#(JUST AHHHH IM PROUD OF MYSELF

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 Chinese Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(ft. Flavio Briatore)

#not pictured but: CRYING LAUGHING AT THE FACT THAT NANDO SET HIS OWN CAR ON FIRE BY REVVING FOR FUN TOO MUCH 😭😭 #and the commentators saying 'well kids will be kids' abt it ^ im having a moment 🥺🥺🥺 #not pictured: NANDO SINGING WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS ON THE RADIO 🥺🥺 I DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS FROM THIS RACE IM CRYINGNGGGG #all of the nando/flavio moments....if i speak- #theres just so many things i am staring intently at #SCREAMING CRYING THATS HIS BOY!!!! HIS BOYYYYY!!!!! LOOK AT THEM!!!!!! #im glad no one is around me when i watch race podiums bcs i make so many embarrassing squealing noises AHJDKFLFLLF #hate this podium(/s) bcs its peer-pressuring me into watching 2006 next...ahhhhh i might.. #renault nando is just so....hes just sooooooo...he is my blorbo and i want more of him but ahhhh.... #its really really so cute to imagine that zhou is somewhere at the racetrack watching nando win the wcc #apologies to ralf and kimi who are also on this podium but not pictured here but this is fernando's podiums theres too much good content #i hate to cut down these gif posts to 10 but then again i cant just post all 20 gifs i did make #speaking of gifs that didnt make it into this post theres one of him holding up '7' which will be included in a dif post!! #anyways im v sad that this journey is over but proud of myself for finishing it and posting all of these #tysm to everyone whos been here since round 1!! its been a lot of fun and i appreciate your support sm heheh #but worry not! the grind never stops! 2005 may be done but theres so many seasons i wanna watch #fernando alonso #fa14 #2005 chinese gp #2005 chinese grand prix #renault nando #renault #flavio briatore #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #(2005: 19/19 races watched) #<- well that was satisfying to type out! :D

[perfectly-clear-from-here]

heres my current top 10 mk songs/recommendations because he deserves all the love and appreciation in the world!

10. adios ta-ra ta-ra - change the show - just recently got into this one (thankyou, you know who you are 👀) and i cant stop listening to it!! also very much milex coded...

9. better than that - dfwya - the amount of times ive screamed "maybe its the time and place or maybe its your stupid face thats turning me onnnnnn" in the past week alone is absurd-

8. better left invisible - colour of the trap - theres so much to say about this good lord- i just love it so much *coughcough more milex*

7. rearrange - colour of the trap - ive listened to this exactly 100 times, if you havent danced around your room to this on full volume youre doing it wrong

6. inhaler - colour of the trap - literally inspired the entire vibe for my current wip fic (pinned post ahh!) the bassline aswell- good lord

5. dont forget who you are - dfwya - this song has a very special place in my heart and it has got me through more than i can admit

4. before it's midnight - b-side - sooooo underplayed but christ its such a gorgeous song and it is very firmly stuck in my head ahh

3. wrong side of life - coup de grace - another heart breaker, literally start bubbling every time i hear it oh my god

2. telepathy - colour of the trap - um oh my god? love it love it love it (also milex coded ahhh)

THE COMPETITION!!! - b-side - this is one of my favourite songs of all time and it is SO criminally underplayed so please give it a listen!!

thank you for listening to my silly little opinions <3

(i struggled narrowing it down to ten so badly so honourable mentions to: cold light of the day, night runner and dont let it get you down!! and little illusion machine w/ death ramps ahhh how could i forget)

#couldnt help myself #i just love him so much!! #i have such strong opinions about how miles is so under appreciated and how is work deserves so much attention #if you havent listened to his solo stuff your missing out big time!! #according to my spotify stats im the top listener in the past 6 months for colour of the trap ahhhh everyone be proud #miles kane appreciation club #miles kane #mk #music recs #colour of the trap #coup de grace #change the show #dont forget who you are

[cinnamon-grump]

It’s kinda funny, I didn’t think I’d ever feel hurt by someone referring to me with he/him or as “the new guy” but… it’s a little jarring at least, when I’ve got my pronouns literally pinned to my chest.

