#why do i want to rewatch them again...

[ch1zzie]

Please list 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals, followers and all the wonderful people on here! Hope you've been having a wonderful new year so far ^^

Ooo, 5 things that make me happy are

Welcome home

My friends

People who are nice to me

Fun colorful things

And other things that I like to watch/play/draw!

There's many things that make me happy...way to much to list, I'm usually happy a lot! But anyway, I hope your year is going wonderful as well!

Also

EEEEEEE YOUR ART IS SO AWESOME

AAAAA

Julies for u

#welcome home #partycoffin #julie joyful #not just an ask but i didnt notice we were mutuals #what a great day! #or night? it is 1 in the morning #AND I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW NOOO #aw man i wanted to finish my wally looking at the subnautica aurora ship ruined while sitting on the escape pod at night #i started playing subnautica yesterday and cant stop thinking about it #i used to watch dantdm play it over and over #i kept rewatching from beginning to end and that takes days for how many hours he put into those video's or even HOW many video's #why do i want to rewatch them again... #I DUNNO MY BRAINS FILLED WITH SUBNAUTICA #thats a lot of talking its not even related to the post GOODNITE

[daddyplasmius]

hand on my stupid heart flashbacks

this is a No One Knows AU & Full Hazmat AU where Danny ended up in the Ghost Zone & didn't go back into the human world initially because he thought he was dead. by the time he realized he is, in fact, at least half alive, he'd already been missing for at least 2 weeks. will probs never finish homsh sorry. i wrote this a couple years ago in a haze & just haven't been able to finish it because i can't replicate the style, which i find is what i love about this fic the most. it wouldn't be the same without it. posting the flashback introsーwhich are meant to be read between chapters/the actual plot, starting after chapter 1ーcuz fuck it. excuse typos & shit, i never properly edited it, as i forgot it existed immediately after i wrote it original description of homsh: Danny Fenton has officially been missing for over a year. Maddie & Jack Fenton refuse to give up on their son. Sick and tired of the police running them in circles, and the case getting colder by the day, the Fentons turn to their last resortーPhantom. 800~ words (full unfinished fic is 20k~)

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When Danny woke up surrounded by thick, green fog, and couldn’t breathe without swallowing heavy air that was more like water than anything, he was sure he was dead. The portal glowed behind him, illuminating the pitch darkness around him in soft, yellow, warm light.

He almost went back.

Almost.

He was dead. His parents were ghost hunters. They had drilled into his head from the moment he was born that he could never, ever panic in death. That he would accept it. That he would not be scared. So he would be prepared to be brave in the face of death and would not become a ghost.

He panicked. He did not accept it. He was terrified. And so he woke up in the Ghost Zone.

-

Danny went back through the portal when he saw some ectopuses acting… strange. Like they had an idea in their heads. Like they had a plan.

Which was weird, with animal ghosts. He had only been in the Ghost Zoneーmom and dad called it that, he rememberedーfor a couple weeks. Or, he had already been there for two weeks. Or maybe time worked differently and he was there five minutes, or four years orー

The ectopuses went through the portal and, despite everything, Danny went after them.

While he was busy reeling at being home, the ectopuses immediately attacked dad. Danny was horrified. Jack was overwhelmed. Danny stepped in, in a moment fueled by sheer adrenaline and stupidity, snatching a Fenton Thermos™ off a shelf and releasing his shaky invisibility. The ectopuses didn’t stand a chance. And when they were safely in the Thermos, he slowly turned around to dad, ready for the confrontation. Ready for the “what happened to you?” and the “where have you been?” and the “we’ve missed you”.

Dad scrambled to shoot at him.

Danny fled.

His parents didn’t recognize him.

-

The Lunch Lady attacked when Danny was mourning Halloween.

He’d waited all year. He made a costume that summer. He wouldn’t get to go trick or treating with Sam and Tucker this year. Or any year. For the rest of his lifeーor existence. Whatever.

The Lunch Lady appeared in the school and demanded in straight fury, “Who changed the menu?”

Everyone pointed at Sam.

Danny hadn’t known just how powerful ghosts could be. His parents never told him the specifics. Just that they were dangerous.

This ghost grew and her aura hit him like a hurricane, almost physically pushing him back. It was so strong that the students in the Casper High cafeteria seemed to feel it too.

The Lunch Lady was a much harder opponent than the ectopuses. She levitated meat. She used it as a weapon, and seemed to bring it back to life. She created weird meat creatures that grew sharp teeth and claws out of bones. They were mindless, attacking everything that got too close to the ghost. Danny would have run away without hesitation, if Sam hadn’t been in the crossfire.

Danny fought the Lunch Lady. It was a long struggle, but he caught her in the thermos after over an hour. When he turned to Sam and Tuckerーboth of whom he had to save due to Tucker trying to jump into the fightーall three of them bloody and bruised, he cringed. But a part of him hoped. Desperately.

Surely they would know him on sight.

“Wh-what are you?” Sam gasped at him finally.

Danny flinched as if she had struck him. “J-just… your friendly neighbourhood phantom.”

-

Danny didn’t know what possessed him. Oh. Pun not intended.

He just barely caught the Fentons leaving in the GAV, dragging suitcases behind them. He couldn’t help himself. What on Earth were they doing?

They were going to Vlad Master’s mansion for their college reunion.

It was a whole thing. But something was off. Besides all the adults reminiscing about the 80’s.

Danny sensed ghosts immediately but he couldn’t see anything. Unfortunately for him, Vlad could also sense him. It was two days of Danny staying invisible, and Vladーthe halfa? Is that what Danny is?ーtrying to kill Jack. Somehow, Danny managed to fight off Vlad, not turn back, and without the Fentons getting hurt. His secret intact.

VladーPlasmius, also learned about Phantom. And Vlad hated him. The manーghostーwhatever, seemed to only care about one thingーpossession. Of money. Of things. Of people. He was more ghost than Danny had ever seen. Vlad’s obsession was overwhelming.

Danny couldn’t believe someone so much like himself could be so disturbing.

#danny phantom #danny phantom au #danny phantom fanfiction #you know that gif of the wailing emoji dissolving? :Why:? #yeah that's what i do every time i remember i never finished HOMSH while i still had the style in my brain #feel free to steal this idea. please steal this idea. please write it i wanna see this idea so bad but im already writing another 100k+ fic #if y'all want me to post the full fic i can but. it is not finished & most likely never will be. sorry again #i won't lie. the haze i was in was a depressed one. i was. not in a good place At All when i wrote HOMSH #like the only part i remember actually writing was the panic attack scene & that's just barely #i reread the whole fic in the middle of the night months later while listening to Implode Alright by Built by Snow on repeat #yeah i cried. this one is funny but mostly it's just. mourning. grief. the works. it's a vent fic & also a. kind of. wishful fic #like. don't you just wish death wasn't so permanent. don't you wish you could tell them everything you wish you could #don't you wish you could just see them again #i'm actually writing this into a bigger ventier series currently called Let Grief Do Its Work #cuz i rewatched LUCIDS again recently & remembered what HOMSH was originally about. why i was writing it #i'm not calling it HOMSH cuz. HOMSHie is my baby. it's its own thing & i don't wanna ruin the vibes #reluctantly admitting i call an unfinished fanfic i don't remember writing... HOMSHie baby... in my head #yeah i have a cute nickname for my fic. what of it #it's 5am & i think i'll throw up if i think any more about posting unfinished unedited pieces of a fic so i'm going for it. cowabunga #go into the world. get your 2 notes you beautiful animal #*passes out*

[unproduciblesmackdown]

orvphil: so real

for example used analysis on the following instances

orville's physical reluctance & difficulty kneeling to propose to jane vs. readily swinging right into such a kneel with phil during 'til we meet again

