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fridayasteroid · 10 months

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The MBTI of (N) vs (S) in song writing

Maybe some of us already know what an MBTI is, although its pseudoscience for the psychology world, I use it anyway to help me identify people and how I interact with them.

But there is something bothering me about MBTI, most people don't really pay attention to the Sensing (S) vs Intuition (N) part, let alone know the difference. This has piqued my interest for quite sometime cuz I myself don't really understand too. So I researched a bit about it and to put it simply (other than the image):

Sensing (S) : does things based on what they sense (see, feel, hear, smell, etc.)

Intuition (N) : does things based on what they imagine

After I understood this, I then practiced identifying it to song writers and man does it all make sense now.

What type of songwriter I like

It really amazes me how songs really show the personality of the writer. After learning their lyrics, their song writing process, and figuring out what they are like, it made me learn something about myself too.

Interestingly, most of my favourite singers have the MBTI (S) whereas I am a (N), logically speaking, I should be relating more to songs that are written with the same MBTI but no. This is because I find it really intriguing of how different they express their selves apart from how I express things, like its mind-blowing and never came to my mind.

Sensing (S) songwriters are so straight forward and simple with everything, but its usually things so common and so relatable that it never came to mind, at least for me. I also feel like these songwriters are writing a story, cuz of how each line is described giving a clear image to me, like how a novel is.

But as you can see, the songs that I have reviewed in previous posts are actually the intuitive (N) type, its conceptual, imaginative, and needs interpreting to know what the songwriters want to convey. Surprisingly though, Taylor Swift and NIKI are actually a (S) type, but their songs that I reviewed are the very few that uses intuition (though only in concept, not lyrically.)

From this, I think that I still find it more relatable in a deeper level to songs that use intuition. I also find it fun being able to process songs to understand it because that's what I'm familiar and comfortable with. So its not a surprise that my frequent listening songs are mainly from a (N) type of songwriters.

Favourite lines of (N) vs (S)

I want to share some of the songs that I used to identify whether the songwriter is a sensing (S) or intuitive (N) type, mostly are from my favourite songs (haven't been reviewed here yet.)

Said you'd always be my white blood, circulate the right love — White Blood - Oh Wonder (Josephine - ENFP)

This actually is quite clear that its an intuitive lyric. If I were to interpret it, somebody being a white blood means that they could heal the other person and give them a healthy relationship.

Though we have not hit the ground, Doesn't mean we're not still falling — Nothing Lasts Forever - Maroon 5 (Adam Levine - ENFP)

Another intuitive lyric that I like, it describes a specific situation of a fall-out relationship where they are still trying but no matter what it doesn't work and is on verge of a break up.

The sky and sea help each other Creating the cloud so rain can fall When the world helps each other See which love wouldn't fall — Sorai - Nadin Amizah (INFP)

In the beginning of the song, she opens with a metaphor of how certain phenomenon can help make another phenomenon, then she conveys what she wants to say, that a relationship isn't just the work of two people, but fate plays a big role of it.

I ran to run away from you I hid in a place where was no light — Shadow - Seventeen (Woozi- INTJ)

This song is kinda hard to understand just by these lines, but to make it simple, its about wanting to run away from ourselves, specifically our bad sides, but running away from it means to make us fall into more misery and doesn't help us to grow.

But lately her face seems slowly sinking, wasting crumbling like pastries — A Team - Ed Sheeran (ISTJ)

There are no hidden meanings to these lyrics, it really is a clear image of what he wants to convey to us. That this girl has something on her mind and it shows on her expression which is described by Ed.

The burgundy on my T-shirt when you splashed your wine into me And how the blood rushed into my cheeks, so scarlet, it was (maroon) — Maroon - Taylor Swift (ESFJ)

This is quite clear, she uses the sense of sight, specifically the colour maroon, to describe a scene where she was flustered with her love.

When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? — When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne (ISFP)

She describes a scene where she counts the other person steps, saying that its plain proof that she cares about the other person and doesn't want them to go.

I know you're not far, but I still can't handle all the distance You're traveling with my heart I hope this is a temporary feeling — My Everything - Ariana Grande (ESFJ)

She makes it really clear on the situation where she can't be far from the other person. Although she uses the metaphor "Traveling with my heart" she made it clear that its to describe a feeling in the next line.

Recap

So there you have some clear examples of different songwriters having different MBTIs.

Being a (N) or (S) really differs on how we process the world around us and I find it mesmerizing that I could see that play into part through songwriters.

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fridayasteroid · 2 years

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NIKI - AUTUMN

Niki's new album is out! Actually, its been a while since it was out but I only just had the time to write about it now.

She said that this album was her true voice, Nicole Zevanya's voice, and I gotta admit that its true. The album is full of slow indie ballad pop songs back from her YouTube days, that I once really loved to the point when she changed her genre I was so disappointed.

