#Didn’t know what on so window time

[kijoou]

Alright! Com.Miley! Yyaaaayyyyyyyayauahuhuaa!!! So she is another higher up just like Nao, she mostly monitors the dark web and interferes whenever a virus does something she doesn’t want to happen. She can see through any program eyes, but only 2 at a time… she likes her tea cold and sweet. ( sorry Miley fans 😔 ). If I explain her other abilities I might confuse you guys, so it’s best if I just draw it. ( SAME GOES TO NAO )

Ah alright there are other higher ups, like Midori! ( as you can guess he does abuse his power but this isn’t about him ) and ????? … ahhhh… weird, they don’t exist? Nevermind then!

I wish I can get the immediate concept for a character then I can just draw them all in like one go… luckily, I don’t have to do anything to S- SOU! COUGH!! ( plz bear with me cuz I am going to call him Sou Hiyori for the whole time when mentioning him, My instagram peeps don’t know Yttd! also as crazy as I may sound, I don’t want my AU to spoil anything from the source material… ). alright good night…

#alternate universe #your turn to die #yttd #your turn to die au #yttd au #au #miley yttd #yttd miley #AAHHHHHHHHHHH #Why do I insist on colouring in the most difficult way possible #Lasso tool forever #Ahh right I should put my writing rule… #I’m sorry my brain said she should just sit #Didn’t know what on so window time #Hehe yeaaaaaah! 👍 #[ computer au ]

[weenhands]

i hang out with robin tomorrow

#we’re going to a sex shop tomorrow and last time we went window shopping we’re gonna actually buy stuff #so. i know what im buying. considering i didn’t get my boyfriend in 2023.

[dashiellqvverty]

didn’t think i’d find a “i’m truly horrified by the fact that someone is okay with not just writing but publicly posting this” fic in the fucking. r/oyjam/ie tedlasso tag of all things but here we are. i genuinely feel a little fucking sick over it.

#hadn’t pre-filtered the tags that would’ve blocked it bc i guess i didn’t think i HAD to #so uh warning for cp/csa mention and i’m not gonna get specific about what the fic was #but like seriously don’t read my tags if you don’t want to know anything about it #but uh. i think the ‘it’s not real’ excuse flies out the window when you are talking about a live action child character #played by a young child actor. like. that’s a real child as far as i’m concerned. #i’m not okay with it when it’s cartoons either but like i can at least see where ppl are coming from when they justify themselves. #even if i think it’s bullshit #idk man this might be the first time i’ve encountered this specific kind of thing and i truly feel sick. fucking tedlasso of all things. #r.txt #sorry if i’m betraying the queer community by not being okay with ~freaks~ but i feel like this is a reasonable line to draw. personally.

[goldkirk]

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#i have just been informed that the man sitting in the car with the window down and no music and not shopping at the 24 hour pharmacy was uhh #(since he asked me to come with him for the night n stuff not bc he was just sitting there) #(idk he called me over for something and then propositioned me when I only came just close enough to hear bc I’m not stupid and it’s 2 am #and I only came for chocolate bc I’m upset) #ANYWAY I have just been informed that that’s actually a ‘report to security’ situation #so now I and you both know for future reference #I’m familiar with a lot of danger things but #I was taught the whole secular world is just Like That so my family gave me no practical warnings about #what’s normal weird vs Maybe It’s Human Trafficking or whatever #shh katie #anyway #time to sit with that for a while and maybe make art about it #now it makes more sense how thrown he seemed by me just being like ‘no’ and not even reacting #I didn’t even bother being surprised so he couldn’t get me with interest and he couldn’t get me by getting me off-balance and in a fawning #type of conversation #it was a ‘this night as well happen I’m not surprised’ dayd #*days #and I just blank faced it and speed-marched off #anyway nice to know that for the future

[thatone-churro]

y’know just as soon as i start getting comfortable with the idea of being open/relying on my dad and him being more comfortable with my choices than i feared, i can essentially throw all that out the window with how vehemently he yelled at me at the thought of my getting my septum pierced (even though i never said i was yet. i said my side before i decide anything else). also making underhanded remarks of me never getting tattoos other than the one for my mom. like okay don’t ask me why i don’t tell you about anything or talk to you or anything. what the fuck.

