#why is aiming hard

[gendiebrainrotreceipts]

Lmaoo they make it sound like I’m out here doxxing, harassing or threatening people when the extent of what I do is literally just ‘look at this bad take that is the product of gender ideology’

#‘personal information’ you make it sound as if I have their home address… #do you mean their blog name because that’s the extent of any personal info i have on people #why are they so dramatic all of the time…. #also idk what call out posts they’re talking about tbh…do they mean the receipt posts? idk #gendie brainrot receipts #gender critical #radfem safe #and op I really don’t have to look that hard for homophobic and misogynistic takes in gendie circles #nor is it aimed at any specific individual

[buck-up-buck]

If I see ONE MORE THING bashing BuckTommy I am actually going to throw hands.

Let Bi!Buck be happy for FIVE MINUTES.

Hasn't our poor baby been through enough trauma, now you want him to fall for his first guy, and then rip him away from him? REALLY.

Leave. Tommy. And. Lou. And. Oliver. ALONE.

Ready for a fight. BuckTommy you have my heart and I WILL PROTECT YOU DAMNIT.

#911 abc #evan buckley #tommy kinard #why are ya'll hating so hard on bucktommy right now #let bi!buck be happy for FIVE MINITES #tommy is so good for him why can't you all see that #i hope you tommy haters see this #i'm aiming this at all the haters right now #buck is happy #oliver is happy #why cant you be happy too #ready for a fight to be honest

[katsigian]

Part of me wanted to leave the cp/77 fandom permanently for Obvious Reasons but then I realized something 🌚

If some of the most toxic, manipulative people can still be active in the fandom (i mean as a whole, not just tumblr) then so can I <3 and everyone else who feels like they've been left out or feel like they don't belong, you've been tricked. You do belong. Anyone who's here to create because they love their OCs and the game, belong here far more than anyone else who's hurt others or created division

So I'll still be here. I'm returning with all of my silly little pretty boys hope you missed them because I'm about to be so unhinged about them stay safe out there

Peace and love on planet earth <3

#yet again #this isn't aimed at any one person or group so if you still want to feel targeted then I suggest you look good and hard at the reason why #i'm not going to go into details or semantics because everyone has a different opinion of what the issues are #ultimately it doesn’t matter what i think because there's no single instance or person in the history of the fandom who's to blame #it was a group effort to get here #anyways safe travels everyone #love and light #i'm still trying #it still matters #to me #katsi.txt

[my-craft]

Some people have missed hearing about Ramon’s less-than-legal exploits and that’s a shame

#there will be better and more thought out art soon too #these eggs just stole my heart #qsmp #Ramon #qsmp ramón #qsmp ramon #fitmc #qsmp fitmc #if Fit is aiming to be a mob boss Ramon is training hard to be the heir #and I think that’s wonderful #but ​jefecito why are you looking into ways of getting netherite? #my art #griff art

[ifmagicexists]

there's something that bothers me so much whenever i read or see magic reveal concepts that involve "i'm more mad you lied to me than i am about the magic how could you keep such a big secret from me" and i finally realized its because it feels so. dismissive of merlin's struggle? him having to watch people with magic be arrested or executed or burned day after day after day, to listen to the people closest to him so casually refer to it as evil, as though that were an unquestionable fact, having to live every single day less and less sure he could ever be accepted after hiding so long and seeing so much.

like in general but esp as a queer person, seeing these takes that make a magic reveal just about "why didn't you tell me don't you trust me" when actually the characters did not really give merlin much reason to trust they would be accepting (and in fact often in their very reactions demonstrate exactly why he was hesitant), and even if they had he lives!!! in a place where it is literally illegal!!!! like it is so frustrating to constantly see these perspectives where arthur or the knights angrily question why merlin couldn't tell them and merlin just being silent in response, when its so beyond clear how difficult a position merlin was in.

merlin is almost never the main character in his own magic reveal scenarios beyond just worrying about the other person liking him again, and while i get why that is, since its the other person's perspective shifting usually, its still frustrating because its meant to be a culmination of his life's struggle and finally a full realization and acceptance of himself, and i wish we could see more of that: more of merlin's own messy emotions towards having to hide for so long, over fearing his own friends, over suppressing who he is, over getting used to being open about it for the first time in his entire life.

