I sometimes have nocturnal panic attacks and sleep paralysis. Not very often anymore, thank goodness. Still, they happen from time to time. It had been about a year between incidents when I made this. I felt an odd shame I couldn’t quite place.
When I have more extreme symptoms like this I wonder if people can see it in my body and on my face, how tired and terrified I am. I catch myself wishing I could just find someway to physically prove how godawful it can feel to feel…so MUCH so often.
My eyes felt sunken in and heavy and the size of bowling balls- and I wondered if I drew them if they’d look that way too.
I haven’t had a night like this in a while. Just stress dreams and cold sweats.
April Showers was the first linocut I made for my ‘green collection’, printed on handmade recycled paper.
I was coming out of a very tough period of my life, and was still stuck going through one rough transition to another, and it was April, and I needed a reminder that sometimes the hardwood sucks but it’s for something better on the horizon. One day I’ll make a May Flowers block to accompany it, it’s just not time yet.
The scraps I recycled into this paper came from old bills, old cotton paper printing scraps, and tissue paper and construction paper from the daycare my sister works at.
If you would like a print of your own they’re available here:
This is one of my FAVORITE didgktal illustrations I’ve made. I created it for Retro Supply Co.’s Fright Fall 2022.
I love their halftone assets for procreate, it makes my heart very happy. I have stickers of this cutie coming in august, and I’m getting prints for spooky season too.
I’ve been super stressed with this project at work that’s required me to ping pong out of town every other week or so. The contractors we’ve been working with are okay but the communication is awful. The person we’re working for is less than my favorite person. My own bosses haven’t been communicating well.
I can’t establish any routines cause I’m traveling so much. My house plants are dying. My finances are hard to manage and organize around travel expenses- especially now because I have to prep to pay off my loans. I want it to be done. I’m not even excited about this project anymore which kills my motivation. At least the set we’re working on in the shop is cool! The show sounds fantastic! Let me work on that PLEASE.
I’m mostly prepped for the comic expo at least. I’m leading a workshop for the first time! I hope it goes well. Just have to attend a meeting, print off my templates, and prep and pack a few more things.
Mmm Teeth is a narsty little series of digital illustrations I started after an absolutely unhinged conversation about dental Hygiene left me with mental images that haunted me for weeks.
Thus popcorn teeth were born, and it’s siblings soon followed.
I have prints available of these, as well as a sticker collection dropping Aug 1st here: