#the victoria in my head

[angelcasendgame]

This post by beloved @angelsdean is making me think a lot abt Dean + vulnerability, and how I'm reconsidering John's opinions on being openly emotional. And I used to think John would berate Dean for not being tough enough but these days, I think it comes from Dean not wanting to add to John's distress

This isn't to say John's never told Dean to put his emotions away, I'm sure he did at some point, esp with masculinity from the 80s to 2000s + the hunting community as a whole, but by in large, I don't think it's as cut and dry as John strictly telling Dean to "man up" or not show any emotions

In 1x09 Home, Dean calls John crying on the phone saying he's scared and he thinks the thing Mary killed is at the house, and I think if John outwardly berated Dean for being emotional, he would have rerecorded it to sound stoic/serious. I think what's more likely since John was so wrapped up in his own grief/distress, Dean's emotions were brushed past overtime and he stopped turning to John for for comfort/reassurance. And we see Dean and John both switch between father-son and drill sergeant-soldier mode, which doens't help

Growing up, Dean sees John struggling often with grief over losing Mary and the horrors of hunting, and not only has Dean comforted John about it, John has openly accepted the comfort!! And with Dean being forced to place himself between John and Sam constantly bickering, there wasn't enough space for him to show or priortize his own emotions so he simply remains as the Emotionally Supportive One while he (and John) neglect Dean's emotional needs

This isn't to say it's not neglect and abuse, it absolutely is!!! John never should have put Dean in this position where he's continuously comforting John because he doesn't have any adult friends to turn to for emotional support and makes his CHILD feel like he has to be the one to do it

And this is where Dean's facade comes from where he's reluctant to talk about his own stuff. When Dean says "no chick flick moments" in 1x01, it's because Sam is apologizing to Dean for how he spoke about Mary. And throughout the show, Dean shuts people down (mostly Sam lol, he does very easily open up to others) about wanting to talk about his own emotions but he doesn't express discomfort with listening, validating, and being there for others or making them feel uncomfortable for showing their own emotions, and that comes from years of experiences of supporting a super outwardly emotional John who isn't afraid to be vulnerable

#lots of rambling on little sleep i hope this makes sense kdjfhsgkjd #anyways thank you victoria!!! #john's neglect has been bouncing around my head for a while but i had no idea how to solidify my thoughts and your post was so perfect!! #<333 #renu rambles

[suguwu]

bee i am handing u the mic with mer!stsg,…,🎤

vic they just make me insane they would be so beautiful and so awful and so mesmerizing. beguiling creatures that they are. i wish i could put it better into words but they allude me.

i can just imagine satoru pulling you into the water as soon as he meets you, prodding at you like the curious thing he is, letting his hands trail all over you. suguru's watching from a nearby rock; it's him who reminds satoru that humans are delicate little things, that he should take more care with you.

satoru pouts. whines a little. but he eventually lets you go, leaving you treading water as he circles around you. his tail flickers between your legs, his fins tracing softly against your inner thighs. he's so much bigger than you. they both are, you realize, as suguru slips into the water to join him.

they're both beautiful too, suguru with his hair as dark as a moonless night and satoru's comet-tail eyes. suguru coos at you, talks to you until you start to calm down. satoru complains and sulks and tries to get your attention even though you shy away from him every time. you squeak when he ducks down so your faces are level, pulling back towards suguru.

suguru just smiles.

you never notice that the shore is getting further away.

#🪴.ask #victoria.🪷 #i really truly wish i could articulate what i have in my head #i'll smack this with a #yandere tw #mer!stsg

[marjoriestotch]

I just KNOW their history is insane....

#principal Victoria #mayor mcdaniels #south park #the lore in the show may be less than a page but in my head its 6 seasons and a movie

[normalpeoplethiings]

i love michael holden. i love his curly hair that looks kind of untamed. i love his green and blue eyes. i love the fact that he is so optimistic and cheers people up even when he might not receive that same energy back.

