#where there would be more privacy

[potionpeddlerpatchy]

Crowned Prince Shouto who is so very much in love with you, even if it did take a while to come around after the arranged marriage occurred.

Crowned Prince Shouto whose brow creases and eyes twitch every time people in high court mock how plain you are under hushed breaths.

Crowned Prince Shouto who gets absolutely sloshed at a royal banquet to try and drown his anger when he hears a rumor going around that his marriage is unconsummated due to finding you so repulsive before storming off to find you.

Royal Advisor Izuku who rushes off to try and follow, only to hear a shriek coming from your room. When scrambling to investigate if you're okay he finds his master on his knees absolutely devouring your cunt while your receiving chamber door remains open a crack.

#and I mean the man would go at it till your crying out his name #cause he doesn't give two fucks about what it means to his decorum or repuatation #he's gotta prove a point to his people that he's lucky to have you every single day and night! #and Izuku understands the power play going on here #knows shouto ain't dumb and purposefully left that door open and purposefully took you in your receiving chamber instead of your bedroom #where there would be more privacy #the only thing now is #does Izuku stay and watch? or does he scamper away and try and forget how your face looked contorted in pleasure? #all he knows is he won't be able to meet you eye for a long while #and all I know is that those rumors stop after that night for SURE #i'm being bold on the dash today #thought has been running rampant in my mind for HOURS #so here we are #🔮.the peddler mumbles #shouto todoroki #shouto x reader #bnha shouto #shouto smut

[commsroom]

to me, the question of whether hera would want a body is first and foremost a question of autonomy and ability. she has an internal self-image, i think it's meaningful that the most pivotal moments in her character arc take place in spaces where she can be perceived the way she perceives herself and interact with others in a (relatively) equal and physical capacity, and that's worth considering. but i don't think it's about how she looks, or even who she is - and i think she's the same person either way; she's equally human without a body, and having a body wouldn't make her lived experience as an AI magically disappear - so much as it's about how she would want to live.

like most things with hera, i'm looking at this through a dual lens of disability and transness, both perspectives from which the body - and particularly disconnect from the body - is a concern. the body as the mechanism by which she's able to interact with the world; understanding her physical isolation as a product of her disability, the body as a disability aid. the body as it relates to disability, in constant negotiation. the body as an expression of medical transition, of self-determination, of choice. as a statement of how she wants to be seen, how she wants to navigate the world, and at the same time reckoning with the inevitable gap between an idealized self-image and a lived reality, especially after a long time spent believing that self-image could never be visible to anyone else.

it's critical to me that it should never imply hera's disability is 'fixed' by having a body, only that it enables her to interact with the world in ways she otherwise couldn't. her fears about returning to earth are about safety and ability; the form she exists in dictates the life she's allowed to lead and has allowed people to invade her privacy and make choices for her. dysphoria and disability both contribute to disembodiment - in an increasingly digitized world, the type of alienation that feels like your life can only exist in a virtual space... maybe there's something about the concept of AI embodiment, in particular as it relates to hera, that appeals to me because of what it challenges about what makes a 'real woman.' when it's about perception, about how others see her and how she might observe / be impacted by how she's treated differently, even subconsciously. it's about feeling more present in her life and interfacing with the world. but it's not in itself a becoming; it doesn't change how she's been shaped by her history or who she is as a person.

i think it comes back to the 'big picture' as a central antagonistic force in wolf 359, and how - in that context, in this story - it adds a weight to this hypothetical choice. hera is everywhere, and she's never really anywhere. she's got access to more knowledge than most people could imagine, but it's all theoretical or highly situational; she doesn't have the same life experiences as her peers. she has the capacity to understand that 'big picture' better than most people, but whatever greater portion of the universe she understands is nothing next to infinity and meaningless without connection and context. it's interesting to me that hera is one of the most self-focused and introspective people on the show. her loyalties and decisions are absolute, personal, emotionally driven. she's lonely; she always feels physically away from the others. she misremembers herself sitting at the table with the rest of the crew. she imagines what the ocean is like. there's nothing to say that hera having a body is the only solution for that, but i like what it represents, and i honestly believe it'd make her happier than the alternatives. if there's something to a symbolically narrowed focus that allows for a more solid sense of self... that maybe the way to make something of such a big, big universe is to find a tiny portion of it that's yours and hold onto it tight.

