:(

#EXCUSE THE LITTLE SPIRAL HERE QKDJWJS but I just want to talk it through as a crew #Feeling very very gracious towards David’s lovely message #But also feeling sad #Because I was happy to see him being so quiet and being so secretive #Because to ME that seemed like a good sign that negotiations or some kind of discussions might be taking place #And that there subsequently might be some sort of intense NDA #But now with THIS… #Idk it just feels like we just took so many steps back #Like to me it reads as though there are NO current negotiations #And that we’re actually still just suspended and have BEEN suspended #Which…jakdwjdnwjdwkdk #And no I don’t understand how all of this works so who KNOWS what’s really going on the background #But idk man. Idk. #Not to be such a negative nancy either when I’m usually so energized #But I was just sort of taken aback and wanted to see what yall were thinking too #Things just feel a little more…DIFFICULT again #praying for some hope and ALSO praying that jac makes a thread for additional clarity AKDJWJ

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i love dead characters. i love characters who were always dead, who die halfway through, who die in the end - characters who die and come back but in a way they're still dead bc their first life died with them & nothing will ever be the same & their coming back is a bandaid over a gaping wound & their own death haunts them-

#characters whose deaths haunts the narrative and the other characters #almost to the point where it feels like theyre still there #characters who continue to haunt everyone even After they come back #CHARACTER DEATH <3 #when done Correctly its sooooooo good its literally the best i love it when characters die Well #when you rewatch/reread and Notice that they were doomed from the start. they were always going to die #AGH AGH AGH AGH #im going to be honest my Favorite trope is characters who die and come back #bc - again - when done well its SO!!! FUCKING!! GOOD!!! #maybe they come back the same but no one else is and That changes them too #or they come back Different and it just makes them haunt the narrative / other characters More Intensely #anyway their resurrection just makes it hurt worse bc theyre Back but now everyone knows what its like to live without them #and they will forever be haunted by that Knowing. and understanding that they could lose them again so so easily #the terror! the dread! the persevering grief!! looking at someone wholly alive and seeing a ghost! seeing everything thats Not There! #ohhhh also shoutout to characters who die without Actually dying #they never lose their life but who they are Changes So Suddenly that its like they died. the person they were died #and someone else kept breathing #slamming my face into a waaaaallllllllll #death in fiction death in fiction DEATH IN FICTION!!!! #oh also shoutout to characters who die without dying and then Actually die and both haunt everything #prime example: anakin motherfucking skywalker. KING of haunting the narrative #absolutely unprompted #what has me thinking about this? well im always thinking about it BUT #ahsoka episode 5. my own characters. potentially welcome home (we'll see we'll see...) #character death my beloved <3 #there are so many ways to do it and do it Well <3 #and it kills me inside that 'killing for shock value' and 'character dies and everyone moves on' are so common #its so lame! and annoying!!! like cmon!!! get a grip! #we need CONSEQUENCES we deserve FORESHADOWING #we need their death to haunt the narrative so hard that rereading/rewatching is one big reminder that They Will Die!!!

[nomattertheoceans]

I've been reading the Percy Jackson books for the first time over the past two weeks! Just finished "The Battle of the Labyrinth" last night (which btw is my favorite of the series so far!!)

I have now gained a new obsession but it might not be what you think

#like i swear to god i did not expect to be absolutely enthralled by the protagonist's mom kahskahfjkaja #she's just so fascinating to me #she's so kind and smart and she has given EVERYTHING for her son okay #like her staying married to an abuser for years to protect him omg she deserves the world #like when Poseidon called her a queen in the first book he was 100% right alright she is a queen #the woman murdered her abuser with a monster's head LIKE THAT'S SO AWESOME #also i cannot explain how obsessed i am with her relationship with Poseidon okay #like. do i want her to still have feelings for him? yes. do i need poseidon to pine and long for her from the distance?? ABSOLUTELY YES. #like realistically it's more likely that be does not but I need it okay #like at first i wanted them to be reunited because you know. of course i did. #but i am perfectly content with her finding love and happiness with a mortal man and Poseidon pining for her from the distance #like listen. this woman is amazing and she deserves to have an immortal all powerful god unable to get over her alright SHE DESERVES IT #but the way he just showed up at Percy's birthday party and called her as beautiful as ever????? omg??? BECAUSE YES SHE IS #and she blushed??? be still my beating heart #kahskahfksja honestly laughing at myself right now like I'm just over here watching a Sally Jackson tele novela in my head #AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE #percy jackson #no spoilers please if you see this post i know very little about the story and I'm thoroughly enjoying myself that way #also jsut as an fyi i am also a little obsessed with Percy and Annabeth kajakshdjshsha they are too cute and intense #sally jackson #percy jackson and the olympians

[moe-broey]

Got inspired to revisit this FEH comic redraw I did when it first dropped! Specifically these panels:

Ended up freestyling that second Xane though LMFAOO he is just so impish to me...