#michael holden #i love michael holden to bits #michael holden stan #biggest michael holden stan fr #im married (to michael) #michael has some sort of magic shit going on in his head istg #michael holden is officially my husband #michael and tori #michael is so silly #i love michael #tori and michael #lgbtqia #alice oseman #queer #ya novels #osemanverse #solitaire #tori spring #victoria spring #tori spring stan #tori spring coded thought #tori solitaire #michael solitaire #heartstopper #lgbtq #lgbtq novels #lgbtq community #lgbtqplus #charlie spring #nick nelson

[cpericardium]

The fact that Victoria Dallon casually used the R-slur at the bank AND defended the honour of a disabled girl at the Emma photoshoot is endlessly funny to me

This is just the kind of ally she is

#wormblr #wormwebserial #wildbow #parahumans #victoria dallon #glory girl #shaking my head writing this post to show i don't approve

[lifeisstrange-incorrectquotes]

Victoria: I hate Sundays. Boring-ass days.

Kate: I like Sundays.

Victoria: I like them too.

#submission #i so wish kate and victoria could canonically get along #i can see this in my head and it's adorable #thanks for the submission!!! #kate marsh #victoria chase #chasemarsh #life is memes #life is strange #incorrect quotes

[diasy]

ok well. slay

#infamous if #Victoria Valentine #seven lawless #orion Quinn #BTW. these are my interpretations before seeing any fanon so idk how accurate they are to the vision but this is how I saw them in my head #also I know orions hair is tidy and not like that.. but I just visualize him as Kevin eleven #art

[imperatrice21]

You know, I think it would be pretty interesting if in War Storm they actually did find a Newblood to cure Maven but when he gets cured and back to normal he doesn't remember a single thing he did while under Elara's control because it wasn't him at all and he's like super confused or something when they tell him how long its been and something something idk

#red queen #maven calore #mareven #victoria aveyard #mare x maven #mare barrow #red queen fanfiction #red queen fanfic #redqueen #idk bruh just some random idea that popped in my head #red queen 4 #war storm

[pyreofsunflowers]

hi uhm this is my stupid Seras design because whilke her uniform is cute and all it really bothers me that it isn't consistent at ALL with the other Hellsing uniforms (at least make it green? idk). I feel like if Alucard gets to wear whatever he wants so should she.. Under the cut is a version with some cute Y2K tattoos because I cant help myself

#my art #hellsing #seras victoria #hellsing ultimate #i may just start drawing her like this instead of her uniform who knows #the version of hellsing I watch in my head grows more and more different from the original with each passing day #tumblr ate the quality

[soundlessdragon]

Insanely validating to learn that the universal female Fall-Of-Rome experience is the Ex-Best-Friend

#yes she lives rent-free in my head but that's okay she doesn't owe me anything and I would never charge her #also to my middle school bff I still miss you too and think about you at least twice a week #and at least once a month I remember my neighbor bff when I was 5 Victoria I thought you were so pretty and fun and i was so sad to #to move away that i gave you all my favorite toys and then later i regretted that but maybe you remember me

[curioscurio]

5 am new ocs for Stellatorium drop. imagine 4 losers on the world's worst road trip through the Milky Way.

#artofcassafrass #my ocs #stellatorium #Marley stellatorium #Anastasia stellatorium #loc stellatorium #captain aster stellatorium #you can see the adventure time my brain has been marathoning #if you scratch your head and look sideways you can see an echo of charles and victoria #sorry for naming old ocs that i was 14

[sualne]

made Luffy and Law in tomodachi life like a week ago and im testing their compatibility with the girls (cant be gay in this game 😔) and while luffy best love compatibility is with a gnc lass named Jade Azhure aka Captain aka the fucking sea as person. he has little to no love compatibility with the rest of the girls which is so funny! He also has a 100% friendship compatibility with a guy called hamster (full name Pikimin Popuko).

Law on the other hands as a +90% love compatibility with four ppl including my fucking wife. (my wife and i love compatibility is 40%…..) why is he so popular??? is he going to steal my wife??

