#(i know i’m like 2 years late)

[stfu-im-thinking-abt-blorbo]

Doodle. Figuring out how to draw him.

#guilty gear #sol badguy #it’s late and I don’t feel like thinking of more tags than those 2 egghhhgggghh #my art #my wips #I’ve drawn him like One other time #and that was only bc I was trying to map out sin’s family tree the best I could understand at the time #it’s been nearly a year and I’m still confused #all I know for sure is that it’s cursed af

[devilsskettle]

i feel like i’ve been WAITING for the other shoe to drop wrt people’s opinions about watcher for this very reason. not that i think the reaction is completely not understandable but the greater the parasocial relationship, the greater the fallout as soon as public opinion shifts. you don’t have a relationship with these people they’re just content creators, chill

#ready to see all the people coming out of the woodwork to say how they’ve never liked watcher/unsolved/etc #and act like it’s ‘cringe’ now that their fanbase feels ‘betrayed’ #it’s great to have a fanbase but parasocial relationships will bite you in the ass every single time #it’s interesting too though because i’ve seen watcher have a LOT of support as they’ve tried to build something separate from buzzfeed #so this is the first time they’re getting real pushback about a decision they’ve made wrt shifting their platform/expanding their brand #so ig we’ll have to see how they react moving forward #but it’s soooo interesting to see how enthusiastically people dump on buzzfeed #AND how many people dump on youtube and how over the years so much of its functionality has been stripped away #how many ads you have to sit through. how much sponsored content there is now. etc #but when they try to do the same thing with youtube that they did with buzzfeed it’s like how dare you not lick their boots #because if you lick their boots and we lick their boots we can watch stuff for free #anyway. #even if you don’t any to say it’s a bad business decision. it’s not like there’s not precedent for it #1) the move away from buzzfeed was successful and 2) what about the dnd shows or whatever #don’t you guys watch those dnd shows that are ‘behind a paywall’ #don’t you guys have netflix hulu disney hbo amazon etc ad nauseum that are actually owned by billion dollar corporations #don’t you guys get on your high horses about supporting independent artists all the time #it’s interesting that people will profess to be such big fans!!! and feel like they’re friends!!!! #but how dare they think their work might be worth paying for #idk. idk. it’s entitlement though #sorry for the rant i’m ALSO not trying to blindly defend a bunch of people i don’t know #but you guys are being soooo fucking annoying about it lol #anyway i’m still waiting to see what their response is going to be from here before jumping to conclusions #also to be fair i am biased to be lenient about decisions made by independent filmmakers vs big studios etc #like everybody freaking out about the ai art used in late night with the devil. who cares honestly #‘they should’ve paid a real artist!!’ idk maybe their budget didn’t cover that #i don’t want it to become the industry norm but at the end of the day i would rather see indie shit getting made then only seeing #the big studios (who don’t have equitable practices anyway!!) making shit #but that’s another conversation. just to be transparent about my viewpoint on this kind of thing #maybe controversial but also can’t we have nuance. for once.

[seilon]

got another job interview tomorrow. pray 4 me

#it was originally for a busser or server job at a cocktail bar in a luxury hotel but the manager on the phone seemed like she wanted to #interview me for the position of host so. yeah #I’m a little intimidated by that role because I am not the most social person on earth to say the least but. I may be able to get used to it #and I will admit. I am kind of motivated by the pay and tips from being a host. cause holy hell it’s 18 bucks an hour plus tips #and that’s plus tips at a 4 star hotel. where the menu is pretty pricy and the people coming there Well Off. #I didn’t really consider that before but hhhhhhh……………that sure is enticing #hoo boy but anyway. a little nervous about this interview cause I’ve never done a host or server job before #but my conversation with the manager over the phone seemed to go pretty well i think so hey #kibumblabs #oh yeah I also cut my hair short last minute and i can’t tell if that was a horrible idea or not yet #it’s not nearly as finished as I’d want it to be but. here we are I guess #I havent legit cut my own hair (let alone this Much of it) in like. a couple years now I think #I think it looks fine but I’m just hoping I don’t regret it #I know it’ll grow out again eventually but idk #I did this kinda impulsively because of the job interview tomorrow. like I was kinda worried for such a nice place they’d be a little #picky with their appearance preferences and like. I didn’t want it to look like my hair was overgrown and unstyled like it was + most of #the bleached parts are cut off now so it looks a little more sophisticated I guess #but also I’ve been getting a little dysphoric lately because I haven’t been passing despite being almost 2 years on t and I think my hair #being longish wasn’t helping #now you can see my jawline and the haircut is more traditionally masculine and etc so. praying I am not called ma’am or anything at the #store or whatever anymore.

