#who needs a sleep cycle

[novamirmirsblog]

I don’t even think I need sleep. Maybe it’s a lie sold to us by our parents.

#is it 2am? #yeah #watch me be here till 5am 🥲 #who needs a sleep cycle #sleep is for the dead

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I know WWX has a traumatic past with dogs, but sometimes you see that the dogs just want his attention, and a part of me is unsure who to feel sorry for more. Who's more pitiable, the dejected dog, or WWX who jumps into LWJ's arms?

Ran the numbers, and it turns out they are both equally pathetic.

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #ask #I could keep the list going for ages. #Digs around in the dirt #will claw at the door if a loved one is behind it and you can't see them anymore #gets to zoomies and needs to run around for a bit #Women want to approach you if you are accompanied by this beast #and so on and so on #If your man is sitting outside your door growling at strangers who get to close while you sleep #if he's tracking mud into the house and your bed #if his nose is always kind of wet #that's either a dog or wwx. think about how you would feel if a cute stray dog waddled into your house and repeat with wwx #the feeling is comparable. for me at least #A dog wants pets and a wwx wants to not pet the dog. its a vicious cycle. both suffer and no one wins.

[vasira96]

can't stop daydreaming about a soulslike zelda game yall i'm so normal about this

#vasira rambles #don't mind me #it's the themes of unbreakable cycles slowly destroying the world for me #how perfectly does the hero of time fall into the souls story tropes #i love how mailable souls games are when it comes to their narratives #the way story is woven into the gameplay is *chefs kiss* #u don't understand how badly i want this #like mechanically yea i want it to be like dark souls or bloodborne but i want the story to be told like it's done in souls games too #princess zelda could be the maiden who lvls up link #also link should be a customizable character but the name should be locked #i need to go to sleep but i need you to taste my dreams #for they are delicious

[loki-the-bi-frost]

So I was reading the famous Merthur fic and

WHY DID THIS MAKE ME CRY?? I AM CRYING RIGHT NOW. IT’S JUST SO SWEET. AND I DEFINITELY SHOULD SLEEP

#I’m actually listening to someone who tells me to go to sleep #it’s a bloody miracle #I need to find this author and confess my love #merthur #bbc merlin #merlin #and like the cycle of the year we begin again #fanfiction #arthur pendragon #merlin fanfiction #ao3

[boyfrillish]

The other day, I was going through my Switch screenshots from Sword to try to find something else and remembered all of the Emotional Pain™ from up until the Final battle lmao

Anyway, yes, these two sillies still give me All The Feels in all the ways, for like 8 whole months and counting now. The OTP ever

#hopvic #masahop #trainshipping #time for some tag rambles! all of the hurt/comfort type angst that cycled through my brain through the end of January/first half of Februar #but then turned into just silly fluff as the weeks went on hahahaha #But man I really do need to revisit some of that delicious angst some time because I couldn't actually get to writing any of those brainbu #(featuring Hop's attempts to repress his crush on Victor because oh boy. there's so much to unpack here up until the end of epilogue/DLCs) #At latest when I replay which I've planned for November (SwSh anniversary + my bday!) because then it'll all be fresh again #anyone who's ever seen my livetweetings/posts on here may know that my first playthrough was like a haze of fever and lack of sleep hahahah #so yeah replays are needed and they have been a strong itch but also I had(have) all the other games to catch up to still #in fact I'm also posting this one while sleepdeprived hahahaha ooops

[aroacehanzawa]

sick and tired of people being judgmental of my natural biological sleeping and waking rhythm that i have minimal control over. like i have had it to my limit i have had ENOUGH

#i don't think my schedule is 'fucked' i think what's fucked is a society that does not accommodate for differences and expects everyone #to conform to a rigid schedule at the expense of their wellbeing and which causes extreme stress and chronic sleep deprivation to uphold #i'm gonna cry for real #also i know my best friend meant this lightheartedly so it's nothing to confront her about i just need to rant about it and move on. #because yeah my sleep schedule probably appears messed up to someone who is used to waking up no later than 9 #and is from a family of people who wake up at 'normal' hours #compared to my family who has no problems with when i wake up as long as i get enough sleep. and wake up on time for resposibilities ofc #what upsets me is the wider context of it and how people in general are so unwilling to be understanding #and assume that going to sleep late and waking up late is some kind of laziness or irresponsibility :/ #ok not crying anymore #like i'm pretty sure i have some kind of delayed sleep phase syndrome because even if i try to maintain a regular bedtime #i physically will not be able to fall asleep at progressively later times #until i have to forcibly reset it by pulling an all-nighter. and the cycle continues

[dailyeca]

i don't have to say it, do i? it'll get repetitive.

