#we know who you stood for

[sampilled]

it's weird how in the flashback episodes we never really see sam as an angry kid when we hear so much about how he argued with john nonstop and how vocal he was about hating the life throughout the show, he's always portrayed as kinda timid and quiet.

the only time we see him act out like that (that i remember right now anyway) is in after school special and he spends the entire episode pushing it down and swallowing everything he wants to say until he is finally pushed too far

its almost like sam wasn't a horribly angry child (or adult)

#this goes doubly for early seasons sam who kept getting told he was so filled with rage #i also just think that its kinda bad writing. i feel like the writers forgot that sam was constantly standing up for him and dean never did #im also reading weechesters fics rn and the most frustraiting thing is reading a fic that portrays dean as the rebelious one who stood up t #john for sam #you literally have never watched the show ever #we also never really get to see teen sam which is so hurtful to me personally :( #i know it would have been difficult because sam was 22 in the pilot so people kinda know what teen him and early 20s dean look like #but i prommy people woyld have suspended their disbelief

[leverage-ot3]

okay but the parallel between hardison using eliot as an example of redemption to harry in the panamanian monkey job and eliot saying he could never be redeemed (and he’s made peace with that) to sophie in the finale

#something something everyone can see how eliot has been redeemed but eliot. eliot will never believe it #something something hardison looks at the man who has stood beside him and protected him for over a decade and seeing him as redeemed #hardison watching him risk his life day after day after day month after month year after year #and knowing in his heart that this is what they stand for. this is what they strive for. to do better. to be better #and to hardison? eliot is the epitome of that #it breaks his heart that eliot can’t see that #parker wants to shake him he’s being stupid ‘ELIOT CANT YOU SEE’ ‘YOU ARE GOOD’ #hardison as he joins in shaking eliot: ‘YOU ARE A GOOD MAN PLS BELIEVE US WE ARE RIGHT UR WRONG’ #insert me with the always sunny conspiracy corkboard with red string connecting these two plot elements #i’ve connected the dots #i’ve connected them #I am Not posting this at peak time or anything I just had this thought just now and almost lost it #leverage redemption #leverage ot3 #meta #parker x hardison x eliot #eliot spencer meta #eliot spencer #leverage #parallels #the panamanian monkey job #the crowning achievement job #leverage redemption s2 #leverage redemption s1 #leverage redemption 2.13 #leverage redemption 1.02 #mine #people pls like this show me I’m not going crazy

[starbuck]

we talk a lot about “escaping the narrative,” but keep in mind that the frightening thing about escape is the chance you might end up someplace worse.

#hello. i have been listening to Maize Stalk Drinking Blood for like an hour now #you could ask me about how it’s about ~10 different brbabcs characters - but i wouldn’t tell you because i am Shy ✌🏻 #it Is tho :)) #ANYWAYS #that’s a Ravenous 1999 quote for those who don’t know #but inspired by my currently line of thinking which is that for SOME of the brbabcs characters - there was never any better alternative #not that there wasn’t morally or logically but they quite literally COULDN’T have done anything else than what they did #not because The Narrative Is Controlling Them or whatever - but because they are Fucked In The Head #we might see potential ‘better endings’ for them #but those were completely unattainable bc making any choices other than the terrible ones they made would have killed them anyway #because they couldn’t have stood for it #which is what makes it such an excellent tragedy #also to any moralistic weirdos out there: this isn’t me morally justifying anyone - this is me going :(( #learn the difference and embrace the Tragic Narrative <33

[miodiodavinci]

