#trying to hold back the tears :)

[chamaleonsoul]

guy on the bus playing A Thousand Years on the violin, made my fucking day. crying sobbing

#no joke #trying to hold back the tears #personal

[buckttommy]

a new (returning) character being added to 9-1-1's roster means that at some point, buck has to scream tommy's name in terror. he just has to. like. can you imagine how much differently that would hit? we saw the members of the 118 give buck the grieving spouse treatment when they all thought eddie was dead in a well. but if buck's boyfriend—as in, his actual, honest to god, officially recognized boyfriend—was in literal danger somewhere? jesus. i just got chills. i need it like oxygen.

#Eddie trying to hold Buck back from putting himself in danger and like. Of course Eddie is terrified too. #Tommy went from 0 to Best Friend status (not like Buck. Never like Buck) so quickly it was almost dizzying #but he *knows* what this means for Buck. Knows what Tommy means *to* Buck and he can feel the terror emanating from him. Can feel his blunt #nails almost drawing blood as he claws at Eddie's skin probably not even aware that he's doing it. #And they fall backwards—Eddie's arms still firmly around him—and Bobby is shouting nonsense reassurance at both of them before he and Chim #go back to save/find Tommy and Eddie's just chanting in Buck's ear ''it's okay everything is going to be okay'' and at some point Buck just #stops fighting and slumps back against him. His entire body shakes and he's just like ''it's Tommy Eddie. I can't lose him. I can't I won't #survive it'' and Eddie's eyes sting with tears but he's just like ''I know I know. Everything will be okay'' and holds him through it while #Buck falls apart in his arms. #anyways. #yeah. that would be kinda sexy i dunno #jack.txt #bucktommy

[glolyst]

Relistened to Memoria & thinking abt Hera and AUUUUGGHHHHH you know?

#wolf 359 #w359 #hera w359 #hera wolf 359 #wolf 359 fanart #artists on tumblr #I was working in the lab when listening to this for the first time and had to hold back tears while trying to scan stuff lmao #but fr her character development is so well done augghh

[russquez]

no one gets them like i do

#trying so hard to hold back tears cause they are everything to me #motogp #marc marquez #dani pedrosa

[halcyone-of-the-sea]

The way that if I could digitally draw all of you would be getting bombarded with post after post of Gaz/Spitfire and Nikto/Seraph in their universes getting involved in shenanigans is crazy.

#y'all would get absolutely sick of me #but unfortunately #I am trapped in traditional artist status #Spitfire takes up axe-throwing and scares Gaz shitless when she's 100% accurate #Seraph adopts ten cats and Nikto is fighting off allergies and trying to be intimidating as one sits on his shoulder #Nikto tries to organize the kitchen but gets hit in the head with an old pot because Seraph literally never touched it after she bought it #Gaz tries to hold back tears after watching The Notebook and Spitfire is nearly laughing her ass off even if she's teary-eyed too #I can literally come up with a million of these #I'm not joking

[toxicc-yuri]

I am calling it right now: Teddy's gonna die maybe even drowned

#the magnus protocol #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #obviously don't want that to happen but imagine the irony #alice saying the last line holding back tears trying to be strong #would she think back to this moment? #or if the roles are reveresed? #im sorry but this is tma its always been full of tragedy and heartbreak #and idk what would be more tragic than this

[carefulfears]

the scully of fight the future who doesn’t want a career in the bureau at all if she can’t do it with him. who debated even telling him that she’s quitting in person, and feels like her loss won’t even make a difference: he doesn’t need her, she only holds him back. the scully who doesn’t even make it to the elevator. the way that as soon as he starts speaking, she goes silent. she can’t even respond. this is not a debate. tears just pour down her face, as he tells her that she owes nothing. that she has made her favorite person, a “whole” person. that she has saved him “a thousand times over.” and she stays completely silent. all she can do is cry, and hold him, and kiss his forehead. how small she must feel sometimes…being dragged from one spot to the next, following along. the way her face just collapses as she moves from holding onto his shoulder to pull him down to her. he breaks her open sometimes.