#in all likelihood this old lady was just trying to be respectful lol #and im not… offended. of course. i certainly prefer it to agressively misgendering me #hard to expect much else when I’m full-beard no-mask and AHHHH #sorry holy shit a bunch of anxiety just hit me mid-though #*thought… rrrhghgh i was really fucking awkward today #i am PROUD OF MYSELF THOUGH! damn it! i tried really fckn hard #and I am all alone there! which !!! ahhh!!!! #i hate it but it also feels good idk im !!!!!!! #shut up ashwyn

[wewontbesleeping]

I DID IT! I finished my first semester and I passed my classes!!!!!!!

#just finished my archaeology final #I got 90%! #I kind of fucked up an earlier quiz a few weeks ago #but I pulled through and did it !!!! #and I passed!!!!! #im so happy #and I got an A in English 🥹 #I’m just SO relieved lol #now for a Break ! #and then I start again in august!!!!! #ahhhh I’m so happy and I feel really proud of myself #I really did work hard #also LOL I love online classes because instantly being able to see how I did on my final exam was SO RELIEVING #English had me sooo stressed though bc I was sure I would fail #I didn’t but waiting for things to be graded was torture

[ghostyclay]

Final Hermitaday May 2024 post

I put is every single artwork i made in one picture, if you wanna take a closer look at one of them, here's their Masterpost!

Ahhhh i can't believe it's over already!!! Thank you so so much @hermitadaymay for creating this wonderful challenge!

(more detailed thank you message below!)

Participating in this was so much fun! It really inspired me to draw more and finally do more digital art, which I'm really grateful for, since I've been trying to convince myself to FINALLY learn it for literal years. Thanks to this challenge i finally started doing it :D

Additionally, I feel like I've improved a lot thanks to this challenge, since it made me draw even more than usually. I'm incredibly proud of myself for actually doing all of them, cause I've participated in some other art challenges before, but i never even got close to finishing them. Completing this one was a pleasant surprise! Im already reallyyy excited for next year, i hope i can participate again!

(I was originally gona add these final words to Rens prompt, but i finished that at like... 1am... So i decided to just go to sleep and do this later wiehwkdj)

Until next year, hermitaday, and Happy pride month everyone!

(shhhh ik im a day late cause its june 2nd, i was busy yesterday alright ;~;)

#hermitaday #hermitadaymay #hermitblr #hermitcraft fanart #art #fanart #hermitcraft

[sanityshorror]

tw: anorexia but it's funny and has to do with my recovery progress and a good thing (I'm in recovery and encourage anyone struggling with any eating disorder to recover)

I genuinely am in tears from laughter right now due to something I just realized😭 (the following is all /Serious /genuine /positive)

My favorite 'safe foods' right now are fucking tacos, creamed corn and creamed goddamn spinach - all with extra cheese. It's been all I've been able to eat 75% of the time for the past half year😭 Obviously, only eating your safe foods is not good no matter what it is because it's still extremely disordered. But it's so fucking funny to me though also gives me a feeling of making significant progress recovering (especially after the very bad relapse I had 1.5 years ago and am still clawing my way out of) because it's like, I'm terrified to eat an apple because 'mUh cALoRiEs' but I can and did just eat 5 small tacos WITH EXTRA CHEESE in FIVE MINUTES?!?! Im proud of myself though for this progress because it wasn't even until 2022 that I could eat cheese without doing Bad Things™ to 'reverse it'. Three years ago my diet was 98% only apples and saltines (and I was absolutely miserable, in a constant Brain Fog¹⁰ and literally slowly dying. I never want to be living like that again because it was not living) but now I'm like.... running away from apples cuz my illness lies to me and tries to convince me that it will make me 🫨 gain weight 🫨 but when I make tacos like I just did..... Bro I just ate FIVE that may as well have been soaked in cheese..one could say..😭😭😭😭 WHAT THE FUCK 😭 this is just further proof to me that my anorexia has legitimately no basis in reality and you know what....? I'M GONNA GO EAT THAT APPLE NOW!!!

a bit of context: I was been medically diagnosed with anorexia at 13 years old but apparently I was a picky eater from day one and developed noticeably disordered eating when I was 6 years old. I'm 26 now, and I've spent the last 20 years of my life panicking over the idea of doing what I just did aka literally eating 5 tacos in 5 minutes WITH EXTRA CHEESE but guess what? I DID IT!! I FUCKING DID IT AND DIDN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT UNTIL AFTER!!! AND I'M NOT UPSET EITHER!!! AHHHH😭🥹🥹🥹💖💖💖💖

#recovery is scary but it's so worth it #pro recovery #progress is progress #and this is massive progress for me #🥹🥹🥹🥹 #tw ed #personal

[wigglebox]

Lmao so yesterday while on my appointment with my ED therapist, I told her I struggle with taking pride in my work be it my illustrations or even my own mental health journey. This conversation started bc I realized how much I was able to turn around in the last year, including regaining the 20 pounds I lost in the summer of 2022 due to my ED and my father passing away.

