#things my mom would make fun of me for

[rapidlydecayingcorpse]

the 'pick an option and reload if it's a bad one' games have doomed me i opened my fridge and mentally saw a list laid out like in stp

#okay there's two games i saw like that #but in my defense #the 12 hour life is strange gameplay video did numbers on me #and i've been religiously playing slay the princess #and unfortunately #i cannot reload or rewind #things my mom would make fun of me for #stp #slay the princess #life is strange

[cygnus-is-tired]

Orthodontist hate him, dentist fear him! It’s NIBBLY!!!

(Unlike Nibbly you aren’t a god so don’t bite hard candy, you can and will fuck up your teeth)

#fun fact about me #my mom was an orthodontist for the first like 15-16 years of my life #you would not BELIEVE how many times my cousins would be dragged to our house at all hours of the day because they did something dumb #and broke their braces #my art #doodle #hatchetfield #nibblenephim #nibbly #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #I attempted to make his hat thing that I can’t remember the name of look glittery by using stippling #and I don’t think it works like I intended but oh well #can’t do anything about it now

[disposal-blueeee]

halloween thing i drew for an art trade with @cherry-207 ! she asked for edgar and scri dressed as angel and devil . you can see her part here !

edgar vargas belongs to jhonen vasquez

scriabin belongs to @zarla-s

#hello . uhhhhhhhhhhh #UHHH WAIT WAIT I CAN EXPLAIN I SWEAR #i know i haven't posted a thing since like A MONTH AND I'M SORRY BUT i have a really nice excuse for this . yes . #right after posting devi's drawing my mom BROKE HER FOOT ?? WOAH ! #and idk maybe i was sad or . stressed because i had to do a bunch of things my mom used to take care of and it was really stressing #this + school stuff + a drawing a day + some other things pretty much started killing me #and suddenly i was getting hives every single day after 11.30pm . yeah . it was TERRIBLE #so uh . i had to stop doing some stuff for my own wellbeing . like . drawing . for example #but it worked ! #now i just have a bunch of mosquito bites on my hands . they seem to like them . #OH SO well um YEAH DRAWING #an art trade with one of my friends !!!! drawing this was honestly so fun #as you can see this is from october 25th . but i wanted to wait for brusk to finish her piece before posting it #te quedó precioso emily . valió totalmente la pena la espera . tqm #edgar's costume looked so boring next to scriabin's #he looked way prettier with wings but if i wanted to add them i would have to erase 90% of scriabin and he came out so pretty to do that #so . instead of making him wear something pretty and detailed like scri's costume i had to make him wear something you could see and think #“ oh yeah that's an angel ” #i explained this to brusk after showing her the drawing and she said #“ if you think about it . him having a traditional costume fits his character " #and i was like OH #ACTUALLY YEAH THAT'S COOL #anyways i really like this one . the colors are so pretty . i finally found a way to make my colors warm and pretty . #WELL UH THAT'S TOO MANY TAGS BYE #vargas #zarla s #vargas zarla #scriabin vargas #edgar vargas

[nanowatzophina]

OC Questionnaire! (Warden Edition as well)

Thanks to @dungeons-and-dragon-age for tagging me! I'm gonna do my Wardens as well since... like her, I don't wanna go on too long and... I really would go on too long if I did anything besides my wardens...

Even with just my wardens it's going to go for a while... so I apologize

This is my second time typing this all out-- so bear with me...

NAME: Rosal Surana

NICKNAME: Rose/Rosie? Not a lot of people actually use nicknames for her but those are an option.

GENDER: Female (she/they)

STAR SIGN: ((I don't know enough about Star Signs or Tarot cards so-- I'm just not going to answer these ones)

HEIGHT: Average for an elf

ORIENTATION: Biromantic Asexual

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: Ferelden! Born in Denerim to be specific but her mother was a Dalish elf.

FAVORITE FRUIT: Peaches

FAVORITE SEASON: Fall! When the air becomes crisp.