#‘i love you no matter what’ and ‘you’re an adult and as long as your choices make you happy’ out the window i guess. #are we too sober for those statements to apply all of a sudden? #and again i didn’t even say i was getting it any time soon. i said my sister wants to take me to get my first non-ear piercing. #she’s getting hers repierced & i want to get my side. #and then he started going off on me for it for no reason. and brought up the one tattoo i want to get for my mom. #and THEN made an off handed remark of a similar vein about dyed hair. #i hope he knows he’s literally the only reason i don’t have piercings or tattoos or dyed hair or like anything that lets me look how i wanna #like deadass. i know i’m your ‘baby.’ but can i please actually embrace myself. i don’t care if you don’t like alt culture. i do. #he would shun the girls i crush on fr like oh my god. #like if he knew what i really wanted to look like i think he’d disown me. won’t even have to bring up my funky relationship with gender. #literally as soon as i start thinking i can be open with this man he pulls this shit and then asks why i’m slowly getting more distant. #like wow it’s almost like i’ve been regulated and raised according to what you want and not what i want. #and you wonder why my sisters (especially my oldest who has a lot of piercings & tattoos like i want) aren’t close either? isn’t that wild? #how we never got much of a chance to explore this without reprimand until we were moved out? even as legal adults? #absolutely WILD correlation there i wonder if the causation lines up here pa. what the fuck. #anyway i’m gonna go now and not cry because my roommates are home but i’m gonna go sulk because i’m sick of this ✌️ #oh wait convenient that the showdog poem went up tonight too isn’t that crazy. man calls himself out so hard lol #grace being stupid #text post #personal

[jiseok]

i swear some people only became professors for the power trip n not bc they actually want to help people learn

#gom.txt #bc why was i dropped from one of my classes for my grade which is only low bc i missed the exam #bc the professor didn’t even make it visible until the day of and i check assignments the day before #and i didn’t know about the course commitment policy #so i tried emailing the guy being as respectful n apologetic as i can bc i actually like the class in terms of what we’re learning #n he just doubles down on me missing the window to consult with him when he didn’t even send anything until yesterday l #and he sent it to my school email instead of directly on canvas so i didn’t see shit til my advisor contacted me abt it #like shouldn’t a professor jump at the fact that a student is desperate to be a part of the course they’re teaching #and there’s a one week window for him to recind it and put me back in the class but he just full on refuses #like now i’ve got a penalty withdrawal on my permanent record #the only upside is i was taking 5 classes so i’m still a full time student with 4/ 12 credits #but i’ll have to take summer courses to stay on track for spring 2025 graduation #this whole thing pissed me off and made me cry a little #anyways feel free to join me in sending dr. cornelison the second bad vibes #my advisor was very kind and patient abt it tho i would have had a meltdown without her #this is getting to long let me eat and then take this fuck ass exam #icb i thought statistics would be my problem class

[rosesradio]

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#something happened irl that made me Not Have a Good Time rn #basically i didn’t get some stuff i need for school so now i have a short window in the morning on Monday so that’ll be stressful #i’ve had so much time but i procrastinated and lost track of time & i just feel like shit about it #& like it’s not the end of the world like worst comes to worst I’ll be a bit late for my first class which i’m sure plenty of students will #but i was already upset and my mom basically said ‘well you do this kinda thing all the time so i can’t say i’m disappointed’ #i’ve really tried to be better though i just feel like my hardest is everyone else’s easy mode #and i know this is dark but i just feel like…i’m not worth the resources used to maintain myself you know? #like food and electricity and water and materials and my overwhelming tuition for college amongst everything #and what do i even give back in return? cross stitching? some mid fanfic smut that 13 year olds read on wattpad? #it’d be so much better if my resources could be used for like an aspiring doctor or someone who makes something worthwhile #i don’t feel this way about anyone else btw just me. obviously #i just don’t know where to go from here i’m sick of my brain #tw vent #to delete later

[whatohitsonfirewelp]