And I told her idk how to be proud of myself. And then I said “I was raised Catholic” and she was like “ahhhh yeah okay. Well. IM proud of you and I will home that emption for your until you’re comfortable” lol

I have two therapists a dietician and a psychiatrist for my medication and honestly yeah it’s a lot of self work over the last decade especially in the last year but I do feel just so much better seeing them.

Anyway, I am proud of myself for what I accomplished: I worked from home for the last year and managed to develop a routine that worked for me which is hard with ADHD, I went from 118-120 pounds this time last year to nearly back up to 140, I managed to identify the medication that needed to be changed (going back on Lexapro bc Wellbutrin and ADHD medication wasn’t good for me), finally found a dietician that has ED experience, accepted my ADHD instead of trying to push back against it, trying to push my art so I can make it my breadwinner instead of staying at my current job, saved some money, worked on myself all year while also not slipping at work.

Also, I am finally eating breakfast every morning and for the last 2.5 weeks I’ve been consistently eating lunch every day too.

I hate the fact I have to go back into the office after Labor Day but I also don’t plan on staying at my job for much longer anyway. So.

Here’s hoping I’m not working there by the holidays!

And I’m excited to keep on pushing myself. I’m feeling more comfortable with myself now.

#do not reblog4444 #Jen irl4444 #tw: eating habits #tw: eating problems #tw: ed #tw: food

[my-castles-crumbling]

hey cas, university anon back again!!

so this isnt a question, but i did something super exciting yesterday that im really proud of and have noone to share that excitement with irl, but i knew you'd scream about it with me :))

accommodation applications for the university ill be going to opened yesterday, so i filled the form out and sent it off, thinking nothing of it. i was honestly kinda tired and wasnt overthinking any of the questions like i mightve otherwise done

but!!! this morning i realised that part of the form was talking about gender (because theres options to be in a mixed flat or single gender flat) and one question asked "do you identify as your listed gender?" (only male/female were options) and i answered no?! then when asked to expand i actually wrote that im non-binary/genderfluid and im just???? freaking out a bit because i actually genuinely was out and comfortable and that might be the first time throughout my whole gender crisis that i naturally saw myself not as my assigned gender without having to think about it!!!!!

so not only was it a notable moment in my journey of gender discovery but also it means ill be properly out at uni and able to be myself and im just fusnfhskdbguskfhfjebdjfofb you know?????

anyway im really happy and proud of myself just now and i wanted to share the good vibes!! <3

AHHHH! Oh my god, this is SUCH a big deal, and I'm so proud of you!

Giving you all the virtual high-fives and confetti poppers <3

Also thank you for sharing this with me, I'm honored <3

#ask #asks #ask cas

[bigolgay]

Which motherfucker gave me the flu😑

I felt a cough coming yesterday (not surprising. Everyone here is currently coughing up lungs).

Today I can’t stop coughing and breathing isn’t fun.

But that’s fine… and that’s all that was wrong this morning…

This afternoon?

Bitch I wish death upon me and whichever fucker came near me and gave me their disease.

Pounding headache (not dehydration related. But that did remind me to go fill up my bottle, thanks!) and feeling weak and shaky and I keep getting really nauseous.

So like textbook flu really.

Anyway.

I am filled with rage and hate.

Not really though, I’m still full of love and whimsy and am still just a silly little guy.

I will commit atrocities against every single person in existence.

With the exception of Reneé Rapp and the guy on tiktok who’s whole account is dedicated to him peeling garlic.

