#where the light has failed

[stylistic-nightmare]

Skeletonwitch - Where the Light Has Failed

#skeletonwitch #where the light has failed #metal #music

[rastronomicals]

7:07 PM EDT June 12, 2022:

Skeletonwitch - "Where The Light Has Failed" From the album Breathing the Fire (October 13, 2009)

Last song scrobbled from iTunes at Last.fm

File under: Thrash

#Skeletonwitch #Breathing the Fire #Where The Light Has Failed

[lotus-pear]

bsd fic authors i understand yalls pain SO well right now why is it so fucking HARD to write dazai. like i have a whole fucking spreadsheet dedicated to tireless analysis i have done on my part so i can accurately characterize him but he is such an unpredictable and morally gray character that it's hard knowing his limits and boundaries and where he draws the line for himself.

#i hate when ppl make him out to be a sadistic villain with no remorse. like did we read the same manga 💀 #but at the same time he is NOT crying abt all the ppl he sent to the grave. he sleeps just fine at night knowing he committed atrocities #yes he feels remorse? but he isn't like kunikida to weep at someone's grave for failing to save them #and then we have his emotions themselves #dazai isn't emotionless. far from it. he has difficulty expressing affection but yk he finds someone endearing when he trusts them #trust is very important to dazai and is one of the aspects of human emotion that he can fully grasp #but like everything else is in a hazy gray area that he does not feel like exploring. he feels alienated from his humanity bc of this #AUUUGHH can someone help me with character analysis PLEASE #I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION TO THIS MF UNTIL RECENTLY SO I MISSED OUT ON A LOT OF IMPORTANT DETAILS #see i would go and reread a few light novels but like i don't have time for that #and this is for dazai specifically. i am very well versed on his relationships w other charcaters #but just like asigiri himself said: it's very difficult to write dazai and write him WELL #so yeaaa i have a lot of smart ppl following me pls help #bsd #ALSO MY FRIEND STILL HAS NO LONGER HUMAN UUUUGHHHHHH I NEED THAT BACK BC I TABBED IT A SHIT TON #FOR LIKE CONNECTIONS TO YOZO AND BSD DAZAI AND WHERE ASIGIRI DREW INSPIRATION FROM YOZOS CHARACTER FOR DAZAI #THAT WOULD BE SUCH A VALUABLE FUCKING RESOURCE BC I DID SOME ANNOTATIONS IN THEM TOO BUT MY BOOK IS ANOTHER FUCKING STATE #I HATE IT HERE FML

[sergle]

what I was talking abt earlier. we have fully looped back around and away from feminism, societally, whereas before it was very Feminism 101 to acknowledge that many parts of existing as a woman in a misogynistic society are painful and upsetting. not that being a woman is Inherently Negative in a bubble. but that living on this earth, in the conditions we're living in, is hostile to women. and that gender is a performance. that many of the Staples Of Femininity as accepted by society are things that you have to create and perform and mold artificially and aren't inherent, that COMPLAINING about day to day difficulties of existing as a woman is something that you're allowed to do. acknowledging these basic, again, feminism 101 things, that something tied to womanhood is more time consuming or more expensive or more dangerous Because Of The Problems. does not CREATE the problems. that when women complain about having to perform femininity, they are not, in fact, oppressing themselves. the call does not come from inside the fucking house. saying that you HAVE suffered does not fucking equate that you believe you SHOULD have suffered.

like I could talk about this for hours. how braindead and one-dimensional the Takes are getting. "being a woman is looking in the mirror and going fuck yeah i'm a woman" damn. I guess any negative experiences you have by living in a misogynistic world... are your fault if you are anything but positive? "you don't actually want liberation" we've fully gone back to telling feminists "you WANT to be oppressed" when anything negative about our society is pointed out. it's not real until I say it out loud, I guess, and then I'm actually the one who caused it. if anybody expresses any unhappiness with how they're treated or the status quo or the language and culture surrounding womanhood and femininity. they've created it, right that second. they invented it just now. it wasn't a problem before somebody complained, right? also trans women aren't braindead zombies who just follow the flow of whatever cis women around them say. I am pretty fucking sure they are very much aware of pain, and are MORE than aware of the swirling torrent of misogyny and standards of femininity than anybody else. actually. and I am pretty sure someone complaining on tumblr that being a woman means always putting on a performance is going to make someone change their mind about transitioning. also "performing femininity" as a necessity to being treated well as a woman is not fucking NEWS to your Local Trans Woman. I AM PRETTY SURE SHE GETS THE CONCEPT. using trans women as a scapegoat for this braindead perspective on gender politics is spineless, meritless, and pathetic.