Okay so here’s the thing

I still don’t understand why the house is so dangerous for Steve specifically

#like if Nell were still alive it would be her and Steve but with her dead it’s Steve #but Why #like is it cause he was able to see things so clearly #as if it was part of the normal life #like how his red room was connected to the house in a different way #like okay that little stand thingy #like it was something from the house already and so was all that other furniture #but it’s Only in His red room #(also him being the only one to see the mold in there beforehand) #or is it because of the book #like the House somehow Knows and is Angry or something #because listen #every time Steve saw something he was neve Surprised #like okay when he saw his mom through the window at the clinic place or whatever #he seemed shocked but more in a this hasn’t happened in years then a what the fuck what the fuck #(although this is more of a personal hc since it’s not canon) #whatoh back at it again #the hauting of hill house #steven crain #edit: just realized I didn’t post this until I opened up the posting thing right now

[pinkfey]

men are so scary :(

#i caught a guy staring at the house just now #i don’t know if it’s the same man who walked onto the property that one time? #but yeah i went to take the trash out and saw him standing there facing away from the house. after a sec he walked across the street #and when i came back to bring the recyclables out he was back on this side of the street #staring directly at the playroom window #for like a good while #and when he noticed me he walked down a bit towards where some bushes concealed him #real casual #it’s fucking weird and now i’m paranoid #he was holding a red bag over his shoulder and didn’t acknowledge me once #i’ve made sure everything is locked and i’m checking every window and their dog is very skittish so i’d know if someone approached #it’s just unnerving #not knowing what someone is thinking #i should have said excuse me but i didn’t have my phone with me and got so paranoid over getting back to the house #ugh #anyways.txt

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

So like remember how almost exactly a year ago I said that I wanted to try my hand at Luna nova in vr ?? Yeah well that’s hitting again

#when that spring breeze hits just right I’m like god what if I was standing in my room and had the windows open and explored Luna nova #and I got a valve index #so #all things point to I really wanna do that #last time one: I didn’t start and two: I swear I lived at that job #oh!! and I got a new graphics card!! #obviously I gotta model everything (unfortunately) #if you know how to make Minecraft mods please hit me up #bc. I’d love to make my Cit pack a mod #also I think it would run a Lot better if it was modded vs Cit #but I got a new graphics card also so my pc can take a bit more stress #but like. i wanna share it so everyone can see it you know ?? #i want it to be an experience #Will I actually pull it off? I don’t know there have been a lot of ideas I’ve had that I never follow through #soup talks

[averagemrfox]

Gotta know if the person I saw driving on 360 today with the license plate that said bumblbee is a Bees™️ fan or just likes bees.

#they passed me on my left so they would’ve seen the Blake and yang decals I have on my read window #*rear #I didn’t catch how they spelled it tho by the time my brain registered what it said #I just know it wasn’t the ‘ship way’ #bumblby

[pepprs]

god my throat is raw from yelling / panicking. And part of me is wary wondering if it’ll happen again. omgggg

#purrs #i think i knew it was a false alarm it just didn’t feel real. but what fucked me up is that i couldn’t t honk of what to bring. i knew we #we’re close to an exit so we would be fine and i know you’re not supposed to delay getting out and that the stuff is just stuff. but my #journals and diaries.. like i brought them all here for some new years reflections and i couldn’t bring myself to bring any of them. or my #sketchbook. or my switch or ds with my animal crossing town. idk. i guess smth flashed through my head like so much of what matters to me #is digital now but that’s not fucking true at all. why did i have a hard time deciding and brought nothing when my sketchbook is the most #important thing i have i think bc it’s my scrapbook / diary. it just fucked me ip so bad. now im staring at the ceiling and my throat hurts #and im going to be so tired tomorrow. that was so scary #we didn’t even make it outside bc the alarm stopped before we left the room bc we were scrambling to find coats and masks (lol) and them my #mom called the front desk and they said it was a false alarm. so idk. for those 45 seconds it could’ve been life or death and that’s so much #to think about. everything important went out the window it was just like wtf is even happening rn and my dad said it was a fire and i was l #like how do you know. ugh. that was so scary #like what fucked me up was. all the pieces of me are spread so thin in so many journals and shit that idk which one to bring. i would have t #to take the complete collection. and i can’t do that so i have to leave all of them. that’s the choice i made in that primal moment. it #QUITE LITERALLY does not matter and is not the most important part of this to be worried abt / fucked up over but that really shook me