'til we meet again

(see above) noting the "both immediately becoming So happy to be doing this" and "staring at each other for an unbroken ten seconds after finishing the song which was evidently beyond simply a [hold for applause] thing"

having indeed an adorable little meet-cute, which may not be an integral part of every eventual writer/lyricist & composer partnership

when phil drops in at wingate manor and he an orville have a private little wave to each other like =)

sitting next to each other sharing a hay bale and orville gets drinks for them both and phil walks orville home

lucky day

the choreography where orville's at the piano and phil swings it out while rotating it and orville's "walking" while sitting to one side to help (my analysis: going ohhhhh ;w;)

both simultaneously answering "his" when asked whose song it is like the earnest effortless mutual admiration and appreciation huh fellas

margaret talking about protecting your heart from these theatricals; orville Is one of these theatricals, and he loves it; phil watching him / reacting in this moment including his little "hell yeah" move like he had for orville going off in lucky day

their general enthusiasm together / for each other / enjoyment of being around each other and increased ease of operating when around each other

phil wishing orville could hear his music and talking about how orville ruined his own night to save theirs, then remarking "...what a guy!" mmhm

🌈🌈🌈

#orvphil #summer stock #orville wingate #also everyone was so funny & my god they were dancing & it's so true this show was a delight. i laughed smiled applauded effused enjoyed #shoutout to orville's escaping ''don't do Anything but get married have children'' through theatre; being gay; a little luck #it's so true: william (orville) & veanne (margaret) & gilbert (phil) were all so funny & great individually & in any combo #anthony/tony (montgomery) too lmao his ''....how dare you.'' iconic #shoutout to having orville show up for 1 Sec (in pajamas i believe) for the purposes of villain i have done thy mother. he just lives here #phil is great. trying to hold it together....writer's trick from my momma Use Your Words #and then with orville helping out he can chill out & enjoy his wins & orville can have any wins & enjoy them & chill & Do Things too #and everyone is so cool to him right away. why wouldn't they be. hugging like everybody hey besties #obviously corbin bleu is being his national treasure america's sweetheart leading role & Dancing....all the praises warranted #everyone crushes their role & is a delight. including any little moments w/the ensemble / all Ensembling things. go t.j. #it was great of course & a delight & again the orvphil is extremely real. 100% the textual intention & execution. thanks cheri love you #let's get that summer 2024 show if they can / wanna for real (they want to; let's just see it shake out. summer 2024 is pure speculation) #Oh Nooo if i forgot anything & have to reblog & add to this / rewatch & re/discover any delights

[britneyshakespeare]

throughout the series of drake and josh it pretty consistently implies that josh nichols is a christian (josh peck is jewish) and in the finale of the series helen (played by yvette nicole brown, not jewish[?]) is portrayed as a practicing jew

#i dont have a problem w either of those things necessarily i just find it interesting #if i had to guess. drake and josh was a mainstream that didnt wanna touch on religion generally #but josh was kind of a dork and usually when josh's religious beliefs are implied it is in dorkish ways #such as praying and thanking the lord after he has his first kiss. #but since dan schneider is jewish perhaps he wanted to make helen have a jewish wedding in the finale? #not that there needs to be a reason. but u do notice occasional jewish-related jokes in d&j but none of them are what you could call #offensive. in good faith that is. 'eric is a pacifist' 'i thought he was jewish?' like come on #text post #i have been rewatching drake and josh recently and i have had so many thoughts #im almost done. i just have left that stupid dance episode that they premiered last for the stupid reason #of a special dance-themed premiere night in fall 2007. they premiered the third episode of icarly and a new zoey 101 on the same night #which i think is so stupid. they should've aired really big shrimp last. it messed w my understanding of the series at the time lol #i remember not really knowing that the show was ENDING. like i knew icarly was starting & miranda was doing that #i thought really big shrimp was like just another special like go hollywood. #and then like two days later they premiered the helicopter episode for some reason #and i was like why is drake not famous in this. he just had a number 1 song in a superbowl commercial #and then a month later the dance one. which. if anything is satisfying about that as a final episode it's just that #that unnamed girl from the blues brothers episode who is obsessed w drake shows up again and congratulates them #and the very final line of the series is 'who is she?' because. because really who IS she? #that's a funny enough throwback to wrap things up with i suppose #drake and josh wasn't a highly serialized show so i can see how they could air those after the intended finale and act like it didn't matte #but i have to tell you it did fuck with my brain a bit at the time. lol. i still think of those episodes as having 'happened' after #and on paramount plus those episodes are still placed after really big shrimp. the injustice #but thats kinda messy. what a weird way to end such an influential and popular sitcom #season 4 had a few lowpoints while still also having some VERY solid episodes. #idk. ill have to continue my series review another time im getting way too longwinded here #helen dubois is jewish