#she believes in him so much and she thinks he can save the world even if she moves on. and he’s so frustrated he’s almost angry #as he just spits out at her that she’s the entire reason he’s here. #‘i owe you EVERYTHING. scully…and you owe me nothing.’ #from the person she believed in so much she nearly lost her life to follow him!! whom she looked up to from her deathbed #and said take EVERYTHING i have left!!! my dignity my reputation my dying breaths take it ALL!!! #her ahab!! #and she owes nothing. she is everything. she matters. #and she’s been going back/forth with him every day for 5 years but she is rendered with nothing to say. #nothing to do but cry and hold him and hold him and hold him #make him bow his head to her so she can kiss it and try to absolve him. like he did her in that hospital hallway. #so much grief in being needed #it just says so much that the only time she ever considers leaving him is because she thinks SHE is bad for HIM. #and he tells her……i cannot do it without you. but i expect nothing from you anyway. #and being told she’s needed by her best friend reduces her to tears. no wonder. #txf.txt #ftf

[deus-ex-mona]

did aizo really switch the hand with which he was holding his microphone just to hold hands with yujiro like that?

#y. you guys know that you can just hold hands normally… right…? #only lxl would even try to hold hands that make it seem like they were going for a handshake that accidentally went too intimate #(but they’re now committed to the bit and it’d be too awkward to let go *now* in front of their crowd of hundreds) #but haha… the way they’re both crying as they look at each other with loving gazes… they’re so happy the divorce was called off man. #sometimes couples counselling can just be the act of introducing a potential third into the relationship #and just watching them *finally* talk it out and walk back the decision to divorce in record time #lxl truly can’t be involved in a r/s with anyone else huh… it has to be just the 2 of them or they’ll break down in tears #rip mr north prince you’ll find a better guy out there somewhere~~~~~ #im still unwell sorry guys ill be back to normal soon. maybe. no promises. #lxl regretful divorce arc r e a l

[blazingblorbos]

I was busy within the hour this released. but I'm here now and. ... oh boy just bear with me

I'm gonna just... copy/paste my initial thoughts as I watched this, here, for the next couple lines:

Final Results:

Now listen to me, I need to scream into the void all my newfound realizations and woes but it's 1:30 in the morning and I need to wake up early the next day. So understand that I'm making this as short as gayly possible (it may not be short at all).

Aside from all the lesbian saxophone that my eyes just witnessed, which is a scream that will never make contact with any airwaves - digital or otherwise - ... The last two minutes of that trailer were entirely unexpected.

Now don't get me fucking wrong I wasn't NOT paying attention to the section of the teaser during the livestream that showed us a glimpse of Black Swan's fear and surprise drowning in that fiery background. but. ... bro— FUCKING COME ONNNN MAN!!

HOW FAST THE SCENE FLIPPED, HOW QUICKLY- WHATEVER THAT THING (IT DEFINITELY WASN'T THE ACHERON WE KNOW) WAS TOOK THE LEAD and LITERALLY tossed Black Swan around like a helpless bird. a PREDATOR chasing their PREY

AND THE PREY IS BLACK FUCKING SWAN???? THE FUCKING MEMOKEEPER FROM THE GARDEN OF RECOLLECTION?? THE MYSTERIOUS AND ELEGANT SOOTHSAYER???

To see Black Swan of ALL characters in this game so far be filled with such visceral fear and trepidation, to be tossed around at the MERCY of something that could have so EASILY killed her just like. t h a t. is beyond insane.

I expected it to be more of a "What terrible horrors have you commited?" 'Wow! Horrors that even Black Swan thinks is terrible, Acheron is capable of s-' no she literally almost killed her. She's not a human by the way. Black Swan is not a human being anymore she is like. coNdEnseD mEmORy AND SHE LITERALLY ALMOST DIED. WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT???

