#i am unhappy here

[domesticmail]

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#will be breaking up with my boyfriend soon because this situation is straight-up untenable #and then i guess i'll be moving! #i feel so weird and unhappy but ultimately i think i'll be happier alone #working on myself alone #working on my life alone #because he is just. not conducive to any of it #he rightfully pointed out that i have flaws i need to fix but he also #goes on screaming tirades and ignores me for days #so i feel like ultimately i am justified in leaving. #i know i have issues and i need to work on them and I AM! #if that isn't enough for him that's okay #but it's not okay to oscillate between screaming at me and giving me the silent treatment #i mean my god. #this is not a relationship. #this is me letting myself get berated #and then disrespected #and tbf i've allowed this behavior for two years so he is not entirely to blame #i have had many chances to leave and i've always discarded them because i thought we could work it out #but yeah i've reached the point where i don't think it's work-out-able #i mean he straight up told me our relationship is not important to him and that i'm not important to him #i don't understand how that could possibly be a GOOD thing in a relationship #and i'm honestly a little saddened that i let myself think that was okay for so long #i may have flaws but i'm not abusive or manipulative. i'm just lazy #but i take care of my responsibilities too. #so ultimately i'm just not okay #i'm not okay with any of this and i'm finally okay saying that #it doesn't make him or i bad people #it means we're not compatible and probably haven't been for a long time #i am unhappy here #he is unhappy here

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bonus 8: How met your mother (CSSR design by @qourmet!)

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #cangse sanren #wei changze #jiang fengmian #It was important to me that WCZ had the hereditary mole. I will die on this hill. #I have been *waiting* for the day to finally arrive when I could finally make this comic. It's been marinating for months. #My mission is to redraw all of qour's character designs one day. They are just *that* good. #CSSR has the vibes of a wandering menace who shows up in towns like a stray cat arriving at a new doorstep for treats. 10/10. #While YZY strongly leads us to believe that JFM was in love with CSSR and that's his whole motivation behind taking wwx in- #-I do think this is (once again) rumour being presented as reality. It's the juicer story to tell after all. #It is still possible that he did love her! But I think that story undercuts the relationship he also had with WCZ. #Yall ever think about how JC and WWX parallel their fathers? How Wei Changze also left the Jiang Leader's side? I do. #Unlike JC though It is far more hilarious and plausible to imagine JFM begging to be CSSR and WCZ's third. You know he would. #My wild headcanon is that JFM and YZY are in a mlm and wlw arranged marriage situation. Deeply unhappy as partners. Better as friends. #they care for each other and I'll admit that there is a beautiful tragedy in them having romantic feelings for each other the whole time. #But I am also here for the gaffs. Let them be unfulfilled homosexuals together. #Meanwhile cssr and wcz are having incredible hetrosexual sex in a bisexual way that WILL leave him pregnant by the end of it.

[salthien]

embrace the void.

hornet should get to hug her sibling. idk. put down the needle girl go give it a head bonk. it's not threatening you it's just traumatized.

#hollow knight #the hollow knight #hornet #hornet hk #pure vessel #thk #i am Really trying hard to do more painty stuff to uhhhh. mixed results. #happy with some parts unhappy with others but that's the name of the game babeyyyyy #anyway here. have more creature. #lorne art

[bundleofstyx]

tada, this is my piece for @acolorboom 's dtiys! blood :DD

#tried a lotta new stuff here. dunno how happy i am with it but im certainly not Unhappy yknow :] #also the blood was so fun to draw #blood #gtws #goodtimeswithscar #trafficblr #slsmp #secret life #art #digital art #illustration #digital illustration #painting #digital painting #mcyt #mcytblr #queer artist #trans artist #this was meant to be finished like 4 days ago arghgh

[tiredela]

mannimarco, but he got lost in my uni notes

#tes #tesblr #elder scrolls #the elder scrolls #eso #elder scrolls online #mannimarco #tes art #tes fanart #digital art #tiredelart #i was unhappy at the fact we have to read SO MUCH STUFF that i drew angry manni #he is just straight up not having a good time. and so am i #present me here; i only vaguely remember putting this in my drafts lol drunk me was really going through it

[caffeinatedopossum]

Hey guys did you know that I've been in so much pain that it forced me to recontextualize not only my definition of being okay but also my judgement and avoidance of that pain and now I'll never go back to the understanding I had before this? :3 me neither (until recently)!