Law and Luffy friendship compatibility is fine, they haven’t met each other yet tho, living next to each other.

also bonus:

#undescribed #idk how divorce works in the game but I feel like after having 8 children with me my wife can’t go leave me for law. even though she would #have my full support. also anyone wants to know my family drama in tomodachi? my daughter is married to mod and her bestie is teru. #mob is head over heels for her but my girl has been considering divorce for year. I won’t let her tho cause its mob himself like cmon. #im waiting on grandchildren but i don’t feel like that will happen fjdjdj #mob and tsubomi dated a while back but they broke up and now he’s family. mogami and reigen are best friends. #sans is dating my oc gen which is just amazing as a concept. marshall lee is dating an old lady called granny justice. full name: #June Victoria. annnnd yeah. voilà. #i love this game

[femaledaily]

This is no disrespect for any writer, I get a lot of men doing really terrible things and women sitting silently while one tear slowly falls. And, I’m like,  ‘Oh, no, no no. We get mad and angry.’ I remember pulling Mark aside and saying, ‘I’m really sorry. But, the only way to play this truthfully is for me to attack him. - Anya Taylor-Joy

#misc #dailyfemale #dailywomen #cinematv #userladiesofcinema #moviegifs #chewieblog #fyeahmovies #usernessie #userstream #dailyflicks #this was better in my head #victoria #ours #~ #blood tw

[vienna-salvatori]

It's been 10 years since 1x07- The Hub first broadcast (Nov 12 2013)

So, in honour of an episode that's been playing on repeat in my head for a decade...

Here's my theory on what's actually going on with Victoria Hand, and why she's actually a paranoid-but-clever strategist, not as petty and incompetent as she comes across as.

Ah, series 1. Those were the days. The HYDRA reveal hadn't happened yet. Everyone was happy! They trusted each other, mostly! Sure, Skye's allegiances were questionable, but they got over that eventually. May might've had that whole "secret line to Fury" thing, but they sorted that too. Coulson might've had his head messed with, but it's not like that caused serious problems with his judgement until series 2.

... that we know of.

Here's a couple facts: 1) The team are running worldwide missions. Despite this, in one season, they end up passing through The Hub on three separate occasions (The Hub, The Magical Place (I think), and Turn, Turn, Turn/the finale arc.) It's clearly a bit of a, well, hub, for SHIELD activity, and sees a lot of people coming in and out. 2) It's unclear exactly how long Hand has been in charge of the Hub, but we know from s7 that she's been in SHIELD a while. There's nothing in series 1 to suggest that her command of The Hub is a recent promotion. Coulson, meanwhile, was recruited by Fury just out of high school. He's been in the field for decades by this point.

and-

3) When Coulson first meets Victoria Hand in 1x07, he claims to know her only by reputation.

Yeah, no.

I think it's highly unlikely that he's never crossed paths with Victoria Hand before. They might not know each other well- I, personally, think it's best if they do, but YMMV- but I cannot envision a scenario where the two haven't run operations together before.

My assumption, then: they did know each other. Coulson's had his head messed with, though, and he's forgotten all about it.

From Hand's perspective: that dude she really doesn't like has just shown up. He was supposed to be dead, but whatever, they work for SHIELD, shit happens sometimes. That said, he's got the strangest team she's ever seen- Melinda May back in the field, two sci-tech kids who didn't even pass their field exams, John Garrett's antisocial protege, and an enemy agent. (We, the audience, know that Skye is clear, but Hand has no reason to think anything but the worst of her.) He's also pretending that this is the first time they've ever met, for some reason.

... Maybe it's a weird prank.

She decides not to engage with it, because she has a lot of very important work to do and she doesn't really want to deal with any of That Bullshit. Except, Coulson's acting really differently to how he did before- I don't think it's very controversial to say that pre-Avengers Coulson and AoS!Coulson are two very different people. Melinda May- who she knows is one of his closest friends- is... not calling it out, for some reason. Also, he does have a history of recruiting wildcard agents, but usually he follows protocol once they're in. This random kid he found in a van is just wandering around poking her head into things, and Coulson isn't stopping her even though that is against the system. Hand might not like Coulson, but she knows that he does his paperwork and follows the rules. He'll bend them completely out of shape, but he won't break them outright without very good reason. Or at least, he used to do that.

The whole situation is alarming on so many levels. So... she decides to test him- the stupidest, most obvious test that Phil Coulson- who has always been pedantic about the safety of his people- will catch instantly.

She'll "forget" to file the extraction plan.

He'll spot it, of course. He'll spot it instantly, and she'll roll her eyes and file the paperwork she's already filled out. She'll say that this is why they have procedures and it's important to follow them, not just turn up in someone's airspace with a team that makes no sense and ignore all rules and protocol.

