#why was I always alone?

[catmask]

its true that romance amd friendship will not solve everything but. objectively speaking its very hard to get sad when you can say 'lets go get cake tomorrow okay' and someone will go get cake with you. like there is some good at least. you know

#i think this is why ive been so much more geniunely happy these last few years #like. i will never be going to bed alone. i will always have someone who wants me here #i will always have someone to say 'im sorry im not feeling very well now' and they will be concerned instead of being annoyed #at you as if those feelings are an inconvenience #scratchpost #txt

[boojangs]

How she looks at her when she isn't looking:

How she looks at her:

How she looks at her when she isn't looking:

How she looks at her:

Building Trust:

Coming Home:

#how am i not supposed to be obsessed with them when they're out there looking at each other like that #when day one Wednesday is looking like a lovesick puppy and just following Enid around #when Enid ran into the woods in her human body because all that mattered was Wednesday #when Wednesday said she missed Enid through Thing and Enid spoke her language and set it back #when Enid packed Wednesday's clothes for her because that is their level of intimacy now #when Enid didn't force a goodbye hug even though she thought that would be the last time she saw Wednesday #when Wednesday realized being alone wasn't fun anymore because being with Enid was better #when Wednesday always did what Enid asked without ever questioning why #when Enid said she wouldn't apologize for being herself and Wednesday respected that #when Enid Sinclair sprinted to Wednesday Addams and tackled her in a hug. #and Wednesday Addams pulled Enid Sinclair back into her arms and closed her eyes in relief. #when they are each other's home. #wenclair #Wednesday Addams #Enid Sinclair

[dennisboobs]

7x10 // How Mac Got Fat

↳ Charlie & Dennis + getting high together

#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #dennis reynolds #charlie kelly #charden #dennis looks....... positively lovestruck #ada's gifs #ada speaks #the continuity errors between shots in these scenes is so funny to me but i only noticed bc ive spent two hours on this gifset #anyway. in my expert opinion #this is far from the first time den's come to charlie like this #i can see this happening frequently in high school especially considering their drug of choice here is inhalants #x2 when know how charlie's relationship with them was in hs #the fact that dennis leaves his room to 'be alone' and then goes to paddy's to get high with charlie #to me indicates he doesn't *want* to be alone with his thoughts like this #when he's already overthinking and self conscious #i think contrasting this scene w mac & dee barging into his room earlier is interesting #because while mac & dee reacted with immediate disgust and asked what the fuck happened to his face #charlie's just like why is your face shiny. then repeatedly makes it clear he doesnt care about anything beyond the basics #ok cool. chemical peel caused it. no i don't want to hear why you decided to get one. #and honestly i think dennis was counting on that reaction. charlie doesn't give a shit. he's down to hang out and he doesn't ask questions. #they both want an immediate out from the pressure they both feel and most definitely do Not want to talk about it <3 #stuff it down with some.......... turpentine

[maggot-baggage]

Methinks its time to move back home actually

#i talked to my aunt about it and honestly like. i might as well #im broke im in a bunch of debt i have no access to medical insurance so i cant get therapy im alone depressed and my bills are always late #and ive been stuck in my apartment for months bc of this ridiculous registration shit for my car #so as much as i dont want to sell my car OR move im. thinking about it now #like at least id have the house almost to myself since my sibling moved out #and i could make the upstairs my own pretty much. plus ive been meaning to jelp renovate up there so #why not #plus i can save for tattoo stuff properly #i just feel like im giving up i was trying to prove i could care for myself and #I feel like ive proven km incapable pf being an adult bc of this it sucks #but at least my ma and my aunt are willing to help me as i figure shit out. im lucky to have them #mag.txt

[mamawasatesttube]

one thing about cassandra cain is that you Know she's susceptible to every deez nuts joke ever. she can tell from someone's body language there's a punch line coming but she has no idea what it is. shes hanging out with kon and he's like btw have you ever tried sugondese? and she's like . sugondese? and kon goes SUGONDESE NUTS LMAOOO GOTTEM and cass just stares at him for a minute and then honest to god loses her shit

#rimi talks #this is a silly post but i do also think one fundamental tenet of why kon and cass friendship is so meaningful for them both is like #she likes it when he talks to her. he makes her laugh. #she was a living weapon and then she was alone. she isn't used to anyone just wanting to make her laugh. #and he was a living weapon who's always been told to stop expressing himself and being a person. and she likes when he talks. #they're good for each other :) #koncass #kon #cass

[jedi-starbird]

No one ever tells Obi-Wan that he is his Master's padawan.

