#the only good part about this event

[svtskneecaps]

i'm still stuck on the purgatories so here's a list of purgatory 2 moments simply off the top of my head that deserve to be remembered:

aimsey ducking all of axolotl team alone in a cave with literally half a heart

goose gang fucking descending on the raccoon base and absolutely wrecking shop

ethan crankgameplays clutching up for team panda during the capture the flag game by being the only one hanging out in the center and periodically checking the chests, earning them a shitton of flags and clutching multiple rounds

crow team's egg taking 0 damage

pac doxxing goose gang's egg in the last second

shelby shubble as the last member of her team online writing a letter to aimsey and sharing the world's most devastating ten minutes before her team was eliminated with one of the eye creatures (coco? i forgot lol)

badboyhalo absolutely fucking DEMOLISHING the battleship event on like 2 hours of sleep and a dream

wuant(?) stealing a tv from the battleship event and then playing portuguese ice age on it for the crows lmfao

tubbo djing for his team while waiting for the time for a goose gambit

theguill CRASHING THROUGH THE FUCKING CEILING of the raccoon team's hidey hole like the fucking kool aid man in a last effort to save his team and 4v1 or 5v1 ing team raccoon; he lost but that was such an epic fucking moment

theguill and etoiles pvping and each hyping the other's skills the entire time

seapeekay escaping cellbit and baghera and then stealing their boats and rocketing past to tease them about it; that shit was iconic

kenny going mad with power collecting sand on literally day 1

the english speaking squirrels taking actual physical notes on portuguese phrases (i think)

lgbtiba

i may add more this is an off the top of my head list but like got DAMN i like these events :D i like them a lot

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory 2 #qpurgatory 2 #there hope those filter for u fuckers #(/affectionate) #shut up vic #block game brainrot #if you can't tell my povs went something like this: #crab -> raccoon -> panda -> capybara -> goose -> crow #so i didn't watch all of them lmfao #i only spent a few hours with raccoon and crab; panda i caught all of #capybara and goose i mostly watched on their elimination day #crow i hopped into on the final day as well tho i'd been keeping some tabs on them previously #just not concentrated watching #i like purgatories :D #to be clear though i hope they don't run purg 3 until like november 2024 at the absolute EARLIEST #the staff is NOT at the point they can handle it yet lol not for a while #the fact that one of the ex devs said they were already talking about purg 3 was crazy #like i'm patient i'm not nuts let's cook this one #this is neglecting to mention the post-server close calls which are my favorite part of the event no contest #oh yeah and i also have issues w how some of the special events work #those need some tweaking it's not perfect by any stretch of the imagination #but i enjoy it :) it has good moments

[imagionary]

Happy 20 years of not speaking to each other

#Evils said that Bondholder looks like Graham's dad as a joke and I took it too seriously as per always xD #IT'S SUCH A GOOD JOKE I HAD TO LMAO #Graham's mentioned lots of times in story that he does not have a good relationship with his parents #and that neither his mother or father were very present or caring about him while growing up #so what better to make his dad than a scheming business cretin in space #The astrocogs (other ttevh cogs will be included under that lable for our AU) work in a part of COGS.INC that's connected to the company #by an elevator that goes all the way up to the moon!! #most people think the elevator only goes up to Dave's mysterious office since he seems to be the only one with the key to it #but it turns out there's more to what's past that elevator than what meets the eye #the clouds and smog are so thick outside that even the people worlijg outside didn't know about the elevator and tower to the moon #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #toontown: corporate clash #imagionary rambles #ttcc au #pacesetter #graham ness payser #ttcc oc #ttevh #toontown event horizon #toontown: event horizon #space cadet #ttevh oc #bondholder #I think our Bondholder's name would be something like Richard Ness Payser #cause he paces people's richness; get it? through his binding bond contracts and stuff #both he and Dave are such strange Bossbots to me I love them both

[bloos-bloo]

Is it a curse? Can I not be happy?

