#BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever

#jrwi fanart #cw blood #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #arthur bennett #OUHH THIS ONE WAS SITTING IN MY WIPS FOR SO LOOOONGwhen i took it out there was mould on it :sob: #BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay #i keep seeing SO MANY MISTAKES RRAAAHHH BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM RIGHT?? THATS ONLY ME. RIGHT?? EXACTLY. #THE KEY IS TO SAY. AND REPEAT AFTER ME. 'FUUUCK IT WE BALL #so anyway. arthur bennett huh? grizzly says that arthur is reaal fuckin difficult to play. and i SUPER get that. i mean LOOK AT HIM.. #grizz often needs a minute to think abt what hes gonna say in a way that matches w that Stoic Personality. which is FAIR but also that #ends up making way for awkward confrontations like: the lady in the parky lot. he took too long to answer and scared her away.& I LOVE THAT #arthur is tragic and sad and cool and stoic but hes ALSO awkward and silly and kinda dumb and short sighted. HE HAS COMPLEXITIES #I LOVE WHEN TTRPG CHARACTERS HAVE A GOOD SET OF SHORTCOMINGS. ESPECIALLY WHEN U FIND THEM ONLY AS U PLAY THEM. #I COULd go on and on saying the same things w different words abt arthurs intriguing and entertaining character but i shall spare u. for no #ILL ALSO MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE HIS FLAVOR THO.. I LOVE TALL HOT BOY WHOS ONE W THE DARKNESS.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE FIRST MENTIONED THE #BADLUCK. N I WAS LIKE OOOHH THATS WHY HIS DESIGN IS SO COOL N CHAOTIC N ASYMMETRICAL. HES UNLUCKY!!! i love love love his design so much... #GRaaauruguguraguhhghghgh what else what else is there for me to spew on abt...i think im reachin a limit here..OH MAGNUS. i hope that #we get to know more abt how magnus and arthur met.. like How they became besties... ouuhh... I ALSO WANNA KNOW MORE ABT MARY DAVIS. LIKEHOW #he also apparently spent alotta time in a zone dominated by edward twilight? all he remembers is constant partying? I WANNA KNOW MORE.. #i think i got room 4 one more ramble SO. THE ART PIECE.as i said its gone a lil stale BUT. im still very proud o the bits where hes allScar #I WANNA SEE HIM GET SCARYMORE. I like the idea of shadows solidifying to make him strange and eerie.like TEETH n CLAWS n SPINES n YESS #also the SILVER EYES.no1 does silver eyes like the show Claymore. they make em look so striking and eerie...i also like to think that #human arthur had deep beautiful brown eyes.just in my beaitufl heart.i mean look at him..i wanna cook him n eat him.ANYWAY #i think thats all my ramblin for this piece. now i gotta go cancel a single day i had ata hotel bc my work schedule change last minute FUCK #feel free to ramble in my tags aswell tho i read all of them and i chew on thenm and i love them so sos os mcuh

[seeliragh-fr]

two normal-looking obelisks next to each other

#i havent been able to draw much recently but rest assured im still thinking about beasts #the fr art academy discord is like atlas holding up rhe earth for me right now for finding the will to draw despite all my classwork #this is just iraia from that one angle again but its okay #also someday ill fix my levels in post but whatever. darkmode iraia sorry #seeliragh art

[janiedean]

two episodes of nervous crying your brains out for longer than one hour in the span of three days were not in my bingo card for 2024 when I graduated ten years ago and I would like to frankly get the fuck over myself

#personal for ts #one day i’ll be able to put into words #the absolutely hateful feeling of thinking you got over your shit #and then finding out that NOT ONLY you aren’t #but KNOWING you’re falling back into shitty coping mechanisms you STILL let it happen #honestly my self loathing is off the roof because fifteen years ago i didn’t know i was shitty coping #now i KNOW i am and guess what here i am doing the whole isolating myself and forgetting to reply to ppl song and dance #christ i thought i was okay with handling that kinda shit guess not #and yeah ofc i need to fix it for myself but this time is so much worse i’m just #my kingdom for waking up one morning and feeling some level of mental clarity #and for some goddamned financial stability #and for the force of will to keep the house tidy enough that i dont feel sad just looking at the state of the living room #guys also honestly sorry if i forgot to reply to your ask or pm or anything i’ll get to it at some point #i swear i’m not ignoring people on purpose i’m just completely overwhelmed sigh