#wolf 359 #w359 #hera wolf 359 #idk. processing something. as always i have more to say but it's impossible to communicate all at once #it's a meaningful idea to me and i think there's a LOT more that can be done with it thematically than just. the assumption of normalcy #so much of hera's existence is about feeling trapped and that's only going to get worse on earth and within these two contexts #that's something i really feel for. especially with. mmm. #i don't like the idea that who hera is is tied to the way she exists because it seems to weirdly reinforce her own misconception #that there can never be another life for her. #and all of these things are specific to hera and to the themes of wolf 359 and NOT about AI characters in general #in other stories there are other considerations. #the best argument i can make against it is that she says getting visuals from one place is weird and she doesn't like it. but that's #a totally different situation where it's a further limitation of her ability without a trade off. it's a different consideration i think #when it allows her more freedom. to go somewhere and be completely alone by herself. to feel like she has more control and more privacy #to be able to hug her friends. or feel the rain. it would be one thing if she felt content existing 'differently' #but she... doesn't. canonically she doesn't. and i think that has to be taken into account. #i think you can tell a meaningful and positive story about disability without giving her physical form on earth too #but i think it has to be considered that those are limitations for her and that the way she exists feels isolating to her. #idk. a lot of the suggestions people come up with feel like they're coming from a place of compromise that i don't think is necessary #there are plenty of ways that having a body would be difficult for hera and i guess it's hopeful to me to think #maybe she'd still find it worth it.

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneepy cozy....

#cats #(medical stuff mention for tags) #poasting confortable image of boye for peace and serenity and such forthe #I have little weird episodes sometimes where I get shaky (but like violently like 'would spill a drink if you were holding it beacuse #your hands are moving so much' type shaky) and weird and sick feeling but usually it passes in an hour or less. but last night I just #literally couldnt sleep I was shaking so much and my heartrate was up a ton and wouldn't go down even after like 6 hours plus super nausea #so I went to the hospital and now shall wear a heart monitor for a week. which hopefully it's just some weird drastic low blood sugar #event or something and there's nothing actually going on. ekg + ct scan for blod clots + virus panel + almost all of the blood work seems #normal so... aa....... #Though me being so privacy focused hrggh... I basically have a constantly bluetooth connected device around me #since the monitor comes with a cell phone that is constantly transmitting data to the place. which they said they'll call you #if they see anything weird which is also scary. random phone calls... but definitely better than letting an issue go unadressed lol #the phone is also not meant to be more than 10 feet away from the monitor at any time so I put on this old tactical fishing #vest thing thats like navy green with 100 pockets and im just using one of the giant pocketson the side as a phone holder #my enormous silly vest just to keep one little phone #ANYWAY... because I got up early the morning before and didn't sleep at all and spent nearly all day in waiting rooms and such #I have been awake for like 32 hours striaght. which I'm sure also does not help with an elevated heartrate lol #feeling shrimp emotions or whatever people talk about unlocking at a certain level of stress and sleep deprivation #and also no food or water. after a while they brought me like 3 saltines and some ice water but I basically also haven't eaten since 3am #last night and it's 2pm now.. #thus............ bapy............. baby boye....... he will help ease all ailments with his baby powers... #And no I dont drink energy drinks or anything with caffiene really I'm afraid of all substances on the planet essentially #My body just likes to become shaky and weird randomly even when I'm not conciously anxious about anything/have had no caffiene/etc #and I guess I'm always more nervous about getting anything heart related checked out because of my arm/shoulder/chest area injury stuff #... i literally have constant chest pain all the time. it moves around but i nearly always have some sort of pain or pressure in my chest #so when people are like 'oh well a little weird heartrate is fine but watch out if you have pain!' it's like... i always do lol.. how am I #supposed to tell the Bad Pain apart from the Always Pain when the descriptions of Bad Pain are very very similar #AAAANYway.... hrghh... i wanted to be very productive and finally post drafts and wrok on things today. but alas.. #I can at least post small image of soft boye.. though he recently got into stuff in the bathroom whilst left #alone and knocked things into the toilet.. So perhaps not an innocent and NICE boy.. but still.. a soft one .. beautfile....