#for those confused this is a positive thing #but its also something i dont think many other people will understand at all #and with that always comes a feeling of loneliness and isolation #ive come to accept that a life without happiness does not have to be worth less to me than a life where i am happy #and as with many things this healing isnt linear. so i doubt ill stay in this mindset for long. but rn im here and its nice #rn im okay even though im unhappy and i cant believe i ever will be #the only thing i expect from life is to die so everything else is a bonus really

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

helloooo my dearest darling listeners, i am back on my soapbox to regale you all with the marvelous things i witnessed/experienced on my Whimsical As Fuck™️ three hour drive today. not necessarily in order <3

some cute does with bigass floppy ears / very sweet waitress who called me "hon" and put the most tasty looking crepes on my table / a pair of hawks divebombing a golden eagle / a kite (the bird) / a flock of magpies / some GORGEOUS scenery / a rainbow / lovely rain sprinklings / MORE gorgeous scenery, i mean what the fuck / fields of purple/orange/red tipped bushes / a meadow of buttercup-yellow very tall grass, in which many picturesque trees stood / lots of fluffy, adorable, tasty cows / a large herd of likely-feral horses with a wonderful variety of patterns & colors / the fluffiest husky ever / the juxtaposition of cold wind through an open window + warm sunlight / the most stunning snow-coated mountain of whites and blues in the sun, wreathed in clouds / no seriously some really fucking Gorgeous scenery, i was near tears with some of it

#i am feeling. Better Than I Have In A While #you know! last night i was very unhappy that i would have to do this drive! #but after my 2 hour doze in the ihop parking lot #and a nice breakfast of crepes and tea w/ my book #i was feeling better and decided Fuck It. im gonna make myself enjoy this drive #im gonna take my goddamn time and really absorb my surroundings #by fuck i will stop at a rest stop and take a walk! and i did all of it! #life is actually worth it! glad to have continuous confirmation of that #its so nice to drive and actually see things #beautiful landscapes... wildlife... Geography... #instead of just Flat. Scrub. Brown. More Scrub. Dirt. Dead Scrub aka Tumbleweed. Boring Brown Hills. No Weather. #i can go outside the clouds are Full and the air is Fresh and birds are Singing and i am Alive #absolutely unprompted #i expect the feeling of realness to fade soon but i will enjoy it while it lasts! #and maybe if i feel it often enough it will outlast the disconnect! #now i think i am going to treat myself to a pork bun i just bought & get one of the nice beers from the garage #ive Earned It! #you all treat yourself to something you like as well. we have all earned it simply by existing! #you're here today! Yippee! indulge! #im feeling so fucking whimsical today... ill go work on setting up my extra monitor and figuring out how the fuck that works! #my mic has already arrived! i have hope that i will do a test stream Soon!

[electrozeistyking]

Did you see the merch leak!?!! J plush and a JCJenson pen

I FUCKING KNEW THAT PEN WOULD BE MERCH ONE DAY HGJFKDL

#Zeisty's Askbox #murder drones spoilers #just in case because of something #from here on out i want to know nothing of any leaks if they mayhaps contain spoilers. merch or otherwise tell me nothing #also do not call my attention to anything that isn’t what i’m focusing on in the post #i am. kind of upset someone called my attention to the glass painting in the replies #only because they called my attention to it being there. genuinely unhappy. i went in a thousand percent blind with the last six episodes #so don’t even tell me about that upcoming MD news if it contains anything beyond what we’ve seen in that beginning of the end teaser thing #i will close my askbox if anyone says anything to me about it and i will not open it until after both episodes come out i swear

[snarp]

My Tumblr rule: If I feel the need to check someone's bio to make sure they're an adult before replying, I don't reply.

#1) it is possible to lie in a bio. 2) what am i even trying to achieve here? #3) if i can answer question 2 coherently i can probably achieve it WITHOUT publicly confronting an unhappy maybe-child

[saintchaser]

darling (@wolfstarmicrofic)

"would you like to get married someday?" remus asked, half of his body bent outside the window, taking a long drag of his cigarette. "you know we can't do that legally, but something being illegal has never stopped us, or you, for that matter."

sirius grinned. "if you want that. that does come with sacrifices, though. i can almost imagine james crying through our vows."

remus laughed, rich and warm like honey. "oh, my mum will be all the same. she'll be dabbing her eyes the whole time, and so will euphemia. they're going to be clinging to each other and sobbing their poor hearts out."

sirius chuckled. "marlene will get drunk."