collapses to the ground like a deflated balloon

#my god #stage one is finally complete . . . . . . . . #if you can recall that poll i reblogged about passing out #that important contact i received was mr. seto of the vocaloid team #who messaged me asking about a collaboration and quite literally nearly caused me to pass out #i read the message preview on my phone #stood up #saw stars #and collapsed onto my bed and had to lay down for like. 10 minutes before my body would stop feeling distant and weak w #i similarly felt ready to pass out today when i sent a message to ask when the announcement tweet would be #and they tweeted it. immediately after w #no joke rice and i were scrambling behind the scenes to get our act together and figure out what we wanted to say KHGJGSJKFHGKJ #all the while screaming because yamaha said they'd be posting it on valentine's day and we thought they meant our timezone w #because the whole point of this collab was to get the zolas more well known in the english-speaking sphere w #EITHER WAY #i am. so so tired and now i need to pass out so i can get enough sleep before more internship tomorrow w #which is heating up because my seminar professor wants a detailed plan of my final project goals This Friday #but my mentor won't know anything about where to fit that in until Thursday at the earliest #and my supervisor just hounded me over email to coordinate with the two other people at my station and choose an activity to lead #but that requires. planning. that our mentors won't have until thursday........ #perishing . . . . . .

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Feeling very violent rn so here's a very controversial opinion:

Everything after season one of Young Justice sucked.

Look, I know I'm obsessed with the show but that doesn't mean it's good, it means that I'm too deep into it at this point to get out. There are good moments within the other seasons but in general? They were not good.

I'm sorry. I understand that they wanted to be creative and have a neat narrative and deep lore and all that. And they do! The narrative and lore is extremely deep.

But the plot? The characters??

Season one was an actual functional show that balanced character development, plot and dialogue with world building, lore and messaging.

The other seasons do not do that.

Season two bounced back and forth between like 16 characters. We got some development for some characters but even that was minimal compared to the character development in S1. And this isn't me complaining that the og group wasn't in S2 enough. That's not my issue. I would've loved to focus on a new group and I think that Jaime, Bart, Ed and Gar would've been super cool to focus on. I loved what character development they did have and I craved more.

But the problem? The problem is when you have 16 fucking characters that you are trying to develop and shove into a coherent plot and have actual meaningful scenes. There just wasn't enough focus on S2. Imo, S2 was meh because the characters got left by the wayside. The plot, dialogue, world building, lore and messaging was fine, there just seemed to be a lack of heart/warmth in the show because of the characters. It's hard to get invested.

Then holy shit. S3 introduced more characters. And the plot got more contrived and 'big picture' to the point that it started to abstract. It felt like nothing mattered. There were no stakes, you were just watching things happen. There was 50 fucking things happening an episode and 80% of it was lore/world building. It felt like I was studying for a fictional history exam.

I'm pretty sure the main character in S3 was earth 16. Just the entire universe. Because goddamn. We checked in on almost every living being and EVERYTHING was a plot point. Most of it wasn't even relevant to anything happening in the season. Man it was.... it was bad.

And at that point it just wasn't enjoyable at all to watch. I probably should've stopped watching but at that point the sunk cost fallacy had already kicked in. I knew it could be good. Maybe it could be good again. And people were constantly praising it as cinematic genius so I was like 'okay well maybe I'm missing the point? Maybe you aren't supposed to enjoy shows? Maybe this is fine?'

But season four broke me.

The creators heard that people were frustrated by the lack of character focus and the episodes following 72 characters and the episodes switching between 50 different subplots every episode and their solution? Their solution was to take allllllll the different unconnected plots and, instead of evenly spreading them throughout the season, jam them all into 'arcs'. So you had a bunch of mini seasons consisting of 3-5 episodes dedicated to a cast of ~5-8 characters (some of them new). And each of these episodes had unconnected a plots, b plots and c plots.

THAT IS NOT A SOLUTION

Holy shit that is not a solution.

Not to mention the overarching plot of the season, in which we had no fucking clue what was happening until the final episodes where everything became a speedrun to wrap everything up. We literally had no idea what the main plot was until it was ending.

Good god it was bad. It's bad writing!

I know people liked it and good for them. You should like what you like and you don't have to justify it. But for me it was insanity. I'm sorry I actually don't want a season long subplot where Beast Boy is depressed and sleeps all day. I would be cool with it if it had anything to do with the larger story but, surprisingly, spending five minutes watching Beast Boy sleep every episode didn't make for compelling storytelling.

I'm still not over how we didn't even know who the main villain was until the end of the season. And then all of a sudden he does a villain monologue to tell everyone his evil plan and his motives. Super cool actually. I love it when I have no idea what the stakes are for the majority of a show. It's incredibly good storytelling when you leave the audience in the dark about a major player in the plot for all of the plot. And then doing an info dump evil monologue in the final episodes to rush through the explanation??? Fucking fantastic and not a sign of terrible pacing at all.