also, we love Allegra Clark in this house this woman is hilarious

#everything I've (HSR pfp obviously) said in these screenshots is completely /j but also I'm dead serious #holy shit #Honkai #Honkai: Star Rail #Honkai Star Rail #HSR #Black Swan when I catch you #you dastardly unapologetic lesbian #actually a fuck around -> find out moment #Allegra Clark the WOMAN THAT YOU ARE #the way you can see BS desperately try to fly away numerous times only for Acheron to drag her back and tear her to shreds more and more #ridiculous #utterly ridiculous #how did they do it #idk if y'all get it I really hold Black Swan to this imperceptible standard #like she really is a divine being (in my mind at least) #her ability to perceive the things that may very well happen in the near & distant future is a CRAZY thing #and it makes her seem so untouchable #so for them to take it to. THIS. extent I just.... I just could never have readied myself for it #Black Swan #Acheron #HSR Acheron #HSR Black Swan #Honkai Star Rail animated short #Rondo Across Countless Kalpas #I loved everything about the trailer btw #Youtube #blazingshitpost #blazingshitpost star rail edition #ALSO!! Arryn Zech’s voice is out to get me. CAN’T believe I nearly forgot to mention that

[levinbolts]

i can’t believe square enix separated them why do they hate me so bad

#ffxvi #cidolfus telamon #clive rosfield #cidclive #firestorm #god i missed cid and clive’s banter during fights so much why would they deprive me of that for the rest of the game #i saw the exact moment clive got the gut feeling that cid wasn’t planning on coming back with them and turned off the game bc it hurt me #the moment he just stares at the hand cid was holding and then after him like a little lost puppy #GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD #i can’t stop thinking about that fic where clive is nearly in tears begging cid to at least TRY not to die when they go to oriflamme #and tells him he can’t do this without him and now im hurting even worse #that fic had me in TEARS #anyway they are special to me in almost the exact way ignoct is special to me

[remarkablyretr0]

‘Keep going because you’re our only hope’: Palestinian journalist’s mess...

This is comforting but so so sad at the same time. The strength of the Journalists and the people in Gaza can never be compared.

#the way she was trying to hold back tears in the end #unmatched strength #free palestine #israel #free gaza #end the genocide #israel is a terrorist state #boycott israel #israel is evil #decolonise palestine #Palestine #journal #news update #world news

[yuyuisabookworm]

Not to be that guy and absolutely ruin someones day, but I can't stop thinking about Ferdinand's management of his emotions. Like specifically before he had met Rozemyne. We know that a noble's hidden room is a lot of things; a workshop and private space but also very often talked about in the sense of a safe isolated space for nobles to drop the act and get emotional if they have to. We also know that due to all the times that Rozemyne ended up crying in her own (and sometimes Ferdinands) hidden room that the usage of a simple heal is all it takes to remove any indication that the person was crying just moments before.

[P4V8 ch "Successors"] ( I'm fairly certain there was more than one occasion of him healing her puffy eyes but I could be misremembering sjsj ) Now, its likely that I'm maybe reading a little too into this, but Ferdinand knew this little detail. He's the one who initiates the healing spell on her eyes to reduce the puffiness and help restore her to a more sensible looking state with ease. Why? Because maybe he had to do this for himself in the past as well? I mean he was so alone due to Veronica's ostracization and relentless torment, that he couldn't trust anything or anyone unless they were name-sworn to him. And this is a society where even a well adjusted noble still has to hide their emotions and mask their intentions/desires to protect themselves with the occasional vent in their hidden room. He was well and truly emotionally alone. So just how many times did Ferdinand escape to his hidden room just to suffer all on his own? He had no one to lean on, his dad dies when he is still arguably young and he has no mother to speak of. His siblings were all blood relatives of the very woman who despised and wanted him dead. Not to mention this was the height of the Veronica factions power; nobody was ever going to take his side when he was their heads 'enemy'

I'd like to think that as he grew up and distanced himself from Veronica's influence and the political struggles of the noble scene, that he found himself needing to isolate and vent far less than when he was a kid. But at least with Rozemyne in the picture he starts to drop the mask even if just a bit; therefore not bottling everything up like he once used to.

Still... It's really sad to think that it was probably likely that there were at least a few times that as a kid he had no choice but to cry all alone. If he even allowed himself that much you know?

#ascendance of a bookworm #honzuki no gekokujou #♦rozemyne #♦ferdinand #♢nova rambles #//I am so sorry to share this mental torment skjsksk #//but if I must suffer then so must you too #//idk its just the mental image of a much younger Ferdinand trying to hold back tears in his own hidden room #//it kills me a little bit

[foldingfittedsheets]

My betrothed and I are oscillating so wildly between whether or not we’re going to be able to keep Wyvern. If we need to rehome him it’ll be because it’s the right move, and we’ll leave him better off in terms of manners to help him find the right place.