"absolutely! so will we, in fact, they say that getting married on the wedding night is good luck. ("who says that?" "i do. i made it up right now." "you're a right tosser, did you know that?" "but you love me.") where will the honeymoon be?"

"wherever you want it to be. we can try grimmauld place." sirius winked. "i heard they've got a really nice woman around there, walburga, ever heard of her?"

they sat in silence for a while, until remus put his cigarette between sirius' lips, who smiled gratefully, his lips curling around the cylinder.

"can i tell you a secret?" sirius asked, lit up by the moon, playing strange twinkles, white in grey, in his eyes.

remus nodded; he liked holding sirius' secrets. tucked in his pocket, deep within his heart, they were only theirs to share. whispered in the dead of the night over smoking and stubbed cigarette butts, limbs tangled and their room cold (they still hadn't gotten around to fixing the strange heating that their block of flats offered), but their hearts warm.

"i don't like weddings. i never have. too many commitments. i'd like to be as we are right now, darling." the words fell off sirius' lips so easily. "maybe move out of this shitty apartment and get a house on the seashore. or a cabin in the woods. we could have chicken and goats and sheep if you want to. or we can stay here, in this shitty apartment with a leaky tap and no shower curtains and a minuscule balcony. it won't matter for me, as long as it's with you."

"and it won't matter for me either, because i love you, darling."

#this is a part of my two-day couples' future series (dorlene tomorrow) #and i am yet to decide which couple to write for valentine's day because i have truly no clue as to what i should do #anyways they are not going to have any of those choices because they both die and are unhappy and sirius gets imprisoned LOLOLOL #anyways sorry for rambling so much okay here are the tags #sirius black #remus lupin #wolfstar #wolfstar fluff #my writing #wolfstar microfic

[fitia]

Watching people have fun with things that I am not personally interested in and then thinking that makes what I like is not very interesting is probably like. top 5 worst irrational feelings ever.

#fitiaposting #Being on here is just an endless cycle of ''oh wow other people are making things but not the things I like maybe I'm just not liking the #right things oh wait I can also make things! [and then I don't. new cycle loop] #The 3-week ''social media is bad for me'' realization before I take a whole week's break before jumping back into it obsessively phase has #begun. Need to genuinely break this habit because I am so unhappy.

[stiffyck]

um. i dont have any excuses

sona redesign. again.

#i am an indecesive bitch #BUT #THIS ONE ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE ME #kinda #BUT YEA #anyway uhhhh #my art #sona art #there is absolutely no reason for this redesign. nope. definitely. #nothing going on here #GOD I AM CONSTANTLY UNHAPPY WITH MY SONA DESIGNS #HOPEFULLY THIS ONE WILL STICK AKJFHAKJF

[winepresswrath]

I do gotta say tho, even tho I’m mad at aziraphale because he’s being a terrible boyfriend like what you said about the “I forgive you like” because WHAT. But also I really like the way the show really demonstrates the underlying cruelty of heaven and it’s angels. Really shows the hypocrisy of a group of beings who are supposed to do good, especially aziraphale who really buys into the heaven propaganda, who hurts people, particularly the person who means the most to him. Because like you said he fully just takes advantage of that devotion Crowley has for him. Insane, this shwo makes me INSANE

I missed this anon and yeah! The angels were one of my favourite parts of the season, and I think the strongest element aside from Neil Gaiman deciding he's just a simple man who wants to put his otp in situations. They are deeply awful and I kind of love them. They are the exact kind of moralizing hypocrites who are callous and cruel precisely because they think being on team good means everything they do is justified and it's actually impossible for them to be in the wrong (they're angels! is it even possible for them to do the wrong thing?).

but!! To me, they also seem like they're basically kids? Obviously they're not literally children, but there is this very consistent reoccurring joke about how childish/sheltered/immature they are. Muriel is the most obvious example, but the archangels come off like bratty twelve year olds to her sweet little kid.