I'm just so frustrated. The show isn't about being a show anymore. The show is an entire cinematic universe shoved into 20 something episodes. It's desperate to tell every single story at once, audience, pacing and good writing be damned.

I'm so tired of the constant praising of Greg. His whole 'i don't write endings because life doesn't have endings' and 'i don't write cliffhangers, I just leave things open ended' thing is pretentious bullshit. I'm tired of pretending it's not. A good story has an ending. Stories are not life! Some of the best shows I've ever watched had planned endings. And oh my god. The cliffhanger thing... that's just semantics my guy. Greg you write cliffhangers. You can insist they aren't but I'm going to call a spade a spade.

It's also.... I'm fine with explaining things, in fact I love it because it's an excuse to talk about the stuff I love, and I have a fairly decent knowledge of comic book lore. So, I could not only understand what was happening in the show but I was also super enthusiastic about explaining it to people. But hey Greg? Hey buddy? If 90% of your audience doesn't know what the fuck is going on and needs to be familiar with super specific obscure comic characters from the 70's then you might have a problem.

I think I realized halfway through s4 that the most enjoyment I got from an episode was when an obscure comic character would cameo in it. But then I realized that a) they generally weren't explained at all and b) 50% of the time they weren't just hanging out in the background and they were vital to the plot. So to understand who the fuck they were and what the fuck was happening you had to be familiar with... well all of DC comics actually.

Anyway this rant is getting long and unhinged and I don't think there's a point so I'm going to cut myself off even though I have so much more to say on the topic. I think my general point is just that I didn't enjoy watching the later seasons and it's chill if you did and we should all respect each other's opinions ✌️

#rant #oh also the messaging sucked #the messages itself were fine. like 'you should go to therapy if you are depressed' and 'respect people's religions' and #'figuring out your gender/sexual identity is chill af' #those are great messages. the content is great and i don't disagree #BUT HOLY FUCK #yo Zatara ranting about his religion to Fate for 15 minutes is not how you get a message across #messages are supposed to be like themes and subtle points of the narrative #it's not supposed to be a fucking psa where the characters just talk for half the episode and say the message verbatim to the audience #itd be like if in season one M'gann stood up and spent ten minutes talking about the damaging psychological effects of body image issues #and everyone else just sat there and nothing happened and M'gann just kinda spoke about it #or if Artemis was just like 'im going to do a presentation on why child abuse is bad' #its just. thats not. thats not how messages in a plot work #but they didn't develop the characters enough. so instead of s1 where the messages were blatantly obvious #we just had side character zatara who we know nothing about talk about religion like he was doing a PSA for kindergartners #because we don't know his character and he had zero focus so that was literally the only way to get the message across #and im sorry but that's bad writing. if you are sacrificing character plot and narrative for a message then maybe scrap the message #or you know actually have a developed character do the message. like write the message through a developed character so it doesn't #need to be spoonfed to the audience like we're five year olds learning different shapes from a teacher

[delightful-69]

i just fucking hate this neighborhood

#sorry to vent #but not really #just want to get st off my chest #my best friend is already like a stranger so really #no one here is like...decent #bunch of fake ass bitches #a fucking camera and they decided to steal it #''how do you know'' #oh idk. the alarm went off around fucking 8 in the evening #it's not even midnight #fucking eight pm #when there was literally bunch of people around sitting there #people just want to screw each other for a piece of land #''you can't prove it's me. the camera didn't even caught the thief' #listen. #listen. you were literally selling stuffs right fucking under the camera. and STILL active at fucking 9 and a half pm #the event happened at fucking 8 #so the asshole who stole it. HAD to walk up to you. HAD to stand right next to you. STOOD nearby other assholes. #HAD to stand on st AND HAD to manually unscrew the camera and removed bunch of wires #before getting away #so if it wasn't you #then you purposely just...fucking ignored a thief #the houses next to us has fucking camera too. and it has been there for decades! #and yet the moment. we installed it. suddenly it just vanished the day after. #''it's new so the thief like it more'' #then explained why this ''genius'' stole this at fucking 8pm when there were people around. #like. the camera was right under them #there is no fucking way #this shitlord wouldn't get their attention #sure. fucking fine. it's just an object