Of course, for most people who had known Qui-Gon Jinn, telling someone else they resembled the the man would in fact be a thinly veiled insult. But still, Obi-Wan feels the absence of comparisons almost as strongly as he feels the absence of his Master.

There is no one for Obi-Wan to push against now, no strong presence at his side, ready to grab him by scruff and pull him back from another reckless stunt. It's an odd feeling. He has been set loose against his wishes. There is no one to his left and Anakin at his heels, but Anakin had needed, still needs, a strong, gentle figure for his prickly but sensitive heart. For even their worst bickering could not hold a candle to the scathing remarks he and Qui-Gon had shot at each other and Obi-Wan knows he cannot push and needle Anakin in the same way.

When Qui-Gon had been alive they had been an amusing, mirrored pair, the maverick and his rule-following padawan. Opposites clashing against each other, yet working together to complete the most difficult missions. Few saw that Qui-Gon's impertinence had indeed rubbed off on his padawan, cultivated from that small, angry initiate, because the only way to rebel against the rule-breaker had been to parrot the Council fastidiously. No one would ever get to see that again. Obi-Wan is one half of a mirrored pair trying to complete a routine on his own. What once was an impish, teasing compliance is now a betrayal of all his Master's values.

"How could Qui-Gon raise such a model Jedi?" He hears them say, "It's admirable that Master Kenobi was appointed to the Council despite his Master's maverick ways."

Padawan Kenobi would have yelled and kicked and screamed. Master Kenobi is serene. It should feel like an achievement. It feels like a disappointment.

Sometimes, Obi-Wan looks at the shape of the man he has moulded himself into, and aches to be his Master's padawan.

#I am so totally normal about them. (screaming crying throwing up) #anyway yeah obi wan has daddy issues but in a very specific way that's less i want a father figure and more i require an animal handler #hence why obi wan likes both alpha 17 and cody finally someone to tell him he's being an idiot and be bitchy with him he's missed this #giving the guilt boy MORE guilt complexes over honoring his masters legacy #but god really imagine you spend a decade making yourself the opposite of your master in a funny back and forth you both indulge in but the #BUT THEN!! he fucking dies and you're left alone occupying a dynamic carved for 2 people and everyone tells you they can't see any of your #dead master within you as if it's a joke. as if that's funny. as if that's a good thing. and people say he would be proud but would he? #would he be proud when everyone always tells you that you are the opposite of him? that you are everything he was not? #obi wan kenobi #qui gon jinn #qui gon and obi wan #disaster lineage #star wars

[johnny-depplyloveyou]

When Gale uses the orb with Tav by his side during the final battle...

· We might still have a chance.

· It's been an honour.

· Do it, Gale.

😭😭😭

#gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #bg3 gale #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #gale x tav #tav x gale #ahhh why am i doing this to myself #cause I have not seen this scene anywhere? #I always love the ending of Rogue One tho #kind of wish they hug til the very end #or holding hands #but no he ran to it alone T.T #spoiler alert #bg3 spoilers #my gifs #tw: death #gale bg3 #major character death #galemance

[anna-scribbles]

do you think émilie agreste knew, on the day she became too weak to leave that house, that she never would again