So, when this album came out I was so excited and I literally cried in happiness that I could hear the lost songs again (cuz she deleted her YouTube account). This album, from my point of view, is filled with the story of a toxic relationship. So at some point it really hurts so bad listening to the album.

About Autumn

This is one of the songs that she had on her YouTube days. You could say that all her songs from YouTube has gone through improvements from Niki's point of view, but personally I think that most of them are much better in the original form. Autumn in the other hand, was actually much better in the new version.

Title

This song has no words about Autumn or contains the word Autumn in it. I really love when artists do this, the title itself is a metaphor, but can portray what the song's truly about. Its full of overthinking thoughts, anger, heartache, and sadness that there's no straight forward words that could cover what she's experiencing, it has to be a metaphor.

From what I feel and understand by hearing this song, I think I could understand a bit as to why she specifically picked "Autumn" for the title.

"Autumn" is the season after spring and summer, also before winter. Spring for many people brings joy and happiness, fruits are ripe and flowers bloom. Summer all the same, it brings closeness to people, most people like to hang out and do things outdoors together. Whereas winter, is where people feel cold and sometimes depressed, there's no sunlight that could give warmth to people.

From that, we could say that she's trying to portray that her relationship is none of the above but closer to winter, autumn. The coldness hanged in the air, its still beautiful in a way but everything's starting to die.

The melody

I gotta say the new version could really portray all those feelings melodically. Its kind of up beat with its drums (I don't know what its called), giving that sense of anger but hurt, but her way of singing it in slow rhythm and with a soft voice portrays her love, disappointment and sadness.

In the old version of Autumn, the rhythm was off, and it couldn't fully portray all the feelings.

Not that I'm an expert on music, just from a perspective of a listener.

My Interpretation of The Lyrics

I carved my name into your ribcage We talked of lands away from this cage You said, don’t fret love, someday ill be my own man I'll be free Oohhh Oh but darling did you mean Darling, did you mean free from me?

I don't know about you, but man, these are very well written lyrics.

"I carved my name into your ribcage," metaphorically, ribcage means the heart of romance, a nest that we are familiar with, but its metaphor has another meaning, a cage of love that we need to escape from (that has a continuity in the next line.)

Another meaning could be that she 'enforces' herself to say that the mans ribcage is hers. Since if we look at Adam and Eves story, Eve was made from Adam's ribcage.

The next line is a bit tricky, I'm still a bit confused and might be very wrong in my interpretation. "We talked about lands away from this cage," when experiencing young love, we tend to want to break free from the bonds that kept us from being together, family, money, etc. People with young love really likes to fantasize the future together, their in the heart of romance after all.

The next line tells us what the man said to her. he's giving him assurance of the future that they'll be together when he's a 'free' man, meaning able to make money for himself and be the leader of his own family so he could do whatever he wants.

But after that, we could see that this relationship isn't what it seems, its kind of toxic. Its like they know that there's something wrong with the relationship that he implicitly talks to her in a way so that the she understands the true meaning, and its like their enemies in a sense, he 'hits' her, and she 'caught' him 'hitting.' That's why she has doubts with him.

In this scene, she caught up with his implicit words, that he wants to be free from this relationship and far away from her.

You promised home The kind I've never known Oh oh-oh But here we are Skin and flesh and beating hearts and I'm wondering what the hell I'm doing wrong

These lyrics follows the interpretation before, in a relationship we always seek home in it. But that's where it gets interesting. A relationship is supposed to be a home, but seeing as though they both can't feel that it is, means that their relationship isn't healthy. But they're too 'comfortable' with each other to admit that, so they dreamt of a home with a sense that they'll get it after all the hurdles and bonds they'd have to face, or specifically he feels that way, whereas she feels that this is a home for her.

In the 4th and 5th line, solidify that the relationship is filled with 'battles' to beat hearts and maybe physically too(?)

"I'm wondering what the hell I'm doing wrong" makes it more clear that she is the one that wants to fight for the relationship.

You said Let's make ourselves our very own brigade This love our shield, our blade Oh but darling do you see The cuts from which I bleed? It’s me you’ve slain

He continues with the promises to reassure her doubts of him, that one day they'll make their own family, and protect it with our love. Protecting can mean to shield off enemies but also slay the enemies, having the terms 'shield' and 'blade' tells us how Niki really thought of this.

Enemies here is like what I said previously, the bonds, whether its family, age, money, etc. Its like the whole world is against their relationship when he says it like this.

In the line, "the cuts from which I bleed?" tells us whats going inside her mind, what she wanted to say but can't (since theres no words of 'said' like how Niki put it with him). She feels that the love he gives actually hurts her deeply or in fact tortured her, to the point where she wanted to die, slain means to violently kill.

