#today has been exhausting and Not Great

[suburbanbonfire]

i'm so tired, poster sneak peek

#visual representation of my mental health #today has been exhausting and Not Great #started with the doctor and getting blood drawn #then moved onto fighting with my insurance company #and then an unexpected like 3 hours trying to fix my PC #i had hopes and dreams and ambitions today #not anymore buckaroo #wip

[curiosity-killed]

Shoutout to my friend who watched me go from “I feel like I’m going to throw up” to “I think I’m going to have an anxiety attack” to actively hyperventilating on the floor in the space of 1 (one) minute and somehow responded effectively.

Significantly less of a shoutout to my body for APPARENTLY having the exact same physical cues for both “going to pass out from low blood sugar/dehydration” and an anxiety attack

#things I’d rather not learn about myself! especially with an audience! and yet!!! #blegh #I’m fine now and ran the piece again but Jesus #today has been rough lmfao #everything hurts and I’m exhausted #also I haven’t had an anxiety attack since college #and literally don’t know how to resolve them aside from my college method #which was hyperventilate/cry in a secluded bathroom while imagining The Worst Possible Scenario #accepting it as fate and then walking out completely numb to the world #which is! not a great solution!! #hhhhhhhh #okay #showering brushing teeth going tf to sleep #personal

[heffrondriving]

soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :> #i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀 #(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!) #but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo! #also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ #okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

[bawnjourno]

i don’t have sewing pics from today to dump thoughts in the tags of so here r my boyz instead (charlie left joel right)

#this has been a text post #had a shit day at work bc my idiot manager didn’t schedule us heavily enough #couldn’t nap bc of fuckass daylight savings #had to pull an espresso shot to have the energy to walk charlie before sunset and do french zoom #took a bath but had no energy for homework today #movie night (30 rock) w lindsay was nice. that was great. #i’m just so so soooooo tired #the good news is that my lawyer is a magician fr and got my speeding ticket worked down to $48 & not on my record if i behave for 180 days #tomorrow i have other french zoom. but a shorter shift #work and school EXHAUSTING #i will also finish 30 rock either tomorrow or wednesday and i’m devastated #i don’t want it to be over!!!! #i watched this show all the way through almost exactly a decade ago #and watching it again has been like a spine adjustment but for my soul #like damn i was fucked up! i needed that! #ok gn

[dancedance-resolution]

exhausted dot png

#i’m cishet neurotypical for the weekend right and i guess bc i was cishet half of the time just two short years ago i thought this would be #a lot easier than it is? like i underestimated how exhausting this would be #not to sound Like This but hanging with all of these protestants really is so different than the catholics. maybe bc i’ve been largely surro #unded by catholics so im well adapted to dealing with them lol idk. #it’s just. i accepted that the cousins wouldn’t accept me if they ever knew but my beloved beloved great aunt….. #my mom is so sure that she would accept me if she knew but i’ve been telling her i don’t know i don’t know now that she’s a protestant it’s #different…. and lo and behold every other fucking word out of her mouth is virulent shit #and idk what to do with it. #i love her too much to lose her over this (for now) but christ i nearly told her i was a dyke at lunch today just to get her to shut up abou #t trans people. #i have no desire for my family to ever know i’m genderqueer bc i don’t need them to know but eventually my aunt is going to need to know the #homosexuality and this trip has just emphasized how. man it’s gonna be shit isn’t it. no doubt to cling to anymore. #anyways i’m expected to go to baptist church tmrw morning and autism brain i kind of want to go just to see what it’s like but me brain i’m #just. so tired. and even if the transgenders don’t get brought up in the service i don’t think i want to go anyways.

[kotaerukoto]

>Just a man, not a hero >Just a boy who had to sing this song >He cares very much >The world will never take his heart or break him >He will carry on

#ordinary courage — makoto #work has been in a word: exhausting. i'm on my feet this past week so much i'm drained as hell once i get back home and i just play vidya.. #but i've been listening to welcome to the black parade and!! it still is absolutely a makoto song!! #except the 'i don't care' part Makoto CARES and he cares VERY MUCH and this is his whole thing!! he cares a lot about others!! #if your muse is makoto's friend i hope that they know they are extremely important to him!! #we'll see what i can get to today though. i don't think there's any heavy lifting going on for a bit so i hopefully won't be so exhausted #all the time. optimism!! #makoto IS a hero btw he's just not a hero in the sense that he's a great man he is a hero in that he is a BRAVE man!!!! #(and also Makoto will always see himself as just an ordinary person and tends to be pretty self-deprecating) #i love the difference between eiyuu (英雄/great man) and yuusha (勇者/brave man) in Japanese guys it's so cool #I LOVE LANGUAGE SO MUCH