That’s my whole fyp btw. Just Reneé Rapp being stunning and funny and iconic and funny and beautiful and silly and relatable and beautiful and stunning and omg she can sing so well and make ears so happy omg. And then guy peeling garlic and throwing the naked cloves in a bucket of water and it makes nice *plonk* sound. I also had one about a cat who was on the list to be euthanised because she was aggressive after her kittens died, but she got adopted and they adopted her and a kitten to hopefully soothe her but she still wanted to go outside and find her babies and was getting so stressed about it. But then the family had a baby and suddenly she wasn’t stressed about the kittens she’d lost because she had a massive naked kitten that she claimed and I may or may not have cried then and I may be teared up now. IT WAS SO CUTE. SHE WAS CUDDLING THE BABY AND WAS KEEPING AN EYE ON THE SMALL CHILD WHILE IT WAS PLAYING AND SHE KEPT HEADBUTTING HER (which if I wasn’t talking about a cat would sound kinda fucked up?) AND IT WAS SO CUTE AND SHE FINALLY HAD HER OWN BABY AGAIN AND AHHHH NOW IM CRYING AGAIN.

Okay. I took a second to compose myself. I’m calm. I wanna nap but I’m too uncomfy to nap. And I don’t want to go get medicine because my Nan will start babying me☹️if I just don’t move at all and have the fan pointed at my feet I might be able to nap.

Guys be so proud of me, I bought a water bottle and I be sipping. Water still gross though. But we persevere (I dunno if that’s the right word).

I take a nap now maybe. Nunight. Love you. Kisses and handshakes and hugs and high fives.

#I always get the worst flu #so I predict it’s gonna get worse before it gets better #I had the flu for 2 whole weeks when I was younger and I did not stop throwing up the whole time #and then a couple years later I had it again #and I was throwing up so much I burst blood vessels in my face and it looked like I had chicken pox #and then I was free of flu for ages #until now… #I really don’t wanna throw up☹️ #okay I take nap #(I’m aware I’m being dramatic. I’m a pussy. also this is partly me dramatising it for funny’s) #(it’s genuinely not that bad. just uncomfy. but I will rage if this headache doesn’t fuck off) #who threw the tennis ball!?!🎾

[bluewormonastring]

My live reactions to season 2 (episode 1)

SPOILERS OBVIOUSLY KIDS READ AT UR OWN RISK

Holy shit I’m so excited

Oh my god

Oh my god

Oauxbwkxjwhz

LOVE THE BLACK SCREEN W A SHARP CUT TO THE BEACH 10/10

OMG WE GET THE STEDE AND IZZY BEACH SWORD NOW? SO SOON? YOU SPOIL ME OFMD

Omg he’s been stabbed this is for sure a dream sequence

STEDE THATS MURDER EVEN IF ITS JUST IN YOUR HEAD

“You absolute twa….” BEST DYING WORDS EVER ILY IZZY ALWAYS AND FOREVER

THE SLOW RUN TOWARDS EACH OTHER OMG

AND STEDES FACE AND HIS VOICE AND AWW BABY

AWWW THE WAY THEY CRASHED INTO EACH OTHER

“BABE” HA FOWIHXBWNA I WAS NOT PREPARED

“I KNEW YOUD FIND ME LOVE”

“Fuckin love the beard mate”

Oh we’ve started farting lovely

OH MY GOD I WASNT PREPARED FOR HOW ID FEEL WHEN IT CUT TO HIM WITH EVERYONE AWW MY BABIES IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH

“Cant be worse than you moaning ‘Ed oh ed’ all night” ILY PETE

Iconic title screen as always

“DEAR ED” AHHHH

SPANISH JACKIE ILY

Instantly taking an interest in the Swede as we knew would happen but still iconic

Ugh I love Leslie jones did I mention I love Leslie jones

Nat looks so scared aww baby

I love wee John being security

And host stede aww baby

I live for black Pete dealing with working in customer service

And all of them tbh

Aww poor buttons he needs his ocean and Livy

I’m ngl for a second I was like “where’s Fred armisen- oh wait”

ITS THE I THINK OF YOU OFTEN LINE YESS

HELLO YES I ADORE IZZY HANDS HE CAN DO NO WRONG IDC WHAT YOU SAY IVE MISSED MY BABY BOY

Ahh the wedding

“Demon? *shakes head* I’m the fucking devil” AHH

Guys were only 6 minutes in and this post is already long as shit so buckle up (if ur actually reading it lmao my ass would be like nope too long”