[cosmic-walkers]

what the hell, was the relationship between henry and thomas in the tudors?? they are a trainwreck in the making T-T

#for one they are both idiots in the tudors and that's amusing #this is the most unserious thomas and henry relationship ever #idk where to start?? the seductive whispering in thomas's ear #or whacking him with papers or holding him against the wall to tell him simple things #what??? #and any time henry looks at thomas he looks like he wants to burst into tears #why does he do that?? why does he hold that expression #like these two are ridlcous #like sometimes all you can do is laugh #it's just oddly amusing #i know they are TIRED of looking at each other #this henry is a menace #and actually this thomas is also a menace #they are both demonic so this is what makes their relationship so damn amusing #the tudors #thomas cromwell #henry vii #YOU KNOW THE funny thing is that in the tudors #there is so much potential shipping content for these two and i just don't ship them like i do in wolf hall and i don't know why #well okay i do know why #like i said it's lowkey unserious T-T #i think that i like the complexity in their relationship in wolf hall #but if i wanna laugh #then the tudors is it #rewatching the tudors again and just realizing whatever this was #thomas in the tudors is also not very bright #and neither is henry

[breadboylovin]

they should NOT have let a gay man go to livemind my crush on riley is getting to embarrassing levels again

#text #me right after the m&g: wow i was so anxious but theyre literally just some guys! im so normal about them #me literally two days later: scampering around on all fours at the very sight of riley #BEING INSANELY ATTRACTED TO A YOUTUBER IS SO EMBARRASSING. THIS MAN GETS ONLINE EACH WEEK TO POST HIM BEING STUPID (AND ALSO KINDA GAY) #WITH HIS COHOST. WHY DO I WANT TO GNAW ON HIM LIKE A BONE. #dgmw i am in love with graydon too but its a different vibe. he doesnt vex me like riley does #anyway im gonna go rewatch the hivemind bromance mega compilation again and clench my fist so hard that i break all my fingers

[running-in-the-dark]

okay but. how am I supposed to ever watch another show again? I'll never love a show this much again. I'll never love all the characters in any show this much again. I'll never have an actual breakdown over a show's final episode again. I just want Leverage forever :(

#I'm sure I feel like this every time but #no actually not really #it's normally much more. focused #on one person usually #which. I mean there is Eliot. but he's not even my favourite character (he's sharing that spot with Parker and Hardison. they're all my #favourite. I can't separate them!!) #but it's just. *everything* #I don't want to watch anything else ever #because why #it's not leverage so what's the point #when did I start watching this show again? like a month ago? but it's. everything now. #I only have the second season of redemption left :( i don't know what to do after that #I'll probably.. start over again #that would be the third time I'm watching it (currently rewatching with my husband as well) #I don't do that. ever. I can't stand watching things again unless it's been a long long time or if it's a comfort show (like elementary) #I'm just. man I fucking love this show #😭 #just having Hardison back in the last episode of season one brought it all back man. it reminded me how much I love them all #they're just. family #personal #leverage #leverage redemption

[zirafaell]

thinking about how there is no honour in dying at sea for a homeric hero. for them not to leave behind a body for burial, for them not to go down fighting like a true warrior.

it isnt glorious, for them to have a death that any common person could have, as victim to nature, their life to be lost so far away from a land that would recognise them, and to risk their remains washing up on a hostile shore.

also thinking about how hannibal – a serial killer who wreaked havoc for years, cannibalised his victims because to him they were nothing but pigs, thought himself to be superior to (almost) everyone he interacted with, and compared himself and will to achilles and patroclus – let will pull them both off the cliff to their potential deaths at sea.

