#< i dont have the energy to go into detail rn

[im-smart-i-swear]

If funky guys had become paladins of voltron which one would be in which Lion?

back in the VERY early days of this whole au(like. buddys-name-was-still-ryou early) i wanted to base every clones personality/character on a diffrent lion.... but over time it slowly stopped fitting their personalities and i kinda abandoned the concept lol. though you can still see some remnants of that in . certain design choices...

going back to this concept after uhhh two years?? i think? was definetely interesting! all the characters changed WILDLY since then and i tried to re-assign the lions to fit the changes........ it was surprisingly hard

i couldnt for the life of me decide in a few cases, so instead im just gonna give the most suitable options lol

tashi & soup - im putting these two together beacuse- and i have NO IDEA how that would work- theyre copiloting the black lion! they function the best as a duo and separating them would NOT be a good idea in a situation as stressful and complicated as piloting voltron. they barely manage to keep everyone alive on a good day... also picking only one of the two as The Leader just feels wrong

buddy, ideally, would like to stay as FAR AWAY from voltron as psyhically possible, thank you very much- but nothing in this cruel world is ideal, so they get the red lion:) i actually have this whole story idea where basically stickbug ""goes rouge""(like. some sort of 'sleeper agent mode' left over by haggar gets activated by accident??) and runs away to do some evil shit so buddy goes after him(on a whim)(alone)(without telling the others) and while searching for him they bump into fUCKING VOLTRON- so they form a very uneasy truce until they find stick. and at some point buddy finds out he can pilot the red lion! its awful he hates it:/ he pilots anyway cause his loved one is in danger(this whole thing is way too complicated to talk about here lol)

i had A LOT of problems figuring out the last three..... they changed so much that i just cant rlly fit them into these categories anymore... but i tried!!

ORIGINALLY stickbug was supposed to be based on the green lion but he doesnt fit it as well anymore....... i think taks does pretty well tho! shes very bold and iquisitive and a pain in everyones ass<3 plus loves learning about diffrent planets' unique ecosystems n stuff. stick IS very curious and likes exploring so he still kinda fits? but hes not as forward as taks, so yeahhhh im very torn on this one

i have NO FUCKING CLUE what to do with blue. all three of em could propably fit there ngl....

yellow could either be taka or stickbug- taka is the youngest and the brightest, hes what brought all of them together in the first place(it takes a village to raise a child)....... buuuut hes not really a 'puts the needs of others above his own' kind of person? hes still a kid and NOT ready for that kind of responsibility. soup is an OBVIOUS choice here of course, but im not sure- honestly, the more i think about it, the more stickbug starts to feel like the best option here? ok hear me out: stickbug, for most of his life, had very little power over his life. even while with the funky guys(ESPECIALLY in the beggining, these bozos were dysfuctional as fuck) there were moments when the others would talk over him bc 'hes a kid', and even without that theres still his people pleasing problem wnich meant he often disregarded his own good to make other ppl content. so, taking this scrawny guy desperate for control over his life and putting him in the toughest, stongest, most resilient lion- basically i think he deserves to go a little apeshit. as a treat. let him wreck shit for once

honestly it kinda funny im stting here and calculating all of this like a mad man where IN THE ACTUAL SHOW the paladins switch the lions like pokemon cards

realistically speaking i think they would all trade and switch em a lot and then squabble over who gets to pilot yellow bc they ALL want to wreck shit sometimes:)

#thank you for asking!! #i know it took me a while to answer lol #but i did it!!! yippie!!!! #ask #my funky guys #i feel like i dont talk enough about how dysfunctional this family is sometimes...... they love each other and theyre working on it!! theyr #all trying!! #but after everything theyve been through OF COURSE theyre not doing well..... #no family is prefect and ESPECIALLY if they went through so much shit as these guys #i know i mostly talk about how wholesome and caring they all are(and they ARE) but that doesnt mean they dont have a lot of problems also #and thats okay. shit happens sometimes y'know? what matters is that they make the effort to change and grow #its messy and complicated and Not Fun sometimes tho- love is never easy....... #im propably going to go into more detail about the whole 'buddy teams up with voltron to get stickbug back' thing someday cause MAN i have #a ton of thoughts on that one #i dont have the energy to explain All That rn.........

[wlwinry]

could i know more of your thistlecaster thoughts/any hc’s??

YES sorry ive become insufferable about them im gonna list off everything off the top of my head

classic example of fell first/fell harder. after the breakup w zelda gorgug sorta gradually spirals into being in love w fabian but he's very much like "im not gonna put my crush on him, i'll tell him at some point but i don't wanna mess things up" and he's very...not casual but not constantly freaking out about it. meanwhile fabian gets hit by the metaphorical "in love with gorgug" bus and proceeds to be so uncool about it to the point where everyone BUT gorgug notices his crush. it's the "leans against a vending machine and breaks it" scene w mazey but 10x worse

they spar A Lot, because they're the two main melee fighters/the ones who don't rely heavily on spellcasting in combat, which means they work together on the field A Lot. as such they're very good at reading each other's body language

PDA couple alert. not to trackerbees levels there is no 69ing on the battlefield but fabian is constantly holding gorgug's hand or leaning against his side and gorgug is constantly hugging fabian from behind or resting his chin on his head. fabian is touch-starved (hallariel isn't exactly the cuddling type and bill's physical affection tends to come in random bone-cracking bursts) and just sort of melts into gorgug

he also melts into gorgug bc gorgug is very earnest and sweet and fabian "expressing genuine vulnerability is dangerous" does not know how to process this other than by becoming a ball of deeply enamored mush

you've never seen someone give as many gifts as fabian does. even if it's just smth like a coffee or tea when they meet up before classes bc fabian knows that he needs the extra energy. there's big gifts too, like the giant workshop and lab he converts one of the multiple training rooms in seacaster manor into for gorgug to artifice (state of the art, ofc), but also things like a special holster for drumsticks, pillows enchanted to maximize restful sleep, etc.

gorgug retaliates by making fabian Many Things. often accessories. several with tin flowers on them (he also makes the engagement and wedding rings, when it eventually comes to that. and it does. to me.)

