#“thats it. I've had enough.”

[crookedkingdomruinedme]

Porchay: I've decided to assign Kim a new brother

Porsche, confused: okay?

Kinn, offended: w h a t

Porchay, slamming down Kinnporsche marriage certificates for Porsche: It's you Hia, sign the fuck up

#and that's how kinnporsche got married folk #porchay has been watching kinn and porsche fumbling with rings for months #and has also seen how good Porsche was for Kim's antisocial feral behaviours #and put two and two together #and was like #“thats it. I've had enough.” #khun is in on the idea btw #he was the one who arranged the certificate #kinnporsche #kinnporsche incorrect quotes #kimchay #porchay #porchay pichaya kittisawat #kim kimhan #kim #kim kimhan theerapanyakul #kinnporsche funny #kinnporche the series

[yashley]

fearne: *is an Animal* imogen: *Gives Scritches*

#critical role #imogen x fearne #imogearne #ygifs #honestly god himself had 2 stop me from adding John mulaney's I Think Imogen Temult Is a Furry but yk what I don't need 2 see it 2 see it #imogen calling horse fearne a good girl like I've read enough 1 fic to have that ruined for me but I will absolutely definitely take it #not shown here but snake fearne in episode 3 just flicking her tongue at imogen to say hi ok yeah I mean sure #also rat fearne and imogen hijinks of imogen tryna shove her tiny rat ass through the BOTTOM of the door like sure I mean yeah #fearne turns into an animal and imogen goes I mean yeah thats mine #also means NOTHING to me that Imogen suggests quokka and fearne goes so I'm going with quokka as if that's not druid flirting OK I hate it h

[lorephobic]

literally nobody asked for it, but here's my list of saltburn essays that i've slowly been drafting over the course of the last week which WILL be required reading for anybody trying to engage with me about this movie. my very personal saltburn 101 syllabus just dropped

A Wolf in Deer's Clothing: Saltburn's Attempt at Innocence

an examination of party costumes and our character's last attempts to masquerade as something they're not: felix—an angel, all-forgiving and all-knowing, something to be worshiped; and oliver—a prey animal, prey to class-divide, prey to saltburn, prey to felix.

thoughts about oliver specifically are loosely organized in my #bambi tag

A Midsummer Night's Mare: Farleigh Start as the Ultimate Victim of Saltburn

a farleigh character study, about the ways he was mistreated and manipulated at saltburn, about fighting to stay alive and the scars left behind by knowing when to give in

alternatively titled "QuickStart", may be adapted into a conclusive essay specifically focusing on oliver and farleigh's relationship

The Eye of the Beholder: On Saltburn's Voyeurism & Violence [working title]

how wealth and class pushes the catton's toward the volatile reality of being able to look, but not touch. on desire and the lack thereof, and portraying yourself as an object to be desired

may end up as two separate essays on wealth and aestheticism but i'm pushing toward a conclusive essay about the intersection of the two, which i feel is at the heart of saltburn

alternatively titled "Poor Man's Pudding: A Melvillian Approach to Saltburn's Class", again, may be adapted into it's own essay

Gender-Fluid: A Study in Sexuality and Saltburn's Desire to be Dry

a deep dive into the bodily fluids of saltburn and how oliver upsets the standard of men who are just so lovely and dry. on the creative choice to lean into the messy wetness of sex and desire and the audience's instinct toward repulsion

a celebration of the grotesque and an examination of why we would label it as such

least developed of the four, heavily inspired by @charnelpit's lovely post about the fluids in saltburn

if anybody is actually interested in any of these, i can work toward something closer to a finished piece instead of just bullet points and quotes in a google doc, but mostly this is so i can share my very brief takes on a multitude of themes in saltburn that have been haunting me

edit for people seeing this in the future: all posts about my essays are being organized into my #saltburn 101 tag if you’re interested in following these through to development!

