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LIGHT ON ME (2021)

NOH SHINWOO IN EVERY EPISODE » EP.1

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If you hate me, try to like me.

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KITTEN (#1) by Dylan Alexis

BLURB:

AKIRA and ETHAN are two very different people who will be brought together by money and lust.

Akira is a junior in college looking to make-ends meet while trying to move forward with his life by working as a Flower Boy—AKA, a prostitute. In this odd job, he will meet a hot pediatrician named Ethan, who becomes his first-ever client.

What both of them did not know is that, sometimes, lust and sex can lead to something else and they will soon find that out the hard way.

KITTEN Copyright ©2024 DYLAN ALEXIS under DYLAN ALEXIS PUBLISHING. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

Book Cover Art Designed by Lovers United

Book Design by Dylan Alexis Lee

OTHER DETAILS:

Word Count: 63.8k

Number of Pages: 264

AUTHOR’S NOTE: I am newbie Indie-Writer looking to sell my work on different platforms. This eBook is authentically written by me under the pseudonym of Dylan Alexis. You can also find this eBook on Amazon Kindle, and soon other eBook Platforms.

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This is a DIGITAL BOOK; there will be NO PHYSICAL FORMAT.

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Happy birthday, Kyungsoo! 🖤

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OFF THE GRID: DO KYUNGSOO (2022) Q. Are you more of an extrovert or an introvert?

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Why I Quit My Job....

Okay, so here we go…

This has been bugging me in the past few days and I figured, why not write about it? I’m under a pseudonym anyway and people won’t know. (Right?) There is such a thing as social media identity and it can either be good or bad.

Staying on my topic, there has been this constant desire for me to just about give up on something that I started working on in a snap. (This post has been placed on and off in the last two days. Oops...)

I started re-working my blog last week and was hooked but after a while, my passion started to shift again and I started to make excuses not to post anything. (I guess I got my mojo back after a short while.)

It has been a habit that I am trying—and failing to remove myself from and is the reason why I move from one job to the other without having any backup plan. My family says that I need to keep my life on track and find a better-paying job (and stay in it.) but once I do get there, I get claustrophobic and sometimes, even get anxiety attacks that further my stress.

In my last job as a contractual worker in a government school, everything felt like I was in a chokehold.

I was constantly transferred from one department to another (the last transfer before I resigned was my decision to ask for one, I’ll elaborate later.) I was an assistant to a director in my first department and everything was actually okay. My boss was cool and he cared about my welfare because whenever there was a typhoon or other calamities, he would always advise me to go home early, and I got to do what I love and that is writing, although it’s mostly writing letters and checking typographical errors in my boss’s report, it’s still very satisfying to do.

I stayed in his office for about nine months and by January 2020, I was reluctantly transferred to another department that soured me to everything about government-related work.

I was tasked to be in the Property Management office and everything about my job description was foreign to me as I am a Mass Communication graduate. I had to receive deliveries and inspect them while also making monthly COA reports and going as far as signing documents that I should not have because it is a job for bosses and directors but my supervisor told me to do so. Bless her heart.

She would constantly blame me if delivery fails to come or if I made mistakes in computing and reconciling millions that needed to be paid (She can kiss my ass because that is an accountant’s job that she’s making me do.)

When the pandemic hit, I was in a work-from-home setup, and little did I know that she told my co-worker to receive delivered items on my behalf and those items cost hundreds and thousands of pesos. That’s when I lost it.

I filed the complaint in the Human Resources Department and told them that if I would be obligated to stay in that department, I will file a complaint against my boss at the Civil Service Commission because any contract of services worker should not be entrusted to sign documents about money and deliveries as well as Commission on Audit reports.

So I was transferred to the University Registrar’s office. This is when I finally snapped and resigned. My co-workers were just so frustrating. They always cajoled me into buying Starbucks even if I did not have the luxury to do so.

They always had weekly Samgyeopsal Parties after work and if you told them that you need to get home early because of other commitments, they will guilt-trip you and call you Kill-Joy. How can I be a killjoy when I just wanted to go home at the right time?

But they took that as an offense and always made fun of me for not wanting to hang out with them. In my head, I just wanted to say this: You guys are way too extroverted. Also, we’re coworkers, not friends and I don’t want to be friends with all of you. I just want to do my job and go home afterward.

They always had backhanded compliments about me and it made me just go further into a deep depression. I always questioned myself as to why I needed to go through this. It hurt that they giggled whenever I made a mistake or whenever I could not locate an old student’s file as if it were my fault when they failed to tell the employee that I replaced to fix her shit and not leave documents lying around everywhere.

They would also blame me if there are lost files that have not been located since 2007. For fuck’s sake, I was only thirteen years old then, you mean to tell me that the employee handling this forgot to place the document in the proper filing cabinet?

That’s when I up and decided to quit.

I only had like, three weeks left in my contract and contract workers are paid only when they are present so I took the risk.

I resigned and never looked back.

So, here’s my advice, never engage yourself with people who would constantly make you feel awful daily.