I didn’t obliterate these walls for you to come and raid my home And here you are right next to me Ironically, I've never felt more alone

Here she's at the point of anger and disappointment and maybe sadness. Everyone has a weak side that they keep inside themselves, and because technically we are our own home, we all try to protect it. A home is a place where you are safe. Here she says that she allowed him to go inside by putting down the protection.

But not only did she feel that he attacked her weakness, she also felt that he couldn't support or complete her weakness, so with that expectation not met, she felt more alone than when she was alone (not with him).

I fell for you Faster than I fell apart And I guess I'm the one to blame For letting myself fall too hard I ripped my heart out and put it in your hands In hope that we’d put up a fight Mmmmm How paradoxical, since now all I can think about is When will we stop trying Ehhhhh

I think its the nature of human beings, saying goodbye is always harder, change is always harder especially when their painful. But here, its like she's saying it in a regretful way. That she really regretted for having to fall in love with him.

Her expectations for him to protect her heart and fight for the relationship isn't given to her. The fact that she wants this relationship to work but seeing how it comes to this, she wants it to end, and that continuing his way of 'fighting' is a torture to her. Maybe gaslighting, empty promises, and such.

Ohhhh oohhhh How do we stay afloat When do I let go-oh-oh?

But here, in a sense, its like she still loves him, even though the relationship is dying or drowning, she still wants to make it work. Or it could be that 'afloat' means alive, figuratively since this relationship is killing them. This is supported by "when do I let go" as to her knowing she has to let go or it could mean that she doesn't want to let go yet so she asks that question to herself.

Either way, its still unclear to what she wants. I think that's the point of a toxic relationship, we experience so many positive and negative emotions and actions that we don't know what we want anymore. Here, I feel that she's kind of sad to the situation that she's in.

All you do is blindside me, its hard to be brave But when the night cut into the day It's your love I crave I must’ve thanked my lucky stars too much They left me sitting in too much dust Mmmmmmm You know all my dreams You were one, so it seemed And I love you but with you It's heartache I breathe You showed me your heart but You never let me have the key Ohhhhh

"All you do is blindside me, its hard to be brave" really explains the situation of gaslighting very well. When faced with gaslighting, the victim is taken aback, either don't know when they'll be 'attacked' or they don't know how to respond to that because of how it makes them feel or how their answer could hurt them. So because of this, a person who is being gaslighted won't have the courage to fight for themselves. Here, I could really feel that she's so hurt and angry.

The next line supports the interpretation that she's being gaslighted. The feeling of still wanting him moreover when its at night when people tend to overthink. Here, conversely, I feel like she's more angry at herself for still loving him.

The next lines are hard to interpret, I dunno. I think she feels that this is a consequence of being too happy, "thanked my lucky stars too much," that in a sense comes a bigger sadness and pain because of it. I dunno, but the image I'm getting is that because she thanked the stars so much, they shook themselves and gave her loads of stardust, it seems beautiful at first but dust is just dust, and she got buried in them.

The next line about dreams. I feel like she's sad, angry and pitying the situation of him not having any empathy of her dreams especially the ones about/with him.

"And I love you, but with you, its heartache I breathe." man this is deep. The way she sang it... You could feel that she's so hurt, man I can't find the right words, its like she's being gentle but it has so much depth of hurt and sadness. It really portrays that staying with him is a torture, but she loves him, and its a pity that it is torture.

"You showed me your heart, but you never let me have the key." At some point, these type of toxic people just wants someone that depends on them so they never really open up and they give false assurance. He never really wanted to be with her but wants her to stay and be dependent, so he never gave her his weakness and does gaslighting.

Oh, my love Is this the end for us? Maybe we’ve had enough

I feel like we could tell from these last lyrics that the relationship isn't over yet. She's in the phase of giving up or the relationship is in the phase of burning down. But from her asking "is this the end for us?" is like saying that she still have a glimpse of hope for the relationship, because maybe is still a maybe.

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fridayasteroid · 3 years

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Reviewing NIKI - Pandemonium

NIKI is an RnB-pop singer and I’ve been a fan of her since her YouTube days. The songs that she makes herself really touches the soul of anyone who hears it. Its not a surprise that most of her songs has successfully made me cry no matter how many times I hear it.

But now I’ll be specifically writing about a song in her latest album. Although its been almost a year since NIKI’s Moonchild album has been released, but we still like to hear her songs from this album, especially Lose. Its probably the biggest hit song that NIKI has so far in her music career.

I’m not actually going to write about Lose. Today I’ll be sharing a song that really holds dear to my heart. Probably my favourite song from this album. Pandemonium.

The song Pandemonium is actually a phase that I’ve experienced before. How your mind and your heart is constantly in battle, then you start looking at the world through that situation, all you could see is darkness, how people are as heartless as you are.

About The Song In General

The first time I heard this song, it really hits me so hard. For me, NIKI has succeeded in portraying the truth that many people don’t want to face or hard to express. The truth in ones self and the world.