THERES MY VICO HELLO VICO ILY AND MY JOEL FRY ILY BABIES

Ah yes ye olde put trauma in a box in lock it

Awww fang baby boy someone give him a hug find him Lucius

Omg it’s the “you dumped him” scene

“Did everyone get some cake” because he’s still our precious little angle

HE JUST SNORTED RHINO HORN IS THAT A THING WAS THAT A THING IN HISTORY HUH

NO ITS THIS SCENE I DONT WANNA WATCH MY BABY BE SAD

Yes hello I love Izzy hands I would protect him with my life little baby boy

Vico looks so done w his ass

Someone give my baby a hug

Ily fang

The tears in his eyes during “unhand me” aww Angel

AWW IZZY

CONNOTHAN O NONNATHAN WE LOVE YOU YOU PRECIOUS LITTLE BOY UR ABSOLUTE PERFECTION YOU ANGEL

I love the friendship Jim and that girl have

Oh shit Jackie

“BOO CAKES” JACKIE

Stede honey you’re not intimidating

“I know that guy we had breakfast together” “you’ll be having a lot of breakfastes together” “oh okay 🙂” ily Swede

HIM DOING AN ED IMPRESSION LMAO “could be. Could be mate.”

“You’re my hero” 😞😕🙂😏

Swede bein a cute lil double agent

AWW SWEDE “my time with Jackie has been the happiest of my life. Her love has helped me locate parts of myself I didn’t even know existed and reclaim others that I have long missed” ILY

“Tonight is my turn to perform the husbandly duties”

“That’s another toe” ED YOU STAY AWAY FROM HIM LEAVE MY BABY ALONE

“Who am I to you” aww Izzy Angel baby he’s accepting it OMG “I have love for you Edward” IZZY YOURE SAYING IT OUT LOUD IM SO PROUD OF YOU BUD

IZZY YOU DID NOT JUST SAY TALK IT THROUGH YOU HAD TO HAVE KNOWN THAT WAS A HORRIBLE IDEA

OMG AND THE SHIFT IN THE MUSIC AS SOON AS HE SAID IT

IZZY RUN

RUN MY BABY BOY RUN

“As a crew” OH EDDDDD

ED DONT POINT A GUN AT JIM

OR ANYONE ELSE

THAT INCLUDES YOURSELF EDWARD TEACH BORN ON A BEACH

“They think ya crazy” cackling his face omg

Go taika absolutely slaying this scene

The way the camera is all like jittery is so good

Jim’s like “beard” makes their chin look like… not caved in but idk like it looks like they have a rly bad overbite yk

“Everyone knows why” “I don’t. Enlighten me” “your feelings for stede fucking bon-“ *GUNSHOT* ARE U SHITTING ME EDWARD NO WE DO BOT SHOOT FRIENDS

OH MY GOD HE MADE FRENCHIE FIRST MATE HOLY SHIT

Oh my god Izzy my poor baby Izzy oh my god how dare you hurt my Izzy

LMAO SWEDE

“FUCK THOSE HAMMIES UP” LMAO

There’s like no way there’s actually anything valuable in that chest

WE GOT TO SEE HER TAKE A NOSE FOR THE NOSE JAR YESSS

OH SHIT INDIGO

“Now give me back my blue shit STEVE”

Susan’s hot

DONT HURT SWEDE

Oh good okay we’re cool

I feel like she’s lying tho

But for now we’re cool

AWW FANG

AWW JIM COMFORTING FANG

“WANNA HEAR THE STORY OF THE WOODEN BOY” AWW

Living for vico using they them for the puppet

“DO THE VOICE” AWW

OMG VICO THATS ICONIC

AWW YAY THEYRE LAUGHING NOW THOSE ARE MY BABIES YAY

Living for buttons reuniting with the ocean

Okay roll credits cheers yall see you next episode

#take a shot every time I say aww baby #ofmd #ofmd s2 #our flag means death #ofmd season 2 #our flag means death season 2 #ofmd s2 spoilers

[driftwoodskeleton]

i've started swimming recently bc its the only sport my stupid body can cope with that doesn't leave me bedridden for a week+, just for a couple days.

its been over 3 years minimum since i last went swimming, and i've only gotten worse healthwise but do you know what i did? 40 full lengths on my first visit. thats 20 laps! on my first proper swim in years!

im honestly so proud of myself for this. i went again last night and managed 40 again, plus i spent 10 minutes in the steam room so i even started late!!

its only hour-long visits but im honestly so amazed that i can do this, swimming was never a strength of mine, my legs don't go where they're supposed to and my asthma isn't good with sports but i'm still doing so well imo.

this is long and i'm sorry but ahhhh i am v proud of myself so xD

#flotsam #i am gonna swim so much when i go away #i've even been talking to the other people in the pool! #they're all very nice #everyone smiles at eachother #swimming #splishy splashy #:)

