#Annnnd that's about it

[0xeyedaisy]

Random stuff

#incredibox #sepbox #monart #spiders #Okay time to dump my thoughts in the tags #The first doodle was drawn cuz it had rained recently #I thought Edgar would enjoy the rain (assuming it doesn't rain in the depths) #The Watcher doodle was me thinking about how the Watcher watches over everyone #He sends out his little spider minions to spy on ppl! #He sees everything through their eyes #The Edgar comic is what I imagine he did when he left the depths #While the docs say that they only found his jewerly and crown at the Gateway #I like to think that Edgar saw this new place and immediately stripped naked. Cuz it's funnier that way #He decided to leave his past life as the prince at the gate with his royal clothes and jewerly #or something like that #The last doodle is how I imagine Tam's illness spread across his face #The documents don't mention how exactly he got the illness #I thought maybe it started from an innocuous scratch #He lost his eye cuz it straigh up rotted away #Annnnd that's about it #I'm always thinking about this mod as you can tell. So sad I can't draw every idea I have orz #Anyway I'll contunie having thoughts and patiently waiting for v8

[fayzart136]

"It is a truth, often forgot, that the end is very rarely the end."

This was a fun lineup to do! The closeups are below the cut, and I've put design details/reasoning in the alt text. I rambled a bit this time, I hope people don't find that annoying.

#artists on tumblr #digital #sfw #lineup #alice in wonderland #alice #the mechs #the mechanisms #the mechs alice #tales to be told #i really put a lott in the alt this time. I just like talking about the thought process #also as mentioned i have worked on this bad boy intensely for like 3 days #sidenote!! did you know that if you draw the underlying anatomy #the clothes will look better? #wild. And totally unfair. because now i actually have to draw all that stuff #anyway I really want to draw Lyssa and Actea too. And Arachne and Athena! #annnnd i should draw the Puppetshades lineup. I'm tardy with it. #anyway. im in a talkative mood today. Tag ramble over!

[mswyrr]

more on michelin stars

I genuinely think it's going to be an important plot point in s3 re: why exactly Sydney wants a star and why *one* specifically. I went and researched and discovered something I used in my fic, which is that one Michelin star restaurants are excellent cuisine that normal people can still afford. And that connected, for me, to what Sydney had told Marcus about how going out was so special when she was a kid and she wanted to share that kind of amazing thing with people:

We didn't really like eat out a lot growing up, so when we did, it felt special even if it wasn't.... I wanna cook for people and make them happy and give them the best bacon on Earth (1x08)

I'm so hopeful/convinced that the research they have with, like, Matty (the chef who plays Fak) right there on set, means the writers know that about what one star places can be like. And that it's meant to be part of this - more humane vision of excellence for Sydney, where their spot is AMAZING, but it's not a cruel kitchen culture, it's not only for the rich.

For her, it’s *part* of her vision, where she says: 

“I think this place could be so different from all the other places we've been at. But, in order for that to be true, we need to run things different.“ (1x03)

But Carmy sees a star and all it means (all he’s ever known it to mean) as a repudiation of that kind of humanity. You say the word "star" and immediately Carmy goes "fuck stars" (2x01) as pure self-defense - because stars are just pain and suffering to him. They're NYC chef and everything that mess became.

He's so traumatized by the whole thing he doesn't think to ask the right questions: why do you want one? What is your vision for it? Why do you specifically want *one* instead of two or three? What timeline do you have in mind for getting there and how can we strategize on this together?

Instead, because he wants so desperately to please her, despite that instinctive, self-defensive "fuck stars" he relents and asks - okay, are you sure? Are you positive this is what you want? Really?? It's terrible. It's just dread and fear and throwing up every day before work. You really want me to give you this?

(I’ll give you anything you want)

He never asks the right questions. Just assuming the level of pain which is his only experience of this is what the thing IS--playing into that theme about how people only know what they're taught, only know what they are given, and if we are given pain and patterns of it it is so hard to even imagine things can be different and, when you can imagine it, still so hard to actually get there.