[orcelito]

I think the #1 thing to make writing good is to just. Stick to your guns. Take yourself seriously. If you treat your writing as if it's serious, even if you're doing some crazy shit, people are willing to believe it. The moment you doubt what you're doing in your writing, it's gonna shine through. So even if you're scared, pretend you're not until you get the hang of it & no longer feel so scared

It's worked for me so far 😅

#speculation nation #this kind of thing is why i never mention on ao3 when im nervous about a chapter #bc i do get nervous. i get nervous Plenty. #anytime i do something different from my norm. or bring in a new aspect of the story. Anything. #im nervous. i am! #but i dont mention it on ao3 bc so long as i portray that i know what im doing. people tend to believe it. #with this kind of thing you can do shit like 'so Yeah he has telepathy and can listen in on thoughts but he chooses not to #bc it would be an invasion of privacy' #i just kinda decided that and put it in the story. explained my thought process for the decision in the end notes #but ive never tried to over-defend it or anything. especially not in the text. #it's just a Thing that he can do. he accepts this as his reality. no need to over explain in the text where this comes from. #Stick To Your Guns. if your characters treat it as a given then your readers will too. #this has been Writing Advice by Fanny Orcelito. more to be shared later (maybe.)

[armoralor]

my favourite irony of the current shipping discussion is the folks who allege WolfWren enjoyers sent “threats” to people who enjoy cishet ships (I have asked for ANY examples or usernames of anyone doing this multiple times), have also been calling for Filoni to suffer & die if he doesn’t make their ship canon. but don’t forget, it’s definitely the sapphics and queers who like WolfWren that are the problem

#queer nbs & women get harassed for MONTHS by sabezra stans: [complete silence & all the major sabezra blogs still interact with those folks] #wolfwren gets a little love from the cast: “UMMM ACTUALLY THIS SHIP WAR IS SO TOXIC NOW AND THE WOLFWRENS ARE THE PEOPLE THREATENING OTHERS #are there wolfwren fans that suck? probably. & if you would like us to do something about it please give us examples and show us who #so we can make sure we aren’t supporting ANYONE sending threats and hate. #I’ve even seen wolfwren shippers giving sabezra shippers advice on blocking IPs + turning on stronger privacy settings #but where the fuck were Sabezra shippers when other Sabezra stans were talking about rape + murder + abuse in queer peoples posts? #I have about more than 20 examples of disgusting vile HATE (actual hate & not “haha RIP this ship) that I’ve been directly sent #multiple wolfwren fic writers have had to turn off their comments on fics because of homophobic hate #artists have been getting dumb shitty homophobic comments on their wolfwren art with “gay garbage!!! Sabezra of life!!!” #and I’m not seeing anyone calling out sabezras as a whole for being bad toxic people (which no one should because they aren’t) #do you understand & feel the hypocrisy now? #I have no doubt there are “mean” WolfWren fans that are saying silly shit like “hahah we won” and “our ship is better” #and yeah! That’s mean. HOWEVER it is not fucking harassment or the same as “fuck this LGBT shit” #and it’s wrong that queer sabezra stans are being harassed too- there is way too much biphobia & homophobia in this whole fucking fandom #but let’s not act like being called homophobic is the same as suffering under homophobia #and let’s not forget that queer people are capable of being homophobic themselves by perpetuating harm #thank you for coming to my TEDtalk #text