#bloo’s art :) #qsmp fanart #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp bbh #qsmp dapper #qsmp egg fanart #qsmp eggs #I hope this came out good! #tumblr gets it first before twitter #The song is monster from adventure time! #it fits well with dapper huh? #I hope I got some of the events right #like I knew dapper’s first death and the code #but I didn’t know much about the soul vultures or pomme’s first meeting #but I’m working my way through the vods #I only know parts of the beginning #and up to purgatory #anyways- thoughts? comments? :D

[gibbearish]

ive seen ppl saying smth in the wider plagiarism discussion to the tune of "don't worry anxious people, it's impossible to accidentally plagiarize!" and i feel like that lacks a lot of nuance that anxious brains like mine latch on to to just dismiss the possibility outright, as well as a lack of life experiences fueling it.

it is possible to "accidentally plagiarize" in that you can read something, forget about it, then a while later have your brain spit the ideas back out without telling where it got them. so of course you just assume they're yours and share them as such, because That's Where Most Of The Thoughts In Your Head Come From! and it both is and isn't plagiarism, you weren't /intending/ to pass someone's else's work off as your own, i'd even say in a way you were just as much a victim of misinformation as your audience. but you very much so did still resuse the work of someone else, even if you don't remember it.

but in my experience, this kind of thing also happens to a lot of people. you tell a friend a joke then wake up in a cold sweat two days later realizing the reason they didnt laugh was because they'd told you that joke a month ago. you reply to a friend's text and after sending you realized you ended it with the same exact phrase as theirs. you're writing edgy poetry and write a line you really like only to see it in a text post two days later saying youve already liked the post. like, it happens. so if it DOES happens and you're just honest and explain, people will understand. something like "oh shit im sorry, i totally have read that, i mustve forgotten and only remembered bits and pieces and just thought they were mine. thank you for letting me know and for the source" works wonders.

people know you can forget things. people won't automatically doubt your apology just because all true plagiarists say it was accidental. HOPEFULLY people can understand the nuance between a genuine remorseful explanation, and a thief who hoped no one would find out scrambling for excuses for why they did it. and those who can't, that's a them problem, not a you problem, you've taken responsibility for your actions as much as you can. they think the answer is simple, that the only thing stopping you from saying "yes i did it on purpose, i knew the whole time and deliberately copied them" is shame/inability to admit to your actions. but sometimes things AREN'T that simple, so imo ppl who are shitty to you for not following the script they made up for you in their head should be ignored

#youre allowed to make up scripts for people in fact good luck stopping yourself since thats kinda just part of how conversation works #is you try to predict how your audience will react to a certain statement #and my therapist actually encouraged me to practice run stuff i wanna talk about in sessions because That Makes It Easier To Talk About #like who cares if it's rehearsed‚ it's still the truth‚ yknow? #however that only applies to the things /you/ want to say. you are the only one aware of this script and the only one who agreed to it in #the first place which is why you plan contingencies into the script #is because you only have control over one character and can only take guesses at what the others might say #if you guess wrong and they do something different that doesnt mean /theyre/ not following the script #it means /your/ copy was a misprint and you filled in the blanks wrong. so do what good actors do and improvise. you'll get back on script #eventually. or not‚ if your guesses devolved into wildly speculative fanfiction‚ but frankly you knew going into it that #most of your script was guesswork so you should be prepared to have to make some things up on the fly #or see again: prepare contingencies #if your guesswork on your copy of the script turns out to be wrong‚ wouldnt it be sooo handy to have a second copy which follows this #version of events much better? #and if not that one‚ maybe this third? how about this fourth? etc etc etc #but really just. when guessing at what others will say. know that you are guessing and dont hold it against /them/ if youre wrong #sorry ik that wasnt super related to the post itself im just also passionate abt that #plagiarism #james somerton

[evilsoup]

citing "decolonisation is not a metaphor" is an admission that you haven't thought deeply about "decolonisation" and have nothing useful to add to any discourse around it btw. It's a bad paper that says nothing of value.

#this post isn't about recent events #i just hate that such a useless piece of writing gets circulated as an authority on here #on the same level as fanon even! #i am sure most of the people citing it haven't read it and are just attracted by the only actually good part of it: the title

[kissmefriendly]

Okay, the little “History is…” talk in the new Amelia Project is making me emotional. Because, as a history buff, my absolute favourite part of history IS the people and the individual stories! One of my favourite things is to read the correspondences of people who never thought that their stories would ever be worth telling or would be important to the historical record.

“History is just wars and dates.”