[terrainofheartfelt]

wait why do they not let opera singers start singing until they’re older???? like i kinda understand the logic with dance/sports - people’s physical abilities do tend to wain as they get older and experience more injuries (although the weigh in thing is absolutely FUCKED, especially for ballet and gymnastics), but i can’t even fathom how being older would necessarily make you a better singer. more experienced probably, but how is a singer supposed to get experience if they can’t work in the field at all before then??? aren’t there any roles for younger people in opera by virtue of the characters they’re singing for??

Hi ty for asking!

I guess I should probably start with a clarification, in opera, you can sing starting in your late teens on, but you are in training for several years, in school, in trade training programs, and so you aren’t professionally singing leading roles at the top of the marquee until your 30s at LEAST. So there’s multiple reasons for that — and bear with me because it’s been like 6 years since my pedagogy class, but the main reason one can’t typically jump from getting their bachelors straight into professional mainstage classical singing is that the voice is like, the last thing to complete aging in your body. You know how your frontal lobe doesn’t finish developing until you’re in your mid20s? It’s the same with your voice.

So your vocal folds—the bit of anatomy in your larynx where the magic happens—is legit an incredible piece of engineering, it’s folds (the colloquial term is chords, but folds is more accurate) of tissue, that, when you speak and sing, kind of…flap, oscillate together at high-frequency—that’s where the sound comes from, and with singing, it’s at a much higher intensity than speaking. And before the voice finishes aging, those folds are — for lack of a better term — soft, and pliable, and highly subject to injury.

Sidebar: That’s why if you ask any classically trained singer about those tv reality talent show children that “sing opera” they get incensed, because physiologically speaking, that kid is shredding their voice by forcing it to do something it anatomically can’t yet. It’s NOT impressive, it’s destructive.

Another sidebar: there’s a video out there somewhere of Steve Tyler from Aerosmith singing with a scope in his throat so you can see his folds vibrating and it’s fucking GNARLY. singing is intense. He’s awesome.

In your mid20s, those folds ossify into sturdier cartilage, which means the voice is hardier and has more stamina and strength.

So, knowing all that: classical singing is hard. It’s ATHLETIC. It burns calories! my old voice teacher used to say. It takes lots of breath control, lots of practice, and years building up healthy technique — technique that prevents injury and fatigue.

And, this is opera we’re talking about. There’s no amplification. No microphones. A voice has to be heard over an entire orchestra, you need training and stamina to make that happen. So it takes 4 years of training, but practically 6, bc most gigs won’t even look at you without a masters. And even then, you might be benched for awhile.

And it’s also all on a spectrum too, depending on the range and size of a voice (and different voice types are suited to different musical eras and roles) like higher, smaller voices mature in less time and are therefore hire-able in less time. Like, that post was a joke, but they were pretty accurate, dramatic baritones and basses are not taken seriously at all really until at least they’re 30s, and are probs not debuting until their 40s. Me, I’m on that end of the spectrum, my voice is low, and big. The analogy my teacher used was “Mac truck” my technique lessons were about “learning to drive the mac truck.” So I knew from the get go that it was gonna take my voice a WHILE to finish cooking. My coach told me once that one day after I turn 25, everything will magically be easier (vocal technique wise). But then I turned 25 in the middle of a pandemic and had been decidedly Not Singing for several months…so. Though, that Christmas when I had to sing in church, it felt real good. Better than I had anticipated…

Another sidebar: and singing is so so so much more personal than any other kind of music making, because you are the instrument, the instrument is in you, and it’s organic, and no other type of musician has to reckon with that kind of intimacy and change. You don’t have people sitting around waiting for their oboe to ripen. (Not to diminish the hard work instrumentalists put in like damn I wish I’d stuck it out with piano maybe I’d be happier)