[jelly-o630]

Earlier today I’m having to watch a lecture for class and the speaker is a dude from NASA who has the same name as a Broadway actor I was SUPER into in middle school and I vaguely remembered the name but couldn’t place it/refused to believe they had the same first name until I looked up the NASA dude by just his name and not his name plus NASA to get his job title and was BLASTED with my computer showing me pictures of half Ecuadorian half Filipino Broadway actor George Salazar of Be More Chill Fame in the fucking creep hoodie no doubt singing Michael in the goddamn bathroom and the only thing I could do while reliving that most CRINGE time of my youth was add NASA to the search bar and try not to screen

#Broadway #musicals #be more chill #dear LORD #I thank the lord god almighty that this happened in the privacy of home and not in class #the WHIPLASH I had seeing his face CANNOT be described #have not thought about this man in YEARS #school #it’s times like these where I’m grateful I only got a tumblr AFTER leaving highschool #yeah I was stalking the site on Pinterest but it is not the same #I never made pins or posted shit #I made my online footprint as SMALL as possible and that was SO deliberate #imagine if people (me) could track my obsessions in more deliberate manner like on tumblr #I would literally die

[toxooz]

considering more and more abt how straight up buying a house is the best option for me and im

#like i dont want to rent bc its just money going up someones ass every month but investing in a house loan would Put the money somewhere #plus when its paid off i can resell and get the money back after all those years in a sense #but gOD im only 23 going on 24 is that not too youngGG UGH #i got the money for a house loan?? i think?? a good foot in the door so to speak #bc god the rent is just so high for fucking everywhere and to think its just not going anywhere long term kills me #my options seem to be rent house for crazy price every month or decent trailer in the sketchiest trailer park known to man #all the decent apt or house rent is in citys like hOURS AWAY UGHH #but finding a decent house to be in for a decade n a half or so and just putting money into that??? sounds best #i never planned on living in this shitty town long term but lets be real years are going by dangerously fast to me now so that long doesnt #seem so long now and i can plan on where i want my Long Term house for my milfsona in life while getting credit/ experience #but god loans??? down payments??? alllll that Important Document shit??? cripplingly terrifying #BUT the payoff like in unit washer and dryer some Actual room advanced privacy just being able to have my own 110% space ooooffff #def going to do a HELL of a lot more research and talk with peers but the discussing ive done so far sounds like i have a fighting chance #plus i was so terrified of moving out and fucking up something important after being backed into a corner at 21 and now look at me💪 #doin p alright so far i think #the only problem is the time i have and whether i can find a decent house around here thats affordable

[quietwingsinthesky]

prev post I don’t want to bother op with this but. that is why s5 lucifer is so good too.

#ex. hammer of the gods. I mean he’s fucking gleeful about the massacre. he’s having fun. #and then this is the same episode that ends with him in tears and breathing shakily over his brother #and there’s no one watching. this is not a performance. he is just. he’s grieving. #and idk!! compelling!!! #joke post yesterday about Lucifer crying more onscreen #but actually it was not a joke I would have killed for more moments like this #late seasons lucifer could have been redeemed for me if like. we just had scenes where he stopped for a minute. #like maybe when he hears about Raphael’s death. maybe when Chuck refuses to pull Michael out of the cage with Lucifer. #and just fucking!!!! let him mourn them in privacy!!!!!!!! #like it’s not much but that would have added a little depth to his spiral!!!!! he’s alone!!!! he’s the only one alive and free!!!! #ahhhh late seasons lucifer who is exactly the same when around the human characters or demons because he just. doesn’t care anymore. #but when it comes to Heaven. to his remaining siblings. he puts in the effort to care about them. #you know just like how much better would it have been if Lucifer was completely and utterly genuine in his attempts to create new angels #and he just couldn’t. he didn’t know he couldn’t and he finds out because he’s trying and he can’t. #nothing much has to change he can still get kicked out for ‘lying’ about being able to. #whos’s going to believe him when he says he didn’t know? #and now imagine a version of Jack & Lucifer’s relationship coming off the crux of that #Jack is the last ditch attempt at creation. the breaking point. #I’m rambling but you see it. you see it right? the desperate grasping at something he could never get back? #the way everything would clash. if he treated Jack with love. but everything else could burn for all he cared. #cause Jack was it. he tried to make angels and failed but he DID make Jack. #and the winchesters trying to keep his son away from him? turn Jack against him? he might. break. about that. #like I’m saying if you kept the basic plot structure of the final seasons and just made tiny adjustments to Lucifer’s character #not even really his actions just his motivations!!! BOOM!!!! fucking!!!!! better show!!!!!! #anyway this has been speculation with will come back at 8 and I’ll talk about the bunker being a mushroom #spn #Lucifer spn