FAVORITE FLOWER: Lilies and Lilacs

FAVORITE SCENT: Floral scents remind her of her mother, Firewood, Old parchment, new books, charcoal

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Hot Chocolate or Chai with honey

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: Depends on if she has a new book she's trying to read... But usually like... 5? 5 hours sounds right...

DOGS OR CATS: Both!

DREAM TRIP: A historical trip around different places she's read about!

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: One really thick and fuzzy one.

RANDOM FACT: She can not do healing magic to save her life and yet that won't stop her from trying. That's how she got those scars, trying to heal herself in the fight going up the Tower of Ishal but just making it scar over really badly. But hey, at least it stopped bleeding.

NAME: Lannaris Mahariel

NICKNAME: Lan or Lanna

GENDER: Female (she/her)

HEIGHT: On the shorter side for an elf which makes her pretty short compared to humans.

ORIENTATION: Gay. Lesbian. Women.

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: Dalish!

FAVORITE FRUIT: Plums or Blackberries

FAVORITE SEASON: Spring or Summer (before it gets to hot)

FAVORITE FLOWER: Geranium

FAVORITE SCENT: Woodsy, right after rain,

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Herbal tea

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 6. Schedules are important to her.

DOGS OR CATS: Cats, she's actually scared of dogs (which is why she never went to the kennel in Ostagar's camp)

DREAM TRIP: The Arbor Wilds, just to see the trees...

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: 1-2

RANDOM FACT: Her dream house would be a really cool treehouse. She'd love to live there with Leliana 3 cats and 6 nugs far away from other people... Just them and the forest.

NAME: Fen'nas Mahariel

NICKNAME: Fen!

GENDER: Male (he/they)

HEIGHT: Tall for an elf, around Morrigan's height

ORIENTATION: Bisexual

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: Dalish! Was born in the Hinterlands

FAVORITE FRUIT: Berries! Favorite is probably blueberries or raspberries.

FAVORITE SEASON: Spring! He loves the flowers

FAVORITE FLOWER: He loves them all! Though loves Honeysuckle.

FAVORITE SCENT: Floral, Cedar and stronger scented herbs like rosemary and basil.

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Chai for sure.

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: You guys count? (probably like... 8-9, honestly he probably sleeps in a lot later than he should and stays up later than he should too)

DOGS OR CATS: Either! Doesn't have too much of opinion.

DREAM TRIP: Anywhere with Morrigan <3

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: 1

RANDOM FACT: He loves halla. He was really hoping that he'd one day get to be a caretaker for them. He loved to feed them and brush them whenever he wasn't off hunting or patrolling for the clan.

NAME: Alana Cousland

NICKNAME: Pup (her father is the only one allowed to call her that though) Rose (Alistair only)

GENDER: Female (she/her)

HEIGHT: Average?

ORIENTATION: Demi

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: Ferelden!

FAVORITE FRUIT: Oranges and Pears (not together... just... depending on her mood??? or what's in season?)

FAVORITE SEASON: Summer

FAVORITE FLOWER: Doesn't think much of flowers, honestly.

FAVORITE SCENT: Stables and gardens. Which I guess is to say manure but that doesn't sound like a good scent even though that's what it is... Earthy smells like that.

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Coffee... with a lot of sugar and cream.

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 6

DOGS OR CATS: Dogs. 100% Man's best friend.

DREAM TRIP: Adventure off somewhere, anywhere. It doesn't matter... just away from Ferelden.

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: 3-4

RANDOM FACT: She would actively scare away suitors, much to her Mother's chagrin... She would be purposefully blunt and rude in social situations and tease people relentlessly until they left her alone. She used to see being married off as the most torturous future possible. She also dislikes dresses. And probably wears pants around the castle to everyone's horror.

NAME: Solan Aeducan

NICKNAME: Sol, Nug

GENDER: Female (they/she)

HEIGHT: Short? Considering she's a dwarf? But probably a normal height for them.

ORIENTATION: LESBIAN.

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: Orzammarian

FAVORITE FRUIT: Strawberries

FAVORITE SEASON: Any of them but Winter. She HATES the cold.