“No. It’s people! It’s like… it’s like… what is it like? It’s like reading sci-fi but instead of the future it’s the past. But it’s still all stories and cultures and people and they’re different and you never really meet any of them-“

It’s such a lovely way of putting it. And, as Kozlowski points out, the past is still tangible and still impacts and exists in our modern world. Even if it bears little resemblance to what it once was 100 or even 500 years ago. Wars and dates are how we categorise the past, what we define eras by. But it does not give an accurate representation of the living, human parts of the world. How people still played practical jokes, how cultures were evolving or clinging to stay alive, or how for all of time people have always been here just as we are now. Just in different settings. And you know what, that’s beautiful.

The past is horrific and brutal and ugly. It’s also inspiring and worth remembering the stories that make it all up, the threads in the tapestry that is continuing to be woven. It’s about significant names such as Moliere and his death but it SIMULTANEOUSLY about the joy of that one day you found the perfect waffle.

#sorry for kinda going off #but I’m a massive history buff #(if you follow me on main you know this) #and it kills me whenever ppl disregard the past as Just Dates #or as being ONLY about the major events and Important People #so maybe I’m just reading WAY too much into this #but sometimes history is just about the joy of a good waffle #:’) #the amelia project #what ALSO kills me is that a lot of the people who I’m extremely interested in knowing the stories of weren’t literate #or what they did leave behind for the future is destroyed #never think something is unimportant in history #I promise you there will always be at least a handful of people who devote parts of their lives to wanting to know more #who become enamored by your story about dealing with the postal service in 1810 #it’s human to connect #mundanity is what allows us to connect most deeply with people from hundreds of years ago #history

[frogs-in3-hills]

the thing about me is i am obsessed with oumatsu i just don't talk about it because it's embarrassing how obsessed with them i am

#sully is typing #ndrv3 #oumatsu #oumaede #no shade to saihara i love saihara i think he's wonderful #but we were seriously robbed of the akamatsu & ouma dynamic it's tragic really...... #if v3 so good WHERE'S AKAMATSU HUH??? yall thought you could get away w giving us a female protag and then fridging her immediately???? #ahem. anyway #please watch their ch1 heart events they're so good and interesting i'm only a little insane about them at any given point in time #or not heart events. whatever the bonding cutscenes are called in dr i forget. #drv3 spoilers #ndrv3 spoilers #saioumatsu ALSO fucking rules but i just feel like yall sleeping on the oumatsu part..... that s my hottest dr take aren't you impressed #yeah yeah sorry for talking about danganronpa (lying)

[like-sands-of-time]

Wait wait wait, explain it to me like im dumb (I am)

Viserys wanted, "needed", a son as his heir so there would be no question of succession. Sooo why was aegon 2 not immediately named his new heir? And if it's a matter of waiting a year or something to make sure he lives then fine, on his birthday? The king can change who his heir is as many times as he needs I presume, it's sort of his right as the top dude. Don't tell me he thought everyone was just cool with rhaenyra as future queen when nobody was cool with rhaenys, including the old king himself

I imagine he likely would have married his daughter to his son were they closer in age to eliminate that problem, but if he did that rhaenyra would have been almost too old to *start* having kids so with that NOT being an option doesn't she immediately take the same cast off position that eldest daughters and second sons do? Am I missing something lol

#i get that the dance of the dragons is an important prequel event so it obviously cant be changed #and its all great story telling stuff especially the bit about little aegon being so traumatized after losing nearly his entire family #that he hates dragons.. his own kind.. the rest of his life. like thats horrible and a good story #but why was viserys fueling a battle of succession by keeping his daughter in a place she clearly wasnt meant to stay in? #while letting his wife scheme for her own sons benefit #this doesn't feel like a feminist win situation this feels like an absolute fail on everyones part #rhaenyras only claim to the throne is her father who himself wasnt really the heir so this whole thing kinda boggles my mind lol #hotd #asoiaf

[salemruinseverything]

when your card declines at therapy and they bring out the person you used to look up to because you felt like they were going through the same thing as you before you found out they were the exact type of power-hungry abusive dipshit you're terrified of becoming