#bbc merlin #merlin #arthur pendragon #knights #this post is not aimed at anyone or anything in particular #and i hope i'm not coming off aggressively or anything #but its just a very common trend i've noticed and have been kind of frustrated over #also i mentioned arthur and the knights in the post cause they're usually the ones i see this with #weirdly gwen often just unquestioningly accepts merlins magic despite the fact that her father literally being executed for it combined wit #-morgana's betrayal would probably leave her with some complicated feelings about magic as a whole #gee i wonder why it is that her reaction is just skimmed over as easy 🤔 #anyway that's a Whole Other post the point here is #i want more of everyone realizing how hard it was for merlin #and more of merlin realizing how hard it was on himself #instead of reveal fics that almost always involve merlin comforting arthur/the other person #like there's a place for those but it just rubs me the wrong way given the whole setup #and how analogous magic is to queerness #res rambles

[fromperdition4]

This has probably been pointed out before but…

Kinn didn’t technically save Porsche in this scene

Like, he saw Mes raise his gun and sprung into action to try to save Porsche—

But he doesn’t actually get there in time. The bullet grazes Porsche’s arm just after Kinn put his hand on his waist and before he started pulling him away.

What Kinn does manage to do, though, is duck his head down to be right on level with the path of the bullet:

So yeah - Kinn’s still being super heroic here, doing his best to protect Porsche even though he’s the one paying to be protected - but the actual reason either of them survived this scene was pure luck 😂

#kinnporsche #kpanniversary2024 #kinn #porsche #ken #pete #mes #ep 3 #well I guess it’s luck and mes’s bad aim 😅 #still love kinn being protective btw #but this does make me wonder why it was filmed this way #was it just hard for them to get the blood mist/gush effect #timed right with mile moving apo? #and/or because they wanted apo centred in frame for the blood effect? #or is there a story reason for doing it this way? #hmm

[natsmagi]

One of my least favourite Tsumugi misconceptions is that he's useless at being an idol. He's very good actually! It's pointed out multiple times in various stories by characters who are considered the top tier idols that Tsumugi is very good at his job, he's just also awkward and a bit clumsy off stage.

yea ! alot of misconceptions tend to stem from people getting a taste of the character in a certain context and then assume theyd be the same in different contexts when thats rarely the case. like just look at tsumugis romancing cruise performance That shit changed me forever

i do understand why this happens though, or why small misconceptions are rather frequent and inadvertently lead to mischaracterizations at times. often times we just take a surface level view at things and, naturally, observe what it is we see and compare it to things we already know. like i said in my last post tsumugi is bashful, not shy, but if people only see his more awkward demeanor around certain people theyre obviously going to assume thats the characteristic he has because thats what most of us are familiar with

i dont want people to feel insecure in their portrayals though !! q__q and youre free to be as self-indulgent as you want when u create ur little crafts as im sure many of us are using these characters as a means of our own self-expression. god knows i do it! but is it also not just as fun to truly dig into the character and to try figuring them out from an unbiased perspective ? again its why i dont want to put them into boxes!!! theres so much to them and by only focusing on one or two of their characteristics you are doing them a disservice!! youre free to exclusively PORTRAY your favorite aspects ofc, create for you and not for others! but i just want their complexities to be acknowledged and recognized 💔💔 though thats just one of my selfish little desires

#its esp difficult because sometimes the misconception will be a Veeery minor thing #so it makes it hard to pinpoint #or put into words why it feels Off #but all of this is also subjective and just because i personally feel the portrayal is inaccurate doesnt mean it objectively is #and maybe these people arent even aiming for an accurate portrayal!! sometimes they just wanna have fun and we should let them!!! #sometimes it is also good to recognize that some portrayals just arent for us #and to move on and find a space where you feel people get the character the same way you do #though thats easier said than done ive blocked like the entirety of enstars twt bc of this lol ASKJFAHSDKJG #it does suck a bit when u feel ppl dont get the character like u do but oh well........ create the content u wish to see in this world ig #ask

[aaslwooo]

Favorite outfit

Favorite hairstyle

Favorite weapon

#I don't want to draw kusarigama #drows #sand siblings #temari #kankuro #gaara #Experimenting is fun when you stop to keep judging your own work (in the unnecessary way)- Like.. why'd I color things like pudding oh well #Lee's BANGS #Lee's so weird here.. lee's so.. he's hard to draw why why.. the coloring though.. I'm done. I don't want to bother with it #Many artists here just.. color their drawings as if “No.. this is no problem AT ALL” #Putting this journey in the tags so when I look back here in the future and seeing this.. I'll be like: I can't believe I'm cringe #Why am I like this though.. why.. these things aren't necessary to hear though.. You work hard.. you did it at least #Thank you.. I myself unsure #No they won't laugh at you - I know.. thank you - This whole thing shouldn't determine you as a person.. if it's bad.. it's okay.. #It doesn't mean you're bad too - Okay.. thank wait.. why suddenly aiming me personally.. this isn't about that - Love you - ... :)