[izzy-b-hands]

today should be a t break day

bc I'll need it to be more effective in the coming days if we see family, and then I'll have the survey shifts

but since late last night i keep randomly nearly breaking into tears and thinking abt the stupidest shit that needs to stay in the box in my brain

so idk. maybe it will be. it is thus far. but I'm not leaving my room without a container of some edible or another in my pocket either

#text post #no idea where the fuck this came from and it kept me up until fucking four in the fucking morning #but only NEARLY crying my body/brain still won't let me FULLY cry #and i did email my prior doc with a 'can i ask u just abt this one current symptom and if it is abt what i think & ill send u 20 bucks even' #she said no to the twenty bucks but said yeah it does sound like my ptsd has been triggered by multiple things over the last year #and the not being able to cry is a part of it. my body's trying to protect me from feeling anything abt it and breaking down #and part of that means not letting the tears fall so there's no physical acknowledgement of any feelings #which is what i was thinking was going on but it's nice to confirm it with someone who knows their shit #doesn't fix it but at least i know. #the thing is that the triggers are like. good? bc im in a healthier safer environment now with ppl that don't do what my mum & fam do to me #but it means my brain is learning just how much of a lot of it Wasn't Normal and was actually Pretty Harmful and that's. #i want my brain to just accept and get over that already tbh. okay so that's the case it doesn't change anything???? #why are we still thinking abt it and having feelings over it at this point bc that feels like a waste of time #there are no apologies I'll get for things that happened from when i was younger and there's no closure it just Is What It Is #I'm tired of even wanting to cry over it when I'd rather be throwing myself into making money & being productive art-wise #it manages to interrupt so many fucking facets of my life like #whatever. anyway considering a music au new draft where ed and izzy meet seth. and immediately offer to kill him for Pickles aksnsjfnfgj

[the-insanity-of-mojiru]

Contrary to popular belief, Nori is the most flexible

#I actually had this thought because I was thinking about the Buster Bros kick and how Saburo couldn't kick as high as the other two #But also Jiro was straight up scissor kicking #Anyways Tatsumi doesn't stretch and he's old and his old man bones are gonna kick in otherwise he'd be in better shape #Wil's built a bit more around muscle but he could probably do a backflip okay but then wreck himself a different way #Hanamori has mobility issues to begin with so poor girl isn't as limber as she looks #You could probably fold Momiji into a pretzel the boy died in his prime and his body is still bend-able #Nori can do the splits and then get back up but he wears stiff clothes and doesn't like to fix them afterwards #Kirisame has porcelain joints if you so much as touch him in the wrong place he'll crack #Insanity Draws #Insanity of Mojiru #透明な無名世界

[dandyshucks]

need Guz to hug me tightly for like an hour solid oh my god dhdjdkl I went driving for the first time in over a year and I chewed my lip raw 😭😭

I'm starting to look like a caricature of Anxiety with all these physical symptoms and signs LMAO