[reikunrei]

:/

#food and weight talk ig. just in case. but #i would love to know wtf happened to make me like this rn.. #had a lot of food for dinner last night and now I’m laying here awake like. okay so I can’t eat anything today #like. i know why this is happening. it’s because I’ve been getting my weight taken a lot recently bc of all my dr appts #so it’s just. made me Super aware of it as a number which has always been bad for me #but it’s also. gender dysphoria. and just general feelings of self consciousness about my body that I’ve always had #but just feel so Heightened lately. like the last month or so it’s been so so so bad #and I’m just so stressed about other things that everything is just exacerbated so like. idk my brain has latched onto this #and it’s… really hard to shake. i keep restricting what I eat bc if I then eat too much I feel guilty about it #thoughts like this have been beating at my skull for the last like 2 years bc of dr appts and stuff. and I guess it’s just finally reached #a head that makes me wanna disappear into nothing #last night I think was the first day in 2 weeks or so I didn’t go to bed hungry bc I actually ate enough. and that makes me feel Bad #i say things

[fuck-kirk]

I was supposed to graduate this year but due to a schedule fuck up I have one more year and today all my friends graduated without me. I thought I was fine with it until I saw everyone graduating without me today. It just bums me out. All my friends will be gone next year and I feel like my graduation day will feel really lonely.

#mott txt #also I’m gonna be graduating when I’m 26 which is also just a huge bummer to me #I took 2 years off college and then got stuck taking an extra year #26 feels like I’m late #and most of my friends are like 22-23 graduating and I’m 25 and still not done #makes me feel like a loser. I know literally no one else cares abt my age but it’s been freaking me out #I’m closer to 30 than 20 I’m gonna have a crisis #n e ways #it did make me happy seeing all my friends graduate but I wish I’d been there with them #and I’ll be so lonely next year

[unhinged-nymph]

A Frontier Story? More like more a self-insert AU fanfic within a self-insert AU fanfic

#I’m going insane over this don’t mind me #I know I’m like 5 years late on buddy system #but I hope y’all are ready for me to be unhinged about it for the next 4-6 business days #bc honestly and truly what the FUCK #this is the gayest shit I’ve ever seen #buddy system season 2 #buddy system #rhink #rhett and link #gmm #mythical entertainment

[michi-chelle]

“but i fear that they already got all the best parts of me” goes so hard

#if only this song came out like 6 years ago lol #i’m also nearing the end of season 2 of my free! rewatch and gosh haru’s conflict hits closer to home than ever #and idk if i’m just getting more emotional lately but makoto and haru’s fight in ep 11 deadass made me tear up #when will i stop relating to teenagers real or fictional lmao #part of me wishes i was still a teenager just because being a teenager would explain my sense of purposelessness in everything i do #like taking things one day at a time with a blurry future on a road leading to nowhere #but others having high expectations from you and being sad seeing you so lost #but you just don’t want to let go of what you have now #you don’t want to box your passions in what other people want from you #and going back to the lyrics of the song #you feel like there’s not much you can offer anymore ‘cause you were a ‘gifted’ kid and now you’re just an ordinary person #whose gone complacent to the disappointment of everyone who wants to see you succeed but you feel you don’t have it in you #so again you’re just floating through life trying to enjoy the blessings each day brings again with no clear goal #anyway idk what i’m writing #at the same time i’m glad i’m not a teenager anymore ‘cause that shit sucked #but being a grown adult sucks ass too #i know there doesn’t need to be any purpose in life but #i feel like things’ll be easier if i did have a dream #guess i need a best friend to take me to another country or something to inspire me or something #in other words i’m about to watch one of my fave free eps where rin and haru go to australia #anyway i’m rambling #michi yaps