fabian gets a little emotional whenever he's offered another flower

fabian is also big on terms of endearment and pet names but "darling" is very specifically never one of them. gorgug's favorite of the bunch is "flower"

gorgug loves watching fabian dance. fabian also loves watching gorgug artifice. there tends to be an admiring onlooker in their various workspaces

the hangman fully offered to throw itself into a ditch so gorgug would come fix it again if that would help fabian flirt w gorgug. fabian refused. the hangman kept asking and was only effectively stopped when reminded that gorgug owns the hangvan

speaking of the hangvan. good makeout spot.

idk i just think they're so in love and they match up so well i think about them always. fabian also goes to so many cig figs concerts with big ol glittery signs covered in hearts and gorgug is always flustered when he sees him in the crowd, much to fig's delight. when gorgug mentions wanting to write fabian a song she is immediately on board and insists he has to do it

fig needs to know details immediately and gorgug is. so bashful about giving them. meanwhile fabian WANTS to gush and riz is like ily im so happy for you i dont need to know all the details. this does eventually mean fig bugs fabian for details and fabian eagerly gives them

unlike his mother fabian knows loving someone with a human lifespan when you're going to live well beyond one means you have to treasure every single moment with them. so he does. and gorgug knows he will love him no matter what plane he's on, living or dead

i have more this is just. what i've got off the top of my head rn. thanks for letting me be completely insufferable

#d20 #thistlecaster #gorgug thistlespring #fabian seacaster #fabian aramais seacaster #fantasy high #fhjy

[kafus]

i’m going to be honest i do not know if i have the passion for pokemon X to go into meticulous detail like usual and towards the end of my playthrough i was really starting to feel burned out on it so this post is gonna be kinda short and discussing my admittedly mixed feelings (shoutout to XY stans im so glad you love this game, this post is very subjective)

first, here’s all my hall of fame stuff and whatnot. i spent 51 hrs on the main campaign - the pic of my trainer card was taken directly after beating the game and the pics of my team were taken right before the league.

despite having mixed feelings abt this playthrough i did get really attached to my team, Sai, Knife, and Taser in particular :]

it’s worth noting that afaik i caught every single encounter available in the game before beating it, including tuesday exclusive rotom and thursday exclusive banette. and shortly before beating the game i ascended to Duchess rank in the battle chateau

i also farmed a metric fuckton of berries and did some other tasks so suffice to say i have interacted w this game’s features a lot

all that being said i have two main takeaways from beating X again for the first time in a decade and one is gameplay related and the other is story related

first, gameplay wise, i was surprised by how easy X is - i think “pokemon is too easy now” is a tired criticism that isn’t usually accurate or fair, but it’s really hard not to feel that way about this game in particular, coming from experience with playing both modern and old pokemon games extensively as an adult. this game definitely isn’t balanced around its own exp all and there are SOOOO many trainers to fight which means if you like fighting all the trainers when possible (which i do, and i dont have issues like this in other pokemon games) you overlevel extremely quickly. i’m unsure if XY was balanced without it first or something, but this is definitely an issue i haven’t seen to this extent since. i am aware i could have played with it off but since it’s the first pokemon game to have it and it’s given to you so early i wanted to see what the intended experience was with it on

on top of that, all gym leaders only have 3 pokemon! most boss battles in the game had so few pokemon, it honestly felt strange. i love gym battles and stuff in pokemon games, i love using unorthodox strategies and going in underleveled for fun, and i play every pokemon game on set mode w no items in battle by default casually so there’s almost always some sort of thinking i have to do, but w X i was so overleveled and the gym leaders had so few pokemon that for the most part it was just spamming A for a minute and then it was over. at the very least when i beat the league i had some fun with it and set up with my unevolved skiddo w bulk up to tear through diantha’s team

bc of how braindead battles were for me in this playthrough i mainly got enjoyment from pokedex completion which is something i always find fun and X is no exception - most of those 51 hrs are probably me looking for rare hordes and whatnot, i had a blast with the encounter variety in this game and trying to collect everything possible as i went. i also thought the berry fields and battle chateau were super cool and i interacted w those a lot daily. there’s a lot i could say about the smaller features too, super training, amie, the PSS (best online service for pokemon ever btw), o powers, restaurants in lumiose, etc, but i don’t have the energy to get into it rn. suffice to say when X’s side features they shine, they do really shine, even though i found the main campaign underwhelming

as for story…

when i started this playthrough all i really remembered from playing this game when i was 13 was the post-e4 sequence with AZ (still made me tear up as a 24 year old lol) and the cool xerneas encounter cutscene, and they are definitely the highlights of this game because the story of XY is what i was most disappointed by, i was really hoping i’d find new appreciation for it despite what everyone says about the story being weak and i really did try so it’s a little frustrating the game just didn’t deliver

yeah the pacing is weird and the rivals might as well have the depth of cardboard cutouts (one note and completely unable to be characterized outside of their roles) but that’s not really my main issue w the game. i don’t think i picked up on this stuff as a 13 year old but as an adult playing i was really uncomfortable with pokemon trying to make a story about literal genocide and eugenics but handling it so carelessly. like some of the dialogue actively disturbed me and i don’t think the writing is good enough to convey the nuance of what it’s TRYING to say, especially to kids, which i think is necessary for topics like this

i assume that they were trying to say something about the obliviousness of adults and people in general because of Sycamore being so blindly trusting of Lysandre and also totally incapable of accomplishing anything himself (seriously how did anyone like this guy, it must solely be because he’s french and hot, dude dropped out of learning about mega evolution bc he just Gave Up, and then he shoved that on some kids as if it was new research but it wasn’t, and then when lysandre tries to commit genocide his apology is so halfassed and Nothing, and also dialogue implies he’s not even doing professor shit he’s just goofing off while you save the world and do his research for him, it’s not charming it’s Annoying and irresponsible) but god damn i dont think it came off how they intended. all of the adults in this game are blind to what’s going on (even having their holocasters spied on) and give sympathy to Eugenics Man but even after the world is saved, new NPCs after the fact still express sympathy to Lysandre and the main characters like Sycamore don’t properly make up for their behavior. the game’s writing just sort of excuses everyone being a dipshit about literal eugenics and doesn’t properly apologize to the children who took a stand (the apologies given were basically nothing) in a way that i think is genuinely irresponsible considering the subject matter. it’s one thing for a pokemon game to have lackluster writing and another for it to have shitty writing when something so analogous to real life like this is involved. plus the plot moves on from the events of team flare so quickly it just feels Silly tbh and its not helping the writing’s case