#this is so ridiculous fhfjdkdl #i do not like driving fjdkdl i know i should not be on the roads #but unfortunately i have to bc i live rural and also my parents insist i ''just need more practice'' #practice is not going to fix the dissociation 😭😭 practice will not fix the Other Drivers being shitty and scary and reckless fjfkdl #it might make it slightly easier bc i wont have to think as hard about shoulder and mirror checks and roadsigns and speed limits #and where i am located on the road and intersection rules and whatnot #but like... it does not fix that i live in a town (and world lol) where ppl are fucking bonkers on the road #i had someone riding my ass for like a full five minutes. we had only two feet btwn us. MAYBE. IF THAT MUCH. #he was BIG mad that i was going the speed limit #and THERES A POLICE STATION LIKE RIGHT NEAR THAT AREA MY GUY IM NOT GONNA GO OVER THE SPEED LIMIT RIGHT THERE LMAO ???? #also im a rule follower usually so i do tend to go Exactly the speed limit fjfkdl #and maaannn that makes people SO fucking angry dhfjdl its impossible to drive Anywhere without having someone right on ur bumper #its so ridiculous like... that's not helping anyone ??? ur not getting to ur destination faster by riding up on somebodys ass ???? hewwo ??? #ANYWAYS. i drove around the neighborhood and then went up the highway and thru some intersections and then into the main core of town #and then i got my dad to take over from there bc it was lunch hour and the core of town is a lawless land at the best of times #MY NERVES ARE FRIED. i need Guz to act as a weighted blanket or one of those pressure therapy vests for me LOL #im like... shaking fhdjsl that was far more than i thought we were going to do for driving today good lord #IM OKAY THOUGH I SURVIVED I DIDNT EVEN HIT A CURB OR ANYTHING #i think I've only hit a curb once so far in all my times driving and that was on my second time driving on a road i think #so pretty good track record... im a very careful driver fjdkdl i work so hard to be safe and drive smoothly #during my driving test the only thing the test guy had to critique was that i waited at an intersection when i could've gone #but the reason i waited was bc i wasnt sure i could make it across the traffic lane before the oncoming vehicle got to us #so it was like. a safe decision overall but a little too hesitant which can actually be unsafe fjdkdl #AUGH ANYWAYS SORRY FOR RAMBLING SM #driving stresses me out so bad and my lip is all raw now and i have so many physical stress symptoms the past few days fhfjdl #after tonight i should be able to calm down a bit hopefully fhfkdl theres a thing we're going to tonight thats been stressing me out so bad #but after tonight it'll be over and hopefully I can get myself settled down again fjfjdkl #dandy.cmd #vent //

[domesticmail]

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#will be breaking up with my boyfriend soon because this situation is straight-up untenable #and then i guess i'll be moving! #i feel so weird and unhappy but ultimately i think i'll be happier alone #working on myself alone #working on my life alone #because he is just. not conducive to any of it #he rightfully pointed out that i have flaws i need to fix but he also #goes on screaming tirades and ignores me for days #so i feel like ultimately i am justified in leaving. #i know i have issues and i need to work on them and I AM! #if that isn't enough for him that's okay #but it's not okay to oscillate between screaming at me and giving me the silent treatment #i mean my god. #this is not a relationship. #this is me letting myself get berated #and then disrespected #and tbf i've allowed this behavior for two years so he is not entirely to blame #i have had many chances to leave and i've always discarded them because i thought we could work it out #but yeah i've reached the point where i don't think it's work-out-able #i mean he straight up told me our relationship is not important to him and that i'm not important to him #i don't understand how that could possibly be a GOOD thing in a relationship #and i'm honestly a little saddened that i let myself think that was okay for so long #i may have flaws but i'm not abusive or manipulative. i'm just lazy #but i take care of my responsibilities too. #so ultimately i'm just not okay #i'm not okay with any of this and i'm finally okay saying that #it doesn't make him or i bad people #it means we're not compatible and probably haven't been for a long time #i am unhappy here #he is unhappy here

[themyscirah]

Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute

#I JUST- SHDIAUDJSHDSHEYEYRYRYRY guys. guys #i know none of you see my vision and thats okay. i will make you see my vision. i will force you to see my vision. i will- #like jesus fucking christ oh my god. its so interesting and gives me so many emotions and just!!! #i know im not making sense bc none of my moots are sui sq fans and also like half of the content fucking me up specifically here is in my #head because i cant stop thinking about my absolute power fix it au but like!!!!!!! #also the fact i have a fix it for a comic that isnt out yet is so funny to me. its literally fucking real though. god knows we need it #may my own content carry me through the dark times (extreme villain waller arc) #anyways this fucks me up so bad you dont even know. someday ill actually explain it #dc hire me to write a suicide squad ongoing PLEASE. i could do it so good it would be so fucking good dc PLEASE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also like this isnt me shipping them btw. like 110% not that. just to clarify. #i wouldnt even call it a friendship bc like. theyre not friends really. he has the most equal dynamic with her i would say but it still isnt #equal. shes v much his boss even though they have an understanding and respect there #like she believes and trusts in him much more than anybody really even himself. like she sees the good man and the leader even when he #doesnt. but she isnt nice about it. and there is a lot of conflict between them when there needs to be #like as much as ben is “wallers man”--the team leader she wanted from the beginning before rick flagg pushed his way in #ben i would say is still a very moral person even when lost and unsure of himself and his goodness (which is like one of his main things) #like i feel like while amanda can lean very into a “the ends justify the means” mindset in her worse moments and do bad things to get #herself out of a corner ben has like a deep and meaningful understanding of how the choices of your methods and how you act can weigh on you #like even though he was brainwashed and whatnot (thats still the story right? i cant remember) he holds a lot of guilt and baggage over his #actions and i think is able to temper amanda's worse tendencies in terms of that by calling her out when he recognizes that behavior #idk. i just really think that amanda waller and the suicide squad as a whole has lost its way without a more moral authority presence there. #like someone who can call her out and keep them more on track. which i really thing ben is and could be #i just very much am interested in their dynamic and how that would look like as equals and how i think they could help each other. #which ofc is what my wip is about and revolves around #blah #sui sq

[exopelagic]

okay facing consequences of my actions

#I thought I’d gotten away with it this time #okay it’s 3am and I may have discovered something that completely ruins me #everyone is asleep so I can’t tell if this is me being sleep deprived or not! #so I need to sleep now but I haven’t cleaned my code up or written my answers #I do Not have time #if I don’t sleep now I’m gonna be having a bad time tomorrow morning and I am significantly less productive rn than I could be #with other people around I kinda need that y #so I should go to bed. but also. this code needs cleaning. but also. even if I fall asleep now I’m only getting like 5 hours MAX #I need a good few hours tomorrow morning to have a shot at doing this properly #so it would be more useful to sleep now and wake up as early as possible than keep going tonight bc I’m not going to finish tonight #okay. fuck. I hate this #if I could think straight I’d be able to fix this easy which is probably a good reason to sleep #it’s just an annoying logical problem that I gotta follow through bc currently I’m stuck between three possibilities and there might be more #I have these two rasters and I gotta calculate the area overlap #the first method counts the number of presence points in each (probably) and then counts the number in overlap raster w manually set values #the second counts total predicted points and points where they’re predicted to be alone and does a calculation with that for each species #that one with all points from both species + pseudoabsence. vs method 3 which does that with just individual species coordinates #method 1&2 are now homologous now I JUST caught the logical error but method 3 is what he gave us #but actually he might have fucked up in not including pseudoabsence #i don’t know if method 3 works for two different species either honestly #it gives me results I like much more (my overlap is 100% for one of the species and that shoooouldnt rlly happen even if it’s possible) but #I think it might actually just be wrong because it can’t account for #wait so the line is taking the prediction for all coordinates for each species for each species’ initial coordinates. and not pseudoabsence #and that set of predictions for each species coordinate set is then taken and yeah it’s no longer comparable you can’t count each alone #not with two different species bc you need an overlapping dataset to do that OKAY I have solved that logical problem my initial method works #which is annoying bc the result sucks but whatever I checked the rasters and it’s actually identical so #okay now I’ve figured that out. twenty minutes later. sleep I think it’ll help most #luke.txt