#sorry for posting a tiktok trend as a tumblr textpost but my camera is broken still. #salem's random thoughts #for those wondering yes this is about Current Events with a Certain Minecraft Streamer #but also Less Recent Events with a Certain Lead Singer Of A Decently Popular Alt Pop Band #i just. i am actively trying so fucking hard to be a good person and to not hurt people #but i see people like this and i see how similar this persona they project is to mine and how similar their writing is to the way i feel #and then invariably it turns out they're corrosive shitheads who only care about power and i just. #i know so intrinsically that if i stopped putting out this facade and suppressing every instinct i have i would become just like them #and i don't want that to happen. i don't want to hurt anyone. shockingly even the people that deserve it #but it would be so easy. easy enough that i feel like one day it's going to happen without me noticing #and after that i don't even know if i'd look back until my name's fucking trending on twitter or something #like one of these days the ''don't hurt other people'' part of my brain is not going to kick in hard enough to turn off the ''don't give a #fuck about anyone else's opinion'' part and i'm gonna do some fucked up shit without realizing it. and i really don't fucking want that to #happen but i know the way my brain works and i know it's going to #i just hope it's something minor and easily fixable when it does

[drumlincountry]

EVERY fantasy book EVERY scifi novel every starwars movie every post apocalyptic show. I ask, WTF??? The same same question EVERY time. Say it with me - WHERE’S THE FARMING?

#ursula k le guin is guiding me. hand on my shoulder. #approx 200 generations of agriculturist ancestors stand at the other shoulder and they are yelling #where does your food come from? who makes your clothes? #who repairs them? #how do you store these things? how do you preserve them? #What fuel do u use to cook how many people are you feeding? #look. too much of the art i consume comes from the imperial core/global north where most of us have to think about where our shit comes from #approximately none of the time #but if u are writing about an alternative world u HAVE to have these systems #i just watched the gay episode of TLOU and it was pretty good in that regard but in the early part the guy had chickens #excellent move good work #and then the chickens never reappeared?? nor the food garden? we only saw leisure activities? which sure u could have some time i guess. #but what the fuck were you feeding those chickens? did ur big metal fence keep foxes away too? #and then at the end [spoiler event] WITHOUT LIKE. REFERENCING WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO THE ANIMALS? #YOU HAVE DEPENDENTS MY DUDE. YOU CAN'T JUST [SPOILER]. #and how do those quarantine zones work? those walled citiess? we saw the land 10 miles to the east and it was wilderness? #and weirdest thing there was pasture? grazed pasture? but no animals on it? is this city land? #why weren't the fugitives avoiding it? why was it in the middle of forest? #or was it some other self sufficient person? in an underground bunker? who herded all their sheep in when they heard people coming? #which if u have ever worked with sheep. good luck doing that urgently. #me fein #agriculture

[cynicalmusings]

‘the most crucial skill that a good drinksmith needs is listening… drinksmithing is all about having conversations with your guests’

tea house owner!reader energy for real

#my mind shot straight there when siobhan said this in the hsr event #hey guys #what if i just steal the concept of the event and write a continuation? #the reader does spy on people and accept bribes for jobs blah blah blah #but they also offer free therapy over tea! #(but only if they like the person if course) (everyone else is getting eavesdropped on) #…i started writing this as a joke but hey it could be fun #if i ever write a continuation of that fic i might do something like that #high cloud quintet members coming for therapy after baiheng dies #reader helping couples talk through problems in their relationship calmly #i’m a sucker for characters who are very elusive and sneaky and cold but when it comes to it have a heart of gold #‘yes i will expose your enemy’s business blah blah but hang on let me help this lost child find their parents first’ #‘oh you’re not being patient? you think your rivalry is more important than this child? actually you can keep the money and leave thank you #[turning to child] ‘now tell me where you last saw your parents’ #and with their connections from the various dealings they’ve had around the xianzhou they’d be really good at dealing with these situations #and with regards to the jing yuan aspect of things i firmly believe he needs somebody with kindness and warmth in them to fall for them #reader can’t all be bribery and dodgy deals #imagining him coming to the shop one day to get some information they’ve gathered or whatever #and they’re like ‘shush not now i’m hearing this girl vent about her shit partner’ #or doing something nice #and he falls even harder #sorry i have gone on an absolute tangent here #i don’t know what demon possessed me #maybe i will write a part two who knows #that reader would certainly be a fun one to flesh out #r’s random thoughts

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

Just gotta say, I’m realizing that how people discuss the Jon-Gilly situation is essentially how fandom has chosen to interpret Jaime and the trebuchet baby…there’s an interesting discussion to be had there, but this fandom just wants to focus on the extremely wrong thing in either scenario. Oh nuance, how I weep for you.