[winterf4iryy]

#genuinely genuinely so dystopian #i cant even comprehend how this isn’t what people are talking about 24/7 #the way people can go about their lives as normal #i feel like im going insane #not to mention people literally CHOOSING to be silent and not reshare stuff and just turn away from this #or worse say they’re uneducated and they don’t want to pick a side #like oh im sorry #get educated then? #also i didn’t know you had to have a pHD to know that a genocide is horrific and should never happen. #i thought we learned that in history class? #shame on all of you who aren’t using their platform right now #fuck you actually #wonder how you’ll tell people in the future that you were complicit in genocide and stood by #watching while it happened #free palestine 🇵🇸

[pointsfortrying]

Ah lads here we go again. Chat, who's going to tell them

#dungeon meshi spoilers #<- for the beloveds #head in hands #when characters are written well (complex) but ppl Neeeed to be able to 'they're a bad person' bc they did a bad thing #failing to realize that literally EVERYONE has done bad things--- #the characters have depth! thats whats compelling!!! #yes this is bc the anime reached toshiro and we are once again seeing the waves of 'i hate shuro he's an awful person' raghhhhhhh #i fucking love laios he's an incredible character but raghhhh #chat they (fandom) don't know about the microaggressions #grahhh cultural differences and arguably clashes of nd bc i can see toshiro also being nd but even if not raghhh #yes toshiro should have handled things better but also laios should have and its wrong to baby either of them raghhh #also toshiro hasnt eaten or slept in days and is all over the place at this point and Laios Even Acknowledges It raghhhhhhhhhhh #raghhhhhhhhhhhh #ghhhhhhh knows that the later scenes will probably hopefully make some ppl better understand but its going to ten ten trillion years to get #there and raghhhhhhh #oh boy i cant wait to see th fucking. racisms. #ghhhhhhhhhh #me when idrc ab toshiro but the sheer scale of hate directed towards him makes me want to blorbo him out of spite rahhhhh #<- me when i have been in situations where im both laios and toshiro and it sucks from both sides #and thats! the! point!!!!!!!!!!!! #you can hurt ppl you care ab!!!!!!!! #grahhhhhhhh #the cultural part is one that just. grah. #ryoko kui does such an incredible job establishing and showing that different cultures exists and just the fandom ignoring that gh. #also stop calling him shuro raghhh <- thats a pet peeve one but god as someone who's irl name has been made fun of #So many times bc it's not 'local'. #ghhhhh laios ily but the panel where you were going 'HUH? SHURO? NICE TO MEET YOU EVERYONE THIS IS SHURO :D'. pain and agony #ryoko kui has absolutely been there before as most asian ppl when white person #<- this was me just having a moment bc goes into tag and sighs. #toshiro you're an asian side character standing in the way of the blorbo mc and blorbo yuri you never stood a chance.....

[andromedasummer]

can one of you f1 girlies become a journalist and interview the drivers who refused to take a knee because they wanted to fight racism in a different way/disagreed with how blm went about seeking justice and ask them, now that nearly 3 years have passed since the may protests, what steps they've taken to educate themselves on racism? what actions they've taken to improve things for people of colour within formula one/motorsports as a whole? or how they've gone about promoting racial equity in their own country?

#f1 #formula one #its been long enough surely they must have made some headway? right? (: ? #no those dumb fucking black and white anti racism videos dont count because their vagueness allowed #for them to be co-opted by white people who believe racism exists and that the whole of blm/equality movements are racist to them #from what ive seen literally only lewis has taken action to set up foundations and research groups focusing #on improving racial diversity at both grassroots and professional levels #others have given lip service but genuinely if another driver has been helpful in fighting racism in motorsports do mention #it would be a very very pleasant surprise #because the whole we race as one movement was very much image control #it was always going to be down to lewis and the other poc in the sport like zhou or yuki to fight against the unique and #insidious racism they face in the sport. ultimately the others won't because while racism is a problem they have #and causes problems for others. they see it as a problem they're not responsible for solving #and im sure most of them genuinely truly dont think theyre racist. dont know how their actions can enforce racism #but lewis has stood there and explained over and over again both behind closed doors and tv screens #and at a certain point that continued refusal to listen or engage becomes active and malicious ignorance #and that makes you racist. whether they believe that of themselves or not.

