#the man could use more friends

[nerdpoe]

Vlad meets Lex. He realizes some things.

Vlad meets Lex Luthor at a gala, and Lex is schmoozing hard.

Lex has heard about Vlad's weirdass business deals, knows something isn't right, and he want whatever untraceable power Vlad's got at his disposal.

Lex has done his research, and knows that Vlad got the equipment for cloning, but that no child was ever announced. So Lex starts bragging, going on and on about Kon and talking about the kid like he's a Thing.

And Vlad, listening to this, has some unfortunate realizations about how he was treating Ellie.

So Vlad excuses himself and does some digging of his own, and holy shit do the dead have a lot to gossip about regarding how Superman used to treat the boy, and Vlad...doesn't want to be compared to either of those buffoons.

He's better than both of them combined.

And he's gonna prove it.

He's gonna be the daddest dad that ever dadded.

He'll be way better than Jack, and if he's a better father than Jack then Daniel and Jasmine and Maddie will follow! He just has to learn how to be a good parent.

Easy.

He proceeds to buy every parenting book he can find, and signs himself up for parenting classes.

Ellie, minding her own business, feels a shiver go down her back.

#dpxdc #dcxdp #dp x dc #dc x dp #story prompt #phanfic #vlad's obsession has switched from wooing maddie with money to wooing her with good parenting skills #redemtion fic #vlad slowly starts to have his obsession switch from maddie to just being a good father #ellie fuckin books it #various justice league members have seen a dracula-esque man chasing a white haired kid through their cities #the only one who could have feasibly done anything was J'onn #he read teh general vibe of “LET ME FATHER YOU” and decided to leave it alone #he did tell batman though #maybe he and that strange dracula meta can bond #the man could use more friends

[morii-moth]

"this is me on day one of NO rendog !!"

#glad to know hes coping just as well as the rest of us #how in the world does martyn consistently stay the last few green/yellow lifes/ win and yet... #anyways i love the new series if only i could please have more than 2 episodes from martyn thatd be really great thanks #love to see a man get a good beating just kidding pleas #if he dies i will start sobbing trust me #already had me in tears from the first ep #but actually it was wonderful just please if he could make some friends thatd be swell #or not martyn lone wolf arc??? #im gonna post this before in hate it because it is 5am and i dont have time to start fixing what was supposed to be a sketch #i really love my yapping in the tags im so sorry #inthelittlewood #itlwart #trafficblr #mcyt #traffic life smp #life series #secret life #secret life smp #life smp #traffic spoilers #my art

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi the suckening #arthur bennett #HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT? #LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT #this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page. #but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT #ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH #WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW? #ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME #DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER #HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW #AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE #I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much.... #AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game #but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping #DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds #I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors #what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012. #almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS. #only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE #while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs #THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN #WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS #the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess. #i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band #EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION

[peevishpants]

Rainy Day Outfit 3: Lilypads

Boots colour scheme inspired by louboutins! ... and north american leeches ^^"

#fashion #style #outfit #weiwei art #rainy day #pond #lilies #cottagecore #theres a leech in my friends cottage lake called Kobe i think #man i gotta use black shadows more its such a look #every time i see louboutins all i can think of are LEECHES #I think if u hav brown hair u would look awesome in brown overalls #Also nice overalls are SO EXPENSIVE?!?? #I was lookin for one online cheapest ones i could find that didnt look made of thin material was like $80 #Come on man thats like 2 weeks groceries #Well. Not anymore. Not in this economy. #Eggs r $8.29 for 30. Im goin broke bc i love eggs

[hypogryffin]

i cant believe i wasn't following u b4,,,,,ive just been silently scrolling through your blog for like a solid YEAR and just haven't even noticed????? n e ways what are tha thoughts on literally anyone in p4 being trans bc i live for that 🎤

the way my brain decided that this was asking for pronoun headcanons and did not reread to make sure that was what you were asking before drawing all of this…... well anyways

#asks & requests #p4 #trans naoto #<- trans everyone lmaooooo #sort of waffling on chie-- he could also be trans or enby easily #ive always thought he would be a 'my gender is lesbian' type person tho LMAO #if hes trans then she and yukiko are as close as they are because trans friends lmao if chie is afab then i think that would come up #accepting his shadow- part of him not feeling 'feminine' enough is that yukiko is more of a woman than her in societys eyes and well. #its not a violent outing bc no one who heard her shadow is like that but chie apologises to yukiko for that #yukiko transitioned pretty early so no one in town (school age at least) really knows #rise is afab its just that she Despises the idea of being a man #kanji is cis but hes cis+ after exploring; does do the occasional drag but is a gay man who happens to use she/her #yosukes whole vibe is 'probably nonbinary but i have a job so i cant worry about that rn'. also i think maybe bigenderism in his future #he/him only for the foreseeable future tho. baby steps #narukami is defo stealth mode for at least the beginning of the game but probably around teddie or naotos shadow she comes out #and i like kuma so ze is like me and uses it/its. :). #ok those are all my notes. sorry for not directly responding to what you asked but i do think what i said is a good answer to your wuestion. #for claritys sake i also live for it.

