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me when it was cloudy yesterday and I still got sunburnt

#sunburn #I have so many problems #can’t believe this #I hate the sun #No I didn’t mean it pls don’t blow up the earth

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guys I’m trying to do one of those black and white colored drawings and I’m struggling

send help

#monochrome #horror art #i love art #not my art #original art #traditional art #my art #digital art

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A firewatchman with asthma? How silly. Anyway here’s another bit from the story I’m working on 💕

“Right, right, sorry..” I cough a little from all the laughter and dig around in my pockets for my inhaler.

Right, I should’ve mentioned, I have asthma.

I’ve had it since I was 15, and it’s been steadfast ever since. I try to not let it run my life, though I did end up consulting with my therapist about if it was illegal or not to leave that tidbit off of my job application for this place. It ended up not being a big deal though, since a workplace can’t legally turn you away because of a medical condition.

Witht that being said, It went around the Ranger’s fast, which is a little embarrassing, but thankfully they were all kind about it. It’s sort of, probably the reason Crow puts out his cigarettes when I’m around, though I’ve told him before it’s not that bad. If it was bad, I wouldn’t be a firewatchmen for christs sake. My job is to look for and inhale smoke, I can handle a little cigar.

He doesn’t listen though, which just ends up making me feel bad.

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I’M SOBBING

#baldurs gate astarion #bg3 astarion #baldurs gate 3 astarion #astarion bg3 #astarion #bg3 orin #bg3 rolan #bg3 halsin #bg3 tav #bg3 oc #bg3 fanart #bg3 spoilers #bg3 #bg3 screenshots #bg3 gale #bg3 fanfiction #white boys #GASP #WHAT #im sobbing

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Guys I’m welcoming new media and it’s gettin wild

#tower 4 #Spotify #spotify podcast #horror podcast

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In honor of me FINALLY starting some writing on an idea I’ve had cooking up for awhile, here’s a few paragraphs from the epilogue I wrote today 🤭..

Hope you enjoy! 💕

My first day on the job, I thought the hardest part would be the isolation, but it turns out the forest has a weird way of keeping you company.

It was a simple enough life. Wake up, drive 45 minutes to work every morning, sit up in that watch tower until 5 pm, and then drive 45 minutes back home every night. I liked the routine, though it eventually all started to blur together. One day was no different from the next as there, of course, were never any fires.

Though I liked the thrill of not knowing, maybe that's what drew me to take the job. I relished the idea of that long drive with nothing to hear except “Rawe Feed Radio with Michael Precise, the white trash heartthrob,” and the sparkling thought that maybe, just maybe, I’d see a fire today. Not that I ever wanted the forest to burn down, of course. I didn’t want that. But I wanted to feel useful. I wanted someone to rely on me, for someone to say “Hey! That’s the guy who stopped Emerald Ridge National Park from burning down!” Maybe that’s egotistical, maybe I let my hero complex get the better of me, but it’s the truth nonetheless.

Either way, my job, and my life were pretty straightforward. My schedule rarely changed. I spent whatever time I wasn’t working at home, doing chores or meal prepping. There was a certain comfort in the predictability of it all, one that, if you asked me today, I couldn’t explain, but back then I would’ve defended with my life.

(That’s all for now, maybe more updates as it goes along and keep in mind this is a very rough draft, so I apologize for any typos.)

(Gross I’m starting to sound like a wattpad writer…)

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They all dress like me years ago trying to find the perfect ‘masc’ fit💀💀

#I’m sobbing this was so me #I was so into Tim I wanted to be him bro #red and black flannels were my lifeline #i promise i have good style now… #it was a rough time #tim marble hornets #tim wright #brian thomas #brian marble hornets #jay merrick #jay marble hornets #found footage #marble hornets

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tim walking rb if u agree

#marble hornets #tim wright #slenderverse #I agree wholeheartedly

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Poetry #7 💕

“Telling The Bees”

I walk through my garden,

Looking around at grass and weeds long forgotten.

And smiling at flowers,

Soaked from the evening showers,

I look to the bees, buzzing with glee,

And I’m telling the bees,

whatever I please,

I speak of the frosts bitter sting,

The cost of seeds, the failed spring,

Oh, and I’m telling the bees about you my dear,

How you left without a trace, leaving me here.

All alone to ponder, “what had I done wrong?”

what’s going on? is this where I belong?

all alone, sitting at my desk

feeling oh so grotesque,

and staring at squares of white and blue light

lost in my mind, where wrong feels right.

god, what do I say?

should I beg you to stay?

will it fall on deaf ears?

are you really going? after all these years?

I can’t say a word,

I can never be heard,

because you were already gone

leaving me wondering where did it all go wrong?

Now I talk to the bees,

I let them put my mind at ease.

I tell them everything I would’ve said to you

hoping, just maybe, my message will get through

are they listening? do they even care?

I can’t handle this, and oh god I swear

one more minute in this wretched old garden is going to tear me in two

I have so much to say, it’s long overdue

And oh, my heart is bleeding all over the grass

There’s pain, like broken glass

stabbing my chest

and a feeling has come to rest

that’s horrid and prodding

that I’m alone,

That’s all I’ve ever known.