[transsexual-divinity]

Hey Mr. Rob Zombie you can slam in the back of my dragula 😏😏

#^post concert morning after bed head #didn’t see filter and only caught like half of ministry’s set #haven’t listened to much of them anyways but they were pretty good #definitely a fan of god damn white trash lol I know lots of old fucks in the crowd were probably mad #I know Alice cooper has been saying transphobic shit lately but fuck him I was there for rob zombie anyways #it’s was pretty awesome there was fire and big ass skulls n shit #my brother would call it bad ass lol #was my first ever actual concert at a place that isn’t just like a room n is like a real venue #and it was packed #also I was just looking at my other posts and I’ll literally be 2 years on T in October lol #so I guess this is also a T update yes I got sexier even if you don’t ignore the receding hairline #anyways had fun now I’m gonna stuff my face n take a nap #mars.mugshots #m talks #freaks on parade tour

[aturnoftheearth]

going to explode forever

#i’m still cleaning my room right and i have my shitty old laptop that i bought ~4.5 years ago that got me through college and everything #and it was sooo good i loved her so much !! i still have to use it for editing my amvs too bc the screen resolution is just so much better #than the new computer i bought last may. anyway but i have to connect a keyboard to it and keep it plugged in 24/7 bc it immediately dies #otherwise and certain keys don’t work. like when i say it’s on its last legs i mean it #and it’s crashing more and more lately so i’m too scared to edit anything bc i don’t have anything backed up !!!!!! #but ANYWAY it’s ridiculous to have to have 2 laptops one for editing amvs and one for all my other stuff like browsing and school etc #like that’s taking up so much space it’s such a hassle etc but the laptop i would really need is . $1500 😮‍💨🤢 #and even if i sold my new-used 1 year old laptop it would only go for like. $500-$600 max and i can’t afford $1100 💀 but also i DO have loan #money from school and it WOULD be a big investment but !!! i grew up poor!!!!!! i live in constant fear of big purchases !!!! #but i also know!!! that this big purchase would meet all my needs and last for years!!! anyway. okay i’m done ranting i tired myself out #if ur reading this hi kiss 😘

[binders-and-beanies]

Why do people like. Make me feel weird about being attracted to people my own age. Like I’m 24 and I’ll say that someone who’s like 22-26 is cute (anyone younger than like 21 is probs a no for me) and people will be like um they look like a fucking child you freak. Like sorry not everyone I’m attracted to looks like someone’s parent? Sorry I wanna feel worthy of people in my age group being into me too? I’m in college and want the life experience of having partners who are also in college? But then when I have partners who are 30+ people tell me I’m a victim. Why is everyone so ready to make trans and disabled ppl feel creepy for not just being fuckin ace I don’t get it WHO am I supposed to like

#mine #txt #got reminded of this bc of a post where someone said it’s a red flag to be attracted to the percy jackson guy bc he looks like a baby #my coworkers do this constantly like I’m known as Guy Who Fucks Older Men #but then if someone my literal same age is into me and I’m into them too it’s like ‘um wtf they’re not my personal type so you’re weird’ #like yeah lady you’re in your late 30s it makes sense for u to think someone in their early-mid 20s looks young FOR YOU #and same w people my age like. you have the privilege of dating within ur age range so u don’t know any other experience #but it’s like fucked up of me to want that? #its similar to how ppl treat gender and attraction like ur literally just not supposed to like anyone #bc it’s all sinful just in different ways #should not have to FUCKING say this but don’t use this post to justify any actual whack shit #my whole point is DONT equate attraction to like 21-25 year olds w attraction to like. minors. #like if you’re pro fucking whatever don’t touch this #also for context almost all my long term partners have been specifically 2 years older for some reason #so it’s not like it’s Only old men who like me but that’s just like. the most common demographic #I know I’m making many different points in the tags don’t mind me I haven’t slept