[daffypsyduck]

x

#i fucking hate always being the one who has it worse than others #it alienates on so many fucking levels #you don’t have the energy to meet up with people bc you’ve had to solve already seven different life altering problems that week #as if you’re on a magic quest #oh and four of those you can’t do anything about bc world politics or finances or societal problems etc #the other three resurfaced some other things you already felt bad about four years ago and could never get rid off in your head #and then of course when people ask you how your xyz was and you either just shrug and lie and give the expected answer #or you tell them the truth how horrible this holiday was or how that thing everyone is supposed to enjoy was actually not possible for you #bc see above #of course ppl will also tell you their problems #but you won’t be able to help thinking ‘okay and…?’ bc quite honestly ppl are complaining about wild shit #where either the solution is ‘do something about it’ or it’s not actually more than a minor complaint in the first place #which leads to the dreaded gap of me thinking ‘i can’t believe you are complaining to me about that when you know i struggle w xyz’ #‘and have been for 4 years. it has no future of getting fixed btw itll just always be like that why are you complaining about this bs to me’ #or the other person finally remembering like. compatibility of certain issues and they just finish with #‘of course that‘s not half as bad as it is for you’ #which they will start hating you for at some point definitely btw #bc they never get to complain about their little life which i understand #but like. i didn‘t choose this y’know #oh and btw they will still hold you up to their standards always #didn‘t clean your flat? didn’t fill out those documents in time? don’t have your life on track? #well that is clearly your fault #and has nothing to do w the circumstances that keeps them from rightly complaining about their own little problems to you #i’m so tired of it it’s so tiring i’m so exhausted #like girl i wish it was easier for me too y’know i’m not doing this for fun #barely holding on as is and then you have to take everyone’s little hurt feelings into account too #bc they’ll also judge you as negative nancy if you have nothing good to say when they ask you how it’s going #‘no one likes a negative attitude’ yeah i’m aware. i live this daily as i struggle to get by. thanks #.txt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i was supposed to spend the last 2 days prepping and relaxing for the start of this big project tomorrow #but ive spent thr last 2 days frantically coding as fast as i could and focusing v hard to get a lot of bullshit done #and ive fixed things since yesterday. the changes i had to make were too too bad bc the thing that went wrong was so fucking weird #but it should be okay by tomorrow. knock on wood. but this does mean ive done fuck all to prep for tomorrow #so we r winging it bby. ugh. just gotta fucking pray that everything goes ok. pls let nothing b broken and let everything seal properly 🙏 #i was also supposed to meet with my boss today. probably for her to make sure i dont fuck up this project but apparently their safety hood #was having an emergency... whatever that means. so im sure shes having a week as well. and im free to fuck everything up for everyone #ugh. im so. theres a certain point in burning out where youre not really in pain anymore. you dont really feel anything all your joy and #hope dissolves away and u just exist to be useful. and i feel like its easier to maintain that than trying to b happy #i do not advise that bc its a fucking miserable. wasteful way to live but i dont really have time to try for anything better #god. i really hope my measurements friday dont take a full 8hrs. i dont know if i can handle that. literally i would have stay intensely #focused with my brain being Interrupted every 5min so i can manually record data points. its gonna b agony #so that fun. but maybe it wont. maybe itll be great and fun and ill have a wonderful time. seems unlikely but ya never kno #lets not think abt the fact that having to rush all this is preventing me from being able to do all thr other bullshit i need to get done #to prepare for the future. future? what future? hard to imagine from the bottom of this pit im digging myself #sigh. in a few months i can leave this place and never come back. soon but not soon enough #lol i was literally crying listening to cold play earlier bc idk thats the type of music my parents would put on at parties in summertime #so it evokes a v specific mood. which is i guess me hiding away from ppl at parties haha #back when i didnt have to worry abt things so much and i could just listen to the frogs chirping and watch the fireflies #oh god. now my boss is asking if i reached out for help tomorrow. no. lady i would rather drink bleach than have to direct an undergrad #tomorrow. its 10pm im fucking tired. just let me be sad. did i reach our for help? no my brain is on fire #tomorrow is gonna b a long day ugh #unrelated