[gibbearish]

i try so hard not to be That Artist™ but. to this day ive never understood how that one rose drawing of mine has never gotten much attention. every time i see it im like. goddamn youre telling me /i/ made this??? well dang if no one else wants to eat it im happy to do it myself

#this is also a foray into attemtping the opposite of delf deprecation which is hard considering every other #drawing ive felt this way about in the past ive later been like. ok yeah that sucked actually #but this one idk i still have yet to find anything that im like this is bad #beyond that i guess it kind of looks like lizzie mcguire if you squint? so maybe ppl didnt realize it was rose too JENFKSHJIJIWJKAK #anything else i could point to as technically bad is something i know i did deliberately bc i was aiming for smth #way more stylized than i normally do #so like her eyebrows and eyes cover her hair but the outlines still overlap which in any other drawing of mine would be something id fix #and reupload but this one i was going for that more cartoony vibe where theyre like. no i dont want to pick between the hair #and the eyes/eyebrows fuck you #thats also why the cheek shadows are the way that they are altho i can see how they can read as just like. weird face paint or smth

[eoinmcgonigal]

So I saw a post about tumblr wanting to try this 'communities' thing, and I just gotta vent/say my piece. (the tl;dr is 'fuck that shit')

1. I really hate the current trend of fracturing and fragmenting things down into little pieces so they can be categorised into boxes. That's not natural. (Also, discord pushing threads, which I already detest for 1) making me feel like I'm gonna hurl from the violently dissonant, ugly layout, 2) the severely narrow topic problem, and 3) how neurodiverse-hostile they are.)

Like, naturally conversations meander. If you're only allowed to discuss one topic, it's gonna be stifling. You WILL run out of things to say. Making another little box isn't going to fix it, it'll just add to the clutter

2. Quite importantly, honestly, just stop fucking changing shit. It's unnecessary

3. It's not going to be neurodiverse-friendly. As if fandom hasn't changed enough to become increasingly unfriendly to people who are just here to enjoy their hyperfixation and/or special interest. I don't need another thing to learn to navigate. I don't need another place with different rules to carefully traverse. Yes, I'm fandom old and salty. I'm AuDHD and a spoonie with about half a spoon to spend on a good day. I do not have the energy to do all this switching about and jumping from thing to thing. It's exhausting. I want everything where I can find it, and where I can be passionate without having to perform tasks like it's some customer service job, or job interview

4. FOMO shit is toxic. This whole 'be a part of the thing!' necessity if you want to 'engage' or see the conversations and 'content'. Why? I guess it's a social media model that drives engagement, but the stress of it is going to fuck people up. What if you don't have the time, energy, health, spoons, social skills, etc? I have no idea how much interacting will be expected with other people in the 'community' but I can see it becoming a twitter-like circlejerk, and if you're not one of the 'in' crowd doing your required interaction/reblogging/commenting then you might as well not exist to that fandom/group

5. From the description, it looks like these things will be ripe for drama, toxicity, clique shit, becoming echo chambers, etc. because 'semi public' means you gotta opt in/join in some way and whatever's said isn't visible to any old user

Like, who is going to create and mod these things? Who decides what the rules are? What if your fave is 'problematic', or your kink is 'gross' (if nsfw is allowed at all), your take doesn't fit with fanon, or you are just a bit weird and people shun or turn on you for that?

I hope I'm wrong and either these things never happen or they're not as bad as I fear, but fuck sakes I have the above worries because it's shit I've seen happen time and time again, and I don't want to see given a place here

Also, genuinely, what the fuck is tumblr going to be like if you can't/don't want interact with these community things?

Quickly, 6. it creates an 'us' (in crowd) vs. 'them' (not part of our gang)

And then 7. who is going to be dominant in these 'communities'?

Yes, I'm upset right now, because tumblr was just fine (well, fine enough) until this point. I mean:

We have the ability to make sideblogs! (My Star Wars sideblog from... well a decade ago oops... is still out there, I don't touch it any more but I left it up for people to go through). Tumblr even made it so we can reply with sideblogs, which was a very neat update.

Tags!! I don't think it's as usual these days for people to go through tags to find new content, but that's how I do it, how I've always done it, and how I always intend to do it. I'm not following everyone who makes an SAS:RH post. I love you guys, but no. My dash would cause me to have a panic attack. It's already too much for me most days.