[amiharana]

waiting on a miracle from encanto is so zelda-coded

#loz #botw #loz botw #legend of zelda #breath of the wild #like almost all the lyrics apply to zelda’s situation #<i can’t heal what’s broken> #zelda when link dies #<someone please just let me know where do i go?> #zelda when she goes to all the goddess springs and can’t unlock her sealing powers at any of them #<i am ready c’mon i’m ready i’ve been patient and steadfast and steady> #zelda’s desperation to unlock her sealing power #<bless me now as you’ve blessed us all those years ago when you gave us a miracle> #zelda to hylia and the ancient sheikah tech from 10000 years ago #<am i too late for a miracle?> #zelda when link dies pt 2

[honeyedlashton]

“I don’t want to unsee. . .”

10 days of Superbloom (Day 8 of 10)

Ashton Irwin via Superbloom Album Trailer / Unknown Struck Match Photography / Amberlights Stock Photo via Etsy (not sponsored lmao) / Unknown Star Art / Unknown Graffiti Word Art / Unknown Bird Photography / Untitled Fluid Acrylic Art by Maria Brooks / Unknown Dilated Pupil Photography

#god this song is a fuckin banger #always in the mood #I love this album so much #wow #been thinking a lot about it and I’m so thankful this exists #cause I don’t think we know how lucky we are to have such genuine expressions of self #ashton is nothing if not genuine #he has a heart bursting with such creativity and joy #he is the sunshine #so thankful this album exists #I’ve really loved making these moodboards #only a few left #also I realize I should have made it 11 days of superbloom but idc too late to stop by the time I’d started #no one will care since like no one ever sees these anyway #so just an excuse to make another one at the end of it #I’m to blame #I’m to blame moodboard #superbloom #superbloom moodboard #2 years of superbloom #this looks like it’s gonna piss me off #ashton irwin #afi #luke hemmings #lrh #5sos #lashton

[stilldoingscience]

@dedtective Thank you!!! 🖤 Everyone go support their Big Cartel and buy mother 3 charms

#this drawing and charm like made my day #🥺🖤🖤🖤 ty ty ty so glad I can finally support you art #sorry I know I’m like 2 years late to ordering this charm but still #lucas #claus #mother 3

[roaringroa]

feeling so loved right now

#it’s not even my birthday yet but it already feels like it #i’m planning on a birthday get together at the end of the month and tonight i created the whatsapp group with everyone i wanted to invite #and a lot of them already confirmed they’re going saying they wouldn’t miss it for anything and that they’re excited #already planning their outfits etc #it just makes me very happy #cause a lot of these ppl don’t know each other #and a lot if these ppl i haven’t been seeing on a frequent basis for a while #and yet they still express their want and excitement to spend a special date with me so readily #idk man o haven’t had a birthday party since i was 12 #most years i just didn’t feel like it #and then i turned 18 and 19 during quarentine #and 20 ladt year i didn’t think about it until it was too late to really do something #so now i’m happy that it’s happening #and it fills me with warmth to know that there are ppl who want to be there for me like i want to be there for them #logically i know that. my friends are wonderful and i know they love me #but a little extra confirmation doesn’t hurt #like it’s been 2 hours since i created the group and already 16 ppl confirmed?? dang i guess they do like me #my post

[tiredsadpeach]

May not feel great rn but tomorrow I get to see my best friend and we’re exchanging gifts and then afterward I’m going with my sister to pick up a cat