[the-converse-high-top]

save me eshet chayil...eshet chayil...eshet chayil save me...

#fuck dude #“false is grace and vain is beauty” #it sure is #it sure is when you say it like that #im trying to find a good recording of it to recommend but i just cant #this song isnt meant to be sung by a man like all the recordings are #its meant to be sang by a woman #or a group #and you feel it in your heart #you feel the tug of the folklore and the culture #you feel the eshet chayil tapping on your shoulder #welcoming in shabbat with you #and you stand there like the fucking avatar knowing that there are so many generations of people behind you #who have stood in your position #at the shabbat table #singing a hymn #and feeling crushed (in a good way) by the realization of community #i didnt mean to write poetry in the tags but here we are XD #jumblr #jewblr #i guess #i may just record myself singing it since i cant find one that fits my standards

[certified-anakinfucker]

ok this is unprompted but if you pride yourself on being the reason people leave a space for something they genuinely love and have done no objective wrong - youre a piece of shit btw. like full send youre horrible.

#cheeri rants #this is brought on by me finally letting myself get back into smth i loved for like 5-6 years #and got squicked out of by senseless witch hunts and trans/misogyny and the like #im really sitting here remembering all the nights i stayed up with amazing friends #the shoulders i cried on and the hands i held for others #the people who stood with me through some of the toughest times i can remember #we all loved the same silly things #we all poured bits of ourselves into everything we created and we shared that with everyone #i still so vividly remember lamenting that id never get to see our interest irl #and someone i didnt even know all that well dm’d me a few days later asking if i had venmo or paypal #because they were going to give me $50 to buy a ticket. they wanted to go but couldnt #for some reason i cant remember but they gave me their own money and told me to please enjoy in their place #and you know what? i fucking cried that night. you dont see that anymore #the all-nighters i pulled with my best friend watching the live reruns of our interest before we even got into the fandom #doing my homework while we were on facetime together squealing #and all of this came to a screeching halt because of some . PEOPLE. #who figured we were having fun the wrong way because they didnt like it #and we put up all the flashing neon signs to warn people #warn them of smth they should have already known #and just because people ignored those signs it was taken out on us anyway #and i have never been so heartbroken to watch one by one as some of the brightest people i ever knew #started leaving. breaking down. their light was being stomped out because some assholes cant mind their own #and i will be fucking damned before i stand by and let that happen again. to anyone.

[aroacehanzawa]

lore drop

#that poll just now reminded me of my Toxic Homoerotic Codependent Female Friendship in high school #there was something obsessive going on between us because 1) i wasn't even in her friend group 2) everything she said or did was annoying #there was some stockholm syndrome situation going on. also a very succession tomgreg dynamic #you know how you invite a friend somewhere and they're like 'we're on our way' and you're like who's 'we' #and it's because they're a package deal with their partner apparently. yeah that was us but platonically. if you could even call it that #anyway her sense of humour was like that of a mean girl ie backhanded compliments and jokes at other people's expenses #always saying something that would subtly put others down. i got fed up with that at the beginning of our final year #and called her out on everything that Wasn't Good. which ultimately culminated in the Divorce #well there's more to it too but i could be here the whole day #i was so obsessed with her i misstook it for romantic feelings too and confessed to her in the middle of an argument LMAO #and then proceeded to ignore all her follow up questions. but in hindsight it clearly wasn't romantic anyway #except about a year after the Divorce she retrospectively confessed to me AND THEN REFUSED TO ELABORATE WHEN. as revenge i guess #actually the downfall started when we went to another city for an event and on the last day before the train back we were supposed to go #explore the city in what was essentially a (platonic) date except she ditched me for Some Guy she just met and claimed she had to go back #home early for a family situation and that he was giving her a ride because the train would arrive too late #that wasn't the only time she would just. abandon me like that. but it was the final straw for me #anyway. defining high school experience 👍 #the only good thing to come out of it was that she thoroughly insulted a classmate of ours that i stood up for and so i gained a new friend #who is still my best friend to this day