#saltburn #saltburn posting #really desperately need someone to pay me to write saltburn essays all day #or else these will never be more than a smattering of bullet points #and these are only the most developed of the millions of the thoughts that i've had rolling around in my brain this last week #idk if lengthy meta-essays are interesting to literally anyone other than me #but if any of these speak to u and u have thoughts abt them #of course u are welcome to send them my way #i think all of these were born out of either seeing bad fandom takes (ie. everything ive seen about farleigh and oliver) #or rly good fandom takes that haven't been talked about enough like the fluids thing #anyway #oh also if u want any interview clips that back up any of these ideas i have a list thats like a million miles long #and would be happy to dig for any specific things im talking about here #bambi #also also im sorry i kno the colon in academic essay titles is so overused i just love a subtitle sm #i love love love a clever little essay title. titling my essays was literally my favorite part of the essay process in college #saltburn 101

[neon-catarina]

couldn't a reason Mind and Heart hate each other be because of whole's love interest (sung in Haiku and Hidden In The Sand), like how Whole really liked them, but he thought that they would never love him, so basically his Heart wanted to ask them out and pursue a relationship, but his Mind refused thinking they would never love him. And its mostly because of that Whole split into three in the first place, so they both blame each other for it, and that's why they hate each other?

#neon spews actual nonsense #i had to write this down at least because i might forget and it's pretty late #i've been really thinking about the love interest a lot actually #someone told me their name was “Lee” and i think thats a fitting name #like i know some people call them “harmony” or “melody” #but harmony reminds me of gold and pink (like “harmonia”) #though its nice because the names are similar and like they are “Whole” in a sense but idk #and melody gives purple vibes and that is strictly a Heart colour #and lee gives off grey vibes with VERY SLIGHT hints of purple #and i like that because grey is like a bystander colour #Like Lee isn't important enough so they are part of the background #also the original and the cover of hidden in the sand had desaturated imagery so its grey and yeah #sorry for the tag ramble under another ramble lol #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cccc heart #cccc mind #cj heart #cj mind

[frootbyethefoot]

something about trust falls

[ID: a digital image of kokichi ouma and kaito momota from danganronpa v3: killing harmony. the background is pure black, while the hydraulic press outline and blood is bright pink, and the character outlines are white. ouma is sitting on the hydraulic press, while his back bleeds. kaito is laying down on the press, his hand stretched towards oumas, and bleeding from his arm. the blood from both of their wounds leads to the blood under the press. END ID/]

#drv3 #danganronpa #danganronpa v3 killing harmony #danganronpa v3: killing harmony #ndrv3 #kaito momota #kokichi ouma #kokichi oma #joeys art #blood #so i've had this in my drafts for about a month #its had a lot of revisions #i think i'm happy with it? or at least happy enough to post it #really im just sick of having it in my drafts LOL #image described #trial five posting #i think thats my trial five tag

[squeakadeeks]

moodboard for this past week ❤️

#they should invent a grad school thats not fucking insane #i'm hanging in there but im the most unwell i've been in AWhile #this week was just horrible #there was already the freezer food incident but it also started off with a very severe pain episode thats putting me in constant woe #even mundane motion has been agonizing which is McAwesome bc we had a lab inspection which involved moving hundreds of pounds of equipment #during which we found a blackwidow and rats which we had to deal with and was a whole thing psychologically on top of the physical toll #the new class fiasco is still popping off and i had to respond to at this point over 400 emails in the fleeting moments outside of lab #AND A STUDENT TRIED TO FINANCIALLY BRIBE THEIR WAY INTO THE CLASS ? ?? ?? ????? #then the instructor wanted to use me as a guinea pig and i had to test new circuit boards but I wasnt given any time to do so properly #i had to test them plus get them operational and deal with my incoming students all in a frantic 10 minute window #im in charge of running our meetings too but the instructor was interrupting and having side conversations that made it really hard- #to train the other people on the new equipment in a smooth manner #which meant that a bunch of people had to keep me after to ask questions which made me late for my drs appointment #where i found out i cant get the new covid vaccine bc my heart and blood levels arnt stable enough #and joanns lost an expensive+critical fabric order of mine+i had to give a big presentation this week on my research that was stressful #and my inbox is still blowing up from being needed all over the place between teaching lab and classes and yall i am. so so tired. #im in so much pain and so stressed out #debating the ethics of turning into a pile of lint to escape my responsibilities and mortal frame