FAVORITE FLOWER: Orchid, though she's come to love most flowers, she didn't know there was quite so many of them just growing everywhere you looked.

FAVORITE SCENT: Steel, Fire, the smell of home, but also the smell of a clear night, and the expensive perfumes Leliana wears

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Coffee. Black.

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 5 but she doesn't need that much.

DOGS OR CATS: Dogs

DREAM TRIP: The Deep Roads, she always dreamed of going deep and finding a new Thaig, finding long forgotten treasures and gold and being an adventurer finding lost places down in the deep.

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: All of them. Why is it so sodding cold on the surface??

RANDOM FACT: She loves the stars. It took a little bit to adjust but the stars were likely the first things she found truly beautiful about the surface after being cast out of her home. She loves finding constellations and learning the stories of them. She feels more connected to them than she ever did the Stone, though she would never admit it... except to Leli

NAME: Iris Tabris

NICKNAME: Petal, Little Flower

GENDER: Female (she/her) ((look at all this variety I have right?))

HEIGHT: Tall for an elf, average for a human

ORIENTATION: Asexual

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: Ferelden Alienage elf!

FAVORITE FRUIT: Grapes, sweet ones

FAVORITE SEASON: Spring

FAVORITE FLOWER: Iris, it was her mother's favorite, which is why she was named after it.

FAVORITE SCENT: Floral scents, smell of fresh baked bread, cinnamon

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Hot Chocolate with lots of whipped cream

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 7-8. Sleep is important.

DOGS OR CATS: Cats, generally dislikes dogs though her mabari hound is a very strong exception.

DREAM TRIP: To big cities in other countries, like in Orlais or Antiva... She would love to see what their architecture looks like.

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: 1, but only if it's very soft.

RANDOM FACT: Iris is really sensitive to textures and physical touch. It makes finding outfits a little difficult for her, considering Ferelden (probably) doesn't have a lot of great options in the way of textures, but because of that she got pretty good at making alterations to outfits. She is generally touch averse, though with permission, which Alistair is sure to always ask for, she's usually fine.

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STAR SIGN: 

HEIGHT:

ORIENTATION:

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FAVORITE FRUIT:

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#and that's that!! #gosh... i can't believe i typed that all again #thankfully i remembered most of what i typed #i hope it's generally the same #maybe with improvements rather than information lost... #thanks again laya for tagging me! This was really fun! #I love things that make me ask questions about my mcs #might do this with my hawkes and inquistors next #those ones have a bit more variety in gender i feel like... #at least there is a couple more dudes and like... two enbies #also... why was the fruit question like... the hardest one for me??? #my mind would just immediately go blank #like... what do you mean there is different fruits besides apple??? I can't remember any of them #got my mom to list off a bunch of them which helped #anyways #these tags are getting ridiculous #let's do the actual tagging that i need: #dragon age origins #wardens #oc quistionnairre #rosal surana #lannaris mahariel #fen'nas mahariel #alana cousland #solan aeducan #iris tabris #what a way to start the year!

[teaandinanity]

It continues to give me the warm fuzzies that basically every person at work has said they'll miss me. And it's not really utility, even if I'm useful; I am not in a critical position. There are many people who can do the things I do, even if the majority are less experienced. I'm not management, or a lynchpin, just a long-time worker bee.

But people like me, and I just handled a Crisis Situation well enough that the AD took the time to personally thank me, and my manager was like 'not only am I willing to be a reference you can use my personal phone number if that's easier' and even some of the newest additions said they're going to miss me on desk, and I just.

I love my job and my coworkers and it's really nice that the people there know it and love me back.

