#recovery is hard

[borderlinebelle]

i did my nails… and only cried a little today.

About to record my video for you all to consume on schedule 💖😮‍💨😬🥴🥱🤭🤗

support ur local local longtime lameass loony 👍🏽😮‍💨

episode1 comes out tomorrow or i shave my eye brows

jk why would you want that bestie, are you good? 👁️👁️

#mental health matters #recovery is hard #you don’t have to do anything alone anymore 👍🏽 #I’ll do it with you #brain blast #🧠 #do the hard things #everything is easier with a friend #personality disorder #let’s talk about our brains #ending social stigma #because it could literally be you #recovery #personal #BorderlineBelle #borderline personality disorder #softcore #is sometimes #sadcore #is often #girlcore #is always #mental health community

[iamenoughonmyown]

Reasons to recover #8

For my younger self. She deserves to feel happiness, love, comfort and safety. 💘🍂

She deserves it all after struggling all her life and feeling left out, unloved and alone, feeling like she didn't fit in anywhere. She deserves to love herself and feel love. ( crying as I write this, it's a difficult journey but I'm trying for her)

#reasons to recover #reasons to live #mental illness is real #reasons to keep going #reasons to stay #recovery is hard #recovery is not linear #mental health matters

[acefool]

Anyone else ever want to quit their job, throw all their personal possesions in the trash and set it on fire, including and especially their phone, and go lay under the stars on a bed of moss by a stream to let nature or the fae take them? Because me too babes

#autistic burnout #recovery is hard #if you’re reading this please let yourself rest when you’re tired even if you dont think you deserve it

[alostbeautynomore]

Well I did it - I broke up with my boyfriend. I am heartbroken and questioning if I did the right thing. He is hurting so much too. I really feel like I just threw my future away 😭😭😭 please message me anything positive or animal related bc those make me smile. I just need all the support I can get rn so I don’t spiral

#recovery support #ed recovery #pro recovery #ed warrior #cptsd recovery #ptsd recovery #sh recovery #alostbeautynomore #mental health #mental illness #breakup #boyfriend #this is so hard #I love him but I had to break up #relationship advice #relationships confuse me #fuck relationships #mental heath support #recovery is hard

[novasvent]

Guys. I'm gonna try to stop this post might get some hate and scoffs in the sh community but I think I'm ready. I have such a victim mindset but I'm trying to take responsibility for my life. My actions will refine my future, not the factors I can't control I'm living for my future now, and for god. If I mess up so help me but at least I'm going to try. I think soon I'll throw away my box. I've had it for more than a year it has my tools and some old bloody bandaids. Some scars will fade and it will no doubt be difficult but I think I'm ready. I'm done. It's so freeing but oddly scary. I haven't sh'ed in a few weeks but I was more than ready to do it if I need to. I'm not doing it anymore. I wanna be done forever. Forever ever until I die I never wanna feel that feeling again of trying to take care and cover up a fresh cut. I'm ready

#self h@rm #tw selfhate #sh mention #tw self destructive behavior #tw #tw sucidal ideation #styroblr #mental illness #self mutalition #baby cvts #recovery time #recovery motivation #recovery girl #recovery is not linear #recovery is hard #mental health #self compassion #mental wellbeing #self esteem #therapy #pro recovery #recovery #self harm recovery #cutting recovery #recovery diary #Self harm recovery

[feyti-odinsdottir]

The cuts will never be enough

The blood will never be enough

You will always need more

More pain

More cuts

More razorblades

Where will you be in a year?

Still hunting down razorblades,

And wearing long sleeves?

Still drowning yourself in pain and regret?

Running away from the pain in your past?

Running to something that won't ever last?

You'll never be free

You'll live in your chains

So look at your life

It's time for a choice

You don't have to run

You don't have to bleed

You just need to get down on your knees

Let go of your pain

Let it spill out

Ask for the grace those cuts never gave

It's time to be free

It's time to move on

There's no room for blades

In your new life of grace

- just little bits of poetry

i wrote this two years ago

#just little bits of poetry #poets on tumblr #female poets #poetry #self h@rm #healing #recovery #recovery is hard #recovery is possible #recovery is worth it #grace #grace and peace #jesus saves

[i-d-f-k-w-g-o]

Feeling the need to fully recover and to completely self destruct all at once haha

#mental health #mental illness #self destruction #sh #pro recovery #self h@rm #selfh4rm #cvtter #sh addiction #addiction #intrusive thoughts #recovery is hard #recovery #haha yikes

[suckmyskinnyballsmia]

Tw ⚠️ recovery is hard af

Ok so quick update:

Yesterday I ate lunch on a slide and had so much fun

And yeah I wanna cry now, it’s was a touchy night when we got back from our outing and I wanted to relapse hardcore

But then I just like chilled or whatever and went to bed, and woke up ok.