[soullessjack]

hmm how do I put this. all media is inherently problematic in some way because the world is what it is and has the history that it has and every societal norm, belief and value pertaining to the past eras of the film industry—and even music and art and writing—will forever reflect in the products and as unfortunate as it is to have the history we do, we fundamentally cannot change that. there is no such thing as unproblematic media and there probably never will be and that’s okay and it doesn’t make you a bad person for enjoying media that might have some problematic or outdated elements, bc again, pretty much everything that we as a society created is going to have some problems.

sometimes media is problematic on purpose, like the entirety of TKAM, but with the intent on addressing the real life problems it reflects within the narrative. same goes for horror films or gore films. like, shockingly you don’t condone murder by watching or enjoying slashers. the point of the entire horror genre is to be scary and disgusting; the point of slasher villains is to be evil and wrong. but at the same time, sometimes you have to take a step back and wonder why a specific person or concept in a horror movie is being depicted as scary and disgusting and wrong and evil, like amputees or mentally ill people and queer people, and see how that reflects the real world—which is basically what the entire point of media literacy and critical thinking and purity culture is.

media literacy and critical thinking and purity culture don’t mean you have to avoid engaging with or enjoying problematic media at all costs. it doesn’t mean completely removing problematic elements from preexisting media and erasing the topics it might address— in fact, both of those things actively dull your critical thinking skills in general—and it especially doesn’t mean you’re suddenly justified in engaging with genuinely morally abhorrent content like lolicon or bestiality (both of which are examples of things typically portrayed in media as gross and wrong, and rightfully so). as much as anyone wants to pretend otherwise, fiction and reality go hand in hand as reflections of one another; reflections of society over time, of a person’s own experiences, etc, and to say that they don’t or that one doesn’t affect the other is quite literally the opposite of media literacy. lastly, to say media literacy or critical thinking aren’t important skills to have or that media should just stop depicting problematic things like violence or death is very very painfully wrong, as again, fiction and reality go hand in hand, and understanding a fictionalized version of reality serves us to better understand our actual reality.

thank you and goodnight

#I just. It’s so insanely simple #cal.txt #media literacy #media stuff #tldr just use your fucking brains #no I am not a proshipper or anything of that sort and I would very much appreciate it if they didn’t touch this post #long post #critical thinking #also I absolutely hate how purity culture is being reworked by actual zoophiles and child predators to justify their abusive behaviors #shut the fuck up and get hospitalized #proship dni #<- extra measures #realistically tags do nothing but my block button sure does #can you tell I’m autistic and this is a special interest of mine #media discussion #problematic media #horror movies #life sucks people die and bad shit happens and that’s okay! that’s part of what being alive is about! #but the less we address and examine why these bad things happen the less we’ll be able to fix them!!! okay!!!! #media tropes #tv tropes

[clochanamarc]

aisling hating the open water. hating the feel of it, the smell of it, the feeling of the air around it. rivers, oceans, lakes, it doesn't matter. she loathes it all. aisling remembering the night she lost eoin all too clearly without needing to be near the water, and yet whenever her kids want to go to the docks or the hudson, she has to practice breathing in and out, and often has earphones in so she can't hear the tide, because every memory she has of the water is eclipsed by that night that eoin died. and in her pirate verse, people might find it curious that the good captain aisling jones never looks out at the sea. that her quarters are the only ones without a window. that her curtains in the office are always drawn. that when she's on deck, she always focuses keenly on the crew or the ship, never the ocean. (because eoin was killed while trying to row her to safety in a fishing boat away from the marines)

now, bearing this in mind, consider (in any verse but like, especially her pirate verse??): aisling seeing your muse fall into the water, or seeing them across a body of water and in immediate danger, and immediately diving into the water and swimming towards them like her life depends on it. because the sea never stole eoin from her, but she can't let it take your muse either.