[hshouse]

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#taylor’s roll put #has me thinking sooooo much about H’s whole pr/brand/strategy #and my thoughts have been like falling into place #and it’s just very frustrating #to me bc her absolute MASTERY of building her brand #makes hshq’s mess #even more messy for me #there are MANY points to bring #but the one I am thinking tonight #is how she operates on an even bigger platform so she is one of the few ppl I think are proper to compare H to #and she shows how you can have absolutely crafted to the tee strategies where almost nothing is spontanous and everything is planned and $$ #is front and center and YET feel personal and intimate and like she is our buddy and that we know her and she knows us and she likes us #the reason given for H’s distant persona is privacy but what this comparison shows is that you can get privacy without giving up warmth #harry on stage is such a drastic contrast to every other imput we have from him/his brand its kinda jarring #but it doesnt HAVE TO BE THIS WAY and he doesn’t need to sacrifice privacy to still craft a warmer closer persona. thats what I have been #thinking tonight. like I know 98% of you don’t follow or even like her. but trust ME when I say that being a fan of both its like oil #and water when it comes to how their public persona is. i genuinely feel like I know her. I DONT!! but thats what I feel. and I only feel li #I know H bc I am a super fan. but thats not what his brand portrays. also and this point is more nuanced so bear w me. there is an element #that comes from this brand of Cool and Private that i KNOW is completely inaccurate like I would put my hand on the fire over this but #hshq OFTEN puts out things or implies it that H is Cool and Different and would not like want to hang out w normal ppl that are not Cool #which one I don’t care if it is true and two I dont think it is true but its something that doesnt sit well w ppl. taylor has a persona that #seems like even tho she is a trillionaire she would still sit on your couch and drunk your grocery store wine and talk about dumb shit #this is largely because of ppl like fucking KID HARPOON who are into makinng harry seem like a weird etheral being and not just. a dude #but anyway. i think this is not great. and outside of this corner MANY ppl are fans of both like me. and this is v noticeable even if ppl #dont articulate it like this. and I think he is gonna have to pivot this strategy. i just hope they do it before ppl get more annoyed #and start being even meaner to him than they already are

[spiderh0rse]

society if we stopped acting like sasha wouldnt have done worse than jon at staying human and not causing the apocalypse

#shes really not that good a person and more to the point #more to the point. #she's got LESS of an idea of privacy than jon #its insane how little regard she has for the privacy of others #but still expects to have it herself. of course #i don't dislike her but the fandomification of this gal is a bit egregious! #she's not as competent as people think! #really isn't! #she's impulsive and doesn't listen to other people #also she didnt have that web mark so. that flat is the reason jonah passed her over #uh. given this tag lets just #the magnus archives spoilers #yeah #ok where was i. #web mark plus easy to manipulate is why jon got picked up for the role #though i would like to joke its because he's a fellow 'old at heart young in body' kind of guy #which may be the funniest way ive ever referred indirectly to the bodyhopping #yeah it wasnt as much a glass ceiling (gertrude is Right There? so many people in the institute- sonja??) as a lack of opportunity #no easy and obvious phobia to use for manipulation #and one less mark. so! #i mean now im getting off my initial point but i am still pretty fired up about it #anyways #uh. archivist sasha would fail to end the world but only because the web would just ignore her #and thats It #sasha's already watching and collecting secrets my gal is going to be an eye monster by s2 #sasha james #the magnus archives #tma