[boatemlag]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let's spread the self-love 💞

tagged by @spacetrashpile (which im soft about. ahhhh.)

i tried to stick to fics on ao3 but i couldnt help myself. yes these are all mcyt. for an extra challenge i didnt include "want itself is a treasure in heaven"

untitled scar and pearl oneshot - scar and pearl have a shared nightmare and dance around the issues. so so so proud of how this one came out. life series (double and secret life).

untitled gem centric au drabble collection - gem centric AU with immortal pix, gem, and joel. sausage is sausage. series of strict 100 word drabbles exploring grief. so happy with how this came out, and im glad i wrote gem for the first time! empires s2 with canon consistent hermitpires and s1 elements.

every time i knock you let me in - desert duo share a night in the desert. character study, scar pov. shipping light. big big big fan of the amount of lying i put in this fic. desert duo lying to each other is so important. 3rd life.

do you dream or do you grieve? - an awkward conversation between joey and sausage post-corruption. big fan of my sausagevoice in this one. empires s1.

at least 85% of the universe is dark matter - first fic in a last life scifi space au. this one is about the southlands, martyn centric, told in a series of vignettes. im unreasonably giddy at how it came out. themes include: trying to move on, failing moving on, everything falling apart quickly and without reason. last life au.

tagging: @erstwhilesparrow and @paulsmelody and then realizing i dont think i have any other friends who write fic? (looks around) well feel free to ignore or if i missed you then just say i tagged you if you wanna do this. yeah!

#wizard scrolls

[djsadbean]

3,6,13,14 for the ask game! 💛

3. Least favorite things to draw?

I despiseeeeee drawing objects i dont understand xD my minds eye can only fill so many blanks before im on pinterest desperately looking for a good reference to use lol. i think i just hate struggling asdhjkasdha

6. Which artists inspire you right now?

annalauraart is one of my favs atm!!! i do find myself being inspired by textile artists these days :D theres so many but i like the ones who sew their own clothes, bags, accessories, and i like the ones who make those cute mug coasters with punch needling

13. Show your favorite drawing from last year

i've shown this one so many times but ahhhh i can't get over it :3 they're so in love and i think i really nailed the way theyre lookin at each other. like the rest of the world isnt there, just them <3

14. How has your art changed over the years?

all the art is under the cut! (this is very long btw)

July 2015 - I drew me! (im 15 here) I drew this on my mom's ipad. I was having trouble finding my style around this time and i just tried my best lol

April 2017 - (im 17 here) yeahhhh its my voltron era :') ngl i had a good time in the beginning when the fandom was pretty small. i drew every day around this time and it lead to a looooot of improvement which was epic.

June 2017 - i drew this for nerdecrafter and it was a huge moment bc she saw it and loved it! i never really drew irl people so this was super fun and made me wanna keep trying new things :D

June 2017 - trying new things!! i started becoming very ambitious and i was sooo so proud of this painting. i did it in photoshop with brushes i found on deviantart.

August 2017 - i drew this right after a livestream or youtube interview of the va of pidge from voltron saying this teehee she saw it and loved it!!!!!! added more confidence in myself :D

August 2017 - i painted this at school! the new doctor trailer just came out and i was so excited :D i worked on it in my animation class after i got my work done bc we had some new epic computers in there with photoshop and maya yahooo. i think this was my first big painting?? i remember spending a few days on this.

September 2017 - i saw a lot of other artists posting their pencil sketches so i made this one specifically for posting and seeing if the algorithm was indeed leaning toward this. i was correct and this one did very well LOL babys first media and marketing analysis

October 2017 - learning about what makes a small internet comic good! I put this on redbubble and my animation teacher bought it :D she wore it in class and it was very cool (she said she feels this way all the time as a teacher lmao)

December 2017 - learned about side profiles! i tried really hard on this one and tbh i think it was pretty good for that stage in my art

March 2018 - my big hero 6 x voltron au GAHHHH still one of my most viewed videos on my youtube channel. My moms favorite video on my channel too. tbh the process for recreating the background was so tedious so i have mixed feelings about this one lol but man it was huge at the time

June 2018 - wowie non-vld art ! this is tracer from ow in the skin that had just released at the time. i liked playing with the lighting effects a lot :D

July 2018 - yeah more lighting effects :D

July 2018 - my oc prince bread! i didnt really make ocs before this and it started a tiny little series of food royalty. very fun to think of ideas for