idk i think XY had some interesting lore and history (btw that museum in lumiose city is super cool) and the potential with AZ was crazy and that post-e4 sequence still hits like a train, but the poor handling of the eugenics topic and the shitty pacing really took me out of it. i’m glad that after this pokemon scaled back the sheer gravity of its subject matter just a bit because oof

if i wrote this directly after beating the game my thoughts would probably be more organized so sorry if this isn’t making my points effectively but yeah idk. i’m still on and off working on my friend safari and i plan to do more in X eventually but for now i am good

#kiki was here #kiki.txt #kiki plays games #x playthrough #sorry for all the negativity i promise i still had a fun time lol #i have baseline enjoyment for all pokemon games #and XY definitely has positives

[autisticempathydaemon]

hihi im here for the redacted matches thing, if its still open :)

What song are you fixated on at the moment? What lyric or verse, and why? “Perhaps Vampires Is A Bit Strong But…” by Arctic Monkeys! ive always loved indie rock music, and this song in particular just scratches that musical itch in my brain

What is your Enneagram type? Type 2, The Helper

Do you love gargantuan Youtube video essays, and if so, which is your favorite and why? nooo they’re too long :(

Tell me about your childhood imaginary friend. i was supposed to have a childhood imaginary friend? nah fam i played with calico critters all day, i dont think i ever had a childhood imaginary friend

What is your go-to way to fall asleep? usually just listening to comforting audios, or taking melatonin 

If you had to change your name, what would it be, and why? (In tandem, if you have changed your name, why did you pick that one?) it sounds cool as hell, and if the person i stole it from isn’t using it anymore, imma yoink that shit and claim it as my own

What is your favorite of Redacted’s audios, and why? "Your Boyfriend's a Flirty Vampire Prince and ALSO a Cheeky Dork". heart eyes at Vincent rn

What Redacted boy holds no appeal to you, and why? Like, not the one you hate but the one who you don’t get the hype for. (I won’t judge, I promise.) Yandere!Ivan and Regulus who genuinely makes me uncomfortable, i only ever listened to Yandere!Ivan for lore reasons and i have refused to even go near Regulus bc that mf is CREEPY. i dont get the hype for either of them really

Tell me about that one book/movie/tv show you know all the words to. OOOH okay SO theres this book called Just Ash by Sol Santana, and the main character is intersex!! ive only ever once seen an intersex character in a piece of media, and that was 7 years ago. Just Ash kinda details the struggles that some intersex people can go through, and i learned a lot because of it (i didnt even know that salt wasting was a thing before reading this book). Just Ash also inspired me to start doing research on disabilities that arent as well-known throughout the world, such as scoliosis or ostomy.

Which Redacted boy are you platonically attracted to? Like- forget dating, which dude do you want to be your best friend? Huxley. i need some good hugs in my life man. and Porter for queer reasons (that man is GAY you cannot tell me otherwise — plus you already know that he has some great sarcasm with the whole gag reflex quip)

Do you have a go-to thing you ramble about when you’re tired, and if so, what is it? (For example, my boyfriend knows I’m ready to sleep when I start talking about space.) when im low on energy, i either go nonverbal or start saying random silly things

Tell me your go-to gas station and drink combo. despite being white, i have never had the classic white experience of visiting a gas station and terrorizing the cashier with my friends. i dont have a specific gas station that i like, but i looove the cherry slurpee omg that shit goes hard

Tell me about your favorite playlist at the moment. i have ceremoniously named it ♥️ good shit ♥️ because it has good shit in it (imo). Arctic Monkeys, Laufey, Mitski, Lovejoy, The Orion Experience — basically any indie rock band/soft-voiced sad girl that goes hard

What’s your guilty pleasure media, and why? boyfriend asmr that surpasses asmr because its chocked full of lore and likable characters and world building and

And whatever else you think tells me about who you are! i loveloveLOVE pink omg best color ever fr. also. i eat lore for breakfast, literally my favorite thing ever. i will listen as you info dump about those silly little characters that run around in your head. im also autistic btw if that counts for anything 👍

(ive done this before, but i dont think it sent last time 😭)

Oh, this is easy peasy lemon squeezy. If you’re an autistic person with a love of lore and stories, there’s no better match for you than Guy, our resident storyteller!

One, we love an A4A relationship, and Guy has got to be the dictionary picture of an AuDHD dude, you know? Two, Type Two’s are characterized as being friendly, giving people who want to love and be loved, and Guy would be a good match for you because he is just so loving, so affectionate. I also love him for you because Guy is kind of as far from a yandere as I can imagine, and that feels right.

The more I think about it, the more I realize just how much fun you and Guy would have. He, of the Redacted bois, strikes me as the most likely to listen to Redacted, so couldn’t you just imagine it being a shared special interest between the two of you? You could listen to early access together and scream about it on tumblr, because let’s be real, Guy 100% has a tumblr. He’d also adopt popular lines and the Redacted ringtone as vocal stims, and I can imagine you finding that charming and funny because it would be.

Song:

Every time I think of you/ I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue/ It's no problem of mine, but it's a problem I find/ Livin' a life that I can't leave behind/ There's no sense in telling me/ The wisdom of the fool won't set you free/ But that's the way that it goes and it's what nobody knows/ Well, every day my confusion grows

I’m not gonna lie- I don’t super know what this song means, and neither would Guy. I do know that it’s fun, it’s a love song, it’s indie rock, and it’s a classic. This strikes me as the type of song that Guy knows all the words and can perform without a second thought, thus he loves turning it up and singing it at you whenever it comes on in the car.