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#feelin weird. feelin real weird. in a bad way? no i guess not but more like im a haha wtf is happening here? #like i should maybe track my mood just so i can be like wtf is this? more bc i think its interesting #bc like i mean im spending ~11hrs in the lab and the stress has been real high and ive not been sleeping well #but like currently? i feel like i wanna run a mile. like i wanna run around in circles and scream and laugh until i cry #too much energy. too much energy. but y? where is it coming from? its weird #its like the edge of a headache. the cusp of turning. it doesn't quite feel bad yet but like i woke up at 4 #and was insane until 6 when i had to get up and then i was in the lab all day until 6.30 #and immediately i went for a run like empty stomach. i need to run now. and i still feel like that. like i need to run and run and run #but like y am i not exhausted? im not even tired? im vibrating #i watched the new successi0n episode twice and im losing my mind abt it #so its weird and i dont understand. but its not bad. it feels out of control like it feels fucked up but im not being like irradic #like if i was standing beside someone i dont think theyd notice. except maybe my sister bc i think if i talked id be noticeable #energetic. idk maybe im just exhausted and brain is pumping me with stress hormones so i csnt stop but i also csnt feel it #but i suspect its something to do with estrogen and progesterone levels changing which isnt great bc ive got a cycle that borders being #concerningly short but like idk rn its fun. im sure itll break and ill split apart but rn everything feels hilarious #its also weird bc im always like: y do i have so much energy after i dont sleep? is not sleeping thr answer. and today i was like hm #maybe i cant sleep bc i have too much energy. hm. idk its not bad. it doesn't feel bad #it just feels interesting and notable so im noting it. weird stuff. hopefully it pulls me thru tomorrow #bc my back fucking hurts lmao and its monday so ppl r back in the lab as i stand around for 11 hours #unrelated

[hueningkai]

#o boy its been a shit january fr. #i feel so !!!! suffocated n alone #the fact i had to call in bc of the state of my mental health on monday was insane. i've never rly done that #and some people knew so it made it even more stressful having people worry 😭😭😭😭 #my colleague did get me chocolate + iced coffee today to cheer me up :') #which was great bc as a result i am Sick and have NO voice and everything aches. #i walked into work yesterday and had to ground myself and do breathing exercises #i am fucking exhausted i slept well but still felt drained mentally n physically #im!!!! not okay!!!! but ill be okay!!!! #i may delete but im just. sad. kermit sad. #change is 😬 #i had terrible eye pain last week and i kept telling people it was stress but they didnt believe me!!! #eye pain n cluster headaches n the fact even my meds dont curb this anxiety/depressive episodes !!!! #and my memory has been TERRIBLE like my memory sucks anyway but im talking forgetting things after like 2 secs . #i walk a few steps and i am like ? i forgot what im doing #kye.txt

[defiledtomb]

I posted a writers update on the forum!

Tldr is that progress is progressing + life is taking the piss + a bunch of snippets + F!Auryn art

#ouroboros-if #interactive fiction #I'm sorry I didn't copy paste here but there are many spoilery bits and I am exhausted #i go on vacation today lol I think I mangled my words last time #i'll be holding off on answering asks for a bit longer but I'll be around shitposting probably #just mentally im in a dumpster and its on fire. my mom went into hospital last week and it brought up some additional issues #and frankly im just exhausted. i was on sick leave before this job so its still an adjustment that is mentally taxing #and ouro has been a welcome escape but progress is so non-linear that an update still looks to be a while longer #but im greatful for your support anywany #<3 hope you're doing well

[lauradonnelly]

tas my beloved are you okay 🥺💕

my sweet fyscka 🥺

#in all seriousness tho #it has Been A Day #i think today is the most i’ve cried since the finale aired 10 years ago??? #such an emotional day for me #for all of us really #i went through the over 100 pages i have in my ‘the end’ tag and relived so many emotions 😭 #and i’ve admittedly felt a little disconnected from merlin over the last few months #and i’m not sure why #but today reminded me of how important that show will always be to me #and now it’s irreparably damaged my psyche (lol) #but anyway!! #i am doing…ok #not great #like i’m so exhausted from all the tears and my eyes are so dry #and im #emotionally wiped out #but honestly i am just so proud of the fandom for persevering after a freaking decade of no new content #and as emotionally taxing as today was #it was the first time in a long time where my dash and the tags were flooded with endless merlin #and that made me really happy #just to know that our little fandom is still hanging in there #waiting for arthur to rise again 🥺 #i love you fyscka thank you for checking on me 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛 #feuxx #tas replies to things #lovely people