July 2018 - i think its still pretty but man i hate those hands LOL i was victim to that trend of putting the two middle fingers together >:c

January 2019 - Okay i know i just said i didnt like that hand trend but here it looks so good. i looooove this painting!!! there are so many mistakes but i think i pulled it off pretty well anyway

August 2019 - another food oc, named princess mac and cheese! it was fun to draw her teehee

August 2019 - my first sponsored post LOL they sent me free shoes but they sucked. im actually trying to get rid of them atm hahaha i learned how to read a contract, amend it, and negotiate. super fun artist stuff lmao

August 2019 - trying new things again with lighting :D also her va saw the post and liked it yahoooo!!!

September 2019 - bought some paint for the first time!!! i was influenced to buy those paul rubens lol i like this painting a lot

September 2019 - i applied to be a monster prom artist and i got rejected wah wah :c my friends were super into the game at the time and they really rooted for me but alas it wasnt meant to be (good thing too bc this took forever and gave me hand cramps lol i wouldve suffered so much with a big workload)

June 2020 - trying painting yahooo!! i got a bunch of winsor and newton gouache tubes for $1 each which was crazy. i still have them!

December 2020 - he has come back!!!!!!!! idk what inspired this but i just wanted to draw worg again :3 i was trying to chill out and draw more loosely here

August 2021 - learning about how to sculpt my art with lighting :D this one still gets notes so thats fun

February 2022 - i've...... never had so many people go wild for a drawing....... :o !!

April 2022 - this freaking guy!!!!!!!! anyway playing more with the idea of sculpting my drawings

April 2022 - made a new oc i LOVEEEEEE and learning to be more chill lol and i was really scared of lineart and color at this point so i was just sketching (it had been so long since i got to draw regularly bc of college so i was having a hard time)

September 2022 - was getting more confident with color again!

September 2023 - yeah i went insane mode on this :D i LOOOVE this one!!!!!!!!!!!!! one of my favs of all time!!!!!!!

January 2024 - yeah i also went insane mode on this!!!!!!!!! this one made me super excited to color and try crazy colors in paintings :D funfact: i was watching jerma play the stanely parable 2 the entire time drawing this :D

this is kinda where im at now! ive learned a lot and it look a long time to get here but im glad i did :D

#djsadbean answers #ask game #thanks for the ask!

[makoodles]

just finished reading all of daddy issues and can say i am thoroughly astounded. stupefied. gobsmacked even. the amount of screams i let out???? THE WAY HE JUST???? nobody compares to ur miles and i will live by that >>

this is also coupling as my love letter to all of your avatar fics bc i just realized how many of them i have saved. literally thought to me self 'this is actually art, the author is an artist' as im reading the most filthy and scrumptious piece of smut i've encountered

AHHHH NO THE WAY THIS HAS ME CRYINGGGGGG

this is so so kind im so skgjksj thank you so much! daddy issues is a fic that i'm still so proud of aahahahhaha i surprised myself with it i think

i'm so glad you enjoy my ficssssss!! literally kicking my feet over here

#asks

[moonjxsung]

hi hi bb! how are you?

i’m so glad that you don’t mind my shinee commentary bc i also don’t know any shawols(or stays tbh, this is how i get my kpop fix)😭 onew is suchhhh a humble king, literally can’t believe that he got fanmail so soon as if he isn’t in one of the most successful kpop group ever. the first time i heard about shinee was in like 2010 or 2011 (which was very soon for PR tbh, aquí lo que había en ese momento era just reggaeton). and i was so baffled at the fact that nobody liked kpop here. so yeah onew, you’re the real deal!! i’m so happy that he’s getting the love he deserves💜and i can’t wait to see his comeback! i’m so excited! and the antique shop matching necklaces from Monterey☹️ that is so cute!! (idk if you already went but have fun!! and if you did, i hope you had fun!! Monterey sounds so nice!). i bet that he’ll be so grateful with your super care package! pls let me know what you send him!!!

i got my second iced coffee of the week💁🏻‍♀️ and a macadamia cookie, i was working on this very tedious assignment most of the day yesterday and after i finished i was like “treat yourself”. i’ve really been eating super terribly lately and i hate myself for it😭

your pc of the day!!! your bag!!! your chan sweater!! that’s soooo pretty! i love how they all match too! i forgot to get my pc of the day yesterday too. (i was at my bfs house and his little cousin/nephews were there and the younger one who’s 5 just comes up to me and asks “who’s this?” and i was like “lee know” and he’s just like “why do you have that there?” and i was like “good question bro, idek, it’s just fulfilling”.

i love you so much angel🫶🏻 i hope your weekend is going so great and you have time to relax as well!!