Runner-Ups:

David is a runner-up for you because I love A4A pairings, and David is my favorite Redacted boi to headcanon as autistic after Guy. However, I do prefer Camelopardalis as a runner up; he’s not autistic, but I think his nature is more outwardly effusive and affectionate than David’s which would be better for a Type Two.

note: thank you for waiting~ you did send this before, and it came through; it just took me some time to get through the entries before you 💛

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

#redactedasmr #redactedverse #redacted asmr #redactedaudio #redacted audio #redacted #busybee matches

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Wanted to give people a heads up bc I'm very aware I'm having one of my periods of just. Not Talking To People and wanted to reassure everyone that I'm fine, I'm just. Being pulled in alot of directions at once

Trying to plan alot of stuff for around Christmas which is. Massively stressful for alot of reasons. But the main thing rn is work, I can't go into details for privacy reasons but. Tldr, I work with very high support needs autistic children and one in particular is having a difficult time, lots going on to try and address their needs and I'm working extra shifts partly to be involved in that and partly because we really need the money lol, we're out until payday again.

So, yeah, I dont have another day off till next week so if I'm pretty absent. That's why. I physically do not have the mental energy to follow multiple conversations rn. Still love yall very much <3

[cringecrew]

(asking from arienmew) question...!! i saw a post from u mentioning ur like. altar and i was curious about that!! like if u dont mind sharing details.. what is the altar for and how do you use it?? i find the cincept very interesting and wonder if maybe itll be helpful for me too yknow!!! Christianity fucked with my spirituality too and im working on like.. accepting my spirituality as well!!! even if u dont feel like sharing thats ok im just like. pleased to know im not alone LMAO

HI!! I love talking abt my altar type things, lowkey I have no idea what post you’re talking about so I’ll just do a little run down of my different altar/altar type things!

Alterhuman Altar/Shrine :

So this is more of a comfort thing, I don’t do much witchcraft/spirituality with it as of rn but it’s a collection of things that “feel like home”!

This includes:

A spray/mist I made with essential oils

Plushies and prints of my kins/kinsidering

A little box of trinkets (sea glass, kandi, etc)

Other trinkets like dice, a fish sculpture, coins, seashells

Witchcraft Altar :

This is my stuff that’s more spiritual, crystals, tarot, herbs, candles etc. I basically use this for tarot reading (tho i often like to read outside because it feels more connected to the universe or whatever /lh) and making spells (like dressing candles, spell jars and other stuff)

This includes:

Herbs, candles, crystals, multiple tarot decks, etc. generally what you’d think of

Trinkets that hold meaning to me, this also extends to my alterhuman shrine because I borrow from there sometimes

Miscellaneous :

My whole room is pretty like witchcraft-altar vibes tbh. I keep lots of dried herbs around and I cleanse and bless the space with incense and herb bundles often. I have a lot of candles around for different things (calm/peace, uplifting and energy, protection etc) for whenever I feel I need it.

Basically! You definitely aren’t alone! I started looking into witchcraft about 5 years ago as apart of my rebellion from The Church™️ /lh. It’s definitely been a struggle to 1) go from Christian/catholic to what feels like the opposite and then 2) realize I ended up on the extremist opposite of before and navigate the feelings towards being neutral/more in the middle.

If you ever wanna talk about it feel free to dm me!! I’m not super active on here but I can also be reached very quickly through my discord server in my pinned post :]

#spirituality #catholicism #tw religion mention #witchcraft #religion mention #altar #alterhuman #therian #otherkin

[coconutredbulllover]

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hi melty face anon! 😊i saw ur ask earlier today and now im not busy so i can finally actually go thru it and answer it LOL!

your friends sound like nice normal casual fans so cheers to that! the side by side for the lulugirl description vs the fyp of possibly one of the gayest most downbad fanbases is also pretty funny LMAO yall rlly found a way to bond over the most unexpected mutual interest 🤣 do u guys ever send eachother an edit and the other is like ‘actually i already had that one liked 😝’

yeah i agree it rlly is hard out there for new fans rn the ‘you just had to be there’ thing is js completely true. like theres so much to explain that you have to either have been there or u gotta crawl into my brain and see for yourself 🤷‍♀️. the disconnect between new/old fans is tough like its not really their fault for being new wave but why did the new wave have to be crazy invasive 😭? yeah i dont blame other blog people for not having the energy to reexplain old stuff or not wanting to go find links everytime someone asks 😭 its pretty nice some anons go through the trouble of finding them tho. they got a W community fr✊(side note i like how i know exactly what your talking abt having seen other blogs LMAO). about the paige obsessed fans i do agree they have a problem with trying to find out every little bit of info about her like some kind of trend hyper fixation. however sorry but i dont think i see the connection to specifically highschool students 🤷‍♀️. i think plenty of people of all ages have joined the popularity wave and while the actually chronically obsessed ones are most likely younger (like i dont really see a 50 year old discovering tumblr to find out every little detail abt a college bb player 🤣) i dont feel like its all high schoolers esp bc theres plenty of college students on here supporting the true delulu agenda 😭.

no literally abt the pazzi tags thats so true, honestly tho the majority of the videos in the pazzi tag on any site is all still a bunch of random italian stuff LMAO (if anyones curious just look on instagram scroll for like 5 seconds and italian stuff pops up 😭). the publicity for the game was truly amazing but sadly the secret society couldnt stay hidden forever 🥲 my entire life tumblr has been known as like a dead site so i was really shocked that tiktok somehow found it like she really blew up so hard yall rediscovered tumblr for her!?!? like i said tumblrs always been a niche kinda dead website unless you stumbled across it when you were younger and saw something it in. there arent tons of people out there who want to run blogs for things they like anymore. i dont blame new people for not knowing the tumblr lore (you js had to be there in the 2000s) i dont even remember how i discovered tumblr 😭 i havent even always been an active user like now i js knew it existed and my head recognized it as a media site and i never thought more to it. i wonder what the tumblr discovery pipelines are 🤣.

i get what u mean abt blogging you thoughts .the line between speculating because your curious and wanna know but also trying not to feel creepy is so hard because you really cant deny that its creepy to be looking closely at someones life like that😭 but its like yeah i dont judge other ppl bc i like reading abt it and talking abt it😭😭😭. having an interest in smth and wanting to show your interest is literally js so human and to have to holdback your interest because the thing your interested its creepy to be TOO interested is the most frustrating thing 🥲 if i had friends who would hear out my thoughts i would not have a tumblr blog. the purpose of my blog really is simply just me wanting to talk abt smth i like with people. how i see it is keeping thoughts to yourself isnt as fun bc like who will give you a second perspective on your theories!