Had a decent day

Now I wanna cry again idk

#ash’s stuff ? #french toast #idk man #eating disoder recovery #recovery is hard

[thisextensiveuniverse]

I know I've posted one of these here before, I made a lot of people worry when I did so, so I think it's probably best if I post another that I give a bit of an explanation. The embarrassment of having to reach out and ask for help in such a manner is on par with the reason itself. The year ended with a bang for me but not in the way a year should. I had to take a leave of absence from work for a time due to my, then, steadily deteriorating mental health. It's a slow fall, a darkness that slowly but surely creeps into your world view until at long last the remaining shimmers of sunlight are nothing more but cold, all consuming darkness so dense you can't see your own hand before your own eyes. My family doesn't know the true extent of how bad things had gotten through that period, heck up until this moment they didn’t even know I took a leave of absence, the fact that I was out of work for a period would’ve heavily outweighed the reasons why. And why would they? When their response last time was “you’re not asking for help, you’re asking for money, you’re panhandling!” and “Do you know how embarrassing this is for me!” and best of all “You won’t work because you’re sad!” (Oh, yes, they'll deny until they're blue in the face, but those are exact quotes.) My response to the person who would make such statements is: “Do you know what it's like to want to die? To uncap that bottle of Valium you just got refilled, down the entire thing, lay back against your pillows, and let Fate take over?”Depression isn’t just sadness, not for some people, for some it means not wanting to be alive anymore. It’s hard to explain that to someone who pretends they understand when they really don’t and don’t want to stop and listen to you try and explain it in the best way you can. That is the sadness that sometimes keeps me from being able to function like an ordinary human being and causes me to miss work every now and then. Thankfully, this time my body was already used to a higher dose that’s taken regularly, all that happened was I was knocked out for a good time before resurfacing. Things aren't better, that's a bit of a ways off, but I am steady now. I applied for short term disability for the time I was out of work on my leave, and though I did meet the requirements, the benefits are paid out to full time employees only. Ultimately, this led to my short term disability claim being denied, because I’m part time. The amount listed is for my rent, what’s due to bring me current once more and back into good standing, back into a stable living situation without fear of losing it. Any help is more than appreciated and I'm always forever thankful. I love you all, more than I can verbalize and express. If you have any concerns, I would appreciate it if you reached out to me personally, as reaching out to certain family members has proved to be more of a hindrance than the other way around.

#Gofundme #donations #please help #might become homeless #suicide survivor #mental health #mental illness awareness #Mental illness recovery #recovery is hard #rent help

[chooserecoveryalways]

Binged on 1900 calories today. Wonderful. Either way it's okay. I won't try to compensate for these calories. I won't purge and I won't exercise. I'm just going to accept that it's normal after a really long period of starvation for extreme hunger to hit in

#edbllr #tw edd #ed but not sheeran #tw ana diary #ed bllog #tw ana related #ana trigger #tw ed diet #disordered eating thoughts #bing3 eating #choose recovery #restrictive ana #tw ed relapse #recovery is not linear #pro recovery #recovery is worth it #recovery is hard

[nyanpoka]

Ive been in hospital for a month why can't they just let me die already im so tired of being tubed

#4norex1a #st4rv1ng #vent #disordered eating thoughts #ed bllog #th1gh gap #mealspo #bpd #recovery is hard #pro for me not for thee #pro for myself

[d00d-n0-way]

I find it rather difficult to play by the rules.

#random thoughts #recovery is hard #this is me trying #shut up hayley #no one cares #you don't even have any followers #you're a nobody #you don't matter

[crustyisgettingbetter]

It's transparency time.

I relapsed for a bit. I'm still in a bad mindset about my body, I won't lie about that. But I'm Choosing to eat a "normal" diet regardless, and since doing so (about 2 days), I've been less miserable all around. I know I need to work on my relationship with my body rather than try to change it.

Recovery is not linear, and it's okay to struggle <3

#ed recovery #ed recovery journey #recovery is hard

[alostbeautynomore]

I had to have dental surgery and cannot talk without it hurting and also it hurts to eat. I am on a strict soft “diet” - per dentist. Which there are plenty of ways for me to get the calories regardless like I am fully aware I have options. But my Ed thoughts are going wild. Idk how to turn off the switch like I can’t eat what I usually do so I keep doing less and less. I wonder if these thoughts will ever go away fully or if I will always go back to my Ed?

#recovery support #ed recovery #pro recovery #ed warrior #recovery #alostbeautynomore #mental health #anorexia recovery #recovery is hard #bulimia recovery #tw eating disorder #eating disorder recovery #ed support

[prognosis-undiagnosable]

TW: Vent, Binge Purge Talk

Recovery be so fucken hard. Binged so hard and purged each time like 4 times. It's been rough these last couple of days, but I am determined to make tomorrow better

#prog undia post #tw rant #ed recovery #tw vent #recovery is hard #pro recovery #it's okay to have a set back

[mysticicefire]

sup bitches time for mystic rants in the tags

#ok so ik i dont talk a lot abt lisa here but fuck it #anyways i really do not understand all the hatred for the definitive edition like #i honestly love the super bosses in both games and as well like #flowering ending <3 #but even tho like the stuff w bernard is a bit over the top it do kinda like #i do like the fact that the whole thing is a bit more focused on lisa like #as a person #not some deified girl just #a person who was extremely desperate for ANY sort of escape #n like #ppl who r abused tend to like fuck up badly as ppl do #n its also not uncommon for ppl to lash out (even tho im veering off topic here) #anyways just #nobody is perfect and its the willingness to change and let go is whats important #n the flowering ending is like a good showcase of buddy just #moving on yk #and as well with the marty mound in painful its also like #extremely fucked up but i do like how fucking grueling it is bc its like #recovery is hard #even if its you crawling and kicking and screaming for a moment to beat up the literal manifestation of ur trauma for even a moment #its like #immensely fucking hard and sometimes may not even feel worth it at times #like even tho the ending in painful doesnt change #i like to think that in those few hours brad felt some sort of peace #because while yeah its hard and it wont go away forever its like #still worth fighting yk? #anyways uhm thanks for listening to my brain soup #lisa the painful #lisa the joyful #lisa spoilers