(It’s not a coincidence that the ASL sign is one of the few positive, healthy examples of kitchen culture Carmy witnessed - we only know what we’re taught, and it can be hard work to even figure out what “not shitty” IS let alone doing it)

So he's assuming all of that and it's like - if she's his CDC, does she want him to push her as hard as he was pushed? Push himself that hard again? He doesn't want to do either of those things. But that's all he knows. And she keeps saying this is what she wants. And he wants to give her everything she wants.

(In the same conversation she kept saying yes, this is what I want, she expressed admiration for the designer chef outfit he later buys her as a gift - he wants to give her everything she wants, even when it seems like a terrible idea he’s torn about)

I think this misunderstanding is intentional and it’s going to come out in S3. A one star restaurant fits so perfectly with what we know of Sydney’s goals and love for her work! And Carmy not able to even conceive of something better because of the patterns he’s stuck in and finding his way to her vision makes sense for him.

I think Carmy figuring out how this work can be joyful and humane is going to be a huge part of S3. Sydney not becoming lost in the high stress environment, not following in younger!Carmy's footsteps living a life of pure drive and dread, and Carmy finding that for the first time.

I do think that, given where they both end in 2x10, there’s going to be a period of conflict and a real bunch of issues for both of them - but with themes and ideas like this seeded into the story there’s so many ways to make s3 start out in a bad way and then really end in joy in a beautiful way?

#the bear #sydney adamu #carmen berzatto #sydcarmy #carmen x sydney #the bear meta #my meta #annnnd i'm back to my point that #this show would be utterly miserable and not enjoyable for me personally to watch #without sydney #because like.... she keeps having vision in ways #that this partnership needs #on his own he can't see the way to climb out of the dark hole he's lived his whole life in #and (Sorry i am quoting this verse in a strictly literary sense not preaching LOL) 'where there is no vision the people perish' #the show without sydney (as some reddit assholes seem to want...) is a short season about one guy's awful breakdown that time he tried to #bury his grief in fixing up the family restaurant #and had a breakdown after max 6 months #and then nat sold the place for them both #for both their wellbeing #to like - keep ONE brother alive #looking at it in fairy tale terms #(not my expertise but lemme try for a sec) #the restaurant is also the family #and they're under a kind of curse? #curse of the past #the awful patterns #carmy is under a curse #and sydney is the person #who is able to walk in #and break that

[veliseraptor]

this feels like a post i've made before but i'm just thinking again about how there was a period of time where i was like "i really enjoy the thematic beats that mxtx seems to be obsessed with and what they say about the world and relationships between people but i feel like sometimes she could stand to be a little more subtle about it, how obvious do you really have to be about 'revenge and violence are bad for everyone and regardless of how 'justified' they may be it only leads to more suffering, only kindness and compassion can make things better'"

only then i come online and apparently it turns out it wasn't obvious enough

#it just feels so...obvious to me #and yet. still seems to go over a lot of heads. #lise's aggressively bitchy opinions about irrelevant and unimportant matters #annnnd back to trying to wrangle zapier #important text posts

[enhanced-operatives-division]

Points at you. 10 and/or 11 for starstruck?

Two starstruck asks,,,,,,joy of joys,,

Part of an ask game linked here.

#10. What's an au you have for them?

Since them meeting at all is technically an AU i have 3 different ways that they do meet up. There's the one where Juniper ends up with the agency/adjacent to and ends up working with Reggie (have written a fic with this). The next one is Juniper surviving but basically going stealth and living as normal of a life as he can and ending up meeting Reggie through chance (most recent fic I've written). And then there's my personal favourite where Reginald "You're lucky my tracking skills are still up to snuff" Crane keeping himself busy after Phoenix was MIA and finding Juniper still alive (fic I want to write but haven't started mainly because it may end up multi chapter).

In terms of more AU canon bending taking them and putting them in a completely unrelated situation...I have a guilty pleasure Warrior Cats AU for IEYTD in general. Both JJ and Reggie have perfect warrior cats suffixes in their names already (Juniper and Crane) so they're called Junipersong (charcoal bengal) and Craneflight (tabby Norwegian forest cat). It's very silly but the amount of scenes I have in my mind for it...good lord...