Gabriel is basically teenager in love flipping off his family as he runs away with his backstreet guy. Uriel is constantly picking at Michael, Michael is playing at being in charge like it's a game, and it's ridiculously easy for both Aziraphale and Crowely to trick them obvious half assed lies. They're not allowed to ask questions! The Metatron treats them like badly behaved kids out past their curfew. At any point an old man with a beard may pop up to scold them and send them home, and they're all scared of doing something wrong by his standards and getting in trouble with this guy who is pointedly not God but who lines up exactly with the pop-culture idea of god the father, and who offers Aziraphale, among other things, a respite from the hard work of figuring out what the right thing to do is for himself. It's fine! You don't have to question the belief system you were born into or make a painful break with everything you've ever known! Aziraphale has had six thousand years on earth to grow up, but the other angels have been sitting in a sterile white box playing "i'm not touching you" games with each other and filing paperwork.

And I think that's extra interesting because this season also really emphasizes:

Heaven has Institutional Problems

Aziraphale isn't the only angel who's unhappy in heaven. Gabriel and Muriel were both completely miserable. They just didn't understand that they were unhappy because they'd never experienced anything else.

Angels who aren't Aziraphale can change and grow! There's very explicitly Gabriel being changed by love and Muriel growing up a bit on earth, and from a more fan-theory angle there's also Jimbriel, who I think is probably basically Gabriel minus the war and six thousand years of playing referee for Michael and Uriel while unleashing an assortment of plague and calamities on earth because that's God's will! Buck up champ.

We also get Gabriel and Beezelebub talking about how their underlings basically live for Armageddon, "if you can call that living." This is so bleak. They've all been on a six thousand year time out just dreaming of the day they get to beat the shit out of each other until they feel better, but it won't work because eternity is just more of the box.

Anyway I think it's going in a distinctly eden adjacent direction. Aziraphale is going to tempt those angels with knowledge and the capacity for change. I have veered so far from your ask anon i'm sorry you're right heaven really went all out on sucking this season & while Crowley and Aziraphale are both fucking it up Crowley refrains from being spectacularly cruel to Aziraphale about it and Aziraphale should learn to return the favour. I forgive you!! I forGIVE you. I forgive YOU. "you can be an angel again" is actually a worse thing to say than "you're a demon. i don't even like you." when he finally picks crowley over heaven i'm going to lose my mind.

#good omens spoilers #good omens season two spoilers #idk it makes me sad that i didn't like the humans very much this season because i think ideally they're central to this whole how to be #a person question i also hope we get to see more of hell next season because i do think they're stuck in basically the same place #with a different aesthetic! and the stick being #thrown into a torture pit instead of thrown into hell #or like. mindwiped and locked in an office for all eternity #gabriel broke my heart which is embarrassing but when he goes from not even understanding what music is to experiencing #the simple pleasure of sharing a song with someone for the very first time and almost immediately hits repeat for eternity... baby. baby bo #i would also like more crowley! this was very much the season of aziraphale #which is fine but i missed him yelling questions at god and the bits where it seemed he really wanted aziraphale's opinion instead of just #wanting aziraphale to develop better opinions #next season had better be crowley wrestles with the universe i am telling you!!! #remember three months ago when i was like eh... another good omens season #i bet it'll be cute but i'm content with my book #i don't go here i said strapping on my clown shoes #seriously though i do think crowley is scared to admit to wanting to be good both because god rejected him and he doesn't want #to be a sucker for her (he is only interested in being a sucker for aziraphale) #and like. chase after something he's barred from and has already been told isn't for him. #and that's why it's so hard for him to admit even to himself that he too would be unhappy ditching earth #in ways that parallel aziraphale's unwillingness to let go of heaven as a source of moral authority and goodness #but the way aziraphale goes oh no! i cannot trust my own judgement and desires. They are suspect! #my judgement is that crowley is good and also funny and sexy. my desires are for his company and also his body #therefore the source of these desires is also maybe bad. i mean he's a demon. he's got to be bad #right??? but no. but i saw him do a good thing. but maybe i didn't? I should probably take a stance on this. #and he makes this crowley's problem until the apocalypse but then the second he gets the chance to cram crowley and his feelings for him #back in a heaven approved box he jumps at it in a way that requires just being WILDLY insensitive and dismissive of crowley's feelings #he's not just being a dick about their relationship he is being a dick about crowley as a person. and he should know better but is choosing #not to because he wants the easy out so badly. anyway i love him he was my favourite character all season no notes #good omens

[sakuchangbin]

Come Alive, Magic Man.