[jendoe]

so uh. i really. really hate that i'm having to make this post but i want to take some stress off of their brother's shoulders

@phillipsgraves passed away this evening from covid complications, so please keep me and their family in your thoughts because this... is obviously a tremendous loss for all of us. they were a wonderfully talented, smart person and an amazing friend to everybody around them, especially to me. i'm lucky i got even 5 years with them... i just wish it could've been more we had so many plans together :(

as of right now, i don't know if they have any plans to set up a donation fund or anything of the sort, but if they do, i'll let you guys know

#*ajtxt #death tw #ask me to tag if thats not Enough #making this post is the hardest thing i've ever had to do #im genuinely in a state of shock like im shutting down rn #im going. to have to take a break from tumblr bc it hurts too much to use rn #but please feel free to reach out to me on discord i could use the support #i'm going to need... a lot of time to process this. there is bits of their life Everywhere and i didnt get a proper last convo with them #its taken me over an Hour to even press post on this bc it just makes it. too real #rbs appreciated

[starswallowingsea]

#shay speaks #polls #hyperspecific poll #okay i did have enough woo! #i've spent the night at two different museums ehehe #and mom used to have to take me to work with her when i was a kid so we had a little #mattress that we kept in the car for me to pull out and sleep on in one of the conference rooms on the floor #since she was a dock workers at the time yknow. used to wheel a tv w a vhs player in the room when i woke up #one of my nicknames is 4 bc i was the 4th grandchild on my mom's side #i have NO biological maternal uncles or paternal aunts btw. my mom only had sisters and my dad only had brothers #uhm. okay i think thats it but feel free 2 rb :3

[vynnyal]

Unga bunga these take 3 hrs to make

#Artfight #Art #Hollers into the sky I'M MAKING AAART #Glad I still got it #Also was on vacay for the first two weeks of AF so thats. Great #Is it update time? Sure here's a quick life update #So I work at this tiny mom and pop shop right. Because they were so small they liked to take advantage of their workers #Aka me and literally 2 other people ever. I've been here for a year lmao #I always knew they were suspicious but it really came to a head when they accused me of stealing money #Btw they issued me a 1099 (the wrong tax form) so they already stole from me #I talked to the bank and had the delightful experience of slapping their account across the face with my guilt free hands #Metaphorically unfortunately #I'm gonna quit this week. I'm tired of these people. The drama was fun tho #Let's see. Ah! I just passed 1 1/2 years of Sky the other day! #More than the game itself I've become engrossed in the modding community hahaha #It's the weirdest little cranny of a fandom I've seen for such a large project #It's basically ONLY passed via word of mouth. And there's all sorts of fun drama happening within the discord(s) too #Idk this is just so funny to watch. Might get banned sooner or later but oh well. I've spent hundreds #It's their loss 🤪 and mine. Mostly mine. But also their loss 🤪 #.... You know. My blog is small enough that I could post some funny stuff that I don't dare post anywhere else #Hehehuhuhu I just might. I have a lot of videos #OH SPEAKING OF VIDEOS I'm thinking of cleaning up all my old vids and publishing em to youtube #Apparently I just never did that #May as well dust off the ol' tube of yube and my handful of subs #I'll just post the unfinished ones unlisted as well. Why not! #Till next time. Hopefully soon

[silenthillbunni]

i thinkk that a huge part of why im so deeply unhappy is bc im a girl who is supposed to and needs to have a girl bestie - my other half. ever since i was a kid i've always had a girl friend who was my other half and who i talked to and hung out with every single day. now when i dont have that, and when it's also been 6 years since my last friendship like that, i feel profoundly lost and alone. i need another woman close to me who i love and can anchor myself in. who is my compass, my stars, my solid ground. lacking the love, support, comfort, loyalty and security of a strong and forceful love and friendship with another woman, i feel incomplete and lonely and unhappy. like something fundamentally important to the essence of my being is missing. and it completely messes with me on every level of my life.