LMFAO they really are a family they in this together frl. i think the sense of exclusivity comes a little from the fact that they’ve been interacting with eachother for a while and have seemlessly connected with eachothers views over time so its js rlly easy to be talk about basically anything when you know all abt the other people your talking with. anyways i love your asks i js like laying down and reading it all while writing my response its so entertaining i think ive been writing this for like 2 hrs im watching baby driver on the side😭. im on the last sentence of ur ask🎉!! about my grammar and spelling its jsut like i type what im thinking and i dont wanna go back and reread it to see where there needs to be a comma 😫 LMAO. its not even just when im high but when im high i care even less 😅. you wished you were high 😯 pookie do u smoke like that? i wanna know all abt it

#uconn wbb #paige bueckers #anon ask #🫠 anon #eriyap

[spaciebabie]

How do you fine the energy to draw him so much? like the full-body and THEN BUST SHOT?? I love Springtrap so much but artblock is killing me rn

*pats you* i understand your dilemma....lissen i really only get Eureka! moments with art. i only draw something when i have an image that pops up in my head.

but i mean besides that, i have such an insane. amount of love in my heart for him unironically and that paired with autism means that if i dont draw him on a somewhat regular basis i will go insane. ive been experiencing insane levels of hyperfixation for like almost a year now. hyperfixation is a great motivator akjdkajd

a part of this is also that it doesnt actually take me a long time ta sketch something when i have a clear image in my head and am drawing a pose im comfortable with. like ive done so many variations of those poses that its a breeze ta get thru. usually sketching is like that for me! unless im having trouble or am drawing something detailed it takes me like 30-60 minutes ta draw something on average.

#((not including coloring rendering [and pernhaps] lineart)) #((although lineart has been quite a breeze since i stopped. trying 2 perfect strokes and just Relaxed)) #kjfhkjsad its just cuz i draw alot #you naturally get faster #and i also take steps 2 make sketching as fast and painless as possible #spacie splains #all this 2 say.....dont feel bad if you cant pump out art!! i have moments where i cant produce anything for weeks #honestly if you're in burn out be kind ta yourself #the motivation will come back!!! prommy!!

[zeltqz]

I felt this needed to be sent as an ask. I know it's one of the hardest things to do (writing when your motivation is weighing) but you have to try your best NOT to listen to them (those who keep asking for updates with no consideration of what it's like for the author). Pressure ain't doing nothing but motivating negativity. I know the guilt, I've been there. At the end of the day I gave what I could and the fic ended up being discontinued a month ago. I permanently quit writing because I felt it was so overwhelming and stressful despite being something I absolutely love doing, I just couldn't take knowing people waited for my updates, I was disappointing them and that disappointed me. Talk about depression. Writers depression is very real. So eventually I unpublished my wattpad fics, deleted all my Tumblr fics, and stayed a silent reader, I wrote short poems or small works here and there for my private instagram, just whenever I felt like it. I honestly thought it was permanent. Until a friend of mine started writing which sparked my interest in it again. So I restarted my blog a couple days ago. Gave thought to what it was I wanna write and how I want this blog to be different. Atm I'm barely writing, I started 3 fics last week yet they remain in my drafts untouched with no further progress. But I can honestly say the nonchalance and freedom I have is quite nice, I try to write here and again. Or even if a single sentence or dialogue comes to mind I note it down, that gave life to another sentence and another and another until I put it together and it formed about a decent paragraph.. I'M RAMBLING. I lost track of what I was supposed to say. I don't even know the main point of this story. Forgive me. But seriously, the best advice I can give is to unburden yourself before you drown. Literally. Write what you want when you can, your wips, don't delete them!! I promise you some time later you'll definitely be inspired for them again. And when u do you'll be able to literally write more for it!! I have an idea from 2 yrs ago and it's pretty decent, with some editing it could be even better. So please don't delete them 😭😭 and don't let people push you to update. You can if you can and You can't if you can't!!! I'm here if you need any help 🙏🏻 I noticed that talking about your writing with someone who reciprocates your energy can ignite a full on passionate conversation that will lead to creating quality work!! Like new ideas or even roots to go for old works.. It's a good way to keep the motivation flowing when you're running thin 🤍🤍🤍

this is honestly the sweetest piece of advice soeone ever gave me. its so detailed and relatable too because i used to be a wattpad writer back in 2021 and then ppl kept on asking for update update update and it was so stressful so I just logged out of the account and to this day i havent logged back in 😭😭

as someone who used to be a silent reader i understand the frustration of needing an update. dont get me wrong i understand. i used to feel that exact way because fics were my only source of happiness at one point in my life when everything was shitty. but now im actually writing them, i know why some writers dont want to update so fast because its so much pressure when theres 5-6 ppl in ur inbox asking for update update update

ik how hard it is to finish a story but also how desperate it can get for the readers waiting for said update. which is the reason im constantly trying to keep writing but now i feel like i just cant. im such a perfectionist i dont post anything i dont feel is my best but rn i feel like none of my works are and its making me slack a lot and i feel like if i dont stop feeling this way then i might stop writing as a whole because its making me frustrated

writing genuinely makes me happy bc i feel like its an escape from reality (which i desperately need bc i hate my life) but i cant write good enough which is making me annoyed because i need that reality escape sooooo bad

and the reason i asked yesterday which fics of mine were peoples favourites, most of them were the series that i had deleted from my page because i reread them and hated it so bad. now im rewriting it but with this lack of motivation its one of the hardest things ive had to do in a while

and i barely talk to ppl about my fics because idk i barely recieve comments about them except for PT 2 PLS. like as much as i would LOVE to write part 2 3 4 5 6 7 etc its not motivating enough since i dont have anyone motivating me to write.

