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new outlook, fresh start.

hi my beautiful loves, 

wow i have been gone for months. um, where do i begin? 

firstly. i’m probably going to make this blog a little more casual and finally decide to post more and actually write it into my planner god willing. 

its the night before my second year of nursing school starts again, and if you have been following this blog and me for a while you know that this is my third year of nursing school... but my second year of the program.

you can read my older blog posts that i will link below, but basically i had to repeat my nursing year because i had really, really bad anxiety and im so thankful that i learned what my triggers are, how to calm myself down but honestly anxiety is something that im going to learn how to go through and deal with as it happens. 

im finally optimistic and i can see the end of god willing becoming an emergency room nurse and that I CAN AND I WILL pass my second year and pass nursing school.

join me on this crazy journey we call nursing school, and feel free to leave me questions if your new to nursing school or your starting out or even doing your PRE-REQS (to my american followers) 

love you all dearly, 

sending nothing but love and positive vibes into everyone’s fall semester. 

warmest regards, 

A. 

blogpost: 

http://theconfessionsofanursingstudent.tumblr.com/post/117478964939/my-decision-with-nursing-school#117478964939 

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my decision with nursing school

Hi babes! 

So it’s literally been forever, and I haven’t blogged in a while. However, I have been signing in to tumblr once in a while, and I also created a side tumblr that I use for positivity and stuff, so hopefully that blog starts to go well. 

Um, well theres A LOT to catch you guys up with. Well for one.. I made the most hardest and difficult decision of my entire life. I decided to withdraw from my semester and start all over again God Willing in September. 

WHOA. 

I know that’s probably something you guys weren’t expecting you know? Like this is the same time where I would probably post an update of me waiting for final grades to come in, or letting you guys know that I had passed my year or something of that sort. 

well, this is the total opposite. however these past couple of weeks/months have been a real pivotal time and i want to genuinely thank the almighty for always being there for me, my beautiful family & friends for listening to my rants. as much as I used to joke around about it, and use humour I was genuinely going through all the stages. Denial for a while, anger, sadness and I have finally reached acceptance. It was just not fate for me this year. I have had a negative attitude this year, and I swear positivity is the only thing that can get your mood right. I am feeling optimistic and happy and excited about next year, and hoping my second year x 2 will be one filled with happiness, education, less worry & anxiety and just absolute love & self care. 

I have learned a lot of lessons, and one has been that my faith is getting stronger by the day. Even though theres times & days that my faith isn’t as strong as i would like, God almighty has seriously gotten me through some of the worst days of my life. 

Alhamdullilah. All praise to the most high, the most merciful and the most gracious. I am thankful for this experience, because it is teaching me what strength seriously is. wow i thought i knew strength before this, but boy did that change. strength is the continued belief in the most high, and that everything is going to work out in the end. strength is waking up in your most depressed mood and believing that Allah will get you through it. Strength is understanding that even when the pieces look like they are falling apart, Allah SWT may be putting them back together. Strength is truly believing whatever Allah decreed is best, and strength is believing that although you may plan Allah SWT is the best of planners. 

Even on my most worst days, I need to remember that God willing I will get through everything. 

I am thankful to have this blog, because it is a blessing for me honestly. to have a place to rant with my nursing community and the community in general. I swear nursing school is NOT for the faint of heart at all. i thought it would be much easier than this, but hey whats a better time then to find yourself and find the strength in yourself than nursing school.

heres to all the people who withdrew or failed a year in nursing school, and yet still managed to stay happy and postive.

heres to all the people who went through a bump in the road and still managed to get through it.

i just need to remember that will all the bad days, there are good days, and after all the goal is paradise.

well here’s a deeply spiritual blog post, but thats just how i’m feeling. for my non-muslim bloggers Allah translates to God.

Thank you all for reading this super lengthy post. May be my longest blog post ever. Anywhoo, looking in my drafts and found a beautiful blog post that was super emotional. May be posting that very soon InshaAllah (God-Willing) 

thank you all again, wishing you all the best in the end of your semesters and wishing you nothing but happiness.

loving you always, 

A. 