[aurosoul]

perhaps im being a luddite but all this AR VR immersive reality stuff is... kind of frightening? i know there's a lot of really good benefits to it when it comes to disability and such so it's a complex thing but man. i already feel i have too much screen in my life as is and the idea of making it even *more* immersive and having to Enter it to partake in it just... ugh

oh man no you're absolutely right to feel this way, and you're not the only one feeling it either.

addressing this fear was a huge part of what people were talking about in this space - there was an entire talk dedicated specifically to avoiding a "HYPER-REALITY"-esque future, and also for making sure people still have privacy, bodily autonomy, and free control over HOW exactly they want to interact with this new tech

the idea is that the ever-increasing amounts of screen time demanded of us are bad, and that we need to find a better way to interact with the digital world as it continues to expand... because, well....... it sure is continuing to expand.

the idealized dream I'm seeing from the 'metaverse' people is that everyone wants it to be........ an easier way of accessing digital information? a way of bringing it more seamlessly out of our screens, so that we spend less time in front of them and more time interacting with the world?

one example I saw was a minimalist AR display of a cookie recipe that made measurements hover over their related ingredients, so that you spend less time looking at a recipe on your phone and more time actually cooking. another is an example of, instead of Zoom meetings where everyone is stuck at their computers for hours, you meet in a virtual space where you can stand up, walk around, and share (virtual) things with each other by actually handing them to someone instead of using a mouse and keyboard

at the end of the day I have no idea how any of this will shake out in practice - I'm just a concept artist who's suddenly found themselves designing for these virtual worlds - but you're not wrong.

if history tells us anything it's that advertisements and corporations WILL find ways to make things worse, and that the information super highway will still have huge problems with misinfo and right-wing radicalization - BUT...... despite everything, it's still an absolute wonder that we can walk around carrying the entirety of all the world's knowledge and connection to other human beings inside our pocket. we're just still working out the kinks around the fact that our brains aren't built to process all that information at once.

ultimately, for better and worse, technology marches forward... and it's up to us as individuals to figure out the best ways to use it for good, and to protect ourselves from its negative aspects

#incessant meowing #long post #SORRY I WROTE A NOVEL I JUST HAVE A LOT OF COMPLICATED THOUGHTS TOO #as i get forced into learning more and more about the metaverse i don't want to sound either totally for it or against it #because it's given me an amazing new career in 3d concept art #where i can work standing up inside a virtual world of my own creation #with my clients inside this world WITH me giving feedback #which is just. it's unreal!! it's pure science fiction!!!! #but at the same time i KNOW the threat of looming cyberpunk dystopia #the one thing i would say as the world of the metaverse keeps coming closer #is to keep speaking up about privacy and accessibility in virtual spaces! #and to keep informed on what data is being taken from you and to protect yourself whenever possible #we are all going to have to learn tech literacy and data protection #which we should all be doing anyways because smartphones and websites and browsers are spying on us already #this shift has been happening for a long time and we are just recently hitting a crest in the wave