#eca orichird #daily eca #hey im queuing this the night before. i feel too sad to sleep. i think its probably a mood swing. #i always have my worst nights before my cycle starts u-u alas. #im keeping too much to myself. i hold so many secrets. i wish i could get them off my chest but i don't want to tell anyone anything. #catharsis without the reveal. the need to talk and have someone who is no one listen. #the statue and her creation. talking and unsure if theyre listening. someone who doesnt exist but can hear. #if you have the ability to read this; you are not this hypothetical person. #please don't talk to me about this. i don't have anything to say to you. </3 thank you.

[biohazard-inevitable]

Me talking to my dad about my factory reset plans after I havent slept all night:

Vs

My dad who just woke up:

#lifeblogging #cw gifs #fox gif #wolf gif #for anyone who isnt aware: #sometimes my body knocks me into fully nocturnal cycles #i wake up at 5 pm and go to bed at 5 am #it happens during winter sometimes and i sleep for way too long #i start to lose the concept of time itself and its real disorienting #so i do what I like to call ‘factory reset day’ #where i just power throught and stay up as long as i can to forcibly reset my clock to a more ‘functional’ time #i often have to do my factory resets when i go too long without a schedule #so like when im off of school it tends to happen #and since Christmas is coming soon i’ll need to do my reset to be awake enough for family time with all the early birds #at least i can start getting through one peice episodes!

[raystie]

wow my last post was in Feb so despite not really having a following here I still feel obligated to say I'm going through a Bad Time both mentally and physically rn I can't even be bothered to think about or play Yakuza or do anything really. not dead but I sure feel like I'm on the way there rn. won't be here for a while take care everyone

#ray txt #well if you really wanna know the tmi details I'm putting it in the tags because I love overshsring #short version is entered depressive episode couldn't regulate my emotions constant crying and racing thoughts and mood swings #eventually psychosomatic symptoms caused by anxiety gets bad enough I start also having health anxiety and freaking out that I had some #disease or illness and that I was gonna die #if you've ever had your body feel like it's dying because of anxiety it's the typical shit #chest feels tight and like it's being crushed and like I can't breathe #random pains all over sometimes muscles or stabbing pains across torso #random nausea sweating and constant loss of appetite but maybe that was the depression #anyway after multiple crying sessions and nights where I couldn't sleep until like 8am and my parents considering putting me in #psych rehab (idea got scrapped) I go see some specialists #they check my blood piss uterus (irregular cycles I only get it every 2-4 months for years now) #and x-rays and they tell me actually everything looks fine physically! there's nothing wrong anywhere they can see and all my Levels are #perfectly Normal and Average I don't have a disease or illness or deficit #so all those pains and suffering really was just psychologically manifested and my brain made it up #andi know it's true because after that visit the chest pain was a lot less Andi can breathe better now #wait but that's not the end of it! #the gyne thinks I could have PCOS but can't confirm so I get my hormones tested and turns out I have more prolactin than normal #that fool made it sound like I Needed to get a MRI scan to check the gland that produces it in my brain or whatever #i go see an endocrinologist who says oh actually the extra prolactin is most likely just from your psychiatric medications #turns out if you take those it's commonly seen to go up so I didn't have to get scanned #this was optional but he suggested I take cabergoline to lower it and also get my menstruation regular again #and that's what I'm doing now but I feel like I had forgotten what having a period is like after always going for months without it #Oh and then I saw a new psychiatrist. because I had serotonin syndrome before and my body reacts badly to medications I've taken #he suggests a sensitivity blood test which I agreed to IMMEADIATELY because I've spent almost a whole decade taking all sorts of meds and #none of it working out #I haven't gotten the results back but he also said SSRIs are out of the question #although I've tried a bunch of antipsychotics and (prescribed) ADHD medications and they didn't work out #really want this fucking test because taking a med and then getting blasted with side effects makes me feel like a guinea pig being #experimented on