#nursingschool #nursing #nursingstudents #BSCN #BSN #university #summer #happiness #islam #muslim

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Overthinking is the biggest cause of our unhappiness. Keep yourself occupied. Keep your mind off things that don’t help you. Be optimistic.

(via ajeebinsaan)

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Muslim commits any crime ever: THEY'RE A TERRORIST! ALL OF THEM ARE BARBARIC! CALL IT WHAT IT IS: TERRORISM!!!

Man who openly hates Muslims kills 3 Muslims execution style: Let's not call it a hate crime, why do we have to label everything? He was just evil, it doesn't matter that the victims were Muslim, they could have been Black, White, or green it didn't matter. This was about a parking dispute, nothing else.

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not so good news..

hey lovely nursing friends.

this has been one of the hardest times for me to blog especially within the last couple weeks. lets rewind back to my last blog post.. i had finished exams and was feeling relieved yet nervous. what i didn't mention was that i was actually home from a dinner with some nursing girlfriends but i honestly didn't enjoy myself much. having to come home, also adding that i didn't know if i passed or not really just brought my mood down.

i spent most of winter break in bed watching tv, and going to work. other than that i didn't really study much and i tried to relax as much as i could. 

so marks came out.. within the first week i had recieved 4/5 nursing and psych grades and although i did not perform well at all i was happy that my marks didnt fluctuate that much. i dropped but was still in a comfortable range that would allow me to continue being semi-okay with my grades. 

fast forward to the day before class began for second semester, i still had not received the grade that i had wanted and i was getting a bit anxious. lets just say i didn't anticipate for the absolute worst grade that i could have received.. ever. it was basically as bad as first year anatomy midterm that really affected me.. 

i did so bad, and when i mean bad i mean terrible. i basically did so bad that my mark dropped a whole ten percent, and in nursing school thats A LOT. comparing to me being borderline passing (passing by 3 percent) to now failing by alot. so you guys probably know how most nursing schools work.. you need to pass each class or you end up repeating yeah? yeah. 

so semester 2 is now 2 weeks done and i guess i have sorta dealed with this situation. i have a final left that is worth loads and to pass the course i need a B-ish grade. i really do believe in miracles, i got one last year and i believe whatever is going to happen has been written and God is the only one who can bless me. 

its just really tough dealing with the fact you know? i used to be super positive but i feel like i dont know were the positivity went. its really tough right now.. its really not in my hands right now. all i can do is pray and be positive because if i think otherwise, well thats not good for anybody.

i know this experience is going to make me stronger and thats why i wrote this post tonight. looking back on my blog im actually so happy that i created it. when i watch youtube vlogs i get so happy and i think how amazing it would be for me to document my life, but my blog is sort of that for me? i love reading nursing school blogs and people really going through the ups & downs of nursing school.

one of my friends gave me this word of advice: if things are not hard and we don't have to work for it, what kind of world would that be?" 

although i can talk to people about this current sitch, its nice to be able to write it all down and gather my thoughts. without having anyones not so sincere advice, and having people who think they know things tell me stuff that they dont really know about. i feel this pain right now, and feel this dissapointment but they dont ya know? everything really does happen for a reason and i should look at the better side of things.

i have the most amazing clinical placement this semester and i could not be anymore thrillllllllled (except for emerg of course) LOL. i am so thankful, and praying that the last final is everything i wanted and more, and that i can move on to third year god willing. 

i need to blog in the heat of the moment you know? i think it makes more of a emotional tie with us.. it really shows how i'm feeling without really sugar coating things. 

i had a rough night tonight, but things shall be for the better god willing.

this was super long, and to anyone reading this i really don't know if you know how much that means to me.. 

i cannot thank you enough, and please send me a message. i really appreciate you babes loads. 

- thanks so much for an open ear (or open eyes haha) i truly do love you guys.

- Love, 

A. 

#nursingschool #nursingschoolprobs #failing #college #university #bscn #nursing

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FIRST SEMESTER OF SECOND YEAR. COMPLETE. - BARELY.

Hi lovely nursing friends! 

FIRST SEMESTER IS DONE!!!!!!! WOW. I dont even know where to start, or begin. Let me start of by saying that all those people who tell you second year is going to be the worst year - the hardest year and stuff.. arent lying. 