#revising themes for the odyssey rn and i swear my teacher said this but i can't find notes on it anywhere im sobbing #forgot what i was gonna say beyond this lmao im just having thoughts and thats all there is to it. #yes i haven't seen the scene with the surrounding context but like. its stuck in my mind now #please god i just want to do my classics revision in peace this is why i had to ststop watching hannibal 😔 #everything in classics started to remind me of them a little too much ashkls #ghost has their coin toss analysis and its great can't wait to properly absorb it in summer when i rewatch #fuck me i have just over a week and i dont need to finish reading the iliad but i do need to know how it compares to the odyssey & aeneid #and instead im thinking about them again uh #nbc hannibal #hannigram #will graham #hannibal lecter

[perenlop]

realizing that when i finally finish rewatching pokemon i'll finally be able to rewatch certain episodes....

#i mean i know i CAN obviously rewatch episodes whenever i want but im trying to prevent an overload #which is why im pacing myself with different shows between seasons #so i feel like rewatching episodes when i dont need to will just lead to me getting burnt out #so im setting it as a goal instead.... when i get over journeys i can rewatch the gliscor eps again #at this point its been years since i saw them dubbed too #ngl i do sorta regret watching dp and bw subbed cause like. it was fun and a good experience #but ive got much more nostalgia for the dubs of both of those and they were easier to sit through #some of the original voices are better but marc thompson's goofy ass gliscor voice was one of the selling points to me #echoed voice

[zincbot]

why does this keep happening (watched 3 episodes of naruto again)

#naruto #IT'S THE SAME EPISODES TOO #i'm always like: hm. i don't think i saw all there is to see in naruto #instead of trying to remember where i was i just go 'eh whatever' #and watch episodes 3-5. AGAIN. #look i love the bell test thing it's so iconic #BUT I'VE SEEN IT TOO MANY TIMES WHY DO I KEEP WATCHING IT #what i wanted to actually watch was anime-exclusive kakashi backstory but instead i watch the bell test Again #at least with one piece i remember where i was. every arc of naruto is the same to me + i read 100% of the manga so i have that #when i rewatch east blue one piece episodes it's because i miss them #when i rewatch early naruto it's because i'm trapped in samsara

[philcoulsonismyhero]

There's something really very entertaining to me about the fact that, whenever I think too hard about DCTV Eobard Thawne or rewatch basically any of his scenes, I start flapping one or both of my hands up and down so fast I'm almost making ominous helicopter noises of my own. Feels right, feels appropriate

#wow am i deep in that particular nonsense again #terrible horrible no good bastard supervillain that i am deeply deeply fond of #got too many emotions about the guy and gotta flap to let them out #i've got mixed feelings about moonshot as a legends episode overall #but oh boy do the ray and eobard scenes makes me want to jump up and down and wave my arms around #same with literally any scene with wellsobard and cisco #and every eobard scene in flashpoint #so much uncontrollable delighted flapping #it's been like seven years! why do i still care so much! #horrible yellow man really just. got into my brain and refuses to leave #the reason i'm rewatching scenes is i've got fic plans #i got really grabbed by an idea i started playing with last year but didn't do much with at the time #so i guess now i'm planning a longfic #i ought to go back and finish my old flash longfic that's still the longest thing on my ao3 #maybe at some point while i'm thinking about this new one #how does this guy do this to me he's just too much fun to write about #eobard thawne #dctv #personal stuff

[katsofmeer]

the more i reflect on the fact that wuvvy knew the whole time that rue WAS the one who broke up the apollo/gribalba engagement the more i need to take days off of work to recover.