#I told mom about Crisis Situation #and tonight when dad got home she was like COME IN AND TELL YOUR DAD #and then both of them were like WHEN COMPANY COMES NEXT WEEK TELL THEM TOO #haha #I mean dad did follow it up with 'no you may not drive across the country alone we will figure something out' #I'm gonna work on him about it we tried the thing where all of us are in one vehicle #Tuesday screamed the whole time and mom wanted to kill her and also me #I shall remind him of that #I think he will probably come around #if I could convince someone to come with I would probably make it an actual road trip #'come to TX for the eclipse!' #'we will drive through the deep south and hit some Neat Shit and then go up the coast!' #like you could make that a fun drive #I'm not gonna do the long version if I'm solo tho bc my parents are convinced I will be murdered #which is silly; I have not infrequently been in Situations and strangers have been kind #also the odds of getting strangermurdered for no damn reason are SO low #and the incentives to murder Me Specifically are also very low #and if a white cishet-passing woman dies 90% of the time it's a romantic partner and I'm aroace so like #I really wonder what they're imagining is gonna happen #babble tea (blacklist this for less chatter) #tea writes tag novels

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

You knew my mother was here | Moth Work

Lonan has stopped paddling. The canoe sits in the middle of the lake, lifeless like a bone in the water. He’s turned so Harrison sees him in profile and can’t tell if it’s relieving or worrying to see his face. Lonan’s jaw is taut, like there are words he wants to say but can’t. Filling up the hollow bone. He blinks slowly, like he’s trying to re-centre himself, his chest quivering with breaths meant to steady him. The water laps at the base of the canoe, whirling like his head. Dark hair tangles down his cheeks like the fingers of a poltergeist.

“You knew my mother was here,” Lonan says.

“Yes.”

“How?”

“Research.”

LONAN PORTRAIT TO GRACE (HAUNT?) YOUR DASH!! <3

Excerpt circa 2019.

#this was sooo fun hehee #I meant to draw HB Lonan but it looked more like MW Lonan which is dumb because they are literally the Same Guy only a month apart but #BUT I HAD MY LOGICCCC #anyway <3 #he’s wearing Harrison’s jacket <333 like he does for most of the book lol #lonan ‘I’m not gay’ clark #there are probably things abt this I’ll change but I didn’t want to spend too long making it perfect !!! #but I mean he’s pretty perfect in himself hehe <3 #THIS scene is why moth work was called boys on a boat for a long time #THE OGs KNOW LOL #personally if I saw this man the only words coming out of my mouth would be okay babygirl but maybe that’s just me looool #like sometimes I’m like harrison WHY this man WHY #and then I draw him and I’m like yeah yeah okay #the sketch at one point looked so much like REEVE!!!! so I’m gonna draw over it and make it her lol #anyway did you know that the whole reason moth work even happens is because #Harrison’s worried about Lonan’s add*ction & as a last resort is like #okkkk I can’t help you but maybe your bio mom can???? and Izzy is at the cabin lol #sometimes I forget that was the reason!!!! #anyway kissing him on the cheek #I hope he finds happiness and love!!!!! #art

[magentagalaxies]

so my friend and i are currently chatting about how i just discovered me referring to weed as "pot" makes me sound like a suburban mom even tho i didn't realize it was an "old-timey" term (??? it sounds just as normal as "weed" to me???)

and i just realized the reason i say pot is specifically because 1. watching kids in the hall (and other things from that era) and 2. talking about pot with the kids in the hall (the ones i know irl still use that word)

so for everyone's information i do NOT sound like a suburban mom for saying "pot" i sound like an old canadian gay man!!!!

but anyway that conversation moved on to talking about weed and the kids in the hall and now i must bring a poll to tumblr

(even if you have smoked before this is about placing yourself in the hypothetical situation i'd be in bc i've never been stoned before and my friend and i were joking about how my first time getting high would be with one of the kids in the hall lmao)

also in your opinion is saying "pot" weird???? literally so confusing to me like damn i guess all my interactions with weed are through the lens of 1. media from the 90s or 2. people who were young adults in the 90s