#how I feel about my gender is not the same as how I feel about the living conditions of my gender #when I saw that post I screenshotted here I literally sat w my mouth open for a minute #sent it to my friends and was like am I fucking crazy. is this what we're doing now #Forced Positivity and that there is no war in ba sing se and actually #you're ruining children's lives if you complain about misogyny on twitter #I don't HAVE to tell little girls about the downsides because they are already being mistreated #before they have even heard the word 'misogyny' let alone know what it means #you do not have to be fucking happy all the time about the cards you're dealt. #you don't live in a bubble where it's just you and your mirror and your pretty dress and nothing bad has ever happened to you #unfortunately bitch. we will have negative experiences that are in fact. part of the package of being a woman #and IGNORING them doesn't make them not exist. actually they will continue to remain status quo unless acknowledged #sergle.txt #I see so much rhetoric that is JUST old-fashioned gender ideals being presented with liberal language on tiktok #that is just telling women that womanhood is just being a girllll and loving pretty things and being kind and gentleeeee and nurturing #and not working and just like being wholesome and being happy and being a light in ppl's lives and just LOVING LOVING LOVING being a woman #so if for even one second. you don't love it. you are actually failing at being a woman #if you complain about the standards for shaving or putting on makeup. which used to be Baby's First Feminism online #that's actually just you creating problems. you're not supposed to acknowledge it. you're supposed to shut up and smile into the mirror.

[agardenofideas]

i hope sunny gets a villain arc if tubbo wont get one fully

like i need her to lash out at every single adult around her for not carring for her pa or her (looking at phil who offered to care for pomme and dapper when he wouldnt for sunny on tubbos Confirmed death), for no one taking her pa seriously, for taking things from them, from her pa until there was nothing left of him.

i need her to lash out at the adults for never seeing her pa hurting and thinking it wasnt serious, i need her to lash out in peoples faces how she had said they were worried for her pa and the adults just said hes like that or he'll get better and he didn't

i want her to lash out and reveal that tubbo said to her he felt more seen and cared about by a fed worker who was learning to have emotions than from any islander around

i want her to burn things, even if not a house and just a wood she placed down to set fire, i want her to do that, i want her to blow things up and lash out and be heard

cuz if being a good girl for her pa ends with them unheard and him dead then she will be heard now and once this thing called Creation gets her pa back to her, she is not letting him go

if any of the adults who didnt do anything to get him back cared for him in life and cared just a bit in death, they dont deserve to see her pa back again, he is sunny's and sunny's alone

i want sunny to spew vitrol and fire and to lash out at everyone, she deserves to go on a murderous rampage too as a treat

#qsmp sunny #tubbo #mostly as a mention #qsmp #look- she went through a lot #being from purgatory #isolated from most eggs and the ones she did meet most rejected her (ik tallulah said give more time- but as an ND myself- rejection) #it feels like rejection- anyways- #she tried so hard to make friends or get along and any time she did it just- failed so bad #sure chayanne and ramon like her lots and such and she has em and pepi- but- #out of all the eggs she could meet who were new to her- only 2 she knew liked her- out of 6 eggs only 2 #(that she knew and it took a while to know too- as well as later meet more eggs that would like her too-) #and then her dad is on a depression spiral #and then he is taken from her against his will and on their final day before hes gone they get attacked #and then hes gone for *days* #he comes back and hes worse #no one takes this hurting seriously even when she reached out for fit but he just brushed it off or made light- #and then forever kidnapps the eggs to work and then dapper is taken and no one knows where #her dad gets a bit better btu then hes back to being bad #people keep messing with him too #and it just hurts in ways ya know #and then they are taken to prison #oh yea- and she had her mom as a corpse in her front yard basically #anyways- prison she finally meets her other dad after months of being on quesadilla #everyone presses button and then are in a library and the eggs are just on the prone bodies of their parents #(tubbo died in same position that he sleeps in) #(sunny deffinetly curled up in his dead arms as she did when he sleeps. hes just sleeping. please shes just sleeping and this is a dream) #i want her to finally go ape shit #she would still be kind but she would have no mercy or simpathy to give anymore #no one will trample on them anymore

[dlartistanon]

I love Nearl because she’s exactly my type of “serious character who is unaware how silly she can be” like look how much of a Shoujo Prince she is (POV: you tripped and accidentally broke an expensive vase) (ALT POV: You are Nightingale and your husband is asking for a dance)

“I can’t carry my sword normally, this is the only way I can bear the crushing weight of my sins“

You know Liz is smiling inside

Platinum when she realizes all the Nearls are at Rhodes Island

#dltext #plat is extra funny because there's a meme going around about her failing to use an ab roller #from a jp variety show where a contestant cosplayed platinum #the timing of this sticker release is doubly funny #now all of ri knows she's unfit #it's ok she still has a god-tier midriff and great core from all those acrobatics in the near light pv

[oathofkaslana]

i love kallen so so so much guys do you know how fucking awful she would have felt...