#I don’t talk about this best friend on here a lot lately but he’s great and I love him #platonically and romantically #I’ve had a crush on him for uhh 9 years teehee #he doesn’t know I still feel that way or at least I hope he doesn’t because I don’t wanna make him uncomfy #we dated back in 2013 but I was a pos then and cheated on him because I give in to peer pressure #I’m serious about that btw like the chick that convinced me to cheat when we were official I went over to a friends house and she thought I #would cheat on her because I was so easy to convince the first time lmao #anyway that was forever ago and I am very very different now and would kill past me tbh for that teehee #this is the best friend that stayed with me after I cut off everyone because they stayed friends with my abuser #he’s literally the fucking best and I love him so much and I hope we always stay friends despite my Crazy lol #but also CAT INFOOOO okay so me and my sister went to our local pet store and they partner with a specific shelter? idk I can’t give the #name out because the only pet store listed on their website is the one we go to and that’s too much info about where I live lmao #ANYWAY I was more just showing her the two 4 month old brothers I saw the other day because they’re cute and I was hoping I’d see they were #adopted which they weren’t but they’re chatty kittens they’ll be gone soon tbh probably snatched up for Christmas #but so I had just been there two days ago on the 16th and we went on the 18th and one new cat was there #a 1 1/2 year old black cat named Morticia!! she was so cute they had a hot pink collar and bell on her and her file said she gets along well #with dogs and other cats (perfect for us we live with our parents still so full house) and it said she loves to be held and talked to ☹️☹️☹️ #and her arrival date? the 16th so I just missed her but ALSO that’s one of our family dog’s birthday he turned 5 that day!! #also learned today Morticia had three kittens who have all been adopted and you’ll never guess their names #Wednesday pugsly and thing teehee #the fact that cat is just named Thing is so fucking funny #anyway my sister was petting her and she rolled into it ☹️ got head scratches and ear rubs and THEN I was filling out the application for he #while we waited for our parents to call us back and Morticia LAID HER HEAD IN MY SISTERS HAND ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ #so yeah my sister fell in love and the naming matches so well with her other cat who is about 2 years old now who’s a long haired tortoise #named Magnolia !! she’s a really chill cat who when it comes to other cats if the cat likes her she likes the cat but she’s also the younges #cat we have rn but my cats half adore her and half dgaf like my older two just want to be left alone by the animals and loved on by humans #but my younger two (8 and 5) still act like babies and run around like kittens so they love magnolia and she loves them so I have no doubt #Morticia is gonna fit in just fine and we don’t have to change her name!! #idk about y’all but we like always change our pets’ names when we adopt them and sometimes I’m glad we do because we have an anxious big #mutt doggie and we named him Chimmy which worked out well because he’s kinda silly and goofy and yknow neurodivergent but his og name?

[mars-ipan]

oh my god fuck tiptoeing around it i hyperfixate i have hyperfixations and special interests and things i need to squeeze so much dopamine out of otherwise i die someone just fucking . aug

#at this point i’m tired of hiding it from myself lmao #yah i’m nd. most likely adhd but maybe autism who knows #neurodivergency runs in both sides of my family in multiple types so. who knows until i get a doctor to look at me #affirmations. my next wellness check is next month and i can A.) inform the doctor of my tics (forgot last year) #and B.) get contacts for a fucking psych eval bc the place my mom emailed and called never got back to her over multiple months #ANYWAYS. i’m frustrated bc my brain latched onto hl.vr.ai 2 YEARS LATE and now fan content production has slowed #plus it’s a much smaller fandom overall than dr was so it’s like. i’m soaking up all the content too fast i need more :((( #i go through content like a fucking BEAST btw. i am RAVENOUSLY hungry for that shit #like. i’ve probably watched over 24 hours of videos and read like over 500k words so far #it’s been like this for maybe a week or two #SIDENOTE: did u guys know i can’t pronounce ‘hl.vr.ai’ properly #like if you pronounced it like a word instead of an acronym #it SHOULD be ‘hilvrye.’ #but i say ‘hivelrye’. i put the l in the wrong spot #this results from me never reading the acronym too closely when it first blew up #and as a result that pronunciation is stuck in my brain #ANYWAYS help help i’m starving for silly images and videos and words help i’ll die #i’m like a kid who drinks a capri sun way too fast and then cries bc he’s out of capri sun. #where’d it go :(( i want more where is it :(((