-🐈‍⬛

HI BABYYYYY I MISSED YOUUUUUU 🫶🫶🫶🫶

Can you BELIEVE how active Onew’s been this week and his company already arranged his first FANMEET??????? SCREAMINGGGGGGG I am beyond jealous of anyone who gets to go frfr ☹️ manifesting Shinee stuff in the US sooooo hard I literally have to see them before I die. Or I will simply die 😔 I’m still on the hunt for cute necklaces or keychains for us or something, but I DID get him the cutest little glass whale charm bc In the Whale is my favorite kpop song of allllll time and I’m so excited to mail it to him so that we have matching ones 😭 I LOOOOVE ONEW IM GOING INSANEEEE AHHHH I’ll keep you posted on the jewelry we get tho !!!!

I think the only thing that kept me going this whole week was the iced coffee trips tbh 🤕 it was such a WEEEEK……. But I’m so glad it’s finally Friday 👼 we’re having a streaming party for Ateez’s Coachella set tonight so we ordered so much food and baked cookies and dragged our Ateez pcs around everywhere like all week I am sooo excited !! Still so bummed I couldn’t see them at Coachella but I’m so proud of how far they’ve come and the setlist looks INSANEEE ahhhh Hongjoong my beloved 🫶

Pc pics just for you from today’s coffee run ofcccc 💖🫶 I love you sweet angel I hope you had the best week!!!!!!!!!!! Sending all my love as alwayssss (also your answer to your nephew is SO valid LMAOOOO Lee Know is indeed v fulfilling ‼️‼️)

#🐈‍⬛ anon #ask

[hangmanbradshaw]

the day the nfl au ends i will cry and cry and cry because it is single handedly the best thing i’ve ever read holy shit

AND CHAPTER 20!!!! I was catching on to them not having actually had sex that night after bradley’s comment about how jake is as a bottom and i felt so proud of myself but holy shit that wasn’t the first time they’d saw eachother?? YOU ARE KILLING ME i just cannot get enough when im constantly rereading chapters and when im not im probably thinking about them and just god you are perfect!!!

and jake finally accepting the love he deserves and everyone helping him realise bradley is what he deserves too is everything

Omg/??? You can't just come here and say something like that and expect me not to tear up? That's so so so sweet. You seriously made my day, week, everything, thanks <3

YESSSS AHHHH you caught one of the hints!!!! I love that! Okay so there's also some hints in the Key West chap, also even the Vegas chap some tiny clues to the night they met/shirt swap/etc, also some kinda foreshadowing even back in chap 1 with some pointed lines (just to name a few). Also also the whole playful arguing over who spilled the drink on who that happens several times is to show they have different recollections of that night :D AND THEN Bradley seeing him before, at the party they playfully made up meeting at in the key west chap, as almost this kind of 'what could have been' in comparison to what it was. hehehe. (we're not totally done with the night they met, or the fact that bradley saw him at that party)

YESSSS the whole point and he finally got it! And they'll make mistakes and learn to figure it out, but that's the beauty of it. That chap was just spotlighting all the versions of family jake has one by one (his friends, then the team, then the bradshaws/mav, then bradley) to drive home the point that all together, that's his definition of family and home. And he decided to stay when they were broken up which was really important to me. And now they're choosing each other and intentionally building a home together and I just!!!! (also vice versa- there's so much I could say about bradley in this, how he learned to let jake in, how he opened himself up again and found genuine silliness and happiness, etc)

Anyways all that essay just to say THANK YOU SO MUCH. Sincerely, this has been a labor of love and I'm so honored it means anything to anyone.

(also I probably won't be done with it anytime soon- the universe in general at least. just gonna live in this universe with sequels and one shots and whatever my brain comes up with as long as the inspo is there. and since nfl season is starting.....I have a feeling that's gonna inspire me more haha)

#Anyways #now you can re-read and see a diff perspective/lens on their actions :D (I'm crazy. I could literally go chap by chap and point out so much #if you're already doing re-reads I just...adore you omg you're amazing #asks #iwtby