[beeapocalypse]

AH i havent talked abt the frontierists here have i. very secretive sect of alamanni humans looking into Dreamed Realities (pocket realities born by dreams- the purposeful creation of them by eldritch deities Is possible but is also considered way blasphemous. near every dreamed reality by alamanni folk is born of essentially the most advanced form of maladaptive daydreaming possible and is unintentional. way hard to discern between them and real vivid Normal dreams). humanitys predecessors (taught the secret of intentionally dreaming up new lands by a select few eldritch beasties seeking refuge from the rest) sought refuge in a dreamed reality to get away from both the incessant typically deadly curiosity of the vast majority of eldritch deities and their incredibly shit living situation (forced into subterranean living bc of the whole corpse of the existence dragon and all of its curious parasites hanging up in the sky staring down at them, resources running low over the years with them unable to leave for more bc of the venettes- already sentient animals transformed into more human shapes by the eldritch in an attempt to get closer to that hidden race) and their shed mortal bodies upon successful exodus became the first humans so theyve got this tiny innate knack for intentional exploration that other alamanni folk dont. through the gathering of just abt every bit of still surviving texts on dreamed realities (WAY sparse, both thru the passage of time + the fact that those first eldritch deities desperate enough to part with such secrets were long killed by their more pious fellows), the frontierists understand the mechanics of it all Just enough to be able to deliberately enter and explore this 'final frontier' which they seek to put to page and Conquer

#^ the rare alamanni lore post . did not realize how much of a wall of text it was LOL #theyre colonialists treading through ppls dreamed realities born of maladaptive coping seeking to stake claim and find Purpose (ie-- #--resources) in this new unclaimed frontier. there is also some stuff there w when humanitys predecessors ascended they permanently and-- #--irrevocably jacked up Something in the function of dreamed realities. they can still be created and even traveled through but if the-- #--frontierists follow in their footsteps theyre going to mess it up just a little bit more. the ouroboros managing to swallow-- #--just a few centimeters more of its own tail. an imperfect cycle which WILL end just as the existence dragons death + rebirth will as well #they hang out in an ancient venette fort in the middle of a ploilan forest and have a small army of servants to attend to their every-- #--need sleeping and waking. by keeping as much of their mind in the dream as possible even while awake they can still-- #--maintain a VERY tenuous connection with the rest of their research party so the servants do as much as possible for them. bathe them-- #--feed them carry them to and fro so on and so forth. the servants wear velvet slippers and communicate solely in sign to be as unobtrusive #--as possible. they fight over who gets to go out to the nearest town for supply runs even tho that entails dragging them back thru-- #--THE most sketchy forest trail in existence #had to go on about some tangentially related stuff to really get into them. the main Thing that happens to them is that a sole-- #--frontierist discovers the truth of thules deceit + mindlessness in one (thru glimpsing toyoshis dreams. though its a mindless-- #--reptilian dragon it is an ANCIENT one and constantly dreams of thule + all that) AND the truth of their predecessors (idk how yet lol)-- #--and is left with the knowledge that they were simply left behind. they serve no greater power in their attempted (intellectual) conquest- #--of the dream-ed frontier. they fulfill no greater role. they are alone and unattended (EXCEPT for the venettes. humans and them have-- #--existed so closely intertwined since their very conception but this sense of superiority over their slight innate ability to travel the-- #--dream-ed frontier caused them to reject that eternal companionship) #<-- thinking abt making it so there is no Real advantage that humanity has over venettes and that is an entirely unfounded belief-- #--made to give the frontierists a sense of superiority + unity amongst only themselves. that works better w the themes #alamanni info #<-- NEW TAG. if im going to do this instead of type stuff out in docs i want to be able to find these posts again lol

[sleepvines]

anyone wanna share how their day’s goin? I hope y’all are happy and comfy this friday 💚

#sleep rambles #mood’s pickin up after a kinda rough thought cycle so i wanna share some good vibes to anyone who needs it

[foxilayde]

not to be a huge nerd but that’s way the Star Wars galaxy has standard time! only separatists planets usually use their own calendar

Bby you’re talking to a huge nerd! 🤣

I am aware of the standard time measurements.

I was more referring to space time relativity and how difficult it would be to actually standardize such measurements between different solar systems IRL.