[tutuandscoot]

I know this moment has been gifed before but since I want to kinda have a different discussion about it I felt it best to do my own post on it)

As you all know by now I don’t see anything wrong or questionable with anything they have ever done- moments that spurred conversation.. for me and more importantly them (the only ones that matter in this) there is a completely justifiable reason for all of it. It only concerned them, their business is their business and literally everything we have ever seen is confirmation of how truly special they are to each other. So let’s dive into some of that and think about a moment like this a bit differently, because it’s actually, I think a glimpse into their very intimate, finely tuned sensitivity towards each other’s beings which is kinda magical in a way.

Firstly, there’s no need to be so precious over this tushie tap. He’s amped up, he’s ready to go, wants to get on the ice, full of testosterone, he needs to channel that energy somewhere. There’s been other times where he’s smacked the boards, he does those knee bounces as well- and with Patch he could have a little guy on guy moment (you know what I mean- that reassurance from his male role model). But, in every instance- in the form of them actually skating, then moments like this as well, that energy and fire goes into Tessa.. they are a team and they feed directly off each other’s energy. He’s not hurting her, he’s not violating her, he is channeling he’s energy and anticipation into her because he knows she is feeling the exact same way. He’s amping her up. This is not some random girl he is tapping on the butt, this is the person he’s more close with than anyone else in the world. He is constantly touching her. He has been for for 2 decades. You can even see in the fact that she doesn’t register it at all how normal this is and how accepting she is of it. It’s him channeling his energy, testosterone, anticipation into her- she is his team mate, his best friend, the person she trusts with her life both physically and emotionally, this is nothing but teammates interacting, getting ready for the skate of their lives, and with some positive reinforcement. Another moment of connection for them.

The second moment though is what I find super fascinating.

There’s been other moments caught on camera and therefore surely moments before every skate, several we’ll never see- so thousands probably over their whole career, is this a really subtle interaction of their needing to connect with each other.

Having thought about this lots (and not being any kind of expert in any of these fields of study) it’s gotten me thinking about the way the nervous system reacts/interacts and how it seeks out that comfort and reassurance- in their case each other, being each other’s person. It’s kind of an impulse, then when it’s met with another system it knows so intimately, can inadvertently respond and communicate without.. permission from its.. host or brain of the body it’s in.. (fuck me I sound like I’m writing a sci-fi script.. anyway let me continue)

She reaches out for his leg and begins to pat him, in a similar area to where she last received that physical communication from him, which was also a patting motion- that was the last thing she felt and the rhythm of movement most present to her feeling, it’s the most recently recognised/understood. That physically then becomes an invitation for him to respond, reach out to connect with her. At this immediate moment you can see in their eyes they have become completely closed off to everything around them. It’s as if the aux chord is pulled and there is just static, or that dull humming you hear when it is more silent than silent. A void of any noise but their two synchronised heartbeats.

Also at this exact moment that he makes contact with her, instead of energetic patting, a gentle soothing caress. At this exact moment, her physical motion immediately becomes in line, in synchronicity and harmony with his. THIS is their nervous systems talking to each other! Without any instruction, outside/third party impetus, this is her response to his touch and her tuning to the same frequency/ speaking the same language/ whatever analogy you want to give it. They are moving with each other in the exact same rhythm.

The moment from Sochi where their TE FD warm up ‘kiss’ is caught on camera, the commentator in the background mentions that ‘sometimes they can get so caught up in the dance, and each other…’

This is seeing them get caught up with each other. They are so in tune to each other on a level that doesn’t require any decision making/outside impetus, just on an internal, fibre optic level pulsing signal to connect to that person standing next to them that they become shut into their bubble and the whole world fades away. This sometimes I guess has happened when they perform- the times T has talked about falling into a flow state (coincidentally this SD performance to follow she said was one of those). But that, for people watching is harder to tell how and where that exactly happens, and while admittedly in this instance it has taken me more minutes than i’d like to admit staring at to realise this is maybe what’s happening.. it’s incredible to witness even for a few seconds, them making themselves totally isolated from everything around them- wordlessly, just through their touch on each other they can tune into being completely on their own frequency.

