#traumagenic only

[tomcatyowls]

@ MINOR & ADULT Systems Still Living with Your Abusers / in an Abusive Environment — PLEASE READ IN FULL

Finding out about the inner workings of Your OSDDID when you still live with Your Abusers; is an excellent exercise in creating an inaccurate, or skewed view of yourself.

Attempting to document/detail system structures, triggers & trauma, indepth alter counts — without the help of supports like; medical professional(s) / your own place / cutting off abuser contact(s) / IRL found-family — is going to be incredibly difficult because your system is still being abused & triggered.

The combination of Your Brain & Body undergoing rapid growth changes; your system still being in a highly incognito state, and The Fact You Are Still Being Abused = You require a greater level of constant dissociative compartmentalization, and trauma responses, to survive your day-to-day.

Which makes it Damn Near Impossible to accurately assess whats going on inside; if your reaction was an fragment or an alter, if it was a cPTSD flashback, or any other Disordered Behaviours that are not indicative of OSDDID. (Psychosis, BPD states, Autism/ADHD behaviours, NPD states, etc)

Additionally; when living with your abusers, your mind is absolutely in survival mode. You are not going to accurately 100% understand when you are a different identity state VS when your having a temporary reaction to your environment. (ie; Fawn, Freeze, Flight, Fight, etc.)

Your understanding of yourself & your state of mind Will Change After Escaping your abusers/environment. EVEN IF you were able to be accurate- that is not going remain accurate.

Simply because; once you escape your Abusive Environment, your brain Will Just Start reordering its whole perception of Life & Your System, to adjust for how different life is when you are not reliant on your abusers.

Which Just to Clarify!! Ignoring this advice & and doing this the hard way; resulting in being wrong about your system- will not kill you. But like it IS a massive pain in the ass to have to choose between;

Ignoring your previous hard work & rediscover your system from scratch again

Wade up your big kid pants and start working through a swamp of teenage idiocy to find out if anything is remotely accurate to present day

Some insane mixture of the above.

The point of this is, Your DID/OSDD isn’t going to leave just because You start prioritizing Yourself.

To any Minor or Adult Systems stuck with Your Abusers, you are allowed to survive first and ask questions later. Your System means nothing if you aren’t safe enough to live as yourself- Please Prioritize Your Survival Over Understanding.

#yowling #osddid #actually dissociative #actually did #system #cdid system #did osdd #actually traumagenic #traumagenic only #sysblr #dissociative system #hc did #cdid #pdid #osdd

[startlitmirrorshards]

Our Stance on Non-Traumagenic Systems

After taking the time to read on some things and looking into other things, we, the Starlit Mirror Shards, have decided that we are anti all non-traumagenic systems. Our exception is with endos where we are neutral, but we still will have a DNI with them.

We, as a traumagenic system, find it immensely invalidating and disheartening to see the multitude of "no trauma" systems while claiming to be exactly how OSDD/DID is. This is a mental disorder, not something you can just naturally experience just because. You can't "make" other parts of you to express something. It just... we just want nothing to do with them.

Now, our reasoning for being Endo neutral is due to the argument of how some systems take on being endo in order to not face the fact that they are actually a system. While we respect this, we do not want to associate with people in that state along with opening the flood gates for other endo systems to associate with us. We want to interact with others who are actively trying to understand themselves and work on themselves with their systems, who at the very least acknowledge that they are a system due to trauma that they may not understand. If you are in a state of denying the fact you are a system but hiding behind being an endo system, it just... it feels wrong and makes us think what else are you hiding/lying about at the moment. The interactions just wouldn't feel authentic and disconnected.

For systems who identified as endo before but now accept that they are, in fact, an OSDD/DID system, we accept and respect you fully. We will not judge your past reaching this point, and we will support you moving forward in whatever your healing and growth are.

If you do not agree with our standpoint, please feel free to block us or not associate with us. We will keep syscourse to a minimum as well on our page as we do not want to waste our time arguing over our viewpoint.

Thank you.

#sms★ #stello 🌌 #amelia 🚬 #momo 🖤🤍 #Achilles 😇 #Gez ✖️ #arcadia ⚰️ #abe ☕️ #endos dni #traumagenic system #traumagenic only #osddid #did #osdd #c did system #actually dissociative #actual did #actually plural #actually mentally ill #actually did #anti endo #anti tulpa

[aquaticfreakshow-sys]

Just because an alter isn't the host, does not mean they don't deserve respect and basic decency. We're all equal and we're all worthy of normalcy. 🖤

#anti endo #anti endogenic #complex dissociative disorder #complex dissociative identity disorder #dissociative identity disorder #diagnosed dissociative identity disorder #cdid #did sys #cdid sys #actually did #did system #diagnosed did #osddid #sysblr #actually multiple #actually plural #traumagenic system #traumagenic did #traumagenic only #plural #adult bodied system #polyfrag system #diagnosed system #cdid system #system

