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novasvent · 6 months

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its the fact that a FLIRT flirted with ME because HE IS A FLIRT and now IM down bad why am I DOWN BAD??

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novasvent · 7 months

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never mind I cut myself

#self h@rm #tw selfhate #tw self destructive behavior #sh mention #tw sucidal ideation #vent #tw #styroblr #mental illness #self mutalition

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novasvent · 8 months

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when your so delulu that you think the person who is nice to you and talks to you sometimes and smiles at yoh is madly in love with you and maybe... Just maybe you like them

BUT NONE OF ITS TRUE WHY AM I LIKE THIS

#tw self destructive behavior #vent #mental illness

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novasvent · 9 months

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i don't feel safe

#self h@rm #tw selfhate #sh mention #tw self destructive behavior #mental illness #self mutalition #tw #styroblr #tw sucidal ideation #vent #npd abuse #tw abuse #emotional abuse #Npd

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novasvent · 9 months

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i feel like I'm drowning. I'm so overwhelmed I need help. I tried to get therapy I talked to my mom about getting counseling but I can't get any help. I have no resources and I'm really scared that I might end up relapsing or worse bc I have no support but I really tried to get help. I'm so burnt out I can't try anymore and I have nothing else to do. I feel like I'm going to get nowhere in life and I don't want to be the victim type but what else can I do. I try to takke ownership of my own but I'm trapped. I'm drowning I can't do anything about it. At the same time I feel selfish, I feel disrespected and so so confused. I feel nauseous I'm not okay I'm really really not okay anymore I need help I don't have anyone to talk to but everything I do and say is criticized I have no voice, no power, no support, no one to talk to, no opportunity I'm so defeated I'm so done, I'm lacking motivation by the second and I think my life is gonna end unhappy or by suicide

#self h@rm #tw selfhate #sh mention #tw self destructive behavior #tw #styroblr #tw sucidal ideation #vent #mental illness #self mutalition

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novasvent · 9 months

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its really hard to not relapse when I'm triggered but no one even talks about when you're not. I want to cut myself when I'm really happy because I can't handle strong emotions, even when I'm just having a regular day I think about cutting because I miss the way the blade feels on my skin. I like the sensation of a slicing pain. It makes me sad when I want to cut, I feel like a helpless child again. :(

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novasvent · 10 months

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novasvent · 10 months

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Guys. I'm gonna try to stop this post might get some hate and scoffs in the sh community but I think I'm ready. I have such a victim mindset but I'm trying to take responsibility for my life. My actions will refine my future, not the factors I can't control I'm living for my future now, and for god. If I mess up so help me but at least I'm going to try. I think soon I'll throw away my box. I've had it for more than a year it has my tools and some old bloody bandaids. Some scars will fade and it will no doubt be difficult but I think I'm ready. I'm done. It's so freeing but oddly scary. I haven't sh'ed in a few weeks but I was more than ready to do it if I need to. I'm not doing it anymore. I wanna be done forever. Forever ever until I die I never wanna feel that feeling again of trying to take care and cover up a fresh cut. I'm ready

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novasvent · 10 months

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tw fresh cut. Can someone please tell me if this is still a baby or if it's a shallow styro? It's been Abt 24 hours ATP and when I first cut it it was very puffy and sorta open looking, I have since sprayed it with an antiseptic

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novasvent · 10 months

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update tw

tw fresh cut. Can someone please tell me if this is still a baby or if it's a shallow styro? It's been Abt 24 hours ATP and when I first cut it it was very puffy and sorta open looking, I have since sprayed it with an antiseptic

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novasvent · 10 months

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Day 2

Dear crush (I don't rly have a crush tbh so addressing this to hallway crush)

Please excuse the awkwardness of this letter, I don't know you very well, you don't know me very well but I wanted to say that I think you're a really talented musician and I'm in awe every time I play with you. You might possibly be one of the smartest people around me and you're kinda fine too. My only interactions with you have been pleasant and you seem like such a kind and respectful person which is really good to see. I love how devoted you are to your faith and Id love to get to know you better. Keep being cool

#30 day letter challenge #Day 2 #30 days

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novasvent · 10 months

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30 Day Letter Challenge

Gonna try this. Day 1

Dear best friend,

I hope you know how lucky I am to have you in my lifeyou are my best friend and one of my favorite people. Youre always there for me and we dont even have to do anything to enjoy time together. I hope you know how much i cherish your friendship and the time we spend together. Thank you for being my formal date and fake girlfriend. I can be myself around you and have a great time, watching movies, playinf mario cart, and talkinf about hot people always leaves me smiling and looking forward to being around you. Whatever happens we get through it together, you really are my ride or die.No matter how much i write here about you, its not enough. I love you so much youll never know, you keep me alive. Thank you

#Best friend #30 day letter challenge #30 days #Day 1

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novasvent · 11 months

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King Park // La Dispute

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novasvent · 11 months

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self harm is like a drug. You do it and then you're ready to party, to have fun, to be "normal" for a little while. You can be abused and not care at that moment in time. Nothing else can hurt me, because I Already hurt myself

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novasvent · 11 months

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novasvent · 11 months

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tw fresh cut. Can someone please tell me if this is still a baby or if it's a shallow styro? It's been Abt 24 hours ATP and when I first cut it it was very puffy and sorta open looking, I have since sprayed it with an antiseptic

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novasvent · 11 months

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I just wanna be OK *screaming and crying* WHY CAN'T I BE OKAY

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