As always, I love how NIKI plays with words and using metaphors while portraying something. You could easily tell why NIKI chose to use metaphors in some parts but other parts are crystal clear. The parts that are crystal clear are words or truths that many people don’t want to face, while the metaphors portrays something much more deeper that can’t be put into words.

The melody itself, to me, is like someone swimming in sadness after they had realised a sad truth of the world and in theirselves. Embracing it and taking that truth to heart, making them seem a bit hopeless. When you hear the melody, it feels like the person is smiling or laughing while crying in the rain. Its a soft melody, not sad, but its a strong hurting melody. Its really hard to put it into words.

The deep chimes feel like you're in the ocean, the low beat gives the impression of sadness that has energy to express it.

But there is also something in the lyrics. I feel as though NIKI portrays someone satirising on how things are with people and themselves, its as if they're angry but doesn’t have the strength to be mad. So all they could do is laugh at themselves while embracing the truth. Embracing it is the only way to cope with it. Its like NIKI is portraying the chaos in one’s head after everything that has happened and finally submitting how it is.

The reason why I love this song is how this song really portrays the hurt in chaos of all the things that I mentioned above. Its something that everyone goes through. She is so brave to make this emotional song that most people choose to bury away down deep in themselves.

Its pretty ironic actually, its about someone who embraces the hopelessness to gives up to themselves. As if, after they know the truth, they choose to not fully confront it and change themselves. They chose to make it a part of themselves while actually hating it. OMG, I don’t know if you understand or not.

My Interpretation of The Lyrics

Smoke puffs are white and piling This head feels like an island I am my own asylum Their stares are beady but I don't mind Let 'em take their time 'Cause there ain't no new light to shed, no, no

This first line of the lyrics portrays someones mental struggle, what their thoughts are and how they cope with it.

The first line of the lyrics, ‘Smoke puffs are white and piling,’ portrays the struggle of someone that overthinks, their thoughts pile up making you unable to think clearly. Its a really devastating situation, overwhelmed by these puffs but you can’t find a way out because you can’t see anything. She perfectly portrays how someone is drowning in their thoughts, drowning in these puffs.

The next two lines are something that affirms the previous line. The thoughts that are pilling up makes someone feel trap. As someone stranded in an island. Its no surprise that many jails or asylum (in history) have their own island, because the goal is to make people in jails or asylum detached from the world. I think NIKI is portraying how these people feels detached from the world because of their thoughts itself.

And she further confirms this in the lyrics ‘Their stares are beady but I don't mind.’ The feeling of detachment from the world actually makes you change in a way that other people find uncomfortable or intolerable just because ones mental state or thoughts can’t be like them. The ‘I don’t mind’ makes it more clear on how detached this person is, because you can’t hope anymore, you can’t see that hope, there's no light to shed.

Pandemonium calms me down like an ocean, oh An ocean, oh And I'm kissing pillow lips, drunk off saccharine potions, oh And nothing really matters'

If you search, pandemonium means uproar, chaos, or a place of those things. I think NIKI is really trying to portray how someone embraces the chaos inside and how accepting it is actually calming but sad at the same time, because that's not what you want. How oceans can really make you calm, but at the same time there is so much depth in the oceans that’ll make you drown, and you know you don’t want that.

Its like someone that runs from the world and drowns in the truth of themselves. How they search for something that is meaningless to the heart ‘kissing pillow lips,’ while they know that they want it. How they enjoying sweetness in the moment, becoming addicted to it because that's the only emotion they could feel. In the end, they chose to not give a damn anymore to the world that they realise is full of darkness.

Cause everybody here is dyin', mm Dyin' out in slow motion, mm And everybody here is lyin', lyin' Silently detonating emotions

This is one of the lyrics that are crystal clear, the fact that everyone is going to die gives a certain calmness to me while hearing this. To me the lyrics point out a certain situation of resentment to people ‘why are they like that?’ its as if the answer is, they are like that because they are dying, or they are dying so they are like that.

I’ve been constantly asking myself and God, ‘why can’t people just learn to understand and love each other? why can’t I be emotionally attach to people’ but the reality of it is so complicated, the world and ourself is at fault, and you start to feel overwhelmed, don’t know where to start to get out of that feeling.

So in the end everyone lies, and the biggest lie of all is to themselves. Rather than struggling to get out of that feeling, they chose to swim in it. I think that's one of the main points of this song that really hurts. People have a tendency to defend themselves, even from the truth that lies within. They don’t realise it, but lying to ones self actually makes you heartless, to yourself and others. You find it even harder to feel emotion let alone express it. Let alone to be connected to people.

I feel that, that situation is actually what makes people die slowly inside. Their mental state is dying.