He is pushing me to move more, but having him four days a week might be too much for me. We still can’t bathe him and it’s unclear whether being able the bathe him will help with our allergies.

I think he’ll come around to the cats but right now all interactions are overseen with food assists to keep him from barking. He’s improved on potty training and there hasn’t been more accidents but since he can’t communicate his need to go out it’s just Constantly Going Out to prevent accidents.

#there’s been tears every single day #it would be so nice to have a little buddy #in a year if we can fit him into our lives it would be so nice to have him chilling with us or going on long walks #but right now it’s just constant monitoring and training and correcting #and most shelter dogs don’t have a proven track record with cats so I’d be even more terrified of trying to introduce a full sized dog #we’re both trying to hold back a little piece of our heart so that if we hit a breaking point it won’t devastate us #ramblies

[b-0-ngripper]

Ambulance targeted by a rocket in the middle of the street full of people

#my whole body recoiled watching this #im trying to hold back tears #palestine #gaza #israel #genocide in palestine #gaza genocide #free palestine #free gaza #palestine genocide #jerusalem #fuck the idf #Instagram

[lookstairs]

[At Talias funeral]

Damian: (walking up to the podium) As many of you know my mother and I have always had a strained relationship but I’m glad you’ve all come to show your support for me in this time.

Damian:(placing a hand on the casket)I just know she’s looking up at us right now

#this is a TikTok joke but it seemed funny to imagine Damian saying #he probably doesn’t even believe in hell but for the sake of the joke let’s say he does #I just know Jason was in tears trying to hold back his laughter #Bruce was not as amused #talia al ghul #damian wayne #talia and damian #batman #robin #batfam #incorrect batboys quotes #incorrect dc quotes

[baeshijima]

it is now officially the 25th which means...

merry christmas everyone !!! regardless of whether u celebrate or not, i hope u all have a lovely day with whoever u spend it with or with urself <33

#sophie's idle chatter #this is scheduled so im HOPING it posts at 12 am.... prays.... #i havent been super active in the past month or two bc life is kicking my ass (<- has said this countless times already but its still true) #also !! i see asks and ill try and answer them when i actually have the time and energy 😭 ik i say this a lot but ive been drained good god #(not so) mini life updates : #the new lovebrush chronicles main story update has made me weep so much... ive done both clarence and ayns routes and.... #my god.... this story is darker and honestly im loving it AND i love how they did the chara roles in this world (alkaid... ourgh...) #my tear glands arent tho bc ayn ending 3.... what the fuck was that i couldnt sleep after doing that ending??? ITS WAS SO SAD AND FOR WHATF #currently having to wait until the 27th so i can do lars route 😔 #the recent ep of apothecary diaries.... ourgh my heart.... jinshi and maomao beloveds :(( #oh !! and ive gotten back into my ace of diamonds/daiya no ace phase and have been rewatching the series... #sobbing chris and yuki and miyuki my beloveds.... kissing ur foreheads and holding u gently..... #the way i got back into it bc im catching up on s2 of a clean sweep (a korean baseball variety show that i love with all my heart ;w;) #my mum is a traitor tho bc she watched every new ep that came out on tuesdays while i was in uni 🧍‍♀️ so now im catching up on the 30 eps #on my own 🧍‍♀️ #OMG AND ALSO DR STONE S3??? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED THAT PART 1 CAME OUT MONTHS AGO AND PART 2 WAS MORE RECENT??? #i havent been doing that much writing recently tho bc the fingers wont type but the brain is exploding with ideas i cannot handle this #i do want to get back to the haitham sxf series tho.... and also my oc various x reader series....... #tbh ive been contemplating abt publishing the haitham series on ao3 once i write more chapters before publishing them #idk i feel like the series would be nice to have on ao3 as well as tumblr JHDG #thats abt it i think? #anywho if u read this far then know i am giving u a warm cookie as a condolence prize for getting through this life dump <33 #ill leave it off here but i hope u all have a lovely day !! mwah mwah merry chrysler everyone 🎄🫶 #queue... ueueue