#i’m so desperate to do a rewatch but school has me in its clutches!! #text post #so many reveals this season make so many moments WAY more impactful ahdkdijekfod #acofaf #wuvvyruehob #idk if my best friend who i was in love with confessed their love to the guy actively trying to hunt and possibly kill them i might. #also snap. #wuvvy was always right but she is soooo right my god #also - wuvvy True Villain arc is still turning over in my head like a rotisserie chicken #idk i just think she deserves to get a little nasty. as the saying goes #why would they put this mud out if we weren’t meant to roll around in it? #literally tell me that if rue confessed to being the sabatuer any episode earlier that hob wouldn’t have done what he wanted to do to apollo #and gone for rue. tell me wuvvy wouldn’t again make herself their champion to defend them. #fey are hard to kill and i don’t want them to kill each other. i just want them to viciously battle and ALMOST kill each other #wuvvy and hob have what brennan thought hob and andhera might have - bloody battlefield romance respect resentment💕 #let them unhinge their jaws and try to devour one another to rue’s shock and horror!! let it hurt before it heals!!! #hi boss i can’t come in today due to the preoccupation of my mind

[theultracharmingladynoire]

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#okay. I've been giving this so much of thought and it's bugging me too much and I am just. Really conflicted about this #I've been lowkey whining about the same thing again and again and sorry for that djshdjdhhdhd #But like. yoi ep 12 has been really bugging me. A Lot. And I've talked about it earlier #And atp I have achieved peace with Victor's return (But even that's a bit shaky) #But Yuuri not winning gold....yeah that's definitely the elephant in the room to me #And the problem to me is just that. #I was and am not even bugged about it when I am WATCHING the show!! Or the episode It just...flowed (and I really need to rewatch) #But I've read a Lot of analyses of people laying out why it wasn't a good writing decision and they do have good points #But I just. CAN'T see it as entirely 'bad/flimsy' writing if that makes sense #Like. All of those posts were saying that it made the ending bad/underwhelming and was thematically a bit off #But I just can't bring myself to agree entirely with them?? #And it's so frustrating because I just. #I just want to have a clear cut opinion on it. Like I wish I found it easier to accept that it was a narrative misstep #but I CAN'T because. The rest of the show is just SO good so it is just. Really hard to buy that they would mess up on something so vital - #The ending #(I know they can! and it's okay but still.) #And I don't feel like I'd be able to enjoy the show as much if I concluded that the ending was entirely bad #Because I don't necessarily think that's the case - there's definitely some nuance there #And I do understand what the writers were going for from the interviews and stuff #And though that wasn't exactly a valid enough reason to not give him the gold it is understandable #So then usually. I'd leave that and stop thinking about it and just go back to thinking about the rest of the show #But I CAN'T and it's just So. Ugh #Like I know everything doesn't have to be perfect for me to like or something - the show is also flawed but still very much lovable #But I simply can't agree with all the meta talking about how Yuuri not winning gold was plainly and truly #wrong and dumb and stupid #Because there's definitely just a middle ground there - saying it is good/bad just seems very...idk it just rubs off wrong on me #But I've also seen some takes justifying the gold win and I can't bring myself to agree with them entirely either. #and on one hand him not winning gold doesn't bothe me too much because that gpf isn't his last at all. And he's definitely going to #become a five time world champion just like Victor says #(and also I want him to compete and win against Victor directly soo)

[rogersstevie]

love to say i’m a fan of horror films even though i end up disliking a lot of them