#I’m so so so tired #so tired #jon snow #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #interesting how the whole gilly ordeal is essentially co-opted depending on what part of the fandom you’re in #either to prove Jon is an evil callous monster with no compassion or feeling #completely ignoring that jon literally has to mentally harden and berate himself to do this #that he takes no joy in it - which parallels Aemon telling him to kill the boy because there will be no joy only hardship in his command #that this whole thing isn’t about him being unfeeling or without compassion #but about him trying to do good by others but going about things in a way that yields not so ideal results - presumably #because there is a chance that poor monster may be fed to the flames anyway post stabby stab #this is something that appears in other people’s arcs btw but some of y’all will ignore that 🧐 #other people will decide to take the Gilly situation and compare it to a completely unrelated and irrelevant event like?!! #and I won’t even mention trebuchet baby lmaoooo #Jon and Jaime being so popular in fandom but subject to the most surface level analysis imaginable #you HATE to see it #you are a hero to some and a villain to others #oaths and vows #the heart in conflict with itself #almost like that’s the point yeah?

[arabian-batboy]

What would you want in a future version of Damian

I think I answered a similar ask to this a while ago.

At the moment I’m not interested in thinking about future Damian, instead I want to focus on giving present Damian some good content because DC is rabidly aging him up while giving him unnecessary stories and every time you blink, they bring back that evil future version of him from Batman 666 that literally no one likes.

Putting that aside, if you're talking about a future version of Damian as in our real-time future and not comic-time future, then I really really really want DC to finally stop re-doing the same exact story about Damian being torn by both sides of his family for the millionth time and instead establish that Damian doesn't have to choose between or "run away" from either sides of his family, but that he can take the good parts that exist in both of his families while leaving all the bad parts behind and in doing so transcend to a person that's a better version than his father/mother/grandfather.

I personally really like the line in #4 in Robin that alluded to this.

#the first 4 issues are the only good part of Robin (2021) #everything else was just about setting up events and focusing on other characters #Damian Wayne #Ra's al Ghul

[hermetichermethermes]

Mutuals:

Genuinely sorry for those last 50 or so quickfire reblogs but sometimes it'll be 4am and I'll end up stalking my old blog's archive and drench myself in the nostalgia of better days where every single image on that blog instantly reminds me of a certain point of my life and I get lost in the reminiscent haze of memories that have long since been buried under the last decade.

Even if some of those posts aged like lukewarm milk or are unacceptable levels of cringe.

You get it.

#sometimes I miss my old blog #like back then I had a large friend group - a girlfriend - a literal black book full of an A to Z of drug contacts - a job #yeah it was wild #Nostalgia says we're only going to remember the good parts though and pretend that's all it was #we're NOT going to think about her though. we agreed #or the daily MDMA abuse #or losing all but one friend #or the best job I ever had #or decent contacts #nah #we decided those events weren't real and we won't be recollecting them #didn't we my precious #oh yes precious yess we dids

[coridallasmultipass]

TW for racism and genocide of Native Americans

Today I learned that the original "The only good _, is a dead _," was "The only good Indian, is a dead Indian." And it really sucks that now I know this information.

Looks like it's speculated to be attributed to one specific Union general due to his actions, but it was more likely just a common anti-Native sentiment of the time held by a lot of the settlers, not just one person.

Like I know I hear 'the only good snake, is a dead snake' most often since I love being in snake discussion groups, which also sucks because I love snakes, and they shouldn't be killed.

But I've also heard like 'the only good Nazi, is a dead Nazi.' And like, I So agree with that, fuck Nazis, but I don't want to think about the original phrase being reclaimed like that for a laugh, no matter how much I agree that Nazis suck.

It should stay as horrifying and sickening as 'the only good Indian, is a dead Indian' in my opinion. I think we should retire the phrase entirely and just note that, that was the origin of it - the continued genocide of Native Americans during the 1800s when settlers were eager to get rid of us so they could claim property for themselves while forcing us into insufficient reservations as US America expanded westward.

This book I'm reading describes that the usual retaliation for the theft of a cow would have been the execution of an entire Indian village. One specific horrifying example given, is from accounts of a traveler that joined a group of Mexicans pursuing Indians (Chumash) in possession of stolen horses. They come across a group of some old Indians, women and children, drying the horse meat. Every last one was killed, and their ears cut off as proof for the priests that they made every effort to retrieve the horses.