Read the spaces between the lines Mind your own business while I grow mine No, it's never personal, yeah Maybe that's the problem (that's the problem) We loosen up every rung on the ladder Serve up a smile on a silver platter No one needs a pillar, just a painkiller or two'

This verse really hurts. The way that she sings this made me to tears. I think she has done a great job of portraying the loneliness that everyone has in these lyrics. From the start, she’s portraying someone that doesn’t care of what people think or how everything is, but at the same time they know that that is the problem. How they are lonely and emotionally unattached to people is maybe because we try to mind our own businesses.

Its a truth that people choose to hide, lying to themselves. To loosen up to every stage that they go through in life, marriage, career, etc, while actually in fear that they might fail or not make it though that phase, because they know they’re alone, they have to make it so that they could go on or at least people could see that they’re good enough. To have to smile to everyone while actually hurting so bad inside. And taking painkillers to cope with it because no one could be a ‘pillar’ anymore because its every man to themselves and everyones alone.

Its all a cause and effect from everyone who once deny their feelings, not caring about anything, that leads to everyone living alone, and finally they all have to fake it till they die. Its a very sad truth of people and one’s self.

Cause everybody here is dyin', mm Dyin' out in slow motion, mm And everybody here is lyin', lyin' Silently detonating emotions Mm, mm We're dyin' in the dark It's written there in the stars You're understood by so little And loved only from afar And counting blessings is hard I don't quite know where to start The gold is new, but the gray Well, that's just state of the art And bottoms up to skeletons all bottled up Always going when the going gets too tough, oh

The bridge is so nicely written. Its like its expressing the pain and anger in a delicate way. I like how after the lyrics ‘silently detonating emotions’ comes ‘we’re dying in the dark’ because when we realise and choose to not feel anything, we are slowly dying that that sad truth.

The bridge really tells us how someone is struggling in what they feel and think. What they want to what is in front of them. To be understood and loved, but them theirselves and everyone else makes it impossible to build an utopia like that. Its truly a pandemonium.

‘Counting blessings is hard’ is what people feel when they are blinded by these thoughts. They try but it seems hopeless, because they really don’t know where to start. I don’t know if you guys have ever experience this feeling, but it makes you really frustrated to yourself.

They know that the feeling and situation of this chaos is wrong, but they choose to embrace it, embrace the hopelessness, and running away from reality. The lyrics ‘And bottoms up to skeletons all bottled up, Always going when the going gets too tough’ really portrays that.

Yeah, everybody here is dyin' Dyin' out in slow motion And everybody here is lyin', lyin' Silently detonating emotions Yeah, everybody here is dyin' Dyin' out in slow motion And everybody here is lyin', lyin' Silently detonating emotions 'Cause everybody here is dyin'

I am wondering why this part of the chores is on repeat and not pandemonium itself. In fact, pandemonium is only mentioned once. I’ve given it a thought and its probably because the biggest pandemonium thought of all is how people and ourselves are slowly dying because we chose to run away from our feelings and to not care about other peoples feelings.

I don’t really know if NIKI’s intentions in writing this lyrics are the same on what I feel, but it really brought me to tears every time I’m in a low point, because she points out the reality of me and other people. Its a really devastating song, there's no hope in it. Its just plain sad truth that people try to hide.

I hope if you listen to this, you could feel the pain in it.

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fridayasteroid · 3 years

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Digging Deep into My Playlists

I hope you enjoyed how I interpreted Taylor Swift’s song as much as I relate to it so much!

This time, I would like to do a little introduction of the playlists I made in my Spotify. Do visit my profile to check those playlist!

1. Songs to Cry To

This is my first playlist that I made and I made it with no intention. It all started when I liked listening to random sad songs and watching sad movies. Surprisingly, I cried to some of them, even the OST songs.

So, these are the songs that I truly cry to if I listen to the lyrics and melody. You can really feel what the singer wants to tell you.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2FXDcR6PfLFwWA4OLMBR7a?si=xOP0_iVCR4q2qEucEBT_GA

2. Rnbies ft. Indie

This playlist is actually a random collection of RnB and Indie songs that I loved to listen to back on 2018. It has some of my favorite artists like Niki, Doja Cat, Alextbh, RINI, Billie Eilish, SZA, and more! So, if you’re looking for a playlist filled with RnB and Indie songs, this in definitely a try for you!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7bIZgz3KLTATnBQ80JClv4?si=kLRwtaqBR5yjPJwDUoVY_A

3. Ur typical heartbreak playlist

As you know, this is my heart break playlist. It took me a while to make this, I couldn’t listen to any music for 1-3 months after the heartbreak because it made me so restless.

Its the heart break playlist that consists of my unsaid emotions, the anger, hurt, sadness, all mixed in. Its pretty much what I would say if I could say anything about my relationship and how I feel.

You could also see how there are songs that are pretty much mixed up with yes and no kind of vibe, those ups and downs. It shows times that I blame myself or times that I blame him. So, enjoy guys.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4oDt80KP5O1FpTD81sCTKu?si=JrRXX-WdS-WBvnaP_ewApw

4. Half Hearted

I wanted to make a playlist that captures the emotions and frustrations a person is going through when loving someone that doesn’t love you back. Either they don’t love you from the start or even they have fallen out of love.