ugh this is a lot i dont except anyone to read this but THANKS FOR THE ASK <3

#why do i love to add unnecessary problems to my life #then dedicate myself to solve them #then get sad when i fail #but im too deep in to just give up #i dont wanna deactivate either that solves nothing and itd make me sad #UGH

[tunisian]

Most young adult “literature” these days have no substance and aren’t real art, that isn’t the fault of Colleen Hoover lol. It’s just a genre devoid of meaningful or intellectually engaging content, just adults for some reason trying to get into the minds of high schoolers. And frankly, don’t you think it’s weird for an adult to be so invested in the sexual and romantic lives of fictional teenagers that they can write whole novels about it? Even if some YA deals with “mature” issues, it’s still unacceptable because there shouldn’t be any published writing at all explicitly going into detail about teenagers doing sexual things, or partaking in things like underage drug use. It’s exploitative and honestly just creepy and embarassing.

how i see it is that she IS responsible for bringing the quality of ya lit to another low. also i dont agree that ya lit is devoid of meaningful/intellectually engaging content, but that + the second half of your ask requires me to give you a more nuanced opinion that i frankly do not have the energy for rn

#answered* #anyone else feel free to react to this

[cultofsappho]

WIP WEDNESDAY

I don't have a fancy banner for wip wednesday, but I thought the bi flag would do. I don't usually do these, and the rwrb fandom rarely has these posts, but idc bc i'm very excited about the rwrb fic im working on!

I'm going back to work on my art school AU after a long break from it, with renewed energy!

Quick summary:

Alex transfers to a private art school in New York and ends up sharing a studio space with Henry, the golden boy of the school who just got back from an artist's residency in Paris. Henry is everything Alex thought he'd be by now. He already has such a sucessful career, not having even graduated yet, and Alex can't help but feel behind in comparison.

Excerpt below the cut:

[this scene takes place during a crique in thier shared Figure Drawing class.]

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“Yes, thank you for starting us off.”

Alex gives her a winning smile. “There’s a lot of talent here, everyone did really well for the first project. I’m new here, so let me know if I’m out of left field, but it looks like everyone, myself included, might have focused too much on the torso and not enough on the limbs. We’re all a little hesitant, maybe?” 

Sarah nods “I agree, good observation. Don’t worry, we’ll have plenty of time to practice arms and legs in a few weeks. I might be able to squeeze in an extra session on that if we think we need it then.” 

Alex sees movement out of the corner of his eye. 

“Yes, Henry.” Sarah turns to him. 

“Just, on the same note,” His eyes dart to Alex then back. “Weren’t we to focus on the overall proportions this time, and not to get caught up in the fine details?” 

Alex scowls at him, he crosses his arms and looks away, back towards the drawings as if he were unaware of Henry’s tone.  

“Yes, that was the intent. But it’s also good to take stock of overall weaknesses as well, so we know how best to spend our time for the rest of the semester.” 

Alex bites his lip so he doesn’t smile. Get fucked, Mr. Perfect.

He inspects Henry’s drawing, looking for a weakness to exploit. His limbs are all on point. Elbows at the waist, shoulders just under three heads apart, accounting for the model’s lean build. 

It’s too perfect. There’s always a flaw. 

If he squints, he sees a hint of cross hatching on the edges, like Henry got bored too, and couldn’t stop himself from a little shading. 

Alex smirks and gestures to the piece next to Henry’s. “But this one- I’m sorry, I don’t know everyone’s names yet- This one is great. I can still kind of see how many times you erased and started over, whoever made this one is really focused on measuring. They have more patience than me, for sure. But the one next to it,” He gestures to Henry’s. “Is that shading? I can’t really tell.” 

Henry glares at him from across the room. Alex imagines steam coming out of his ears.

“Yes, that’s mine, I had lost track of the internal oblique muscle and used a little cross hatching on the edge to find it again.” 

Henry takes a step closer to Alex’s piece. He eyes it carefully, the corner of his lip twitching up. 

“You put a lot more emphasis on the skeleton than I did. I can almost see it peaking through.” It was a harsh dig; the model wasn’t skinny by any means. Meaning that- “I think it’s affecting the likeness. I don’t quite recognise Martin in it.”

Of course he learned the model’s name. Of fucking course.

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I'm still working away at this, but I honestly can't tell how long this is going to end up being, so I'm hesitant to post ch 1 until I have more done!

Idk who to tag bc i dont which mutuals i have that actively work on fic... so, if you're working on something, please join and tag me in your excerpts!! or reply here so we can start this up in the fandom! the fic rec fridays have been so fun, time for wip wednesdays!!

If you made it this far tysm!!!! I'm! very! excited! (and currently working on some slutty ass pottery scenes rn tbh. just another teaser.)

Keep an eye out for this fic in the near future on my ao3: notcanoncompliant

#wip wednesday #rwrb #firstprince #writing

[fairycosmos]

i think my friends (all two of them) might hate me... and i am cold all the time and tired and i would just love to sleep never get out of bed honestly

it sounds like you're really going through it rn so honestly i wouldn't trust the narrative that your brain is feeding you about your friends. obviously i dont know the details here and i could be way off, but i think when you're in a deeply negative space, it can be difficult to believe anyone truly cares about you - but you have to give the people around you more credit than that. you are their friend, and they wouldn't invest any time or emotional energy into you if they didn't want to be. and yeah, that still applies even if youve felt distant or awkward with them lately, or if you've had some sort of disagreement with them. i know that fact is probably at odds with how low you're feeling right now, but it really is true. i am sorry it's all so hard and i don't want to sound patronising by suggesting that any solution is easy or simple - i know it's not. and i totally feel you on this btw. honestly im not sure how everyone in the world isn't totally exhausted and disillusioned like we are. despite that, i really hope you're able to reach out and seek the support you deserve eventually, whether that's through your friends or your healthcare provider or a mental health hotline etc. it doesn't solve anything by a long shot, and its a difficult and unappealing step to take, but sharing the weight of what's going on in your head can make getting out of a bed a little easier some days. sending you my love. X