If you wanna get Old Art Jumpscared I'll also include the original sketch under cut!

AAAAAAAAA JUMPSACRE AAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!

In a way though, I'm glad that I dropped it and picked it up again later... like I feel like this isn't even from that long ago (guy who has no sense of the passage of time voice), but the characterization and even design of Moe is so different. The Scrunch and :< face were game changers for it LMFAOOO (also just making it autisticer 👍)

Beyond that I think everyone looks a lot better and closer to how I envision them, esp Loki!

#fire emblem #feh #please do not the moe. it doesn't like it :( #TRIED. to capture that really pretty hair gradient that's in loki's mythic but idk if i got it #i am really satisfied w the little changes i made to xane's pallette though! his halloween alt is just. So Red LMFAO #WHICH. UNDERSTANDABLE. that is his signature color. i feel like just a few changes pull it together more though #which does tempt me to do a full body art of him...... but don't hold me to it LMFAO #ALSO DAMN....... moe interactions with other charas that aren't the askr siblings/unofficial extended family....... #like in universe it probably happens frequently/casually but. it's rare for me to actually draw it LMFAOO #i just.... always have the askr siblings on my mind....... #also i am just deeply in love w alfonse here like. this WAS the initial pose i was imagining when i first drew this #i ended up cropping it so much though. wasn't as skilled in Drawing Really Small yet #also just. i feel like there's more layers here w the updated moe characterization like. he's not just In Too Deep for the summoner #he knows it really doesn't like that (being touched ESP without warning/permission). #like beyond his own feelings he has a reason to be so intensely protective. which i'm also sure #is what he tells himself. #they just have a really funny dynamic. that i hope shines through every now and again! 😅 #fe alfonse #fe xane #fe loki #moe tag #summoner oc #my art #my comics

[crownedwille]

I've come to the conclusion that loving young royals doesn't mean I can't be critical about it, maybe especially bc I love the show so much I have such strong feelings about it, good and bad and I can love parts of canon and agree with it and appreciate it but I don't have to love it all. I have accepted that it's okay if I don't accept the ending and I don't have to force myself to support it. It's okay to not agree with all of canon and it's okay to not side with all of the creators' intentions/views. Loving a show doesn't mean you have to take everything the writers say on face value and that's the only version that is allowed to exist. Canon isn't everything and fandom is about curating your own experience that makes you happy and not miserable. You don't have to dismiss canon in every aspect and ignore it entirely, that's certainly not what I want but there is a fine line between being canon respectful, allowing some parts to exist and sometimes, yes, you just have to say "fuck canon" and move on for your own sanity and wellbeing

#especically in the first two weeks of a new release everyone is feelings lots of intense emotions ranging from ecstatic to angry #everything in between is a part of it and i know i'm also feeling very strongly about it right now #i always try to stay levelheaded and rational and see things from an objective pov and be diplomatic about discourse #i don't want any of what i say drift off too much into meaningless hate instead of the constructive criticism it's supposed to be #but when you feel so strongly about something and sometimes you really just wanna say yeah i fucking hate it lol #but i always try to explain why and give understandable arguments and not just blindly hate on something #for example - I'm aware there are fans who have some problems with s2 and don't love the season whereas i do and it's my fave #and there is a difference between expressing some criticism and justified concerns which you can understand where it comes from #and those who are just like 'oh it's a horrible season. it was so shitty and we should get rid of it' which is dumb hate and just not true #and i can't support people like that and take them seriously #i can have my own issues with s3 from a subjective pov which can also include some justified criticism as well #but also still acknowledge it as a truly good piece of tv media and the quality is top notch #and that's why you have such high expectations and have critique because it is so good and sets such a high standard #yrtalk #with that being said i understand ppl not wanting to see any critic about it if they are riding the high of happy wilmon endgame #but that doesn't mean that i can't express my own opinions on my own blog and i will continue to do so #and maybe one day i will feel differently and accept or even like the ending who knows #but it doesn't have to happen. it's fine if it does but it's also fine if it doesn't

[hamartia-grander]