So, there’s a real reason for it, but, there’s also a lot of pearl-clutching in the business about what young voices and young, dramatic voices (that’s what I have, a dramatic voice) should and shouldn’t do. And there’s several conceits of the business that are, to put it simply, absolutely fucked. Like, you do your six years of school, but if you go straight through, then you’re still 23, and unless you’re a perfect tiny Mozart soubrette, you’re not really finished cooking. The bridge between school and singing grown up lead roles is supposed to be apprenticeships, but those are so Fucked. They’ve become less about hiring quality singers and training them—hiring voices with potential and giving them lessons and concert performances and letting them learn roles without the strain of performing on a huge stage with an orchestra—and more about hiring cheap labor to round out casts by throwing them bit parts, small roles that only have a few lines here and there—those are the roles for younger people you asked about. Comprimario is the industry term. But companies are only hiring people they know they cam put on a stage immediately, there’s no interest in training anymore, so smaller voices are fine working that way, but a girl like me gets nowhere. I did an audition for a company where I’d worked before and had a great relationship with all the people, and when I walked out the door—after absolutely crushing it—one of them said “that was great. it’s a shame we have nothing to give her.” (I know this because the person they were talking to is my best friend). and that’s not even getting into the fucking extortion that is pay to sings and application fees and audition fees. One’s only hope as a young dramatic voice in the apprenticeship world, really, is to either go to Germany—where they are much less pearl clutchey about age—or land where there’s a director or conductor who cares enough about your potential to keep hiring you, even if they can’t “use” you in their season. And at this point in time, I got neither of those.

So, with all that, the question is: is opera even worth it? And tbh the pandemic answered that question for me before I could, but…fuck, somedays (like now since I’m writing this ask about it) I miss it. Like, it feels like a part of myself is missing from me. Because damn, there’s nothing like it, singing. Not even the full shebang with orchestras and costumes but just singing arias in my best friends’ living room while we’re drunk on two buck chuck…there’s nothing like it. 

tldr: it’s a combination of a real, physiological reason, combined with the fact that the industry is fucked, and said industry has cards stacked against people who aren’t socio-economically capable of waiting for their voice to age.

#on today’s episode of liz was a music major and is gonna make it everyone’s problem #i hope that answers your question? I tried to paint with a broad brush but I know too much so if it got too jargony I apologize #bestie I’ll be real: it’s hard out there #i did library school to kill time and be able to sort of keep my toes in the water #and then a global pandemic happened. and all my planning flew out the window. #and…even though there’s no weighins perse. opera is hella fatphobic #personally I blame when they started streaming opera into movie theaters #which ROCKS don’t get me wrong #but now it’s like #companies are casting based on what it’ll look like onscreen. which is fucked #but yeah I’ve had conversations where directors straight up told me to my face that my size was an issue #and was why I didn’t get a role or that companies wouldn’t hire me because of it #it’s all. it’s all fucked. #and now I’m trying to redefine what I want my relationship with singing to look liek #because I miss the music. FUCK do I miss the music. but I don’t miss the psychological warfare that is the young artist industry #asks #anon

[thegreatestheaver]

still reeling from an awful hallucination I had last night at like 5am what the fuck was that

#eye dee kay hallucinations aren’t new but they’re always small and annoying typically #the scariest thing is when I hallucinate my phone ringing but it’s not actually ringing #but this was literally on a whole other level dawg #uhghghghghhh #I’m extremely paranoid abt just. someone hurting me. like. all the time #it used to be really bad I used to sit at my windows and just. watch. them for hours incase someone tried to break in and hurt me it was bad #I still get really bad about it especially in public but carrying a knife helps a little bit whatever #my ex always used to threaten to tell my mom about my issues (he had her phone number) right #basically. I hallucinated that him (and some other girl I know. she wasn’t related so idk why she was there) cut a whole in . #the screen of the window that I look out of the most when I’m losing my mind paranoid . #I also get really paranoid often about leaving things unlocked. the fear of accidentally leaving thing unlocked terrorizes me on the daily #so I accidentally left a window open. not a good start #then they cut a hole in the screen door n were about to come in my room and um. kill me #anyways yeah he was about to climb in my window and I was freaked out but I have. a knife on me almost 24/7 so I threatened him out to leave #I tbink i was also in some type of paralysis idk it’s rare but it’s happened sometimes. with the hallucinations. #he left eventually and then I could move again and ofc I didn’t actually move I was in my bed because it was 5am #um. I don’t wanna say I’m scared of my ex but. I’m kinda scared of him. like. irl. he’s really tall. and really strong #and could kill me . um #I Cut him off a while ago but he still knows my address and now I’m paranoid about that yay !!! #bleh #I wish I was still asleep but uhghgh activities #I already told my best friend abo ut it since I tell her Everything but oh my god #what the hell #I thought I was getting better ☹️ the main phone call hallucinations I had were becoming less and less #uhg