Except, Phil Coulson does not notice. It takes his team members breaking protocol in front of of all of them for him to spot a problem in the mission paperwork she physically placed into his hands.

And that? That is not Phil Coulson. She might not like Phil Coulson, but she does know him, and he always looks out for his agents. That's not Coulson, and May is playing along with the imposter for some reason, even when she knows him even better than Hand does.

In the end, she just lets it all play out, because this is so far off what she expected she honestly wants to know how far it reaches.

If she tries to chase up Coulson's file afterwards, she'll hit the (canonically very weird) firewalls and restrictions around TAHITI protocol. If she tries to report the oddities to Fury or Hill, they'll brush her off- again, TAHITI protocol. There's something wrong with that dude and no one in her agency is taking her seriously.

So. Once the HYDRA reveal happens, and she starts looking for moles? Well, there's one really obvious place where standard SHIELD protocol is failing. The issue stretches to some pretty high levels, too- this isn't just baby-agent incompetence. That probably means Coulson's HYDRA. May must be too, if she's covering for him. Skye is, still, basically an enemy agent, Hand won't lose sleep over her. I have... thoughts... about the fact that Hand outright tries to shoot John Garrett out of the sky despite, or because of, their working history, but she's definitely suspicious of him, too. Ward is his agent and likely to follow his lead- when the Twist happens, Ward plays up how betrayed he is, and Hand buys it without question, which makes me think she did know they were pretty close. Simmons is already in the Hub, she can clear her separately.

Really, the only actual loss if she was to take that plane down would be Fitz.

Hand brings down the plane because she has legitimate reason to believe Coulson is an enemy agent, and so is the rest of his team. When she sends her people to storm the BUS, she wants Coulson alive, because he's probably the highest-ranking HYDRA member she can actually get her hands on. She wants some answers, damnit. The rest are acceptable losses if it comes to that.

#AoS #agents of shield #agents of s.h.i.e.l.d. #1x07 #aos 1x07 #1x07 the hub #Victoria Hand #Phil Coulson #SHIELD #HYDRA #vic has been my blorbo for like a decade now. that's insane to think about #I have entire AUs in my head to explain why she is the way she is #none of them are ever getting written but I like thinking about them #she's just. she's such a good character to rotate!!! #fourteen year old me had such a crush on her #twenty four year old me still has such a crush on her. #she's just so fun #she's a character on the side of the good guys who is only tenuously a 'good guy' herself and it makes her so delightful

[pricknim]

messy cuddling

#i'm not going to render it anymore so just take it #it was just supposed to be some light cuddling #as a warm up #not a full piece cause something is (or a lot of things are) missing #victoria loves burring her head in the back of max's neck #but her mane is starting to bother her a bit lol #the only time maxwell can get relatively enough sleep is when she's being spooned by her angry gf #max #maxwell!max #maxwell #max caulfield #victoria chase #victoria #chasefield #lis #life is strange #my art #well sketch #my mess

[willows-woes]

"why do you keep saying she's autistic??"

her:

"I Have An Obsession That Nobody My Age Shares But I Feel An Intense Need To Engage With It" [Star Wars, and I mean technically this "obsession" wasn't gone into much detail but I'm allowed to say whatever I want]

"i don't understand social cues fml"

"BADTEXTUREBADTEXTUREBADTEXTURE-"

"I Feel Weirdly And Unexplainably Different From Other People"

"i am aware that i am being weird. but i like being weird."

*doesn't know how to comfort people, but she tries her best*

*emotional flat affect*

*sarcastic, but doesn't understand others' sarcasm*

*bluntness*

"I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING YOU'RE DOING OR SAYING, AND IT'S KILLING ME, BECAUSE I ALREADY DON'T UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING ABOUT ME, OR MICHAEL, OR BECKY--" [word-for-word, canon quote]

+ i, an autistic, relate to her in multiple ways

#feel free to add on to this!! #i've repeatedly had this conversation *in my head* with family members #just because it didn't happen doesn't make it less real /j #tori spring #autistic tori spring #autistic headcanon #solitaire alice oseman #my blorbo victoria is autistic and i will carry that to my grave #it's canon in my eyes though