#you've left behind

[dropespeon]

i Need to write something about dcmk because i just have so many thoughts and nothing i've read has done it for me but I do not know what. But I need to write Something

#drop #i am a chronic overanalyst #and dcmk has . so much in the way of thematic parallels and just so much? potential #like i see these characters and i think. boy you have so much potential for an extremely interesting story #like. list of themes that dcmk's characters are terrifyingly well tailored for lighting round go: #(some of these intentional some not) #justice & morality esp pertaining to law. selflessness vs selfishness and how they're inherently intertwined. #so much loss. good lord. of course death is a theme in The Murder show but like actually it's everywhere #avoidance & escapism. looking directly at every parent in the series as i say this #identity. don't need to elaborate on that i think #this is a weird one but i feel like there's also a lot of stuff about Passion and the conflict between reaching your goal & the people #you've left behind #and in general it's just. doing things both good and bad for the people you care about #and likewise sacrificing the people you care about for the sake of protecting the many #ok i could go on forever but anyways. #this isn't analysis or anything these are just things i personally think could be interesting to explore #i have a few comics planned though so. i will probably make at least Something #but god . god. the constant overwhelming urge to write something. #if i do ever get around to writing that atla crossover fic proper. all of this will be there. like in excessive amounts. #.... i have got to stop leaving all of my thoughts in the tags. but i won't 💚

[uncriticalbunny]

sydney and carmy have such a deranged dynamic so it's very funny when people try to put them in a "professional coworkers" box like bffr nothing about their relationship is professional

#sydcarmy #do you hand the reins of the restaurant your late brother left you over to the coworker you've known for only a few weeks/months #do you run your hands delicately along an item your coworker left behind after you were an asshole to her and caused her to quit #do you text your coworker first to calm your nerves before opening up your late brother's last message to you #do you have a panic attack where only your coworker's image and words can soothe you when the gf you love didn't #do you go back to the job you quit to pick up your last check and end up accepting your coworker's proposal to open up a new restaurant #do you tell your coworker to clearly define whether his gf is actually his gf #do you joyfully hug your coworker first after a do or d-e situation that your restaurant's success hinged on #do you gulp awkwardly and try to compose yourself after a tender convo with your coworker where you were open abt your fears #if you do all of that with your coworker well i have news for you!! #and i've called HR they're on the way #still sitting back and observing #...i scream into the void as i write yet another post about sydney/sydcarmy #text

[scattered-winter]

there's something sooooooo heartbreaking about quests as a narrative piece. you set out on this journey to rescue someone or defeat a great evil and along the way you face hardship and horror and you grieve and fight and love and lose and then when it's all over you come home. everything is the same as when you left, but you're so irrevocably different that you no longer fit in the one place you used to be truly at peace. you're tired from your journey but you find no rest or recovery, only ghosts. and you almost wish for another quest, another dangerous mission, because at least then you know your purpose.

#hi sorry i just rewatched the lord of the rings trilogy and im in A State #its just. the concept of leaving your home with your 3 friends to go on a quest for something you don't understand. #you're all plucky and full of life and hope. #and then you're beaten down and nearly killed and you don't know if anyone's still alive or if you're the last of your friends left. #and you suffer. oh do you suffer. #and when the battle's over and it's time to come home you don't recognize the person you were when you left. #you're too traumatized and haunted by everything you've seen; everything you've suffered; everything you've done to survive #and you're a ghost in your own home because nobody from your hometown can understand. #and it's so painful and you're so so tired that when you have a chance to move on to leave your friends behind #for the sake of getting some goddamn peace ... #well what else can you do but take it? #im just oughoughoughoughough #this applies to both frodo and bilbo i think #the dichotomy of the scene where bilbo is Leaving the shire (running and shouting for joy because he's going on an ADVENTURE!) #and when he returns (beaten down and grieving and lost. a stranger in his own home.) #literally makes me gnawwww #im feeling some kinda WAY #winter speaks #tropes #on knights #<- rich inner world

[zo1nkss]

referencing my last tags but actually I'm gonna say it, if you weren't around when people got regularly called slurs and sent death threats for having gay ships you literally do not get to judge what the worst fandom ever is, thanks :)

#Void Rambles #if the worst thing you've ever seen is a little fandom discourse you have no room to talk #I grew up in the age of “no slash ships” rules in public forums #waking up every day only to hop online and beat back the subliminal homophobic messaging from my closest friends with a stick #fighting just to get ffnet to let me post songfics #while hoards of readers actively went out of their way to mass report you for it #next thing you know everything you've created and shared with friends is deleted without warning #swaths of hate mail from complete strangers hiding behind a message board for saying Dean is bi #literal fandom-wide campaigns to kill off gay coded characters and women who moved wrong and beloved characters of color #if the worst fandom take you've ever had to look at is a misinterpretation of your blorbo please exit stage left

[patroclusdefencesquad]

there is absolutely nothing special about the line "if i don't make it back from where i've gone just know i loved you all along" why does it make me cry so much!! why does it get to me this way!!

