The tiring love
I once read somewhere that love is synonymous with pain, that's because you don't know what kind of love someone can offer you, it may not be the same as what you offer.
It's really interesting to see how Aidairo walks through tragic love, obsessive love, platonic love, and how she manages to perfectly fit how to create this love with the characters' personalities and experiences.
The story of Karuto, who found a controversial way to stay by the girl he loves. It was easier for him to kill her than to leave the institution that put them in this situation.
It's selfish love, possessive love, it's what he wants, how he wants it and when he wants it. Lily would become what he wanted because he truly believed it was what was best for both of them, it is a form of love, but covered in the fragile cloak of selfishness, bordering on insanity.
It's not the kind of love everyone knows about (thankfully), but it exists in real life. The love that is built on violence, each stab represents more and more of Amane's love being forced into Tsukasa's heart, how he held back so much so that this wouldn't happen because he knew it was wrong.
Tsukasa was happy, because this was the most intense form of love that Amane gave him. He would kill Tsukasa so he wouldn't see him leave, so he wouldn't abandon him, "Amane killed me because he loved me so much that he didn't want me to go, he wanted me to stay"
Tsukasa always looked for Amane's love, and even if his love was wrong, after all, killing who you love is not the right love, he wanted that love.
If that was the only way Amane had to demonstrate, that was fine with him. He saw Amane's look before falling into rest, a look that reflected "you are mine, your love is mine, you won't abandon me, let's be together" that's what Tsukasa likes, the certainty that he did it out of love .
It is a love that must be so painful, not just for the victim, but for the owner of the love. Imagining how painful it was for Amane to love so obsessively and for this love to culminate in death by not allowing Tsukasa to abandon him, and, just like Karuto, it would be the only option that would make sense for him.
Maybe Amane had other choices, but he preferred this one. In the same way that there were other possibilities for Nene's life, but he chose the worst ones, because, even though he knew it was wrong, he thought it was the only option. He decided that.
Amane knew that the love he felt was wrong, it was heavy, it was dangerous, he held himself back as much as he could. Nothing justifies hurting someone, nothing justifies killing someone, he says.
And Tsukasa, the one who longs for that love, says that it doesn't matter if what he want is good or bad, whether or not it will hurt, he forgives. He accepted the love that Amane had to offer him.
He forgives.
Amane too.
A suffocating, tiring, painful love, which reflects in the deepest violence, covered by the cloak of selfishness and obsession, a mortal love.
The love of the Yugi twins.
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