#and also the more I think about it… the more I think a standard calendar is such crap! #like if I’m living on a planet that has a day cycle that lasts a standard week. I’m just supposed to artificially divide up my ‘day’? tf? #what if I’m a species who has a different sleep pattern? #it’s all very human-centric and tbf it’s giving colonizer #you’re telling me the empire did not come up with this?? #Danny needs to go touch grass now

[adamprrishcycle]

One day taylor swift sat down and wrote the most ronan lynch coded lyrics ever and thought we wouldn’t notice

#never take advice from someone who’s fallen apart!! #people who sleep on dear reader need to rethink their choices #ronan lynch #taylor swift #trc #the raven cycle #the dreamer trilogy #tdt #NO ONE SEES WHEN YOU LOSE WHEN YOU’RE PLAYING SOLITAIRE #dear reader #midnights

[metaphysicae]

wish my family would stop treating the fact that i wake up at 7 instead of 6 as a personal, moral failing

#its almost like upending my entire sleep schedule has unwanted effects on my sleep cycle #who could’ve guessed #nd like its fine i get it someone needs to feed the chickens #but my god they’re not gonna keel over and die if i’m there an hour later than my mom usually goes. #and i get wanting to maintain routine but i AM #i’m gone and back in the same two-hour period my mom does

[kuiinncedes]

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#jfc i need to stop fucking crying fhjfgff tw pet death or something sort of #my cat is dying basically and it like really sunk in after a conversation w my mom this morning #that we can't do anything anymore #and i've cried like fucking 6 times today or something i just don't want to have to deal with this lmfao #but my parents are out of town and my mom is the only one who is like as sad abt it i think #and like understanding idk me and her were 'closest' to our cat lmfao i guess lol #but my cat's fine she's just old and isn't eating or drinking and can barely walk now #and she like just doesn't move and stares into space instead of sleeping #and idk what to do i just feel like with my mom out of town it's all on me to try to take care of her and idk what to do #bc i can't do anything she's just at the end of her life #and i've been crying so much about it today lmfao i'm tired and my nose is completely stuffed #anyway it's part of life and whatever i'm just really sad about it today and probably until she dies and probably after that it's just #gonna be like this for a while lmao i just need to talk about it somewhere i guess #i don't rly wanna tell any irl friends or anything bc idk i just don't really wanna talk about it #so like if anyone sees this y'all can respond to the post but i probably wont reply to anything kldhfgjfgdfdf #also some minor other things that are stressing me out a tiny bit jfhjflks idk ugh #i haven't experienced actual loss/grief yet so this is fun #hhhhhhhh sighs i gotta get ready for bed #i've just been cycling thru like instagram tumblr ao3 youtube all day idk what to do lmfao #bc the minor other thing stressing me out is that i'm staying on this research team over the summer but #like i haven't been hired yet by the universtiy so i don'tthink i can technically do work yet #and i have rent to pay next semester so i kinda wanna make money and also like do this research work #but idk if i should while i'm in this headspace lmfao bc it's kinda heavy ish work #idk the hiring thing is kinda stressing me out #anyway skdjfghjsdfjgnslfdbsj idk where i'm going with this lol #jeanne talks #oh and it's hard bc last time i was home at the beginning of march she was completely fine #and like spending the night w me in bed and waiting for me outside the bathroom door while i got ready for bed #like #anyway

[cryoburdened]

london was such a horrible and tiring experience that i needed two whole days of rest afterwards to cope, lmao.

i was very unwell the entire day due to the heat. couldn’t eat much, tho i rly tried!!! drank lots of water, never felt much better.

that heatwave was no fucking joke, it was downright dangerous to be out there. i lived in a tropical climate for 3 years, so i know how bad hot weather can be. the uk just isn’t built for it.

but at least i got my fingerprints and criminal record check submitted. we watched a musical in the evening when i perked up a bit so it wasn’t a total loss but jfc i never want to do that again.

#( outofcharacter. ) #post viral fatigue + lack of sleep + extreme heat = a very unwell eggy #i saw cycle paramedics rushing to help a lot of ppl so i'm very obviously not the only person who wasn't coping well on tuesday #very nearly needed medical attention myself tbh it was so stupid to be out in that weather but i literally had no choice bc of my police ... #... appointment