#she comes home and the gildings been wiped off. everything has changed to you but nothing has actually changed. #you cant see yourself as the hero you were raised to be #you've failed your family. youve failed your lover. youve failed your home. youve failed your best friend. #youre going to be executed and all you can do is know that you cant even say youd regret it #you get the wish to return to your fathers arms as his little girl. #you wish to return east where your new home is trapped in memories that won't see the light of day for 500 years. #you punish yourself and its not enough #you wish you could have done more. you still want to do more. #kallen #hnk3

[suncaptor]

there's something specifically inside my head that is closing up that makes trusting anything so hard. i have to manually keep my mind open to the potential of anything being significant. i am so used to things being bad and things hurting and things not working and being powerless that it takes an exorbitant amount of mental energy to make sure I don't let myself shut down possibility. and I do it because I never want a certainty inside of me besides love to rule anything. but I want my brain elastic again. i want it open like breathing. it doesn't erase the unfairness or the critique or any of the bitter-built philosophy.

#it's so hard to describe what I mean. i think it's the combo of the like. specific part of my brain's development + the amount of trauma #I have endured + the degree of which that has been taking place on a backdrop of the world being incredibly injust no matter what I do #this is very very silly but the extent of how much this impacts me was made clear by how like. closed off I was to even liking an album by #my favourite singer. like obviously I am obsessively keeping myself open I would never let my preconceived sense of doom and stubbornness #control my willingness to let things in #but it shouldn't be so hard to keep my mind open to things like... liking my favourite musician of most of my life's music........... #and that's a VERY silly example but that's why it's easier to talk about. it takes so much work to be open enough for things like therapy #or religion because they've damaged me so much #how am i supposed to handle this on a backdrop of constant constant helplessness in the face of living insecurity and illness and trauma? #the problem is if you try so so so hard again and again and remain hopeful regardless of how illogical that hope is #but you get let down so constantly since you're never stop trying ever even when systems fail you again and again #and you're watching horrible things happen and everything that shapes you is horror #then regardless of how much you try it's so hard to let yourself let go of the very realistic lived experience of doubt and critique #and I DO. do NOT get me wrong. I am obsessive and refuse to be my own problem #but the act of doing so shouldn't be like this. it's in everything i do. from simple things like listening to new music to even the mere #possibility of a future #i am very worried this one is going to be misinterpreted bc I AM NOT saying I'm stubborn in the face of systems that have repeatedly failed #me. I AM NOT. I am saying to not be shouldn't take this work when it envelops the rest of my life. #if anyone reads this far please please acknowledge the degree of which I almost pathologically try again and again when I can guarantee #nearly everyone wouldn't and still fight to keep myself open to hope because that's just something in me that is like that. but BEING like #that is. repeatedly putting yourself in situations where you are powerless already and helpless to get better and then are hurt more and #there's no way to escape it's just the repeated nature of it and then trying to not be the issue. #it's the problem in itself. #my ambition SHOULD be smarter. #god I'll go into this when I fully understand it another time. i don't think i have this phrased in a way to make all the dots of what i #mean correlate in the significant ways to anyone but me #but hey i guess i'm expecting anyone to read this in a light to misperceive me in the first place instead of accept maybe I'm not explainin #well or giving me the benefit of the doubt. see. #delete

[lesbiradshaw]

the scene of liam collapsed onto the forest floor in front of scott sobbing about how he’s scared of what’s happening to him not because of the fangs or the claws but because he thinks his parents already view him as a monster breaks me a little inside every time.