Through these songs you could feel the hopelessness of love returning back to you, the ache in loving and caring for someone but they don’t, and the hate towards their own feelings. So, I hope this could be a playlist that could represent you hearts.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7wxvkD0hP4Opp9bVBZnGjz?si=H3xT4iU7S_KgaDR0xZbS_w

5. Hopeful Healing

Break ups are awful, they make you feel worthless, unlovable, and broken into pieces. You feel like you lost yourself and the world is dark. There is no need to worry, that means you cherished and internalized that relationship so bad. You are pure.

There is something you need to know, heart breaks aren’t always bad, there is always something much more better after it. There is always a sunrise after a dark night. This represent it all. That you are strong and there is always hope for yourself. The future will always be much more better.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3Tp9unT1Z4tFvizF2G6ri1?si=VqrGQqbJQEmoZE19_AHlmw

6. Love me!

The feeling of loving someone excites the heart. The hopefulness and happiness that you feel when falling in love is priceless. Its like a sugar rush that you’ll have over and over again.

This playlist covers all those feelings while falling in love. I hope this is enough to express how much love you give to someone!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5wqiN6x8BclfGYGR1eyLQw?si=Tw4e06xrT42a4kIT2fwhdg

7. I hate this world

This playlist is inspired by my very own feeling towards the world. How dark and dirty it is. How you could see unfairness in every corner. There is no peace at all. Its disruptive and no one is pure and sincere anymore. Its a scary place to live in, you’re never safe.

But, at the same time I feel the world is beautiful in some way. How there is happiness in parts you can’t imagine, how people still connect to each other, and how there are forces of fairness in the world too.

You could here this process by listening to the first track then carry on till the last in order. You’ll see what I mean.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37nXlH3JZrJAwj78QZ7443?si=lzbGO9sIRz6Z0Sb_ZJwxEw

8. Fav 70s-90s flashback songs

This playlist is one of the playlist that I’ve been wanting to make but I just couldn’t find the time and songs. These are the songs that I listen to when I was still in primary school.

Of course, its all because of my dad. Back then when it was just mp3 players that are available, I would borrow it from my dad cause I would be left alone inside the car for hours, waiting for him to finish work. To kill time, I would listen to his songs, and they’re filled with the 70s-90s songs.

There are songs that I like and don’t like, but this playlist consists of the ones I like. Since there are many 80s songs, most of them are dance pop, so they are great to listen to when you want to dance! So, here’s to the past!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3LkBpbbqQXabJp3gRRFkID?si=lM5A4cAPTcu-X24uo5vqlQ

9. Getting high with EDMs

This playlist consists of EDM songs that I love listening to back in 2015-2017. I would love to ‘get high’ listening to this and forgetting about all the bad things. Just having fun.

You know if you love exploring EDM, you’ll know that although they almost have the same structure and beat, each artist have their unique sounds. So, these are my EDM song taste.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/20FpOEbJlqhMngOktACqpz?si=gDufSOp9TBmCvM91y0sZzQ

So far these are my playlist that I made. I hope it’ll be useful for you guys!

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fridayasteroid · 3 years

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Taylor Swift - Happiness

This song, is painful.

Let me tell you how relatable and painful it is. Here is a walk through of Happiness - Taylor Swift’s lyrics from my story.

You guys will read this and think how sorry you are for me, and how I am a pathetic, hopeless, and pitiful person. Probably even a hopeless romantic.

Well, I am. I’m not proud of it but I’m not sorry of it, too. My condition is as what it is and I accept it. I accept it because it gives me peace knowing the faults and rights that I did.

So, I don’t care how you’ll see me. This is how I feel and attain peace, no more holding back how I feel.

The title is Happiness, but it isn’t a really happy song. Its also a pretty long song, 5 minutes at its least.

The Melody

The tone and melody is what unites all the lyrics. Its a hopeful and peaceful melody, but there is sorrow in it. The feeling when you go somewhere beautiful after a tragic lost. That’s what this melody is going for.

Its a mixed tone of ballad, folk, and pop. Its soothing and tragic at the same time. You won’t hear any drums too, there is no beat, its just a soothing melody of flutes, keyboards and pianos, picturing despair and hope.

The lyrics of Happiness interpretation from my story

Honey, when I'm above the trees I see this for what it is

Some time after the heart break, after most of my emotions and despairs are cleared, I come to see what my relationship was like with a clear judgment. Taking a look at all the facts that happened made me realize how the relationship was what it was supposed to be.

But now I'm right down in it, all the years I've given Is just shit we're dividin' up

Healing has its ups and downs. Although I could finally see the relationship as what it was, there is no doubt that I still feel the despair and feel down.

When I’m down, I think of all the things that got me in regret again. One of those things is time, that gradually builds up into a separation. Like its all for nothing.