This shit is so sickening. They were hungry and trying to survive.

It also describes how the accounts of Indians from my tribe before the mission system were all about how generous and welcoming they were. (Though, it was through the lens of the Spanish who saw us as ideal candidates for conversion because of this.) Then after the collapse of the missions and post-assimilation, the accounts simply describe the Indians' drunkenness and disorder. What did you expect???? You assimilate a group of people so they're entirely reliant on you (the rigid structure of the mission system and the dismantling of their previous tribal villages), and then suddenly turn them out to a world without their previous villages and social order. Of course they're going to struggle and suffer and abuse the drugs (alcohol) you introduced them to.

I hate this so much.

The book also mentions how, during the mission period, anyone who ran away from the missions to go back to their original tribal lives, would be dragged back to the missions and cruelly punished with restraints, lashing, or stocks, and they couldn't understand why because punishment was exceedingly rare before Spanish rule.

Ugh. Anyway.

I'm going to bring this up any time I hear anyone mention that phrase, because the horror of that time period should not be diminished in its modern reclamation. ('Diminished,' because I, a 30yo Native American, did not even know the origin. I thought it was a modern phrase. Our local Native history was always glossed over in school to focus on the mission system. I didn't even learn of my tribe's revolt until like 2016 when I went to a lecture my tribe held.)

I get that reclamation is supposed to be like a good thing, to take away the power of its original use, but I personally don't think that's appropriate for this phrase that was used as a rally for genocide.

Maybe I'm just being a sensitive baby, though, who knows! I'm crying while reading a history book about my tribe. This shit really hurts deep, though. It always has.

#native #native american #n8v #ndn #the only good indian is a dead indian #history #american indian #indigenous #chumash #california #idk what to tag this bro #racism #genocide #prob gonna get this post blacklisted for that word with the current world events ugh #ill just leave it at that for now im not done w the book yet so i might post more when i get to the actual purpose of the book #this is just like part of the intro to set the historical background the book is focused on our cave art and i havent gotten there yet #Cori.exe #Post.exe #maybe this was something obvious to other people but i literally had no idea i dont watch westerns or anything... #...like that where i couldve heard the original phrase before today #this is the shit those 'parents rights' nuts dont want youth educated about #but we need to learn this even when its extremely uncomfortable because this is how life was for people in the 1800s #anyway ill leave it at that i wanna get through this book its already been renewed once and i still have a lot more to read

[qumiiiquinnquin]

ill never be good enough at anything

#vent #events of today only proved it #im genuinely so close to giving up completely #i dont feel happy when I draw because I know its not good enough and im ashamed when others see it because I know they think the same thing #I dont feel satisfied or accomplished when finishing schoolwork because I know others will have done it better and responded better and im #the stupidest person of the entire class. some things I just dont understand but I know everyone else or lots of others did #i cant do anything right. i cant socialize correctly. i cant remember to do anything. i cant keep any stable relationships #i know if i get a job they'll ly me off or fire me within days max weeks. i dont expect to be able to hold down a job for long #i dont have the skills necessary to become what I want to be which is a meteorologist. i struggle in math and that career is a lot of math #i actually want to be an artist too but ill die a lonely death. i cant even do this class. and artists are not paid enough to survive #hell what I do right now with art in my spare time is much worse than others. a mouse and microsoft paint. both arent good enough #i cant not compare myself to others. i know that they're all better than me. and im around these people every day and see it on social medi #i really want to put my art in our shredder and permanently delete files. i want to drop out. i dont know what to do with myself because i #know that im not good enough for anything except lay in bed like the depressed piece of shit i am and end up getting kicked out #i thought about just leaving class today and throwing myself down the stairwell from the top floor i was already on #just over the barrier thats right next to the first flight of stairs that prevents people from falling off the stairs from a height #the one you can look down and see the following flight of stairs. just throw myself down from that and hurt myself significantly. #ive been thinking about jumping again. from a new part of campus thats higher than where i initially wanted to fall from #if not those then sl!t my wrist or run into traffic #i just need to d!e. There's no room for someone as worthless as me #i cried when I came home today because im just done. i cant carry on and itd be better if i didnt. itd be preferred.