#its so integral to who liam is to me like hes so scared of failing people and part of him being quick to anger #is his habit of always being mad at himself before he can be blamed by anyone else #all of liams s4 arc really like. the ‘are you mad at me’ scene w dr g. #him always just trying SO HARD even when it makes him come off as cocky or arrogant #mentions of dr g training with him to bond over lacrosse #the ied scene in the shower where hes so quick to assure them he can do things despite his diagnosis #him backing out of helping scott save brett and saying hes not like him :( #scott and kira looking at him while he’s unconscious and talking ab how young he really is #him repeatedly saying he deserves the bad things that happen to him #the well scene. the way he clings to scott after #scott coming up behind him and touching his shoulder on the stairs #him not being able to sleep with the lights off #like its canon hes afraid to sleep in the dark because he has nightmares i feel ill #anyways #i am not feeling normal aboht him tonight #also him crying about his parents seeing him as a monster and not wanting to uproot their lives again bc of what he is #oooooh as a closeted person that got me right where it hurts #anyways! #liam dunbar

[thisgodwontforgiveyou]

i think the people who made re2 remake just genuinely overcame their intrinsic hatred of and disrespect for women by how much they didnt want to let hideki kamiya be less misogynistic than them

#on every other front the resident evil team since like. god literally since sheva has failed categorically to write women well #and even sheva wasnt like a masterpiece she was just like a light substance fun action protag #but then claire just goes super fucking beast mode on every angle they loooooooooooved her so much #to the point where they started just juicing the fuck out of annette by proximity

[misty-wisp]

ngl when it comes to villainizing or woobifying a character in your writing i think intent matters more than anything. like you can tell someone hates or loves the shit out of a character when they get them so ooc they act too...off, and that can be both in a way where they're unnecessarily cruel or evil for no apparent reason, and in a way where they're overly cutesy or soft or just...perfect, also for no apparent reason.

but sometimes people write characters in their fics ooc with the intent goal of that being the case, like in AUs and the like. sometimes you just wanna make your fave go insane, and other times you wanna redeem that fave. idk i just think there's a lot of nuance in some areas of fanon, though there are various cases of mischaracterization that are extremely annoying to me. i think the writer's intent affects whether a character's writing ends up 2 or 3 dimensional a lot.

#i plan to write a fic that paints aubrey in a pretty bad light but like. the point in it is that she's slowly losing it lmfao #it'll be like a character study. like what if i wrote her slightly to the left #canon divergence and all that #as opposed to me writing omori in yurushite in which he's trying to redeem himself #i mean he's failing but he's trying. he's not perfect #you could argue i 'woobify' him sometimes which. yea that's fair tbh lmao #i don't have any arguments against that i mean look at him he's a boo boo baby in my au as opposed to canon where he's. like That #idk this has just been on my mind a lot lately ehe #misty says things

[like-sands-of-time]

If you don't write Ben as trembling, shaking, tripping over himself, stumbling to his knees for Rey I don't think you actually understand the character as he was in that moment

Rey could have ended that war by taking his hand tbh. If she had taken his hand she absolutely could have convinced him to do anything in that moment. He just killed his master, the man who had been in his head for 30 years, manipulating and destroying him from the inside out. He had no sense of personal identity, just a loose sense of morals and ideals and his obsession with her. She fully controlled him.

Obviously she did what she thought she had to do but I'm only observing. She wanted the death and fighting to stop. I do think if she had taken his hand she could have convinced him. He wanted to bring about peace and balance like his grandfather, he just didn't have all the right tools, like, rey's goodness and a different perspective.

#ben in that 10 minutes between killing his master and losing rey was so overstimulated #not only has he lost the direct link to snoke whos been plaguing him with nightmares and fear #so deeply intertwined from when he was in his mothers womb that ben truly knows no different #but he and rey have fought side by side.. wordlessly communicating through their bond perfectly in sync with each other #theyve both repeatedly killed for each other and saved the others life #what exactly is supposed to happen next? she came to him willingly but does she want to stay?? he needs to get her to stay #his brain is scrambled fried baked whatever #his proposal is Mr Darcy in the Rain Fail Moment but hes not hopeless just hopelessly devoted to her #all im saying is theres a universe where rey sees the good ideas in his head and the chance to change things now hes in charge #leia may have been a princess and politician and luke may have helped save the galaxy #but its ben who frees the skywalker name from enslavement.. anakin was always under the emperor and he was no different #it could have been very interesting to see their tentative union while dropping hints in the last few minutes #that snoke was one of palpys clones. then it wouldn't have been so out of left field in the next movie #and we can get an even better showcase of rey embracing the dark feeling is surround her #palpy is drawing her in this time instead of ben and she doesnt even have to be blood related #I'd actually rather she still was rey of nowhere #but hes manipulating her and bens redemption arc is him saving her.. bringing her back to the light #but showing her how having both isnt so bad.. how being light and dark is ok . how love and anger and fear arent the end of living #so in helping her hes embracing his Light and her Dark and the conclusion is oh actually #this black and white moral structure is inherently fucked and balance is the only true answer to anything #ben solo #rey of jakku #reylo

