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idiopathicsmile · 8 months
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the other day, i was talking to my brother, and he said, "the thing about anxiety is that it tells you if you just follow every single rule it creates for you, then you won't get hurt and you won't hurt the people around you."
(the only problem, of course, is how badly following those rules hurts yourself and the people around you.)
somehow, this turned into writing a lullaby from the point of view of my anxiety disorder, which i'm trying to learn how to ignore a little more. i guess that's kind of paradoxical but even just verbalizing the thoughts i take for granted can help sometimes. (it sort of inescapably sounds like a toxic interpersonal relationship, so warnings for that.)
LYRICS The world outside can be cold and strange uncertain winds, too-certain rain But i'll guard you from the stormy sea all that I ask is you listen to me Stay who you've been, stay where you were let it all pass by, a beautiful blur don't waste time wond'ring who you could be Listen to me, listen to me (x 2)
Scars and stories are for other girls unsinkable types, alive in the swirl You'd snap every sinew in that mess you call a body if you ever tried venturing beyond me So stay where you're put, do as you're told no one will break you, if you learn how to fold Smother the whisper who wants to be free Listen to me, listen to me (x 2) You say the box that protects you has dwindling air Well, have you considered, you're breathing too much? You know I wouldn't say this if I didn't care You know I'll always always always be in touch The walls are dragging inward like a dying star stay were you are, stay where you are What others call inertia I call destiny Listen to me, listen to me (repeat)
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hsgrace · 1 year
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that’s a wrap fellas
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rainbow-mio · 1 year
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their relationship is so 4bus1v3, it's slightly making me h0rny <3333/pos
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deadwar · 23 days
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J.M. HEADCANON . ( warning for toxic relationships / controlling behaviors )
soap has been in only one (1) long term relationship in his lifetime and it wasn't good at all. he had a few flings before that never lasted and he's had several in present time that are usually just a hook up and gone the next day.
in 7th grade, john met jeremy barclay ; football (soccer) captain and popular. john was a punk teenager who was always getting into a bit of trouble, but was a straight a student nonetheless. jeremy wanted to get back at his parents for being such strict people and decided to start going out with john. not only did a gay relationship rock his parents to their cores, but john's choice in clothing styles doubled down on it. crop tops, the mohawk, the piercings, the makeup. john mactavish was a very sweet boy through and through, but they just couldn't get past that, and jeremy couldn't be happier about it.
please note that john was also in the process of transitioning at the time, and this did add-on to jeremy's parents' disapproval.
they're together from 7th grade and until john enlists in the military. the time in between seemed very sweet and good on the outside. jeremy seemed protective, and john was so much very in love with him. however, jeremy's "protectiveness" was a lot more than just that. he was jealous, possessive (not in the good way), and controlling. that being said, this is also all john ever really knew.
john couldn't go out with friends without him being there as well. he was always asking questions about every man john spoke with or was friends with. at some point, it caused a rift in some of john's friendships and they were broken off within a few months. john saw jeremy's actions as said, protective and looking out for him. john's mother saw right through it, but no matter what she said, john wouldn't hear it. he was in love and that was the end of it.
jeremy did get physical once ; grabbing john's arm a bit too harshly when he was talking to another man. he apologized, stating he was only worried and it got the better of him, and john accepted it.
for years, this continued and john saw it as normal behavior because he had gotten used to it. jeremy constantly asking where he is or where he's been, and when john happens to forget to tell him he's going out with friends, jeremy is giving him the silent treatment for several days after. john thinks it's his fault because he should've told him and he should've let him know just in case something happened.
their relationship ended on "good" terms when john enlisted and around that time, jeremy's parents decided they were all going to move away. jeremy didn't seem too broken up about it as john did, but they were over without a fight or argument, so john sees that as good terms.
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this affects the way john is in relationships in both romantic and platonic settings.
that relationship kickstarted a great deal of anxiety. he is nothing but a people pleaser and is always trying to correct what he thinks he may have done wrong, even if he did nothing at all. in some ways, this also relates to his fear of abandonment.
when john is in a relationship, he's expecting the exact same as before. he's expecting the many questions, the i need to come with you in case something happens. it doesn't matter if he's physically able to take care of himself now. it's still there. when it doesn't happen, he gets confused and the anxiety builds. he thinks it's a trick and most of the time, he just won't go. he'll cancel his plans because what if he's mad and doesn't want to tell me?