[coffee-bat]

i should be studying phycology..but i dont want to

#too lazy to edit the meme #ramble #the last few weeks uni has been intent on killing us i think #all of what's LEFT of us i mean. they've already made over half of us drop out from sheer pressure in the 1st semester (18 left from 45+). #and its not enough for them apparently #the tests have been constant and almost daily. i had a test on monday. on tuesday. yesterday. i have an exam today. #when are we SUPPOSED to study for this shit #and when we fail the teachers go off on us about how were lazy and stupid and fail bc we're 'partying instead of studying' and if someone- #-isnt having a great day mentally they jab that it must be hungover from partying #like they just cant comprehend that no. we dont have fucking TIME to party if we wanted to. were just exhausted and overwhelmed and your- #-subject isnt the only one we have to study for #ughghghgh sorry i needed to rant im so tired #im only being kept alive by pyrcon in june and the fact that my cosplay is ready #//also yesterday when i arrived to class my friend immediately told me that i 'look like something chewed me up then spat me out' and yeah- #-thats accurate i think. good that im starting to look how i feel ig lol

[snake-eyes-11]

📱- ooc;

#🎲 out of luck (ooc) #[I keep waking up exhausted and today I woke up exhausted and sad which is...not a great combo. #Home is pretty chaotic at the moment as our entire kitchen has been ripped out and we're living out of the dining room #There was a discussion yesterday about going out to eat one night but with me being coeliac it just gets complicated :/ #Work was a complete shambles last week and so far seems better this week but yeah... #I don't know. I'm mostly on Disco atm if you need me; but I'll try and be back here at some stage.] #🎲 spreading nightmares (on mobile) #tbd #negativity cw

[finnlessshark]

i'm having a movie night with my wife on tuesday and my silly lizard brain is so excited about it that i now can't sleep.. a full 4 days *before* the movie night.

#@ my brain: bestie please i'm so tired #today has been exhausting and i need to sleep #i think we're watching repo: the genetic opera bc neither of us have seen it but i'm not 100% sure #EITHER WAY AM EXCITE #i love movie nights with her they're great #we have a lil drinky drink and watch some very interesting things #my favourite was actually the law enforcement guide to satanic cults #psalty the psalm book was. something that's for sure. i wanna rewatch that but high instead of drunk

[hashketchum2]

pros of being an adult with multiple families: multiple christmas days

cons of being an adult with multiple families: multiple christmas days

#like the food is great but i'm so fucking exhausted #the inlaws had their christmas day on christmas eve. my brother had his yesterday #and today it's christmas at my mama's. and our 4-year-old niece has been with us too #dont get me wrong i love the little lass but she's so damn loud and she never stops #im tired bro im tiiiired

[delicioushottubpeanut]

♡ babysitter

oneshot - inspired by that one edit

fandom: five nights at freddys (movie)

paring: mike schmidt x fem!reader

warnings: nsfw 18+, dry humping, sexual tension, kissing, friends to lovers, cumming in pants, submissive mike, foul language, teasing, smut, riding, dom reader, consensual sex, age gap, minors dni..

You've heard a lot about him from Abby, mainly bits and pieces that she's told you, but nothing really about him and the only thing he really says to you is that he's eventually going to pay you back. But you always refuse.

The old couch squeaks softly as he sits beside you, a gentle hand goes to reach your face but hesitates.

He’s been very busy for a while now that he has started his new job at a security guard that was shut down ages ago. When he comes home he's always so tired, like he's a different person. As if he cannot relax. You hear the door open and slam back as it he closes it.

"Oh, sorry, I didn't hear you come back.." You whisper, groaning whilst you move out of the position you had been in for a while. Yawning as you gently wipe your eyes.

Mike looks at you, half-smiling as he leans against the cushions. He's tired, you can tell. "Sorry if I woke you, you looked exhausted, so I just wanted to cover you," he whispers back, stretching his arms. "Did Abby go okay for you?" he asks.

"I told her it's bedtime an hour ago, but you know how it is with little ones." You joke.

"Abby was great, she missed you, though.." You smile sheepishly, shifting on the coach to face him. "How was work?" You ask, seeing the slight bags under his eyes.

Mike chuckles softly, leaning his head back and letting out a deep sigh as he stares up at the ceiling.

"It was long," he sighs. "I mean, I've gotten used to it, of course, but god, it's draining..." He leans forward and rests his elbows on his knees, looking off to the side and fiddling with his fingers, trying to find the right words to explain what just happened at work. He seems hesitant to say.