#having a normal one. don’t worry about it #just thinking about how she never escaped even in death etc etc #do you think she knew even as she pleaded with gabriel to give up on her that he never would. #that no one truly loved her enough to heed her warnings #that adrien was going to be left alone #what must it have been like for her to grow slower and weaker and quieter until she was as still as the bed d #do you think she knew she was becoming another fixture of that house #beautiful and immovable and silent #how long did gabriel have that coffin ready in the basement. how much time did he spend building it. did nathalie help. #did emilie know where they went in those long hours she laid there dying? that they intended to keep her there -always dying and never dead? #is that why she left videos? because she knew they’d build an altar for her haunting and she had to give her ghost a voice? #i think often about gabriel saying that emilie never wanted what she deserved #i think about gabriel and nathalie not letting her die. i think about ladybug not letting chat noir die. #circles and cycles ending up right back where you started #you know. having a normal one #anna rambles #emilie agreste #thirteen

[graciousdragon]

OH MY FUCKING GOD

I JUST WENT TO MY LOCAL HOT TOPIC THAT I'VE BEEN GOING TO FOR LIKE. 5 OR 6 YEARS NOW RIGHT??

I GOT SOME MCR STUFF BECAUSE. OF COURSE. IF YOU'VE SEEN MY RECENT POSTING HABITS YOU KNOW. THE BRAINROT IS REAL

I WAS TALKING WITH THE CASHIER ABOUT THEM BECAUSE HE WAS ALSO A FAN AND HE FUCKING SAYS "you wanna know a fun fact? this is the hot topic the lead singer used to work at! :D"

FUCKING WHAT

GERARD WAY USED TO WORK AT MY LOCAL FUCKING HOT TOPIC?!?

AND AFTER I LEFT I LOOKED IT UP TO MAKE SURE HE WASN'T FUCKING WITH ME AND YEAH. HE WAS RIGHT. WHAT THE FUCK

SORRY FOR THE ALL CAPS THIS IS LIKE. WORLD-SHATTERING INFORMATION TO ME AND HE JUST DROPPED THAT SHIT SO CASUALLY WHAT THE HELL BRO. I NEEDED TO SCREAM ABOUT THIS SOMEWHERE

#rys.txt #tw caps #caps #LIKE. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? #I KNEW THEY WORKED AT A HOT TOPIC WHEN THEY WERE YOUNGER BUT I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS THAT ONE #ok. its ok i'm normal now (i'm not) #on another note. why are all hot topic employees like the nicest people on this earth. at least they are at mine #they always greet you when you walk in and ask if you need help and if you don't they leave you alone which is nice #and then when you check out they're always really chill and don't rush you and if you're buying or wearing something they also like they'll #talk about it with you #like. i know you have to be nice to people for a retail/customer service job like that but it always feels really genuine from them #same thing goes for spencer's employees too they're also like that #idk its just really nice for someone like me who's scared shitless of social interaction with strangers. it makes me way less anxious 👍 #anyways. light and love everyone 💖 i'm gonna go recover from learning that information now #my chemical romance #mcr #gerard way

[razberrypuck]

fucked up that dropping gillion off for his training was done as unceremoniously as it was btw. it wasn't some grand goodbye, they didn't do anything special that day for their little boy -- it was just gillion and his father. his sister, his mother, his grandfather, they weren't there. it was just gillion, his father, and a quiet, possibly several day long trip to the capital. it was just gillion and his father at the steps of the palace, just his father that saw the big smile on his face, heard the little boy's promises of telling them everything when he got home. no one had even bothered explaining what was going on to him. he had to figure it out on his own, when papa never came back.

#obviously gill has /loads/ of mommy AND daddy issues #but i think the simple fact that it was reed and reed alone that brought him to the palace #is why his daddy issues are SO prevalent #like hes called SO many people “papa” (as opposed to “mom”; which hes only /really/ used for aster and lunadeyus) #and its just. auauaaggdhghg #he doesnt necessarily think about falyn and reed as his own parents anymore; he asks edyn about their wellbeing like she isnt his sister #(referring to them as “The parents” rather than “Our parents”) #but hes so desperate for that parental connection. he always has been. #and it makes me. emotional. #i want to meet his parents. i want HIM to meet his parents. #i want him to have the opportunity to build a relationship with them #or to find some kind of closure; at the very least. #jrwi riptide #jrwi #jrwi show #just roll with it #gillion tidestrider #jrwi gillion

[shiikiyun]

I think something i don't often see in discussions about Futa's character is how, if you really take a second, he's kind of a people pleaser