#( ' a certain... wisdom. ' / hc. ) #death tw #death mention tw #thalassophobia tw #thalassophobia mention tw #( i just think the idea of her climbing up into a ship to save your muse ) #( and especially if your muse believes she won't be able to help them BECAUSE of her avoidance of the water ) #( and then the marines being like 'nobody to save you huh?' ) #( and then suddenly one of them drops to the ground ) #( and aisling's standing behind them ) #( dripping with sea water and eyes fiercely fixed on the leader ) #( and then glancing to make sure you're okay ) #( yes yes YES )

[astrxealis]

finally actually working towards fixing my blogs lol 💪

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #THE PROBLEM W ME... though... is i want to fix every single post on this account. which isn't. very. good. #considering i have thousands of posts and i am a very busy student but will that stop me !! probably not. #i'm NOT going to change my tags anymore i think. that'd probably kill me #there's a website tho ik but STILL.....!! troublesome. so. anyway! #gna start writing here soon again but that's dependent on whether i get my shit fully together finally. aaand i'm fixing my selfship #sb and etc etc etc yes <3 it just turned 12 am honestly i don't think i have the braincells rn #i want to COLLAPSE !!!!! tbf i could. totally do so. there's nothing important for me to worry over anymore #i mean yeah i might have a quiz later today but our teacher hasn't responded to email my classmate sent eyaghhhhhhh #SO. idk. we were supposed to do a lab fun thingy yesterday BUT THEN we got. noon classes suspended. weird shit. sigh #so.....!!! so. #it's physics and honestly going to be pretty easy since they're giving the equations so i'll just brush up on my knowledge #and then the concepts etc ... oh god. or maybe i could just yk... sleep...! #idk. anyway. HII GOOD JUST-TURNED-TECHNICALLY-MORNING-BUT-IT'S-MIDNIGHT FROM ME ^_^ #i am so ill (figuratively) i am a mess but i'll Fix Things #yk what would be so good for this all... exercise..... i at least am able to walk a lot everyday bcs of school but STILL #okay bye from me now. i am. TIRED... bye <3

[moonsidesong]

i like how much hfjone gives me thinky thoughts. ending spins around in my brain going wheeee whats gonna happen now who knooooows

#i understand a lot of people found the super-open-ended nature of it unsatisfying or anticlimactic #but i kinda. love it. actually. #there's so many different ways things could go from here #good and bad and everything in between #and most of them. really just feel just as likely as each other #my gut personally kinda says liam's eventually gonna lose himself and just end up assuming control of the plane #(or. any new planet he ends up making from here on out.) #but the optimist in me likes to think of a best ending scenario where he's able to get Stone back #and they're able to get everyone--including liam--back home. and they can. man EVENTUALLY rebuild their lives #cause boy there is WORK to do to fix everything #and. i like entertaining both those scenarios! cause. man i cant really prove either of them will or won't happen!!!!! #and. anyways. hfjone in its entirety i always felt was probably like. a suuuper personal art piece more than . yknow #a show to an appeal to an audience. if that makes sense #so i was gonna be okay with whatever ending it ended up getting cause sometimes super personal art pieces get weird endings it happens #anyway if you read this far hello hi. hope you're well #drink a little water and try not to stay up too late #me im gonna. umm. wait for my friends to stop being busy so i can rewatch this Again with them HAHAH #hfjone spoilers #<- whoops almost forgot to put that here #brifdi

[polaroidcats]

i woke up at 5:30 am just so i can have a few home office hours where it's not 35+ degrees outside RIP ME WHO IS SHE?? i just knew i won't be able to concentrate once it gets that hot again so I fully intend to nap at noon instead and just pretend to my boss that I worked my usual hours.

#ramblings #my brain just doesn't work when it's that hot #and i knew if i woke up at this time i could still have the windows open with a BREEZY 20 degrees outside wtffffff why is it so hot #yes this is just a tumblr post of me complaining about the weather #but!!! i!!! woke!!!up!!! at!!!5!!!30!!!today!!!! #because i knew i had to hand in an important-ish report today and i know i wouldn't be able to get it done in the fucking heat #okay i'm done complaining abt the heat (maybe) #also i think it's silly that i have to have fixed home office hours instead of just needing to work the right amount of hours whenever