This lasts a second or two, them caressing each other to the same rhythm, their eyes locked on each other’s communicating wordlessly (he may be saying something it’s hard to tell but if he was it feels like that’s not what’s controlling all this physical stuff). Then, what probably to them feels from a distance, but in reality about a metre away from them, that faint interruption that they have to line up ready to step on the ice. Even as that happens, they don’t suddenly fall out of their bubble; oh no because time for them has seemingly slowed down as they pulled each other into that formidable place of security, that place that has been their home for 20+years, that nervous impulse even brings them out of it. They give each other a final reassurance ‘up & down’ rub- so in sync I’m quite literally not sure which of them initiated it, and they turn their heads away at the exact same time, only fractionally out of sync.

It’s the same thing I’m assuming happens in the hug- that nerve impulse though is their breathing. They almost get to a point where neither one of them is initiating it. They can turn their minds off and connect on a much more pure, instinctual, human level. They kinda exit the world around them for a few moments where it is just those subtle human impulses and hold on each other keeping them present in the moment.

They don’t just know each other as friends or work partners.. they literally know how to respond to each other’s innate humanity- the systems keeping their bodies alive know how to find and connect and synchronise with each other’s. And not only can they do that.. they wanted their bodies to be able to do that.

When people ask me why I love them so much and what makes them so good and special.. it’s shit like this… because where in the ISU manual does it say pairs or ice dance teams have to be in sync down to their vital human organs??? It doesn’t say that and it’s never gonna say that and medals will be handed out with this never being on anyones mind.. which is why I just can’t see TS anymore in relation to the environment in which they competed (I can on technical aspects but not a human/artist level).

Everyone left dumbfounded by these two not being “”together””, well here I am sobbing into a pillow over the fact these two managed to train and actively wanted their nervous systems to (seemingly) communicate with each other and simultaneously shut the entire world out.. they wanted their freaking hearts to beat at the same time.. she wanted to only connect with him because that’s where she felt safest, he only wanted to go through all these rollercoasters of emotions with her, they wanted to be so inextricably connected… oh yeh and then go and dance as beautifully as they did and act as well as they did with blades on their feet and win a shit tonne of medals for it.. Ok whatever……

(Still sobbing)..

#yes I’m very aware I sound like an insane person occasionally.. but you know.. just saying what I’m feelin..🙂 #also wtaf why do I have to keep addressing the fact that #there’s a huge swath of people that made themselves certafiyable #over these two.. why do I have to keep bringing it up ugh #but unfortunately I feel like I can’t just jump into my take in this without addressing it #fuck I hate that we can’t just talk about it as it actually was.. #oh these beautiful humans are so fascinating #I can’t believe how magical they are #above all the skating excellence there is also THIS #just a few seconds they made feel like time stood still and they were the only two who exist

[hella1975]

my godmum who actively supports jk rowling on facebook bringing up radical feminism as an excuse for transphobia: i just think if we're speaking BIOLOGICALLY-

me who did my a-level coursework on the oppression of women and now has a bank of information about simone de beauvoir: im about to rock your world