#11. How was their first kiss like?

Augh my friend Imp wrote an absolutely excellent fic about it (tragically in the realm of unfinished Google docs) and I'm shaking their hand about it so hard. Basically Juniper kissing Reggie but he like wasn't ready/fully expecting it and Juniper absolutely panicking because he thinks he's misread every interaction between them both since they got closer. The second one is much sweeter though,,

#realised i phrased all the fics ive written like those ghosts that haunted scrooge #ah yes the fic of starstuck past #the fic of starstruck present and the fic of starstruck yet to come. it's so dumb #and uhh for the warrior cats thing um. of course they aren't purebreds minus Juniper who used to be a kittypet (housecat) but - #- it was moreso for easy description #reggie is fluffy but he's not quite maine coonf fluffy...norwegan forest cat was a nice middle ground...still gets big guy points too #also um side note roxanix in that au um. they adopted a kit as a stand in for robutler in that au...... #also solaris is a VERY grumpy warrior turned medicine cat annnnd thats about all I have fully hashed out in my mind for it so far #im so torn abt also having triple threat.....extra large polycule where phoenix is just intimidated by the others prism is dating lmao #ANYWAYS ENOUGH ABOUT THE WARRIOR CATS AU #can you tell I have a special interest in cats/warrior cats. oh how I miss drawing cats. but I must learn people. for the brainworms...ouuu #i don't have much else to say on that second question other than....AUUUUUUGH they're so. there's so much pent up stuff. #like for JJ it's the first time he's let himself actually love another man the way he wants to while for Reggie it's a lot of - #- realising JJ is trying to be a better person while still ackowleging the fact that he did bad??? basically second chance yada yada #man. i love these two #ik im a broken ass reccord but I've never proactively posted abt them outside the last couple months and it's been so theraputic #ty for the ask it was fun :3c #ieytd #starstruck #junicrane #ask game #not tagging them specifically I don't wanna clog up tags too much #god WHY do i have such an issue eith that. mental issue. anyways

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Ghostbur :(

#I’ve been having so many Thoughts about him today #also today is the Ghostbur Angst Heart Hurty day for some goshdarn reason #I watched that stream where Phil killed him #and Ghostbur was ADORABLE for the entire thing and made me smile a lot #but it also made me sad #because Ghostbur… wanted to die #and he shouldn’t want that #not at freaking all #so that was :( #and I just finished writing one of the angstiest things I’ve ever wrote alsgaksgkaf #about a topic that I… don’t visit very much #partially because it’s one of the rare things that actually makes me SAD—genuinely sad—to write about #annnnd I wrote about that topic + Ghostbur yayyyyy *crawls into bed crying* #the words were flowing don’t get me wrong #this was a good writing day #but like #I feel a bit sad now #gah :( #my post #ghostposting

[cthulhusstepmom]

Hootsie isn’t lost.

A Grimgrin is never lost, that’s what her Dad says anyway(quoting Uncle Glorbo, who Hootsie hasn’t met but he’s probably the smartest person there is with how many sayings he has). She knows that moss grows on the north side of trees and that rivers flow downhill and she knows how to start a fire with a couple of sticks and she knows to go to the customer service counter and say “Hello my name is Hootsie Grimgrin and I’m looking for my Dad Gricko, and if any of you are particularly monstrous I am also looking for a step mom”(memorized word for word and she’s very proud of it cause that’s a lot of words for someone who doesn’t speak common).

#annnnd that's a rap folks #this might be one of the best things I've ever created tbh it brought me so much joy and childlike wonder 10/10 no notes #maybe when I'm happy enough to voluntarily be sad I'll write about poor Hootsie paying the price for the sins of her father #my god the Owlbear got Jason Todd'd #once upon a witchlight #legends of avantris #hootsie grimgrin #hootsie the owl bear #torbek #gricko grimgrin #Carnivalé Lecroux #Moving Right Along from the Muppet Movie plays in the background~

[reap-the-game]

Phase out my heart And you will see Slam shut, eyes blank, and repeat I will show you what I can be

#screenshots #cecilia #that just about ONE life where gia was legitimately a guy #annnnd extra extra forced to live as a woman #why can't the boy just have short hair and stuff

[novelconcepts]

tell you what, if nothing else, by the time i reach the end of my YJ hyperfixation--I am going to be a world champion in knowing when so many 90s movies came out down to the year. and sometimes month. good lord.