[chaoswithcausation]

I have the self-control of a fucking pro :)

#these girls in my debate class were being such absolute BITCHES today #but I behaved myself perfectly :)))) I held my tongue for the time being #p sure one of them tried to talk to the teacher after class to get me kicked out (won’t happen. teacher’s cool.) when I DIDN’T DO SHIT #like genuinely that was their entire issue with me. I have schedule conflicts in the spring semester which make it so I dont have to compet #and they got all pissy over it today #ngl I kinda hope they try to start shit again tomorrow bc either A) I can tell them to stay in their fuckin lane (& out-debate them too >:] #or B) the teacher’s going to shut them the fuck down #I’m kinda pissed if you couldn’t tell :D #like. I do nothing to these girls and they get all mad at ME? absolutely not #I’m pretty chill in general. I do not get angry often. I make an effort to show people basic respect and decency #but I will NEVER take their shit #if you choose to throw manners and decorum out the window that is on YOU #and I take no responsibility for if you’re too sensitive to take what you’re trying to dish out #do no harm but take no shit #I am (supposedly. I honestly think my grandma’s got me beat but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) the most gentle-hearted person in my family #this is like being the tallest dwarf #my mom (ESPECIALLY my mom) and my sister have some fucking teeth #I am so fucking worked up over this #but also I can literally set it aside in a heartbeat (particularly since I KNOW these petty bitches don’t have the maturity to) #like. In the end I’m only willing to give them a certain amount of my energy #and they are rapidly expending their share #I’ll have so much more fun pissing them off by not giving a shit about their opinions (which I already don’t. I’ve just got to #put a stop to the bullshit first) #wowzas that was a lot of swear words #okay! time to be normal again :] #I’m gonna go read some cute fluffy gay shit 😊 <3 #casey’s causing chaos #uhm. is this a vent? idk… #I mean I feel very in control of the situation. And I think it’s more of a rant??? #vent ig

[daydreamerdrew]

New Avengers: The Reunion (2009) #1

#this made me think of Bucky and Natasha’s relationship #obviously both of them had the experience of being brainwashed #but Natasha was never frozen like Bucky was- so despite having been born around the same time #she’s actually lived significantly longer than he has #we see them get back together on the basis of their past and the fact that they both remember it #but they don’t quite jump into the relationship #the first time Natasha kisses him in this second chance they’ve gotten is after they’ve been working as partners for a little bit #so they’ve gotten to know each other again as who they are in the modern day #it’s notable to me that Bucky and Natasha’s first relationship happened relatively early on in Bucky’s career as the Winter Soldier #before he’d really been frozen and unfrozen that much #they have this history that is significant but it’s really in a brief window in both of their respective times as controlled soldiers #they didn’t actually experience personally the majority of what each other went through #and when they get back together in the modern neither of them are the same person they were when they first were together #inherently- due to the amount of time that they were separated and all that they experienced in that time #also I don’t think Natasha would ever be dismissive of Bucky’s experience #because of the time that he spent frozen and not actively feeling guilty #the way that Clint is in these panels here #how mature Bucky is here makes me think that off-panel Natasha and Bucky actually had serious direct conversations about this stuff #it is unfortunate to me that we didn't get to see them hashing stuff out on-panel #marvel #clint barton #bucky barnes #my posts #comic panels