#anon

[one-and-lonely16]

Heya!!! How are you on this fine day :DD How have you been? Also i cant do the tag thing rn but thank you for tagging me :D you said you could go into intense detail yes? Please do if u wanna :D

omg hey! im doing pretty decently today :) oh thats fine, do it when u can. and now my explanations:

lance - literally so me. like whenever i write him, i am projecting onto that man so hard u dont understand. hes so easy to write bc i just write how i would react in those situations. and there are so many things he says in the show where its just "same"

reki - the way he gets so excited about things, the whole "tried so hard at something to perfect it, finally got it then someone i know got it so quickly and everyone focuses on them". those heavy reki-angst eps in sk8 hit me hard

luz - the not fitting in, being very out there, again just her mannerisms with things, crushing on amity, her need to help all her friends and fix everything even tho she cant

amy march - this one was very difficult but just the way she had such big dreams only to realise thats not how the world works and it would probably be best if she settled. also the whole "so i'm giving up all my foolish artistic hopes... talent isnt genius. and no amount of energy will make it so. i want to be great or nothing" is very much relatable. used to think i was jo but i think i a bit of both tbh

[internetgremlin-writes]

FLAT SPIN CHAP 5 SPOILERS!!

OH MY GOD IGGY THAT CHAPTER WAS ABSOLYTELY PERFECT!!!!

The way he asked her to come to Barcelona… SO carlos of him I wanted to cry… AND THE WAY HE METICULOUSLY PLANNED EVERYTHING? I am sorry if you dont like / dont care about zodiacs BUT THE VIRGO ENERGY IN HIM JUMPED OUT, and I respect it soooo much. Everything he planned was so /him/, but also so so perfect for MC — the little gestures? Ordering for her? Translating everything for her? POSTING HER ON HIS STORY? God i literally melted

AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON HIM COOKING FOR HER… because god damn you Know how Weak I am and it was so beautiful, also the British breakfast once again just shows how much he cares for her and understands her🥹 i am just about to combust actually

AND THEN RACE WEEKEND? And everything with the green tractor and also MC and Sebs relationship? Once again nailed it sm god i love these teammates… and how she didnt want to fight Seb / come across like that because he just means so much to her????? Girl you got me on the floor rn…

What I cannot stop thinking about is how shes in for the championship, and as of rn so is Carlos… Will they be fighting each other further down the line or… 👀 Make up sex as an apology for aggressive overtaking again? Or podium celebration sex because BOTH of them ended up on the podium (Silverstone? 👀) So many possibilities omfg dont mind me

AND THEN LAST BUT NOT LEAST (thiugh i still have so much to say but my slow ass brain needs a bit of time i guess) the ending was just perfect… like am I the only one thinking Carlos didnt want to sleep with her pre race weekend bc he wanted to fully focus on her but couldnt with all the GO expectations around him? But now that it was done he could let himself fully focus on her and give her all the attention he thinks she deserves? God I love them sm… And the way you let all those emotions show through during the smut was just CHEFS KISS, the way they understand each other is just so 🥹🥹🥹 i have no words lol other than i’m SO obsessed..,

God i hope this all is legible its 4:14am now and i am prone to word vomit already when my brain is working so this may just sound like incoherent crap but i hope you know this chapter was SO GOOD, also the way you captured Barcelona imo was spot on like I wouldnt have noticed that it was all based on research and not personal experiences (though i guess i must confess i havent been to barcelona since i was 4 either… JSJDKFKF BUT YOU MANAGED TO CAPTURE THE SPANISH VIBES PERFECTLY THAT I CAN TELL YOU BC I JUST VACATIONED IN SPAIN LAST MONTH)

okay oh my god i am back from festival and i am finally going to reply to this without crying halfway through...

firstly OH MY GOD. you... you wrote all this... about my work?? I'm touched, I'm shook, I'm honoured, this is honestly the best feeling and probably as close to a "real" author with people analysing my work as I'll ever get and I am ABSOLUTELY here for it (especially as a literature nerd who loves to pick apart all of my books for fun)

haha I don't *dislike* zodiacs, I don't really follow them to that much detail but I vaguely have an idea of them. To be honest, the way I write Carlos is purely based on the guy we see as a Formula One driver and personality (but now you say that I totally see the virgo energy). ALSO I'M SO GLAD YOU NOTICED THOSE I am entirely convinced Carlos is a very detail-oriented person and especially when he is first seeing someone he would be really careful to go out of the way to do really subtle but meaningful things yanno?

As for the championship fight... well I don't want to give anything away but oh I *definitely* have a plan for MC and Carlos and the WDC ;)

Haha don't worry it all made sense! And thank you so much for the comment about Barcelona... it's a little embarrassing how long I spent on google for things to do in and around the city because I've never been to mainland Spain, so even if it's not 100% accurate I'm just happy the vibes were right!!

honestly just thank you so much for this, it means the absolute world <3 <3 <3

#iggytalks #im actually unwell #this was so so kind #and im so touched #carlos sainz #formula one #flat spin

[iamheadcanontrash-deactivated]

Hey!! I saw your matchups and wanted to give it a try. Im 19 and love listening to music, dancing, reading, and hanging out with friends! I also have a passion for fashion and am studying science rn. I have brown eyes and am about 5’5. I would say i love banter and to joke around but i also enjoy quite spaces and being able to settle down, I’m a hopeless romantic if you couldn’t already tell 💀 and love to love on my friends & would love the same energy back. Im very loyal but it takes time for me to warm up to people . For the match ups i would like ACOTAR and possibly male. Besides this i dont have much to say!! Thank you so much <3

Hello @starzalign! I've been into a real ACOTAR kick recently, and I'd love to do a matchup for you!