#basically my godmum is your stereotypically thick local who thinks intellectual debating = who can speak the loudest #lucky for you babygirl i did dance for 7 years and now i waitress and my mum has undiagnosed anger issues! lets tussle! #her: BIOLOGICALLY- #me very calmly: the very basis of feminism was to elevate women from just being lessened to their biology feminists have been fighting #biological essentialism for CENTURIES now i mean just look at simone de beauviour's theories like if you think this is radical feminism #to fight against very old feminist theories and shit on trans people then i PROMISE you there is nothing radical about that #saying all this knowing full well my godmum short circuits at any form of calm-speaking-well-sourced-debate and has no fucking clue #who simone de beauvoir is #my mum does though bc she did a LOT of her studies around feminism and she literally went 🤭🤭🤭 #which i thought was progress bc usually it's my MUM i have these little run-ins with #although when my godmum left me and my mum were stood in the kitchen and my sister was upstairs but could very much hear #and we were talking about some political thing or another and my mum went #'i wonder what [godmum's name] would think as someone properly gay' #and i missed it at first but then i was like? PROPERLY? and i couldnt be like 'is that a dig at me' #bc im not out to my sister and she defo would've heard from upstairs #but i was like oh okay we're back to this now that solidarity was fun while it lasted ig #anyway this is all to say i had to sit there while my lesbian godmum tried (and failed) to be transphobic #all the while my ally sister got all passionate and pro-trans even though i know full well she's actually worse than my mum #and it's always me having to argue with BOTH of them AT THE SAME TIME about any sort of gay topic #bc my sister in particular CANNOT behave herself and seems to think it's quirky to have niche opinions #even though 'making life difficult for trans people' is not at all niche or radical #it was so frustrating bc i was like yeah im grateful we're on the same side against my godmum rn but i KNOW how full of shit you are #it was moreso like she was doing it to be politically correct and i was like yeah but in the safety of your home when you think #you can just say anything you do NOT have this energy lmao #just annoying especially being closeted and just having to take it #at least i embarrassed my godmum lol got her stuttering and shit by the end <333

[shayberri789]

Thinking back on it and... even though I didnt have the words or vocab to adequately explain my fears or how I felt, I'm really really proud of younger me for identifying those experiences and fears and trying to voice them anyway, and I'm proud of younger me for not changing in face of those differences

#ive always been aroace just didnt have the knowledge to say it #so i kept with my stupid promise theory #but im proud of myself to identifying wjay i did or didnt want. that i didnt feel that way #and rather than trying to force myself to appear allo or hating myself for not beint like anyone else #i found a reason that made sense and rolled with it #and stood true to myself #i was thinking of a trip when i was like 12 to the beach #and we were walking back to our hotel and i said to my mom i was afraid that my promise to never get a crush #had closed my heart to love. i was afraid i couldnt love ever #and i don't remember if i meant i wanted romantic love or if i was aftaid this meant i couldnt love my friends and family #or life and the things in it #(it was probably the latter) #but im proud of myself for voicing those fears and even when my mom gave the wrong response #('oh maybe you did. thats not good maybe you should open your heart to love and crushes') #(mom didnt know any better and what she actually said wasnt bad or even unwise. but it did hurt me. i remember the hurt) #im proud that i took that pain and wrong answer and rather than betraying myself i just basically went 'so be it' and accepted who i was #im looking back and i was a really wise child #idk im just feeling self love right now. i dont always feel this easy love and acknowledgement to myself #shay posts #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aroace positivity #aromantic positivity #aromantic experience #aroace experience #asexual positivity #asexual experience

[likedbyuarmyhope]

when namjoon said bts and army have created a world of our own that no one else could possibly understand i knew exactly what he meant. we’ve unlocked a new kind of love that no one else has ever felt before

#it’s not just any artist/fan relationship like it’s genuinely deeper than that idk #it’s not just the parasocial aspect either like i’ve loved a number of celebrities in my time and the fan connection is just so different #it’s still enjoyable but it’s COMPLETELY different from bts/army’s connection #idk what to call this love bc theyre my family but theyre my best friends but theyre the loves of my life but theyre my guardian angels #they’re everything but they’re also so beyond everything we can put names to #‘they dont even know you exist’ is such a flimsy insult bc it doesn’t matter if they know who i am individually #it’s about being a part of the community that we built together to help each other grow and #to​ give each other the strength and platforms to make our voices and our stories heard #the whole origin of our and their names says it all. we are a voice for the young generation and they protect and amplify our voices #and we do the same for them #i know they love me not as the ‘me’ who stands on his own but as the ‘me’ who’s part of an ‘us’ that has stood by them through everything #and that is such a special and beautiful feeling. ‘you’re my best friend for the rest of my life’ sums it up so perfectly #aeron.txt