EFFORT!!!! I can be here every day full-time doing Stuff if I want! Or I can zone out for weeks if I want/need, materialise and contribute a silly meme, then drift off into the sunset again. If I 'miss' anything, I can go back through the tags, or scroll someone's blog. But honestly, who notices/cares on here if someone lurks or goes afk for a bit. It's super low pressure, because I'm doing what I can/want when I can/want

I want to opt in/out on my own time and terms. The thought of having to be part of a 'community' so I can see/not miss Content TM is freaking me out. I don't want there to be an 'appropriate' time window to interact with things like there is on other social media sites.

So, idk how the shit will look, but I don't agree with making things harder for people to access/find. I won't be posting stuff 'semi-privately'.

And you know what's super upsetting? The thought that I won't be able to see conversations and creations for things I love, because they're hidden away behind some complex new social thing I can't navigate. (Which is already an off-putting, ostracising problem on discord.) That's not how fandom communities should be.

The thought of there being less stuff 'out there' because it's in some 'community' somewhere... really not the direction I'd ever hope this site wold go in

I'm fuckin exhausted. Just lemme do my fandom whateverness without having to perform to some arbritary social interaction standard/requirements that I neither understand nor can do

#i want to murder discord threads because this feels like similar bullshit that's just gonna exclude people #JUST PUT SHIT WHERE PEOPLE CAN ACCESS IT EASILY #aim to be as inclusive as possible with as wide an audience and engagement as possible! #why is that so damn fucking hard? #also lol how long until they'd turn communities into a subscription thing or something #they keep changing shit and the newer people to things like discord and tumblr and fandom in general have no idea what it was like before #things have not always been this bad! #they were bad in other ways but nothing as exhausting as this social-media-model bullshit #yes i'm very fucked up over discord's update #i detest threads with a violent passion there's no fucking need to separate everything out until nothing is left in the channel #i can't even turn the ugly icon off in servers i own #i miss irc #i miss forums #i didn't like lj that much but goddamn #i miss pre-jumbled-up-tags tumblr #i miss pre-threads discord #we do not fucking need this change but it's being shoved down our throats because investors want to see new shit #i'm off to see if i can fix discord so i don't nearly throw up when i open it #the horrible thing is that it looks faintly passable in light mode but i can't read in light mode and you get light or dark and nothing els #personal #vent #just in case anyone hides those tags idk this has been a vent post #i'll go back to rogues soon

[anotherpapercut]

How would one find work at a library when they just...aren't qualified or don't have the relevant experience? I'd love to work at one but I don't have a relevant degree or experience in the field (mostly because they keep rejecting my applications and then ghosting me). I know if given the opportunity I could learn how to do the various jobs at a library, I just have trouble getting into the field without a degree.

people ask me this quite a bit and I really don't know what to say because I don't have an MLIS and neither do most of my coworkers. only like 1/10th of our employees have it honestly. I only have an associates degree in mathematics. and honestly, I'm really sorry to say, the only other way to get your foot in the door really is to volunteer. I volunteered at the library that I now work for A LOT as a teenager so I was able to use the librarians I got to know as references when I started applying to library jobs, and I was able to speak to my experiences working within the library

basically the only other thing is starting at the absolute bottom of the totem poll, which I also did even with my volunteer experience. this is usually going to be a library page position. pages are generally the lowest paid, most manual labor job because they reshelve returned books. so it's a lot of lifting and pushing tens or hundreds of pounds of books around all day

unfortunately there's nothing else I can really tell you, there's not really a magic key to working here. volunteering and having a clean record (like, don't apply if you have a bunch of fines on your account) are really the only ways to get ahead at all. even having an MLIS isn't gonna help you much these days without having any experience like that

#also this isnt to be mean to people who have it but library degrees are like waaaay overhyped and largely exist as a class barrier #because in order to get one you have to waste at least 4 years getting a completely irrelevant degree then be able to afford 2 more yrs #i kinda wouldnt recommend getting one til youve worked in an actual library for a while first to give some perspective #and id only do it if you have a specific library position in mind #please do not waste your time and money getting a degree just because you want to work in a library #you need to know what exactly you want to aim for because positions are few and far between #also one last little secret: working at a library reallllllly fucking sucks in A LOT of ways #i love what we do and i love my coworkers but i fucking hate my job lmao #MANY libraries across the country (including mine) are controlled by boards made up of local wealthy business people #and all of the higher ups are extraordinarily out of touch #pay is exceedingly low and it is A LOT of very hard work. its not sitting around reading all day #you have to deal with the public in ways that i promise you no amount of retail experience could ever prepare you for #which is why you have to really really want it. so many people quit within a couple years