He isn't so in a way like what Mikoto got going on, he does want to be around people of the same interests as him, and you wouldn't think he'd care about anything but authenticity if you stayed with the way he behaves on milgram. It is only when you think about him -in- those social circles he manages to get into that you can see him tweaking lol

I think the closest to see this that we have in milgram itself is that one interaction with Kotoko in which she attempts to debate how prisons respect human rights. Any other time he expressed his opinion/stance on things he was aggressive and maybe condescending to the rest because they disagreed with him, but the second someone agreed? Whole demeanor changed. Suddenly he didn't have much to say anymore and he just parroted Kotoko's words back at her. Why. If he has such a strong personality and mindset, why was someone validating his point enough to shut down his otherwise very firm attitude?

Futa doesn't go as far as to manufacture his every word for it to cause a positive reaction on others from the get go, but he does seek validation all the same. He braces himself for rejection by being loud and obnoxious and harsh until he sees a positive reaction and then is when he does a complete 180 to keep the other person in that place of validation. He is simultaneously completely bad at it though, but I never said he was good at people pleasing. Which connects back to what i've said before about his inability to fit in. Even when he thinks he's doing it right and he sees himself getting validation by people he cares about (in the case of his crime, by mimicking his friendgroup's method of "bringing justice" by calling out someone online, that same friendgroup following along and reinforcing the idea that he was doing it right), he ultimately fails anyway and loses it all over again.

In the end, he's just extremely socially awkward and anxious. It isn't in his nature to reach anyone else's expectations even if he genuinely wants to, so he'll either do what he can within his parameters (mold himself for his friendgroup of people he deems similar to him) or he'll avoid trying altogether because he knows he'll fail (what we see in milgram!)

It also shows how his yearn for a support system (t2 qna + mu's birthday timeline convo) isn't particularly new from his current circumstances, or why the only person he could think of when asked who he would want to see right now was his mom (who left so long ago he barely remembers her). He has just never truly had people that genuinely cared for him no matter what he tried to do to make himself likeable.

#and having this in mind i think i understand why he seems to be “giving in” to amane's beliefs #it isnt solely because of his current vulnerability #it isnt even just to find solace in religion #it is because amane offered him help. in a way shes validating him #and if believing in bullshit like salvation and god will make at least the elementary schooler talk to him sometimes #against being left alone with his thoughts and the voices in the walls #with the track record he has of slightly molding himself and mimicking others #yeahh #and honestly that only means itll backfire even worse! on Him! #in his own words #it is what it isSorry #but no yeah hes fucked. i dont think his religious arc is gonna make shit complicated for anyone else but him #but itll be AWFUL on him #milgram #fuuta kajiyama #fuuta milgram #character analysis #sorta kinda #as always

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 116

Give Battinson robins but it’s DCxDP style with ghosts. 

His kids are… technically not from his world and technically not alive either, but that doesn’t stop him from adopting them. Even if he wasn’t aware of them being literal ghosts for the first few hours of encountering them. 

How did they get here? Well, you see, sometimes child ghosts will run into each other, and they’ll form their own little friend groups. Or family groups. Especially if they lack a guardian. Who would tell them not to mess with natural portals. 

Or to kidnap a phantom to play with them, but hey he’s enjoying himself too and has a puppy! The bestest boy!

Bruce was not prepared for some sort of energy-thing to open and spit out a good half a dozen children. Nor was he prepared for these children to all have powers, or for another child (thankfully a teen) to fall into the cave a few weeks later. 

#dcxdp #dpxdc #battinson #prompts #Dick died alongside his parents when the line snapped #Barbara died to the mob when her father refused to be bribed #Jason died out in the cold on the streets after surviving for a year #Cass died after escaping her father- training for killing doesn’t always translate to training for survival #Tim died from neglect alone in his parents’ home while it was covered up #Steph died before her mother tried to get help with her addictions #Duke died from an attack in the narrows #Damian died from a ‘trainer’ who wanted revenge against Talia & Ras #Danny was searching for his ghost friends with Cujo's help but tripped #It all worked out though #Bruce sobbing to Alfred: Why are there so many hurt children #Bruce grabbing all of them including Danny: My children now #He gets horrifyingly good at picking up stealth what with his kids being literal ghosts #Gets a bit of a mom sense for whenever they're doing something they shouldn't #Some idiot: I shall kill the Robins! #Batman: #Y'know what the robins deserve star cores #with big bro space core danny #god can you imagine if battinson became liminal lol

[uncanny-tranny]

I think people are too normal about just how much goes into making things.