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note that john is a possessive person himself, but not in a controlling way. he's more of the don't touch what isn't yours type.
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externalconceit · 30 days
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[Still thinking about That Burke Guy. That means I've thought more about him in a few weeks than Marvel has in 30+ years.
He mentions his first death was by burning at the stake in the 17th Century. Given the method of death and the time period, it's likely he was a victim of the heresy burnings that swept over the Holy Roman Empire at that time. (So... probably Germany or the Netherlands-ish.) Externals didn't manifest their powers until after their first death, so that decreases the likelihood of him being executed for "witchcraft"/visions.
When his body is destroyed, he's canonically shown to be reborn in the body of a newborn baby (kicking out its soul?), and taking on the same distinct features he had in his last body. The stuff I've found in the comics shows that he was physically back to adulthood within ten years.
So, you have Some Normal Guy who was burned for "heresy", but really because he pissed off the wrong neighbor. His body is destroyed in the fire, and he "reincarnates". He's walking around born to a new family while being aware of everything that happened before. He's able to see the future and has no idea what's going on. Is he a demon? Is he cursed?
He's also growing as fast as that baby from Twilight, and he's got these eyes:
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I'm seeing him staggering around as the blind beggar trope, cloth "bandages" over his eyes for his own safety.
The other Externals can sense when another member's been activated, but the comics are a little hazy with the explanations. In my mind, Shar got to him first.
Her identity at the time was as a wealthy widow, and as an act of "charity", she takes him into her house as a servant--which he isn't, but the public doesn't need to know that.
They start off with a very clear power imbalance just because she's his mentor. I don't know if they become involved later on or at that point, but they aren't on equal footing until he breaks away to become his own man and joins the High Lords.
I feel like there's a long and complicated story that will be completely irrelevant because there will never be a Burke in the RPC, but I also feel like he's an important part of Shar's life. Their interests are aligned, and they will act to protect one another against other Externals if necessary.
They conceived a child together in the past, but the infant didn't survive the birth due to Shar's powers, or because Externals being able to have children together might be unusual/difficult? Whatever happened, they never tried again, and the trauma resulted in another split and reconciliation.
They get together, separate, get together, separate. Their latest falling out was due to the events of Cable #151. Burke willingly accepted his own prophesized murder because he'd outlived all his "loved ones". ... Shar was probably pretty pissed off about that wording. Also, because he removed her heart and hid it, disposing of her body to protect her from suffering the same fate.
Shar has preternatural awareness and Eldritch Shit going on, but her guard is/was down with Burke enough that he could inflict a "killing" blow and take her heart, which is not a vibe I get with the other Externals when they're hanging out. They have some hazy deal about not killing one another, but Selene, Gideon, and Candra have reneged on that in the past in the comics, so it looks like they stick to that only if it suits them.
Note: Only one External can permanently kill another. This is done by draining their energy, or if a fellow External yanks out their heart and eats it. But it won't stick unless one External gets every other External's heart/energy.
So, Burke and Shar have an Irene and Destiny-type situation, that's also its own thing. Also, Burke is ace with a slight preference toward men because I say so.
Shar is polysexual and demi with a strong leaning toward femmes.]
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neuroglitch · 1 month
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I'm thinking about how when I was younger, in my eagerness to never cause any hurt, I would hand out a lot of free passes to hurt me.
My closest friend for from 15 to 26 was one of the people this pattern played out the worst with. She would say mean shit all the time, for a plethora of reasons. And if she ever had that moment of "wait did I cross a line here..." I would be the first to reassure her. Saying "No no! Don't worry! I'm probably the least sensitive person ever!! Words literally can't hurt me!! Fire away! Please, I'm the perfect punching bag, because I basically don't have feelings!"
And like... Obviously it takes two to tango, but I do feel guilty about the role I played in how the relationship ended up.. A lot of people, when I talk about this relationship, describe her behaviour as abusive, and I feel bad because I don't think she would've abused another person. I'm the biggest enabler in the history of enablers and in many more ways than what I've described here, I practically asked for it. And as a result she gets "labelled as an abuser".