[enha-stars]

okay this has nothing to do with enha (i should shut up) but i have to tell SOMEONE. basically, this guy, a friend of a friend, has been hanging out with my friend group a lot more. he’s cool and funny and okay looking ig (lie) except, one of my friends is interested in him but he is not interested in her. as in, he makes it pretty obvious. he avoids being alone w her (by inviting others) and he often dodges questions about relationships. however…. today… after my midterm, we were all in the library and my friend asked him if he wanted to go with her to get food, and he respectfully declined. but then, after a bit, when i got up to get food, he offered to come with me. i’m not reading too much into it but my other friends have claimed that he’s more inclined towards me than my friend because he’s always the first to invite me and he genuinely has conversations with me. the issue is that this friend is very insecure when it comes to men and IF anything between me and this guy happens, she’s going to end my life probably

#so do i die or do i die #I DIDNT NOTICE #i don’t notice these things #u have to slap my face and yell at me for me to believe that u like me #okay so he talks to me… yay? #he’s a man (a pretty man but a man) idc what he’s talking about #like yes he’s cute and it’s very adorable that he has such a strong passion for economics but like #see #it’s like when u don’t like someone but then ur friends bring it up and then u can’t stop thinking about it #i’m actually concerned for my life though #if my friend even believes that he could like me #i’d have to kms #no joke #this has happened ONCE before and we had this huge falling out but i literally told her to stop being an idiot #because why would a man come between us #however ☝🏽 #after further thought #he does pay more attention to me i think #BUT IN A FRIEND WAY #maybe he’s compensating for paying less attention to my friend #i wish she would get the hint #ok don’t mind me this is me being crazy and batshit #enha!me #end me now ig

[sexy-sapphic-sorcerer]

Recall the tale of Icarus.

Choose to be Icarus.

Linda K. Hughes, Text and Subtext in "Merlin and the Gleam", p.166 /// Alfred Tennyson, Merlin and the Gleam /// BBC Merlin, The Last Dragonlord (2x13) /// Natalie Wee, Patroclus Dreaming /// Hozier, I, Carrion (Icarian) /// BBC Merlin, The Wicked Day (4x03) /// @pencap, Please, Let Him Be Happy /// BBC Merlin, The Disir (5x05) /// Hozier, I, Carrion (Icarian) /// BBC Merlin, The Diamond of the Day: Part 2 (5x13) /// Natalie Wee, Patroclus Dreaming /// Alfred Tennyson, The Passing of Arthur /// BBC Merlin, The Diamond of the Day: Part 2 (5x13) /// Hozier, I, Carrion (Icarian) /// Alfred Tennyson, Merlin and the Gleam /// Natalie Wee, Patroclus Dreaming

#yes I am taking tennyson's poems that are very much about merlin the old man wizard and making it a gay romance #but!! many academics and tennyson's own son have said that merlin's grief for arthur in that poem was directly inspired by #the poet's grief for his almost-definitely-more-than-a-friend arthur hallam #I've been in a fun research rabbit hole today #I hope this post makes sense to literally anyone else lol #please just read the whole poem 'merlin and the gleam' cos there aren't many short parts I could use for this but the overall vibe #expresses this idea of destiny and blinding devotion far better. and it has a happier ending #merthur #merlin #bbc merlin #merlin web weave #merthur web weave #merthur meta #alfred tennyson #idylls of the king #arthurian legend

[makotonaegiunderstander]

something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.

“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”

#makoto naegi #Danganronpa character analysis #Danganronpa #danganronpa thh #danganronpa future arc #I fucking love Makoto Naegi man. #I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known #he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said #he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky #he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did #if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world. #he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done #and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend. #I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though #post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do #it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to #and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc #he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions #I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse #and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate #and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable. #honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually #I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself #that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels #it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it #it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic #anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for #the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!