#i literally LIVED the 90s and it is NOW that i'm out here like it's a fucking beautiful mind #tried to make a never been kissed reference. couldn't do it! damn movie came out in '99! #these are details that no one else gives a shit about but trust me #when i say i went through that last van piece by SCROLLING BACK IN MY CALENDAR #to make sure the dates were all selected correctly #i am doing this thing RIGHT or NOT AT ALL #'ooh van would probably have enjoyed One Fine Day--annnnd that was DECEMBER never fucking MIND'

[alatabouleau]

Why the Beach divorce is unfixable (and why it doesn't work in Good Omens 2)

I think we can all agree that XMFC is a ...~flawed~ movie. I mean, I could write long, long posts about the inherent sexism and racist implications. But today, I want to talk about one thing that actually worked. That made so much sense and hit so hard, it single-handedly saved the whole film for me. Something that I've seen come up recently, again, under the cherik-tag because of another fandom and show. Where something very similar happens, only that in this case, it doesn't work at all.

(if you haven't watched GO S2 yet, spoilers. Also, if you enjoyed the second season, good for you, but this post is going to be highly critical of it. Gotta be my last post about that, since I believe in getting it out of your system but not continually spreading negativity and holding a grudge.)

So, with this post, I would like to dissect *why*: What makes the Beach Divorce (TM) in First Class work so well is its preparation in the previous events of that film and even before that. The thing about First Class is, while not being the perfect prequel timeline-wise with the previous motives of the first X-Men-trilogy, it still works *because* it is a prequel. At least the very specific part about Professor X and Magneto. Because from the start, when Charles pulls Erik out of the ocean, we, the informed audience, know how it's going to end. But for some moments you tend to forget, when they go on a trip to recruit mutants, training them, working so well together. And even when the small cracks are already visible in the way they discuss the issue of mutant integration into society, one could still hope that maybe this time, they'll find a way, settle their differences and keep building the future. Together. But it's still the same story. It's still the same characters. And both Erik and Charles could never change their core values. Their lives have already shaped them into who they are inherently, and they can't change what they do because they can't change what they *want*. Which is why the line "We want the same thing." - "Oh, I'm sorry my friend. But we do not." hits so hard. Because both is true. On a broader level, they *do* both want the same thing. A better future for mutantkind. Yet just as equally true is the fact that they will never want to choose the same path to get there.

To point it out directly, what makes the Beach Divorce (TM) so brilliantly devastating is that it makes 100% perfect sense for the two characters to behave that way. It makes sense that Erik, who sees someone he clearly cares for (loves) being shot, again!, can't initially accept that it's his fault. It makes sense for him, after taking an unimaginable amount of courage to make himself vulnerable in front of Charles, for the very first time on screen in front of ANYNONE mind you, laying down awkwardly but raw in its honesty how much this man in his arms means to him, to immediately close off and become cold again after being utterly rejected, in his PoV. It makes just as much sense for Charles who spent this movie trying to show Erik that there could be other ways to deal with issues than violence, would perceive how Erik takes on a helmet that cuts him off, kills a man while Charles is IN HIS HEAD, tries to kill "innocent" people and ultimately, shoots him, to conclude that his friend (love interest) has long since chosen a path where he could never follow him and therefore see choosing different sides (breaking up) as the only available option. And you can try to "fix" this. You can make up any scenario you can think of, and it still would play out like that because you can't change how each Erik and Charles perceive the world without changing inherently who they are as characters. That's what makes it so gut-wrenchingly tragic.

