#yourbestfriendalways

[yourbestfriendalways]

The biggest power move my partner has made is put all of the meds in the same room as her. Now I gotta look her in the eye and take em if I wanna ☠️

#yourbestfriendalways

[yourbestfriendalways]

Honestly every time life gets even remotely frustrating I find myself coming back to this shit hole website. I'm in my mid twenties and no place feels just as corrupted and vile as the home I've built on this dumb app. Here's to I dont even know how many years I'll be running back here to vent and whine because I can't cope with reality.

#yourbestfriendalways

[yourbestfriendalways]

My body tries so hard to trust people that it does it without me even thinking about it.

I'm so fucking sick of trusting, I want to fucking fight

#yourbestfriendalways

[yourbestfriendalways]

I'm so sick of getting sruck in this stupid cycle of going on and off my meds but I can't for the life of me find consistency when I've never had it in the first place.

#yourbestfriendalways

[yourbestfriendalways]

There for them because I know how it feels to not have anybody notice the warning signs

#yourbestfriendalways

[yourbestfriendalways]

Nobody can protect me because I'm a danger to myself.

#yourbestfriendalways #suicidal #passive suicidal #hypersexual #depressed #depressing #i wanna die #self harm

[yourbestfriendalways]

The way that people shamed me for years about "making my mental illnesses my entire personality" when they in fact are and take over my entire life. Like seriously fuck off if you're going to judge me for seeing help.

Anyways, I need new friends so if anybody has a discord server full of mentally ill people lmk. I'm 22 and fucking lonely.

#yourbestfriendalways #truama #mentally ill #bpd #depression #anxiety #mental illness #traumatized #mental breakdown #therapy #discord #discord server #friends #friendship #borderline personality disorder

[yourbestfriendalways]

I want to swallow a bottle of pills and not wake up tomorrow. These blankets are so soft I'm sure I'd die without regrets.

#yourbestfriendalways #depression #depressing thoughts #depressing #depressed #suicidal

[yourbestfriendalways]

The older I get the easier it becomes to find new words for "I'm used to it."

Less concerning words like:

"Tis be life."

"Just gotta keep going."

"I just don't give in, I guess."

"I don't mind it."

"If _____ doesn't care then why should I?"

This struggle never gets easier. It just gets easier for me to control how much I show around who.

#yourbestfriendalways #depression #depressing thoughts #depressing #depressive #depressed #depressing shit #depressing post #suicide #suicidal #passive suicidal #suicidal ideation #anxiety #anxious #anger issues

[yourbestfriendalways]

Absolutely fucking shameful. The lengths I'll go to cum when my hypersexuality hits.

#yourbestfriendalways #hypersexuality #hypersexual #absolute shame #gonna be my hypersexual tag

[yourbestfriendalways]

That moment when your brain goes into complete mental shut down post dissociation and rockets from numb right into shivering and crying and feeling like everybody hates you

#yourbestfriendalways #dissociation #depression #depressing thoughts #suicidal #anxiety #anxious #self hate

[yourbestfriendalways]

Constantly between "Should I genuinely seek help from my friends and tell them how I'm feeling?" And "Should I post on tumblr about it where they can likely see it but not care as much because its a not a dm?" Though I always end up posting something weak here and dissociating about hurting myself and being hurt by somebody else.

#yourbestfriendalways #dissociation #self hate #self harm #depressing #depressing thoughts #depression #suicidal

[yourbestfriendalways]

After a while of being so sad and numb all the time, being happy for any longer than a couple minutes at a time just fucking hurts.

#yourbestfriendalways #depression #suicidal

[yourbestfriendalways]

Why the fuck does somno shit sound so appealing? Like wake me up by touching me. Don't give me the chance to think. Don't even let me wake up before you kiss me. Press me into whatever surface im laying on and use me until my body is shaking and I'm whimpering for you.

#yourbestfriendalways #shouting to my partner #because having a wet dream last night was #phew #hypersexuality #hypersexual #i just want to be fucked #aggressively #until I cry

[yourbestfriendalways]

Can I have one night where I'm not craving this? One night where I don't have to rub my thighs together and shiver everytime somebody touches me?

#yourbestfriendalways #hypersexuality #hypersexual #agony

[yourbestfriendalways]

It turns me on when people get me high or drunk. My girlfriend got out a preroll and was like "you're smoking with me" and my whole body got jittery and warm and I wanted her all over me. Fuckkkk

#yourbestfriendalways #weedy bois #stoned as fuck #high #addiction #hypersexuality