[house-in-the-backyard-trees]

mental breakdown in the tags incoming scroll past for your own well being

#so like im just WORRIED #cause like what if ive fully just convinced myself i think he's attractive but I actually dont think he is and I'm just jerking him around #and actinf like i think hes cute cause hes the first guy im not even joking basically ever since the ripe old age of 9 except for cameron #idgaf about his privacy he can fuck off but anyway he is like the first guy other than tiny little awkward 9 year olds to show me any form #of attention. and what if im craving it so bad im just convincing myself that i like him? like am i doing that? cause never in my life have #i gotten like those fucking butterflies or whatever around guys cause ive never been around them much so ive always felt so awkward around #them and just ignored them. like i even have a hard time talking to my male coworkers and looking them in the eye. and i just make up these #scenarios where every single male coworker that ever showed me any form of attention is actually secretly going to fall in love with me and #its like FUCK is that just all I'm doing? pretending? on both ends? but then i have to tell myself that my anxiety is more often than not #full of shit. but like ive craved attention all my life and what if im juat latching on to the first guy that gives that to me? i don't #wanna be that asshole. im just scared. how does everyone just date people? i thought for a while i may be ace in some way #but im also just wondering if i repressed myself that fucking much from literally age 6 that it did that much damage to me? cause ive always #been weird about myself and my body and things like that and i vividly remember wearing a tank top at age 6 in school and being freaked out #the whole day that i would get dress coded. i need to unpack this in therapy hardcore. cause i was also sa-ed when i was younger but i can't #exactly remember how old i was. #but i just think ive always repressed myself and pushed all of that down to the point that i dont know what it feels like? cause i watch #movies and read books and listen to music qnd im like hmm thats never happened to me something must be Wrong With Me. #thanks for coming to my ted talk #im so fucking nauseous #is that butterflies lmao #🎸

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

i've seen a few posts floating around about harry and meghan's near-fatal car accident joking about its similarities to princess diana's death and how "the royal family have done it again/are getting sloppy/are reusing their assassination models", and since i don't really give two shits about the royal family i couldn't quite figure out why these comments were rubbing me the wrong way, but i just figured it out.

because despite what these bullshit conspiracy theories might lead you to believe, both the crash today and that which killed princess diana had an actual verifiable cause: the paparazzi. that is, the media culture which sees itself as entitled to every detail about a person's life at all costs.

and even if you don't care about/hate the monarchy, this is still something we should be angry about!! i think every one of you i see reblogging posts about how you're scared to go outside in case someone films you and puts it on tiktok should care about this, because it's really just an extension of that same issue. and while, sure, it's funny to imagine the queen saying "one wishes it to look like an accident" while stroking a corgi in a darkened room, those kinds of conspiracy theories only serve to obscure the true issues at play here and are therefore serious misinformation

#and just in case it wasn't clear i am NOT defending the royal family here #i'm just saying that maybe instead of joking about how these events were caused by some wide reaching elite conspiracy #it would be more useful to discuss the actual reasons behind them #bc if privacy isn't a right for literal princes and princesses then what the fuck are the rest of us going to do? #it's stupid to believe that a world can exist where people feel entitled to every detail of a celebrity's/public figure's life #but that scrutiny isn't extended to any ordinary person who happens to fall into the public eye #(especially with social media blurring the lines between 'regular people' and 'celebrities'!) #these issues go hand in hand!! you can't truly advocate for one without the other #ok i'm done now. idk if this even makes sense lol #🧃

[beechicory]

Argh.