[thewindowsystem]

do any other systems have like a group of parts you share more memories with and sometimes can hear the voices of and then a bunch of others that fluctuate throughout the years between being heard very loud and a little shared memory and not heard from at all and no memory of them fronting at all

I have no idea how many parts there actually are atp

#traumagenic system #dissociative system #sysblr #system #traumagenic did #actually did #did osdd #did system #actually traumagenic #traumagenic only #traumagenic #dissociative identities #actually dissociative #dissociative disorder

[sys-request-stuff]

[Text: This alter is an introject of Annus from Unus Annus.] [Text: This alter is an introject of Unus from Unus Annus.] [Text: This user was there for Unus Annus.] [Text: This user says Momento Mori.]

Interact if you save or use!

#userbox #system #system stuff #traumagenic only #did #osdd #unus annus #momento mori

[cyber-therian]

hello! hope you had/are having a good day; im sorry if this is an oblivious question or something i should probably look up (i tried but was having issues finding something that looked applicable) but what does system/being system mean?

** i am not a professional, i dont know everything, some information may be outdated or incorrect, this is my experience **

it means you have headmates, alters, etc due to DID/OSDD/etc

its a disorder caused by extreme & or repetitive childhood trauma between the ages of 6–9 years old that causes the brain to create multiple “personalities” instead of one cohesive personality to cope with the trauma.

for me, this means sharing consciousness with multiple other alters who have the ability to overtake my own consciousness and act in ways that i dont have control over, and moderate amnesia (forgetting/being unable to remember portions of life). i have an unknown number of headmates but the most prominent alters are alex 🐾 the primary host, anger holder, and protector, ghost 🐈‍⬛ the secondary host & trauma holder (these 2 form “my” personality and work together, if anyone wants a better explanation lmk i have a more detailed write up), and blade 🏁 who is a protector & defends the body when we are scared or upset :]

this is really vague & im tired, but systems are very complex and the disorders associated with them are complex as well. the disorders are not well researched and are even denied by some professionals which is incredibly unfair.

#undiagnosed system #actually a system #system protector #system #traumagenic system #osdd system #dissociative system #system things #system stuff #plural system #did system #sysblr #endos dni #anti endo #actually traumagenic #traumagenic did #non traumagenic dni #traumagenic only #traumagenic safe

[martyrdoms-pk-templates]

CAN I GET A CUTE AND EXCITED FEELING TEMPLATE WITH LOTZ OF EMOJIZ AND THE 🎉 EMOJI ZOMEWHERE IN IT?

I tried my best to make them exciting. Also sorry everyone for the delay, I forgot this blog existed. /hj -💜Schapen

Exciting alter template:

≻ ~~~ ⋆🎊⋆ ~~~ ≺

⋰ **__Na__me** 🎁 **__Ni__ckname**

🎈 » **Pro / Nouns ** ⋰

🎉 ⊹ **__Ro__le1 / __Ro__le2** ⊹ 🪩

**__So__urce** ┋🎁

** 🎉__Id__entity 🎉__Id__entity 🎉__Id__entity**

||Template by pk;s crfie||

≻ ~~~ ⋆🎊⋆ ~~~ ≺

Systemwide template version:

≻ ~~~ ⋆🎊⋆ ~~~ ≺

⋰ **__Sy__stem Name** 🎁 **__Co__ective Name**

🎈 » **Pro / Nouns / List **

**__Sy__stem Type** 🎁 **__He__adcount__**

🎉 ⊹ **__Ho__st / __Ho__st2 / __Ho__st3** ⊹ 🪩

**__So__urce** ┋🎁

** 🎉__Co__llective Identity 🎉__Co__llective Identity 🎉__Co__llective Identity**

**__Bo__undaries**

**Yes:**

**Maybe:**

**No:**

||Template by pk;s crfie||

≻ ~~~ ⋆🎊⋆ ~~~ ≺

#anti endo #did system #endos dni #osdd #system #udd system #osdd system #pluralkit template #udd #did #traumagenic did #traumagenic system #traumagenic only #endo dni #did alter #alter template #system template

[museofdeity]

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but…

It’s okay if you’re upset about headmates going dormant.

It’s okay to miss people who have abused you.

It’s okay if you grieve headmates who have fused.

It’s okay to be upset about change, even if it means you’re healing.