Jesus fucking christ I hate the US south

#Cw gun mention I guess #I was feeling super nauseous so I went into the kitchen to get ritz crackers #And we're at my grandma's rn for Christmas and she has windows in the kitchen that look out at the road/other houses #And NO curtains or blinds because she's old #And anyway I turned a small light on so I could see the crackers and I hear a fucking man outside shout “WHO'S OUT THERE” #In the heaviest southern accent. Mind you every fucking person in this area has a gun bc there's lots of trees with squirreld they shoot #And logically now that I am calming down I know it was just a bad coincidence and he was probably yelling at smthn in his yard #But jesus fucking christ I felt such immediate intense fear my head went cold #Ran to my baby brother's room bc I was certain someone was gonna come kill us #Then the rationality took over and I just told my mom about it. But now I'm sitting outside his room eating crackers bc I'm fucking paranoid #It is almost 4am and I haven't slept a wink I cannot do this rn #But literally the last time I went for a walk around here my dad told me not to go alone and also not to say anything stupid #And also stay far away from houses bc I could get myself shot #Literally what the fuck is this. #“Afearican” except I'm still very much in the US #Not to mention almost every fucking house has a blue lives matter flag and some have isr*el flags now too like #I fuuuuucking hate it here

[romanceddawn]

the fun thing about rivalshipping is you dont even need to make a mob boss au for them because kaiba already acts like one and you just know his form of flirting includes hiring yugi personal guards to watch over him and keep him safe

#feel free to add other thots #i wanted to think up more cuz im so sure theres a lot you can do #to parallel it to a mob story #im just too tired to think more #i love them tho #also think its funny if the two of them view their relationship differently #like to kaiba its an office romance cuz the violence is a natural part of his life now #to yugi its an intense mob boss romance that hes not sure he signed up for actually #rivalshipping #yugi mutou #yugi muto #seto kaiba #yugioh #devo speaks

[blaithnne]

so I’m realising my intense anxiety for Hilda’s third season to come out is PROBABLY an autism thing

#like. it’s been 2 years of it being the same #the fandoms been in the same place and the show has too #and now it’s gonna change and it is giving me so much anxiety #when the special interest is so intense that you feel physically ill at the thought of new content because it’s just so overwhelming #<- that’s not my usual exaggerated ‘I’m so unwell’ thing either like I have layed awake at night feeling #sick LMAO #bc of s3 #which is so frustrating because I’m excited! I love this show! I want more! #but because it’s so important to me. new content is going to have a big effect on me #and I don’t want it too cries #does that make sense? no? sick #it’s either an autism thing or there’s just something wrong with me either way I’d like this feeling to go away please it isn’t fun #hilda #textpost #it’s like I just want it to come out already so I can watch it and know what’s happening cause I hate not knowing what’s going on #i need to have. my information organised #and rn I don’t #and that makes me rlly anxious lolz #like I’m anxious for season 3 in a good excited way #but also in a geniunley bad way #I wish my brain was. normal lo #l #this got more venty than I meant it to sorryblads #might delete later #I’m sad hilda is ending bc it’s over and I don’t want it to be but #also it’s weirdly comforting to know that I don’t have to go through this intense anxiety again #cause I don’t get like this with other fandoms! dr who for example I’m living new content #but for Hilda I geniunkey feel unwell #it’s the same with the idea of there ever being new ducktales content #I care so much that it’s. bad for me lol??

[skitskatdacat63]

Orb...

+ process kinda

#istg lineart is just a horrible terrible thing LOL #i sketch and it goes very well and i am very happy and i feel very creative!!! #i have to do lineart and it makes me want to give up the piece ..... #i get to paint and im like omg i could do this for hours !!! this is so fun !!!!!! #thus: orb #im very happy w it so thats why im posting #idk how long the actual piece is gonna take so might as well post a little sneak peak ig #lmfao i gave up on the crown bcs it was too complicated and then drew this. maybe the crown will come back. prob not #im surprised w the process of this. i usually struggle a lot w accurately referencing real life things #and i usually end up tracing them just to understand how the form works #and god ive drawn so many complicated things for this piece and havent had to trace at all???? okay????? #i mean ofc its not entirely accurate bcs the craftsmanship on the original orb is actually insane #but i think ive got it down p well :) #ill have to try to make the gold look a bit better at some point later on but for now its !!! #i like how half my art i post here is either chibis #or just the most brainrot intense historically detailed shit ever #yes no one i talk to probably knows what a globus cruciger is but GOD DAMN IT IM GONNA DRAW IT ACCURATELY #had this thought ^ when i looked at my top posts and my last post was those nando chibis #and then after a week of not drawing after that im like yeah let me draw several imperial relics #catie.art.

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

..