[bumblingbabooshka]

Janeway in 'Nothing Human' vs Tuvok in 'Resolutions' There's something here I know there is I can almost wrap my teeth around it.

#I can't watch Nothing Human bc the puppet really disconcerts me #but I cannot believe Janeway really came into B'Elanna's room after all that and the FIRST thing she says...her OPENER is #'Wow it smells awful in here~!' #DUDE....................TIME AND PLACE #HEHEHHE #C'MON MAN #B'Elanna: Is [putting it behind us] an order? / Janeway [normal!]: Yes. #'And what emotion is that?' C'MON MAN!!!!!! #Janeway & Tuvok #Kathryn Janeway #Tuvok #I can see why she and Tuvok are friends #'I understand you're upset but fall in line' #You can be upset but not if effects your work #<- Something which would be fine on a regular ship but is very difficult on Voyager #I think Janeway's certain coldness or ruthlessness which can be aimed at either friend or foe is an interesting #aspect of her personality #Ex: She and B'Elanna COULD have feasibly had a more touching scene together to close out the episode but they don't #I don't know if I'm explaining myself well right now I'm a bit ill and more than a bit tired #Something about uhh maybe....people under their command vehemently and emotionally disagreeing with them/their decisions?? #you can disagree with me but not if you don't follow me anyway #Voyager a ship full of contradictions #they have to all work together and they are all closer emotionally than any other starship due to their situation #but they are also still 'at work' and are expected to follow orders. It's like a 'casual' hierarchy but it's still a hierarchy #and you can't fall too far out of line bc you're someone dear to me #but you're also a valued cog in the machine #and even though you ARE valued you ARE still a cog in the machine #but you're also my dear friend. and all of these things are true at once. #all of that of course but also Janeway & Tuvok are displaying a very particular kind of shared leadership style in these moments #Janeway is obviously on the whole MUUUCH more charismatic and understanding than Tuvok but still - when push comes to shove...

[constantvariations]

Rwby's biggest sin (outside of its infinity gauntlet of bigotry) is by and large its incuriosity

The story presents so many amazing concepts only to explore exactly none of them. Systemic injustice and the many ways to combat it, societies that live alongside man-eating monsters drawn to negative emotions, whether or not someone's unique ability reflects them as a person, four kingdoms with a long and bloody history needing to come together to deal with an apocalyptic threat, so on and so forth

That's a major factor in why people keep coming back to rwby, why its most consistent criticism is "wasted potential", why this show garners so much attention for better or worse

The audience is curious and the writers are not ¯\_(:/)_/¯

#rwde #watching khadija mbowes video on feminine rage and it got me thinking abt anger as a 'negative' emotion #particularly in regards to the entirety of the white fang plot. yangs anger being glossed over in v4. qrows anger not getting closure in v6 #all these examples are a direct response to a wrong: systemic injustice. literally loses a part of yourself. betrayal a close friend #and rwbys overwhelming answer is 'get over it' #ive never liked the idea of 'negative' emotions anyway. its usually used to demonize and silence people w legitimate concerns #hence the examples above #emotions arent inherently good or evil but your expression of them can be #i think itd be way more cool of grimm if they could be a genuine reflection of any emotion #the more chill the people are the more chill the grimm are #maybe people think theyre only drawn to negative emotions bc grimm get more active the more riled people get #idk man. rwby would be good if it was good yknow?

[a-snowpoff]

When the complex puzzle you spent 5 minutes giving the clearest and most concise explanation for, ends up making a straight path to victory, smh my head.

Baking collab with the charming @jnpie :> Jnpie had the initial inspiration and idea and I hyped it up and helped with the baking and picture taking XD

BUT CHECK OUT THE INSIDE SURPRISE!!!

More surprises and fun under the cut!

LOOK! JNPIE HAD THE AMAZING IDEA TO USE A SPRINKLE TO MAKE MY SIGNATURE SNOW POFF WITH THE COIN!!! HEEHEE, I really really loved adding this easter egg in 🥚

Cake crumbs do be lookin' like temmie flakes, OM NOM NOM!

Gosh, this was so fun to look at AND eat, hehehehe!

This was my first time making and decorating a cake! Being able to create this with a friend made it so much more fun and a memory I will always cherish! Oh, and yes of course the cake was heckin' dang delicious!

