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haven't recieved endless praise and recognition for a year (three days) i will now define my entire life and fate by this.

#npd #narcissistic personality disorder #narcissistic #narc crash #npd vent #but like in a memey way #but also #The Terrors

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i physically cannot listen to billion dollar bitch without thinking of grimshaw

#rdr2 #grimshaw #susan grimshaw #vdl gang #SoundCloud

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npd is terrible because it makes me feel like a kid throwing a temper tantrum whenever literally anything happens. i am Actually just the kid at someone else's birthday party who wanted presents too but with a higher charisma stat

i need to rub my hands together and cartoonishly scheme and plan a way to take my revenge on it right now

#npd #cluster b #narcissistic personality disorder

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certain narcs after calling all empaths bad (defining an entire group by a few experiences with them)

#TRUE I FEEL LIKE I'M CRAZY WHENEVER I READ STUFF LIKE THIS IN THIS SPACE ??? #idk i personally love empaths/hyperempaths When they're Not Toxic & tbh it's the same w low/no empathy havers #it's easy to identify with one end of the isle and hate everyone else. especially when you're marginalised #but pw/no or low empathy can actually suck #a fair portion of my friends identify as empaths or hyperempaths i think we should have more solidarity #i feel like it just makes things harder for pw/npd that are empathetic #especially those with comorbid conditions that are more likely to increase that #npd #reblog #moots <2

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is there anyone on tumblr who genuinely hates abigail or are we talking about reddit or sumn. like we agree abigail is literally perfect right. what's everyone talking abou

#i've certainly seen a few posts now talk about how sick they are of abigail hate or smth along those lines #it reminds me of the “pov ur scrolling looking for the hate everyone's talking about” comments on instagram or whatever #bcs i genuinely don't think i've ever seen anyone hate abigail #although i only rlly scroll tumblr for rdr content and i only got the games in the last year? #and tumblr's tumblr so there's definitely like. A Sampling Bias Here #abigail roberts #abigail marston #rdr #rdr2

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npdblr tag yourself I'm snake

#a lotta these kinda slap #i think i'll go with scoundrel 🤩 #under the unusual category <2 #reblog #moots <2 #npd #narcissistic personality disorder

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ITS TRUE

Fun History Fact: The overwhelming majority of cowboys in the U.S. were Indigenous, Black, and/or Mexican persons. The omnipresent white cowboy is a Hollywood studio concoction meant to uphold the mythology of white masculinity.

#i've had an old west special interest since either the beginning of middle school or end of elementary #& like #THESE OLD CONSERVATIVE MEN DON'T GET IT ‼️‼️‼️ #reblog

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i don't think i've ever seen the specific camp conversation where hosea says he used to be more of a degenerate than everyone else in camp. makes me wonder if dutch saw the same potential to change in micah considering with that logic hosea would've been worse, but instead, dutch was the one who changed this time

I think it is funny that in 1899 we see Dutch as like the action man and Hosea more as the house husband, the guy making sure the camp is running around and teaching people to read, when we got evidence that they were the other way around when they were young.

Okay so a smaller thing that suggests this that I love is the photo we have from them where Hosea is sitting with his cigar, ankle over knee and Dutch is standing in the back with a hand on Hosea's and Arthur's shoulders and practically in every old 1800 family portrait i have seen with that arrangement it is the wife in the back😭

A bigger thing is the convosation we have with Hosea as Arthur in the hunting quest (which in itself is crazy because Hosea wasn't planning on bringing Arthur but just did so anyways because he was around, like man just decided to go hunt a massive bear by himself). We hear Arthur asking if Hosea had ever thought about quitting "the life" and Hosea says that he had already tried to but he had "slipped back into it" and Bessie had known what he was, and who he was (Hosea's own words). In 1899 Hosea is the one running scams and how do you just "slip back into" making scams? Like did you just accidently think up a whole organised plan? It is a lot easier to just pull the trigger on a gun, that is something you slip back into like John proves in 1907.

And as for Dutch being more calm? He was the one who taught Arthur and John to read, Arthur says so himself in chapter one. Imagine teaching two street kids to read, that got to take some calm time and dedication I do not think 1899 Dutch has.

In 1899 we hear Hosea talk to Dutch about wanting the group to be safe because he "does have long left", that and a convosation he has with Abigail where he says his body is failing him to me indicates that he might have started to step back from the aggression when his body started to give in and let Dutch take the aggressive role, but we do still see the aggression in Hosea like him pointing a gun and threatning to shoot Bill in camp when he got too drunk and literally the entire Braithwaithe mission?? Hosea held a damn aggressive role there.

I also think the reason Hosea is the one teaching Jack to read and not Dutch is, yes because Dutch would not have the patience, but also because Hosea has probably accepted that they have switches their roles and it is now his job to make sure that the kids they raise are civilised

Anyways autism is so weird like wdym i am using a historical family protrait from the 1800s high society to explain the changing dynamic of two fictional gang leaders in a video game?

#reblog #rdr2 #micah #dutch van der linde #hosea matthews #i rlly need to make a rdr2 centric blog bcs an al pfp does NOT fit

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little baby me maybe you shouldn't have learnt how to willingly derealise whenever Literally anything bad Ever happens bcs now we're Unwillingly stuck here forever. bro u used the cheat code too many times u fool ‼️‼️

#npd #narcissistic personality disorder #bpd #cluster b #borderline personality disorder #dissociation #depersonalization #derealization #dpdr

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save me octavo .... Octavo save me

#i miss him so much #octavo #cadence of hyrule #loz #coh #why is he gone

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"Don't use Libby because it costs libraries too much, pirate instead" is such a weird, anti-patron, anti-author take that somehow manages to also be anti-library, in my professional librarian-ass opinion.

It's well documented that pirating books negatively affects authors directly* in a way that pirating movies or TV shows doesn't affect actors or writers, so I will likely always be anti-book piracy unless there's absolutely, positively no other option (i.e. the book simply doesn't exist outside of online archives at all, or in a particular language).

Also, yeah, Libby and Hoopla licenses are really expensive, but libraries buy them SO THAT PATRONS CAN USE THEM. If you're gonna be pissed at anybody about this shitty state of affairs, be pissed at publishing companies and continue to use Libby or Hoopla at your library so we can continue to justify having it to our funding bodies.

One of the best ways to support your library having services you like is to USE THOSE SERVICES. Yes, even if they are expensive.

*Yes, this is a blog post, but it's a blog post filled with links to news articles. If you can click one link, you can click another.

#reblog #Important

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WHO APPROVED THIS HELLI

let's all kill ourselves

#racism tw #reblog

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@derpy-thebdayclown

make a girl smile today.

give her a sword.

#reblogs #haiiii:3

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#reblog #i hate omegaverse for obvious reasons #close 2nd is coffeeshop aus though. omegaverse can at least be funny #coffeeshops really boring imo 💀

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#reblog #about every 3 days ? it really depends #i struggle because i have ocd and right now in my brain my bathroom is Contaminated™ so i have to wait until ppl are sleep to use the guest #one. but often i'm just . too sleepy. #i also hate the sensation of water so i try to give myself dry showers often #the tism makes water difficult for me. i have to mentally prepare for like 3 hrs #i usually shower 2-3 times a week which is recommended anyways #if it's summer or humid i'll shower like every day

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Thaat moment when you read your old messages and ask if it were a warning sign

#cluster b #npd #bpd #narcissistic personality disorder #borderline personality disorder

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correct post powerful reblog

Straight trans men are queer enough

Asexual men are queer enough

Aromatic men are queer enough

Aroace men are queer enough

#reblog #aroace #asexual #aromantic #trans #lgbtqia