#that's a lie there's a lot special about it #it's the way it's sung it's the emotion it's the way it links back to every other song talking about someone leaving #talking about wondering if you've been left behind #hits right in the feels i love it i hate it joey batey me n you need to have words i'm not supposed to feel this much #especially after almost a year of hearing the line!! #the amazing devil

[dromaeocore]

Made prints the other day! This was so fun omg

#my art #my OCs #printmaking #CJ #Furry #horror #vent art #There's a ton of symbolism in this but I'm not going into details lmao #okay fuck it. the sunflower represents life and vitality and hope. it's on the left - the more difficult choice (I'm right handed) #the lily represents death and more particularly innocence after death. the washing clean of all the harm you've caused #the monster is suicidality. there's a more obvious meaning to me but to simplify it to be more applicable to the average joe its suicidalit #whispering convincing shit into your ear #the chain link fence behind them adds to the feeling of being trapped with it #but there's also the fact that there's a chance you can get out of it. #there's brightness on the other side #there's more but at this point im just making shit up skdjhfksjhg #interpret as u wish #im like legit proud of this lol

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

The amount of times I have had a thought to send to my sister and remembered she will never get it 😭

#kee speaks #we went to the funeral home yesterday and it felt so surreal #mom shared the note my sister left with me and my brother so we know what her mindset was like and her reasoning #but it hurts that she never voiced it to us when we could've reassured her #she parked her truck in one of our farming fields behind a row of thick bushes so the truck wasn't visible from the road #you wouldn't know a truck could make it there unless you've been in that field before like we have #but it's right next to a dammed lake and that's where my brother in law proposed to her and only four days before their wedding anniversary #and then he was the one who found her #none of my family made it over there to be there with him #my dad tried but he blew the engine on his truck just a few miles from the farm; not even a quarter of the way to the field #i think that was a sign that he shouldn't have been there #but my brother in laws family all made it over there so he had his immediate family with him and my family was together at the farm #when the cops were done talking to him over there him and his family came to the farm #from Friday afternoon until Sunday night it was just a continuous parade of people coming and going from the farm #even yesterday evening a bunch of people stopped by #i don't think i have ever received so many hugs in a 72 hour period before #we've definitely deduced that my parents church will not be big enough for everyone if all that showed up at the farm plus more will be ther #we picked a day almost two weeks away for the funeral so that people can make arrangements to come #im so exhausted though #i keep crying over things that feel stupid to cry over #like she was the one who convinced me to read the Murderbot Diaries and the next book comes out in the next couple months #i wont get to talk to her about it #i was going to lend her my PS5 so she could play Jedi Survivor #on Saturday i kept crying over a pin that has been sitting on my mug shelf in the cupboard that was meant for her #i convinced myself to wait until Christmas and put it in her stocking #and now I feel bad that i didnt give it to her when i bought it cause maybe it would've brought her some joy

[theinfinitedivides]

can't believe they put Seok Jin and i through serious mental anguish only to bring everyone who was eliminated back so they could watch the final matchup go down. can we sue for emotional damages

#the devil's plan #Yeon Woo and Dong Jae back in the same room i cried ok #Seok Jin out here turning this into a melo when he spotted Si Won. i kid you not his eyes got all soft and sh*t 'i lost it after you left' #etc etc #if she wasn't married i would have shipped them by now bc he was going through it fr fr. he needed a six week vacation #after this ends no filming projects nothing just hang out somewhere and decompress bc this sh*t is wild #hugging him from behind my screen you've got this!!!!!!!!