#Hey have you seen the blue cake ring for the frosted cake? #art collab #baking collab #cake collab #papyrus #undertale #alphys puzzle #a-snowpoff #jnpie #friend tag #oh man I have some funny memories with this cake... #like we tried to make 2 versions... one with and one without frosting to stick the layers together #the frosted version was our main attempt that jnpie assembled while I layered an unfrosted one #the thing is... I didnt have enough variety and all the cake rings were together so i accidentlly kept taking rings for the frosted one #we had sketched out exactly how we wanted our main cake to look when you cut a slice out while the second one was more for funsies #So not once... or twice... or THRICE... or however you say that lol.... did I have to undo my test cake but like maybe 4 or 5 times! #Because I was such a goldfish brain with ocd trying to make it have variety that just wasn't going to happen sdkjhgsdjg #I kept going... dang I could really use a blue cake ring... OH HEY LOOK AT THIS #EXACTLY THE COLOR I NEEDED RIGHT HERE! #5 minutes later... #Facepalming to infinity and beyond hahaha #also I stacked maybe 50 books to use as a tripod for my ipad to take pics for the stop motion turn arounds LOL #I had to get the lighting JUST right... also several attempts to get that to my very high standards nyeh heh heh! #Jnpie wanted to cut into the cake as soon as it was ready heheheh... but no! PAPYRUS MUST SPIN AND LOOK HE DOES! #Papyrus spin go BRRRRRRRRRRRRR! #really I should have posted this sooner but i was so indecisive on which pictures to use and share #plus i thought of drawing some extra artwork to pair with it but aaaaahhhh #the world needed to see this cake NOW DKJHDGK #gif

[hadesoftheladies]

hate going for christian weddings sometimes because i always see the prettiest women with the ugliest men, the sermon is always some shit about wives being slaves (but not like bad slavery, mutual slavery except the husband is a benevolent master which makes it okay) and making babies for their husband, the music is always lame, the mc is always weird and obnoxious, and older women keep fucking asking me when it's gonna be my turn and never take no for an answer.

#mine #personal #brief storytime in the tags #one of my family friends got married and i was happy she was happy #her parents are like an aunt and uncle to me #i was happy to share that moment with them #we cried and laughed together #and my friends #their other daughters were on the line and looked gorgeous #it was just beautiful watching us all grow up in a way and move on to “the next” together #BUT #im a pastor's kid #and my dad loves weddings #he drinks them in whenever he can now especially because they make him happy and he's had to attend a lot more funerals this year #he's been burdened a lot by how many people he's had to bury and how many hospital visits he's had to do #so i was happy to see him happy too #it just all felt so bittersweet to me #because i know how badly my parents want this for me and for themselves #there was a daddy-daughters dance at some point and i could feel my dad beaming beside me watching that #and i was a little sad about it because i was like im never gonna give you that #this could be the best thing i could ever give you and i will never give you this #i can never kneel at an altar in front of a pastor and swallow that sermon #i would never marry a man in my generation #if i married a woman you and almost the entire tent filled with people that watched me grow up would not attend #my happiest day would be another funeral for you #it was worse because im kind of a small celebrity in this community because of my parents and their siblings who are politicians #so people i barely knew kept coming up and asking me when it would be my turn and how they so looked forward to the day #and i was like i love that we're a community here and i missed the pestering of aunts since i left church #but at the same time i was glad to remember why i left #there is no freedom to be myself at all with them because all they do is project their beliefs and ideas on me because that's what children

[harvestmoth]

the minnow (+ a penguin)

#her name. ill never not read it as minnow. even through shes very obviously more like an otter #anyways the her :] sorry im on a mmj kick rn #i never realized how fun making things up is. why did i color pick things before when i could just do whatever #i think i used to like two years ago but. man whyd i stop this is fun #shes best friends with freddy fazbear btw. if you even care. they have eachother phone numbers and they call every night before bed #giggling and kicking their legs and everything #<- in reference to my last mmj post #project sekai #minori hanasato

[tin-can-iron-man]