#as someone who honestly could have my first time smoking weed be with one of these poll options here's my personal take #just on the 3 i know irl bc i have no idea how the others would be #i think scott could be fun if i had a good reaction. but bc there's a chance i wouldn't #my take is that scott would be a person i'd smoke with after i'd done it a few times. bc otherwise he might stress me out #(or i'd stress myself out bc holy shit it's scott thompson) #bruce could be fun but i feel like he'd get very dad energy about it. which like maybe that's the vibe you want #but personally i think bruce would be so supportive it would circle back around to stressing me out somehow lmao #paul bellini tho? he has the ultimate chill stoner uncle vibes. he would be very fun to get high with but also if i had a bad reaction #i know he'd understand and like be able to deal with that without making it into a whole thing. like he's just the genuinely cool uncle #deadass i don't have much of an interest in weed but like thinking about my social circle it would almost definitely be paul #even realistically taking into account my non-kith friends and people my own age i'm like no it had to be bellini lmao #i should let paul know i've cast him in this role #anyway let me know your thoughts especially if you'd choose one of the other three #and let me know if i sound like a suburban mom or an old fag (affectionate)

[helpimstuckposting]

You know what? Fuck the ‘it’s just Wednesday for aroace people’ posts! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! Happy make cute pink cookies day!! Happy chocolate day!! Happy decorate your house in hearts and frills because it’s cute and fun day!! Happy buy yourself or your friends some flowers day!! Happy make a romcom movie night with snacks and pillow forts day!! Happy make stupid silly valentines for your pets day!! I love valentines day ❤️

#just because I’m ace doesn’t mean I don’t love holidays #even if they’re not a big deal #my mom would always buy my favorite candies #and have them all set up at the kitchen table for me to find #when I woke up #and I love her #and I make cookies or cupcakes for my coworkers #and put cute sparkly pink hearts in my candle dish #and hang heart shaped garland on the banister #because it’s cute and harmless and fun #it’s NOT just Wednesday to me #it’s a fun silly day that I can shower myself with cute things #and shower my friends in love #and be a little silly #valentines day #aroace #arospec #acespec #asexuality #asexual

[bonestrouslingbones]

btw big shoutout to that woodworking class i took in my final semester of high school for allowing me to 1. not constantly sound like i'm talking entirely out of my ass and 2. hide some very niche secrets because of the like 2 full months of paperwork & osha training before i got to actually build anything

#dont click see all on the tags i accidentally went insane over woodworking Its Not Worth it #god that class was such a mess. it took so long bc we couldn't all go to the shop unless everybody passed the safety test #and. well i'm pretty sure only i and like 3 other kids actually wanted to be there . im still a bit angry about it yeah #i wanted to build a table for my mom for mother's day and didn't finish it til JUNE and then it fell APAAARRTTTTTTTT!!!!! but its FINE #I WAS GRADUATING LIKE A WEEK AFTER BUILDING THAT TABLE BUT ITS ///FINEEEEEE//// #THE actual knowledge that i still retained from it is really funny tho tbh #the only thing you can call a guard on a bandsaw is the lil 2" radius circle printed around where the blade goes through the table #if you put your fingers inside of that circle they will be Swiftly Removed #i am more comfortable with that fucking thing than a hand drill #however drill presses are fine. kinda fun actually #walnut smells really good when it's being ripped but the dust gets fucking everywhere somehow even more than white oak #that was my last class of the day that semester and i would constantly go home with my black clothes having turned brown #and i'll say. most fulfilling class i've ever taken to be completely honest #ik i am not attending a trade school but WHYYYYYY DOESNT MY UNIVERSITY OFFER WOODWORKING AAAAGGG #WHAT IF I DROP OUT TO BECOME ONE OF THOSE YOUTUBER GUYS THAT MAKES TABLES THAT ALL LOOK THE SAME HUH. WAHT THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!! #WHAT IF I WANT TO MAKE 32 TABLETOPS OUT OF MINIMALLY TRIMMED SLABS AND EPOXY THAT ALL SOMEHOW LOOK BORING. WHAT IF I MAKE BANK ON THAT #ITS! BETTER!! THAN ALL THESE ESSAYS!!!!!!!!! #ahegm sorry folks. what i meant to say is that whenever ebony looks like he's creaming himself over furniture that's me talking through him #all that being said if i ever have to look at autocad ever again i will start huffing the polyurethane

[milo-is-rambling]

Need to stop making jokes about my grief and depression but then literally who would I be anymore.