[hardestgrove]

i would love to meet more people who are on the bisexual billy end of things because i really wanna discuss how he interacts with that aspect of himself given his home life and the era. because yes, it’d be easier to blend in but that’s really only in theory. he’d know he likes guys and just because he’s attracted to girls doesn’t mean he’ll actually want to do things with them or that he won’t actually want to pursue a boy while he’s performing hetronormativity.

i just think about this so much but like when i see things like this talked about it’s always about it in the concept of him being wholly gay --or in the case of most of the reader fic types, wholly straight-- and it’s frustrating as a bisexual. like it feels very much like everyone in the comm just agrees on billy being gay and steve being bi and billy also being bi is just never discussed. It’s possible to have many of the same things people find compelling in a queer coded billy in a bi interpretation of him, it doesn’t take away from that identity. it also adds lots of new things to talk about and i don’t get why no one seems interested in talking about them. did i miss the train? was it discussed in like 2019 and i’ll just never see that content because the search algorithm on this site is shit?

 trying to find content about a bi interpretation of him is impossible, there’s 2 posts in the “bisexual billy hargrove” tag unlike the “bisexual steve harrington” tag which i don’t even need to go into to know is fucking chock full. i know because when i went hunting for the bi billy tag i got flooded with it. just to find if there even was a bi billy tag i had to use findtags. Scouring the tags for anything that could be construed as bi billy content is exhausting and at times disheartening. the worst part is i feel like no one else cares which intellectually i know isn’t true but it’s hard to feel otherwise when there’s just... nothing.... to the point i start to feel bad for writing him as bisexual and have to go over to ao3 and look at the bisexual billy tag there to validate my own ass.

like billy has two hands.... he can finger and give a handjob all at once. why does it feel like when i go into his tags that’s not an option.

#train.txt #billy hargrove #i didn't realize how genuinely upset about how invisible i felt until i started writing this and got choked up oh shit #i was gonna put a lisa stare meme in this originally and everything but it got too real too quickly #i don't think anyone's actually aiming for bi erasure here but well.... i don't feel very visible... #i feel like billy can easily be read as bi i don't get why the womanizer thing HAS to be a front why can't he like both? #why does that feel like it's an impossible option here? #i'm just gonna stop now before i get more upset lol #i don't mean to shit on anyone but uh.... yeah.... it's just very hard some times #i'm gonna regret posting this later but fuck it

[reikunrei]

coming to terms w the fact that i’ve been unintentionally cultivating some not-so-great disordered eating habits over the last several years, which have finally come to a head in the last 4 months or so since it’s the only thing i feel like i can “control” in my life, has been. not very fun lol

#like oh those thoughts and habits I had in middle and high school? oh that was ? oh. #even the last 3-4 years in hindsight I’m like. oh these decisions I’ve been making and this relationship w my body and food is Bad huh #it’s just been really heightened in the last several months and idek why. i think just bc of stress #and it’s been. really nagging me this week since like saturday hdbdjfjf leave me alone #gotta just. get back into working out regularly I think. so it’s a bit of a healthier method than ‘aim for less than 1200cal a day’ #especially when that’s Hard for me to do fjdbfjf #i say things #disordered eating tw #just in case??

[gigginox]

the aerial missions in drakengard make me sick

#why is she so hard to control. why are the controls inverted. why does the fucking aiming reticle go off screen #also. very funny how shes like ''wow caim you humans sure love killing each other'' girl youre the one shooting the fireballs .............

[tyrantt00]

Google how do make game run good on okay-ish pc

#rant #i can stomach games playing at 20 fps but i wish robocop game would hit at least 30 like #idk i have my settings all on low like i dont know why its chugging so hard. maybe letting it chill overnight will fix it <cope #also re4 remake runs really good on my pc. meanwhile re2 remake and re7 (sometimes) do not so i actually dunno what the problem is #like my specs have to be decent right its a prebuilt idk exactly what i have but if re4 remake can do it well why cant other games? #im also just really bad at first person aiming so im struggling to play robocop for that reason but i think thats a skill issue and my fault

[not-rome]

how do i find a man who doesn't make everything about him and let's me talk and compliments me without putting himself down so then i have to reassure him and ignore the entire compliment

#why is finding a boyfriend so hard #why can't i just find someone who is at least decent and interested #because this guy just ignores everything i say and says it's because it doesn't pertain to what he's saying #(it's literally me responding to what he's saying) #every compliment for me has an insult aimed at himself #then he gets upset when i just don't say anything because that's rude but i just don't want to interact with that behavior #the answer is to drop him i know #remus talks