Of course I did eventually have to come clean with her about having human emotions, and at that point it was like a betrayal, and my word would never be trustworthy reassurance again. The relationship was doomed then an there, maybe at the 3 year mark. And then we dragged it out for another long, painful 8 years. Because at that point the pattern was established, and I couldn't just cease to be the punching bag
I'm thinking about this tonight bc I saw a funny meme that was like "please don't hurt me, I WILL cry"... And I was like no it's true. Like yeah ok usually I don't cry and my emotions are truthfully stumped in numerous ways.
But I'm also a sensitive ass baby. And it's crazy that I got away with pretending I was just unable to get hurt for so long
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twipsai · 1 year
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Wanna talk about your Ikkan Ichiya backstory? c:
YES. YES I DO. I REALLY REALLY DO. ill put it under the cut
⚠cw for past abuse, toxic relationships, and the like
ive mentioned it a few times but i hc the two as biological brothers, with about a 5 year age gap. the two lived in the splatlands, and most of Ichiya's earliest memories was of his older brother and parents arguing, whether it was about him, school, work, literally anything, it didnt matter. they both hated their family and wanted out.
while Ikkan wanted a quiet life anywhere away from their house, Ichiya dreamed of blaring music and turf war, and eventually met Murasaki and Namida at school when he was around 12, making their first demo song for squid squad and officially forming a band when they were 14 (Ichiya and Namida are the same age, while Murasaki is 2 years younger).
As they rose in the ranks quickly, Ikkan realized that using the money he had saved up over the years and the new source of income to move out with the other three following close behind. Inkopolis was close-by, convenient for work, and far enough away from their parents that they could reasonably hide their address and not be dragged back to that hellhole.
which would seem like a happy ending, but neither of them really,,,came out unscathed. Ichiya had an awful fear of not being taken seriously causing him to become extremely bombastic and aggressive, putting on a sort of confident persona for the media. and Ikkan,,, well, after growing up solely on abusive relationships he sorta,,, started defaulting to them quickly, trying to create arguments because that at the very least was the most familiar thing for him. it all boiled to a head when Ichiya and Ikkan were having what was essentially a shouting match at the studio, and Ikkan stormed out; yelling on his way out that he hoped is brother would have a fun time living without him. the fear and stress ended in Ichiya yelling at Namida and Murasaki following her, and then they just,,, never showed up at the studio again
Ichiya took it hard, basically throwing himself back in to school and taking every music class he could get his hands on (in these classes he also met 004Clm!) . after about a year Namida and Mura reached back out to him and the three sorta became shaky friends again, catching up with each other and eventually forming Front Roe and moving to splatsville after about 7 years of radio silence from SQSQD. Ichiya changed a lot-- him making the choice to not show his face online anymore is because he doesnt want media attention, he just wants to make music and share it with the world like his inspirations did for him.
i havent exactly fleshed out how Ikkan and Warabi met, but i feel like a lot of the "tension" they have is a lot of Ikkan defaulting to arguments and shit out of comfort even if its not healthy, but Warabi helps him through it and they both come out much better :) love wins
uhhh also some quick Beika thoughts-- he and Ichiya were really good friends at school (first friend Ichiya really had) and when squid squad moved away he sorfof felt like inferior and stuff, hes really insecure but feigns confidence and projects a lot of his insecurities on Ichiya and stuff. im still developing that part tho give me time
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flownintothesun · 7 months
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 ⋆ ✰ ⋆ ───    ‘  𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 ’ (𝐖𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐲)
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                          ⋆ ✰ ⋆ ─── 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐪𝐮𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐬. ( @wehavefoundthestars )
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       𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐀𝐃𝐘 𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐒 𝐓𝐎-𝐀𝐍𝐃-𝐅𝐑𝐎 on the waves — creaking like a ghost ship, lost in the fog. One man cannot steer a ship of this caliber — but Westley supposes it doesn’t matter, in the end. What’s going to happen to him is going to happen to him, and to his ship. Maybe in the end, it’s where they both belong — torn into pieces at the bottom of the sea. Westley can’t for the life of him tell whether the roaring in his ears is his own blood rushing through his body — or whether it’s the sea, angry beneath them. Until this moment, the captain of the Arcady had no idea what he was capable of — and now, he almost wishes he still didn’t. The blood will take hours to clean from the ship — days, even.
       They’d locked Elio away before the mutiny. Westley supposes that was kind of them. Why should the lover suffer for the crimes of the damned? Westley’s seen it in old pirate movies — where the crew turns on the captain — where the sentence is death. He’s been so afraid of that very scenario that he’s changed every couple of years once finding out that he wasn’t what he thought himself to be — wasn’t human. Safer that way — for him, and for them. A bullet in his gut — a knife across his throat, all very dramatic — bleeding out as he’d been thrown into the stinging agony of the sea as shark bait. But it hadn’t been the sharks that had found him.
     By the time the Kraken had deposited him back on the ship, his wounds were already healed — and black vines like ink, like tattoos, had been snaking up his arms, his hair dripping salt water and his eyes that same haunting shade of red. He could remember it if he tried — what came next, the massacre — a mass grave at sea — but he doesn’t want to try, doesn’t want to remember. Just looks at his hands stained with blood — looks at Elio, chained away and spared from that fate. When Westley looks up at his once-lover, his eyes are crimson. They’d been on their way back to Italy, ironically. To rid Elio of his foolish, idealistic notions that Westley could be what he needed him to be. “I am the darkness. Nothing more,” he says, his voice thick and strained from the saltwater. Blood trickles down the steps that lead into the prison. He could let Elio go — but perhaps he’s safer in a cage until Westley decides what to do with him. He can’t go back to civilization now. “I told you to stay away. Is this what you wanted? Is this what you thought you could love?”
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OTP Questions: Vanderbell, Micah/Dutch.
For full context, this is all in a Post-Beaver Hollow setting. Presumably on Mount Hagen or a similar location, but just about anywhere would work.
23. What do they do when they’re bored and together?
When they’re bored and together, they’ll usually go hunting for food. If they’re in a lazier mood, they’ll lay down and cuddle for a while. They have many other ways to pass the time, but games like Five Finger Filet are banned because someone (Dutch) is a super poor loser. Micah isn’t much better but Dutch gets pissed off and insists Dutch van der Linde couldn’t possibly lose such a simple game.
More under the cut, with a CW for them being toxic with each other.
74. Is either one confrontational?
Both Micah and Dutch are very confrontational. If Dutch suspects Micah of doing something he shouldn’t be doing (like stealing his things and selling them, which he done multiple times) Dutch immediately gets accusatory and starts blaming Micah for things before Micah can even refute the claim. Most of the time, Dutch blames Micah for shit he didn’t have anything to do with. The worst example was of this is when Dutch got it in his head Micah was responsible for the Saint Denis bank robberies failure. They fought about that for days without stopping.
Micah on the other hand is so sick of Dutch’s shit. Whenever Dutch accuses him of something, Micah will fight back, and do whatever action Dutch is accusing him of again just to make him angry. Then, the cycle repeats.
85. Who accidental sets something on fire?
Accidentally? No, Micah purposely sets Dutch’s clothes on fire. Right before they split up for the hundredth time, only to come crawling back days afterward.
91. What is their song?
They don’t have a an in character song, but the song I associate with them is “Judas” by Lady Gaga.
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fiascophobia · 1 year
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Me rambling about my OCs to anyone who will listen pt 1
Dumping my ideas for my self insert Dialtown OC because I don't have someone to babble to so a Tumbler post will have to do. Will probably reblog this a dozen more times with more lmao. The text font is Indie Flower #6290C4
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I whipped up a collage because i can't edit or draw for shit. i forgot to add shoes, but they probably wear huge boots with the strings torn out cause they couldn't be bothered to keep tying them.
I'll start with the simple stuff. Their name is Francis Bell,they're a freshly 18(Aquarius, Jan 31) AFAB nonbinary mess of a human. They're 5'0, but sometimes stuff stilts into their pants & heels of their shoes to make them taller and they are 'can shift the veins and bones around in their wrists a little' kinda scrawny cause projection. They kind of resent the phone= man typewriter=woman binary, and would have kept their typewriter head if not for..the incident. They have a complex bouquet of undiagnosed Neurodivergency and other mental illnesses. They wear those fake nails not for style, but to keep themselves from gnawing on their fingernails. (how does that work when they supposedly have no teeth,IDFK)They work for the funfair, both working with the rides and the ticket stand when Jerry is off the clock.