#endos dni #did #did system #dissociative system #hc did #highly complex did #ramcoa survivor #osdd #osdd system #actually dissociative #traumagenic only

[system404singletnotfound]

For example, chronic headaches, low blood pressure, or allergies

#did #system #osdd #dissociative identity disorder #did system #dissociative system #actually did #actually traumagenic #poll #did polls #system polls #traumagenic only

[tomcatyowls]

hey guys it took me 6 whole ass years to be able to handle learning about my headspace and 5 years of intensive around the clock therapy to handle learning about my parts . so perhaps consider your not faking for not knowing every thing . maybe believe if DID/OSDD is hard on others its hard on you. idk wild thought i can wait

#yowling #actually dissociative #system stuff #system things #dissociative system #traumagenic only #traumagenic system #osddid #did osdd #actually did #ramcoa #system #cdid system #did recovery #tags are for reach #anti fakeclaiming

[startlitmirrorshards]

Greetings, my name is Achilles, I am one of the multi-protector of the SMS and one of the legs that supports our system. My current responsibility now is leading of our Rehabilitation Center.

I heard we started this blog as both a space for ourselves and to potentially reach others. Since I was triggered to the front last night, I thought that I share wisdom I have learned and personally believe others should hear.

In-system trauma is just as valid as IRL trauma.

Alters form from the trauma that you've experienced throughout your life, and not all of these alters are "good". Sometimes, they can be just as bad or worse than the abusers/perpetrators. In our system, the worse of the dangerous Persecutors are those who formed immediately after the incident or later when the host/main alter affected actually face how horrible something was and that it wasn't something they could surpress anymore. On some other occasions, the Persecutor could have split "normal", but as the trauma kept happening, they became more twisted/"powerful".

The things that they will do to other alters or put the body into are damaging, demoralizing, and destructive. The saddest part is when I've asked why they didn't reach out to another one of us for help, it is always some form of "this isn't real trauma the body went through". Perhaps not the body, but it is real trauma that the mind went through. Personally, I view in-system trauma worse than IRL trauma because you can never escape from the perpetrators, and there is always the possibility of them being triggered awake or free– even if such hasn't ever happened. They are stuck in the same brain and environment as you, in the same body as you.

If you have gone through in-system trauma, know that the trauma is valid. You are valid.

I say this not to scare anyone, but to start potential conversations that may need to happen. To allow those who feel like they need to hide it that no, you don't. I will be here for the rest of the day if anyone has questions or needs an ear to talk to.

Thank you for reading this,

Achilles 😇

#sms★ #Achilles 😇 #did #osddid #osdd #endos dni #traumagenic system #c did system #actually dissociative #actually mentally ill #system community #osdd system #did system #c did #polyfrag system #polyfragmented #actually polyfrag #polyfrag did #traumagenic only #trauma

[warpaint-sys]

What the fuck is "systrender" and "anti traumagenic" what is going on

#did sys #dissociative identity disorder #did system #robins ramblings #endos dni #anti endo #traumagenic only #traumagenic system #osddid #osdd #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #didosdd #syscource

[crowcussion]

i remember this one time my dad was in the bathroom and i was at six flags and i heard a voice in my head that wasn’t me and then i went down the dissociative identity disorder rabbit hole until my dad came back then i forgot about it but i was so convinced i didn’t have it

LOOK AT ME NOW BITCH I AM LITERALLY INK SANS

#ink’s brain vomit #being a fictive is fun ngl #i’m automatic besties w the old host too cuz i was his comfort character for years (and i still am) #imagine two people running in circles together #that’s us #he watches my life like a tv show and every once in a while laughs #it’s funny #he’s so funny #we love crow #did alter #did system #tulpas dni #anti endo #anti tulpa #traumagenic only #traumagenic #traumagenic system #non traumagenic dni

[sys-request-stuff]

[Text: This user can get paranoid easily. Please be kind and courteous.]

Interact if you save or use!

#userbox #system #system stuff #traumagenic only #did #osdd #paranoia

[midday-darkness]

Me: *relates to a character*

The character: *is mentally ill*

#launch dragon ball #lucy van pelt #franziska von karma #hercule poirot #barok van zieks #miles edgeworth #mai valentine #mai kujaku #jessie pokemon #musashi pokemon #cluster b #cluster a #cluster c #my posts #non traumagenic dni #traumagenic only #endos dni #not for endos

[secretsideblogshhhh]

I love accounts that are like "plural culture is" or "cluste b culture is" "npd culture is" etc etc, but I can so rarely find accounts like that that aren't pro-endo, pro-tulpa, things like these.

If anyone has any blogs that have similar premises or anything like that it would be awesome if you could recommend them to us.

#Don't start discourse on this post #we have personal reasons to not wanting to associate with pro-endo and pro-tulpa account #system shit #did system #pdid system #sysblr #system #dissociative system #did #system stuff #osdd system #dont start syscourse #anti endo #anti tulpa #traumagenic only