I've gone through nearly sixty-six yards of yarn on my project so far. If I stacked myself up, it would take thirty-five mes just to equal that. And that's only after ribbing and two and a half rows of normal single crochet on a project that will be done in five pieces.

There is so much that goes into art. There are so many hours, material, blood, sweat, and tears that go into even the most simple of projects. Once you start realizing this, you start to truly appreciate everything about art.

#art #crochet #maybe it's just because i'm using different yarn than the pattern but i'm calling bullshit right now on their recommendation #well actually the pattern calls for 1261yds for the size i'm making #bruh that's almost a mile of yarn (0.716) for ONE PROJECT #if my math is mathing then this hoodie is gonna cost a LOT for the materials ALONE #and people wonder why hand-made things cost so much. if i sold this hoodie i imagine it would be like... $300-$500 at least #and that's if i'd sell myself short lmao! #i'm so paranoid about math tbh like i always quadruple check it at least. but i think this is right? #i dunno i think many people almost expect art to like... magically manifest no matter the medium it is express with?

[shkika]

I was convinced you'd never hurt me..

#rainworld #rain world #rw lttm #looks to the moon #my art #illustration #digital art #AUGhhh brainrotting on a song so hard #this was so fun to paint i genuinely AUGHHH #moon is just so pleasant to draw for me #i often think how he always could just #choose to communicate with her #but doesnt #and leaves her to be all alone #loneliness hurts #and she doesnt even know why she's being sentenced to it yknow #AUghhh moon...

[just-an-enby-lemon]

Nothing will be more hilarious to me than the party's - specially Ben's - outrage about Alex's sneaky reference to William Shakespeare slowly fading as they remember that half of the NPCs are actually historical figures. Like they are genuinally going "what's this assassin's creed? You put Shakespeare in the gift Augusta Leight gave to our honorary party member Oscar Wilde while waiting for Ada Lovelace and Nikola Tesla to see if we can talk to the brain of Charles Babbage about the mission Albert Einstein teleported us to? Shakespeare a whole historical person? "

#on a very different note wilde getting shakespeare cloack gives me a lot of joy #because i always loved wilde's essay about shakespeare loving another man #how he defends that even if it isn't true it is important that it is because it means something #it's the quintecencial finding a bit of queer subtext of wondering if that person is like you #is the reason we wear pins and tattos and green carnations #is the power of representativity of not feeling alone is why historical queers matter #and Wilde definitivaly became for a generation of young queers specially gay man what Shakespeare was for him #i don't think alex considered any of that at all #it was 100% just haha shakespeare was THE Bard haha #but it still matters to me #rqg #rusty quill gaming

[larapaulussen]

#gif #why do I have to spend every christmas and every birthday alone #for what am I being punished #I am a good person #and I don’t think this suffering has any sense #it’s just that in life the happy people have good things coming their way #and the sad people always just get more trauma #I know I could have a relationship if I didn’t have such a traumatic childhood #my trauma lets me reject the good guys and waste my time with the aholes #but i don’t know what to do about it #every nice guy I met absolutely wasn’t attractive to me #and we also didn’t have anything in common #so I’m not even regretting rejecting them cause it wouldn’t have worked out #and they deserve someone who actually fancies them #i just wonder why I never met a nice guy that I have common interests with #or who matched my preferences lookwise #it really feels like I’m simply not allowed to ever meet the right person #and gotten to the point where I swipe for hours have a lot of matches and then ghost everyone #as I just know it either will be someone nice but not attractive to me or an ahole #I just don’t have any energy left anymore #I just want to experience love so bad but can’t do these dates anymore #I’m so so tired