The first acotar male I could think of for you was ERIS! You said you love music, dancing and fashion, as does he! He has incredible fashion taste (as we all know), and he'd love to take you out to dance sometimes. He protects those he loves, like the LOA and Lucien (that one's debatable but he's trying). I feel like we haven't been able to give Eris a chance, and I'm hoping the 6th book will go into detail as to why he left Mor in the woods, but I really don't think he's a bad guy! He's an onion, and onions have layers.

IF you don't like the thought of being with Eris, that's okay, because I'd also match you up with Tarquin! This man really doesn't get enough love. He's so ready to find someone to give love to, and to be loved back. He'd love dancing with you, and he'd be ready to listen to you about your favorite books or how science is going. He's ready to learn new things, and love you. As for being hopelessly romantic, SO IS HE. This man has a boat! He has a beautiful view of the ocean! Walks on the beach, secluded on a boat, sitting on a patio overlooking the ocean and reading together, you'd live the love life of your dreams with this man!

Thank you for requesting, and I hope to see you in my ask box again soon!

#acotar matchup #acotar #acotar fandom #tarquin #eris vanserra #acotar x reader #matchups

[kc-cutie-xoxo]

LONG PHILOSOPHICAL RANT/ HIGH THOUGHT TRAIN INCOMING!!!!

this is a message i sent to one of my platonic soulmates, inspired by my soul’s perfect (very romantic) match, myah.

“when i say i am currently high as nuts on an edible but my brain is doing the philosophical, spiritual, people are energy thought process thing rn, i was like i need to text kem my high thoughts because you understand my soul like almost no other. (shoutout myah for being the only one who gets my soul more).

i may blow your phone up, i apologize in advance, but let me say, i am so grateful that our souls crossed paths. i have never encountered someone who i felt so mirrored by on a soul deep level. we understand and process things differently because of our life experiences, but our souls reflect the same brightness. your soul LONGS to reach out and touch other souls. you have what I have, the thing I call “the gift of good thoughts”. our brains may be chaotic, but our first thought is almost always something appreciative or kind, joyful, thoughtful, almost ALWAYSSSS something good. our souls long to touch other souls, that is why we love to dance and we love music, and we love to be there for our friends, and we love to learn, to grow, to speak to people, and to have people listen. it is not a desire to be the center of attention, or to overshadow anyone elses light, it’s the opposite. we love to experience other souls, and we love to make them burn brighter. so i wanted to say thank you, for always making my soul feel like it was encouraged to grow and to shine. thank you for letting me stoke your souls flame. thank you for also sharing your thoughts with my mind because i learn so much and am so encouraged and complemented by the way your mind works. anyway, thats the intro LOL.

i have been on facetime w myah and have been rambling about my high thoughts, including the above mentioned soul brightness theme. I have thoroughly enjoyed the journey my mind has taken tonight, and so I will try to make this as intelligible and ingestible as i can, but please do keep in mind im toasted, roasted, and my mind has coasted.

okay one- everything started as stardust. i watched a science show about it, i dont know all the details and specifics (too high to remember at least). if im not mistaken though, the first atoms were hydrogen, and hydrogen atoms found other atoms, created molecules, carbon+oxygen+hydrogen is the foundation of all life okay. so all of those tiny little building blocks of everything in our known universe have some kind of energy, technically measured in joules but whatever LMAO. okay it took us thousands of years to come far enough to get an idea of what an atom looked like, but we could measure that energy in how it interacted with different energy, or different building blocks. okay so if we think about the foundation of life as substance and its natural possession of energy, i go to my next point

2- aforementioned point———souls are energy. i dont think we have the capability to measure the energy of souls, but in the experience of identifying with someone’s soul, you can feel and understand the energy. i don’t think that our souls energy is solely based on its interactions with other souls, but I do think that plays a big part. i also think that a souls energy is somewhat tied to their material substance the same way that an atom is not the physical presence of energy, but it possesses its own experience of energy. while that idea does play into what exactly a soul’s substance is, i dont think that’s discoverable yet scientifically; however, i do think we are able to recognize and comprehend our souls experience of energy. when our souls are low energy i feel like the light is dimmer or the amount of energy lowers; but when the energy and that light is encouraged to grow??? the light gets brighter, the soul shines, and the soul develops and increases its energy. that increase of energy i think is when we experience that encouragement, that safety and trust, and we learn to enjoy the stoking of the energy, and we learn to encourage our growth ourselves as well. which leads me to my next point…..

three - souls interacting. I think that certain souls may be from the same stardust, or their energy may have learned to enjoy the encouragement of the self enough to where their soul longs to touch other souls. i think that this energy sometimes finds its equal, or its perfect complement, and this other soul naturally encourages the growth and brightness of that other soul (and vice versa). i think that you are one of those complements for me, and i do think you are my platonic soulmate. my soul loves yours and feels encouraged by yours, and my soul loves to encourage yours to shine as bright as can be. i also think that myah is my perfect romantic/soulmate complement because I feel like our energy is so drawn to each others (somehow on this massive rock), and my soul naturally wants to encourage hers to shine, and her soul just wants to let mine know that it’s beautiful to be bright, and that neither of our souls were intended to be dim, so we are just learning how to shine brighter just by being around each other.

okay im getting high sleepy so maybe will pick up at a different date, but long story short, i feel like because my soul has finally found what its been searching for, my mind and soul is free to search for knowledge, joy, and growth in a way that i cannot even fathom being random chance. i feel so free, i feel like i can finally spend time enjoying exploring more of the meaning of life and asking questions from my soul because my soul doesn’t feel lonely anymore. it found its complement. the yin to its yang if u will.

anyway, elated, faded, chemically aided casey ramble is concluding for the night, i adore you, i am grateful for you more than you could understand, and thank you for being someone i felt like i could ramble about these things to.”

Hoping someone else might find some clarity from my silly high thoughts.

I also want to acknowledge that I don’t think my mind would have ventured that far into the complexities of the universe and the soul if I didn’t feel like my soul was so seen and understood by myah. Thank you baby, I love you.