[fandomfluffandfuck]

#WHY IS THIS STEVE SCREAMING FOR BUCKY??? #H e l p #Spotify #Time has hit you differentBut I don't think you've changed #(steve believing that bucky still knows him despite behind fucking brainwashed) #Craving me was useless #(steve understanding that bucky had no autonomy during his time with HYDRA) #Left you behindYou'd keep me down #I know better now #(steve understanding that bucky is alive again and he cant and wont try to get over his grief) #I still keep your secretsKnow your worst mistakesPlayed into my weakness(Stripped away my strength) #(steve never fighting back against bucky... he'd willingly let bucky kill him under his brainwashing) #Time has hit me differentI don't feel the sameKnow I feel this distanceBut I don't share the pain #(steve is a 'good man' and 'he doesn't bleed on people'... he doesn't let other people see his pain) #OUCH

[nexus-nebulae]

thinks abt kiki still not being able to talk to jiji at the end of kikis delivery service. cries and screams and wails

#you can never truly go back to the way you were. you can heal and get better but things will never be the same again #you can move into a new happiness as you heal but there will always be something that isn't there anymore #you can never truly regain your lost innocence or who you were as a child and you will be forever changed but you will heal #things will be ok again. different. something lost. but okay nonetheless. perhaps something gained too #you know more now. you are stronger now that you've come out of the darkness. but something had to be left behind to move forward

[master-k0hga]

| M A L I C E C I L |

[ Category: Misc OCs ]

| Another non related OC, think I showed him off last time but I re-drew him recently again cuz I didn't like the one before...

Anyways super awesome demon bf Mali, who, another OC I previously introduced, is dating Winston for like... Idk years- Winnie didn't believe he was an actual demon for like a whole year, people were telling him but he would've just shrugged it off... Til he finally believed Mali one day that the horns were not a headpiece-

But anyways, a wild ride their relationship first started out with, but funnily enough it never got worse.. It actually got better, Mali is usually the type of Demon to have fun, go out drinking, one night stands, groupies; All that, but Winston was an exception for him, like yeah he'll do his basic normal demon things, but he'll always be willing and happily come back to Winston, even plans one day to propose to him... Which he'll need to get a job for himself if he were to do that as a surprise.. Anyways-

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INFO

Name: Malicecil Species: Demon General Personality: Perverted, cocky, confident, easy going, flirtatious, playful, funny, overall very welcoming, very chill Height: 9ft Relationship Status: In a relationship

Extra Info:

His age doesn't seem to be very easy to tell as he looks roughly in his late 20's/ early 30's all the time, but it's not a surprise that he is well older than that. Winnie himself was in complete shock when Mali just randomly walked up to him one morning and just whispered how old he was in his ear; Whether it was to sound impressive or just to see his reaction is of course another question however

As mentioned, he has in fact gotten arrested one time for driving while under the influence of alcohol. Apparently despite being a demon who could potential wreck havoc to the world one day if he snapped; He's so chill to the point where authorities can still get him done for human related crimes

Has an underworld form for whenever he ventures in and out of hell, or as most demons decide to call it; "The Underrealm", how he looks on the surface is the best he can ever get to looking more "human", despite him not looking THAT much different to his real look. He's literally only slightly taller and more brute built in his Underworld form

There are other demons who have socialised along with humans just like him, he even hangs out with them in clubs, going out for drinks and so forth while keeping it buddy-buddy; Humans aren't excluded from joining them if they ask, no discriminating here after all

Has gotten romantical with quite a few humans at LEAST dating back to the late 60's, unsure whether he has lived longer than that is unclear however as he refuses to acknowledge his life before that era

Has many forged ID's for every country; Why wouldn't he, he's a demon after all. Winston sometimes wonders how he manages to get himself into trouble before the problem is "seemingly forgotten"

Acts as Winston's personal mannequin when it comes to stylizing and tailoring; Mali enjoys it believe it or not, anything that makes his boyfriend smile is good enough for him

Despite being green, he actually likes the colour brown more

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That's all I believe, didn't really have much for him at all honestly so with this was definitely a good time to delve a little deeper into his character... Most of my OCs are mainly just made because I've thought of them either for a purpose of another OC or just because my brain decides to go "I dreamt this" (kinda like the "I made this")

...

Anyways, I don't really have much to talk about this besides just the usual so I guess that's it really....? I'll just get on with trying to get on with my other OCs in the meantime and take a break from it with fan art from time to time.. I'll just hopefully get more refs done for the OC spam, since I know I won't be really doing much online these days so I'd rather not work on a drawing then post it immediately... And then having nothing else to post, especially when it takes me ages just to be happy with a sketch and finish it off..

... Oh well, whatever.

. Malicecil, Art © Me . DON’T RE-POST .