#idk who I am if I’m not constantly making fun of myself and all my problems #and usually not dealing with them #my sadness is like a bandaid that I refuse to rip off and instead I’m just peeling it agonizingly slow and it’s also somehow peeling all of #the skin off my body at the same time and I become a live wound of a person #I wish I had my shit together enough for college or living on my own bs sometimes I think the only thing that would fix me would be picking #me up and putting me in a different state somewhere up north closer to my friends and like that’s all I need to fix me #if I wasn’t so painfully isolated life would be stellar but i can’t ever bring myself to reach out and I’m afraid constantly that everyone #hates me and is wishing I’d stop bothering them wahhhhhhhh I hate it !!!! my brain is evil!!!! I hate that it’s attatched to the rest of me! #my mom will be like. you don’t take responsibility for yourself and your feelings and you wallow in them and you blame your brain instead of #fixing yourself and I’ll be like. 😐. so how do I stop? and she’s like. idk. #I feel like my head is on fire I’m pausing my tolerance break tonight I’m gonna go get some mystery weed from my moms weed tray and pack a #bowl and probably cry some more #why did the year and a half dad death anniversary have to happen on such a humid day I just wanna walk thru the woods and cry and smoke

[sadgirlautumn]

As much as I love Gilmore Girls I really wish I could rewrite it because so many choices the writers made me like why would you do this????

#to be fair I only watched the show in full once 2 years ago but the one thing that really bothers me #is that Jess (one of my favorite characters ever probably) is sent to live with his uncle aka Luke because he’s causing trouble and his mom #can’t handle it or whatever and then later in the show she becomes a prominent character and gets rebranded and has a horribly unfunny #husband and it’s just like???? why didn’t they show her trying to become a better mother to Jess first??? why did they just have to bring #her in as some sort of quirky character who is essentially just a problem for Luke to deal with which gave him an excuse to ignore the love #of his life Lorelei #just so much of the show makes me want to pull my hair out but god I felt so empty when I watched all the episodes it really filled a void #in my life as someone who never went to actual high school or college and it was fun to see a girl do the things that I imagined I would do #when I was older back when I was like 6 and didn’t understand how life worked #anyway #I need to sleep #autumn rambles

[nomaishuttle]

watched secret world of arrietty potentially my new favorite ghibli movie... not potentially i think it legit is

#i watched fourr movies today 2 ive seen b4 and 2 new ones... arrietty was one of da new ones #the other new one was orlando pretty good i liked how likee. artsy it was... it was very cool basically i liked it and i rly loved the #costuming #i do wish it had subtitles on site i use tho bc i had a hard time understanding.. not da movies fault bc i have a hard time comprehending #dialogue in a Lot of older movies.. but i liked it :]] #but anyways yes. one thing abt me i was obsesseddd with borrowers as a kid it was part of my fairy obsession. i was sososososooso hopelessl #delighted by the concept of tiny people who live secretly and their houses and furniture are all fashioned out of #everyday human objects it made me fucking craaazy #me and my siblings favorite activity used to be building fairy houses... we even had one playground we loved specifically #bc it had a bunch of trees with little hollowed out areas under the roots which made the best fairy houses... #we had umm. for a while this is fun my mom had this likee. sheet she made that was like.. a grading sheet for playgrounds #so everytime we went to a playground wed check the little boxes for each thing on the list it had... like we had Curly slide swingset seesa #etc... and then wed also write in anything that wasnt on the sheet that we loved #and we wrote in Great for fairy houses for a lot of them.... it was rly rly rly fun i honestly think that might be part of where my love of #spreadsheets came from.. one thing abtme i looooove to categorize things by a set metric. so yes #basically :DDD I LOVE FAIRIES I LOVE BORROWERS!!! i rly rly rly wanna get into building those little miniature houses. dollhouses whyd i sa #minihouses LOL. i was thinking of likee studson studios type thang i forget what theyre called #ik they make little kits for it so id start with that but eventually id love 2 start just making my own... #i also used to watch those like. miniature cooking videos. they were my cocomelon i would literally watch them boil a droplet of water and #Lose my fucking mind KJASBDKUBSJ #or when they put the little miniature cake in their little miniature oven... i specifically am remembering the pancakes #I NEED 2 FIND THOSE AGAIN. I MISS THEM!!!!!