#jackson #jackson wang #got7 #team wang #my gifs #ksoloists #dwaekkibinnie gifs #side note these took me way too long and i redid them like 3 times and deleted some that I wanted to add but they kept looking like shit #so here I am just posting them already still unhappy but its fine

[kineticallyanywhere]

[more under the cut!]

Monkey’s Paw pages 101-106 ( START HERE || ao3 || previous || next )

AU after episode 62. The Omega Dads try a more desperate gambit, but careful what you wish for. Our dads find alternate versions of themselves in a strange dreamscape. Do you trust yourself?

hey

THAT’S RIGHT IT’S BEEN AN EVIL HENRY AU THIS WHOLE TIME

anyway so this brings us to what has become the end of part 1??? this got so out of hand. MIGHT be a 3 part scenario here, but this is almost certainly the longest, or at least densest. the proverbial crap hits the proverbial fan from here on out and action tends to take up way more page space. as I figure THAT new pacing scenario out, among other things, Monkey’s Paw will be taking a break. Until probably November. Why November? well in November I’ll have finished my last teacher certification test. until then, I need to force myself to put some things to the side in order to not burn the candle quite so quickly. I don’t want any of my future-paying work or currently-paying side-hustle work to suffer, and thus also for this to suffer. There’s quite a bit of logistics for part 2 that need to be planned well in advance of it showing up on a page and that takes Time.

I didn’t even expect for this to go this far when I started. from the jump I’ve been working on the ethos of I’m Making This For Me, and while that’s still true I’m so incredibly grateful for all the response this comic has gotten!! I’m truly blown away by all the support and avid readers and commenters, you make my heart grow so so so big <3 Making this has been super fun as a fan but also an incredible confidence- and skill-builder for making That Original Comic That I’ll Get To Eventually Don’t Worry About It.

Between now and November, be on the lookout for a “chapter 2 cover art”, where I’ll give a progress update on part 2 and also (hopefully!) a link to where you can download a pdf copy of part 1! No promises, but that pdf version may have some redrawn panels or re-arranged pages, because any artist who’s ever told you they nailed every thing they’ve made on the first go is a liar. No changes to the plot, just in presentation.

Anyway! Thank you all again, so much, for reading! (and I don’t wanna draw any undue attention to anyone who doesn’t want it but to the person who spotted the red flags on Hen like 50 pages ago?? I am delicately holding your face and kissing you on the forehead you know who you are )

#dndads #monkeys paw #kineticallyart #i wrote a whole essay up there what am i supposed to say down here #uuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #im so tempted to tell you the pages im unhappy with but i gotta not do that for The Esteem and The Illusion so uuuuhhhh #the last page is the one that i literally rubbed my hands together like a gremlin before sketching #yes the sword missed Henrys heart because Ron shoved him just far enough for it to miss #oh! I also want to share the drawings that sparked this au and the original thought I had that sparked those drawings #its evolved quite a bit since then #i want to open up for just q and a asks for the comic #at a specific point if not just #right now #feel free to send me questions! #now that the full premise is out there I'd love to TALK #ive been wokring on this for liek a FULL YEAR at this point wtheck #s1 was not over when I started this #what on earth happened here #I WILL STILL POST DNDADS STUFF #if anything i'll probably be making more s2 art now #i have a bout 6 million larks in my brain #see you guys later! #WAIT ANOTHER THING #anyone who can decrypt my alphabet for druidic gets a free monkeys paw drawing #drops this and goes imediatly to bed

[thepoisonroom]

kinda realizing that it was maybe bad for me that i spent so long dating someone who fundamentally looked down on me and treated me like i was too silly and irresponsible and fucked in the head to make my own decisions

#remembering i tried to break up with my ex bc i was desperately unhappy and lonely with them #and they just shut down the conversation and disparaged me for 'making everything into a big production for no reason' #only to dump me a few weeks later #like they didn't even respect me enough to permit me to end the relationship because they fundamentally didn't think of me as an equal #i feel so insane sometimes in my current relationship because i'm like oh you're literally going to respect my autonomy right now? #you're going to treat me like an equal partner and respect my right to want and feel and need different things than you do????? #and then i have to be like that's literally regular behavior why am i so impressed by it #personal nonsense #it's so weird having good interpersonal relationships and just being constantly reminded of how bad previous ones were #but that's how it works i guess #backdraft city here