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10 PM Thoughts

It’s Okay to Let Go…

Before I go to bed tonight (It’s 10PM here in the Philippines, so it’s almost my bed time.) I just want to write a little before heading off to dreamland because I just had to get this one little thing of my chest.

If you are tired of something, be it a relationship, or being friends with someone toxic, or God forbid, dealing with family members who want nothing more than anything in the world to see you fail, I want you to know that it’s okay to let go of the people who are not good for you.

Yes, it may seem harsh but it’s the only thing that you can do for your own peace of mind.

Your peace of mind is some thing that you should always cherish and not take for granted because bad people will always try to take them away from you.

So don’t let them live rent-free in your mind.

That’s all, I guess…

Good Night (Or Good Morning in whichever time zone you belong!

Love to you all….

#Night #Thoughts #Sleep #Note

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I Was Body Shamed

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Trigger Warning: Depression, Anxiety, Eating Disorders, and Body Shaming 

I’ve been battling depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember and I was really afraid to admit it. I have not even told anyone from my family about it because most of them are pretty closed-minded when it comes to mental health…most likely because of the culture here in the Philippines and the way they were brought up.

The most triggering for me is when an aunt or a cousin will say: “Uy, tumaba ka yata” (Hey, you’ve gotten fat.) every time there is a family gathering. This comment always makes me want to just crawl under a rock and be in a fetal position for all eternity.

 I once tried calling an aunt out when she told everyone that I’d gained weight but I ended up getting scolded and called disrespectful. From that moment on, I vowed to never come to a family event ever again because it made me feel so bad even if it was not my fault. 

The constant body shaming made me feel so awful and put me into depression and anxiety. It made me question everything that I do to lose weight. Running, crash dieting, and just eating vegetables. I would never recommend crash dieting to anyone because it is not a healthy thing to do. 

Even as I did all that I can to lose weight, nothing seemed to work and I was losing all hope. That’s when I started binge eating…especially when I get stressed from work. This binge eating became more evident when the global pandemic hit. 

I gained weight and just got so depressed and always got anxiety attacks. The aunt that I was talking about would continue to point out my weight gain and would always say: “Order kasi ng Order sa Grab kaya tumataba”. (You always order food that’s why you’ve gotten fat.)

I remember just crying myself to sleep that night, wishing that tomorrow, I will be a different person in a different body but as morning came, I looked at my puffy eyes and saw someone I barely even recognized. It was just a shell of a person who is tired of getting called fat and being shamed for gaining weight. 

That’s when I knew I had to do something. And I will share these things with you.

YOGA

I have been doing Yoga since 2016 (I stopped in 2020 for reasons I’ll keep to myself.) When I started doing it again last year, I felt like a beginner again. I could not even do a proper downward-facing dog but I pushed through it and day by day, I started regaining the control that I had once lost. It made me feel comfortable and just overall changed the way I viewed life once more. 

It just improved my body, my mind, and my soul.

It doesn’t matter if you do Yoga for only twenty minutes a day because your body and mind will still thank you for taking the time for yourself.

WALKING

These days, I set myself to walk at least six thousand steps a day just to burn some calories. It also just helps me get through the da. I always do this every 4:40 AM because it just feels nice a cold outside. 

MUSIC

I’ve always used music as a form of escape. It just helps me forget about my troubles and my problems. For an instant serotonin boost, I recommend you to listen to Kylie Minogue, her albums have always picked my mood up whenever I’m down. Her latest release. DISCO just made my life a breeze. She has infectiously poptastic songs that will make you get up and join her on the dancefloor. 

Those are just three of the things that I did to feel better. I’m happy to say that I’ve lost a few pounds today. It’s not something to brag about but it is something to celebrate. 

One last piece of advice: Please, try to ignore the noise that comes from other people. Be true to who you are to be true to what you believe in. Block the negativity and invite happiness into your life. 

Here's a little serotonin booster:

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Little did I know...

....that life will only get harder as you age.

Trust me, when I was twenty-one, fresh out of college, I thought that the roughest part of growing up is over and that I will be more than ready to take on adulthood.

Sadly, I was very wrong.

So wrong that as I reached mid-twenties (hello quarter-life crisis, you suck!) everything that I thought I knew about life was wrong all along and all the things that I have planned out did not happen no matter how much I tried to make it happen.

Every failure felt like a sick blow and I could not and would not get up no matter how much I tried and wanted to. That's the main reason why I did not post anything here since 2017.

Why?

Because life happened (and is still happening as we speak).

I won't get into horrid details about my internal struggles because I do not want to bore anyone to death but what I am going to say is that life will bring you all kinds of things and you have to face it head on and be your own person.

Cliché, I know, but that's all I can say.

If you're nearing your thirties and you're still struggling with your job, your relationships and life in general...you're not alone.

I guess even as we age we are still discovering ourselves and still learning from the mistakes we made in our early twenties

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he’s simply breathing and yet…

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he’s simply breathing and yet…

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Akira Morishita

BGYO, originally known as Star Hunt Academy Boys or SHA Boys, is a five-member Filipino boy group formed in 2018 by ABS-CBN Star Hunt Academy and debuted in 2021 under ABS-Star CBN’s Star Magic.

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