The whole tragedy of the tale of cherik is laid out in this one scene: That if the two of them looked into the mirror of erised, they'd see the same vision. Them being together and leading the mutant race in a bright future for them. But in reality, the means they choose to get to that end will never be compatible. Its tragedy defines itself through a subversion of the trope "Love on opposite sides". Because they *choose* to be that. It's not external circumstances that keep them from being together, it's their own values and convictions. Which is what keeps me so obsessed with these two, since that is so uniquely ~them~. So why do I think that this very similar scene, which I described as so brilliantly heartbreaking in one context, doesn't work for Good Omens 2? well... BECAUSE IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE FOR *THESE* CHARACTERS! Because Crowley and Aziraphale are the exact opposite of Cherik. They too, may be a couple that finds itself on different sides, but in their case, that's entirely an external circumstance, while their internal values and convictions align almost perfectly (depending whether we talk book omens or S1GO). Because the core of Ineffable spouses ship is that they are on the same side when they shouldn't be. They have their orders to obey, they have their instructions to despise each other, but they simply don't care enough since They are more interested in earth (and each other) than their respective head offices. That's what makes them work as friends, as a couple, as a ship. So when season 2 pulled a beach divorce à la Cherik, I was mad and disappointed because for me, it tears apart what their relationship is all about. And I'm ok with that kind of sacrifice when it gives you something valuable narrative-wise, which it didn't. And I have no hope of season 3 paying off for that. There was just not a big enough reason for me to break off the backbone of the entire story. That it is possible for you to make your own choices and be with the people you want to be with even if an oppressive system tells you no. It just doesn't make sense.

(So yeah, does this post only exist because I tried to get my head off from the destruction of a very dear ship of mine but also not wanting to spoil anyone's fun, by scrolling through the cherik-tag on Tumblr instead of the good omens tags and seeing so many posts comparing these two scenes, thinking "can you escape this *anywhere* on this page?" while also getting annoyed since how I pointed out in this post, it doesn't work at all in the second context? Maybe. But that's just me. ;))

#cherik #gos2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #good omens critical #beach divorce #annnnd another morning successfully wasted by writing awfully long tumblr posts! :D #like i said (hopefully) last post about GO2 since I want to move on

[cadmusfly]

I’m hypocritical in that I think Greco-Roman mythology is a bit overused as inspiration/reference in fantasy writing (which is one of the reasons I never really got into Hades despite considering Transistor one of my favourite games Of All Time and also loving Pyre and Bastion)

but my chosen online masc name is straight up from Greek myth and reading House of Leaves as a teenager just embedded the Minotaur myth into my brain as a reference touchstone I keep going back to

And Minotaur Forgiving Knossos is just such a banger of a song, and now I’m listening to Minotaur Forgiving Theseus

theseus, you’re just a hitman~

#cadmus rambles #I have a few mutuals who are all about the Greek or Roman history and maybe one day I’ll follow you #annnnd the Frenchmen I like themselves were Big Roman Enjoyers #but idk maybe it’s just that I want to see more obscure Greek myths and other mythology motifs #I did enjoy the Bacchae in high school #that’s not particularly obscure

[running-in-the-dark]

😳 okay yeah this is totally fine, yeah

#x files #annnnd just like that I like him now #as in I have a crush on him #(that's three at the same time now which I didn't even know was a possibility) #like HOW am I expected to look at that and not immediately go ooohhhh 😳 #it's literally like someone took everything I find hot and put it into this moment of this damn TV show from the 90s #just. everything. everything about it #is perfect #I'm. #just. #🫠 #nooooooo that means I'm out of shows I can just casually watch without being stupid about one of the characters AGAIN 😭 #(need to bite that neck oh my god I can't stop looking at it oh my god)

[vullcanica]

daniel may hate violence but he ends up recognizing he has a terrifying capacity for it.

to begin with, certain violence is not an issue for him. has never enjoyed it but never shyed away from admitting its occasional necessity either, even accepting it as an immutable part of the world. some bad people he simply can't condemn. hell, certain murderers he can't condemn without throwing himself under the bus. he became a killer at seven, for god's sake. but still, meeting people who have long departed from the internal struggle he feels with rage, bitterness, vengeance and violence will always terrify him as a result. so since he can't mentally distance himself (and his own feelings) from them, he can only turn a blind eye to their actions - something he's been taught to do for his mother and will continue to do so until he does some self-reflection and accepts these parts of himself. recognizes where he draws the line for others once he draws one for himself.