Showed you all of my hiding spots I was dancing when the music stopped

I won’t deny and lie. My past relationship is mostly what I wanted. He was what I wanted in a man. Someone who could accept all my flaws and be my home. A home where I could tell my secrets and hiding spots. Where he could see all of me. Everything. Nothing to hide.

I loved that kind of relationship. Till the very end, it was just me who was stuck in the relationship, who wanted to try and change myself for the sake of keeping that home of mine. I was the only one dancing when there is nothing to dance to.

And in the disbelief, I can't face reinvention I haven't met the new me yet

The ending? Of course, I couldn’t handle it, believe it or even accept the situation. I was totally in disbelief. I can’t bare to see a life without him and how everything will change.

But, the funny thing was, at the same time I wanted to change so bad because of the relationship, not from the fact that I wanted to run away from the me that is in despair, but because I wanted to become a better person for me. I blamed myself so hard, I knew how wrong and bad I was. Thats why I wanted to change.

Its amazing how detailed Taylor pictures the kinds of emotions that are felt in that situation, and its not even about her story.

So, the line ‘I haven’t met the new me yet’ is an image of me being in despair but is hopeful to what is there to come in myself.

There'll be happiness after you But there was happiness because of you Both of these things can be true There is happiness

Past the blood and bruise Past the curses and cries Beyond the terror in the nightfall

You know after a heart break, we tend to deny that we were happy with them and that we will be happy after it too. That is because we only feel the pain, and we feel like its unfair, so we deny that fact. Well, whats fact is fact, that’s the fact of it. lol.

I was happy and truly happy because of him, but I believe God will give me something better, something that makes me happier and that is worth of me, that is why I try so hard to change to become a better person.

Yes, there is pain. A lot of pain and hurt in the relationship, till the very process of separation is a hell of its own. But, yes, behind all that, there is happiness.

Its a fact that so many of us deny because we feel attacked by it, but saying it as it is makes it a lot easier to accept things as it is. Accepting that, yes, I got hurt, I’m in despair, and everything is ruined, but I also accept that there is happiness in the past and present, no point in denying that.

The way that Taylor Swift has put it so bluntly for us is a work of art. No one in this type of situation is brave enough to do it.

Haunted by the look in my eyes That would've loved you for a lifetime Leave it all behind And there is happiness

During and after the heartbreak, I would look at myself in the mirror and into my own eyes pitifully. I felt really sorry of myself, I felt like I have no value, as if I was slumped if I were to go all the way. It was a nightmare by looking at myself and remembering what kind of position I am in and knowing my place. It was so hard.

But, at the same time I always wondered what kind of situation it’ll be if my eyes weren’t fucked up, it would’ve been in a place where I could’ve been faithful and always tried to fix myself for everything. I could’ve always loved him and tried to be better with him.

But, it is what it is. The past. I got to leave it all behind, and there is happiness in the past and by leaving it be. Taylor has pictured it perfectly.

Tell me, when did your winning smile Begin to look like a smirk? When did all our lessons start to look like weapons Pointed at my deepest hurt?

I think its pretty clear on how Taylor Swift has pictured the situation. I always loved how he smiles, the lines in his eyes and his wide mouth with great teeth just shows how happy he was. It makes me want to kiss him every time I see it.

But, now, after the heart break, seeing him smile feels like an insult from him. It feels like he’s looking down at me, mocking me, like he smiles without feeling bad. It hurts so much looking at it. The smile that isn’t mine anymore.

To be honest, there are so many lessons that I learnt from that relationship. We were so different in a way and that was the center of all the lessons. Even the heartbreak and separation was the biggest lesson of them all.

But, Taylor has said it. I felt like I was being attacked by those lessons, constantly being reminded of how bad I was and how I could’ve done things differently. I am constantly being reminded of how I’ve hurt him and how the relationship turns out to be. It hurt me so bad and has put me in despair for months, and maybe up till now.

I hope she'll be your beautiful fool Who takes my spot next to you No, I didn't mean that Sorry, I can't see facts through all of my fury You haven't met the new me yet

This is spot on. Taylor Swift sings this song like she’s telling a story. How hard it was, the anger, till the healing.

For me, this part of the lyrics is the phase when I finally realize, not accept, that there are lots of faults he has done too. It made me feel so angry, betrayed, lied to, and stupid. It was a masquerade relationship after all.

The next part pictures me wishing him the best while still having grudges because of his faults. How I satirize of hoping he’ll get a girl that is ‘better’ but is a fool for loving him because of his flaws that also ruined the relationship itself.

Let me also appreciate how she sings this. She sang it perfectly with a shaky voice, as if she was holding back to cry because of the hurt and anger that she felt. You really could feel it and that is what you would feel if you were in that situation.