I dont know, I personally found first year to be hands down the most stressful - anxiety filled year of all, but second year is totally different and stressful in a whole other way. Clinical (legit the real one now LOL) is such a wake up call. They are the most gruelling, tiring, happiest and saddest times of your weeks and they are the moments that really show why you chose to become a nurse. I am so thankful for my clinical experience this semester. My nursing group - or sisters as I call them are the most supportive, loving, kind and friendly group of girls I ever met. When people tell you, your clinical group is going to be your best friends they really mean it. 

On a different note, I just finished exams literally less than six hours ago. That last exam slayed me. It was so difficult and so hard and I am praying that the lord grants me my wish and lets me pass. I am so nervous, so scared for grades to come out since I am borderline right now. Prayers are much appreciated loves, as you are all in mine. 

At the end of the day, nursing is my passion and what I want to do. God will help us all get through these difficult times. Try your hardest and put the rest and all of your trust in God. 

I love you all so much, WINTER BREAK IS HERE. To those who are still writing exams I know you guys will do amazing, and don't lose motivation. Keep studying hard, sleeping enough (please do!) and drink coffee! You will feel so accomplished. To those who are done their exams, relax and enjoy a cup of hot chocolate! You deserve it. You worked really hard this year and no matter what you deserve to be proud of everything you have done. This is a time to reconnect with yourself, your family and your friends, and everyone whom you have neglected (literally my story) its okay, nursing school is extremely important and thats all that matters, but now you can reconnect and enjoy life! FOR A BIT LOL

loving you all deeply and sending hugs. 

xo

- A

#nursingschool #winterbreak #holidays #bscn #vacation #exams #winter #nursing #clinical

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Yesterday I overheard a nursing student snark, “yeah, this is why I’m in nursing school - so I can pass trays.” And if I hadn’t been up to my eyeballs in other things to do for my patients, I would have stopped and said: You’ve already missed the point entirely. I’m not sure why you DO think you’re here. If you hope to be a good nurse (or coworker, or person with a heart), you’re going to spend the majority of your working life doing things you SO mistakenly think are beneath you. You are going to pass trays with a smile - excitement even, when your patient finally gets to try clear liquids. You will even open the milk and butter the toast and cut the meat. You will feed full-grown adults from those trays, bite by tedious, hard-to-swallow bite. You will, at times, get your own vital signs or glucoscans, empty Foley bags and bedside commodes without thinking twice. You will reposition the same person, move the same three pillows, 27 times in one shift because they can’t get comfortable. You will not only help bathe patients, but wash and dry between the toes they can’t reach. Lotion and apply deodorant. Scratch backs. Nystatin powder skin folds. Comb hair. Carefully brush teeth and dentures. Shave an old man’s wrinkled face. Because these things make them feel more human again. You will NOT delegate every “code brown,” and you will handle them with a mix of grace and humor so as not to humiliate someone who already feels quite small. You will change ostomy appliances and redress infected and necrotic wounds and smell smells that stay with you, and you will work hard not to show how disgusted you may feel because you will remember that this person can’t walk away from what you have only to face for a few moments. You will fetch ice and tissues and an extra blanket and hunt down an applesauce when you know you don’t have time to. You will listen sincerely to your patient vent when you know you don’t have time to. You will hug a family member, hear them out, encourage them, bring them coffee the way they like it, answer what you may feel are “stupid” questions - twice even - when you don’t have time to. You won’t always eat when you’re hungry or pee when you need to because there’s usually something more important to do. You’ll be aggravated by Q2 narcotic pushes, but keenly aware that the person who requires them is far more put upon. You will navigate unbelievably messy family dramas, and you will be griped at for things you have no control over, and be talked down to, and you will remain calm and respectful (even though you’ll surely say what you really felt to your coworkers later), because you will try your best to stay mindful of the fact that while this is your everyday, it’s this patient or family’s high-stress situation, a potential tragedy in the making. Many days you won’t feel like doing any of these things, but you’ll shelve your own feelings and do them the best you can anyway. HIPAA will prevent you from telling friends, family, and Facebook what your work is really like. They’ll guess based off what ridiculousness Gray’s Anatomy and the like make of it, and you’ll just have to haha at the poop and puke jokes. But your coworkers will get it, the way this work of nursing fills and breaks, fills and breaks your heart. Fellow nurses, doctors, NPs and PAs, PCAs, unit clerks, phlebotomists, respiratory therapists, physical and occupational therapists, speech therapists, transport, radiology, telemetry, pharmacy techs, lab, even dietary and housekeeping — it’s a team sport. And you’re not set above the rest as captain. You will see you need each other, not just to complete the obvious tasks but to laugh and cry and laugh again about these things only someone else who’s really been there can understand. You will see clearly that critical thinking about and careful delivery of medications are only part of the very necessary care you must provide. Blood gushing adrenaline-pumping code blue ribs breaking beneath your CPR hands moments are also part, but they’re not what it’s all about. The “little” stuff is rarely small. It’s heavy and you can’t carry it by yourself. So yes, little nursling, you are here to pass trays