#It is so ridiculous that this kid has FIVE parental figures and I'm the only one who's actually a good 'parent' to them #One other of the parental figures I've spent a few YEARS brute-forcing into being better at it and have to constantly keep doing so #And one of the other ones is just selfish and oblivious and overbearing and kind of useless and more like a kid than a parent #And the last 2 are actively abusive and just fucking terrible people who make the kids' life - and my life for that matter - a nightmare #How am I the only one who is any good at this?? #I have no training or experience except a) being very good at loving cats and b) being raised in a horrible nightmarish abusive home #So I'm basically doing what MY family should have done for ME #And it's not fair bc I'm fighting the others every fucking step of the way just to TRY to make this kid's life less miserable than mine was #Like it is such a battle #And it is like a revolutionary unheard-of never-occurred-to-them concept for me to say 'Have you asked [kid] what they want?' #Bc they all automatically go for power struggles and selfishness and treating the kid like a possession #And it's only the one other 'parent' who will even fucking listen to me! #Like it took me a year just to reach the point where this kid trusted me enough to say 'no thanks' about anything #And w/ the parent who sometimes listens to me - the most constant freaking thing I do is ask 'Why?' bc they usually have no actual REASON #No legitimate reason for this rule they've decided or thing they've refused or anything! Just limiting the kid's life bc of how THEY feel #But also like if the kid says something would make a situation worse or better or whatever I freaking listen to them #Bc they have greater insight into the situation bc it's their freaking life and their experiences! #And when they want to spend literal hours describing their new video game I listen and inquire and comment on the cool parts! #And I don't give them 'orders' or anything bc what they have lost the most in this shitty situation is the right to have ANY agency #I always ask before I do things even just opening a drawer to look for a concealer they borrowed bc it's essential to respect their privacy #Bc they don't GET any from anybody else!!!!! #I literally have had to have so many arguments with the other half-decent parent just to get them to stop going through their stuff! #And again the other 3 people are frankly fucking terrible #Actively negative #Two of them actively evil #And yes I've tried to get authorities involved many times but they fucking refuse to do anything I've tried over and over and OVER #So I'm parenting this kid bc holy shit no one else is any good at it #And I'm so angry and tired and upset and I love them so much and can't fix this other shit for them #And I'm so flabbergasted that out of 5 ppl I'm it: the only decent parent #It's not fair to this kid

[edeldoro]

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Writing gore and violence through a character who isn't regularly caught in the thick of it is a Lot for me as someone who's extremely desensitized to both. I have to pay attention to things that would naturally trigger a response

#orodlede #I worry a lot of it coming across as shock value because revulsion doesn't occur to me anymore #Smell is the hardest to capture so I hold back on that #But then I've been reading fics by more experienced writers where bloodshed happens and it's like #Oh I'm diluting a lot of my writing #Maybe I should be more forthright with what I'm doing here #Writing this feels ridculous in personal terms too because I struggle with homicidal ideation/fantasies #Thank goodness for music I don't know where I would be if I didn't love music #I don't really like conflict as the mainstay of my writing #But if I keep it separate it's no good either #I don't have much besides digital privacy so #Mhm

[samuraisharkie]

girl help I’m experiencing that common yet elusive late night motivation to get my life together knowing it will fall apart in the morning </3 girl fucking help me

#I hate ittt #I’m always like ‘I’m gonna start doing this’ or ‘I’m gonna finally try and get myself in a place where I can maybe take college classes’ #and ‘I’m really gonna try and fix my sleep schedule and stop getting distracted instead of getting something accomplished’ #and then in the morning evil me is back and they hate me and everything else #and would sell the world to hell for five more minutes of sleep #and my executive dysfunction has its claws in me again #man it sucks being so behind. I don’t want to like complain and make it sound like I’m worthless bc I’m not but man it’s hard #it’s hard watching ppl younger than you achieve your dreams of learning and getting better and breaking through that mental fog #they’re not always much younger either just like. two years is enough to make me wonder what would have happened if I was there #I know it’s not all in my control why I’m here either— there’s a lot of factors at play #but one of them IS that growing up I couldn’t never beat that executive dysfunction plus mental fog and procrastination #and then I shot myself in the foot by saying I waited to long and shouldn’t even try #and now I’m realizing I could but the years I spent fighting with myself weigh me down now and then #I can’t let it get to me because if I let myself get weighed down by it all I pull others down with me #but sometimes it does make me sad. and frustrated. when I feel this motivation when im lying in bed tired at some ungodly hour #suddenly struck with wanting to change my life and not having the daylight nor the physical/mental ability to get it done right then #not to mention the privacy. if I chose to get up at the buttcheeks of midnight and morning I would be not only destroying my own schedule #but disturbing a bunch of others too #anyway this wasn’t supposed to turn into a rant sorry #I haven’t talked a lot lately so it’s all bubbling inside I guess