the question of how he comes to that acceptance is another matter.

to stave it all off, he does try to ground himself in logic and rationale and as far as he's concerned violence isn't ever rational. that repression and denial of his feelings - his fear of them - serves him poorly. he doesn't recognize anger as an appropriate answer to anything. it means if he were to ever express the mounting red hot ball of it that's built up inside him at this point in his life, it wouldn't be as a rational measured response, but as a breaking point. as pure rage. and to be fairly honest - madness. and there are parts of his life where he is, in fact, perilously close to breaking.

he can only achieve that catharsis through either reaching a boiling point OR going down to a simmer through actual therapy and receiving support and self-reflecting. unfortunately, one will always be easier than the other. and often a single straw away.

#𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐓 ‒ danny ║ HEADCANONS #annnnd that's why I count him among my other fucked up little guys #i sometimes think he should be allowed to go a little apeshit. a little wild and nasty #but oh the consequences on his psyche.. not worth it #although #this isn't even going into depth about his skewed sense about what counts as violence and what doesn't #he'd like to think he escaped patricia with his moral codex intact #but he considers giving someone a sonic headache or hearing damage an apt response to petty annoyances #so babygirl is still fucked in the head he's just #trying not to do worse

[untouchedsoap]

it should be illegal to ban pets from apartments btw. let me and my pets innnnnnn

#keep finding places that i'm like oh this is affordable and it shortens my commute and i like the layout and location annnnd it's no pets #like bro i'm literally about to send in pictures of my cats like that one meme like please don't ban this face #ignore me

[coollyinterferes]

I'm curious. Sugar daddies, yay or nay. No bullshitting around, you hear me Speedy? - stare -

unprompted asks 【always accepting】

"Depends. Is the old man we're talkin' about at least a lil pleasin' t' the eye and has some redeemin' qualities in him, or does his entire appeal and personality boil down t' just his money?"

"Personally, I don't go lookin' at the wallets of the men I date. Money can't buy you a personality. Much less can it make it worth t' spend your time with someone who has t' hide behind his money t' ''be'' appealin'. I'd much rather date a man I actually find attractive than datin' one with an attractive bank account."

#[in short: he's not interested in wasting time dating a man he doesn't actually like] #[if the guy he likes has money: cool. if not: that's cool too] #[it's never really been something he cares or thinks about tbh] #[also.. he doesn't like being or feeling used by others so he doesn't do that to others either] #[hope that answers the question!] #[annnnd sorry to keep you waiting anon! tysm for your patience <3] #;speedwagon answers (( asks )) #;answered

[finelinegynandromorph]

say yes for @1dwatersportsficfest

harry/louis | say yes to the dress au | explicit | pregnant harry | single mother au | 3k | piss kink | maid of honor harry | trans harry | girl direction

Louis kisses over to the side of Harry’s mouth and licks along her jaw, so that Harry’s digging her nails into Louis’ back, panting as the pace of her fingers quickens.

“Going to get your pretty dress all wet,” Louis hisses, and Harry bites her lip, tilting her head back in delight.

or, harry just wants to be the most supportive maid of honor at his sister’s bridal fitting. his pregnant bladder makes things difficult

read on ao3

#look short pwp for real from me!!! #1dficvillage #tracksintheam #1dsource #hlficlibrary #trackinghome #yourlarrysource #hlsource #hlcreators #hljournal #girl direction source #as always past tag disclaimers #oh! pics in this post are all pinterest/public domain etc etc glad to put links in if anyone wishes! #annnnd a note that these are fictional characters and to treat real humans with boundaries and respect! #my fics #listen if you know me you know i’m always talking about piss so here ya are! #is it really a say yes to the dress au? yes it’s just in process #but you don’t get to see gemma settling on a dress sorryyyyy priorities