"You okay? You can talk to me if something is bothering you." Hesitantly placing your hand on his shoulder, slowly forcing him to look at you. You've known him for years due to babysitting Abby, but he's never opened up.

"Well... it's just..." Mike sighs again, still not meeting your eyes. "...Abby asked me some questions about stuff today."

He rubs the back of his neck, shifting in his seat as if he's about to say something and then thinks better of it. He leans back against the coach, letting out a frustrated grunt as his eyebrows pinch in frustration. "I... I just can't tell her."

"Is there anything I can do to help?" You whisper, staring at him, waiting for a response.

Mike's face softens a little, looking over at you before he sighs, shaking his head. "It's nothing. Abby asked about the job, and... well, it got me thinking..." He shrugs his shoulders again, still looking off to the side.

"Look, I'll tell Abby about it myself, I don't... I shouldn't put it on you..." He sighs one again, staring at the floor.

"If you need me, don't hesitate." You place your hand on his thigh, squeezing it for reassurance. Gaining confidence, you slowly move your body off the couch and sit on his lap.

"Oh..." Mike says quietly, his face turning bright red as you place your hand on his thigh. He looks down at you, his expression of uncertainty on his face changing as his eyebrows rise.

He's speechless, frozen in shock at your touch, and his entire face is practically bright pink. He's suddenly a lot warmer, his chest heaving as his heartbeat picks up speed. "... Y- you're..." he says with the last of his breath, his brain having trouble finding the right words to say.

"Is this okay..?" You grind against his lap, whispering against his ear.

"Shit..." He stammers, his brain desperately trying to process what you're doing. He looks confused, his eyes drifting down to you as his mind races.

"What... what are you... n- no, it's... we can't..." Mike stutters, trying to find a way to reject you. But the longer you're in his lap, the harder it is for him to say no.

"Just relax, Abby is fast asleep in her room.." You grind harder against him, using your index finger to tilt his chin up, making eye contact when you suddenly hear him whimper.

"T- this isn't the time..." he mumbles in response, his eyes closing at the sensation and his whimpers becoming more noticeable.

"W- we shouldn't be doing this..." he whispers, his arms hesitating in the air for a moment before they eventually wrap around your waist. He's still torn between going along with it or saying no, his heart racing as he gazes at you.

"Beg for me to continue." You stop moving your hips, feeling his arousal throb against your ass. Wanting to see how he would react.

"P- please... God.." he whispers, the breath catching in his throat and his voice turning raspy.

He looks at you, his eyes pleading, his body quivering under your control. His heart is pounding out of his chest. He swallows, looking up at you as his entire body screams for you to keep going while his mind fights back.

"You can do better than that.." You tease, breathing against his neck, gently creating bruises as you feel his slightly breath hitch.

Mike whimpers loudly when he feels your bites, his muscles tensing as he tries to relax.

"H- I- please, don't stop..." he murmurs hoarsely, sounding completely different than you've ever heard before. He whimpers again, his head tilted back as he tries to hide the pleasure in his face. He can't believe what he's doing, but he can't turn away.

"Good boy.." Slowly reaching to take off your top, revealing your covered breasts as you start to grind against him, pushing your panties to the side, creating a wet spot on his jeans.

Mike looks down at you, taking in the view as your top is removed, his face getting even pinker as his heart races.

He swallows nervously in response to your wetness, his eyes trailing down your body before they eventually turn back to your face. His cheeks are bright red, his breathing heavy as he glances back down at you, looking into your eyes as you look into his. He takes a long, drawn-out breath, his entire body quivering with anticipation.

"Just take what you want, Mike, no one is stopping you.." You tease, eagerly watching his reaction.

"I- it's..." Mike starts to say, but he can't say no to you, not right now. He leans back, pushing himself deeper into you like he can't help himself, the breath catching in his throat as he takes in the sensation. His eyes are closed as he tries to ignore his own morals.

His eyes snap open, his lips parted as he whispers, "More.."

"You close?" Whispering seductively, moving harder as you feel your climax coming fast.

"Oh, god..." Mike breathes out, his face red, and his eyes roll back into his head. He moans, bucking his hips up against you, feeling himself come close to release as he cums in his pants, feeling you come down from your high.

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[harryshomebaby]

ive never been so miserable in my life

#the fire alarm went off at work again today so two days in a row #so we had to evacuate all of the kids again #and it’s been like over three hours since that happened but now I have a headache and im exhausted and I am not having fun rn #im also questioning my whole life again which is great #life has been too much these last few months and idk how much more I can handle #rant