They're a bitter recluse, hiding their issues under a thick blanket of self-deprecating humor."Self-hatred Is hip now" as they'd say. They want to be seen as cold and collected rather than the anxious mess they are.Definitely the type to lovingly call you a bitch. Has an ex they claim to hate but their refusal to part with any of her gifts to them says otherwise.They are scared of being vulnerable because they know they cling don't anyone who shows them kindness and they cling hard. They like to think of themselves as a tortured artist, despite having near abandoned their writing passion, and they buy cigarettes to light but never smoke. As much as they still like the idea of being a revolutionary, even if not for incidents that we will get into later, they know very well how quickly they fold when someone so much as raises their voice at them.
Besides Jerry, It has one other friend, a cat that pops in and out of Its apartment that It named Misty. She doesn't like being touched unless she initiates and she scratches It sometimes but It loves her anyways.
They really like early 2000s and 2010s pop, but don't admit it because they feel the need to keep up this super alternative persona. The reason why? To prove a point, in a way. For two years before the events of the game, they were dating a girl named Mae Marshall(though they were identifying as a girl named Sophia Poole at the time, this will be relevant later.) Introvert X rich Party girl vibes. They were even writing the story for the two's first project with Mae doing the art.
The only problem with their relationship was with Mae's friends and family, who are a bunch of conformist rich mobster(that last part wasn't exactly known to Them, though)assholes and she never stood up for them, even joining in on their mockery. Mae would give them the rings they wear now and other jewelry as apology presents, which they started to see as her trying to buy their tolerance of being ruthlessly mocked and never defended.
This comes to a head when the mob apparently decides they want them dead.(I'm still debating on whether the dead thing was the truth or a misunderstanding and they were actually being run out of town.)You see, our buddy Fran didn't always take everything in Dialtown with little more than a grumble, often organizing protests for the dozens of problems plaguing the town and the Mayor couldn't be bothered since(in her mind) they had nothing to do with her grandpa's vision for Dialtown. Mae catches wind of the supposed murder plot, and decides to dump them; as she was a fledgling at the time, their relationship would only make them easier to find. Instead of saying "My mob family wants you DEAD" though, she decides to fall back on her old defenses and claims the reason is that they are too embarrassing.
They have maybe a day to process this(which consisted of them blaring Miley Cyrus' '7 Things' and abandoning their project) when the whole 'being wanted dead by the Dialtown Mafia' thing is made extremely clear to them. They, of course, book it as fast as their tiny limbs can carry them(TW: Implications of self-harm),attempting hasty and dangerous transition with the rotary phone they snagged from their parent's house beforehand and a knife.
While they're doing their thing, they accidentally wake up the poor man sleeping in the dumpster of the alley they ducked into.(I think you can guess who he is)
Francis winds up accidentally roping the sap into helping fake their death. To this day, they'd say they owe him their life.With the death of Sophia Poole established, they start their new life.(I can't find anywhere else where this fits,but they are weirdly defensive of the Dialtown Mob for this reason:"if the people that forced me to fake my death and pick up my life from nothing are just a bunch of incompetent losers, what does that say about me?") They get their old job back under a new name, start living in a crappy apartment that they can hardly afford the bills for.The 'killers' dump the dummy body into the pond lake, A detective that just moved in(who will likely be getting her own post later on alongside The ex as they're both datables as well) discovers the 'Sophia Poole' case,and this is where we make it to valentines day.
I imagine Phone/TypeGingi would meet Francis in the apartments. They'd See It staring solemnly into the smog-filled air from Its balcony like the dramatic hoe It is and Will climb up to say hi. After a bit of banter, Gingi learns that It just got dumped and is trying to prove to their only human (kind of) friend that It's moved on because their jokes about being unlovable because of being dumped are concerning, so they agree to be Its rebound in exchange for getting into the funfair.
They dressed up in their fanciest suit and top hat for their shitty amusement park date. "Hah! Who needs to move on now Jerry?"-"OBVIOUSLY, YOU."
The lesson around their route would be showing Gingi peeling away their defensive layers, teaching them they should fight for their own approval and happiness rather than caring what other people think,and picking her writing back up as a more healthy coping mechanism.(Oh, and causing problems for the corrupt government.That too.)They have a new sense of self worth,more of a legal presence in dialtown apart from 'Sophia Poole',published their first novel as a protest piece showing how Dialtown really is dedicated to Gingi,(under an alias,they're bold not stupid) and they have officially adopted Misty.Unless you get their shit yourself and die ending,which involves their ex,crime(probably) and a huge accidental body count(almost definitely). In all honestly,I wanna write a hypothetical route or at least hypothetical endings and a beginning,but this post is already long enough so I'll close this with some playlists for now.