I just. I love my dad so much guys

#MAN OF ALL TIME he's so fuckin rad #he came over to help me set up my desktop (got a pc btw) and funniest man in existence here he touched my desk saw it wobble and went ''NO' #came back with his tools and an office chair for me because he saw the chair I was gonna use and went :/ #this man brought over an ENTIRE TOOLBOX just for me because I cannot for the life of me find where the old one went and just. fixed the des #that I had been struggling with for about eight months at this point. in like twenty minutes. and then set up my desktop for me #he also brought over a webcam and microphone without any sort of promoting just because he knows I do discord calls with my friends and gf #also I dug out the instructions for the desk and before I could even hand him the paper he was like ''so this is how we fix this'' #and then fixed it and was like ''yeah you did that wrong but you were close'' #and then was like ''dont buy furniture and stuff without letting me know first what you want I'll keep an eye out'' #and I was laughing being like ''I didn't want to come to you every time I need something because I want you to see me as independent'' #and he went ''you live by yourself of course I see you as independent'' and my bitches the way I almost cried right there #just. idk something something the way my families love languages have always been acts of service and gift giving #and my dad insisting I should rely on him more and giving me stuff I wanted but don't have without EVER TELLING HIM I wanted said things #just. my dad is so cool guys #sorry I saw my computer set up vibing on my desk and got completely overwhelmed #ignore me #not marvel related

[obeymeow]

nightbringer lesson 14 FUCKED ME UP in several ways but primarily I've spent the last 48 hours making myself sad over the solomon backstory we got. specifically I have, for no reason, latched onto that one chapter in the Kids event where baby solomon cried because he felt so guilty over being responsible for that spell. and that just feels a touch more depressing in context

#nightbringer spoilers #obey me on side #went back and unlocked the event again because i could not get this out of my brain i know it's probably not that deep #but it is that deep TO ME. okay #baby solomon has been on my brain since thirteen told that story so that's probably why it's sticking in my brain so hard but whatever #in case anyone was wondering the other things to make me sad are: #he has such a deeply excessive amount of lights in his room in purgatory hall there are SEVERAL chandeliers and lamps #there's a good handful in his room in cocytus hall too (his horror dg showed it) if a more normal amount #but that with the 'dim and gloomy' detail. ☹️ #i've also always thought that solomon's loneliness wasn't all about the immortal angst but like. #having it confirmed that he's had reason to be lonely since he was a child- before he was old enough to know he was using magic- #totally crushed me girl why can't I be wrong #had emotions about lesson 14 in general but solomon backstory steals the show every time for me so i haven't gotten around to the rest #i'm enjoying the nightbringer story so much (not talking about the game design. that's a different thing entirely) but man #the pacing is WILD it feels like every lesson could be a whole lesson block at the least. it's giving me a lot of room to speculate #which I always love! but i do wish they would slow down a little and expand on some of these concepts they're bringing up #because the basic idea of the game alone is REALLY INTRIGUING and it'd be a shame if they raced back to the present imo #what was i even talking about. sorry my brain fast forwards as soon as i get into the tags there is not one sequitur to be seen #so curious about solomon's friend now too. like my guess is it's going to be lilith (and hopefully not in a popular fan theory kind of way) #because it's more than a little suspicious that they expanded on lilith's views on humans the way they did #in a way that SO PERFECTLY lines up with the expansion on solomon's views on humans #WHICH I HAVEN'T TALKED ABOUT YET BY THE WAY BUT LIKE. HE IS SO RIGHT AND REAL FOR THAT #it's beyond stressful to me that I think solomon is completely justified in his views and being completely reasonable about it #but that it would also mean war between the worlds presumably while the brothers are still recovering from THEIRS #you cannot give me that choice man. not even sure that the human world would be ABLE to win that fight if we're being real #solomon's 72 pacts are a lot yes but he's still only one guy who is NOT on good terms with the sorcerer's society #and mc is powerful but so so inexperienced. and that's IF they choose to side with the human world which #really i don't think the canon mc is likely to do. but anyway i guess solomon's friend could also be adam maybe? #that could be wishful thinking because i like adam though. even if his hair SUUUCKS #deeply offended by everyone thinking solomon got the fucked up hair when all signs point to adam be NICE TO HIM he's ugly already

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Anybody else slowly disassociating more and more as you slowly lose all of your touchstones in this world?

#it can't be just me right #also i am stoned and can't sleep why is it already past 2am damn #disassociation #no close family any more #one half sister where we have a weird relationship because i basically raised her for a while #so when we're around each other we just remind each other of our horrific childhoods and various mental health issues from that #all of my friends either live too far away are too busy with their own lives and loves (understandable) or have just forgotten me #starting to feel like I imagined that whole fling with d #but geez it'd be pretty pathetic if even a romance I made up in my head didn't end up with someone choosing me #then again I have trouble enjoying fantasies too far from the realm of possibility and maybe it's just not realistic to have someone want me #as more than a passing entertainment lol #anyway every day i feel less like a real person and more like a ghost or something imaginary or like a stranger in my own body #dang man i wish i could afford therapy i probably could use some huh #although my last therapist was pretty lackluster honestly #mental health #life of faye