#MASTER-K0HGA #Ary / Kohga Chronicles #Ary / Kohga OCs and Works #Malicecil #Male #Fandomless #Misc OCs #My OC #My Art #Demon OC #Demon #My Character #Re-post #My art re-posted #I do enjoy the fact that I'm categorizing my OCs at this point #it does kinda help with trying to keep this blog organised and whatnnot #Especially when I tag said categories too... Makes it easier for me to search them via tags on this blog too! #Easier way to separate OC related art and fan art as well when I'm trying to quickly find another post of mine.. Especially older ones. #Anyways not much to say....Never is tbh with how dead online is always for me... I've been talking to myself for years online #So it'll never change for me. I won't ever be like. Busy others are online but that's cuz people are interested in what they do #And don't get randomly ignored or left behind for now reason at all other than cuz people get bored of you #Or have heard random bs about you that you've never heard of in your life.. Oh well............ Minding my own business #Not that anybody gave a shit about me in the firstplace anyways...... Mali the chill demon dude who's kinda awesome #...... And wish he was my real friend too... He'd probably be my only friend actually...

[starreyy-art]

uhhh i really liked this plot

#hhhhhh it's so #it's giving. like. realising how bad it's been and trying to turn things around for yourself only to realise you've been left behind- #-and nobody cares about you or what you do anymore so you do the most DEFIANT thing possible #it hits. ugh so hard #i can't describe it but i #mmmmmmmmmmmmthis #my art #art #digital art #artists on tumblr #psy draws #digitalart #fanart #ii fanart #ii art #ii mephone4 #ii mepad #ii spoilers #ii s2 #cw bright colours #cw bright colors #bright colors cw #bright colours cw #bright colors tw #bright colours tw #cw bright lights #bright lights cw #tw bright lights #bright lights tw #inanimate insanity

[exilegend]

@fiirecracker (savathun) said

❝  and perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone.  ❞

ACHILLES COME DOWN

" what do you care? " his tone is accusatory — defensive. his grief is what shapes him, what marks him. the part in his chest where once sagira laid now hollow and empty and savathun's words cut like knives at the fissure.

snapped threadbare.

an aching phantom limb.

it was not savathun who took his light. it was not savathun who killed sagira. still, there are associations made in those isolating chambers where he slept like death. as claws scraped his mind to steal his mannerisms. his memories.

he does not want to be here. this fascimile of holy grounds in savathun's throne world. a court overlooking talks with the witch queen. and he, ashen phoenix, had excused himself only to be followed. he knows there is a hidden agent hidden in the corners and he almost hates that more than savathun's words piercing into him.

" i do not want your pity. "

#【 ❝ reach higher than the sun the stars the galaxy ❞ 】 ✕ ic. #【 ❝ pick up all these broken pieces i have left behind ❞ 】 ✕ v. current. #【 ❝ speak your word swiftly ❞ 】 ✕ asks. #fiirecracker / m. savathun #sat in my drafts for so long you've moved sav LKKJFALKSDJF

[cornerful]

Genuinely I think about this part so often

I'll just be sitting minding my business with some shitty lemonade and my brain will just supply me with the "Not yet" and then I need to lie down about it

#lotr newsletter #lotr #frodo baggins #gOD #its abt the indefinable melancholy of being torn between two lives #of wanting to follow #of being left behind #of being altogether quite content and Yet #of a want to just get up and GO but... #is it wanderlust or loneliness and are they even that different #while all the time everything you've ever known is here #you have friends after all #quite good ones #Not Yet #screamijg crying throwing up

[reginrokkr]

I rise from the ashes to say that I wasn't expecting HSR to give me the key to make Dain more panfandom friendly (at least within the Hoyoverse, other fandoms would be debatable) in a genuine way. And this is something I adore because he has grown to be a character I love to bits and there are other game titles I love, in essence it will be a matter of whipping my brains into thinking how to accommodate him in other worlds.

#◟༺✦༻◞ what lays behind the mantle of faux stars ┊ooc.┊ #special thank you to Mr. Welt and Seele #for giving me the key of that #by reading their archives in HSR #and learning more about HYV's ways in this #now I feel more confident #about the take I've chosen for Luocha #obviously I'll have to wait until 1.1 to know more #but if he happens to not be directly tied to Otto #like Seele seems to not be other than the looks #as she seems to be a native of Jarilo-VI #and some reasonable parallels #then I've got this #on another note hi how you've been doing #hopefully well #I have two weeks left until finals #filled with partials #but I'm doing things on the background #for when I'll be able to return in full to write here ♥︎

[stanfordsweater]

i think it’s very cute when people draw stanford sam in smart lil sweatervests and dress pants but you know he was wearing ill-fitting clothes raided from the lost and found at every high school they went to for the last year he was with dean & john. do you think he was hoarding clothes because he knew he’d be leaving soon? did dean ever tease him about it? did john get on his case about how heavy his duffle was getting?

#you can't share a wardrobe with someone you've left behind #do you think 'brady' loaned him nice clothes for his first date with jess #and laughed at the inches of torso the shirts didn't cover #.txt