#hi back for now bc it's fall break and I'm stuck on campus #trying not to complain about it but I've been having stomach issues for at least the past couple of weeks #it's been acting up since I got here but the past few weeks and specifically the past few days it's become a lot more intense #I made an appointment with the medical clinic here on campus and they're treating me with something for a possible stomach ulcer right now #I have a follow-up in a couple of weeks #I'm struggling to keep on top of all my thoughts and feelings and emotions right now too #which may be causing or compounding the stomach issues. honestly who knows. #all I know for sure rn is that I feel very tired and worn out despite it being fall break #and I wish I didn't feel this way #kinda sad and very tired #it's a perfect opportunity to catch up on school work that I've fallen behind on. and yet I feel completely unable to even think #about school. hhhhh. 🙃 #it's been such a hard year guys. and I don't want to complain or wallow but I wish I could just break down have a good cry #or a screaming fit if needed #just get it all out #and then maybe I'd be able to cope a little better #unfortunately I'm not sure that's how it works. so I guess I'm stuck feeling like this for now.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm very excited for more content of your lights out au, I'm so eager to see just how good you can get at writing/creating angst!

oh babey. thats where i Shine.

#i have gotten many a fic comment where people curse me out and/or say that they cried #sometimes i get someone saying i made them sob #its a compliment every time and i strive for it! #i dont fuck around with my fics i Do Not Hold Back and that is a Warning #this is the only aspect of my creations that im confident in #and hopefully soon you'll all See! you will see. #just a little taste its nothing too intense really. #id label it more hurt/comfort than straight up angst #but yeah if people arent crying im doing it wrong #i rarely do it wrong. #JESTING JESTING im not That good. now im just exaggerating for a Humorous Touch #rambles from the bog #i might. miiiiiight. might might might maybe mayhaps might #write a certain scene from lights out that everyone already knows will happen #so... might as well dust off my hurt / no comfort skills #could be fun. i want to hurt people again #in a good safe 'you Chose to read this' way #theres a certain feeling that comes with being someone who enjoys writing angst #the happiness i get from people telling me my writing hurt them. Yes <3 #so so validating. so fulfilling. #just read through some old fic comments on my better works and mmmmm talk about an ego boost....

[soldier-poet-king]

SOUP ACQUIRED but I'm still having an insane emotional time with the I can't regulate my emotions disease and I'm still crying about this stupid video game, and what it means, and what these stories and themes mean to me more broadly, and how it's all a reflection of the human spirit and a way of communicating the inexpressible with one another and like. ART. WORDS. STORIES. THE HUMAN HEART.

#i feel so silly. but also i wouldn't want to give up the intensity of emotion for anything #its what defines my life. to me #both the good and the bad #and oh isnt the good ever so good and beautiful #and now i have soup! #and it's butternut squash which is one of my faves #and pf tonight!!! im so emotional. i might have to crochet during the session just to keep my hands busy #or else I get TOO bit emotions #shout out to isla for reading my category 5 fran moment on discord

[mishapen-dear]

baddddddd. he's giving pomme first pick of their dungeon loot rn. he's so NICE. not just to the eggs but in general (i am always thinking of those elegant letters). but the eggs are the only ones who he will quickly and easily show vulnerability to. with everyone else it's like there's a layer there, a wall of silliness he keeps up on purpose, but it just. isn't there with the eggs.

there's something about the way that he cares that I can't put into words. like he cares so much. so fucking intensely. look at dapper. look how kitted out that egg is. look at how much time bbh has spent with the eggs, and look at how much time and effort he puts into figuring out how to keep them safe. he goes HAM when it comes to caring for the eggs, but it comes so naturally to him. it feels like caring for people with his whole entire soul is his default, but he doesn't want it to be. or, maybe want play a part in it- maybe it's too dangerous to care so much so quickly. maybe that puts other people he loves at risk. maybe it scares people. but that wall between him and other people is one that he built, and it's bbh, so he built it strong, so even when he's surrounded by people who have proven over and over that they care for him (that they care for the eggs, that they will not hurt them), he can't fully believe it.

im just. bad knows foolish so well. he knows that man wouldnt on purpose kill any eggs. but pomme killed foolish and bbh, dying of laughter, having the time of his life, told her to "put your armour on. just in case."

#i am putting him under a microscope and studying him carefully #i didn't used to be a big bbh watcher but now im obsessed with that little freak #qsmp #something about his relationship with foolish feels like a twisting of that care too tbh #like he would Not be fucking around with foolish so much if they didn't get along so well #but it has the same intensity #its like instead of a wall between him and foosh there's a cellophane tarp covered in silly colours that keeps getting twisted and rung out #and they use it like a string for those can phones #like with players that wall or layer can be warped into something extra silly but it's just Not There in the same way with the eggs #even with richas who torments him especially like foolish does #idk im also thinking about earlier today when bad was like 'yeah you can shoot me :D' to pomme #and the way his qsmp fighting style is eating totem after totem after totem to essentially sacrifice his own well-being for the people f #he loves #idk if im even making sense anymore and the pomme thing happened a while ago now lmao #but he's absolutely fascinating as a character #i need to figure out a fun fic concept to stick him to i need to put him in situations