https://www.facebook.com/whitney.koenig/posts/10101125245176863 (via mygreater-expectations)

preach. 

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one year!

hi lovely nursing friends! 

ah, i suck at blogging. sorry lovelys, this semester has been hectic and stressful, like almost every semester but that doesn't give me an excuse to suck at blogging. 

yesterday i got a cheeky little email informing me that my blog is ONE YEAR OLD! wow! how crazy huh? a year that i've spent on this amazing forum with all you sweet people. thank you for reading my posts, and thank you for your blog posts that i read. i'm so thankful to have this nursing family around us and can't wait for the future god willing. 

hmm, so where do i begin? 

clinical is almost done.. i don't know what to say, i am excited to be leaving this unit and trying something new but i am deeply thankful for rehab for literally being my starting point. my first injection & first dressing all happened here. i'm thankful for the nurses, the doctors and more importantly the patients that made my day better. even though im half asleep half the time (not enough coffee -- i'm trying to lay off LOL) and stressed with the stupid amount of readings/homework, thank you for listening to my freakouts, watching my tears, watching my smile as i kick butt in one of my tasks and just loving me for me.

this year is super stressful and MUCH different than freshman year, but i am so happy and thankful for everything im learning. praying for a great exam season and wishing you babes all the best. 

i promise to write more often.

love you lots, 

- A

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When you see that you have a significantly higher acuity than all the other nurses

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To anyone who see's this!!!

PLEASE put your age, location and what you are studying into my ask box!

I want to get to know you all better The questions will be returned

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I text page the doctor to order pain medication for my new admit's 10/10 pain d/t a hip fx and an order for 650mg of acetaminophen pops up...

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FIRST DAY OF CLINICAL!

Nursing loves! Its been forever! I literally cant believe time is going by so quickly. I hope you guys are all having an amazing first couple of weeks, and hope your programs are going amazing. 

Lots to catch up on! WOW IS SECOND YEAR DIFFERENT! LOL, i absolutely love it but it is sooo stressful but I think what I am doing differently this year is relaxing! Well trying to at least.

Haha, today was first day of clinical in Rehab Medicine. It was honestly such an amazing day! Never have I ever been able to be independent and really take on the nursing role. This new found responsibility is both exciting and frightening.

Sorry this post has been a bit short, currently been awake for over 18 and a half hours! LOL, see you beautiful babes soon! 

xo.

- A

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How I keep myself motivated during nursing school with all this studying #NoDaysOff #NursingSchool #Blessed #repost

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Having to chart “sanguineous”

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it's almost here!

Nursing Friends! Hello!

It is almost here! That day that will mark another chapter in my life God willing. Second year nursing here I come! I am overcome with different emotions. I am excited yet nervous and anxious to see what will happen. iI cannot wait for this year but then again I know I will be under lots and lots of stress. I start my legit clinical placement this year, and will be attempting to do all of this with a part time job. I dont know how hard this will be, but I am so ready for the rollercoaster ride. 

I have so many readings that I need to do :( But I am so blessed in this very moment. TYA. 

Love you all! Sending lots of love! Let me know how your presemester jitters are going! 

xo

- A

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