#u can blab on abt 'u need to feel complete withing urself' blah blah fkn blah #idc and i think you're wrong bc every person is different #we and our brains work in different way #ways* #regardless if you wanna sit there and say uhhh this is wrong! this is bad! this is unhealthy! #yeah blah blah it doesnt matter what you say or think. things just are the wY they are #and i dont give a single flying fuck if i 'should' learn how to cope blab blahhhhh #i WANT and NEED a female friend like this in my life #and as long as i dont have one i am incomplete. even if some ppl wanna whine abt how toxic that is #i am not complete by myself and can only be completed with a woman who im bffs with #it's like somewhere between besties and lovers. bc even if theres some sort of homoerotic energy #i dont want nor need it to be romantical love bc thats not strong enough and idk #idk i cant explain but it's just that very highly specific friendship women can have w eo #im made for that. i need that. #i've been thinking abt my past life and friends a lot lately #and i just realized this today #there has been gaps before but most of my life i've had a close girl bestie like this #last time was 6yrs ago after high school #and since then it's been so bad. im deeply unhappy without that bond in my life

[ink-asunder]

Having demand avoidance in a medical setting is literally hell. Like, patient autonomy is already absolute ass. It's only made worse when doctors CONSISTENTLY tell you what to do and act like you HAVE to do it instead of consulting with you first like normal fucking people.

#also “”“”medical necessity“”“” is NOT an excuse here. #ive been to plenty of doctors that thoroughly discuss a range/timeline of treatment and explain it IN DETAIL before saying “thats what i- #-recommend“ instead of just going ”okay were gonna do this. im gonna explain the prep to you a mile a minute and if you have any follow up- #-questions im just gonna repeat part of my spiel with no clarification. and if i cant answer your questions too bad :)“ #not to mention how many doctors just force you to do things that WILL NEVER WORK #like one therapist tried forcing me to do emdr when i was only IN HER TOWN for the summer and i had no internet access when i was at college #im pretty sure emdr takes several weeks to work and i did not have that kind of time available to me. i couldnt just drop out bc of ptsd. #also the number of times ive had to decline an ESI is stupid. I've already had 2! they didn't work! i had a bad reaction to the meds! #why am i being forced to do it again? #also back surgery. i cant do that because i am a white trash rural kid and our home (which we built ourselves) CANNOT be accessible enough #for spinal surgery recovery. but i went to the surgeon and he was like “thats valid! and also surgery literally wouldnt help you so idk why- #-they sent you here.“ : l It's cool to be right all the time lol #its like. no wonder i developed medical demand avoidance after so much traumatizing and malpracticy bullshit in my life #demand avoidance #medical demand avoidance #chronic illness burnout #chronic illness #chronic pain #medical tw #ptsd #disability #medical neglect #medical trauma #vent #this might be too personal. if i do delete it ill have it rb'd on my boar-deer-whitetrashbutterfly blog first #idk i just havent really been able to find anyone else talking about this specific effect of being chronically ill/disabled.

[calamitys-child]

FUCK. I hate having to make adult financial decisions.

#the problem is. TECHNICALLY I've been saving to move out #but until my monthly pay is 1. stable and 2. a lil better that is simply not a sustainable achievable goal #and now . i have enough money to actually afford lasik. #which i want very badly bc i hate wearing glasses cause it inhibits me doing activities i love and enjoy #but equally i fucking HATE spending money like i cant comprehend things being more than like. £100 #and this would be a 4 figure sum of money #thats. too many figures. and i feel like i shouldnt ever use it for something that isnt life threatening #but also it Would enable me to like... go to gigs. perform. work out. manage my migraines. #i just cant bring myself to spend money on a large scale. i remember not too long ago when i had less than £60 to my name in the world #having the ability to spend money on something just For Me thats more substantial than. say. a £30 gig ticket #is absolutely foreign to me #and it makes me sick with fear that if i ever spend it ill be two months from risking homelessness again even though #logically i know im in a stable home right now #anyway!!! poverty is traumatic as fuck and if jobs paid a real living wage for a weeks work maybe i would be able to be normal about this!!!