#they're at least more enjoyable when you're with people where you can make jokes #bc if i'm by myself watching it and i don't like it then i'm just like this is boring #but the big classic franchises - friday the 13th / halloween / nightmare on elm street #like all fine at first but watching ALL of them was just like 'why am i not getting this why are these considered classics' #i think i am just a little picky like with slashers where there's no motive i'm like what's the point that's why i like scream so much #even if some killers have flimsy motives at least there's a REASON it's more interesting to me that way #and then on the other hand some of the more contemporary stuff like did i enjoy myself watching hereditary and midsommar and whatnot #sure but do i have much interest in rewatching them? like not really #most recently i loved ready or not and halloween 2018 but i still haven't watched the two sequels i gotta get on that #honestly think i enjoyed that a little more than the old ones #though i still think being like 'and none of those sequels happened' was A Choice #though fine with me bc as i said i watched all those franchises and i was just like okay and? #oh and scream 5 i did like that well enough #honestly haven't watched a LOT of the recent ones though there have been ones i wanted to see #still need to see that new saw though again i just like. didn't care for them doing anything after saw 7 bc it ended so perfectly #never forget me and nancy getting that on dvd (maybe even rented it? we would've still done that back then i think) #and when we got to the dr gordon reveal we jumped up and high fived and it was the BEST

[redleavesinthewind]

hmmm i wanna read that one very specific fic that only exists in my head

#i have to write it. hate that. why can’t it just exist already #i’m at the end of s2 in my stranger things rewatch and i just watched that scene where max talks about billy and i need neeeed to write that #fic where they meet again after a few years and figure out that hey. they are siblings and they do like each other and billy was just too #angry but now that he’s out of the house he unlearned some of his bullshit behaviour and max goes huh. he’s pretty awesome actually #and the whole ‘i don’t want to be like him but i’m angry too’ is gonna transform into ‘i wanna be like him cause he is at peace’ #really need that for them #anyway if you haven’t guessed yet i am very emotional and invested in billy and max’s dynamic #fic writing shenanigans #maybe we’ll meet again

[running-in-the-dark]

I want to be someone who has smart and interesting things to say about shows/movies that I like - like when I tried to convince my friends that they really need to watch Leverage. that would have been useful! instead I'm just like 'it's sooo good I like it so much I love all the characters they're all so awesome 🥰'

my thoughts are generally just like.

ooh he soo prettyyy. I want to braid his hair. hehe he punched someone. look at his lil face 🥰 baby boi. pretty smile his mouth is so nice I like his teeth. chest hair. hands! arms arms arms 🤤 his eyes are so pretty. oooh blood on his face, blood on his face! he's growling. annd his voice is all raspy again. I wonder [many many redacted thoughts]. ooh now he's in danger oh noo 😏

there's a bunch of 'she's so pretty' and 'I love her' somewhere in between all that too but mostly it's just. very, very stupid

#and I wonder why I don't remember the plot of probably half the leverage episodes #I'm rewatching it with my partner now and it was. definitely interesting. how I remembered pretty much everything from season 1. annd it #got so much worse after that #I wonder why that could be :') #I have said at least half of these things out loud just during the last episode I watched #I am so fucking stupid for this man #no thoughts just 😍 #my brain melts and gets replaced with just pictures of Eliot with hearts drawn all over them like I'm a creepy stalker but also 12 years old #and tbh probably half of it is actually just. oh I need him. I want him. I love him. #do you sometimes wonder why some people feel the need to share every goddamn thought they have no matter how dumb it is? #why? oh no reason. me? oh no I don't do that I'm so normal! #hey at least I didn't once mention how fighting him and fucking him would definitely not fix anything but tbh yeah no it totally would #it really would #annnd now I'm losing my mind again and I better shut up before it gets even worse #like fuck it's like I literally lose the ability to form a single coherent thought #I've had thoughts about shows before! I'm capable of that! but not wjrn #there's a man. #ugh. horrible. bad. so stupid #(but he's hot and I want him and) #(oh crap now he's really in danger oh no I don't like it oh don't hurt my baby 😭) #(oh thank god now he's hitting people again. phew.) #anyway shut up shut up shut uppp #personal