[okcoolthanks]

Two rats having lunch

Two rats having lunch

The vermin

The vermin

Enthusiastically munch!

TWO RATS

ON THE GROUND

EATIN FOOD

GRILLED CHEESE AND

TOMATO SOUP

#i almost want to make a cover b/c two trucks sounds really funky but I physically can’t put my brain through that #I just don’t like sex songs and shit #unrelated sorta but I watched Rocky horror picture show around Halloween and I dissasosiated so much that I barely remember what happened #the rest of the night #the whole of that day sucked too because that was when I was left outside for three hours at a dance that I only went too because my mom #wasn’t home so she couldn’t drop me off for the sleepover after and I thought it would be fun to show up as a surprise because I didn’t #think I’d be able to before! #but they forgot about me and I was crying outside in late October and everyone forgot abt me #even the teacher that came over to check on me. she said that she’d come back in a few mins and I said that was ok but she didn’t #I never blasted Spirit Phone into my ears as loud as I did that day #anyways that should’ve been another post in of itself sorry lmao #still mad about it even though I know it’s my fault I’m upset and they weren’t really at fault #I kinda fucked the friendship because I was very emotional and I haven’t had friends in YEARS so I didn’t know how arguments work? #and the only time I had real arguments was with my dad and that usually felt like a ‘you have to survive this make yourself right so he’ll #leave’ kinda thing #yay love trauma dumping good night guys

[lovestryke]

help i was supposed to go more in depth about the autism thing not vent

#anyways it was a good vent #understand me #hmm family always treats me like im stupid and weird and like criticize the strange awkward way i move and the random noises i make #the way my older sister will just give me a dirty look with a deranged smile when im not realizing im doing a little dance or hand movement #and like mockingly say “are you okay?” as if to make fun of me. imagine she talks like those stereotypical popular high school girls #im not even joking when i say she acts like that. and gossips about EVERY interaction with my mother like theyre both highschoolers. mom yo #have become the thing you resent. #and the way my younger sister gets really annoyed whenever i show my excited interest in something when she doesnt feel like being nice #like she'll open up apex legends and whenever i see her/or her teammate playing as pathfinder ill just occasionally look up and say PATHFIN #ERRRR!! while pointing and she just remains blank and quiet. yes she doesnt have to acknowledge or respond but man if you knew her you know #she would usually say something. and when i was getting into transformers i would rant aboot optimus she would roll her eyes and say ohh my #goodness #ive had to learn to tone down my outward interest about things

[kaldurcalm]

My dad's friend died and I need people to understand that sometimes I want to be able to send a message that conveys, like, a medium amount of emotion.

I'm trying to find a sympathy gif to send him and they're all like "my deepest sympathies" "with heartfelt emotion" "when someone becomes a memory they become a treasure" and I need the gif makers to back up two steps and just let me send a flower or something.

Sorry is enough. We're not close enough for all that. Let me have a middle option please.

#death mention #he got cancer and we haven't seen the family in years. how am i supposed to react to that #i do wish my sister would at least respond but idk why he sent us a group text #the mom is the only one who tried to keep in touch so i may send something on Facebook #but it was things like hey drive two hours to see this play we're in #so it's fun but it's akin to marketing y'know #i don't know how to handle death i don't know what i should be doing #also she kept sending those things during covid and i didn't respond but i was like. thanks for thinking of me! no. #idk i gave him a hug the other night and he cried #the kicker is that the episode we were on was about dealing with death and going off to war #things have a habit of lining up like that for me #we watched the birthday episode the day after my sister's birthday #and it was for the younger of two siblings #it is not appropriate to tell him sympies for the unforchies but i wish it were #it would make me laugh a little if it were me #i just reviewed the tags. the cancer and the not seeing him were entirely unrelated