(This is honestly a very healing poem for me. I’ve worked on it a long time and finally have it finished so, I hope you enjoyed.)

#poems and short stories #poems and poetry #my post #poetry prompts #my poem #sad poem #poet #poets on tumblr #original poem #poetic #poem #poetry #poems on tumblr #writers and poets #telling the bees #bees #i’ve been missing a part of myself

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NOOO NEXT EPISODE IS ON POWERPOINT NIGHT 😭😭😭😭

#powerpoint night #powerpoint #sobbing #alux rising #favremysabre youtube

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I LOVE ALUX RISING

#it’s so wholesome #alux rising #favremysabre #favremysabre youtube #FavremySabre is so cool

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Pre Summer Stats ☀️🍉

(Will I forget to update this? Most likely.)

Age: 15 (16 in 44 days)

Status: Single

Height: 5’2

Piercings: 1

Kiss count: 2 idk

Pets: 1 cat and 2 ducks

Fav Artist: Will Wood

Money: $40

Happiness: 7/10

Fav Game: Baldurs Gate 3

Fav Movie: The Exorcist

Fav Song: Cicada Days - Will Wood

Snap Score: 44,832

Pinned (initials for privacy): Z, E, X

School Year: Sophomore

#summer #pre summer stats #tiktok #tiktok trend #yippee #stats

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I want to curl up in a very tiny ball and die from cringe and no I will not be elaborating.

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Poetry #6 💕

“Dear God,”

I try to listen,

to where god’s voice is heard

but it’s a skeptic’s journey,

a flightless bird,

trying so hard to throw out it’s wings

and fly off to the heavens,

to better things.

but it’s no use,

so it sits and rots,

much like the bird,

my wings are tied in knots.

I’m alone on this path,

walking on nails.

smiling at slugs,

frowning at snails,

so lost in this world,

but still someone’s daughter

a pathological liar,

or perhaps just a lamb to the slaughter.

and I’m asking myself,

will anyone weep?

bloodshot eyes and broken noses,

all for a poor little sheep.

it’s been a long time coming,

I’ve known since I was young,

I deny it so often,

But I’ve been able to taste hell on the tip of my tongue,

it’s a familiar flavor,

sour but sweet

a particular aftertaste

always reminding me of defeat.

I don’t seek the pearly gates,

but I do fear

even with all this kindness,

I won’t be able to steer clear,

Without much decision in the matter,

I’ll be dumped with the vile,

because of lack of faith,

and denied, all the while

she sits up there,

on a pretty little throne

with whatever she wants,

all on her own.

so I gotta know,

I’m asking, I’m begging

just tell me the truth,

please god, before I start yelling,

where will I go?

when it’s all said and done?

#poems and poetry #my poem #original poem #sad poem #poetic #poet #poetry #Drabbles #it’s not good don’t bark at me #my writing #i wrote this #on writing #writersblock #story writing #religion took my best friend lmao #religious media #tw religious themes #religious trauma #religious imagery #religion

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Okay… I may or may not actually be starting work on that Marble Hornets fan comic I mentioned wanting to make… like I wrote up and entire script and came up with a bunch of thumbnails and everything. Don’t expect it to be finished anytime SOON, but it’s happening. Here’s some concept art I made for it though!

Elevator pitch: TOTHEARK: Downpour will be a 4-chapter-long black and white (and red) webcomic about the founding, operation, and eventual downfall of totheark. I will be taking a lot of inspiration from some of my favorite Marble Hornet theories/headcanons to fill in the blanks (such as Seth being the founding member of totheark) but for the most part, this comic will attempt to be almost 100% canon-compliant whenever possible.

Also, suggestions for iconic scenes/popular totheark headcanons you’d want me to include are very much welcomed! I’m going to try and make this comic somewhat brief (or at least as brief as I can physically manage as someone who can’t shut up), so I’m thinking of splitting it into four “chapters” ranging from 0-3 with an average of 7 pages per chapter to correlate with the seasons of MH + a post-season 1 chapter dedicated to exploring the initial motivations of the founding totheark member. With that in mind, any scene involving Hoody/Brian, Masky/Tim, or Seth is on the table! You probably won’t see much of Jay, Jessica, or Alex (other than being mentioned in passing) seen as I will be focusing on totheark almost exclusively, but feel free to suggest scenes including those idiots as well.

#digital art #marble hornets #art #fanart #seth marble hornets #seth wilson #brian marble hornets #brian thomas #not my art #not mine #love it tho

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(Took longer than it should’ve but guys I finally got the motivation to finish it)

#horror art #i love art #original art #my art #characters #comfort character #my characters #original character #character art #character design #art challenge #character illustration #digital art #art #artists on tumblr #artwork #oc art #new drawing #drawing

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My Goals ~ Mood Board #1

#life goals #goals #my goals #school #school goals #musical theatre #theater kid #musical theater #theatre #broadway #teaching #director #directing #on stage #i love being on stage #stage #college #mood board #collage #my goals mood board #acting #teaching theater #graduation #graduating #app state #appalachian state