[dan-crimes]

POV me trying to act like a normal human in order to give my OCs traits that normal people have (it isn't working and I'm overdoing it)

#IF YOU LACK THE FEELINGS OR DESIRES THAT PEOPLE TYPICALLY HAVE THEN HOW DO YOU KNOW THE RIGHT AMOUNT TO HAVE #unregulated that boy is unregulated people are complex so like yeah someone wants like #attention of smth or to be seen as like a star y'know fame and all that like how do people with those brains work #is it like a genuine and enthusiastic IMMA BE A STAR !! MY NAME IN LIGHTS PEOPLE CHEERING MY NAME !! always and forever? #or is that the dramatics of media I don't know cuz I never met anyone irl like that #not as far as I'm aware #I mean a big thing abt me is everything has deniability so if I were to make media of some short like idk a gaming channel #I mean sure I'd want people to see it and to have a community so I would hype myself up y'know grandiose of sorts #but do I genuinely believe that? yes and no. like sure it CAN happen but if it WILL is debatable and probably unlikely #so yeah I like the idea of it ig in theory but I'm always expecting to fail not in a negative way tho lmao #more of being realistic and reasonable and if no one ever got into any of the stuff I made I wouldn't mind cuz like #I'm not doing it for the people I'm doing it for myself cuz I find it fun #idc abt the attention #usually when I get attention I reject it honestly lmao I'm not a big fan of it #anyway that's where I'm at so like do people genuinely enjoy attention? is that a thing? #what exactly are people feeling when they get attention like good? happy? seen? idk

[keeps-ache]

.,. ._. <- small guys :0

#just me hi #wish i could make one that looks like a frog‚ but alas #//ANYWAY i just realized recently that i don't have any good refs for Oath lol??? #i've had this dude for a solid year and i never made a ref for him hhh #the fact that i didn't Need one though is nice lol #like his face is either covered or you can't see anything past the shoulders hfdhjhsjhf #How Did This Happen #even AURA has a ref and i forget she exists sometime [dies] #but Anyway i Am making a full-body piece rn so :3 maybe it'll look nice but also i am Scared of what i'm going to do rn hfvbhfsj #not confidant in my ability to draw lighting things but a lack of confidence failed to stop me before so !! #//also trying to finish up on this fpaa chap but i keep adding things to the dialogue and ohhhhhhhhhhh my gooooooooosh i need to stooooooop #hfdj i just wanna Finish the darn thing!! i'd Like to figure out where this story Going already hhvdhbdj #i have a Pretty Good Vague Idea of where it's goin but also i don't know what i'm doing lollll #done that before tho so we'll survive bdshbvd #//also question is it‚ like‚ bad to stare off into oblivion while paying for stuff at the gas station #because my brother was paying and i always feel like i'm being weird when i clock out for a moment hbvhdfj #'oh we're not doing anything. good byeₑₑ' #Worse when I'm paying and the employee is doin stuff. do i also need to do stuff ? ?? #i'm confuzzled and stricken with the Curses in public hvhfjshfsj #//but ANYWAY i'm gonna go tryta finish my two things i have going on lol :DD #toodlesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss !!

[hyena-frog]

I failed the driving test today :)))

#I was so close to passing #my brain feels like it's being boiled and grated like cheese at the same time #I'm amazed I did as well as I did #I would have passed but hesitated too long at a yellow light near the end of the route 😭 #it's nobody's fault but mine but my instructor berating me beforehand didn't help me have my head on straight that's for sure #she's always done that always lectures me about what I'm supposed to do like .5 seconds after I'm supposed to do it #give me time to turn the damn wheel before you yell at me to turn the wheel!!! #the trst proctor was cool tho because sje didn't say anything except where I should turn #what a shocker I do better when I'm not being yelled at #too bad about the failing mark #I was hoping to be done with this driving school and this instructor #that was nearly $200 down the drain #now I have to swallow my pride and call them again for a retest #because I don't have anyone to help me and go with me to the DMV for the test #I'm extremely '''late''' to driving but I never considered or realized how hard it would be to do all this the older I got #because everyone is busy with their own lives #and my family has either moved elsewhere or doesn't talk to me #this sucks :))) #it's expensive not having a family or lots of friends #what an unexpected lesson #my post #*not having a big family that's functional