But, the lyrics also pictures me in my healing. How I want to heal without grudges, feeling bad for thinking and wishing bad for him. I would always say sorry to God for thinking and wishing those things, and tries to wish rightly.

So, Taylor puts it on a ‘you haven’t met the new me yet,’ like she’s saying ‘fine go ahead meet someone better, you don’t know how I changed and how much better I could’ve treated you’ and that’s the truth.

I want to change and he can’t judge me for the patterns I have by not giving me a chance, because there are always a good and bad side to everything, even patterns.

There'll be happiness after me But there was happiness because of me Both of these things, I believe There is happiness

He said it himself too, although I don’t know if he was being sincere or not. Maybe he said it because he still feels like he should be respecting the past, while the fact is that he has forgotten everything and he feels nothing.

What ever it was, he was happy when we were together, and probably happier now without me, chasing the girl of his dreams.

And the fact is there is happiness in both of it.

In our history, across our great divide There is a glorious sunrise Dappled with the flickers of light From the dress I wore at midnight, leave it all behind And there is happiness

There is happiness in the relationship and there is happiness in the separation. What comes after the rain is the glorious sunrise. She has put it all together beautifully.

Its a hopeful line that shows that after the despair, you’ll be okay and find contentment too. That separation is actually a start of a new hope and life.

‘Dappled with the flickers of light’ shows that there will be ups and downs in the process, though, but if we choose to have patience and keep moving forward, we will see the sunrise, eventually.

‘From the dress I wore at midnight’ for me, shows what kind of person I was in that relationship, and how I should leave who I was in that relationship. Leaving it all behind is happiness.

I can't make it go away by making you a villain I guess it's the price I paid for seven years in Heaven And I pulled your body into mine Every goddamn night, now I get fake niceties

All my life, till this year. I have made everyone who hurt me a villain to hate, to disgust, and to not ever see again. But, finally I can accept that it won’t do any good doing that, and it won’t make it better too.

The next line shows just exactly how I feel. The pain and hurt that I feel so intensely are probably what I have to pay for the ‘heavenly and perfect’ relationship I had. I’m just fucking glad it was just 1,5 years plus a month or two of knowing him.

Yes, I do sometimes wonder and imagine him at night, in a sad way, dude, jeez. All those scenarios in my head, the fake emotions I get, just makes me cry all over again knowing that it was just all in my head.

No one teaches you what to do When a good man hurts you And you know you hurt him, too

This is absolutely beautiful. Taylor has put this lyrics spot on.

The fact is, no one is really bad, its the intentions that makes them bad. So, if they don’t have bad intentions at all, they are not bad.

I don’t know his intentions, but if I see it as it is, without knowing anything else. He was a great man. So great that I’m afraid no one could surpass him in my eyes, but at the same time I know that I don’t want him anymore.

And, no one ever knows how to deal with a good person after a heartbreak, we always treat people who hurt us as a bad person, making us judge and act subjectively without looking at the facts at all.

So, he was a good man, but he also hurt me.

But, I also hurt him. I hurt him real bad that leads to all of this. Its the fact that I can’t change, putting me in despair, hopelessness, and beating myself up for months.

But, how Taylor puts it has some kind of acceptance and peace to it. Yes, there is pain, but its a peaceful kind of pain to see it as it is.

Honey, when I'm above the trees I see it for what it is But now my eyes leak acid rain on the pillow where you used to lay your head After giving you the best I had Tell me what to give after that

Yes, seeing it for what it is.

And, yes, I can’t deny that I miss him, that I sometimes cry because of that and crying of how things are now, but after that, I try so hard to be patient, to understand that this situation isn’t to regret for.

Back then, in the relationship, without knowing how he truly felt and how I could done things differently, I did try to give the best of me, even harder when we were about to fall, it probably was what he felt back in the relationship too, the feeling of hopelessness and not knowing what more to do. Its painful.

All you want from me now is the green light of forgiveness You haven't met the new me yet And I think she'll give you that

At the end, he kept saying sorry. I’m as sorry too. But, now he wants nothing to do with me, just that forgiveness and hope that I don’t have grudges. Probably the same here, its probably for the best, too.

The fact that I have learnt so much from my mistakes and his mistakes, and all that that has been happening this year, I feel a little different. I am definitely not the person I used to be.

Taylor here is trying to say, ‘and its a shame you’ll never get to know how it is with this new me, you’d probably be happier, so I hope you’ll probably get that with another person.’

There'll be happiness after you But there was happiness because of you, too Both of these things can be true There is happiness

In our history, across our great divide There is a glorious sunrise Dappled with the flickers of light From the dress I wore at midnight, leave it all behind Oh, leave it all behind Leave it all behind And there is happiness

Having the chores at the end makes it as if she’s trying to say ‘so there, what has happened, happened, I felt the pain, but I am moving forward, and I believe there will be happiness.’

Even at its ending and healing process. That relationship has taught me a lot, and I mean, really a lot.

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