Longer Playlist:https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLMdCe6gGGxLeV7m-EfqDuqpW387c7-Gc-&feature=share
Shorter Playlist Below:
I Deserve To Bleed by Sushi Soucy
2.Passing Through(Can't The Future Just Wait) by Kaden MacKay
3. This Is Home by Cavetown
4. 50 Ways To Say Goodbye by Train
5. 7 Things by Miley Cyrus
6. Mr Brightside by The Killers
7. Don't Threaten Me With A Good Time by Panic!At The Disco
8. Cupid by Jack Stauber
9. Heather by Conan Grey
10. The One That Got Away By Katy Perry
If you've made it this far, thank you for entertaining my weird, disturbing rambles, and have a lovely day.
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toxiicwcste · 1 year
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It’s no secret, especially when you see the posts I’ve queued, but Romeo & Belladonna have a very toxic relationship.
While Romeo does give her affection, it’s only just enough to keep her by his side. He literally puts in the bare minimum when it comes to the relationship. He doesn’t take her out for Valentine's Day. He doesn’t splurge on her for her birthday, instead just using the money for his experiments, hell he doesn’t even remember their anniversary... or he chooses to forget, not viewing it as important.
Belladonna, someone who needs her boyfriend to pretty much be sewn to her hip, will often lash out and have full on melt downs over her boyfriend basically neglecting her. She’ll throw a fit, he ignores her, she either lashes out violently or cheats, they get into a massive fight, and then Romeo goes the whole 9 yards to convince her that he’s sorry and that he needs her and her love. Rinse and repeat.
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hsgrace · 2 years
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it’s a bit like waking up in that i know no matter how hard i fight it inevitably im going to be falling asleep again
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fferal-archive · 1 year
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@emmatriarchy​ sent a meme: a possessive kiss that is meant to stake a claim . (Jealous JM)
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What can he say? He’s got wandering eyes. And other parts.
The Arakkan Fang is draping himself over is a marvel: Shining opal and smooth-skinned, curvaceous in the hips, pouty and painted under their scanty layers of sheer clothing. He hasn’t gotten their name; he doesn’t intend to. He tells a joke, and they pretend to find it funny, and laugh. At the very least Martians get meaningless flirtation, if not Krakoan humor.
Then, their pretty irisless eyes narrow past him. “Who do you think you are? Move. You are in my light.”
“Jeanne-Marie,” Fang tells them, not even needing to look behind him to know. The possessiveness is sweet, in a way, but occasionally exhausting. He doesn’t look approving when he turns to her. “What is it now--?”
He’s caught in the curl of her fists in his shirt, and a bold kiss ( more of Aurora’s style, really ), wrenching him away from his unamused companion, hard and insistent.
He pulls away.
“Anyway...” he ignores her, turning back to his original focus, and puts his hand on their thigh.
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goreverine-archive1 · 2 years
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realize when I talk about 'shipping' i really mean 'toxic sexual or pseudo-romantic tension' for this dude. so yes, i will literally 'ship' this dude with everyone, including your muse if you want, it will just never ever be healthy or normal or remotely good or legitimate.
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ofmercy · 2 years
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@beautifulsavagegarden - cut for ep5 related stuff
"you’ll understand one day, you’ll understand i never actually meant to hurt you." 
Louis clenches his jaw, eyes unfocused. Sometimes he misses that other version of himself; that version who never showed any weakness, who was never his authentic self so nothing could ever get to him, who shut out any real emotions.
He’d thought, for a brief time, that he could reject that cold, hard person he’d created. That he could simply be Louis. That Louis was enough. That Louis could be, to one person at least, “perfect.”
“What is there to understand?” He speaks slowly, carefully. He has to stay on guard again; it’s like putting on an old pair of shoes and finding that, unfortunately, they still fit. “Some great machination that just happens to ruin everyone around you, and you too? I should’ve figured it out when you showed up with so many years behind you and no one in your life.”
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bria and the totally not manipulated boyfriends 💞💞💞 love to see it
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