[anotherpapercut]

sometimes I feel like there's a narrative on here that like. people who work and live not with their parents in their 20s are somehow privileged and its really annoying as someone with 0 family and 0 built in support system lol

#this has nothing to do with the previous post i was just reminded of some unrelated posts I've seen #like i get what people mean but i really dont consider it a privilege to have to graduate at 16 and immediately start working to pay rent #causing a severe worsening of ny physical and mental state so that i can afford to eat #and i would just like to say for the record that id never judge someone for living with their parents because im so envious lmao #just like. of the idea of having parents that would take care of you. ive always been so fascinated by that #because my sister got married at 19 to get out of the house and then depended on her husband bc she also has trouble #working due to disability. were both physically and mentally disabled so we have that in common lol #and then she had to contend with becoming entirely dependent on a man who then had incredible power over her #and now theyre divorced and she has to try to figure out how to do all this stiff at 33 that our mother never taught us #and that ive figured out on my own over the past 7 years. and i just think damn i wish we had family lol #like maybe if we even had 1 relative who cared enough to like. check in with us even?? let alone help #thats always just seemed really incredible to me. and ill never really be able to wrap my head around it

[jnixz]

Very glad a common headcanon for Ford after we play PN2 is that that guy is totally bi and made this neat little poly hippie commune

#psyn rambles #psychonauts 2 #ford cruller #jnixartz #fanart #headcanon #anyway i've had this wip in my files for who knows how long have at ye m'dudes #another one is the same thing but with nonbinary colors bc this is for me actually #tag-rambling #also weirdly enough idk why i decided for dulling out the colors here i usually make em pop #ah wait no nvm thats just the vibes he gives me re: colors green and brown #anyway i want these suspenders

[bumblingbabooshka]

T’Pring Memes 

#T'Pring is everything to me #SNW is the T'Pring show to me sorry about it v_v #Honestly T'Pring could blow up a planet and I'd be like 'she had her reasons i'm sure...let's hear the full story...' #Me @ T'Pring whenever she talks to Spock: ey is dis guy botherin you???? #spock has ENOUGH stans....it is time for the T'Pring Girlies to emerge..... #snw please give me more T'Pring content so I can start writing T'Pring fic pleaaaaase thank you #also more uhura content I love her. T'Pring & Uhura are my faves so far <3 and my third favorite is Ortega #we don't know much about her yet but I'm digging the vibe. Tom Paris WISHES he were her LITERALLY. #ummmm idk any of the men on that show. M'Benga <3 aaaaand..............................pine tree..........kirk with a cartoon disguise #........the other vulcan thats not T'Pring............./j #If they ever make T'Pring into The Bad Guy with Spock I'm gonna become soooooo UNreasonable<3 #T'Pring #SNW #also I don't hate chapel but she seems like she'd pour a glass of wine - give it to someone else and then drink from the bottle #as like a goof and that's her vibe so far #which v_v fine......if that's what you're into Spock. Her Quirky White Girl Swag #T'Pring is not a girlboss and she would never step on me nor would I ask her to - she's ju st trying her best!!!!!! she REALLY IS!! -crying- #I've been thinking of her since I saw that art this morning ....v_v #star trek memes #snw memes

[infizero]

oh yeah guys big news....... I AM STARTING COLLEGE VERY SOON!!!!!!!! <- not going into all my complex emotions about that

but anyways. that most likely means that i won't be as active on here lol, or at least i'll be as active as i usually am during the school year. just wanted to let you all know 👍

#its fucked that i've had this blog long enough that i have both the announcement of me starting high school AND college on here #i mean ik thats only like 3 years difference but still #i've had this blog for so long 😭😭 like. over 6 years im pretty sure #that's a third of my life................................................ #serena.txt